The Unbreakable Spirit of a Canine Queen

[MUSIC] >> Well, howdy. Welcome, right on back. I'm Justice Smith. And I am Alia Chavez, and this is the read. Thank you for joining us. >> It is indeed and thank you for show. >> Well, how are you checking out in this end of January? >> No. >> Already here can time just slow down a bit. >> Well, things are pretty measurable in New York. We got like 11 inches of snow the other day. The temperature won't be above freezing until Valentine's Day, or so, so yeah, so right now there's just the streets, and the sidewalks are mostly clear. But of course, the snow has just been pushed all over the place. So the bus stops are a fucking mess. Most of the walkways, like if you need any sort of assistive device in maneuvering around the city, that's not going to-- >> Jeez. >> Because it ain't no space for anything with wheels or-- it's just really a fucking, it's a reminder. >> So just be bad. >> I mean, yes, the storm was-- it was that winter storm that had the country fucked up, and so they were like-- >> I heard. >> Yeah. >> Sorry I don't have any schedule. >> Yes, you did. So things are-- they told us, you know, a bunch of snow in New York, and you live in New York, you anticipate a bunch of snow. Like this is not even the worst snow storm I've lived through here, but it is a big pain in ass. >> And just for context, folks, at home-- our homegirl, I'm talking about living in Atlanta. >> Oh, yeah, yeah, she lived in Atlanta, and so-- >> They were like, yeah, about that ice, you're not-- you're not having no nothing. You're not having no kind of nothing, so you didn't think you was. >> You just thought about having anything. >> You're not, right. So, um-- >> Well, I saw Laney and her adorable little boots. >> And did you see her flip around? She's so dramatic in them shoes. >> I love it. >> I love when the little doggies have the little boots on, >> She's so dramatic. >> Awkward walk. >> And she's just like-- >> She's trying to kick them off. That's what she-- >> Yeah, that's-- >> She's strong. >> That's exactly what it is. >> She's such a little shit. >> But then they don't realize that it's like, I'm trying to help you. >> Right. So, I actually did, I let her kick one of the boots off, and she ran around with one cold foot, and then all of a sudden, next time she understood, why I had to put the boots on, and she didn't fucking fight me, like, girl, hello? You think I'm doing this for my health? >> I love that right off top link was like, let me tell you what I'm not sipping on, ice. I'm not gonna do it. >> I don't know, Laney loves in her boots. She'll climb off, she's-- >> They do, yes. >> The snow piles are bigger than she is. So, she's going up there, running around on the snow, having a grand old time, now that she has her boots on, yeah. >> Boots and all, Link would be like, I'll pick her up and put her in the snow, and she would do this thing that she does all the time, but she's just looking up at me, like, are you satisfied? >> Can we share with you finish? >> Right, like, wrap this shit up, take me back indoors, Rob alone, quit playing with me. >> Okay, well enough about our children. Let's talk about what the streets got going on, starting with some black excellence. First off, I'm going to give a big and mighty black excellence to the love of my life, Lena Waith. Lena Waith's making her play writing debut next month and Baltimore. At the Baltimore Center stage with the play Trinity, and this is something that I had heard about for a while, and I just fired it to be incredibly inspiring, and Lena is always like one of those people who's like, not Hollywood in any stretch of the imagination of this. There's like a really big-hearted, amazing soul, and I love this shift into, and, like, motivation for other black people to really take play writing and stage performance seriously. And I will be out in the Baltimore streets to go and see this. It starts on February 12th. This is not an ad- >> In the ad, I love to do this, because I genuinely- >> She's the love of your life. >> Yeah. >> So yeah, it's from February 12th to March 8th, and you can go to centerstages.org, or if you're interested in going to see this play, about three folks in a single room, and all of the fantastical- >> Nightmare. >> Meditative spiritual things that can come out of that. >> Congratulations, Madam Wave. I can't wait to come see it. I'm also going to give a big mighty black excellence over to the powerful folks of the sinners, film production. >> Oh, yes. >> Most Oscar nominations at once in history. >> Wow. >> What was it, 16? >> Something like that, yeah. I said, wow, that is actually impressive. I don't want to be a pessimist. >> Yeah, I wasn't going to say it. I was going to try to stretch out the optimist part, or just the love. >> Right, right. >> So I'm really trying not to say the part that we're all thinking, but some incredible nominations. I think nominated in just about, or yeah, nominated every category it could be. So, I mean, and very much deserve the film as excellent. So, I am very happy for the people involved with the production, absolutely. >> And I'm just going to hold that to my heart because- >> Yeah, yeah. >> I don't know. >> Hold on, so it- >> Oh, Jesus, what an amazing piece of filming. I watched it again last night for like the 20th time, and it is just so goddamn good. It's so goddamn good. And I'm just going to say this for the, at the, like, if Delroy does not- >> Yeah, yeah, yeah. That would be a great just actually. It would, I'm sorry. That's going to be the one that's going to get me out of my seat. Like, that's going to be the one where I might light a torch. >> Because then- >> Carry up this fork. >> Woo. >> Not only- >> Man, came through. I forgot he was British. >> A lot of, okay. All right, congratulations to all of these amazing entertainers, providing black entertainment, inspiring black entertainers. And if you yourself are a black creative mind, out there, don't you be deterred by the absolute fuckery and monopoly that Hollywood is playing right now in these streets. >> Yeah, that's a room. >> They always go on now what we got to say. And we got plenty. >> All right, we're going to do some hot tops, and we're going to start with this again. Have you seen one battle after another? >> No, but I'm starting to feel like I should. Like, I don't think you'll like it. >> What, I don't think you'll like it. >> Yeah, I don't think he's coming up. I'm like, should I just buckle down and watch whatever this, because I, the, the pictures alone, the Tiana all pregnant with the gun, and then Leonardo DiCaprio, whatever he doing, and that little light skin girl, I'm like, I don't know. You know, it don't give my vibe, it don't. >> It isn't, it's not your vibe at all. >> All right. >> It's not your vibe at all. I think it's a really good film from like a cinematic standpoint. A lot of the shots are excellent. A lot of the directorial decisions are excellent. >> Okay. >> You know, there's kind of like not really cat and mouse, but there's this sort of frantic chasing energy throughout the film, which is really compelling. >> Okay. >> But baby at the heart of it, it almost feels like one by one after another, almost feels like Amelia Perez in the way that it kind of feels like this white man from outside the experience who's like, I'm going to give the woke radical left something to just-- >> [LAUGH] >> Oh god. >> Oh, I'm out of my depth on a lot of the nuance. Like, there are some things in the film that even if you watched it, you would roll your eyes over bigly, just as black people. Like, I'm actually really curious what a lot of black American people who watch this have to say. Because at best, if you're aware, and if you listen to his got in a podcast, I know you rolled your eyes. I know you rolled your eyes. >> Got you, okay. >> It was so obvious that this man didn't know how to write blackness, and there was also missing the mark on some things that he had to say. But it's also, I don't know. There's one part where Lidore Caprio is in the car with Benicio Del Toro's character, and he's talking about his little mixed-child, and he's like, you know, mind you, the movie is a satire. It's not like-- >> Okay. >> It's not like, ha ha, satire funny, like Jojo Rabbit or some shit. But it has elements that are like, okay, this is absurd. and they're obviously poking at such and such, but there's a moment where Leonardo, I don't even remember their names, but he's in a car with Benicio's character and he's talking about his daughter and it seems like it's supposed to be this like really like vulnerable, sobering moment for him and he says some shit like, you know, I can't even do her hair. Can you believe that? Like, I don't, and I was like, I literally think I said out loud. Of course I can believe it, bitch. You know what, man, you've got a black child. And you ain't got no niggas around you. Like, of course you'll don't have to do this child hair, bitch. - Right. - Whereas I can imagine a lot of the Hollywood voters and like, you know, Amistad fans are gonna be like, oh my God. - Not Amistad, right? - He wants to be close to it. You know, like, how do I get like, you know, they vote for white guilt? - Right, oh, that's valid. Okay. I was wondering if Chase Infinity played his, Leonardo DiCaprio's mixed child. So yeah, I mean, I don't know how to do her hair. It's just so lazy, especially considering mixed hair is so easy. Like, but okay. Oh, now that I'm looking at the person who wrote and directed this, all questions have been-- - Paul Thomas Anderson. - Yeah, I mean-- - Revered director. Absolutely fantastic filmography. But I was, when I watched this movie, I was like, this is so excellent in so many ways. But at the heart of it, Leonardo DiCaprio is playing a former freedom fighter that also lusted after a black woman and then had a baby with her and then got like, became a burnout and like an irresponsible burnout that then has like, as a black person that think like us. So many moments where I was watching this and going, all right, and there was also clearly, there were moments where black characters were speaking that were clearly like improv. So it was like, the script likely say it, such and such and such and such, tease blank. And then he would just direct them to freestyle like, 'cause he doesn't know how to write dialogue for them. - This is my Rudolph's husband. - Is he? - I had, I'm sitting there looking at his Wikipedia. I'm like, I've never seen any of these movies. And then finally it says, he's in a relationship with my Rudolph with whom he has four children. I'm like, all right, that's that white man. So that's why he said he, is that why he said, now that's even sadder if you was referring to your own three quarters white kids because do that here even have a kinky. - Let's just move on. - Okay, let's just move on. - All right, but I, you know, I might do that thing where I go and at least watch all the movies that are nominated for best picture. At least that's what I'm gonna do for sentimental value. 