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[Music] Okay, the Verrata? Yeah, 'cause like, free the birds. Mary Poppins, free the birds. Right. How do I want you, Danny McFee? I saw Danny McFee at it, and I was like, "Grrr!" Wait, you know that it's fall. You know the kid that's a Danny McFee, that's also in the maze runner, but he's like crazy fucking old. Like in Danny McFee, he looks six years old, but he was actually like 60. Really? Well, that's kind of like goals for costing people like this. Even now, I think he's like damn near 40, and he wins the main stuff. We got him. Yeah, the main guy. And I haven't seen Danny. Like, I couldn't see. This guy. Oh my god, yes! Oh, sorry, he's 36. Can't even go. Damn, he's 36. But yeah, he literally looks like he looks like he looks like that's literally crazy. Yeah. Like, I'm like, "Girl, you could literally be in the summer. I turned pretty." No. Oh, and he was in love actually. Yeah. Wait, he was? I don't remember him in that. Is he that everyone who was acting is like old now? Yeah. Do you know what I mean? Yeah. Like all the iconic people, it's like, "Damn, you guys are all like old that." Which makes sense. It's just like, "Damn, the sands of time are changing." Yeah. Um. So it's just like, um, yeah. Yeah. We'll love. And love. We love that he had the tuck ever lasting, doesn't it? No, like love actually, and then like, Danny McFeeh, and then it's just like, "Whoa." I know. Maybe I'll watch love actually. I've never seen it. Really? Yeah. I think I remember it being good. I think it is. It's like a Christmas staple. No, I know. It's just the way how I literally watch everything and forget about it immediately. No. And that's really not cool. Um, oh my god. Yes. Weed that infant. Yeah. I don't remember this movie because I'm like, "What is that animal?" Who's that like trifling one? Remember there was like the donkeys and she like, "Oh." See, I think I watched it when I was like eight years old. So I'm like, "I just never heard such a sweet movie." Yeah. And I watched it like, low key for whatever reason 100,000 times. Yeah. I do know why. Well, that's comfort watch. That's comfort watch-ish. Yeah. Well, he was literally like 60 years old. Yeah. He was like 14. 14, but look how-- Wow. But he's six in this. Yeah. Damn. Oh. Oh. Oh. He looks like nine. That's literally nine. I also don't know what anyone was like. Oh, I see. Like, I don't know what any of you looked like. Huh? What? Would you say? Oh, I just said he looks like 12. Oh, okay, T. I don't know what a 12-year-old looks like. I genuinely have no idea like what the kids are giving these days. Right. Except we did do a track night at a high school. Shout out Crenshaw High School. Shout out. Shout out. Yeah. Shout out to Crenshaw High School. Crenshaw High School. But yeah, next week my plan is to run every single run outside Damn, you're brave I don't know. It's gonna be pretty like the weather is starting to get pretty decent. Yeah, I don't even know why I said that I'm just scared. I'm like low-key scared too. I don't know why I'm scared. We'll wait So let me tell you why I'm scared Literally I was You know one of the girls I was talking to someone who was at track night and she was like, oh, did you see the route for The race and I was like, oh, no, I didn't even know it was out yet and I was talking to shut up Brittany At Nike and she was like, oh, yeah, the only thing that they're only hill that there is is mile three Yeah, it's like a big climb is what they said a big climb But that's the only climb and then you get to go back down and I would take that yeah And I'm happy that's happening mile three because that's usually when you still have like your old yeah little gusto Your OG gusto. Yeah, you know what I mean? Oh, yeah, totally so with that being said and I plan my pace to be probably like a 14 minute 14 30 for like the whole race I just want everything to feel super super easy Mm-hmm, and I feel like anytime I do like a 13 30 13 or like 12, you know what I mean? Take your creatine Creatine alarm I just like I don't know I feel pretty gas and I want to be able to like you know be able to walk around the days after The half Right, but I'm just planning on starting off really really really slow. Yeah, and then like I'm picking up speed and power Yeah, 100% um, so with that being said that's my plan, but I was watching The route for the race and later. How can you watch it? They have it on the website and I'm just like I don't even know if I want to see it. I watched it. It literally took like seven minutes to watch What is is that good or bad? No, I just was like holy fuck this video is still going. Oh like it's long Like it's long okay, and I'm like it's long because yeah, we are we are running 13 miles So I literally was watching it and it's like who um, okay, okay, see oh play map now. Oh in torrents. Yeah, shout out It goes down to like okay south bay. I can only assume that it will be better than last year because Last year had about seven hills. Yeah, and that was like Hi coach Renee. Hi coach Renee. Um, okay, that picture Steve. It just fell a little I Mean even no, it did feel a little crazy, but it was I think because it was unexpected It didn't feel as crazy as it could have possibly felt if that makes sense like I just didn't know that there was a hill after that next hill So I just kept being like oh, yay like we're done and then it just like wasn't so I feel like one hill would be Nice manageable. Yeah, no comparison to that one big climb. I think for me like my Lisa. Yeah, like I think this week's long run I'm gonna run sunset. That's like I just like go to like handle like I'll run from air on to like Canyon or Valerie and then Because I feel like those hills remind me that I need to tell you something off camera. Sorry. Okay, that just reminded me um I feel like those hills are like pretty manageable In the sense that like they're long and like the incline is quite like you're just going up for quite a while But I do feel like it's one of those things where I'm like okay. Yeah. No, it's two. It's good doable. It's good practice We're I don't know when I ran Los filas. Oh, oh Griffith. Yeah Griffith. Oh my god. I was like shit. It's just not ending see. Oh It's like that like it's not I thought you know it was like a Drones video, you know, like you could actually see the but see this is going faster than the actual video itself like the video itself But like when you turn around. Yeah, this isn't like this is on like 2x speed Okay, interesting the hardest mile I think is gonna be mile 10 because you literally see the finish line at mile 10 I'm gonna throw up like I don't. Oh, there's a lot of like doubling back happening. Yeah, okay. The biggest doubling back is right here mile 10 Oh And for our audio listeners were watching quite literally like a red string go across about I don't know a thousand miles of Like a thousand and a half miles doing a lot of loops doing a lot of turns see this is the last turn and then oh I am just sick. Oh, I am just sick. I'm just see a mile 10. I feel sick because you literally can see the finish line Maybe that's good. I Think it is, but I think because you could last time member. I know but I think that made me feel like Yeah, yeah, yeah, no, it was definitely tough ski last time And I will save the the time between Talking about running and feeling absolute dread has gotten longer, but I'm feeling the dread Yeah, shout out the run on sunset. Shout out the run on sunset and shout out running period. I think yeah I I'm just missing right now The mind and body connection You know what I mean like I feel like typically I don't know I think also too because I kind of had like a knee injury Like the mental that I don't know, you know, I just reminded me that yes Yeah, like I feel like that did take like a mental toll cuz I don't have any injuries last year totally and barely like I wasn't like in pain at all or like any thing and I will say like I do think it's like kind of interesting because it's like Experiencing that but also like taking the precautions to like get stronger and like healthier and stuff Also makes me feel kind of like I don't know a little sad Because I'm just like I don't know. I feel like I'm doing all the right things and yet like I'm so like experiencing like pain at times or like whatever So yeah, I don't know. I also think that like Love that we're doing this and like again. I think there's like a mindfulness there. Mm-hmm that like About going slower. 