346: Zane Finally Opens Up About His Parents' Divorce

- Alrighty, baby. Everybody strapped. Everybody in. Everybody ready to record the best episode in the world? - Baby, we are good to go. I'm so pumped for this episode. - Can't wait to start this, baby. - Dang. We got some good energy in the room. - Energy is really electric. Oh my God. - Feels good. It feels good recording with you guys today. - Good to be in the room. You know, I'm really excited to be recording again. - How's everyone doing? - I've been great. I had a long flight. I had the best trip in the world. I can't talk about the trip today, but I'm definitely going to talk about it next episode though. But jet lag did all, jet lag. Are you feeling a little loopy from that long flight? - Kooky, a little crazy, something going on. - Loopy kind of, yeah, a little loco. - Morso actually relax because when I'm out of town, that's when my jet lag hits me, but when I come back home, usually it levels out. It's really nice. When I come home, I wake up early, early in the morning, every day, I love coming back home. It's like the best for me. - No, it doesn't sound so bad. - Oh, that reminds me. I am actually flying out to see you guys in two days. - Perfect question. When you come into town, heathen the next couple days. Are you staying with me? Are you staying with Remi? Because I would like for you to stay with me because I can't stay at Remi's. - Remi's house does sound nice though. - Like, I take advantage of that if I were you. - Stop. Kooky, don't put me on the spot like that. You know, obviously, I want to stay with you, but Remi, she got that palace, you know what I mean? - Take the opportunity to stay in the palace, especially with the dogs there, the dogs, the hot tub, the pool, understandable, baby. You know what? I understand that. I get it. Her house is 10,000 times better than mine. Her AC is running through every room and my guest house, I get it. It's like teeny tiny thing and I know you want a bigger space. - Very nice movie theater. Her setup, like that little like back step, like the popcorn machine, all of that would love to get the invite. Remi or Cal to see that movie theater. - Would you stay with Remi if you had the opportunity? - X rated content on that screen would be epic. - You know what, Jared? You're absolutely right. But you know what? I think it's time to roll this intro. - Zip it. Zip it. Let's run the intro. - Wow. Very good. - Awesome. It's comfortable, baby. Let's hit it. (funky music) - Hey, yeah. Welcome back to Zayn Heath, I'm filtered. I'm your host, Zane. - I'm Heath. - I'm Matt. - And I'm Jared. - And thank you again for coming here when you could be anywhere else. You could be anywhere else. I feel like I'm still playing. You could be anywhere else but you're here. - So I'm so curious for our listeners, for our viewers. If you notice like our intro, baby sounded a little off or into it. - No, not the intro. The intro before the intro. - Yeah, the intro before the intro. - Yeah. I want to know when people caught on. - I don't think anybody will catch that. It's so tough, especially the way Jared, I'm sure, edited that. I'm sure he's going to edit it so smoothly. But if you left it raw, people were going to be like, - Us taking like 10 seconds to think about raw. - We were sitting there like having to go through the whole alpha ABC. - So yeah, tell the people what we basically just did. - We pretty much did that trend where it's called like ABC improv. So you start with A, next person starts their sentence with B, next C, next Z, and we kept going until we hit the intro. And I don't know. We're just getting a little crazy today. You know, we're here with a bunch of movie moods. - Side quest, a bunch of just like, you're never going to know what's coming. You'll never know what's coming with unfiltered. And that's how we like to run this show, baby. - You know what my favorite game to play is? It's really stupid and it's obnoxiously long. But I'm going on a picnic and I'm bringing apples. I'm going on a picnic. I'm bringing apples and bananas. I'm going on a picnic and I'm bringing apples, bananas, and care. Like, and you just kind of like, - Oh, yes. I'm going, you have to remember that. - Yeah, you have to remember everybody's previous one before you say yours. And it gets really confusing. Like halfway through, you're trying to remember what everybody said for their letter. - We actually just played a game like that in Croatia when we went. And I feel like you would know this game. It's called, what's the name of the game? Jump or something like that. It's like, and why do we play this game? To get fucked up. And then clap, tap, tap, then do your sign. So everybody has like a certain sign. It's in whatever you want, but it's a nonverbal sign. And then it's like the next person goes, or you point it, you point it, whoever's next, then they come up with, they do their sign. And then they point it. But it's like a, it's like a signal. You don't you have to do their sign for them to pick it off. - Yes, yeah. So like if you start, you point at me right after you do your sign. I have to do your sign. And then I got to do my sign. And then I point to the next person. And then they have to do my sign. Then they're assigned to the next person. And it goes around and around until, and then people like, if you fuck up, then they get, - Yeah. - Booted out and then it goes. - It's like, - Big booty. Like, or if you want a big booty. - No. - It's a big booty. It's like a summer camp game. You go, all right, big booty, big booty, big booty. Oh yeah, big booty. Now everybody has a number. So like Jared could be like number four. And I'd be like, big booty number four. And then you go number four, number three. And then that's Heath. And then he'd be like number, number three, number two. And so you say your number and then you say another number. And that person has to be listening. And you just keep going until someone fucks it up. - I wonder if that game is easier than the nonverbal one. Because it's definitely like, it was everybody's signs. We're so just out of pocket. - We're getting these, we're getting these, we're getting these. - It was fun, but we're playing that. It was like a drinking game. And we were like, when we played this game, it was fucking awesome. Because we were on this like tiny, tiny island where we like docked at. And we were the old ones on this island. And they had like a little shack where this guy just worked at serving drinks. But we were the only ones on this tiny, tiny little, like Heath, I mean tiny little island. Like the island was probably as big as like, like five of these studios. - Wow, it's a core memory now. Like I'll never forget that moment. - Did you see anything weird on this island? - No kids, just us. - Nope, I didn't see it. No blue stripes anywhere. - No creepy men. - What are y'all talking about? - Oh, yes. - Okay, you know, just a nice little obscene joke in this, just to start that. - I was like, what are y'all referencing? - What is your favorite drinking game? - And what is your least favorite drinking game? - Okay, okay, I have mine. - Okay. - What is it? - I think it's called Ring of Fire. It's where everybody's in a circle around the table. And then you have to like do the ping pong ball into the cup and then you give it to the next person. And then it always goes to the right, but then you stack the person or you get smacked away. - Yeah, rage cage. - That's what I was going to say. - Rage cage. - That's your favorite. - I love rage. - It's my favorite. - It's fucking hated. - Really? - Because you always end up drinking way more than you think. And there's always, isn't there a nasty cup usually in the beginning? - Yeah, yeah. It's filled to the top. - It's just like, yes. But the thing is that it's only fun when everybody plays it properly. You know when it starts getting real messy and people aren't playing it right? That's like when it gets super annoying. Like I'm the guy that's just like, all right, let's start over. Like you just boot people out there or not playing it properly. - But that game you always gotta be paying attention though, too, because you can come right to you. - You don't get that moment of like breathing and be like, hey, so how are you? That sounds so great. I had it. The next thing you know, you're like, fuck me. And then the cups get so high and you're trying to bounce that ball just to get into it and then it falls over and then it's just a fucking mess. - I suck at, but I love it. I just wish I was better at it. It's that game where it's like four beers on each corner. - Beer die. - Beer die. He's going on the table and I just, I suck at it. I suck at fucking getting that dice on the table and I suck at catching it. If I was good at it. - Something addicting about it. Beer die is huge these days. That wasn't popular when I was in college, but I feel like rats and stuff like everyone's playing fucking beer die. 