'Cause that's the only movie and actor supporting role that I haven't seen and actress in a supporting role. That's the only one in that, I hate that word. That's the only, what I haven't seen a lot of those acting categories. - Okay. - And you know, the Oscars love to give it to that one film, Ain't Nobody Watched. - Ain't nobody seen. (laughing) - Yeah, they do, so. - To then post it up on The Streamies and be like, Oscar-winning blank for you to go watch it. - Yep, exactly that. - You know what, we might have to, I might have to like meditate the day of, 'cause I know y'all are gonna kiss me off. - Well, yeah, I'm looking at, yeah, Bogonia, F1, Frankenstein, Hamnet, Marty, Super, I've only seen one of these at net centers. So I got a lot of work to do. I got a lot of work to do. - You could skip Frankenstein for sure. What was he up on? - Hamnet, Marty, Supreme, one battle after another, the secret agent, sentimental value, train dreams. Wait, oh, wicked, I'm like, that's last year. Bogonia, F1, Frankenstein. You could skip it, Bogonia. - Is F1 about cars? I'm sure I can skip it, too. - Yeah, skip pound one, too. It's actually not bad, but you're not gonna like it. (laughing) - Oh, like. (laughing) - Okay. - I'm just, I'm just saying, oh, God, all right. So Kanye West's apology apparently has a brand-new apology, apology, and the dip thing. An apology that he definitely 100% means you guys. He means it really, really a lot. - Apology and the prisoner of ass, Kavian. This one says, you actually didn't read it. Did you just read anything right? - I did, I read the whole thing. In that water. - Where is it? - Well, it's on the Wall Street Journal because isn't that where you were the thing? - Did they put it under a pay walk? 'Cause that would be crazy. - I couldn't get the full. - Do you want me to read it? - Hmm, how long is it? - It's a bit, it's a bit long. But I will, I'll happily read it. - Okay, break it down. Let's get that fun. - To those I've hurt. - Oh, God. - 25 years ago, I was in a car accident that broke my jaw and caused injury to the right front to a lobe of my brain. At the time, the focus was on the visible damage, the fracture, the swelling, and the immediate physical trauma. The deeper injury, the one inside my skull went unnoticed. Comprehensive scans were not done. Neurological exams were limited and the possibility of a frontal lobe injury was never raised. It wasn't properly diagnosed until 2023. That medical oversight caused serious damage to my mental health and led to my bipolar type one diagnosis. Bipolar disorder comes with its own defense system, denial. When you're manic, you don't think you're sick. You think everyone else is overreacting. You feel like you're seeing the world more clearly than ever when in reality, you're losing your grip entirely. Once people label you as crazy, you feel as if you cannot contribute anything meaningful to the world. It's easy for people to joke and laugh it off when in fact this is a very serious debilitating disease you can die from. According to the World Health Organization and Cambridge University, people with bipolar disorder have a life expectancy that is shortened by 10 to 15 years on average and a two to three times higher all cause mortality rate than the general population. This is on par with severe heart disease, type one diabetes, HIV and cancer, all lethal and fatal if left untreated. The scariest thing about this disorder is how persuasive it is when it tells you that you don't need help. It makes you blind, but convinced you have insight. You feel powerful, certain and unstoppable. I lost touch with reality. Things got worse the longer I ignored the problem. I said and did things I deeply regret. Some of the people I love the most, I treated the worst. You endured fear, confusion, humiliation, and the exhaustion of trying to have someone who was at times unrecognizable. Looking back, I became detached from my true self. In that fractured state, I gravitated toward the most destructive symbol I could find, the swastika. And even so, teach shirts bearing it. One of the difficult aspects of having bipolar type one are the disconnected moments, many of which I still cannot recall that led to poor judgment and reckless behavior that oftentimes feels like an out-of-body experience. I regret and am deeply mortified by my actions in that state and I'm committed to accountability, treatment, and meaningful change. It is not excuse what I did, though. I am not a Nazi or an anti-Semitism. I love Jewish people. To the black community, which held me down through all the highs and lows in the darkest of times, the black community is unquestionably the foundation of who I am. I am so sorry to have let you down. I love us in early 2025. I fell into a four-month long manic episode of psychotic paranoid and impulsive behavior that destroyed my life. As the situation became increasingly unsustainable, there were times I didn't want to be here anymore. Having bipolar disorder is notable state of constant mental illness. When you go into a manic episode, you are ill at that point. When you are not in an episode, you are completely normal. And that's when the wreckage from the illness hits the hardest. Hitting rock bottom a few months ago, my wife encouraged me to finally get help. I have found comfort in red at forums of all places, different people speak of being in manic or depressive episodes of a similar nature. I read their stories. - Thank you, America, that naked lady. - I think I really don't know. I read their stories and realized I was not alone. It's not just me who ruins their entire life once a year, despite taking meds every day and being told by the so-called best doctors in the world that I am not bipolar, but merely experiencing symptoms of autism. My words as a leader in my community have global impact and influence. In my mania, I lost complete sight of that. As I find my new baseline and new center through an effective regime of medication, there be exercise and clean living. I have newfound much needed clarity. I'm pouring my energy into positive meaningful art, music, clothing, design, and other new ideas to help the world. I'm not asking for sympathy or a free pass, though I aspire to earn your forgiveness. I write today simply to ask for your patience and understanding as I find my way home with love, yay. - Sure say with love, web MD. (laughs) Right, first of all shout out to whoever did write that. - Yeah. - It's pretty well written. - Yeah. - And I would go so far as to say, it's a plausible explanation for some of his behavior. I would even go that far. Like I personally think you're saying this because you're getting ready to launch whatever projects. Like to me, this is a recession indicator. garage. - I heard about them at the same time. - More than anything, there you go. See an album coming or, you know, I have not forgotten about that lawsuit that your former assistant filed last July, you know, and it's very diddish in its contents of what you were alleged to have done to that lady. So, you know, I personally think that's what's behind it, but I know enough about mental health, mental illnesses to say that it's possible that all of this is true. I just don't know that you're genuine in your apology and considering that all, most of this is about like, how you went without being diagnosed, although the rest of us knew about your diagnosis and how you was like, it don't matter. I can take it or whatever. So, okay. - There's the room, there's the room I'm in. - Right, so there's that. Like, I don't know how-- - Like lounging. - I don't know how you didn't get diagnosed diagnosed till 2023 when it feels like the, okay. Anyway, though, yeah. So, most of this is about how you were mentally ill in a state of mania. Didn't really know what you were doing. And so, you know, you're sorry that you, so T-shirts talking about Hitler's my homeboy or whatever and then to black people, y'all hold me up. No matter what I do. So, thanks, mix. - All you blacks won all the same, (laughs) new slaves. - Right, right, but the slavery is a choice, nigga. You could take out all the ads you want to. Some shit you just can't come back from. And I think really that is the bottom line for a lot of people. - Okay, so I want to end in connection with this. I want to take a, tell a sidebar story and embarrassing sidebar story. - Okay. - I randomly cried about Kanye this last weekend. And I'm gonna tell you why, it caught me completely off guard. - Yeah. - I was watching like a bunch of free styles and shit like this on YouTube, ciphers and all that. And reactions to some of them as well. People just talking about lyrics and shit. One of them that I watched again was this all female cipher that I think Double XL did with, it was Lotto, Monelio, Flomelie, My The Dawn, and Melo Bucks. - Oh, nice. - So there's this one video of this guy who's reacting to it. Lotto has a line in her part of the freestyle or the cipher where she says something like, "My man taught me through wires like he Kanye West." And this kid, probably early 20s, maybe late teens was like, I don't know if they got that, he West. And I was like, oh my God. Oh, damn. Like these kids, to these kids, Kanye is Kim Kardashian, ex-husband, and anti-black, anti-SMI. For them, Kanye probably started the life of Pablo. - Yeah, they don't know through the wire at all. They don't know what she was talking about. Wow. - I was so disappointed because not only is through the wire one of his biggest records, one of his most powerful records, - Wasn't it his debut? - It was like a record that was about this incredibly traumatic, near-death experience that he still has like physical complications with today. Then I started hearing Shaka in my voice. That's already a song that can bring tears to your eyes. So I'm hearing the song and thinking about him getting in his car crash and then losing his mama and then suddenly, suddenly shattering as a person. Next thing I knew I started, like tears were coming to my eyes, but I didn't, it was one of those things where you're like, am I crying? Wait, what? I didn't anticipate it. - Right. I was like, wait, what are you doing? - And I was just like, fuck, it's so sad. And then I spoke to myself, like, first of all, I haven't thought about him or paid no attention. Long for some time, or thought about him a bit. But I was like, Kanye was at a time more than just like this musical genius or whatever that we would say he was. He meant a lot to the black community because he would speak out like into the rafter screaming for all these different sectors of blackness. So to lose that and lose it in a way that it has happened. Sucks, you know, and then I started watching sweet things that would make me cry on YouTube. Sometimes you just get it out. No, yeah, I was just like, something was in there. Something was in there. I'm clearly sensitive today. We'll just get it on out. Watching sweet children audition for Britain's Got Talent. Just like whatever. So yeah, like, all that said, I literally was in a bathroom thinking about this. All of a sudden, randomly cry. And I'm like, what the fuck is going on here? Like 36 hours later, this nigga is like, Hey, there is a car crash one time and it really fucked me up my bed. So I'm not saying that I'm a natural born wish with, you know, a gift of divination. Okay, you know, I'm not saying that. Right. Right. Psychic witch. Anyway, as far as this apology goes, nigga, you have to show it and prove it. Nobody cares about this. Like, I say, this is the fucking, what is this? This is like the Half Blood Prince. Like what chapter are we like, we're deep into the franchise. So, you know, like Chris will just say it, I believe that there could also be credence or what have you to the things that he is saying from like a mental health, physical health standpoint. But like you also said, Niggasman, talking about this for years. And I'm encouraging you to get