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That's rocket money dot com slash upstairs neighbors rocket money dot com slash upstairs neighbors Because yeah, I feel like I've just taken all the like pace Ideals out of it yeah or just like what I think I should look like while running yes And I'm just trying to go back to the roots of like I just simply want to finish yeah And I think like with the injury of it all I I understand I understand like the frustration Especially because we're on like such a tight schedule in terms of this being a training for something But at the end of the day, it's always gonna be you know worth it to listen to your body because these like minor frustrations are impatience now Although frustrating are so well worth it in terms of like when with your goal being finishing I think this time around too like listening to our body is just like so important and I think I don't know I think trading in kind of that short term like frustration Maybe or how it's making you feel is definitely worth the long term like strengthening of your knees like things like that because Girl, it don't really matter like how we finish cuz at the end of the day you go need your knees after that Yeah, so it's like yeah, you know, I'll be at frustrating I think giving yourself credit for actually taking care of your body because I think like ignoring those things are is a Yeah, no long term. It's not gonna happen. It definitely ain't it. I think also actually. Yeah, I think also to this time around like Yeah, I think it's just cuz like we've done it so like I Mean I have ran a half marathon before we had ran Nike after dark so like before that I was just like it had been so long like that was in high school so like growing high school We could literally have ran a half marathon and then like hit our foot through cement box and we would have been fine - Girl, after I ran that half marathon, I went to like Roscoe's chicken and waffles after. - And here, and then literally like hung out with my friends until 16 Roscoe's chicken and waffles. - With the Kool-Aid pictures? - Guys, they just all just been killing me lately. It's killing me. It's killing me, I'm dying. - I'm dying. - 'Cause a Kool-Aid picture of like the mason jar from like Roscoe. - Grocha. - 2017 Roscoe's in Los Angeles, California was like, Melenium, I keep saying Melenium, Melenium Optimism. - It was the time of the Melenium, truly. - That's how I feel. Guys, I've been watching Drag Race, the house, down boots, the house. Mom, mama, beast. - And I'm like this because I'm silent because I simply can't say anything with how long my list of things like you once I've told me to watch is I'm just shut the fuck up. But yes, I did pull Revere in the town's light state off. Like, I don't know, I don't know. - It's not right. - Because it's amazing. - Yeah. - It's amazing what they've done with the place. - It's amazing? - Yeah. - Truly. 'Cause to watch specifically that part of Drag Race for the first time, I would pay, well, in this economy, actually, I wouldn't pay that much, but like, I would pay good money. - I mean, season eight, and shout out Cheet Cheet of Vain, like, baby, may you rest in power. Like, just everything to me, like, the thorgi, which God damn, which just thorgi was like, I love thorgi, I do love thorgi. - Sessed with thorgi, Thor. - No, like thorgi, Thor. It's just like, honestly, just like Jadora. And I'm sorry, Derek, if you're watching for some reason. But like, that was a destination swap for real. - I fear when you go back to, though, Drag Race is not immune from the ways in which political correctness has changed. - I know. - 'Cause when I go back then, I'm literally like, (gasps) - No, right, right. - No. - Wait, what? - But I'm just like, no, like, ratchet drag. - No, like, ratchet drag. But if you want to do memorable drag, like, - But I just, I will say that there was a destiny swap that happened with thorgi and Derek Barry, but like, we don't-- - There was a couple destiny swap. - Yeah. - But, honestly, I was like, oh, baby. - Well, oh, baby, baby. - Was I supposed to know? - Like, that something wasn't right. - Here. - Just in this chair plan today. - I don't know. - Because. - A year. - Yeah, I mean, you said no chance against - Oh, and then not. - A lifetime. - Which it's on, it's on. - Yeah, I'm pretty much, I'm like, just about done with all stars. I took like a one-second tolerance break because it said, really, I just watched like, season A and like, oh, pretty much finished like, all stars, almost done, season two. And almost like two days, so I just needed to like, - And you report back after the end of all stars too. - Report back. - Yeah. - All stars through nine, 10. - I know. - And then, you know, we start saying, well, actually, I need to consider, there's some good ones through like 13 or 14, but there's a shift, like you're definitely in the glory days. - Yeah. - Okay, no. The girls are, the girls are taking it. And I just like, really, this all stars season two, with Alyssa Edwards is just, her playing, Annie Oakley, you dumb mother fuckers in the herstory performance. - Yeah. - Whatever man, whatever, 'cause why she's waving around a gun like an FBI agent in the work room. - Yeah. - It's just absolutely fucking hilarious. - Yeah. - And she's so funny and like, whatever man. - Like, wait 'til you find out about Alyssa's secret. Like, it's honestly on. - Yeah. - Oh, yeah. - I'll find out about it one day. - Just thinking about all stars too. In the reality TV, this is so fucking random, but I was watching a season recap of Mormon-Wive season two, for some reason. - Baby girl. - I'm sorry, I have to say that, 'cause I just like, did not know nothing about nothing, but the one who did the TikTok with her baby, I know it's probably old news. - Whitney. - Whitney? - Was she, she was on Z-Way? - Yes. - I've also been bingeing Z-Way, shout out Z-Way, it's everything. But, I'm sorry. I know that's like not what the show's about, but for some reason I just like, can't get over it. - I don't even know what, why did she, she did a TikTok with her baby? - She had RSV, RSV, and the TikTok, can we, I do this. - And she literally was like, I just, I just, I forgot that happened. - No, and I know it's like old news, I was like, "Oh, that is just so like." - Damn, I didn't know this was Whitney. God, she looks so different now. The horror in the bikini. Oh, no, no. Okay. Okay. - Okay. - I'm holding space for the idea. I think what it is is like, when I see things, I feel like I'm always, sometimes too much, like trying to fit my feet and other people's shoes and be like, okay, like that, that, whatever. But I just like, I don't know why I'm just like, what were you thinking? - Well, here's the thing, why? - What were you thinking? - You need to watch the show. I know, you know. - I was seeing, I was seeing some of the tea. - Well, 'cause I think the biggest tea about Whitney is genuinely, I don't know what it is, what happened. But like, genuinely watching season one and two, - Three seasons. - There's three, now there's four seasons. - Oh, sure. - But season three is where shit goes like, TF down, like, down the house. Season two, that was probably season one. - Yeah, I think 'cause it was like the OG. - Yeah, that was like season one when she made that video. I will say, and Whitney, if you ever see this, like, just know, baby. Season one was ready to Molly Whopper. Like, I just was like, you know, like, I was just not a Whitney Stan, if I'm being real. Like, everyone, like, there was like, definitely times where the girls like had, like, they popped off on her type shit. But then season two, I really started to come around to her because I mean, you know, you're a fuck. Like, every two seconds, you're like, shit keeps happening faster than you can keep up with it. So you're just trying to like, whatever. I think where Whitney grew on me with season two, because I will say, though she'd be doing some shit that I'm like, Whitney, baby. Which I'm really proud of her. I mean, her arc is like, absolutely incredible. Like, she went from being on the show to like, dancing with the stars, did Broadway, Chicago. Was, yes, literally was like, the lead. - What? - Yes, she's so Chicago. - She's so fucking talented. This is her last season of Mormon wives, and she started her own production company, and she's leaving, dude, she is like, because I've only seen that TikTok. I'm like, what the, no. She's so fucking talented. - Oh, wow. - Oh, I'm gonna be in a musical. - Hey, I clenched my jaw too much when I sang. So was I bigger that out than maybe? - 'Cause she was like, professionally trained in dance. - Mormon. - Mormon. - No, she's like, actually, her arc low-key like, gags me. - Yeah, honestly, like, um, yeah. - 'Cause it's just like, fuck it, like, you know, maybe dance and then, like, maybe fine, I guess. - Maybe just fine. - Well, baby must be fine. - Yeah, she, no, you should watch it. I mean, like, the show is like, really crazy, but her empathy for, like, the girls who struggle. - Right. - Like, I mean, the moms who get, like, outcasted by the group, or like, I don't know, like, randomly, the group will decide, like, we don't fuck with this mom because she did, like, X, Y, and Z. And then that mom will be like, damn, near, like, suicidal. And Whitney will literally be the only person who, like, checks up on her. And I feel like I have a deep appreciation for a friend who's like that, because as someone who struggled with, like, depression and, like, all those things, like, those friends who, like, really check up on you, even if, like, per se, you don't deserve it, it's just, like, that's, like, such a special quality in someone, and she does that with fucking everyone who gets put through the ringer. Like, any girl who, like, the wives are, like, I don't fuck with you, you're, you ain't shit. - And friend groups are