There's a Right Way to Move Through Old Beefs with Monica

And I went and saw my dad and we started laughing and talking that night in your new car. Yes, and that conversation and he comes down to my car and you say, it's a nice car. You ain't got none in here. That ain't safe. And so he starts loading my car with these weapons of mass destruction. And he's like, I was thinking you were talking about a first day. I know what you were talking about. Did you just hear what you just hear for the first part of the conversation? Holy cow. See, this is AJ. This is a first day kid. This is not, this is not a thought that he was going to put it. This is not a car. This is not a coach. This is AJ. This episode is brought to you by TheraFood and Shit. Hey, little girl. Hey, Jean, Uncle Jean. You like my gene? Do you know this is called a Canadian Tux? Yeah, yeah. I didn't know that today. Yeah, you're going to know a lot about fashion when this is over and done with. I really like this. This is very comfortable. Yeah, it's a good. It's not a stiff denim either. Very relaxed. But what we excited today. We do. We talk about fashion, beauty, talent, grace, honesty. We got Monica. Yeah. In the house. So excited. You guys know each other. Well, we've just recently met. We'll talk about that when we bring Monica on. Okay. But this is going to be the first time that I really get to like go into her brain. Okay. All right. I'm ready for it. See what's going on. So we're going to have a really good conversation. I'm so excited that she has made time to come and be with us. And you will learn like me that she is just a total delight. And she's a smart, smart woman. So, but let's do our proper introduction. Okay. Well, Monica is a multi platinum Grammy award winning singer, songwriter, philanthropist, entrepreneur, and actress who has sold more than 30 million records worldwide. She made history with with back-to-back number one hits and a record 13 weeks atop the billboard hot 100 with the boy is mine. Her Grammy winning duet with Brandi. In 2024, she and Brandi joined Ariana Grande for the Grammy nominated remix of the boy is mine, earning the duo a new nomination 25 years after their original Grammy win. Most recently, Brandi and Monica embarked on their historic sold-out North American, the boy is mine tour, which I think you went to. Did you? Yes. We'll talk about that. marking a full-circle moment 27 years after the song's cultural breakthrough. And right off of her tour, Monica. Come on in. Monica in the house. Welcome. Thank you for being here. I'm going to go into her chair. I'm close. You want a scooch. Close. Yes. There we are. Right there. Yes. Thank you. I am Moe Honeybun. I love it. I love it. You know they call me Moe. Do they call you Moe? We got you Moe's at the table. Oh my goodness. Because I heard Moe out there and I'm looking. It's like who needs you? They were yelling at me. They were definitely yelling at me. They have been calling me Moe since I probably was about eight years old. Really? Yes. Because your first cousin is on your team. Yes, she is. Yes. So she brought family right to all this. She'd been with you. And so I, your first cousin's name, who is? Melinda. Melinda. Yes. Has she been with you throughout your career? Since the beginning. Since the beginning. I was only 12 when they signed me. Yep. And my mother was employed at Delta. And she was like, listen, this is set up for pension and a lot of other stuff when this is over. Yes. We're not messing this up. Yes. But she believed that I should explore my dreams and that I should see what this could really be. But she didn't feel that she should be the one on the road. She never wanted to be a momager. She never wanted to be in front of the camera. And she used to tell me, when you're tired, if this doesn't serve you and who you are and who you are, come home. Yeah. And I love that that was always there because I never felt forced. Yes. I sang because I loved it. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. So it was a great way for me to start. How prescient of your mom to be able to be in that space with you at that point in time. Because that was, that's not normal. It's not normal, but I wasn't a normal kid at all. And now I have birthed an unnormal version of myself. So are you talking about your baby? I am. Yeah. Yeah. Got five foot eight inches of her at only 12 years old. Yes. Very similar to gorgeous. She is really a beautiful young lady. I got to meet her backstage when we met. I got to see you on tour in DC at Capital One Arena. The concert was amazing. Thank you. I mean, I you all are singers, you know, you're not real singers. Yes, you're real voice, no buffering, no, you know, and so I knew that it was going to be amazing. But it was really, it was really empowering. It was so challenging to start because I found out that I had vocal paralysis in the right vocal chords. So what does that mean? Yeah. That means it should be moving and it's not. And now I have all these major obligations. And this is when you want to be in the best shape of your life. And we've been trying to figure out what was happening for quite some time. They started to sound very different. The way I hear them, the way they would come out. And it was after I had surgery initially for my sinuses. And this was before the tour. Well, we didn't find out why this was happening until two weeks before the tour. Oh, wow. So you were already experiencing what was been experienced in it for a while. But Dr. Renee Gupta is the one that really figured out what was happening. Because I've always been able to do whatever I wanted to do vocals. And I started realizing that these things aren't happening. So I had to learn it all over. And we did it in a, it was one day where it was just tears for me. It was just tears. I just had to get an Anthony's lap and cry. It must have been frightening too, very much so. And not even the idea of the judgment of it all. But because I hold myself to a standard that I did not realize that I was so hard on myself all of these years. Until this moment, I'm 45 years old. I didn't realize that I ever put any form of pressure. You know, I'm more of a roundaway girl. I do my own thing my own way. I realize you have been placing this level of pressure on yourself for a very long time. And it was definitely there when you have 32 cities that are expecting to have the night of their life. Wow. Wow. So this tour was transformational for you in some real personal ways. Have you talked about this before? Because I mean, we didn't know. No. Okay. No, and the thing is it's no one ask. You know, we are the last people that people actually care how you're doing. For real? I mean, this is not a ploy for pity. I am so used to it when