help for your fucking help. Right fans and people. You know, right, right. So forgive us if these pre-album release apologies are kind of gonna just have to dance on out of here since you're gonna have to put actions to these words. Sorry. And I won't be very waiting for you. But if you do, all won't that be nice. Yeah. You actually don't need our forgiveness. Or maybe you do. Maybe you realize in that you're trying to sell things and you've really pissed people off to the point of no returns. So you like, let me, what can I do? It's just, you know, there's too many elements of this that feel inauthentic. The album release coming soon. And take out an ad in the Wall Street Journal to do this. Like, unless he's releasing this album independently, which I don't know if he is. And no clue. Then I would assume people who have money to gain from this, maybe investment to gain from this and like, you can't release this motherfucking album like this. Yeah. So, you know, you will have somebody, possibly a GPT, come in here and step in with the words and you shut your ass. Like, come on now. Yeah, I don't know who, I'm willing to guess that a person wrote this but not Kanye. Yeah, for sure, for sure. But yeah, it's just the sort of thing where-- Daphne. I don't know who read this and was like, oh, thank God. Finally, I can go back to like supporting Kanye and feeling good about him. Like, these aren't nice words, but they are just words. So-- They're just words. If people are going to come back around on you, it's going to be because you demonstrate over an open history of behavior that is not an off-putting, that is not, you know, hateful hate speech and using hate symbols and all this. Not just the Jews, but the Negroes. I mean, you cited these examples for how you pissed off the Jewish people, but then was like, oh, black people. You know, y'all are just always there. I'm like, OK, well, OK, girl. Like, I would like you to cite some examples, too, of how you specifically pissed off, but OK. I don't like that as well. Ultimately, it don't really matter because you could have done that, and I would still feel the same way, so exactly. [LAUGHTER] So you could keep it, but yeah, I do know that a lot of people once they come out of Mania or whatever mental state they're in where they're doing things that they end up regretting, recovering from that is hard. And so if you are now supposed to be like meeting people and having friends and all this, and they're like, actually, I can't fuck with you because you said, fuck my whole lineage at my whole ethnic group. I don't know that it's hard. That's hard to face, but again, sometimes you just-- sometimes you can't come back. Sometimes your apology is genuine, and you still can't come back. Because you've done too much. That's true, too. So it's true, too. It is what it is. So Drake has appealed his lawsuit. He's not going out without a light-skinned fight. You're joking. Yes, baby. Patrick One, not the kitchen. Sure, ma'am. Oh, god. Why? Let it go, Drake. Oh, my god. Not finished. Fee-ing. It's time for another super- - Well, girl, let it go. - I think he has filed this appeal like maybe week before last or something. It wasn't that long ago. What does this say here? Of course, effectively created an unprecedented and overboard, overbroad categorical rule that statements in rat disses, rat distracks can never constitute statements of fact. Well, can. - Wouldn't, but I mean, wouldn't that also be held, like, wouldn't you be held to that same standard? 'Cause you have said some crazy things as well. Like, I don't know, okay, I'm not. You did this. - Some people, you did this. - Some people also mentioned that from just kind of looking at this from the nucleus. Aren't you running streams up for that song again? - And do you really want Kendrick or whoever else to turn around and be like, okay, well, then I'm seeing you for defamation because you said you implied my kid wasn't mine and that I've been beaten on with me and all that like, why? It just seems like you're asking Kendrick to be held to a standard that you don't want to be held to. - Well, you M.G., well, yes, both. - Right, this what I'm saying, it's just, I don't know why you can't. The longer you keep this going, the crazier you look, bro. Like, you lost, you could have won in court and you still would have lost with the culture because you just did, I'm sorry. I'm sorry, let it go. - Jay Cole has new freestyle's out and on one called The Golden Goofs Freestyle. Some fans are questioning if he might be dissing one of our program. Others are arguing that he's dissing Kendrick Lamar. These freestyles are released ahead of his next album, which is called The Fall Off, which references his career. And I'm gonna read some of the lines from this and you tell me who you think it's about. - Okay. - This is about somebody. - Fun. - Lot of rappers make dope. - Okay, I can, I try to be, I mean, I can be sick. Lot of rappers make dope and be prone to lose it for crumbs, dumb niggas sold their soul to Lucien. Lucien Grange, CEO of Universal. - Niggas Cheaton and I won't excuse it if I said it then I wrote it stupid. If the streams that you went in, while your tours is losing, when the math ain't math in, of course you juice in, that means the blocks is boosting. Cut the tough guy image, it's not conducive. To breathe and don't gamble with your life 'cause the opses cruising were to make vick your dog might get shit for losing. - I'm sorry, that sounds like it's about Drake. - How is it not? - How is it not? The Kendrick's tour is so great. So that, you can't be talking about that actually don't know what Drake's tour number is looked like that. Has Drake toured since the beef? - Since the war. - Since this beef started between him. - Oh, I thought you said the beef. Like what the hell is that beef? - Oh my God, I am so old. - You are old. That sounds like an of my topic. - That sounds like 30 years before you were even born. What are you talking about? - Right, fuck. - Okay. Has he toured since then? I think he, I think when he was out in Australia was kind of, like I think he was maybe wrapping up Australia while this was going on. - Okay. - I don't really, yeah, he was definitely performing it. I think he had some shows while this was going on. - So then, I think this is about Nicki Minaj. - No, 'cause for real, let's go back, no, 'cause go back and start from the beginning. A lot of rappers make dull then be prone to lose it. She just had to get on stage to talk about how Erica Kirk mean more to her than the barbs so that they would pay that half a million dollars. - She's next bar. - That, she just had to go up there and liar, suck Trump's dick publicly so that she wouldn't have to lose her home because she had her husband beat up that bodyguard. - Well, that, I guess I'm not, that was what I was going to say. (laughing) - Sorry. And then you know, we've heard a lot about Nicki's, the success of Nicki's tour or lack thereof or maybe not even success as much quality of the tour. - The stuff about Nicki. - Do you really think this is about Nicki Minaj? - Well, no, I think the lyrics are most accurately about it. (laughing) But I think the intention is for Drake. But I think it could easily, what you think about it. - Yeah, no. - What you think about it? Cut the tough guy image. The bots is boosted. Of course you're getting ass shots. I'm just saying, if you wanted to look at it like that. - I'm surprised Nicki has a response. - Well, she got to meet G's to do. She, she got to put off. - She got to go be like, "Oh, you're talking about me." And I was like, what? - She don't have time for that. She got to put on a pinnacle and grease her wig down and go, stand on up. - I think she did that to Mustard. - Did she? - Yes, she did that with Mustard because he like posted a song that was called "Something" that, and I think he produced it. It was like another artist. And I'm pretty sure that he was like a producer of it. And she was like triggered by the wording of it. Or she felt like the name was Shady or some shit. He was like, "Girl, maybe I don't want to talk about you. "This isn't able to sew." - Mm-hmm. - Well, this is about Drake. - Yeah, yeah. I mean, it's hard to think, to imagine that. - Niggas sold their soul to Lucien. Okay. Both Kendrick Lamar and Drake are technically under the umbrella of Universal Music Group. - Right. - Drake is the only one of the two of them who has been recorded saying that he and Lucien are like Kobe and Shaquille O'Neal. - Interesting compare. - And then was allegedly sending out "Season" just cis for that record because he's now sewing them. - Niggas cheating, and I won't excuse it. If I said it, then I wrote a stupid. If the stream say you win and wire tozes losing when the math ain't math, then of course we're juicing. That means the bots is boosted. - Yeah. This is very Drake. - People have a huge Drake of boosting his numbers through bots. As of last week or some shit. Because he was like, number one, a Spotify. This, that, and the third of people would be like, "Oh, this is an accurate." Even though he's one of the biggest artists of all. Cut the tough guy image, it is not conducive. - To breathe. - To breathing, and don't gamble with your life 'cause the ops is cool. - And we know how he's just-- - I just don't. - Word to Mike Vick, your dog might get shit for losing for all the dogs. - For all the dogs. - I'm sick. - This is about you. - And I don't like those odds. Again, with the gambling. - Yeah, I agree. I think it's about Drake as well. - How was it? - The fans, some of the fans are upset. They don't drink and joke home to still be fans. They wanted to be the top two. - For him to pick that side. - Well, I will say, as somebody who publicly dropped out of the beef when he realized Nickas was getting serious, it kind of feel like, "Why are you coming back now and making little shots in the window?" (laughing) - Like, Nicka, you stayed out of it, so stay out of it. Why is your coming back and making little Induendo's now? I think that's fair. - I think it's fair too. - Yeah. - As Chris was mentioned, Nicki Minaj mysteriously. (laughing) This bitch is so transparent. - We see Ryder Unix. - Nicki Minaj mysteriously and suddenly was able. So close out this case with one Thomas Widenmohler, a bodyguard who sued her after alleging that Kenneth Hetty was sent to beat his ass by one on Nicki Minaj. Judge recently told Nicki, "Listen, "if you don't get this man, his money, "we're gonna make you sell the house. "You are going to leave." That's that, now all of a sudden, she's standing in front of Jabba the Hut talking about, "I am Tom Donald Trump's number one fan" or whatever. It's just, every time I see it, I laugh. I'm not even like, for whatever reason I'm not even like, maybe it's because I, it's not like I super surprised. - Mm-hmm, yeah. 