out, I'm sorry. - Those friend groups? - No, just like, friend groups. - Oh. - Like, anytime I hear, like, yeah, we, I'm like, no. - Oh, yeah. - But that's also because, you know, I have trauma. - Trauma. - Trauma. In the sense that, I mean, like, friend groups, in a spiritual, we are all friends who, like, hang out with each other, so then we are a group. You know what I mean? Like, in the consensus, like, we would be a group. But, like, friend groups who are, like, we are a friend group. And, like, if we, like, we don't like what you, I'm like, guys, I actually genuinely, after I got my, like, graduation cap in high school, I swore off that shit. - Yeah. - And I was watching that back. I mean, of course, obviously, I think, in the Mormon wives of it all, in terms of, like, it's also a show and, like, it makes sense to have this. - Yeah, like, it makes sense to have those dynamics, I guess, in that way. But I'm just like, oh, my God. [BLANK_AUDIO] That's like my nightmare. - I mean, I would-- - All shade. - Yeah, all shade. I mean, I think like for me, I've had, I feel the same way as you. Like, I feel like in high school, I had such a gnarly friend group experience. And like, I definitely was left with like some people who were just like some pretty big pieces of shit to me. Or yeah, are getting like the short end of the stick or like whatever the case may be? That I feel like, thankfully that always made me like, branch out to like, you know, I mean, I have like a million friends from like a million different backgrounds. And like, I would say that I'm not married to like one specific friend group like ever. And I feel like my birthday party's always just like girl. Like, she cool, like, you know what I mean? - Yeah, yeah, yeah, totally. - Like the meme and that's like when you're cool with everyone, like-- - No, quite literally. - Yeah, I feel like that cattiness that comes with, I mean, their friend group is like really interesting. It's really good TV though. I would say yeah, yeah, it sounds like amazing TV. - The thing for me was just like, there was an empathy that lied there that like I think I had definitely. In terms of like, I don't know, I think in a world where people are quite literally, especially in their friend group, like getting canceled, people hate them. Like, dragged through the mud. And these girls have been through shit. I mean, shit, like, you know, you see like these QD, like Mormon divas, but like when they get into like the background, their stories and the shit they've been through and like, girl, you're like, damn, you still stand in mama like period. And I think that like in an age where like everyone's getting canceled, everyone's in trouble. Like everyone is like taking he and like whatever. I just think there's something really special about a friend who will like stand next to you during all that shit. - Yeah, 100%. And I guess stopping the point because I'm like, I feel and just in the summary. It was very much like a summary. Like we're going up a set by episode. Like yeah, and then like that, but I was just like, damn, like, like how important it is to keep, I guess like your individuality in any situation, like even if you were to be a part of like the Mormon wives, like friend group, you know, it's just crazy to me to think that. I don't know, like a friend could do something because everyone or because like a majority of people don't fuck with it. Like now you're kind of just like, yeah, I don't know. - Yeah. - I don't like, yeah, we're not really talking to her. - I'm like, girl. - And that's the thing too. There's like girls like that too who are just like listen to what everyone has to say. And then there's girls who like have so much shit to say, like 10 years down. So I don't know, the dynamics are interesting, but I haven't even watched this new season yet. - Right, I didn't even know there was four. I only got watched up to the second season. - Oh, girl. - Honestly, what you should do is watch the second debrief, put on your TV and watch three, and then watch four. - But then also, okay, yeah. Yes. - Just 'cause it's like absolutely gaggy. - No, like the girls are going through it. I'm seeing and I'm hearing and I'm holding space for that. - I've seen a lot of them post like, oh, here's everything that was cut because like this didn't fit the narrative for me this season according to the producer. So like I went through all of this, but they just wanted to highlight this or like, obviously you're not even able to control it. - No, well, I mean, same with like, I guess the Alex Earl show. - Yeah, I mean, same with every reality follow the life program. - Yeah, of course, but I guess like Alex Earl Stepmom was like talking about how like they were trying to make her seem like she was like an alcoholic or something, and she was like, girl, I barely drink. Like, yeah, like I just feel like I get like reality TV. They're able to like, you know, like twist and shout you in any way, which why I feel like my, if I were to enter the reality TV sphere would have to be like a competition show or something because I feel like the daily like reality TV filming is just like. - That's gnarly. - It's gnarly and like, I just again, like even in like, love Island or Mormon wives even, you know, they could be like, oh, you know, like, just crazy shit. - Because they could just kind of be like, we decided that you and then it's like damn. - Yeah, or like, you know, like, high like. - Which is like, yeah, like going through real ass shit, like an active, whatever, eating disorder or like mental health crisis, and then they're like, and the cameras are rolling, honey. Or a divorce, fuck, a divorce. - Or just like. - Or just like, your baby daddy being a whore. - Like. - Girl. - Man. - I wouldn't survive personally. - I wouldn't even survive like them filming me when I wake up like too early. - Oh girl. - I would be. - Well, that's what I mean. - Just drag. - I mean, no. - Just drag. - I mean, they would see me. What's the one show? Was it the Travis Barker reality TV show? No, Aussie Osborne. - Oh yeah. - Where Sharon was like always in bed. - No, exactly. - That would be, I would be serving Sharon all day. - I just like cannot imagine like you wake up and you're just not having a good day or something in the whole camera crew shows up. - I'm gonna freak out. I'm gonna freak out. I'm gonna start freaking out. - Oh no, I mean, simply like y'all wouldn't want to film me during a bad day. 'Cause I mean, the content you're getting is absolutely, I'm like, okay, wait. So, Chi Chi's about to lip sync for her life against Torji. - Yeah, literally. - Are you guys rolling? Like that would literally be the content I'm giving you. - And she lip synced for her life, trust. - Yeah, and trust. - Lip synced? - Lip synced, I don't know. - We wanna take a break to think a sponsor of today's episode, Talk Iotry. If you're anxiety, depression, or ADHD are more than just a rough patch, you might need more than just talk therapy or self-help tools. Talk Iotry connects you with real psychiatric care so you can actually understand what's going on and get a treatment plan that works. - Talk Iotry is 100% online psychiatry practice that provides comprehensive evaluations, diagnoses and ongoing medication management for conditions like anxiety, OCD and more. Unlike therapy-only platforms, Talk Iotry is psychiatry. You're seeing a medical provider who can diagnose mental health conditions and prescribe medication when it's appropriate. 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TalkIotry.com/upstairs. - Whoopsing. - I'm excited that we're not even crumbled today. - I was literally thinking that in the car. But this was like, honestly, probably the best week of crumbled, yes. - It was a Debbie collab. - Little Debbie? (laughing) - I did think about it all admit it, but I was like three weeks in a row, maybe, is great. - Zero, is it? - Oh, is it? - Guys, should I? - No more. - I'll let the audience decide. - No, let's let the audience decide. - Little Debbie collab. - Oh wow, and people think for their favorite flavors, let's just go out of it. - See which? - That's just got off. - Oh, this one is, that was last week. - Girl. - The Dubai style chocolate brow. - That one is pretty good. The cookies and cream right-chip cookie. - Well, and see the girls voted. - Oh, this one's brownie, right? - That one is so fucking fine. - That one's good. - Oh. - Banana cream pie cookie? - I know, that's probably brown. - That's probably good, yeah. - Okay. - Wow, just say the word if you want it and we'll make it happen. - And we go. - I mean, I should simply, I, I mean, I have just been putting, just been a garbage disposal. - Oh, it's fast sweet. - Of course, all the time, 100% absolutely. - Well, yeah, three days, shout out to her. - Shout out to her. - We'll get to you in a second. - Thank God. - But we went to Toa's concert last night and after I got Dave's hot chicken, the trio, the triple dip, who do I think I am? - Someone who can't even shake my head 'cause I ate a fucking chili cheese-covered corn dog the other day, so. - Thank you. - With jalapeno crema, horrible diarrhea. - Oh. - Just, actually, no, not horrible