'Cause it's a game you gotta like practice to be good at. You know what I mean? - And it's not what we're anyone to participate. - It's a great game for the beach. 'Cause that was the first time I played it. It was on the beach. - I feel like you would lose that die in a second, right? - Yeah, right. - No, not really. Because think about it, you can like die for the dice. You don't have to, you're not hurting yourself. - It takes one accident like push into the sand and then it's gone. - You know, like. - Yeah, but we gotta also-- - You gotta deal with the stack of 'em. - Yeah, back with a ton of dice, but yeah, or die. - Die. - But like, it's also such a man game too. Like, I don't think I've ever seen girls playing beer die, but they'll overstack too, women who play beer die. I just think you guys need more representation and more inclusion in the female community with beer die. - But you know, I love just the old fashioned beer pong too. I think it's timeless. I think it's perfect for all ages. I've seen all ages play that game from literally-- - Literally taggers. - Oh, that is. - Yeah. - Toddlers can even play. They can play with their fucking apple juice. There's to be, like, it's such a perfect game for everybody. - You gotta play the classic at a table, like normal. I hate all the beer pong in the pool and you got the little floating triangle. It's like just, no. - Get out of the water if you wanna play. - I also like how much beer pong brings people together too. Like, if there's a party and, I mean, I feel like I've been to a ton of parties where nobody's talking to anybody but their own crew, right? Like, I feel like that happens a lot here in LA. As soon as a beer pong table set up, people start coming to the table. You're watching the game. - Now you're-- - Now you're making friends, you're conversating. What reminded me of how much beer pong brings people together was when Alicia and Remy went to that little event for that show that all the girls are loving. Not right now, but like, it was probably popular a couple months ago. It's called, a surfs up. No, um, surfs up. Oh, it's the other hockey show. It's not he, though. Is it? I think it is. No, it's not. It's the other one. It was, it's the new. Oh, it's like the straight on campus, off campus. Yes. Alicia and Remy went to an off cat campus event, but Alicia didn't know. She doesn't want to show, but Remy did. And I think Remy was doing something in Alicia starts playing beer pong with the whole, like the whole cast, but she didn't know she was playing with the whole cast. And you could tell in the video there, I'm so much fun. And I mean, the video did amazing just because Alicia had no idea who she was playing with. And I remember seeing now, it's just like, they did such a good job bringing that beer pong game into that event because if there was no beer pong, there would be no like videos, right? Or there would just be nothing, nothing viral or nothing like for people to look at you like. Yeah. It always is kind of like a perfect game because it does end up like getting down to one cup versus one cup. Even though like someone can catch a stride that whole time, they're still not nailing the one cup. So the other team catches up and it gets pretty even. People are always watching when it gets to one, one on one, everybody, like everybody in the vicinity is now watching, especially if it's a long game. Everyone's like, you know what? But I hate like a, like a douchey beer pong guy, where I think now we matured out of it. I'm not around those types of dudes. But remember when you're younger, there's just like a dude who's like, I know this, that like, just sinking them in their ego is so big. Yeah. Beer pong is your fallback. Yes. You're kind of a hot. It's all to get one re-rack. Not only the fucking hate when they play like the side fucking bonuses, like the bounces and the fucking. I hate that shit. And they blow or like girls, boy, guys finger. How about we just play the fucking game? Like, bitch, you start bouncing. It's like, oh, you're a loser. You actually take this seriously. Guy, you're trying to get a snake one by me. Oh, you're 20 years old. Got it. Do you ever play troll rules? What is that? So if you play a game of beer pong and you don't make a single cup the entire time, you could still win. But if you didn't make a cup, you have to sit under the table for the entire next game. I was like rushing a frat. I like, I fucking do that. It was the worst. I've never, I've never heard of that. Yeah, troll. You know what? I'm going to be that douchebag next time I see a beer pong table. And I'm, I'm going to be like, this troll, whoever loses has to troll. Yeah. Wait, the whole, the whole table will just say, if you did not make a cup the entire game, you have to sit under the table. The only one I've ever heard of was a skinny dipping one, which I was always my biggest fucking fear. Always my biggest is you have to get skunked. You're supposed to like streak around the house, streak around the house naked. Oh, I've never heard that. You know, and I'm not in, like when I'm playing beer pong, I'm drunk. I'm not in a, I'm not in a moment where my, my dick looks good. No. And now I have to fucking run around and have everybody laugh at me when my penis looks just travelled up. That's not nice. It's not fair. I do love flip cup though. Flip cup, like flip cup is just a clean, good game. And I'm damn good at flip cup. But if someone, though, is bad at flip cup, everyone just gets quiet and it's just looking like Brittany. And then they're like, not even flipping the cup, they're doing it the wrong way. And you're like, no, but you know, it's, it's, it's all nerves, right? If you miss it once, you're going to miss it the rest of the fucking time. It's this weird thing where it's like, you guys are on you. Everybody is like, first flip. It's like that first, like, because once you miss it, you're fucked. And then you look down and align your teammates. I had you were like this. Yeah. Yeah. Kill me. Like you're playing for money or something. It's like this. Just super competitive. And then I'm big about flip cup though. Keep your drink on the fucking table until it's your turn. People who like sit up here and wait till it's their turn and they go for it. It's like, no, the drink has to be on the table when it comes to you. Wait, what do you mean? So flip in their flip and they're flipping. But you're ready position. The cup needs to be on the table. Some people just they nurse it right here. Oh, my turn. Sorry. Sorry. Yeah. Put that cup on the fucking. You know what? I think start you kick people out of the party. That's it. You're gone. That's your. You have to know your home. Yeah. You fucking know who has been called. You're gone. Bye. Well, you know what makes us losers us talking about your pong for the first 20 minutes of this podcast. It's our target audience. I feel like it is everyone's in college right now. You know, guys, can you? I'm so curious. Comment your age because I'm very curious. Like, I don't know if I'm we're seeing 16. We're seeing 18. We're seeing 30 listening and watching this show. I have no idea. Or if you honestly, if you grew with us, you are probably in your mid 30s. Real quick. I got to get it out there. It's a Florida story. It's not. Well, I guess technically it is a Florida man story. I'm glad that that's your like now. That's your homework. It's so fun. It's like, you know that's what you need to bring. There's this guy in Florida that has a restaurant right? And I guess in the past, there was a private event where he had his restaurant rented out. And it was like a nudist group that wanted to come in and just have a fully nude dinner for the restaurant night. This is just a regular restaurant. It's nothing. And this is in Hollywood, Florida. Yeah. It's called class. I believe class steakhouse or something like that. Not very fun. Steakhouse for a. And I guess the guy really he liked the event thought it was a great success. And then he changed the entire restaurant. And now the whole thing is just a fully nude restaurant. What? And I guess I guess there's like like a loophole's to be able to do this because they're closed the windows. And since all of the servers are closed, they're not the entertainment. So it's not like there's like a pushback of like what the place is classified as. It's just the customers get to wait, wait, wait, it's every customer is like, do you, can you choose to be closed or not in this restaurant? They give you a robe. If you want to opt out. I don't know. I think this guy likes to see a bunch of naked bodies everywhere. He goes, he goes to sit down like it's a chili's restaurant. He puts his leg up. So is that crazy? I feel like his business is not, it's going to. I think it's like I don't think it's all the time. I did hear about this. It's like kind of like you got to like, it's almost like an omakase experience. You got to just book it. You know, and I think it's like one day, like once a week or once a month, omakase. It's a sushi experience where it's chef's choice. And it's like, you have to be there at a certain time and you're sitting with strangers and say, okay, so it's, it's not every day. It's just something. It's like a bachi, though, when you got that oil splattering on. This food needs to be cold. Yeah. I saw all that hot to stuff going on my skin. So I'm guessing, can we, can we see some of the comments? I'm really curious to see how people are taking this. This is giving swingers vibes. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. You realize how many swingers are out in Florida and this is something kinky. My first thought is are there cameras in the building and is it recording because ain't no way. That's true. A lot of these restaurants do have, have to have cameras in there. So in the seat covers, like the same time. Oh, yeah. Yeah. Yeah. I'm not sitting on a fucking seat. That's like not wrapped. I like, you know, the toilet seat. Thank you're on that like parchment. They were like different or like every seat has a machine where it's just like the toilet seats and the airports. Yeah. I'm, there's no fucking way. You know, he's going to have no problem trying to get people to work at that restaurant. Like everyone's going to be like, yeah, can I work the new shift? Can you imagine those, you know, those like those fancy napkins? What do they call it? The little, that we wrap, you're so aware of what it's called. Like a handkerchief. Sure. Yeah. Can you imagine because now everyone's new? It's like, you know, like, you know, every here and there is like, ooh, let me wipe. And now like you just start seeing like, fucking, uh, uh, poopy stains on all the fucking napkins. Or like the waiters are going to be like, no, what do you like? Sorry, I didn't catch that. They run that back one more time. They're just so distracted by the nudity. If you were at a whole place going to smell like surf and surf. If you, uh, would you work there as a server? Like, could you be, would you be able to handle it? I think I could, like, definitely. That should fly right by. You know, I mean, the day you would fly, yeah, the shift would just, I don't know, like, it just would be like, it would take the mundaneness out of your job. It's just because everyone's making it. You know, the servers are back in the kitchen, like every, like, P.F. Diddy. That is so good. You know, all the servers want a certain table. It comes, all the servers go back, go in the back and they go, yo, did you see the fucking thing on it? Yeah. They will find end of the table. Just look, it's up because bring your own meat. I mean, I bet everyone there going is 65 and up for sure. Zane, next time you go home to Florida, you have to go there. Well, I'm just going to go, I'm not going to go naked. I'm going to go on my robe because that's an option. And, and yeah, 100%. I'm going to go in there and I'll tell you my experience for sure. You guys, I think that's a great experience. I feel like your mom would think it's funny too. Oh, my mom would, she's like, no, my mom would go naked. Jesus, mom, who is that Brooks, Nader? Do you know that person is crazy in Italy, paparazzi called, caught her topless on a boat with her family and her dad. Oh, what? Bear boobs out with her dad on the boat. What do you know? I know some girls like to like 10 without their top on for sure, but like, I think I got to see, I got to see the picture. No, the picture of the dad looking down his craze. Like, I'm always there. Staining face to face. Like, you can see it's like the back of her dad. She's top. But it's like her dad's back. I think go to just images. It will have Brookstainer on the boat. Oh, that's her dad. Yes. Okay. Maybe it's her stepdad. No, that's her real dad. Where's his hand? That's what I want to know. That is I understand if you're like with your sister with your mom. Okay. Like I get it. You're in Europe. Go topless. I'm not shaming the toplessness. I just think it's like It's just that's a little comfortable. But I don't know if that's more of a European thing. Like are European girls getting topless in front of their dads? And are we just like so modest as Americans? We think that's weird. I think that here, think of like nudist colonies. If it was like a family of them, you wouldn't find it weird, right? Right? It's like I've met you like you don't know. Yeah, good point. I guess it's just like that's like it's, you know, I totally get I'm also like not speaking my mind because I've met her a few times. And so I just feel bad even she knew what she was doing. It's not like she's being called. Oh, no, no, no, I'm just saying like as soon as I meet somebody, as soon as like I meet them. And I had them like, oh, fuck, I'm too scared to talk about them. Like I just feel bad. Yeah, I know. She was at or she was at her Coachella House. Remember she came. So bring her on. Speak your truth. Explain yourself. I got questions. I mean, I just think in today's society, society with the issues with parents and children, like it just, it's easily avoidable, right? Sure. Like I feel like there's so many weirdos out there that are best to just avoid. It's really hard also to judge a picture. Like I just want to I wish I could see like it just wants to see it on censor. No, no, I wish I could just like I just want to see like a 10 second video because that could be completely taken out of context. It's not. What do you mean it's not? It's not all you had. Like, no, did you see the video? I not the video, but I guess I've seen pictures from different angles. Right. So you see, like to me, paparazzi, they're very strategic. Like they take a bunch of pictures and then they're going to post what it's going to be talked about, right? Like, yeah, his hand is right there, but like you have no idea what that video is, right? It could have been like, look, he's getting on the phone, and she's like, there's multiple angles of this. Okay. Okay. Okay. Okay. And once again, they knew they knew what they were doing. Like this, they knew paparazzi was around. It's not like she would have was like, oh my gosh, I've been called. Is that her full like blood dad? Yes. Okay. Yes. So I don't know. I don't want to spend too much time like poking and prodding at this. I just think it's just so interesting. Maybe Brooke wants to explore the nudist colony route. I'm going to play a devil's advocate here. Maybe she wants to explore that. Maybe her dad is also trying to explore maybe this their first trip where they're like, oh, let's try being a nudist family. Family. Hear me out. If you saw the dad nude in front of the daughter, see now that is a crime. But also, like we're also in a world where you know, you know, like they're holding free the nipple. Yeah, damn right. Free the nipple. So yeah, exactly. So there's a shaming nudity. I'm not. Yes. So I'm not even even shaming it. That's what I'm just like right now, like thoughts are coming in my hands. Oh, actually, if it was no pain, like no underwear, like completely like nude, maybe that's crazy. It's still weird. I would never want my daughter. I would never like I would never want my daughter topless in front of me. Like, absolutely not. Especially as a full adult. Like you know what I mean? Yeah. Like that's where it's just strange. But even as a I mean, there's just put them all saying there's a time in a boundary where it's like, okay, or maybe it's like, you know, maybe what if it was like this PR thing where she's just like, oh my god, this is gonna be great for the show because she has a show right now. Yes, this is exactly. It's a P. It's a publicity stunt. Look, we're talking about it now. We're like, I got to see the dynamics of this family. I got to see the show. Yeah. Yeah. So I do have another Florida story if you guys want to hear it. Yeah, let's hear it. Jared, could you could you pull the article up this lady was just charged for. What's going on there? Gosh, that's a big old cricket. Be nice. This lady was just charged for child abuse. And you want to say, I think the only thing that's being abused are them, them gods. What's really crazy is the fact that she's charged for biting. Oh my god. Come