you start at 12, especially during the time where perfection was something that was pushed. What I love about now is people can just be themselves. You see them, whether it's online or out in public. Back then, you hit a lot. You had to be, you had to present. You had to. They wanted you to present. And I became noted for not presenting, just showing up and doing me. And we talked about my album title, Miss Thing. Yeah. My first album, Dallas would look over and say, this is a great song, but it's your turn. Go in there and see what Miss Thing says. Yeah. And I'm, you know, fitting there. That's great. Yes, with this very little information oftentimes about who was who? Because my first time singing for Mr. Davis, we go into Clive's office, I'm 12, 13 years old, and it's like a board meeting. And everyone is dressed to impress and on their best behavior. And I remember being in the hallway saying, they too still. And he goes, that was like this. He goes, he had on some shades. He goes, baby girl, you're not in a lamp. We're in New York City. And this is Clive Davis's office. Okay, and I go in the office. Clive, who? Yes, still stiff. I go in the office and I start to sing all between the chairs. Wow. All in people's faces. But that's who I am. And you want to be who you're, I feel like we are all made intentionally to be different. Designed different by the most perfect creator, right? So in all my imperfections, I'm in there just singing. And then they stand up and clap. And Dallas is like, we made it. We made it. Get her out of here. But that before they teach their - Yes. - So now that you're here, now, when you look back on that, how did you feel about Little Monika doing that? - I am glad that I didn't know any better. - Yeah. - Because I never had to pretend to be someone I wasn't. I show up as myself just as much today, as yesterday, yesterday, year, all of the time. I am me. And isn't it easier to keep up with that? I mean, people ask me this. You seem so authentic. Who you are, seems to be who you are all the time. And my feeling is, that's easier to keep up with. - Yes. - Because if I have to be one way, giving a speech and one way, talking to Congress in a different way, when I go home, it's hard to keep up with all that. - And eventually, you will be seen. - Yes. - What we see happening now, because people have so much access, they're finding out people they thought they adored. They don't even like it. - Yeah, that's right. - If you liked me then, you would love me now. - You liked me now. - That's right. - Because you're just getting more of me. And it's the me that there always was. You don't have to keep up an act. - So where did you get that confidence? So young. I mean, I can have that conversation. I've had it, I mean, I grew up in a household where we had parents that liked who we were. - Yes. - You know, they were ever trying to make us different. They were delighted with our voices and our sense of humor and who we were. And for us, it started there, because as my mother would say, you don't have to worry about what people think of you out there. Come home to be liked. We like you here. - Yes. - I do believe my family and where I'm from. Where I'm from, it's okay to just be you. My mother and father are from Noon and Georgia and I was also raised by my stepfather who was an incredible man. He's also a pastor. So being a preacher's kid, you know, we either act out and act up or we get in line. And I did a little bit of both, you know, I did a little bit of both. And being unapologetically myself, but always having a safe space to return, was what made me so confident. Even when I read things about myself that are disparaging, I'm still okay. - Yeah, 'cause you're like, I know who I am. - I know exactly who I am. And those people that need to know me will. - Yeah. (upbeat music) - This episode is brought to you by TheraFlu, makers of fast acting cold and flu relief. Since 2021, TheraFlu's Rest in Recovery Fund has provided more than a million dollars to families to help offset the cost of a sick day. We had IMO listeners share stories about how paid sick time has impacted their lives and wanted to share a few of them with you. Many of our listeners are a part of the sandwich generation, meaning they are responsible for taking care of their kids and also their parents or in-laws. We had one listener share that they have had to take sick time for their own recovery and then also simultaneously care for their grandmother, which made it hard for them to fully rest and get better. I think this is something we both can relate to with caring for our mom. 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And then, and how is that? How you carry that on to your, the table that you are in charge of? - Anthony and I have done a lot for it to remain the way it was as a kid. - Yeah. - It's very different because he grew up as an orphan, but he also-- - And Anthony is your husband. - Yes, he's incredible. He was my friend for 14 years first. And I always say that is the one thing I missed. I don't feel like I missed a lot. But in that friendship, I missed all the other things we could be. - Wait, explain that. So you missed him being a partner or-- - No, I missed that he could be. - That he could be because he was just a homer. - Because he was just a friend. - Yes, he was like, he was my religiously content. He was, and maybe it was just that I respected him so much. You know how you hear people say anything other than the friendship with friends, can tarnish it? - Yeah. - Maybe that's what I was more afraid of, because I told him everything about me. - So did Anthony was he thinking or hoping that there could be something back then? - You know that's been a debate at the kitchen table we spoke of. Because I have an aunt that believes, yes. And then I have a mom that's like, no, I think you both were just implicitly trusted each other and didn't believe that that could be in a relationship. And you missed it. - What does Anthony say? - He says he missed it, but he was always very protective. He is also-- - How long have you been married? - Well, okay. So he and I have been where we are now. three years. Three years. The friendship was 14 years, right? Uh-huh. So 14 years of a lot of tears on my end. And he was watching you. He's watching you. He's watching you. He's watching me navigate. Okay. I said that. I said that. That came out of my mind. I don't know anybody else. I'm just saying. Yes. That y'all didn't keep her. So something happened. You know, I'll tell you what actually happened is I think I grew to new me even better. And I'll stop trying to fix other things and other people. I think say that slow. Yes. Being the child of a preacher. You think that you can save everything