diarrhea. - Yeah. - No, I mean, actually fine. - I've just been having recoil in the toilet. Like, it's just not good. - Yeah, I've been like, it's been like, I also tried the day after mind you, the night of track night was nervous the whole time because that morning, I had the waffle, the Chick-fil-A waffle. - Waffle, chicken, sandwich, so good. - So good. Wishing they diled back the sweetness a little bit though. Can I offer you something? - I have the most yes or worse. - Thank you. - No shade. - Can I offer you something? - Of course. - What about the s'mores frosted coffee? - I didn't have. - It is so fucking good. - I need to put down, well, yeah, I didn't have because by the time I got there, it would have been melted. - But here's the thing, it's so fucking good. - I believe that. - I don't even care for frosted coffee like that. Like, I'm just like, I won't fall for the propaganda, but it's like literally so good. - Is frosted coffee like, it's pretty much a frappe. - Frappe, okay. I also. I can't think about this too much about McVeah Panic, but I've been spending money like whatever man Whatever man the lights are on I'm actually gonna stop that thought right there Um, because money's abundant and it always comes back and it's like literally fine Money's abundant and it always comes back. I Took my sometimes adder all this is funny thing We're like you want to use it to focus on work Yeah, and then you end up spending four hours online shopping on accident because you ended up focusing on the shopping Um, I'm just feeling horrible about that. Yeah, it's okay Wishing they would give me adder all They won't I've just been trying and they keep like not they're just making it so difficult and it's just like hilarious Because I'm like guys, but see how it's like morphing into OCD genuinely. I'm not saying that as a joke No, I'm you're talking to the company. I literally woke up this morning and I've just been like Rumidating so bad that I woke up this morning and I woke he was like walking on sunshine because I like wasn't Ruminating that bad. Yeah, and I was like whoa. Yeah, this is lit. I don't know CD I'm gonna set up an appointment. You should down because it just it just don't make no damage You know when you realize that like the shit that you're worrying about is actually not worry worthy and then you're like oh I'm free like it genuinely feels like oh wait. I'm free girl literally every single time I talk to my therapist And she like breaks it all the way down for essentially like an hour straight and then I leave the appointment being like You're so right. No exactly. Well the thing is I need to get a diagnosis Well, I don't need to get a diagnosis, but like I want to see what's going on because I'm kind of just like it's been Like I know I have ADHD as hell, but Me like playing with this couch. I'm like yeah, I know I have it's like yes, okay, right. Yes I know I have ADHD, but lately. I'm kind of like Oh, it's like doing some things that I'm like Not to be on TikTok, but I'm like oh, I didn't know that they can say so consider that something different Yeah, it's one of those things too where I feel like because it's such an extreme form of anxiety It's like easy to manifest into like so many different pockets of life Yeah, yeah, and that's kind of you know what yeah, we definitely have talked about of like yeah It's I don't know. I feel like you can have like a triggering event and it just get set the fuck off in ways that like You can't even imagine and like having to learn how to like manage it or like yeah No heavy on the heavy on the learning to manage. Yeah, cuz I feel like the biggest thing It's like just wanting it to stop Exactly, and then exactly exactly and then you know your therapist is like well then just stop it Well, because that was my therapist last week like she was kind of like well, I don't really specialize in this and I feel like Oh She hit me with the which is true which is true in like A Buddhist sense, but in like a I've actually been like countering every single thought about this thing with the opposite of that. I was like What but she you know she hit me with the like Well, it's gonna be what it's gonna be and it's already done. Yeah, I was like So if I ran around the world in reverse of the way that it's spinning really fucking fast and I turned back time You see then like that wouldn't be true or I or or I offer you compulsions Or while offer you you think what's already gonna happen is already done is already fixed. I offer you My compulsions like and then I offer you yeah, I'm thinking about it every single day replaying a memory about 16 times every hour Like in a way that's really serious. Yeah a whole 48 gone just yeah No very um Yeah, well also, I'm just like you know, I think hand in hand they both help a lot Well, because then I feel like they'll be like go just reaching for one hand. Yeah, just reaching for one. Yeah But no, I see you as well. I see you as well. We're just missing my Adderall horribly and it's just like again I beg the question. Why would you expect somebody with an attention disorder to come into the office and like Rea perperscription because now it's three years later you see and I didn't know that it was three years later So it's just like I'm feeling God awful. Yeah. No, I haven't been taking it On the weekends and honestly like Mondays when I just like I'm not doing too much. No 100% and all literally be like Well, I feel like that's also why I Not like stopped but I kept forgetting to re up because I would take it so loosely just because I do like For me Adderall does really take like some of my sparkle and Any day that I was being socially wouldn't take it, but then that was like yeah every day Oh, that's why do I mean you can tell when I'm with the days where I'm not taking my Adderall No, which is real because it really feels like you genuinely have one thought at a time Yeah, which I think especially with girls getting diagnosed so much later in life like there is a Building around that foundation that when you kind of just like move it a little to the left. It's like oh, I don't really know how to Operate this way in a way that feels comfortable or Just like normal. Yeah for like hour normal. I was like late in life or not late in life But like just later than you know being a kid or ever diagnoses. Yeah, so I see you in that too like that was genuinely the main turn off But like I think in just for me I'm kind of at this point now where I'm like it would be nice to just have it Though on the days when the voices are truly like yeah way too loud. Yeah So just like praying So just hashtag praying no just like hashtag praying and like also like hashtag Adderall Well, I'm like girl, you know, I got you always right and well and I'm like Literally just jokes just jokes. No, but look you might be at your correct. Yeah. Well, I'm like well That's what I was gonna say is like because I take it so infrequently. It's just kind of one of those things No, my we'll see we'll see yeah, just jokes though. Just show everyone take your prescribed medications. Please. Yeah Of course always But well to our oh my god to work No, we saw to his concert yesterday and like could can you and we like guys shout out to a bird shout out to a bird And it's just like somebody has to hold it down like that and on top of that I I feel like I was having a moment of If this was the multiverse That like what toa was giving on stage is what I thought I like there's a variant of myself that was gonna give that Do you know what I mean? And I'm just happy somebody's holding it down I mean like genuinely Genuinely to it is so fucking talented, which I mean obvious. We like fucking knew this we knew that no But just straight up straight the fuck up star mother fucking power because it's just like what about A rock star. What about a performer? What about live music? What about being a girl? What about being a girl playing a guitar like what about being a Let's that's like my dream love. No, genuinely that having to be like let me like go pick my shit up Yeah, and you have your shit already see I know I know low key what I want to do is take like lessons again. Yeah Um, we'll find the time somewhere. Yeah, I need to find the time somewhere because That shit had me like I need to do something outside of being on the internet. Yeah, can I be honest? No, I won't like Like I'm sorry. I won't like at home lessons at like 9 a.m. on a Saturday or something. Wait. That's dear though. Yeah But genuinely toe is so fucking talented if you guys are you know she came to LA and I think SF already yeah I don't know where she'll be at in the tour by the time this episode gets released But genuinely if she's coming to your city you should gotta hand her because that shit was like absolutely gaggy And I just feel like being able to play the guitar and sing like oh wow and like trousers and a fucking a line tank That's literally my dream. Oh, that's my dream. So good. That's my dream and I'm living through you to I just know that like you rock baby Just know that like baby girl you rock So good just know that so I had we had to wrap today. Right. I knew we were gonna I knew it. I had a feeling in my heart and