on. That's it. I can't even look at it. Go on. Go on. She. That's that's it. That was. This is the actual. Oh my god. It's the actual sight. I thought we ended it. That's all crazy. And what's crazy is when I saw that I just pictured like a shark bite out of a surfboard. Like I need to. Oh my god. I'm not laughing. That it was a child abuse thing. Like obviously the child like. No, I mean, that's why I don't feel bad about making fun of her fucking gnarly ass. Because she abused a child. So it's fair game. Yeah. I just need to see. Like did what is a finger missing? Like what is it? God, this is so nice. I need to see the damage. I guess. Well, if she hasn't escaped prison yet, her teeth are definitely trying to. My goodness. She going to she going to write through them hair and clothes. But you know what? Like her eyebrows. Remind me of that one lady. Frieda Calla. Yes. Yes. Frieda Calla. It's like literally the exact eyebrow. It's like a Wallace and Grommet. Oh my god. That's who she looks like. The Wallace's girlfriend. In like the curse of the wear rabbit. Yeah. Wallace is like girlfriend. You know, that you know that a video of what's her face from Stranger Things. Um, uh, fucking 11. What's her name? Millie Bobby Brown. Millie Bobby Brown. Did he ever see that clip where she's just like, it's ice even better. Or as a carrot. Yeah. And it's ice even better. And then she smiles and then it immediately goes to wall is sick. Vigetti of the better. I you know what? I think she really enjoys these little memes that people make. I think she's very in tune with that world. Yeah. For sure. For sure. She leans into the bed. Living back and forth between the pictures. It's spot on. Oh my god. Oh my. I like Millie Bobby Brown. I just don't like her movies. Well, did you want to know her as a person? I think she like, I feel like I get along with her very well. She needs to like level up and get some like bigger movies going. Anola homes are fun movies. I don't like them. Anola homes. No. The first one's really good. The second one's cute in the third. I didn't like the plot. No. I was like kind of exot and the one that she had on Netflix. Remember she was like a princess and it was like a dragon or something. I was. Oh, yes. I remember that one. Yeah. She had such a big Netflix. A contract. I think she needs to be doing like Natalie Portman was doing. Yes. The black swam being a David Fincher film. Shake it up. But she needs to be. She needs to like get that role, that perfect role because I just don't think she's gone to yet. It'll happen with time. She's pretty damn good. Yeah. I think honestly it might happen for when she's older. You think so? Yeah. Like when she like grows into her. Like how old is she right now? Like 21. 22. My gosh. Yeah. She's still young. She has so much. She's with bond, Jon bond, bond Jovi's son. Oh, yeah. I forgot. I can't believe she's a mother. Adopted mother. Yeah. She adopted a child. Oh, my god. Really? Yeah. Oh, is it because it can't she not? Well, she's busy, but she has the money. Like, I don't know. Like I think Millie Bobby Brown had an age pretty damn fast. Oh, my gosh. Yeah. In August of 2025, they welcomed a baby girl through adoption. Got it. But I mean, that's your young, but like go for it. 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I think he looks like he'll. No, he doesn't. He doesn't need to look like me. But I think just an Arab baby because it would. It's easy to bring them to like our like our family's like a household. Like you know, my imagine bringing it along with the course. I think any sort of Arab any sort of Lebanese any sort of Arab in them. I think I would like to have. Okay. That I'm adopting. Nothing wrong with that. Yeah. And then you know some people can adopt. Yeah, culturally different baby as well, but like you know, it's everyone's preferences of what they're comfortable with or I just get one of every race Oh my god It's kind of like you collect them all type do yes because then or how about um of an adoption blind box I he mystery box Remi will be like oh my god Adopt the baby, and I don't know what is just shaking it It's a giant like a crib It has all the different races on the side like really want to get this one. I get it Terrible Zane at what age like how do I even word this? Like you're saying that you could like see yourself adopting like say like do you do you have like an age in mind where you're like Oh, I want to be a dad by this age like would you be like okay if I don't have you know Like somebody that you're married to and like would you be single and oh no, I wouldn't be single You could do it like join in share like the adoption with somebody. Yes, like I I wouldn't mind if that was our only option Okay, you know, I mean like if we if we could not make a baby I would not mind adopting would you do surrogacy that I think that all depends on If she can make a baby or not right because I'm saying like maybe like her uterus like can't host a pregnancy But she does have eggs, but you get someone else to host your baby for you. Sure. Yeah, would you do that over adoption? Oh, um, but also surrogacy is expensive and not everybody has the means to do surrogacy. Yes Like it's expensive, but don't they have they don't have like plans for that for that for that like a payment plan Even like insurance or they don't have anything like that like some sort of like way to help people that I don't think so because like IVF is super super expensive to consider like a like a need and when it comes to the world of No, well it should be that I think I think we should be funding and we should be able to like help people you know They should have that right that should be like that something where like I feel like people should have more access to it Like if you want a kid, you literally can't like you shouldn't have to pay a lot of times people think there's like a money Like there's like a morality clause with like IVF and they think it's like wrong. I think I think when you get into like designer babies That's where it starts getting like all right. Yes, that also when you're able we don't need to do all that Oh, that's when like people go through catalogs and like try to pick like what they don't know like where you can like gender you could maybe pick like even recessive I call her like I color yeah, like where you're like literally like shopping Looking at parent or different family who to adopt your baby is that what you're thinking? No, no, you know how like you look go through a catalog You don't know. I know that's how I was born. Yeah That's fine, right? That's fine Yeah, you created like your eye color. No, no, no, no, it was just like my mom got a description of my dad She didn't see a picture, but it's things like height weight. I color you have no idea who this guy is right? No I have no idea what he looks like to know If somebody was like in this pamphlet, I have a picture of that. Would you want to see it? I think I would be curious to see what I got from him looks wise because I look so much like my mom But you would never care to meet him though. No, not really. I really oh my god I would like I would love to meet the thing is it's just like I've always had this mentality of I grew up and my mom was very honest from the beginning of like the situation of how I was born So it was never like one of those situations where it's like oh your dad's a deadbeat and he walked out on us She was like no, it's just I'm gay and this was how I Had to have a kid and so I never felt like I had that part missing for my life It was just kind of the fact of my being more like curiosity to like I I would never like I would never want a relationship Yeah with that person at all It's more just like I just want to be able to have like a lunch with him and have a conversation and see how Yeah, I have when it comes to just like the way we act just that that's where I would be I would never after that. I would cut it off I'd be like I think this is healthy after this like there's a list to the ignorance as well of just like not knowing because the moment You do know like I don't even your head. It could just could be different. I just sometimes I've heard I've known people have been adopted And they've met their real doubts and sometimes they like regretted it. Yeah, yeah because they just There's a sense of like disappointment the mystery of it and then yeah Can you feel like you have a relate now you have a relationship with them Yeah, you have the guilt of like do I want to maintain that and even you could be kind of disappointed with it Where I'm not trying to speak for you. I'm just saying they just like I wish wish I would have just never know But sometimes they have