and you can save anything and anyone from even themselves. I met and was in relationships with some really great people, but maybe not great for me. Yeah. Doesn't make them bad people. That's right. Just not right for me. Yeah. And when I learned to sit with myself and I did that throughout the entirety of COVID, I believe I ended up divorced about 2018, 2019 and just sitting with myself. But I was still in fight of life. I was still trying to save people I knew even from my past going back. I can help them. I can help Monica help yourself. Get back into the word, focus solely on your children. At this time, we were living in a hotel because I literally packed up from my marital home and said, I'm going to start over. God is speaking to me. And I can hear him clearly. I'm not going to ignore anything that's being said. We moved into the hotel and shortly after COVID happens. And no one knows what it is. So now we're in this hotel. You moved out for. Yes. It became a thing. Yes. Yes. Absolutely. And I am very big on protecting my past and people in it. I can share about me without talking about. Exactly. Without being negative towards me. Exactly. Yes. You are the father of my children. Yes. By biological nature. However, I don't have to disrespect you because I'm finding my way. So I never spoke on it. I didn't even announce I was getting divorced. It was not necessary. Not to me. And that also comes from the kitchen table. My mom, she never spoke negatively of my father. This is what we're doing. And this is why. And it was up to us to listen, to learn, to navigate the way that she does. Takes a lot of God, a lot of patience and a lot of respect for yourself and the other person. Because I do come from being a lot more aggressive. I found the softer side of things. Now, when you say, what does that mean? Because that means different things to different people. And I hate when people take passion and confidence for aggressiveness. So I just want to know, how do you define that? Because you use that term. My mom was definitely aggressive. Okay. I'm not going to. There's no mistake here. There's no mistake in it. I refuse to attempt to make myself look better. But I appreciate you trying to look out for Monica. Just want to make sure. Okay, sir. I was positive. Oh, aggression. Yeah. And whenever I was hurt, I reacted with aggression. That is where songs like so gone. Kick down the door and those are all real things. It's like that. It was a door. Yeah. Now those are 25 year old things. Yes. It's 45. Yes. But they were things. Yes. And I own them. Yeah. But, you know, my mom was very gentle. She didn't raise her voice. I've never heard her curse. Yeah. But where did you come from? Okay. I definitely, my father. I definitely am my father's child. I was taken to the fields at two years old, given a 22 and taught to shoot out in the free reigns. And my father was very different than my mother. And I think that balance is what you get with me. I didn't know how to balance them until later years. And so when I would be hurt, that's how I would respond. And that's what I was known for. Hints some of the nicknames, the Gunica and all these names. Now I didn't give myself he doesn't know what that means. I don't. I don't. Awesome. I love that for me. So we have a fresh start. Yeah. Yeah. We do. Because I'm like, who could come up with that name for you? Yeah. This is a, this is a younger self. Yes. Yes. Yes. But I give him just so to fill him because I know what you're talking about. But I refuse in my mind back then to be played with. But now I refuse to play myself. I don't waste my time in spaces and places where I'm not appreciated. It never dawned on me. Just leave. Yeah. You know, yeah. That is still that I can fix it. It can work. There is good there. We can make this happen. And you, you, uh, match that with an aggressive personality, someone who you're not going to, you're not going to just give me anything. But you're there taking it. Yes. You're there trying to fix it. Yes. But yes. Yes. Yes. I pray that my daughter sees me navigate in this way because even though my mom was the most amazing example, I chose within myself to respond the way I did to things because I always thought she was too nice. Yeah. Yeah. Now I understand what she was doing. Yeah. Now I get it. And your siblings, yes, brother, what was his personality? Because brother, sister, I would tend to be if there was a guna cut title between us, it would have been me. I didn't like it when I first heard it. And I think it was meant initially as an insult. And it was probably an insult. But I accept who I was and who I am because I'm not who I used to be. So I can laugh at it. Yeah. Yeah. We make jokes about it. But your brother is the more, now my brother is, it's zero tolerance. Yeah. Over there. Nothing's just Mr. Nice guy. Oh, yeah. Yeah. Well, yeah, growing up, I was. And then once I had kids, that's when I developed my edge, I think I think I was, she tells all the time they used to call me, she used to call me HJ for honest John because I was really a nice kid. Yes. And then once I had children, that's when my edge started to build. But his edge is even smooth. It's still smooth compared to what we would consider an edge. That's my mother. That's my mother. The only time he trips me out. He's a coach and has been a coach. But that has to be different. Yeah. Coach Robinson, I'm like, Oh my God. I'm yelling at those babies. Why are you yelling at them so much? She was so mad at me when she first saw me coach. We used to, when I, when I was coaching, we used to visit Washington DC, everything's giving and do a service day, have dinner at the White House, with his team, with my whole team. And then we play a game on Friday and go back home. And the first time we did it, we played at Howard University. So I took my team Howard University and we're playing the game and we're losing. And I am screaming at my players because they're not doing it. And we're there, the president and the first lady. And I'm like, Oh, and they just had dinner at, you know, they were just over with us. These poor little boys. Now they're all 6, 11, but they're babies. Right. And she couldn't believe I was yelling at them like that. Really? Yeah. That comes with it. That comes with it. Yes. That comes with it. I have a 17, almost 18 year old. Okay. That's at OTE. Okay. Yeah. You were telling me. That is an elite high school. It's elite. And for the far listeners who aren't in the sports tip, tell you, you, you, you, you can't just show up at OTE. You have to be recruited. And it is, it is a pathway to the NBA. So listen, I, my mother sits a few rows behind me and pretends that she did not give birth to me the entire time because I am, you know, there