'Cause this is, she's so much like Arya in this world. - Bark Lane. - Oh, Laney, you're my drip business. I'm sorry, I'll have to record it from home today because of the snow. So she thinks she's probably something. (laughing) But yeah, she's this is real Kanye issue of her like we're watching the decline. So Hi, nothing she does when it's the wig for me. Honestly, the wig lets me know things are bad over there She had to do that herself because why is the lace lifting on one side the other side is like you couldn't get the part Right, you couldn't get it to lay right so you just did a giant swoop, but half The wig is the point is that I'm as gay as I am and I still don't notice these things until like one of my home Girls points it out and yeah, this is oh my god Remember when it was Megan And then you were like actually This is worse though because girl half the wig in this swoop. Just wear your real hair at that point Erica Kirk This is the video I'm looking at now is the one where she it was oh yeah, yeah, yeah when she's right there I just said I'm the president's number one fan And the people we will not let you bully him And he will not be silenced like that is kind of That's not not like a terrible. No, it's like literally literally where she just said I'm like the Like the mama Joyce oh No, I'm just like the tone in case yeah, yeah, this I mean she Nikki's really pathetic at this point and all the barbs who aren't gaslighting themselves I know they are sick about it cuz she's not gonna stop she needs these people to pay her bill not anytime soon Her man not getting a fucking job, so yeah, good. Yeah, I think that when she you know drains this dry or they throw her out to dry She's gonna have her walk street journal And then be like oh my goodness you guys I Gone just gonna say terrible I had to meet me with Karen Clarke's shirt and Her full-page ad in black enterprise Jet beach like girl I Know it's coming. Yeah, I know what's coming but five to ten years. Yeah, for sure. It's gonna be down the line But it's it's gonna happen the fact that she goes close to lose her house. Why don't Nikki Minaj have half a million dollars? For all this yapping the barbs do about how rich she is and the most successful female rapper of all time Why don't you like oh, I'm not gonna give it to him. I don't have to Yes, that's what you do. Yes, that's what you do. Are you okay? I told you after legally now you have to it's happened in 2019 you probably added on all kinds of lawyer fees and shit I didn't have to be there had you just ran this man his money in the first place I'm sorry. It does not give I have it and I just don't want to give it to you. It gives I don't have it But why the hell not? Speaking of Megan I hide now. I guess I have to acknowledge the The glow mechanism over You know, we tried to ignore it. We really did we really did, but it was it's been too much and Yeah, I Yeah, holding out hope for a reunion. No, sorry. It's over. They don't follow each other no more nothing. So Well, um Megan's fans are getting on Glowrilla nerves. She was in our is in Tokyo and She's having a good time as she's doing shows out there and stuff and so now she posted these pictures with this really cute outfit it's kind of like a I don't know, but it's just like a plaid corset with some denim It's like we might be oversized jeans and you know, she got her hair pulled back and chopsticks in it And so the girls are like and country makeup and the girls was like, oh, you're stealing Megan's aesthetic and her style and She posted a video like a little Tokyo vlog or whatever and based our harassing her again for trying to be like Megan and I'm like Why are y'all starting shit? She's not the first second Megan is not the first second or last rapper To go to Tokyo and push off this can air right. I mean my first thought was the bad guy, Chun Lee It's giving not a bad like that was so frustrated. Why didn't you do that right? I just like and I don't like listen Nobody played Street Fighter. Yeah, Chun Lee has never been a bad guy. There's never been like some arc She's never had like a Phoenix moment or dark Phoenix She's never had like a willow season Six five six. I don't remember. Y'all know what I'm talking about Buffy fans Yeah, Chun Lee's never been a bad guy. That was so frustrating. Anyway, that's what again. Y'all get on her damn nerves Well, oh I'm sorry. I mean I Don't like you being shady about me. Yes, I mean, I don't I Like I skipped over this. Oh, okay. Sorry. Yes. Sorry. I'm getting I'm giving round up because I root for these girls Oh, she brought EJ King to that show. I mean to that game. Right not cute And So I'm like, you know, I don't like you being shady to mag when Y'all worked together. She brought you on her tour It was like you know, y'all was shooting little social media content together for Instagram is shit like Why does it have to I never believe y'all were like best friends close You know enough. Yeah, actually really cool So yeah, it's disappointing. I don't like the shady tweets either, but It feels like it's it's not just Along like her anymore, and I'm gonna like these things and who the fuck here is the people see it because I don't like the bitch Some of the stuff seems like it's antagonistic Yes, I agree and but her going to fucking Tokyo and and putting her hair up in a bun with some sticks is not Right is plenty of bitches. She beggin don't own Asia Some of it is a reach, but I don't expect nothing else out of stands like Yeah, this is how y'all act so that isn't she responded to some of it Megan did or Glow do it. Glow really too. Megan. He said shit as far as I know What is Megan doing up and making cookies at her man's house and then not eating them Go into the gym fucking add negative you're making additional money like I don't see the video that Kellen posted where they were I think playing miniature golf and he like snuck a video Like he held like snuck a video and they were just in the background of the video just tongue kissing and he's like this is all they do It's just what they do all day I think she's gonna be pregnant about the end of the year. I love that I mean, I just love that she seems so happy with a nigga that seems to really just Dote on her. He seems to my fuck nigger radar hasn't Not yet. Not one. No He seemed like a nigga who can't wait to be oh Always been like well, why don't we just stay home and play the game? He looks like he can't wait to have a rocking Not a rocket or a recliner in his life with Megan and them kids running around. Yes. I see that I do And he can't stop staring at her every video they put out that Dunkin Donuts video and I mean reasonably so I mean she looks Everybody knows I'm not attracted to films, but it's making the stall you I could just the living Brad's dog I just want to stare at her all day like and I I just want to look at you I actually would like a mega Nostalian action figure for weeks. I just want to because I'm here at you. Oh my god Look what is in reach So I already do this I already do it's an anime character like tell me that I own Yeah, a bad bitch and like this is what I do. This is what exactly what I do. Yeah, Megan You already in anime. I think you're you you're working on an anime You know, I would like a Megan a Megan action figure because you look like Yeah, but that Dunkin Donuts video where she was you know promoting her watching my call it And he was just in the background like whatever right He was like let me tell you what smooth the outfit is wrinkly He like yeah, I love your rain forest cafe or whatever the fuck this is that nigga don't Yeah, the wheat grass or whatever. Yeah, I like all of it. This is yummy. Yeah Girl what you doing after this. Like, when we get in this car, I tell you I'll tell you, you'll drive a roll up the partition. Me too. I actually love that for her. It makes me so happy to see her having so much fun and looks like she's being treated well. Clay, don't piss me off. I still don't. Piss me off, but you know, the family loves her. The daddy raven about Thanksgiving did it still takes girl the video of her making it. Oh, and it looked good as fuck to us. Oh, yes, Megan, go in there and represent. Do your big one. Um, yeah, anything. Oh my God. Have you heard about this? Diamond Hans? Who thing was his baby wrong? No, with come more, not with different. No. Okay. Yeah. Her name is Risa. I think we talked about this. No, no, no, I just heard about this today. Okay. Um, Risa Simpson or I could be Risa. She was arrested for allegedly assaulting him. Um, outside the home that they share this townhouse. And then after she got out, she was able to get her temporary restraining order against him. And so it was like, what the fuck happened? She, I guess, linked leaked. Well, if she leaked it, but she recorded like the verbal altercation that led up to whatever physical happened. Oh, man. Okay. And so she's going back and forth with him about getting key. It's obvious that they're like separated. They're not on good terms. Um, but she's trying to she's arguing with him about getting keys or getting a set of keys to the place because he said he was changing a lot. So I don't know. She wanted keys to the place because she said she was going on a town or she had to leave or something when she got back, he was not going to be there. So she was like, I need a set of keys so that I can get back into the house. The kids are in here, whatever her stuff is there. And he was basically like, not having it type shit. And you know, I don't have to give you the keys or whatever. And she's like, this is because I guess it's his house, you know, like like he bought it his latent names on the least type shit. But as she fairly pointed out, she'd be living there for four years, they got to live there. That's right. So then she has claimed to the residents, nigga, you can 1,000 percent. If you're going to put her out, there's a whole process to that. It can't just be on change and like, no, and there's not a single court that would agree with you, nigga. Now, I think there's something funny about this. I think there's one or two things going on here. I have this lady is truly toxic and trying to focus me on her. Or she every woman has a breaking point y'all. Okay, love that, going and everyone and everyone. Did you listen to the recording conversation? Because this is my first time here. Okay, so it sounds. It sounds to me like, yeah, either yes, she's just terrible in toxic and blah, blah, blah. Or I believe she just has reached a boiling point and it was like, I need to record this so that I have proof that you ain't shit. Yeah, talk about this now. If the thing about is because she's like, I don't want to call the police and embarrass the house. Girl, like, now you're super embarrassed. Embarrass the house. Yeah, like by having police outside it or whatever. The house isn't sent yet. It won't mind. It won't mind. You go ahead and you dial those numbers. The house is not going to whisper to you later, be like, by the way, I was more that's all you had to do now. What? What I believe was going to happen because she kept saying that she had to leave. She was going to leave in like an hour. And I think she's going to be going out of town or something like that. So she wanted to set the keys, but it was very clear that she wanted them right there at that time in that moment. And then at some point, he's like, I'm going to leave the keys on the table. Like, I'm leaving the keys on the table or whatever. And she's like, no, give me the keys now. Give me the keys now or something like that. So I'm like, if you're leaving it in an hour, right? And you know that when you get back, he ain't going to be here. Wouldn't it be easier to have someone mutual? Get them keys from him. And then when you get back in town, you get them keys from that person or you call the police, the police are likely going to come over there and say, either do you have keys that you can give her from where she comes back and then get the keys and give them to you because it is your residence. He doesn't have just because he owns a house or do you release or whatever doesn't mean that he