like mother so key didn't even get to see like rivet gun It's just like but it is okay because genuinely guys don't even worry like rock is in good hands So rock is in good hands and Harry's quitting. Oh Yeah, oh, I've seen the clips. I mean he is just done. He's done with us Goes on to I would be done too. I feel like it's been a really good run and I just feel like When does his residency end? I don't know but I've been seeing huh it's going in the next year now, but the residency ends it's going into next year But the in New York no MSG ends on Halloween Okay, work. I don't know. I might just have to lie like that's like my like you know That's sold tie as fuck, but it's just like girl. It's just It's just like go rest my love. Yeah, go rest go rest my love and I've been seeing New Yorkers Have you been seeing like the New Yorker take talks about like the divas being on the train? Just like confused as fuck. I was like guys. Just it just It's just Tinashe Yeah Kylie but no girl. Yeah Whatever I know happy for you Harry Like so happy for you, but it's just the vibe of like when you look at him and it's like those TikToks will be like, what my best friend thinks I'm seeing when she tells me she's married, but then be like, what I'm actually seeing and it's like her friend at like 12, that's being a parry genuinely. I'm like, we'll just pack it up. - Did you see that girl's Bachelor, right? Where it was like, everyone's bags were like all of the one direction. - It's like her husband. - And then it was like her husband. - Yeah, girl. - Because she was like, don't play with me. - No, 'cause I'd be pissed, no shade. Oh, sorry, I wouldn't be pissed, but. - But I would be like, it's like what? - Girl, and that was me. - I'm like, so like to my friends, so which factory was that? - That was me bumming his girls off my boyfriend's TikTok and he, and he's girl that it was I posted in Evan Peters at it. - I'm sorry. - The air gets crisp and Evan Peters comes back out. - Yeah. - He was like, I was like, well, he was a part of this house, you see. - Yeah, this is like real. - Zane with. - The quad. - That just ain't even fair. - At least be sure of it when he's like, you know, it's just like that ain't fair. - Oh, the cutout, you know. - That just, like, one knee forever. - Why would you put it in your ass? - That, you, I'm not able to, this man specifically, but just ew, like, that I've been mad. - So when said, I've been pissed if I got my husband. - No, that's when I say, like, that's cruzier. Shout out Joe. Shout out Joe for making the word cruzier. - No, thanks. - So. - So was I supposed to pick, like bear? - There's no way I'm picking by, for some shit like that. Bitch, I'm picking Harry. - Yeah. - 2013. - Yeah. - 2013 preff. I'll take any of them though, except the long hair. - Yeah. - All shade. - Yeah. - I'll take Zane and Japan personally. - Zane and Japan, yes. - Personally. - Yeah. - My personal preference. - No, that's real and subtle. I just like, again, I know we keep being dead ass words, but I just like could not look Zane in the eyes. Like, I'm confident I could look her in the eyes, but Zane, I'd be like, no, I'm gonna play too much on you. - First off, I'm really gonna start going like this. - I don't even wanna be in the same room. - I don't even. - It's just like, Dull, I don't wanna meet my heroes. I don't wanna do much. - He just is too much. - No shade, Zane, I know you watch, but it's just like, no shade. - Zane, it's just like baby girl listen. - Okay. - Just listen. It's okay. - It's like, no thank you, Loss. - No, and we're good love, but thank you for offering and even banging down our email and everything, but it's just, yeah, I just don't know if I could do it. - No, like genuinely, just right now with the way things are like standing and looking, I mean, I think you have talent, charisma, uniqueness, nerve, and talent. Like truly, truly, charisma. Like, you know what I mean? - Very much charisma. - And talent, very much talent. - Unique. - And nerve, really, truly, like all the things, you know, that one could ask for, I think the thing that I'm leaning into and focusing right now is like, you should take that energy and apply it to the world. - Right. - Because it's just like here. - Well, he posted that singing video. - Oh yeah. (laughs) Oh yeah, he did. And here's the thing. - He did love. - Are they millennials? - Yep. (gasps) - There's nothing in these pink walls that we could help you with. - Okay. - It just, so it wouldn't be right for you to sit here and like, key with us, but. - I mean, but just like sending him so much, you know. - We are sending you like one big red heart emoji style. - emoji, red heart emoji is fat. - Yeah. - Yeah. - So that's about all I can say. - So that's what I can say about that. - On like, his name and like, what's going on there? - And I'm just, yeah. - I'm also just like, re-break, so I'm like. - Oh, your re-break. - Yeah. - Oh, yeah. - And the sense that I'm like, that's like all I can talk about now is what's been happening in the world. - Yeah. - Or just like in my life that I can see with my two. - Yeah. - 'Cause I was getting kind of loud. I was also on coach TikTok and I was like, "Oh, dear heavens, you know about coach TikTok?" - About the handbags. - Girl, 'cause the girls were showing me 20 bags a day. I was like, and I need 15 of them right now. So it's just like, I'm gonna have to break, guys. - As you guys know, I'm on like auction TikTok. And I'm on like, I've been getting those two now. - I'm on like Louis Vuitton. - I'm on resell TikTok. - Right. - Did I buy a bag? - What fucking bag, bitch? - I'll show you. - Don't, are you serious? - Listen, I am only as strong as my depression will allow. And you know, I just think like because, you know, once the grief starts to really kick in and you know, it's a tough month, September's the hard month for me. I just really start doing things that like, a little bit hashtag Blast, you know, you can afford those things and that's nice. - Yeah, I mean, I'm just really not trying to be a part of maybeing today. - Yeah, that's fair. I mean, like, should I be thinking about the future? Maybe. - Girl, what? - Ooh, okay. - I'm sorry. - I'll let you. - There's a future, I'm sorry. - Not like jokingly, but that's actually not funny 'cause there actually is a future. - There's a future in it's bright. - But like to say for, I'm just feeling, which mind you, by the way, everyone sign up to vote. - Yeah. - Midterm, so let's not play. - Don't play out for. - Let's not play so that we can have this bright future in question, but the way this shit looking, I'm like, um. - So it's just like one of those things where it's just like I'm only as strong as my depression. And like, I did just have to like real quick like do something real fast. - I was like, oh, it wasn't. - I mean, it's like like that. - I mean, it was. - Was it nasty, nasty? - I mean, it was like, it was nasty, but it wasn't like, nasty. Like it wasn't anything that I'm like, okay, let me y'all know, like, I can't be going outside or like, I'm gonna have an ice chip salad. - I've never done that. - But I don't be knowing what. - I mean, like, I feel like as long as, you know, money's coming in, therefore money can go out. - No, and you work hard. - Yeah. (laughing) - I'm excited to see. - Um, I'll be showing you. - Well, my version of that is, I have a, right. We're gonna take a break sometime. Do you hear me? And after that, I'm not buying shit ever again. But I did buy, we were talking about this. I did buy the pinfolio. - What's the pinfolio? - 'Cause you don't like it laugh, though. - It's a pin, like a pinback, I guess, where you can put your pins. Because, well, I'm like, honestly, that's the smartest purchase you've made. - Well, okay, but that's, here's the thing though, is it's like, I'm buying it. Thank you. Shout out Go Pinpro, shout out WDW Kevin. As y'all know, that's my Coco Mellon, but then it's also just like in the influencing, like some people might be influenced to run, some people might be influenced to buy some cute clothes. I'm being influenced right now to like gamble type shit. And that for me, as we've already talked about, like, and if you, you know, I do have proof of that on my YouTube channel, but I'm just like, I do be very heavy in my quick dopamine these days. Need to go back to long-form dopamine, because I bought one of these after realizing that, like my pinbag, I had this pinbag that's like this big from when I was like eight years old. And that shit bussing out seems like the needles are coming out the back now, because I've been buying so many goddamn blind bags. So I did buy one of those, and I also bought the. - Thank you. - I bought the little thing. - The little thing. - Good. - Sorry if I encouraged you. - No, no, no, it's okay. It's like the little things that the pin traders carry when they go to the parks and they put the pins on there. I'm just like morphing into somebody. Yeah, but it's like, the pinbag I'm a standby because at this point, it's just kind of like, I bought a bunch of pins from other places too. Like I had a bunch of pins that I got from like box lunch and shit last year. But it's just like, but okay, if I have to say, I mean, like, I just think that like having storage for the pins is one of the smarter things you could do. - Yes, yes, and I got all of it. - Yes, and on top of that though, it's like, I am in a sort of addiction right now with that. That is my like, that is my equivalent to auction TikTok. Like that's where I'm getting my like, my will. - Yeah. - And it's just like, ultimately, I don't think I have necessarily any real attachment to the pins themselves. - And which is very, very, very weird. - It's very much the gambling of it. It's very, but I, and pins feel more manageable than like opening Labooboo's obviously. But once I figure out how to get a PO box, I think I'm just like, send them to people who need them for their sats, you know what I mean? 