were times where, listen, I'm playing both rows. So I am yelling to the top of my lungs. And I, that's a ball. Take your shot. Take your shot. Wow. You, Reffin, are you Reffin too? You coaching and Reffin. The refs don't like to see me coming. Okay. There's a reason. There's a reason. But when I see him, I see that he believes in himself. I remind him that he can do anything. And he chose the number one for a reason. So I always remind him of that very loudly from the side. So I understand you, coach. All right. I'm with you, come on. All right. I'm with you. I'm with you. I support you. I support you. So just to walk a bit more through your career trajectory, I think everybody who knows Monica knows that story, but how did you manage as a 12 year old, you know, coming from what was a, you know, it was a, you came from a grounded home. Yes. You know, with a family that loved you. And you went into an industry that we learn every year. how crazy and soul-sucking it can be. How was it for you to retain your confidence through that process? How did you do that as a 12-year-old? And what were some of those challenges that you faced early on that you had to really kind of wrestle with as young as 12? I have always said that my biological father, MC Arnold Jr., he was stern and assertive. He did not play without outsiders. He was very loving towards us, but I spent a lot of years upset with him after my parents divorced. The forgiveness came from me realizing I needed everything that he and his family showed me because that side of who I am is what keeps me on this side of the business. My mom was always loving, always godly, always in the word, always helping, always teaching. If she had it, you had it. But my father, you had to earn space around him. And I used to sometimes just be looking at him like, "What? Can you chill out? Could it feel?" Yes. I realized I needed him. Everything that I thought he wasn't was with purpose. What did he think of your career? Your persistent mother was encouraging, supportive. Yes. How did your father feel about it? And were you close to him? Did you continue to be? I know you were mad at him. Yes. But did that mad mean you weren't in contact with him? So from about 12 to 15, no, not very much. But my brother, they are like a set of twins. And I remember getting my first car that you must have bought yourself. Actually, no. No, it's so tell it well. So Dallas was, Dallas Austin's assigned me. And he took on that fatherly role very early because he saw what was happening with my dad and I. And he used to always tell me, baby girl, he loves you. He's moving in the way he knows how. He's giving you, he's trying to equip you with things you may not understand. But he would always let me lean in and on him. And so he bought me this car. And I drove all night. And I drove over to brandy one that night. Would you just driving around the city? Just driving around the city, around the block. They give me this party at the risk all time. And then I drove, I drive over about one in the morning because my aunt, my aunt Evelyn is, she's actually who I look and speak like. She didn't play either. She was very much, she used to read the comments and she was sent us to play her number. And she would have her little pistol in there under her newspaper. She would be going through the Archie comments to decide what numbers she would play. And it was based on the Archie comments. Is she would base it on the Archie comments? Well, there you go. It's a theory. It's an approach. I don't recall her winning. You know, she won a life because we respected her to the max. And when she said something, that's what it was. And she said, get in here. Look, girl. I was always a little girl. My son was a little feather. Was she everybody had a name? And I was most like her. And I drove so she could see the car. But she worked the night shift. So I knew she would be up drinking coffee, smoking a cigarette. And so I just went there. And then she told me to go see my dad. And that was it. And you hadn't seen him. I had not seen him for me. No. And what precipitated her to say that? I don't know. And she's deceased now. I can't ask. Wow. But she told me to go see my dad. And I went and saw my dad. And we started laughing and talking that night in your new car. Yes. And that conversation. And he comes down to my car. And he say, it's a nice car. That ain't safe. Did you just hear what you're just here for the first part of the conversation? See, this is HJ. This is HJ. This is not. I thought that he was going to put it. This is not called. This is not coach. This is HJ. You know, and from that moment on, it's been the way we are now. And my father is a double amputee now. And my brother, I watch them. And it just, it does something to me because the way they take care of each other, you just don't know what the end of your story will be like. And so when I think about 16 year old Monica, and now it's just worlds apart. You know, our mom always says this. It's like too many kids waste time being angry at their parents. When, you know, as you grow up, you realize your parents are human. And you understand the context of who they are. Good or bad. I mean, all the stories don't end as beautifully as yours did with your father. I mean, a lot of people continue to be disappointed, let down. But mom used to always talk about, you know, kids having a level of empathy for what their parents could. But you know, I think it's hard for a lot of kids. I mentor a lot of young. And I think one of the big issues is that parents have trouble being accountable. My father's apology to me and my mother most off because I saw the way you treated her and part of my issue with you had nothing to do with things you did to me, things you did to her. His accountability, he took account. That is where, forgive me. That is really transpired. I said one day to my older son, right? And I said, I failed you with my choices. He said, Mommy, you don't fail me. You lift me. Everything I do in every session, every song. It's because of you. I believe because of you. He said, how do you think Melo played a way he does? What are you talking about? You failed me. But it's just me wanting to be accountable because my choices affect you. Then coming first is how I feel after the storm. That was an album title, but it was really my life in those moments or new life or co-read. It's a state of emergency over here for me. So I step away. I haven't had an album in a decade now for that very reason. Now it's pause. Stop. What do we need as a family? It doesn't always make the fans as happy. Well, but you know, but the kids are. Our family is starting to plan for trips this summer. Aside from all the basketball travel you've heard me talk about, we want to make time for a family vacation. And we're hoping to travel internationally this year, maybe Spain, France, or Italy because we really love to eat and Italian food is our favorite. We also want to invite our older children and their families to come with us. If they all say yes, we're talking about at least eight adult-sized people and their luggage. So we could use the extra space. Traveling with family is so much better when staying at homes on Airbnb. 