met and been like that's great I guess I guess it all comes down to like the type of person you are right like I like me. I'm able to I'm able to Just shut it off shut it off. Yeah, I'm familiarize it. It's very like to me. It's way more just like Oh curiosity. Oh, how can I like? Oh, let me see and then go away and that's it and you know what? I think I'm the same way because I think I think my lack of curiosity is my is like a result of such good compartmentalization love that yeah of just being able to disassociate and be like yeah I just I don't know my dad and that's that you know I think also taking away the mystery not saying that you know, even if his life went a different way or whatever But like my description of him from what his profile is that He was like a military service man He was like a really good student in college and the reason that he donated was because his sister was like in a similar situation where she Needed like a sperm donor. Yeah have her children and that had a really big impact And so he wanted to help people like a sister. So you might have a bunch of siblings out there too I have like oh wow like half siblings that I know about. Oh, yes, you've mentioned this before. Yeah, right You find out your dad your dad is a Rothschild. You're like oh, you don't want a relationship You know what none of your like your bill like a bill. Have any of your half siblings met him Uh, I don't think so. Okay. No, I think he's very private. I think he I'm with you where I would be hesitant about meeting my biological Father, but I would be open to knowing other people who share half of what I have And then I think I would like the T from them if one of them wanted to go visit I feel like I don't need to see a picture, but how were they tell me tell me yeah, they think there'd be a bit of that I'd be curious about actually I take that back. I think I would want somebody else to meet them first Before it gets to me because can you imagine Like they look up my dad That would fuck me up. Like if I if I found out that this person was like crazy. Yeah, evil evil What if he was like fucking loaded as a sperm donor are you Are you're not entitled to being an heir of his fortune? I think I don't think so you know possibly if he dies and has like no other family and leaves and doesn't specify where his money Would go or his assets which would never happen with a plot which would never happen in a rich family They would all it's always going somewhere. Yeah, it's never gonna be in a situation where it's gonna go to But what if you like would if y'all meet me he goes, you know what I love you You've been like a son to me and like I hate everybody in my life and I just want to give it to you You know just like that isn't just my I'm on my fourth marriage. I don't like any of Jared you're the only one that's ever tried to look and find me and I really respect that. Thank you I want to leave everything to you All right, let's find them I have a I have a question Say a couple like gay or lesbian they do the sperm donor route or egg donor whatever it is They decide that they want to like have this baby. So like if it's say Jared like your mom's situation If they go through that and then separate Do they pay child support? Oh, yes, I think if basically if Jared's parents got divorced while he was a child Because they're contractually like still they're like leave their guardians and their parents. Yeah Because then I don't know if it's like they technically don't have a biological tie Like if it wasn't there like is there like a weird loophole in that? No, no I don't even with like an adopted kid like yeah, there's even no biological attachment to that child But they went in as a union of Yeah, that's why I'm thinking like you should yeah people would I people would get away with it all the time then Yeah, there has to be like a strict thing about even like just adopted and does Brad Pitt pay Angelina Like Alamone or anything like that it together. Yeah, they because they adopted it sometimes she is some of the her kids. Oh she adopted And even I know another wealthy families where they have adopted kids, but the mom adopted the kid not the husband Oh, interesting. Yeah, that has happened like in certain They take responsibility in a way yes individually. Yes. Oh, yes I could see a situation where because Angelina Jolie is also super fucking rich and successful I could see her just being like I don't want him anywhere as a I don't want him in a part of our light even financially I don't need his support. Yeah either. So she's in like a A good situation where she couldn't do that too question for using, you know, your parents were divorced. Did your dad have to pay child support to your mom? I'm sorry, if this is like a personal question. No, no, it's not at all. Um, yes. Okay. Yeah, because I was living in my dad. Okay. My mom paid child support to your dad. Correct. And she had a more, she had a more stable job than my dad. My dad used to have those jobs, but his job was not stable, which means he was home more, which is the reason why he was able to win us as custody, as custody. Yeah. Because my mom, her shifts, it's like every pretty erratic, pretty erratic as a firefighter. So she just was and like it would never work. She couldn't afford like a name and everything. So like it just, that's just how it had to be. Uh, yes, she paid, I, yeah, she paid child support probably double to for you and Ollie. I'm sure they figured it out where it was just what they, yeah, because child support is all different by like the income, how many kids there are. It's crazy. Because my dad also, like they lived like very frugal too, and my dad, like, yeah, we live pretty frugal. Like we're, I remember as kids, we were all sharing rooms and shit. So like, what's the difference between child support and alimony? Great question. I always forget when I look at it. Well, good thing. We have a computer. Alimony supports lower earning ex-spouse while child support covers a child's basic needs and living expenses. So okay, alimony is like, if you're the breadwinner and you get divorced, alimony is supporting your, your ex with money, not the kids. Which makes sense because it's like if the, you know, the husband makes a lot of money. The wife is a stay-at-home mom. You're now not, like you don't have your own career that you've been working towards or have the, I guess the background for like proof, for like if you were to find a new job and things like that, you weren't building yourself up. So it's kind of like a this amount of money because you've been a stay-at-home mom for so long. Yeah. Okay, so that makes sense. It reduces the economic disparities and maintaining lifestyle similar to the one enjoyed during marriage. When your parents though got divorced as a kid were you ever like, I'm going to try. I have a question that kind of like leans into that, which I've always wondered and you see it in movies all the time is like, Matt was what I thought you're about to say. Like, did you feel like it was your fault? No. No, that's not no. I was kind of more thinking like about parent-trap situation where it's like, let's try to get them back together. Oh, no, no, no. I thought you were going somewhere different because I've always wondered that too. Like, you always see like the kids feel the guilt of thinking it's their fault. Not at all. I was because when it happened, I was way too young. You're like, this can't be yummy. With how and also how different they were. Even as a kid, I was like, oh, yeah, you know, no, no, no shit. It didn't work out because they are so different. Right. Like I, I talk about it all the time. I cannot believe they were even into each other and married let alone. I can't believe it makes no sense to me. I was not one ounce of me is like that. Oh, that makes sense. I remember one time I brought it up to you and you're like, I've never thought about that. Was that, you know, if Ali was a girl? Oh, how different your situation would be because like, obviously, you know, you're, she would not, I maybe have been grown up with like a strong of like, I don't know, the Muslim faith as well. And how would she live between both households with your mom and being a female and just the whole dynamic between your dad culturally and where your mom was like what that would have ended up. I know. That's so interesting because I do think about that sometimes. Obviously for the boys, there's not like too many rules, right? Especially like growing up in between both households. But for the girls, obviously, when you hit puberty, you have to start wearing a scarf because of the dynamic between my dad and my mom. My dad would have liked her to wear a