has the right to block you from accessing you. When you've been in a domestic relationship and you lived there for four years, and you got kids, like, that's impossible. He can't do that. So if you call the police, then now whatever, they're going to side with you to get access to the house. I believe what they would have likely done is either get, tell him to give her the keys then if he has that or say, when you get back, we will escort you to the property and make sure that you have access to it. Plus and with him, for a recording to leak is just like, I can't believe that you are sick and tired of this negotiate a you needed evidence of how toxic and controlling our manipulative he might be and maybe people don't believe you because he's, you know, this incredibly famous actor and everybody knows him for every thing and blah, blah. So I get that part, but I don't feel like this is the most strategic way to get at it. Because in some parts of it, it just feels like, okay, this could have been maybe we could do this or whatever. And then the audio mind you ends like right, it cuts out like right, I guess, before they started to test like, okay, it sounds to me. I was not there. I'm not accusing anybody of anything. It sounds to me like she at some point, he's like, I'm gonna leave the keys on the table or something. It sounds to me like she was trying to get into the place. And he might have been like blocking her from it or something like physically trying to stop her. Maybe by blocking her from getting into it. It sounded like she was maybe trying to get by. And he was not like letting her get by in some way or the next. And then before you know it, it cut off. So I don't know like obviously what happened. But it kind of sounds like she was trying to go inside and he was trying to block her, which again, if I'm him, that is not smart. No, no, there's no part of his behavior that makes sense. My only thing about, you know, he's going to leave the keys on the table. And then maybe a third party can pick him up and bring him is like, I would really doubt that he's going to do that. I would doubt that he's going to actually leave the key somewhere accessible. That's what I'm saying. Or that he's going to give them to this third party. Like I just don't believe he would do it. So that's what I'm saying. Like if he's saying that he's going to leave the keys on the table. Like he has them. Then why not just let her get the key? Like I like what are you doing? Leave them on the table means what when I can't come back and access the table to get the keys? Like, it doesn't make clear. And so now you force in my hand, I have to get law enforcement involved because I'm not going out of town without keys to my home to return back to literally nobody does that. And you push it. And that's probably what I like three hours after she got out the jail. The judge was like, judge heard that. And was like, Oh, yeah, baby, we got this. The judge said, never you mind. Not only can you have access to the residents, we don't make sure that nigga can be dear. Right. Damn. Why are we talking about who's home is who's? Yeah, unfortunately, I do have to start recording. Like it's sad, but thank God that we have access to things like this. So you can record what really happened and have something to defend yourself. Because we've seen a trillion times when it's the court of public opinion versus, you know, this person and the powerful and his powerful rich, right, fame is fine. A lot of people will excuse shit simply because he has a gorgeous face. So, and I mean, we saw it with Diddy and Cassie, the way Niggas was talking about Cassie till that video came out. We saw a key key in that light skin demon that she had a baby with where people was talking about whether she was wrong until that like, it just is over and over again, when when you can provide audio or video proof to back up what you saying, all of a sudden, it's like, oh, well, maybe we can't believe that there's niggas ass hole. Yeah, maybe we can because is he's not the first one to last. So, Yikes. Yikes in Diddy. Last but not least, there is a Netflix documentary coming out called Reality Check inside America's next home model. Have you seen the trailer? And I said, old Tyra, please, please hire a hot ice cream banks will be in the doc. And in this clip, she says, is she knew she went too far. I don't know if that's about the whole goddamn thing. I don't know if that's about her general idea is created direction and behavior yelling at the screaming at them girls calling them fat when they were the size six. This trailer may be like reminded me of a whole bunch of shit. - Yeah, that show was deeply problematic, man. And I've ever watched it and maybe not mostly older people, but people who knew better than I did. We're more mature than I was. We're like, this isn't right. You shouldn't be treating people this way. And I'm like, she's looking for America's next top. Supermoda, not America's next top best friend. Like, you know, I was, (laughing) I was capable for entire-- - Got America's next bottom bitch. (laughing) - I absolutely was capable for Tyra and Alden. Terrible shit they did on that show. And so I've watched it back a few years ago. I was like, oh my god. Like, these ladies, they, y'all should be able to follow us through these terrible, like, grown. - Some of them are in this trailer of bawling. I'm going to set. - Yeah, I am going to look at that. I am. - It's about 10, damn time. All right, hot ice cream. Thanks for wrapping up the hot tops this week. I'll see you on the todom. That's it. We'll take a break and come back. - We are back. Most time to get into your business. - It is Cinger Questions To Ask3daGmail.com. We may read them out loud. We did get a letter from Jason who said, "I moved to New Zealand with my family during the first Trump administration because of that, valued." And he worked in immigration. So he said, "The short answer for why being HIV positive might keep you from getting permanent residency in New Zealand or Australia is because they have public health care." And so when you come short term, you have to prove that you can pay for yourself in case something bad happens or demonstrate you have insurance. But if you want to stay permanently, that's when this point system kicks in. And they basically tally up how useful you will be, like how much you contribute to society versus your liabilities. And so like Jason's example was, if you're a dentist, so you're a very professional person, you make good money, you're in perfect health. It's like, yes, we roll not the red carpet for you. But if you an art history major and chronically ill, they're like, no, that's points against you because the system is gonna have to pay for you. And so that is why your HIV status can impact your citizenship. And I'm like, well, okay, I guess that's one good thing about not having health care. Like, that's really fucked up way to treat people. I actually don't know if our system is better or worse than yours, but we probably do the same thing. And we don't say care if you want to be here, right? - So I don't. - But thank you to, it was a handful of people who wrote in, was like, yes, girl, it is crazy, but this is how it works. So thank you for letting us know that, and let's move on to our first letter this week. - Hmm, hmm, so this one comes from tired but torn. And they write. - And between the two. - Dear Kif you're in crystal, my 64 year old mother has untreated depression and paranoia. After my parents divorced years ago, she became estranged from her entire family. She lived with all three of her sisters and my grandmother, but each eventually kicked her out because she would act the entire fool. I let her live with me for a year, but my mental health couldn't take it and I moved into an apartment while I let her stay in my house rent-free for four years so she could have some stability and get on her feet. My brother and I even helped her get two jobs, but she quit both. And now I honestly don't know what she does all day besides read her Bible and watch YouTube. I told her I'd be selling my house because I can't afford two places anymore and then she needed to find somewhere else to live. My brother secured an affordable apartment for her, but she refused to sign the lease because she said it's too expensive even though she gets social security and we agreed to help with the rent so she would only be paying $500 a month. Now she says she wants either a cheaper apartment or a van to live in, but hasn't made a single move to secure either one and ignores us when we try to help her with that too. When the contract for the house sale goes through, she may be homeless. I feel bad, but I'm also completely drained because no matter how much I help, she won't help herself. Should I feel guilty for stepping back? I'm 30 and I need to get my finances in check which selling the house is allowing me to do, but the guilt is a lot. Thanks, tired but torn. - The guilt of having to even be in a position to make this decision. - Right. And the wondering of what might happen to your mother and I would guess TBT that your mother is banking on this guilt and that's why she has no sense of urgency with regards to finding somewhere else to live. You moved out of your house and took an apartment just to get away from her and you let her live there and pay nothing for four years. She probably don't believe y'all really gonna let her end upon this. So yeah, she's not making it easy on you because she believed, I think I'm guessing that she believes when it comes down to it, one of her keys is gonna step up and take care of her 'cause most of us are not comfortable with the idea of our parents being on house. That's just how it is. - I feel like someone wrote a letter in like this not too long ago but I think it was about their sister or something. - Did they? - It was like, yes, I feel like someone, there was someone who was my little sister moved in with me because our mama who was a hot mess kicked her out and now she live with me and I'm trying to help get her on her feet. - Oh Lord. - Yeah. - I feel like we just gotta learn like this not too long ago. - Oh, we probably did. - We probably did. - This does suck and I get the guilt because even though she's driving you crazy and getting all your nerves and antagonizing you and chipping away at your own damn mental health, you're still fighting for her and hoping that you're gonna wake up someday and she's gonna decide to fight for herself. But I promise you that I agree fully with what Crystal said. I believe, I don't believe. She's taking advantage of you. - Well. - She's taking advantage of you and the fact that she's your mama and as a grown titty adult, I think the both of us are always going to encourage you to go, well guess what, mom, dad, granny, auntie, uncle, no, no, no, no, no, no, like absolutely not. Now I'm growny, you grow, we both grow. So know what, you're not gonna treat me any kind of way, you're not gonna do anything because you're mom, mom, mom, no, stop only crying, stop, yeah. - I think that you have to let her get burnt. You have to let her touch that stove, baby. And it's like, damn, fuck, mom. But it's either she gonna touch that stove and get a little cinched and come crawling back and be like, "I swear I'm gonna stay at the FedEx." Sorry, the jumbo juice or wherever the fire I walk with. And I promise you I'll even pay some rent and I'll cook. We have Sunday dinners. But I agree with