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And Anthony reminded me that I now have the support to do it. Also inspired me. Because I'm not doing it alone. And then Brandy and I had a conversation that really was the catalyst for the change that was needed for us to do this. So many people wanted us to do it. But it was too much unresolved and we had not spoken at all. When we do all of this, we had not seen each other in almost seven or eight years. That's not the way you do a co-headlining tour. I kept saying we just need to speak because the women we've become, I believe they can come together in a completely different capacity. And that's what you saw. Can you share some of that? I know Brandy's not here. Brandy. I love you. I know she couldn't make being here. And shouts go out. So I don't want to ask you anything that feels like it's a private conversation. But if there are aspects to what the content of that was for you, you know what, I'm very protective of her. And it happened without me. I could tell behind I could tell, you know, I mean, yes, I could I could tell in our our Greek. And I mean, I get it, you know, a lot was required of her. Yeah, yeah, I did what I want. Yeah, whether it was good or bad, I did what I wanted. She did the right thing all the time. And that's heavy. That's a heavy load. And she loves for things to be perfect. She challenges herself. All that dancing you saw. Yes, it was her. It was her. Because y'all, if you didn't go to the concert, because are you all extending, because you talked about we've not decided. Okay, I know that there's a request you all have dates. Your promoters told me that they came up. They were like, we try to get them to get more dates. I was like, okay, I don't know if I can do anything. I'll do it if she wants to. But it was it is a show. Right. You all are moving. And those dancers, the male dancers, they were so good. I mean, she chose each one of them. Yeah, her and Frank and you are very close. They got together. They and I, you were like, I don't do all this movement. No, Monica's like, I like to sit on it on a chair and tell a story and Brandy wanted smoke. You said the smoke in the fire is an ice in this. Yes, yes. I was okay. This is why I feel like. So some of the fans started calling us Bronica. Okay. So Bronica is the group name. Right. Right. Bronica, we are, we compliment each other. Yeah. It's a marriage. So she had a lot of ideas, the opening, all her. Yeah. All her. The boy is mind the song, all her, right? Whitney Jerkins, Lashon Daniels, Fred, it was them. They called me. I was in Atlanta doing whatever I was doing. You were yelling at the bleachers. No, I don't know. No, I was about the original song. Yes, it was all her. That all brought us to this moment. And so for me, what I bring is the visuals. I want, I want the true story to be there. I was like, at some point they need to hear our voices, not just the songs. What was happening in our lives? Let's not avoid the tragedies and what made us who we are as women. Let's talk about our children and what transpired. Let's make sure the children are a part of it. I'm big on the fashion. She let me, she's like, okay, you have your way there, but you're going to be. You're going to get this two step right here. We're going to snap and pause and we're going to. And I let it happen. But that's the trust because she also trust me to protect her when it's not okay. You know, we were in Chicago and she wasn't, she hadn't been feeling well. A lot of anxiety, a lot of things were transpiring, things were happening. You know, when a show starts, those first two to three weeks, you are flushing through millions of dollars worth of ideas and technical things. It's not going to be what you have the opportunity to see right away. You know, if you think about it, we absolutely adore Beyonce and Usher. You think about the first shows, whether it was the car in the air or something, whatever happens, you have to fight through those things. And even when she's not feeling well, I feel this thing come over me that's like step off, give her a moment. She's giving you 30 years of perfection, acting, singing, dancing, all of these things, she's giving it to you. So give her some grace. I'm not even asking for the grace for myself. It just happened. And that's part of the conversation that you all had that sort of grown woman talk. No, no, it wasn't. Our conversation was strictly about what we felt for one another. And how much of that had that transpire back then that had nothing to do with either of us. That was all our conversation was about. So, Monica, can you talk a little bit about for our listeners who don't know what you all went through early on? Can you talk a little bit about it because I just came to know this story and I was appalled that the industry and the fans and the fans. And however it happened, you guys got pitted against each other without you even having any kind of real beef before any just it just was fabricated. It was fabricated, but things have a way of manifesting themselves just as the good does the bad does and that's really what happened. And when you think about it, it's not like we grew up with one another. I was in Atlanta, she was in California. We weren't even near each other to have a reason to have issues. But you see, it still happens now. The divisiveness can be so bizarre. If you see us share this stage, why would you come to this concert and act as if you're here for one and not the other. Well, there's one option with this ticket, ma'am. This is the way it is, but we didn't have those strengths as youths to say this is what we should do. And what happens is once that train began to move, it was more like a freight train, not a trolley. It was in motion and we couldn't stop it and it became a very real thing. So we've taken that ball by the horns because the rivalry should be nonexistent. Listen, I do not compare myself vocally to her or her to me, her tonation, her agility, the rest, the way she does things. It is branding, me, the strength, that gospel movement you hear, even when I'm singing a love song, those things are me. They're not to be compared or dissected. What makes the boy his mind so great is that the two of us are so different. But we had no idea that