scarf, but like my mom would have won that fair and square. Like she would have won that argument of like, no, she will, she will like do whatever she wants. Yeah. Like she will not be forced to wear a scarf because like, can you be scarf light? I want to reiterate, I'm not saying all girls are forced to wear a scarf. My, but it's, I mean, let's be real. Parents are not giving girls the option to wear a scarf or not. You're wearing the scarf. I mean, that's how it is in most, most of them households that I've seen around me, right? It's like the girls are wearing it. And then as you grow older, that's when they start like deciding, oh, you know, maybe I don't want to wear one because my stepmom sisters, half of her sisters wear half of her sisters, like, don't you know what I mean? So you definitely, I feel like as you grow older, you kind of just like, because there's different like branches of Islam. There's like, there's a lot of women that wear, there's a lot of women that don't does. Once I think it's wrong, sure, maybe, but in the end of the day, yeah, it would have everybody, yeah, been interesting to see how that would have played out. I think she would have definitely been more like me. Yeah. Yeah. I think so kind of free spirited kind of like, I do what I want. You can't tell me what to do. And I think, and I think because I mean, I feel like me and my brother are the same way. He's definitely now my brother, I would say is definitely more serious than me. But I think she, if I had a sister that was, if I had a sister, like my brother and brother and sister, I think my sister would be more like me because I think I would have connected with her. Yeah. Because I just connected with the girls more in general when it comes to like my sense of humor and whatever. So same here. I mean, I've always like clicked with, I think girls more. Yeah. But I never had a sister. And sometimes I like wish I had a sister. Yeah. It's interesting how that can be such a factor in shaping who you are. Yeah. Are sometimes like sibling dynamics and stuff. But it still turns out just fine. Yeah. But it could have changed genuinely who you are as a person based on that. And because I was so shy when I was younger and like in middle school and high school, when you're a shy boy, I feel like you make more friends with girls than guy, because I feel like girls will tend to like, yeah, they'll come to you and become friends. That's pretty much what happened. Like I don't think I've ever went out and like try to make friends. All the friends that I had back in my childhood, it kind of like they kind of, they came to me and they opened up because I was so shy and like, so bad for you. How's shy you were? I know. I wish I would have invited you to play. I just, yeah, I, I'm not gonna lie. He's kind of opened up my, um, my, you came out of your shell. Came my shell a little bit, but I would say like the like moving out here, I genuinely feel like I became a different person. Yeah. It's weird because Zane, you're shy. I think around new people, especially like when we first met and started hanging out, like obviously I knew him in high school. But like afterwards, like you, you're very outgoing within your group. Yeah. Like when you know somebody you, like you guys are like you're very open and like fun and friendly and outgoing back then. But I feel like now you've become more, um, what's that extroverted? Yeah. It was like a complete flip. And I think it was because I lived. So, and it was also like my surroundings too. Like I, like, at first, I thought I was a shy because that's just how I was. But I truly think it was the surroundings of my childhood. It was like the, it was, it was my parents being divorced. Yeah. Having to go back and forth. I wasn't really out a lot, like outside of the house, especially going up at like dad's house. The rules were so tight. Like you could not leave that fucking house. That's just how it is too. And especially in like the Arab culture, the only people with like, the only kids where a lot of sea were like friends of theirs. And then their kids. But that was also like rare too. What do you think of homeschooling? I don't know. I have no thoughts on it because I never experienced. I don't know what the curriculum, the curriculum looks like. Well, you can set your own curriculum. I just, I think it could be done right. And it could be done wrong. Right. Because sometimes like some parents will just promote their own agenda onto kids and do they teach them what they think that they should know. Which is standard. Yeah. But I also understand there's circumstances where maybe you do live in an area where like the public school system isn't that great. You can live so far away from even like getting to school, you know, conveniently where it's like you have to be like homeschooled in a way. And it's worked well for some people that I do know. I think I've ever met anybody that's been that was homeschooled or maybe I have. I just can't like remember anybody that like I've met. That was homeschooled. I remember there was people in our sports that were homeschooled. Oh, interesting. So they would come to participate on your teams. Yeah. Okay. That's because I want because I just parents still want them to like have a life outside the house too. So that makes sense. But I just want them to develop such a sense of character and a sense of personality by being around other students throughout, you know, the school day. But I'm not going to like I'm not going to lie. Me being in school. It was it was really it was it was tough for me. Honestly, I think I would be honestly been better off homeschooled. I think there's there's there's pros and cons, right? Like I think there's nothing more beautiful than being able to stay with your child and teach them. Like I think that's such a blessing and a privilege to be able to like. Yeah. I guess. I mean, you got to say you have both people in the family working that your only option is to just ship them off to school from, you know, seven in the morning until three p.m. and it's just like some I was in after care until my mom got off at work. So it was like I was just at school all day. Yeah. Similarly, you go home, you go home, you do like the homework, whatever, and then it's like it's bedtime. And you realize you don't really have that much time with your parents at home. Sat in a way. So I think it's cool to be able to do that. Right. Like teacher kid. Then there's obviously extremes of both. I think some people, you know, some people homeschool out of fear too, I think, where they think like, oh, the world is like so corrupt. I don't want this school influencing my child. Like I, they, they want to mold the human more than like the world to mold them. Um, I think it's both. I think it's one, like half is, yeah, you don't, like, you don't want to throw your kid in a school with a ton of, uh, just bad decisions or people that just like bad. And then also you, you want to make sure that you're teaching your kid everything in the right way, because a lot of times, like in school, it was really hard for me to pay attention in class. It was really hard for me to pay attention. I could never pay attention. I, I feel like I could never connect with what the teacher is teaching me. And then you only get like an hour. Our classes are so short where like as soon as I left the class, I felt like I like nothing ever, like stuck in my, like that dude. And that's why I feel like I don't know anything from what I learned in school, because I genuinely could not pay attention in class. Just jam back in your brain, jam back in your brain today. If I had, obviously, like I don't think my mom or dad would be good at homeschooling at all. But like if I had a parent that was really good at homeschooling, willing to put all my fucking money that I would be much, like much, much better and much more educated. What I would ideally like is, I don't even know if this is like a, like a thing that could be done, but like a homeschooling within like a group of parents that could hire a specific teacher. Okay. That makes it like a smaller private school community wise. Yeah. Give like a teacher, like a really good salary, like people all chip in and like say it's 30 kids. I don't know. Right. Which I mean, you're describing things, things that do exist. Like there are like, I mean, there's like Montessori type like academies and stuff that are very like focused on. I don't know. It's still like education to schoolhouse. Yeah. Just don't give them a freaking packet. Yo, you got to teach him. You gotta teach. Yeah. I'm speaking on behalf of the future of this nation. There's something, there's something really cool also about, like