'Cause it's just like, the dopamine. - Speaking of dopamine, last thing that I'll say on this though. - Man, and this is how you know actually, this is actually like, I don't even know what kind of indicator this is, but I did read download Sims. And when I read downloaded Sims, which I've been playing every single night now for like a couple hours for the last like two nights, which I just like, I don't know how much longer I can keep getting away with that. But, they made a fairy expansion pack. - Cute. - They made a fairy expansion pack where you can be a fairy and you can become holistic healer, which is like My dream like you literally can make an apothecary and then you can have people come through with illnesses and like make them little potions It's just like wait Genora Well, I love that you can do that. Yeah, I'm just like already sinking so much time into it It's like really crazy, but I like that. It's either that or a pack. So yeah, I mean a marble a marble Okay, I mean, it's like that or a geek bar and it's just like for us It's like we choose to do a geek bar. We can't do a geek bar. Unfortunately because we are doing a 13.1 I'm also trying to Have long jeopardy just period more important guys put that shit down. Yeah, now Yeah, if you're not trying to spell like 12,000 on on your teeth lungs like anything. Maybe it's just like Like put that down y'all don't need that man. Go choose some gum, baby Go go go go choose some gum and drink water and breathe in right same into that Genuinely same exact shit girl cuz the nicotine coming for us girl as we know. Yeah, it's crazy that we don't know any vapors I think about that sometimes like none of our friends vape Which is kind of crazy or like vape like consistently like you know have a vape. Yeah, yeah, it's kind of gnarly Like no one. I mean, I have like some friends who you know, I don't see Oz regularly that Juve and you know, hey They'll be like I'll be like talking that in a conversation. They're like Can you get up? Can you get up? Get up for me turn around. Can you get up? Where's the pillow down? I'm like, oh, well no cuz I know it's serious. I know it. I'm like, whoo I know it's serious and then they literally punch me in the face just kidding They gotta it's cuz everybody got their vice. Well, it really is just the flavored shit. Oh the mentor Unless you're unless you have the gray geek bar. That's just nothing Like it's just straight up taste like nothing. It's just geek bitch. That's gaggy like then I'll put some respect on your name because at the end of the day. That's just pure addiction Maybe you're doing it for the yeah, you're doing it for the V bar But like these little kids who have like passion fruit guava. I'm like girl That's how they get your ass though. You remember hookah pens when we were kids, and they literally be like chalk Let's work like that. It's just it ain't right When I was a freshman Like I was such a dumb bitch, bro But like when I was a freshman um there is this kid who would like always bring hookah pens right and one day There was a sub who like didn't care if we lived or died bitch like genuinely He was just letting us climb up on the walls right So I was in science class and we were back. We're like the You know, you would do like the experiments and shit. Yeah, and so I was like hiding behind like one of the That like in that experiment. Yeah, the experiment tables and I and someone put like those you know those big ass white boards That were like huge like literally. Oh. Yeah. Yeah, and someone like put that on top of me to like cover the hood So like smoke when I come up and I literally like hit the hook was hitting the hookah pen in class and someone took a picture of me And we posted it on Twitter because there is that trend. It was like that hashtag that was like hashtag like if you're Hashtag 8th graders going into freshman year do this and people were giving like actual advice and stuff And I was like being a fucking like Aggie bitch and I was like Hashtag like 8th graders going into freshman year. No way like hit like do this. Yeah Literally a picture of me hitting the hookah pen in science class And so I was like we get shit whatever like nothing funny mind you nothing's funny because Um some dumbass kid literally dumbass row like that's what I mean the 8th graders ain't shit man Like going into freshman year what well literally because I'm like bro someone showed their it was like This I posted this so long ago But someone showed their parent it and was like look how funny this is Bro that's your fucking mom bitch Like why are you showing bestie anyways Yeah, so then her uh this person's mom. I don't know if it was a he a she a what um called the principal's office And it was summer break and was just like so your daughter um Like there's a photo of her circulating the internet at our high school I'm smoking a hookah pen and like because it's summer break like you know, we're not gonna like have her Yeah, like in it. Yeah or whatever But it was just like we do have to inform you that like This is like cannot happen and like you need to like talk to her So my dad we're like sitting in the living room and I thought it was Liza who got in trouble for something and I was like Like bitch you ain't whatever and then my dad was on the phone. He pointed out me and he said And I was like what did I do And so he gets off the phone and he was like Hookah, huh like oh like where the fuck you get a hookah pen like literally about to light my ass up And shout out my mom like that. It's my fucking bitch Like my mom is my fucking bitch down and my mom because my parents like used to live in Saudi And so my mom was like what happened to our hookah like we had a 10 person hookah like bitch I missed that and my dad was like, I don't know that was a really nice hookah that we had And like I just was like in that moment like instantly off the hook like no Oh, yeah, we used to have a hookah and you know is the bus down with the coal on the shade. Yes And she was like no like it was like a 10 person you're gonna honestly just get it Honestly, you never spoke like hookah like like the big like the big the big the big baby That was like what you would do for like your 18th birthday when you could like smoke cigarettes I think they changed it now. We got to be 21. Yeah, you do but like when we were 18 we would like go to the hookah lounge Cuz we could like go there. Yeah, but I'm like I don't fuck with hookah like that because that shade gives you a head I was gonna say like a mother fucker. Oh my god, you're head hurt. Make sure head hurts so bad Like in the lounge like, you know, you might be smoking a cute like coconut pineapple and the person next to you smoking like the oh fucking G Yeah, like dead ass like the rock the shit they used to like pave the street. No, it was like like a single rock Yeah, so you're like smelling that and then you're like, you know, so it's just like what I'm like all the Wutada But anyways that my mom is so real for that. Wow. No, she ain't that well, what happened to art? She ain't that damn much it blowing up Anyway, um God well, got um with that we said we're recording a bonus episode and there's a story that I do need to tell and I'm doing it behind the paywall because it's just like Sorry, I can't have an on main stuff. That's really that can't be having people clip me up no shade gag in the sense that I'm not trying to do too much with this story But I am trying to like tell it in my free Yes, so with that means like a Bucadabepo a Bucadabepo a Hucadabepo a Hucadabepo, okay What's your name? Oh my name. Uh, I would say my neighborhood watch right now is soft saucy Drag Race. Oh, thank you. No, that's a good neighborhood watch and to a bird. Yeah, everyone everyone listen to gentlemen like so good Girl my neighborhood watch is fucking they've shot by macklemore. Oh, we didn't even fucking talk about macklemore Okay, let's give ten Give me ten give me ten. I mean, what is there to say? What is there to say other than Ed Sheeran? You're fucking foggy for that honestly though Honestly, period stand honestly. No, and that okay, I don't even too much because you already know You know what I mean? Look at this one. It's like you already know what it's giving, but this is what I will say is like how? He tracked me up so bad talking about some Guys like oh my god like okay mind you mind you rule number one If you want to be fucking for real keep your