the song will fuel people's ideals as well. And so then we will wake up morning shows. There would be skits about us. There would be fights that they would create. It was all in jokes and fun and it became very real for us. And you all were held at this time. I was 17. She was 18. You know, babies babies. So if you imagine this was our, this was our high school. So you know how the two popular girls get pitted against each other in a high school. That can be dangerous because one has an influence on one group. One has an influence on another group versus acknowledging that our influence and impact together is stronger than anything separate. But a lot of this also has to do when it comes to women minorities, they're only a handful of slots. And that also fuels that battle. Whereas male performers, male groups, white, that traditional happen as much as with the men. Because everybody can be, you put three of the men on one song and women don't choose. They scream for all three. You know, it's very different. It's more, it's less black and white and more male female in my opinion or in what I found. And it is frustrating. But when our record was released, everywhere I would go, I'm Monica when I sing my part or sometimes I'm Brandy. I almost like, you don't have to choose one. You know, every other song you sing the backgrounds, the leads, the sing both parts. Get over it. We're over it. Get over it. Join us, please. You know, so I'm hoping that what they've seen in these 32 cities and all of the promos and all of the moving around, you can't fake this. No, you just can't. It's a lot of time you together. You just can't. One of my favorite moments. was when the two of you came on stage in the end and white and pay tribute to the queen. Ms. Whitney Houston, I mean, I teared up. Can you talk about that relationship and that moment in the concert for you on? Whitney was one of the few people that saw us for who we really were. And I think she and I had such a great relationship because although I was a huge fan of hers, growing up, immediately upon meeting her, I felt that she wanted some space from there. So we didn't do fanfare a lot. We did a lot of sitting at my kitchen table, her shoes off, laughing and talking. If Bob pissed her off, she could call my phone and tell me the story just as I could call her and tell her the story. You know, we shared those moments a lot more than we shared working moments, if that makes sense. So our relationship was when you see in the montage, I'm there for her HBO special, but I don't even have makeup. I just have lipstick and my hairs and ponytail because I'm really there as her little sister, her just wanting to show her that, yes, I admire you and I love you. You can just be yourself at all times. And she loved that I was okay with doing nothing. That was something she wanted a lot of. She wanted a lot of, she loved to watch them play cars and Bobby and his sisters were being going, getting together, cooking now. Like that's what we would do in Atlanta a lot. And it was off record. There were no cameras. We didn't talk about work at all. And one thing she used to always say is be you no matter what. Even if it doesn't feel good to them, it's going to feel good to you later. I have been perfect for far longer than I want it to be. That was just what our relationship was. So speaking about helping others, which we'd like to do with our listener question, but I want to ask you this because I find your journey has been absolutely wonderful. Is there anything now that you look back as a 45 year old that you would have done differently when you were talking to the 14, 15, 16 year old that you can share? Yes. And it is only one thing. Only one thing. I would remind myself not to have or bear guilt for making there is a such thing as survivors remorse. And it was heavy for me. Yeah. Until I was 24 and gave birth for the first time. I spent a lot of time giving to lifting up, paying for leaning into a lot of people that they just didn't mean me very much good. And my survivors remorse kept me there. Yeah. Because if I'm the one that made it out, I don't want you to think that I think I'm because I didn't. That's right. But the reality is that some things you're blessed with, they are for you. They're not for everyone. And had I spent less time trying to give everything that was given to me to others, I would have done a lot more in that time frame. And that's how 16 year olds feel. That's how 21 year olds feel. The difference is that most people don't have enough to give away at that age. But if I were seeing other celebrities, they adapted a arrogance. And you can't go. Yeah. I am above. And I despise that. But there's a place in between. When I talk to our kids, minority kids in college, I often try to address the issue or survivors remorse because it happens to us whether we're stars or wherever. If you've made it a little bit more than the people you've come from, that guilt is still there. And I see it a lot in kids who are going to college. Maybe you were the one that got in. You were the one that got the scholarship. And everybody is proud of you. But you're going to a place that your people never went. So you feel like you're leaving people behind. And a lot of times, kids in that position find themselves trying to bring everybody along. Right. So they're, you know, wasting their scholarship money because they're using that to pay for electricity bill. It was nothing that I did for myself. Yeah. And guess what? Guess who asked for the least? My family or family. My mother has never asked for anything. That's she would not even retire from her job. She kept telling me about these packages and branches and plans. And my father, he, he did everything. He was a hustler and he worked on freights at yellow freights. It wasn't my family. It was the people that I felt the most guilty for feeling as if I was leaving them. And I wasn't leaving them. I was elevating myself and doing what God intended me to do. And I, I didn't have the maturity or the understanding. That's right. And after losing everything, including a human being, you know, witnessing a suicide at a very young age and understanding that no one is going to help me fix what I'm feeling now. And I remember telling my mom that I was pregnant for the first time. And all of a sudden, all this stuff I asked her to do, she started doing it. She takes this package. She does a big good bye over at Delta. I'm like, oh, this is what I have to do. She's like, bring a grandbaby in. I'm going to be there. And she said, she said, but now you need me. Yeah. Now you need me. Yeah. You found your way. In a way that's admirable. And God's been guiding you. Hold on to that. Yeah. Hold on to his unchanging hand. And then