Crystal. I think that she is sitting around banking on the fact that she can do nothing and you and your sibling will pick up the pieces. If she hasn't, well, no, obviously if she has in, if she has like clear depression or anxiety all of these things that they haven't been diagnosed, that's something that she would have to work on, but she would have to work on it. You can't put a fucking rope around her ankles and drag her to the lady office and shove medication out her mouth. You just can't do it. It will not work. So I believe your options are to continue letting this lady chip away at your brain and then let that get attached to your gut and the rest of your damn nervous system. Now you can't piss. Now you can't go to your, you just bowed in the center. Just stressed out even when you having a good day, you're like, "Why the fuck is my tummy grumbling?" Because your mom is getting all your nerves. She's stressing the fuck out. It is always in your head. So either you're gonna, you know, stew around with that until it possibly gets worse or you break and the response to it is just like exacerbated because, you know, it's just been simmering for a long time. Or you say to your mother in a very cute and concise way, listen, you go have to go. And I don't know what you're gonna do about your life. - Yeah. - Know that I will always love you from my house that you're not gonna live in your mama. - Right. Baby kegs. And expect that, I have like a movie preference for this that flashed in my mind and went away for like, I have to say, "Oh yes, the baby and the help, with my holiday and the baby was in the way of top of the like." (laughing) Like that, but the opposite. You're in the house and you're fine. And you've decided because she outside. But you know, it's just like, you're gonna, I think you have to expect that she is going to take advantage of your conscious, a conscience. There it is. And you're, you know, that guilty feeling, She's going to take advantage. of the love that you have for her and have a response that is going to, you know, for her, hopefully for her, you know, just liven that guilt up and make you think twice about it. - Yeah. - Don't. - Don't. - Huh. It's the fact that all three of her sisters and her own mama put her out. - Yeah. - Baby, what you supposed to do that her mama and sisters couldn't do. Let's just all be for real about it. You and your brother tried to help her get jobs. She quit both of them. Why does she quit both her jobs? Because she don't have to worry about how the bills are getting paid when it comes right down to it. She knows you or your brother will do it. And now she over here this well. If I have to pay $500, where are you going to find an apartment cheaper than $500? Literally anywhere, anywhere in the country. Where are you finding a studio apartment for $500? Probably nowhere. And so being like, well, either find me something cheaper doesn't exist or a van to live in. Okay. Okay. That makes me feel like she's deliberately trying to tug at y'all like $500. Okay. Just find me a van. Just find me a van and throw me in the van and roll me down by the river and just let me ride. And I'm gonna just live like the Bucks car children since that's how y'all want to do me. I'm a damn down by the river. Yes, you've been to being a van down by the river playing with me. It's I I agree with you. If you're as hard as it is, I think you have to to step back. You have to or else you or you are right. Because who's putting you first? It should be your mother. My god, you would think a parent would put their child first, but she does not she does not put your well being or what's best for you. First, so you have to because who else is going to do it, baby? You have to you going to blink and be 64 years old. Your mama going to be gone and you not going to have nothing to your name because you spent your whole life taking care of a grown woman who didn't want to do it for herself. She got issues, okay? Well, she's very fortunate to have two children who give a shit about her who are willing to support her, but she has to want it for herself. You know how many people are scratching and saving and pinching shit together to try to make it to therapy, to try to pay for their men, to try to do good things for themselves. And they don't have family or friends to support them. You got people who want to help you help yourself, but you don't want to help yourself, right? And sometimes you have to hit rock bottom to realize that you need to help your fucking self. It is true. It is true. So if your mama have to literally hit cement bottom because she out there on them sidewalks to in order for a switch to flip and for her to realize that I'm 65 years old, talking about I don't want to pay $500 in rent and I don't want to have a job. Girl, I'm sorry you live in a capitalist hellscape with the rest of us, but what the fuck choice do you have? If you're not independently wealthy, then guess what? Welcome. You have to, girl, sorry, sorry. You're here with the rest of us, darling. Sorry that you and the America is the most capitalist. So yeah, girl, you're going to have to do something. And then once she demonstrates that she is ready to do things on her own, do things for herself, I'm happy to help you. And that point, probably not to the point of coming back in my house because let me tell you something. I'm not leaving my house and paying for an apartment just so I can have peace. You never, you never. The idea is insane. You never. I'm simply the fact that you did it for four years. If somebody gave me four years, no expenses, do you know? Anyway. On a record label. For real, I would have my own publishing house. Like, I was sharing like you actually. Mama, absolutely not. Letting her hit that rock bottom and go find a van or whatever. Yeah. Is going to be good for her in the long run. The best for you. Yes. And it's going to. It's going to hurt in the moment. It's going to be hard. Nobody wants to see that. Obviously. But you continuing to be the safety net for her isn't sustainable. It just isn't. It's not. Because it's not even that she needs help, but she's the sweetest person. And she treats everybody. Right. Like she's hell. Right. And I'm tired of hearing about grown ass adults who are raising their parents. Because their parents don't want to do shit to be right about that. Right. Right. You live with her for a year and you couldn't take it. You moved out. Like, hello. Hello. Let me say something. As much as I will move a mountain part AC and he asks over my mama. Right. She ain't driving me out of a fuck thing. Oh no. She's the only lady to go. No. One thing about big Connie. She got her own shit. Okay. She made sure of that. She has her things. Her degree. Her home. She has not asked me to take care of her. And the Lisa is one of the biggest blessings that she has. But my mother is not getting me so aggravated that I'm moving out of my house. Are you okay? Everyone. Well. Okay. I'll carve out a couple hours in a day for us to come up with a plan. A strategy. Oh, absolutely. But you know, I'm not going nowhere. When you are helping yourself, other people become more motivated to help. Exactly. They really do. So should you feel guilty? Whatever you feel is what you feel. I like to take sure out of the equation entirely. You probably will feel guilty when you stop being a people pleaser and a caretaker. So this new reality, but this new reality is, is what you both need. So. I feel guilty because you care. You feel guilty because you just aren't wrong. I mean, imagine you on your way to working. You passed by your mommy in the subway. Hello. Nobody wants that. Nobody. Nobody fucking wants that. But she don't want to do anything. And she's putting you between a rock and a hard place. Exactly. I can do bad all by myself, et cetera, et cetera. Good luck, babe. It'll suck. There's nothing free before 11 campus. When you go out to the club and then you come back and then you come back to your house. And you like, oh, I almost forgot that I had property and land. And I had space. Like, that's her. Dave is going to be like, you know who's house to say his bitch? You're nice. Oh, I can't even see me. Anyway. I just said my house. Relious. I didn't even think of that. Oh, work. Yeah. I'm stupid. Good luck, babe. Our next letter comes from Grandville who says, I love you both. And I've been listening since the beginning. I've been seeing my therapist for about seven months after being in and out of short term therapy for the past decade. I never thought that I would have the means to afford seeing someone long term. And in the UK, the NHS and private medical only provide short term care, at least in my case. You know, see how it's just, it's just, it's crazy to us. But over here, you have to pay for everything so you can have whatever you want. It's not funny because we end up fucked. But anyway, no, literally. He has his towels. Oh, okay. Last year, I contacted my workplace EAP and after explaining my situation, they suggested that long term therapy may be significantly more helpful and more affordable than I thought. They gave me a link to a directory. I found myself a therapist and I've been seeing him for nightly. Here's the issue. Oh, British. You're right. I'm starting to feel like my car is stuck in the mud and he's trying to help, but we're not moving. And I can feel his frustration despite trying to hide it occasionally. I'll catch him rolling his eyes or he'll let out a sigh of girl telling voices to be quiet to which I let him know that I'm equally frustrated. And he'll tell me that the side wasn't what I thought it was that I didn't make this car or the mud. I'm just trying to get out. Outside of that, he also doesn't take notes, which is a new experience for me, but it means he often forgets things like my partner's name. I brought this up once out of curiosity and he said, don't worry about what I'm doing. What? Yesterday, I was going about my business as usual when I checked my phone to find a missed call text and email from my therapist asking where I was. Then another saying that I had missed our session and would need to pay for it and asking how I would like to proceed, which meant I now had to squeeze beating myself up into my afternoon schedule because how did I miss my appointment. I'm feeling like taking a break and that this might be a good opportunity, but I also have this nagging feeling that I should find a different therapist and start again. Do you think I should stick it out and talk with him about all these feelings or find someone else who might be a better fit. My flight instinct is strong, so I have a history of not sticking with things. On the other hand, I did finish a four year degree and I've been in a gay relationship for almost nine years, so clearly I'm able to stick to something. I welcome any advice you can offer. Thank you both for your time. - Bishop is the most dedicated people on the planet. - Kind regards, Gravel. A nine year homosexual male relationship. You the most stick to it as, "Bitch, I have never heard of." - Honey. - I don't know, none of them. (laughing) And I do mean not one. - What power? Here's the thing about the therapist, right? - I think that, first of all, I've had like one or two therapists before where I had the one session with them, and they'll like, nope. I think that it's very, I think you should think of it kind of like going to any doctor where you might have a thing and the doctor says such and such, or you're