imagine it's the same fucking kids throughout the entire like school life. Like if you start them from like pre school, right? And like you start homeschooling them. Like I'm saying, if you hire a teacher and then you have like a set of kids from a neighborhood and they're in the same class with the same teacher. Kind of crazy. Until 12th grade, that's insane. Can you imagine? I wonder if that's good or bad. I don't know. I don't think so. I don't think so. I think you need to be able to be exposed to different types of educators, being exposed to teachers who are passionate about a certain subject rather than just running through all the basics of everything. I think it's a bummer how your experience, I wish you had a better teacher. Like teachers are so like a teacher. It was like a teacher multiple teachers. So like yeah, there was like, there was good teachers. There were bad teachers. I just think it was no oversimulating for my fucking brain. Just being in an hour session class seven times a day and also just fucking hating school and having no friends. For most of my school life, it was just tough. School was the last place I wanted to be in every day. And I feel like it's hard to learn when you're in a place where that's the last place you want to be in. Your brain is just not open to wanting to learn when you're somewhere you don't want to be at. If I was home and I had like somebody teaching me and like, I'm in a place where like I enjoy I think your your brain is more open to wanting to actually learn and like actually paying attention. Like I'm right now and if I had to sit there for eight hours and just in a book. But also like it's important though. Like yes, in a school sucks, but like it gets you in the rhythm of like having to pay attention and soak in information that maybe you don't want to, you know, digest, but it gets you in a better sense of discipline, becoming a functioning adult, participating in society. When you go to like work and working at a job, nine to five at a desk, work sucks. But like school in a way prepped you for why is it programming you for that shitty future? Yes, in a way, right? But it's, yes, I know what you're saying. Like yeah, it prepares you for like a shitty future. And I think you should always be thinking about what your passion is and pursuing that. But in a way, it just gets you in a better sense of discipline of becoming a functioning member of society. Honestly, I like, I know there's probably a lot of people that were homeschooled. That's listening to this and watching this. I would love to hear your guys' thoughts on how. Definitely. For you being homeschooled. I'm so curious. I feel like I've never had like a genuine conversation. I can't recommend that. The only people I know who are homeschooled. Look at them. They're doing great. They were like creative parents chasing their passions. And now they're like the best in the world of what they do. I don't think they would have learned what they learned if they were just in like multiple different types of music classes in like public school. I don't know. You never know. You never know, but like a Phoebe Bridger. She went to like Laxon stuff and like she's a huge star because she was at a school that was tailored to their passions, tailored to their passions. Yeah, which is not tailored to your passion. But it depends. Sometimes they have a law academy. Sometimes they have a fire academy. Like they have these ways stem schools. They we're also talking about we're talking about schools and methods that are more expensive. There's not a way. A lot of a lot of people don't have the privilege of putting their kid in a school like that or in any situation like that. So they have to put them in a public school that's free. Yeah. So I get that. I understand that. Just pay teachers more. Yeah. And give AC and schools and give them food. Give kids food. Good food breakfast and lunch. Yeah, I don't want to be in Honeybond from a fucking vending machine every day for lunch because if you give kids good food and like some cool air conditioning, they want to come to school. You know, I mean, I say that for schools that are struggling with enrollment and you know, yeah, it's performance. If you think about the environment that our school is putting in is saying security guards were having such relations with the kids. So I mean, it kind of gives you a good idea of what the fucking what the vibe was in the school. I think from listening to what your complaints were about school is saying, I feel like you really would have benefited from a Montessori type education because isn't their class schedules? It's like they only have like two or three subjects a day and it kind of at your own pace, too. Yeah, it's at your own pace. And so you would spend like two or three hours in math class and then have like a science class after that or something. It would split up so it's not just like 50 minutes boom bell. Yes. And then you go to you have seven or eight periods in a day. And there is, I know this is like so it's just like unrealistic. I think I would have loved having the same teacher for each subject. I think that's like how like how elementary school was where it was just yeah, your class. That was who you had the whole day. Yeah. If it wasn't fifth grade, though, they we would do all of the classrooms were connected by we started switching. So you would go to like Miss Carpenter to learn science. You'd go to like Miss Abernady to learn. Really? We did. Shout out to Miss Carpenter. She was a great science teacher. But you know, I get all angles. So I get it. I think it's just all depends on. But also Pepsi for college too. You're going to have different professors in college and stuff. And like, and their experts in their own field. But yes, I think you could have benefited by being tailored to maybe one teacher. Yeah. But you know what? Look where life took you. Like look, your sense of humor, your sense of passion and creativity. I think except the beauty of it. Who knows if you have this perfect like education, you'd be working at Deloitte or something. Well, the only thing I think of going to school is the few the few friends that I've made and also meeting Keith because if I didn't meet heath, we wouldn't be here right now. So like that's I think that's the only that that's the only time where I'm like in a think public school. But if it wasn't for that, then. And it's crazy too. Because it's like you could have met somebody at public school. You could have met them at a community bingo night. That's true. Yeah. That's true. It's yeah, it's so interesting. Very, very interesting. But yeah, no, I do, I do believe in that like, that's why I'm here right now. Yeah. If I didn't do public school, I wouldn't be here right now. And me sucking at school is like what brought me here? Yeah. Okay. I saw I saw this and it made so much sense. It was basically your whole life is just picking which regret you want to live with more or just like choosing your regrets. Interesting. And I was like, that makes so much sense. Like because you're gonna you're whatever the like other option is, you're going to regret it. Yeah. People are like, oh, I regret not having children. There's people that regret having children. People regret not traveling more. People regret not taking more time for themselves. Like, yeah, it's just everything you do. It's a compromise. Yeah. And you just have to live and accept what the regret I guess will be. Yeah. But don't fester on the. Marinate on the regrets, though, that much. But just accept that they're going to be there and be at peace with it. Yes. Yes. Yes. You could say, I regret not going to a private school. But then you wouldn't be where you are right now. It's just like everything just kind of happens. And it's just like, yeah, there's a million ways things could have played out. But like if you did that, who knows, you might regret something else. Right. It's kind of just like in a weird way, just like finding peace in where you are. Yeah. Yeah. And find your superpower and stick with it. Period. No one's going to incentivize you to find their superpower. And that means they might not have found it themselves. But once you find it, I'm just quoting Timothy Shalaman. I don't get that. Yeah. But like, yeah, just find what your superpower is stick with it. Do reps, do laps. Very good. I love that. It's important. Just find what you're good at. Find your passion. Chase it. What did they say? They say when your hobby becomes your job or something like that? That's one. Casting it on your passion. I mean, just doing the social media stuff, yapping, this is like. Casting on your passion. I think that was like a dairy Vayner