I'll be right here in the mist with you. And so I've never had nannies or anything like that. I mean, if I did it again, I would. My mother is about to be 75. I would not put it on her again. But the reality is that I didn't know. I didn't know to let go to just let go and elevate. Let go. And that's the message because we have a lot of young listeners. It's like, it's okay to let go because you it's that oxygen mask theory. It's like, you can't help anybody while you're still becoming. Yeah. This episode of IMO is brought to you by Fairflue. Fairflue, makers of fast acting cold and flu relief, believes everyone deserves the right to rest and recover when they're sick, no matter where they live or how much money they make. When I was coaching, if I got sick, I found it hard to choose between taking time for myself to rest and heal and showing up for my family and my team. Luckily, I had the ability to take paid sick time when I really needed it. But not every American has that option. In 2021, Fairflue launched the Rest and Recovery Fund, and they've committed more than $1 million to provide micro grants to families and individuals, helping offset the cost of taking a sick day for those that don't have coverage. Everyone should be able to prioritize their health without risking their ability to put food on the table. That's why Fairflue is committed to keep fighting because Rest and Recovery is a right not a privilege. Learn more or help someone apply for the fund at theirflue.com/righttorecover. I want to talk a little bit about Monica now at 45. I mean, you've been a wise one, someone beyond your years, all your life. And my belief is that you came here that way. And I'm sure if your mother and father were here, they'd be like, yeah, as my mom would say, oh, she was always like that. What I'm interested in for women who are in our maturing years, and I will be 62. But I know that I am experiencing something very different in myself at the older I get. That is so much better than youth. And that's the opposite of what we're told. And it's the opposite of what society says to us, particularly as women. I feel so much more grounded, powerful, beautiful, healthy, and it gets better with every decade. How are you experiencing your maturity? Because you know we're near it, but you are becoming even more. How do you think about that? How do you articulate that? I always say this is the happiest I've ever been in every area of life. It seemed as if when I was younger. When business was great, prime example. Break up, then number one record. Like, whoa, damn. Couldn't they just go hand in hand? Couldn't you just be happily married and have a number one record? Those don't happen at the, you know, now the balance of joy in all things, it's really there. And I'm unapologetic. I think that's the most fun. When I don't wanna go, I don't feel like I need to give a reason. I'm not coming. When I don't feel okay, I don't have to explain it. I just don't feel okay today. I'm confident in those things. And I know that anywhere I'm supposed to be, I'll be there. If something doesn't work out, I'm not crying about the things that don't happen anymore. There is just this joy that has overtaken. Now, I enjoy the way I look more now. I don't even pick it apart. I know what I like. I know what works on me, whether it's on trend or not. It's what I'm buying, it's what I'm doing. It's that, I don't know, it's just the joy. I like the way that I speak. I used to say, oh my God, that I might have said it to stern. That I don't question myself anymore. I said it exactly how I was supposed to. If you don't understand it, you're bad. Yeah, you know, but there was a time where, especially right at that 35 point, I became very concerned with how I made everyone else feel all the time. Maybe it was because I had just given birth to a girl for the first time. You know, I had the boys. And being a boy, mom is very different than now. I don't know, I got two girls, but I've heard. Listen, it's different because that ball of emotions when it happens, and it's my time and her time in the same house. What is this? You know, that's different because the boys used to just be like, you all right? You know, and now she's like, Mom, are you listening? You know, so they're just totally different, but I'm so secure in who I am and who's with me and who's not. I'm okay with everything that I let go of. I'm okay with, I don't feel like there's an opportunity that I was supposed to have seized that I didn't. I'm loving it. I'm loving it all. Don't you all, you all feel it, right? Yes, I see, I've had so many people say, oh my God, I'm turning 30 and they have tears. Young lady that used to work for me, she cried for weeks before she turned 30. And so I looked at her and I said, do you know the alternative to not aging? You're right. It's the alternative is, you know, as much as we all want to see our Lord and Savior one day, not today. Yes. So the alternative for not aging is dying. That's right. And many of us didn't make it. We're one of the ones who did. So when do you celebrate that? I say 45 so fast. And if you catch me, if you catch me in September, I'll be saying 46, so you can prepare for me. This is what my son does. Crystal says it all the time I be 62 in January, but I've been saying I'm 62. Yes. 'Cause it's coming. It's coming. And they're like, you don't want to be there. Ma'am, you're not 62. You're 61. It's like, well, it's coming. You're round, I'm there. I'm saying all the things. I'm here. You there. I want to get there. Yes, every year is success. Yes. And when I look at some of the youngers, I'm really proud of all of us because some of the 25s, our 45s, we're holding up, but it's how we see ourselves. It's how we take care of ourselves. It's how we love ourselves. Because if you're beating up on you, you start to look like what you've been through. I don't want to look like what I've been through. I don't want to do that. Yeah. So I'm happy. Maybe this is a good time to segue to our listener question because that's also an important part of IMO is that we try to impart wisdom on some of our listeners who call in with questions. Do you think it's a good time? I have whatever you say. I love you guys, it makes you sure. My brother would definitely, my test would definitely be like, son of you. Son of you. I'm turning 34 soon, and most of my friends are having babies. I've never strongly wanted to be a mother, and my partner is fully supportive of that. But recently, I've been feeling torn. Most days, I'm certain I don't want kids. But others, I feel like I'm missing out. How can I tell if those feelings come from social pressure, hormones, or a real desire to be a mom? And she said she's 34. She's 34. 