just not like they're got their amount of two. And so you're like, I'm gonna go get an opinion from elsewhere. - Yeah. - And then you find your new PCP or whatever, I don't know. But in that, like, in that regard, I think that, first of all, you don't, oh, the therapist, like anything. - No, you really don't. - Your money. - The money for this session, you missed, but other than that. (laughing) - You could literally just be like, oh, here go, the money for this, or if they just take it out and boop, boop, boop. And then just find you a new therapist. I really suggest that you a do it and be don't think too much into it because I think a lot of people, it kind of pushes them back from getting therapy or staying in therapy because they either, like, I didn't like this experience or I cannot stand this bitch, and they're just like bug therapy. Or you may just not have like the energy, you know, you manage, you know, you just be anxious and you just drag your feet on finding a new therapist before whatever, whatever. I would just suggest that you start looking for somebody now and just yeah, like I say, I treated like, okay, I'm gonna just go find some other person. And if you don't like that vibe, I'll find somebody else. I think it's just the most important for you to find a therapist, work on therapy because you believe you need it and be okay with mixing it up until, you know, you find the thing that fits. Like, I've talked before about how my therapist would be black, like I'm not even like my talk therapist, woof, woof, woof, woof, has to be black, right? - Woof, woof, woof, woof, woof, woof. - And I used to be like black woman. - Oh, that's just black. So yeah, that's how I feel about it. Some of this was like, what? - Yeah, some of this is, the therapist is quite wild for this. - Like, huh? - We've got a couple letters, not many, but a couple letters from people where they talk about their therapist. And we'd be like, oh, I'm not in my therapy school. Not, you know, and I don't know how it's different in the UK. So. (laughing) - No, that just just sounds like it's just completely agree, just an out of bounds for calculus. - It does. - It's like, especially the note-taking part, the, don't worry about what I'm doing. That's quite crazy. - That is wild. - I can't imagine talking to a client like that. That just seems very dismissive of an extremely normal observation. So, that's very weird to me, the- - Especially if how long did they- - Seven months. - Seven months. - Right, like, my therapist and I, my current therapist, we've, I have this therapist since I moved out here. So, at this point, he might not be taking a ton of notes unless it's like, oh, this is something to keep track of. - Oh, yeah. - Because we've spoken, you know what I mean, but he could just kind of, but if it's like within the first year, I would expect you would be like, oh, let me ping this and let me do such and such. But that coupled with all this other just completely blatant wild out of bounds shit. - Yeah. - I'm like, mm-hmm. I don't even think it's worth saying how you feel about it. Especially because many therapists have like 200 gotten clients they see. They probably won't be missing no work. - So. - Well, I don't know how it's different from, you know, the UK, from the youths. So, but I would have, I would take the opportunity to talk to him about it. If only so that he understands, I'm not quitting because therapy's just so hard or whatever. I'm quitting because you're weird and the way you move with me is weird. And telling me, don't worry about what I'm doing when I ask you why you're not taking notes. It's strange because I wouldn't have to worry about it if you got things right. But we've been meeting for seven months and you'd be forgetting my man's name. So, like, clearly your system isn't as great as you think it is. The, the eye rolls and the sying, that can be that. I mean, if you felt the way about it, that's, that's something worth paying attention to. It is also possible that he's sying at something else. But along with these other things, it doesn't make me want to, so. - I agree, sigh is one, man. - It could be. - It could mean many things. But you see how when you put it next to this other weird behavior, it becomes very impossible to give you the benefit of the doubt. Because you seem like you move in weird. So I would take the opportunity just to be like, this is why I'm not coming back. 'Cause frankly, I don't really understand why you operate the way you do. But I really don't think there's any reason. Like if you already said, you don't have to feel some sort of allegiance to this. You are, it is well within your power to fire your healthcare professionals. If they are not working for you, then it is more than okay, especially something like mental health. It is more than okay to be like, all right, and I'm gonna go find somebody else. 'Cause somebody who just, you know, somebody who thinks of a notepad and an ink pen are useful. - Oh yeah, well, it's also like professional. And like does their job. - It's so weird. How you gonna be like, don't worry about what I'm doing, but you're getting shit wrong. How you, how you don't remember my men. - There is going to bully you. (laughing) - Yeah. So even though your flight instinct is strong, I think it's, you've got some really solid reasons here for finding somebody else. So. - You could just, you could be well within your right to find someone else. So if you like, this office might like bugles. And some time I come over here, so. - Now that I would bring it up, see maybe I can light a candle or something. So it's smell like, you got a genius, Lauren. What was that candle that the old girl heart-freeing bought it for her man? And it started a fight. - I'll never. (laughing) - Mahogany T4 or something. Maybe that value of Mahogany TQ would light it. - It was such a fierce arrow. - Okay, but yeah, Granville, you can do both, but feel free to find somebody else. This guy's a bit strange. Maybe some of the UK therapists can let me know, do they not teach you how to take notes? It's a big thing over here. Like you have to write notes. - I can't believe that. - Every session, so. - British therapists on TV do it. - Do I? - Yeah. - I don't think I've ever seen British therapy on TV. - I mean like in scripted stuff. - I guess I'm saying they do it. - But they're practicing in America? - No, I'm saying like British shows and stuff. - Yeah, I've never seen a British show where, okay. So, but let me know if that's something y'all do over there or if it's like, it's really on your own dive. And if you don't remember key details of a client's life to know, well, you know that just doesn't sound right. So, but best of luck to you in your search, baby. Are you? - Yeah, her go gilly and Anderson taking notes in sex education. - Okay, see? So if sex education wasn't out, that show wouldn't lie to us. - It would never. - Lay. - This is why I think it's so hard. - Ladies literally looking at her like, excuse me. Who are you talking to? - There's danger outdoors. No, they're. - I'm trying to help your black American ass. Lady is hurt her entire stance is giving like, no, you get off the count. (laughing) Lady literally, I don't understand why they're so disrespectful. Like their little gaze is just like, she's so tried and antagonistic. I'm trying to work. This is why I don't know where from home. This is why. - When Link barks like that, was she here somebody in a hallway or whatever? I'll just be like, ah, or whatever. And you know what she does? Have I ever talked about this before? - I don't think so. - She'll go from like an actual like loud bark. And I'll be like, ah, and she'll go. (laughing) - She'll be like a tiny boy. - Where's like, you ain't gonna go shut me up, but I'm here. - Link does that too, like. - Wanna get in trouble. - When I have the patience, and I'm not, you know, recording, doing my actual job, then I'll be like, oh, thank you for letting mommy know. Those dogs are outside. Lady and mommy are inside. And she chills out. And you know, we have a conversation about it. And it's fine. - She's still a puppy. - Well, again, this is why I do not. If the streets were clearer, I would not be home right now, but. - Link comes home, like, I think this was like yesterday, or maybe the day before. But she can't embald her black ass into here. I'm just like immediately grabbed the tennis ball and was like, throw it. And I looked at her and I was like, bitch, how the fuck do you come home with all this energy? You be gone, not hours a day. You ain't done it. - Right. How are you, and you played with them other little short-home girls at school all day? And you come here and be like, yeah, let me get on your nerves too. - It's like Lady Kay wife for it. It's like she can't wait. - Green team around the coffee table. - Bitch, it just means they love us. - Okay, well, our last letter. - Lady Data said money. - You have to pay attention. Things are crazy, I'm sorry, bro. - That silence in me is triggering. - This last letter comes from Grace who says, "Hi, Chris Link, if you're here, I'm writing because I'm 32 years old, I've been married for four years, and I have no kids. I've never really wanted kids, but over the past several years, this discussion has come up now and then. After talking with my therapist and my husband, I have ultimately decided that I don't want a child bad enough to justify bringing them into this truly awful world. I have been feeling something like grief about the decision lately. And I think that if I was making this decision in the 80s or 90s, when families live closer, closer, cost of living was cheaper, the world wasn't as terrible, and childcare wasn't so expensive, I would choose to have one. But the reality is that this is not the world we live in anymore. I also don't have any nieces or nephews or extended family with children, so I think that may be making the sadness worse. I'm wondering as two child-free people, if you have navigated these same feelings, and if so, how have you come to terms with your decision? Overall, I'm mostly happy, and I know that I can live a happy and fulfilled life without kids, but I'm my crazy to feel that way while simultaneously feeling sad about something I am choosing to never have. Thanks so much, and much love to the both of you, Grace. Grace, three hours ago, I probably could have empathized with this, but now I'm feeling like I do have a child, and she's on my fucking nerves, so. - That is. - I'm trying to remind myself that Laney is not my human baby, and I am technically child-free, but it's hard right now because she's really trying it. - And because you're cradling her because you want that? - Because she will not act right. I'm gonna put you down, and you better, and you better be quiet. - That face says, "I'm gonna do it, I'm gonna do it." (laughing) - And you better be nice. Be nice, mommy has the word. Thank you. - Bear. - No play. - Grace, I think like Crystal was saying a bit earlier, you can feel however you want to feel, and I mean, if it helps, I believe you feel both sides of your feelings or in this situation. These two feelings are completely connected and fair. I think you were not nearly alone in the feeling of not wanting to have kids simply because the world is fucked. The world is not care, especially like here. The world is like care about kids, being healthy, happy, learning, a fuck thing. - Not one fucking thing, bro, not one. - So I understand the parents