comments on you're not serious when I call the comments are off You're not serious keep but then the comments are on in the the cat's eye video right under Baby, no worries. We'll just blow not serious. You're not serious talking about let's have a conversation. You're not serious. Okay, no worries number two. I think my tea with that is like listen If you're gonna Obviously the stance that you's taking under the guise of neutrality is simply not neutral. It's not which it's not okay period If you're about to sit up here and be like nah, I'm really not fucking with that shit like this is my tea like whatever da da da da I'm more so like then maybe just say that then here here's one thing that I want to say too He and his post kept talking about how he's a family friendly show all this shit whatever and I'm like The 18 like I'm sorry what but then family friendly show on his social media Is that family fucking friendly bitch like I don't know why you're trying to make it seem like oh I have kids there Oh, I have and he's like a fucking Disney Channel star like Girl shut the fuck up. You're a grown-ass man like you're talking your head She's like and that's what I'm saying to his I guess I'm just kind of like Fuck all the vague shit, but mighty is like I'm really not fucking with the vibe of The net neutrality the vague he's not net neutral Because you sided with the person who said your tour can continue If you were really not neutral you would be like While I don't have which is fucking stupid as fuck but for whatever reason if he was like I don't have a strong stance But I also don't think it's fair that because my friend shared their views that aren't fucking problematic at fucking all. I just don't think it's smart to continue going with this group. If any venue wants to pick, so maybe any venue would have literally been like bitch. I don't know. Mackamore is like financial situation. But I will say that like, you know, he does give back like so much. Like literally so much. This guy was talking about how like he grew up in like inner city Seattle and like Mackamore would like fly them out, bust them out to like come to the studio, make music or like let them see like other concerts and like show them around and stuff. And like I just think that like obviously he as a person, like speaks for himself with that being said, he donated from the two days that he performed. He made a million dollars donated all of that fucking money. And literally he said, I don't want you money. I got this just for you. Keep your money, right. And Ed Sheeran and fuck shut up Ed Sheeran. Literally you can cancel your tour today. Stop making music. We'll never see your face again. And you would literally be just let me do you one better you could have. And this is what I mean. I guess by like, if you're gonna say, I just I really don't appreciate the vagueness of that statement considering obviously the social and political implications of your decision are speaking much louder than sitting here and being like, well, I didn't make the decision. Like I, okay, I'm gonna do you and better, which is as a, as a viewer, somebody who doesn't know, I don't know what the back end looks like. I don't know whatever you could tell us that if you're trying to say that it's like so scary and so harsh or whatever, I'll do you and better. Did you know that like none of those people would make money if you didn't show up? Did you know that they're probably like depending on your sold out shows because you're like actually like an a-list fucking singer and celebrity to like make money for their venue. So could I argue that maybe y'all could have actually sat down and been like, no, unfortunately I won't be doing that. And I'll leave. And I could probably promise you again, I don't know like the back end of music. So I guess I can't say 100% but it's like, I could promise you that if you were like, hard pivot, who won't me? They'd be like, like you would have been fine to even continue the show as is by maybe re-homing your set by me being like bitch, I'm a cheer and literally concert in the park like concert in the park. Baby girl, you could like it's just like you could have literally restructured your whole shit. Like even if it's like, okay, he owns all the venues in like this city, this city, this city, it's like, okay, maybe you would have to like I just feel like go somewhere else. Go somewhere else. I'm not playing in your fucking fuck ass city, but that's a thing of like I don't appreciate like, I just don't appreciate that like the actions and the words are saying such different things. Like that's what has me extra week about it is like you're gonna sit up here and be like, well he said that we can't do that. And like I'm kind of like a family friendly guy and like, I don't know, y'all know my heart, right? It's like, but you haven't family friendly any, you haven't given us any actual true. What's the word I'm looking for? Not vulnerability, but like, you haven't showed us the cards. Yeah, you haven't. You're not showing us the paperwork. You're not showing us anything that proves to us that you're like, oh, you're in a tight spot. Yeah. Oh shit. Like, oh, fuck, he's really, you're not giving us any of that. So now you're saying we're supposed to what be like, well, we know his morals, what you're what? What? You didn't even say that. Say them then. And also here's a shit that sent me finally. He spoke up about Ukraine. Girl. Well, because that's what I'm saying is we know what it is. So just like in the name of this, like, oh, well, I'm just trying to be like real with you guys. Like, I promise, I wanted Malkow more than fucking pink. Just go get up on the internet and be like, honestly, guys, like, yeah, it's team pink out here. Sorry, it's team pink on God and like, honestly, like, my friends are really upset because like, they're just like not fucking with what he said, which mind you was so tone. I want to say tone neutral within the context of like, Malkow more wasn't even up there lighting y'all asses up. Like, Malkow more literally was like, baby, it's free Palestine. And also for like my Jewish brothers and sisters, like, we know that this is a separate issue from y'all. Like, we just trying to like make sure it's all, um, right? Or like all human. Yeah. And I feel like that's the other thing too of like even in his post talking about like, you can be Jewish. Like, no one says you can't be Jewish in the same way you can be Christian. I think that like once you, you know, I feel like the separation of like being Christian and then being like a Christian nationalist, literally trying to turn our country upside down. I think there's a fucking difference. In the same way, they can be Jewish. But then if you're a Zionist, literally trying to take a whole other population of people down, there is a huge fucking there's a huge difference. And I feel like if calling someone a Zionist or someone who obviously is acting outside of the extreme of their religion so much so that like y'all think y'all own the motherfucking place. That's a whole other thing and that's not anti-semitism. That's not like, oh, whatever. It's like, bro, if you're a Jewish person, I think the prime example is quite literally my girlfriend. Like, she's Jewish and like, we do the Jewish holidays. We do Passover. They just have the Jewish New Year. Never once has she ever been like, oh, we can't have her free Palestine. Yeah, 100%. What does that have to fucking do with anything in the same way that you can be Christian and literally like live your life, live in God's truth, whatever and not try and fucking control everyone in the world and what's happening out there. Baby, shut the fuck up. So I just feel like, again, I don't know, that was more so I read like pinks thing that she put out and I was like, genuinely, shut your bitch ass up because shut your bitch ass up. She wasn't talking about bitch. I'm scared, genuinely. And that needs to be so serious. We need to be so serious. Are you serious? We need to be so serious, girl. I didn't know you were Jewish. My mind, which, oh, my God. It is, it's blowing my mind. It's actually blowing my mind. It's blowing my mind. It's you're not like, again, like very forward presenting like, you know, like in the temple every damn day, like doing your big one, like keeping kosher and like all these things, baby girl, even still I'm so sorry, you're fucking white. No one in this goddamn country's fucking coming for you, bitch. Besides that fuck ass, fugly fucking haircut, you've got for 20 years, bitch. That's the only thing they go and drag you through. And you're fucking almost got us back with the flippin' in the dip thing, girl. With the fuck out. No, and shut your bitch. That's so serious. Why? To be so serious, it really, it really is like, to be, okay, because guys like, it's just like, whoa, whatever man, to boil it all the way the fuck back though. It's like, listen, the concept of there being a power discrepancies so fierce that this motherfucker got on the phone and was like, yeah, we really didn't like that. He said that. So like, actually, can you guys all tell him that he can't come in and of itself? The very root, root, root bone