34. So she clock ticking. That's what they tell us. Yeah. Well, see, this one is hard because, again, everything is faith-based for me and my family, right? So what I would do, if I were her, I would start praying and journaling about all of my feelings. Don't get pregnant in the midst of that. Because that will simply just compile those feelings even more because you figure it out first because becoming a parent is until you leave this earth, you will be parenting. We were talking about that walking in. Yes, it just changes, but it is constant. I am just as concerned about my 21-year-old as I was when he was 12 or when he was two. And people, we don't talk about that as parents. I mean, it's just sort of like, have a baby. Right, the cousins just change. Yeah, but they change forever and ever and ever. It is for ever commitment. And it is an act that you have to be in the most selfless state of mind to do well. Yes. Everything is not done well if you are your first thought. Yes. And there will be some people that argue with me about that. But I don't care what you say. If you wake up in the morning and your first thought is you, you're not ready. That's right. You're not ready. That's right. Because when I wake up, it just alternates between which one of them I've gone to sleep thinking about accommodating, checking on something for, organizing with, praying for or with, I mean, even with a 12 year old, you pull up to school, I have already started her. She prays with me before she gets out of the car because I need her to be able to navigate her day with a clear mind and know who she is and who she is. Yes. What did that happen before you had a child? No, did that happen before you had a child? What happened before I had a child? What? Somebody. Anybody about yourself? No. What the difference is is that I always wanted to be a parent. So I was a child that would play with, you know, I was, I was always the child that was destined. I didn't get to meet my grandfather, Alfonso Page, right? I didn't get to meet him. He was killed in a car accident before I was born. And my aunt Ruth, who just recently passed, wrote me a letter when I got married about how my mother, her, their father's words, was born to be a mom and that she saw these same things in me. And remember my mom thought I would be a pediatrician because I always would gather the kids that, so I always wanted to be a parent. I tell my friends that say they aren't sure, don't know. Right. Be still and know the answer. We've been having this conversation for like two years. - Really. - Mm-hmm. - Be still. - Yeah. - Until you know. - Mm-hmm. - Because it is the one thing that children suffer the most when you aren't ready, when you don't want it, when you don't love it, or when you, or when you don't know your why, right? I think that if you were just trying to have a child before you thought about why. - Yes. - Right? - Because you're why completely alters how you will parent. - It does. - Right? Because if you were having a child because you are lonely, - Yes. - Or your mate wants one. - Right. - Or you want a many me. - Yes. - Or you know, you want somebody to love you unconditionally. - Yes. - Right. To me, those are all the wrong reasons. - All the wrong. - You know. And if you haven't dealt with your childhood traumas, then you, you almost just put those onto your children. That's why I say it's a selfless act. - It is. - Even co-parenting. - Because guess what? - Yes. - You know, people, the conversation was very heavy. When I gave birth to the boys, I wasn't married. When I had my daughter, I was, right? I've done it both ways. The requirements are still the same. Because guess what? I still ended up a single parent both times. So the reality, even though I spent decades with each person, I haven't been with many people. The reality is still that I am their mother. 24 hours a day. What they require, it is important for me to make sure I am speaking to and teaching to that. If I can't bring my feelings out of it, some of the time, especially when you co-parent. If you can't pull yourself out of it, you're not gonna do what's right for them. So you're not ready, but I do hate that now people are looking at the biological clock versus the maturity, the stability, and the full-on preparation it takes to be a good parent. And that's why I always say, I want, I try to promote the notion that it is completely okay not to have kids. It is. Ever. You'll definitely be more wealthy. Exactly. They are expensive. Exactly. They are an expensive commitment. And they never go away. If I may, because I'm not a woman, so no. But this reinforces what I think is important for men, just listening to you and understanding Catalina's issue, is you have to pick the right partner for anything. You have to pick the right partner. I mean, you know, what you said Monica about parenting is forever. Me, you always say, know your why, that's all right. And dealing with your childhood trauma, all of that is really important. But for the men out there, you see what women are going through to make this decision. It is really important to pick your right partner if you want to have children. So that's another way of saying, men should be as cautious as we're saying women need to be. Well, you all put it very nicely, you should hear my conversations with my son. What did you say to your son? I cannot say it to you. Okay. But I do. I keep it very honest. I keep it very honest because they don't have a mother that would ever support them doing anything other than being great fathers. That is a non-negotiable because I know what single parenting feels like. And if there is a way to make sure that they have healthy whole relationships and both parents, that's the goal that it's never not the goal. And so I use myself and my own choices and my experiences very openly for them to make theirs. My firm message is, first of all, it is absolutely fine not to want children. It is not selfish. It is probably the most unselfish thing you can do is to choose to be a parent. But like you said, Monica, because once you choose it, society needs you to be really good at it. You know, before I kept the nerve to be like, we can have three or four and I was like, well, you're president now. That's our third child. I don't have room on this schedule, but that's just me. So. Well, Monica, this has been a real treat for me. You are so good to meet you. You were the first person that I brought up when she and I saw each other. I said, you do know, have a brother, and we don't play about each other, and I love watching you to communicate. Oh, so of course she didn't tell me. You didn't? No. Hi, I'm Molly Graham, host of WorkLife, a podcast from Ted. 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