Chuck book, But I was like, cash in on your passion, cash in on your passion. I just, I was like, try to tell people that, but you know, a lot of people, you know, they have jobs and they have hobbies, but it's cool when you're hobby. You're able to make like, it could even be a side hustle or anything, but I think people genuinely do find pat happiness and fulfillment when they are doing something that they love as their career. Yeah. So it's a good way. But then, but then another thing too that they say is like, your hobby once it becomes a career is no longer fun. Yeah. Yeah. Once it becomes your job, you're like, so it's like, I don't know. It's also because it's because you're doing now, you're, what you're doing as a job is what you're good at. Now, I feel like now you, like now you want to be a perfectionist and then that's when you will never be happy with something because you're good at it and you want to be always the best. And it's awesome. Like when you get to a place where you can frame it like we get to do this. We don't have to do this. We get to do something. Yeah. It's like, oh, that's awesome. Even with your own body is you get to move your body, like knowing that, like you, that you would do anything. You would trade everything in your life to be back in this body right now. So why wouldn't you, like, take advantage of it? Your body gets to do that. It's able to do that. So take care of it. Yes. I think that way about the gym all the time. Like I saw somebody post, it's like, you don't have to go to the gym. You get to go to the gym or something like that. And it just kind of really reframed how I think about it, like on those, those lazy days. And especially I just saw, have you ever heard of the iron brothers? Yeah. Like, yes, is that the, is that they made a movie out of it? I think so. I think there's a documentary about iron claw. No, no, no. Oh, that's what I was thinking. That's what you were thinking about. There is a documentary about it's these two, I think they're Portuguese brothers. And one of them was born with cerebral palsy and the other one was not. But the one with cerebral palsy always wanted to do compete in iron man's. Oh my God, I just cried at that video like three days ago. And so the, his other brother, I think it's Pedro and Miguel, Miguel is the healthy one. And he trained in order to bring his brother along with him along the iron man with his brother. He's done several of them now. So he's swimming, you know, 12 miles with his brother in tow on like a kayak or something. He bikes 100 some, some odd miles with his brother in a cart behind them. And then he runs an entire marathon pushing his cart and it's just like that's a good brother. Wow. And so it's things like that where, you know, it's like I get to do this because there are others they can't and I'm so fortunate to be one of the ones that can crazy how like good people are in this world. I know. It's also while knowing someone you're age right now, it's their last day on earth today. So enjoy it. There's someone out there your exact day to it's their last day. I thought about that. Okay. This is kind of lame compared to what I just said, but I thought about that with the new Spider-Man movie. Here we go. Okay. No, because somebody, somebody there was like an edit and then somebody said like it was a common is like poor one out for the Spider-Man fans that never got to see this. And it's like you constantly think about it. You think about the thing that you're excited for, whether it's a new movie or a new or your sports teams next season or something like that, but you just never know when your last day is going to be and it's a very morbid thing to think about. But it also makes you appreciate when you do get to witness these things. So down and enjoy the magic, you know, if you're moving too fast, you're moving in fear. If you're moving in fear, you're thinking about yourself. And if you're thinking about yourself, you're not thinking about others and you're not thinking about others, you don't have any compassion and kindness. Well, you know what I just found out this week that I, the way I live, the way I have been living, which I need to not do this, but I live my life in the future every single day. Like just thinking about the future all the time? I was talking to this guy on the trip about he was like, he was asking about my medication. I was like, oh, I take, yeah, I take a little off of it was like, do you take it for anxiety or depression? Oh, it's more for anxiety, like I'm, he's French, he's a very interesting guy, but he's like, you know that depressed people, they live in the past and people in anxiety live in the future. Yeah. They are not able to live in the present. And I was like, wow, it literally hit me like a train. I was like, that's insane because not once do I ever live in the past, which means that like, and that's why I feel like I'm not that depressed because I'm not living in the past. I literally, we're going to walk out of this room and forget everything we talked about. It's so hard for me to live in the past, but I am constantly, constantly looking at the future. And I'm thinking about what's worried about the future when I'm not like, but then it can also switch on into I'm not saying don't think of that out of like a sense of fear, but like it can happen for people when they, they get older and they feel so unfulfilled by their past like, yeah, because we're still so young. We see so much about the future. It's why we're so anxious about it. Yeah. But then like depression can come and like hit you in your 60s. That makes sense. That makes sense when like, maybe things aren't as exciting as they were in the past. You mean the past? All of it. I know that's going to hit me. It hit me so hard. I know it's going to win. I'm older. I mean, maybe like, oh, my God, that was so fun because I see my mom, my mom does it a lot. But if you're nostalgic, though, that's the good, and the style just a reminder that you lived a good path, that you had a good thing going on and that it was a full filling time. That's why you're nostalgic about it. Sometimes some nostalgic can be a bit of a drug and a bit of a problem where you're ruminating too much on the past, because you should be enjoying the present more. But if you're nostalgic about your childhood, it means you had a good childhood. Yeah, man. I miss Halo too. We love the crust about that. Hang 'em high. They should bring it back. I mean, it is back. Are you saying it should be like, I don't know, is Halo an active server, can you play it? I think so. They also came out with like the whole remastered series where they went back and re-did all the games. People are still playing online, though, with each other, right? I think so. Yeah. Yeah. I guess I just miss going to GameStop for that midnight release. Oh, that smell of plastic and cellophane. Get in my mountain, do we just, I don't know, land party. Whenever a new game came out, in my head, I always remember it was between $55 to $70, a brand new game that just goes. Yeah, I remember. It was always like 60 bucks. Yeah. Is that, was that like, that's outrageous, that's a high amount, right? Yeah. In my head, it's like, they spend so much time making it. But then again, they're pretty much just taking this file and just dispersing it. It's also the hype. But then it was great when it would go to like PS2, greatest hits and it was 20 bucks. After it had been out for like a year and a half, they would make it cheap. But the thing though, you had, you had something physical, like you owned the game and if you beat it, sell it to GameStop and get money back for your use game, you had something tangible. It's not like this downloadable content that, you know, you, you have X amount of storage on your Xbox where if you wanted the game, you got to delete another game in order to download something new and then it's just like, if you had a game and had it in the CD with scratch and you couldn't fix it, there was no, you had to buy another one, right? Yeah. You were just shit out of luck. Oh, okay. I can't remember what that, what that warranty was with scratch CDs. Should we lay on this plane? Wow. What a roller coaster of an episode. I know. So many emotions. We so did it. Got all over the place. So deep. So dark. So hopeful. All right, guys. Well, thank you so much for tuning into another episode of Zane Heatham filter. As always, you can check out these episodes every Monday, audio form on all podcast platforms and every Tuesday video form on YouTube.com/Zane and Heath. Make sure to check out our Patreon, patreon.com/Zane and Heath. We keep these cameras rolling. 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