is like chilling. That's really scary. And then on top of that, to buckle down to, and again, I think, anyway, it doesn't matter to buckle down to that and to be like, yeah, no, actually, we're kicking you off because you said that. Is this not like the whole first amendment that you all riled? Well, let me not say y'all, but like, isn't this the first, the first amendment that like our country is all about having this whole like, we need to protect our first, so let's protect. So let's, but they were not protecting. They don't want to. Well, but see, and that's what really has it very like sinister, very like, okay, the powers it be and the flavors it play. And it's just edgier and like, babe, no, that like lay you to rest, we lay you to rest, genuinely. And it's just like one of those things where I'm like, girl, I don't know why your spine is made of jello. I can imagine why, but like, yeah, of course, and that's the thing though, again, is like, and last thing I'm going to say on this is it's just like, I think in a time where we are all so, everything is very, I don't even know, I don't know, I guess I was trying to say polarizing, but I guess it's not really like the word I'm looking for, but I guess in a time when it's like, we are all, I don't know, I don't know how to articulate that well, so I'm going to leave it. I guess what I'm trying to say is the streets are begging for transparency. Yeah. The streets are begging for more than like a bullet point notes list on something so large and so nuanced and so like dangerous for you to be sitting here and running a comments off bullet points note lists where you're like, I just can't, I can't, I don't know. I don't know, genuinely respected more if he was like, listen, you guys, it literally took $50 million to make this tour happen. I have a team of 500 people who will not eat, be able to provide for their families, take care of people. And I was like between a rock in the hard place of like dropping an artist who I love and respect and was going to have on tour with me or telling 500 people or like a thousand people who are working on this tour and at the venues and everything else that they're not going to eat because I'm not performing there. Exactly. I would love to to a resolution. Maybe there's some like other neutral places where we can like have, you know, I want to come up with a solution, but as of right now, this is where I'm at. And if there's a way we could re-home or anything, like I'm just trying to do my best here. - Exactly. - I would generally respect that more than just being like, we talked Robbie, Robbie, baby daddy called. - He just said, I just can't. - He just said, I'm family-friendly. Bring the family's fucking out of this edge here in. - Bring the family's fucking out. - And in y'all who really I should say, bring the family's - Girl, and that's what I'm saying is I'm like, and that's exactly the point that I was saying at the beginning, which is like, if you're gonna try to sit here and tell us something, tell us all of it. - Tell us all. - 'Cause you simply have to understand the weight of this decision and like, and what this means. - And understandings. - And genuinely, like that's what I mean, 'cause I feel like there's empathy there for that. Like I could see how like if it took like $10 million or like some outlandish number that it's like, yeah, I understand that there's money behind it that like, yes, well, you have your personal assets and things that will keep you afloat. When you go on tour or more importantly, when you're someone who's like that high up, like nailist, like teens. - You literally have a whole bunch of people that are reliant upon you. And so for that, I understand. Therefore, you just need to say that. - Just say that. - With a flower or say the other thing. - Say the other thing. - My team pink on god. - My team pink on just say something. - Yeah, I feel like the Ed Sheeran pink tour like literally like flop fucking of a century. - No, he gagged it. He gagged it. - He genuinely gagged it so nasty. - I'm just praying for, I'm just praying for just, yeah, I pray for like transparency and situations like that. I'm just kind of like girl, just say your piece and I would respect you more for just being like, this is what's going on than being like. So, oh, well, and that leads into my story that I'm telling on Patreon. - Right. - But more importantly, I just think that like again, go be team pink on god, but we're team Macklemore on god. - On god. - And like, honestly, I'm gonna pop some tags. - No, and like, let's move, because like, you shit. - I feel like, right. - I'm streaming for something 20 dollars in their pocket and he's hunting and he's looking for a come up and this is fucking awesome. - I'm streaming his god damn magic. - No, because let's just go ahead and like, run that shit. - I'm running his shit up. He literally donated his million dollar revenue. And Ed Sheeran is a fucking baby back bitch. - It's just like the comments off, just told me everything. - A million, he is, Ed Sheeran has like what? 35, 42 million followers. - Well, yeah. - Macklemore has like eight million followers. - Right. - Significant, significant, but like again, a million dollars for eight, Macklemore has a fucking family. - Okay. - He has two kids and a wife. - Oh my god! - Really? - Yeah. - Well, and that's why he was saying he was so-- - We getting back into Macklemore. - Yeah, well, he was saying he was so moved by like, what he sees and like, he was saying like, having kids for him like, woke everything the fuck up. - Wow. - Because he was like, "A the next generation, B, those are my kids." - Yeah. - Like, what do you mean? Like, I just happen to be born here, type shit. - Yeah. - It's like a hundred percent. - How could I not be like, giving back mother fucker? - It's just like, stand on something challenge, like genuinely, or you're fall for anything. And also your actions are speaking louder than your words, so like, no worries, love. - And it's just like, listen, we're not striving for perfection. Like, we're not like saying that at all, but I think when it's like, it's something so blatant. - Yeah, that's what I mean. - And just like, what the fuck do the messages just too loud to be? - Your whole band. Finny, like, girl, everyone. - Everyone. - Oh, baby. Oh, baby. - But it was like a whole, like, yes, yes. - They were, I mean, like, you know. - They didn't play, they didn't play. They didn't play. And I'm just like, again, well, and now we're just beating a horse, really. But I'm just like, and I can't stress enough. - Of course. - I think if Ed Sheeran really, like, guys, after, if I don't take these job, if I don't take these bookings, I'm going to be, like, shook. Maybe they're taking everything from me. Girl, if you would have just said that, just fucking say that, 'cause I'm like, other than that, I can only assume when I'm gonna assume. And it's just not looking good. - It's not looking good. - And more importantly, I'm just like, girl. - Like, that man said, comments to fuck off. - And then cat-side video comments on, baby, were you just fucking crazy? - We're just going to the video before. - No, that's immediately where I went. - Like, you're such a dumbass. - It's just like, you're fucking, you're kidding me, right? - And I'm like, you're getting ratioed so fucking crazy. - Tenzie talking. - Like, that's like the final ratio. - You're getting fucking, right? - No, you're getting ratioed. - You're getting ratioed. - You're a nasty bitch, whatever. - Anyway, so let's go ahead and vote, guys. - Let's vote. - Like, make sure you're signed up to vote. It just takes a couple minutes. If that, and we have midterms coming up and it's actually like really serious, if anybody forgot, like, I know, be like, you know, we come here, we come to this place to key. But our voices and our votes actually have real impact in the world, and I just think we should like get it together for the midterm, shout out everyone who's living in states that, you know, aren't like blue and like, you guys are holding it down for us. So just know that, yeah. - Thank you. - So just know that, yeah, we thank you. - Thank you. - Thank you. - Oh, you haven't gotten to Totsky on a season. Wait, have you? - Season two. - No, not Totsky, yeah, 'cause all starts to, right? - Yeah. - Okay, boom. - We're at thank you. - Love. - Well, thank you. - Thank you. - Okay, well, that was all we got. - That was all we got. And just like, we'll see you guys on Patreon and like, all those things. - Jodora, this was everything. - This is everything. We'll see you guys over there and we won't be eating crumble this time. So no worries. - We'll be doing something else. We'll see what that is. - I'll just see what snacks we have at the stoo. (laughs) - I'm just honestly, yeah. - Just editing. - Do you make no else card or something? - Girl, I know, no I'll be mad at you at seeing our inventory. I know that, 'cause we be in this bitch like. - Just eating. - Can I get a big big tool? - Do you remember that vine? - Yeah. - Anyway. - Okay. - Can I have a piece of your life? - Okay, bye guys. Love you guys. - Bye. - See you next time. - Bye. (upbeat music) (audience cheering)