are, non-parents, I'm sorry, the people who are interested in being parents, but are like, "No, I'm not doing it to a kid." They're people who do it for many reasons. Like, the reason I don't, I don't want kids because I think I've said this because I don't think that I'm mentally sound enough to raise a kid in a healthy way. And I don't want a kid more than, I want kids to be healthier to have kids. - Yeah, I don't want one so much that I'm like, I'll just fuck one up because I want to have it. - Right, yeah. I almost said a name. Anyways, anyways, anyways. - Oh, boy. - Yeah, I think that these feelings make sense. I think like, yeah, just feeling a sense of sorrow because this is, this out of control thing, you feel like you're stopping you from having a baby. And that sucks. There are things that you can do to get through this sense of grief or what have you that you're feeling, like talking to people. I also encourage people read like blogs or forums related to this too, 'cause sometimes I like reading sentiment and commentary from people. Which is regular everyday people who log on internet and go, well, this is my experience with flesh and such and such. I feel it's kind of like getting a really nice scope of things which can be helpful. But yeah, I think you are completely well within your right and understandable in feeling well for these things. - Yes, I agree. I wouldn't say that I'm child free. It's just more that it's only been very recently that I've even believed. Like I should not have become a mother before therapy for sure, and thank God I didn't. But it's more, at this point it's more like I'm getting old and I just don't see, I don't feel like a need for it. It's not like, oh, I just need to show them right. But that's the thing. If you really want to and you have the money, you can reproduce at stunning ages. - Balance, yeah. - You're spiritual, mental and emotional, balance and maturity. - Well, you don't have to have those things. You have to have the money. - Well, yeah, I'm talking about that. - 'Cause it won't work otherwise. You simply will, you won't be 55 getting pregnant. Well, some of y'all want y'all to be like, my mom would do okay. - I'm saying like doing the work that someone like yourself has done would be. - Woo, that's the thing. - Doing the work of re-parenting myself has been more than enough. I don't need to raise kids because I've already raised me and had 'em. And lady. - You can't hear this from doing the topic fingers. - You know it's T when you see the two fingers touching. - Bitch shut the fuck up. - I'm a real fine bitch. All you bitches ugly. - It's bad courage. - I'm sorry. I'm sorry, I kind of love it. - It is so bad that it's good. It's you. - Thank you. - That's exactly what I was about to say. - I agree. - I agree. - It's terrible to think that you're really here. I need the whole thing. - So, but yes, so yeah, I do get the feelings here, but you know, I have a, you wanna be a mom, get a fucking puppy. - I was gonna say that too. - Yeah, they fuck. - If you don't have a pet, that will help. - It'll help a lot, 'cause let me tell you something. This, if you ever just like, I have too much free time and too much extra money, go get a puppy and she'll just drink all that right up. - As much as we joke about our dogs getting on our damn nerves, you still like. - Oh no, this is my child. - And I'm not comparing it to obviously - I am. - And magnificence of having your own human bridalogy, but what you do get out of having a pet, especially a dog, is this beautiful, loyalty, unconditional love, and also it requires you to look after something and make sure that it's like this adorable, living being that you have to look after, you have to feed it, you have to make sure that it's shit's in the right place, you have to make sure that it socializes and that it knows words. And you do, you have to train them, like you have to do something with this nigga. - But no, you're not crazy to feel that way. I think most people who are being mindful about the choice to be parents, even if they are choosing yes to be parents, you have to take a look around to be like, I'm not really gonna do this, bring an innocent being into this shit when fascism's on the rise in this country and around the world and the cost of everything is a billion fucking dollars, no, it's not crazy to be like, damn, I'm gonna choose not to do this, but to acknowledge that if times were better, maybe you would, I have a friend who has one kid and has said to me multiple times, if it was financially feasible, I would absolutely have another one. But with the economics being the way they are, I just cannot justify it. So you're far from the only person who's making that decision, at least partially from a financial point of view. And there's nothing wrong with that. It's trying to be sad while also saying to yourself, I'm making the right decision for me and I'm gonna feel these feelings and then move on with my life, you know, I'm gonna do both. - Yeah. - All right, babe. - My God, if you got some melanin baby. So you gotta consider you raising like a black baby. - Right, are you having biracial or other of colored children because that's a whole nother layer to, right. But yeah, please, please don't. But yeah, I saw somebody on TikTok posted like a receipt from their mama paying for daycare in 1997 and it was like $250. or something. And they're like, you know, I it's kind of crazy to think about how much the cost of stuff like that has just skyrocketed and people cannot afford it. So they're making very hard decisions. And I'm sorry that we live in that kind of world, but we do. I feel like that was something that I heard like maybe once or twice in the rapture room because so many of those people are parents. Oh, yeah, a lot of them were had like new kids and stuff to like when we were riding to your season. Everybody was pregnant, especially season two, like everybody was pregnant or they wife was pregnant. But one of the things that I heard come up a couple of times was like, girl, these daycare prices, school clothes, books, what the hell else do they want bone marrow? It don't make sense. They would just talk about like daycare being just ridiculous. It is. It is. And the workers don't get that money. The people who are actually spending the most time with your kids aren't even though they're not making very much they usually make a minimum wage. It is psychotic. It is disheartening the way this country operates, but it is the way this country operates. So you get to make a choice for now. For now, you get to choose whether you reproduce. I don't know how much longer that'll be true, but it is. Yeah, it's fair to feel these things. And wishing you luck in accepting and all that because it's heartbreaking, you know. And this is why a lot of people say, fuck it. We'll figure it out. And I'm not going to say that that's inherently wrong because I should a social construct keep you from having kids. Right. But you know the realities of what it's like to raise humans. Everybody knows it's very fucking expensive. That's why I like that you said that they're making the decision. You're making the decision that is right for you. Right. Right. Yeah. And since you never really wanted them anyway. Right. That's a good point. But when you is something about the finality of being like, okay, I'm not going to do this. There is some grieving involved with that. I mean, I remember feeling a little bit of that around, no, no, maybe two or three years ago, but I got over that quickly because I got a fucking dog. Yeah, I felt it like. And now I am a mother has couple of years. Yeah. All right. Good luck, Grace. And that is going to wrap up our letters this week. If you have a question for us, please send us an email to ask the read at gmail.com. We're going to take another quick break and be right back. Okay, girlies. It is time now for the read. I was just trying to get mine out of the way because it's quick and it should be quick and simple. My read is actually That's right. Maybe today we have a brand. Thank you. You know, this kid. Very sports shorts. I'm going to talk to you girls about the UFC 324 match that took place this past week. I want to tell you girls that it was incredibly boring. It was ridiculous. The girls were out there, cho cho sliding in the fucking ring. Why don't you all even sign up for this main card? It was so impossibly goddamn boring. Natalia Silver, you was fighting pussy. I don't know why you decided that you wanted to, you know, why actually do just know why you decided as you want to heat it up and actually fight in third round. Because you know, Rose was tapping that ass and go ahead all of the strikes. Now you want to fight. Boom. Don't see it. Um Ali song. I don't understand how that goddamn fight with some mother fucking boring when it was a tatted up white man with his lanky ass in the ring with straight back cornrows. One side hot pink the other sign the on green hell was I falling asleep when the Joker was fighting. But who I really want to discuss here is one Derek Lewis fighter out of Houston, Texas. I believe he was up against one Walgo Cortez Acosta. Hailing from Dominican Republic. Now tell it. Let me tell you this. This was the one fighter the night where I didn't give fuck who won because I like them both. They both black. One is from here. The other is Afro Caribbean. I don't give a shit. Whoever wins wins girl. I wish I could show you the end of this fight. I do not know what the fuck happened. First of all, they were actually giving me the energy I needed at first. They were going blow for blow. But that Dominican was tapping that chain a couple of times. And this roll. Let me show you something. Derek Lewis was like a chest of drawers. This man is like. Okay, like. Slow. I mean, both of them are. They were both heavyweights, but it was like. I don't it's like he lost his his grape is confidence. The end of the fight. I believe I believe Walter like jabbed at him. Maybe it touched Derek's chin, but he like he clearly slipped and fell like on his back. Rather than getting back up. I don't know doing a shimmy shake to this. Coming up with a plan. He just stayed on the ground. He then laid on his back. And was like, I guess I'll just be finished. I don't want to fight. I don't know what. And the funny thing about it is. What of course has a cost to look at him for a beat. He didn't even immediately get on him and start, you know, right look left hook. There was a beat where he kind of did this motion like get it. And this was the second time in their fight that he did that. Oh my God. And then the nigga just laid on his back. Walter was like. All right, cool. I guess I'll beat your ass in rocked her. Shit. They stopped the fight. Derek looked like. Like a close relative died. I like I think he was as confused as us. Sir. Why would you go out like that? All the people's chanting USA USA because literally I most I think every fight was an American fighter against somebody who was out from here. So they really except for the lot. Well, the only time they didn't do that was the last fight because everybody love patty pin blit because I guess he remind like if you didn't know he was a fighter, he'd think he was like a DJ. So they just like his wild white energy and large eyes and the fact that he come out dancing the EDM or whatever. So he was the only time where they weren't lately in the crowd chanting for the American to win. And this is exactly how I knew I don't ever want to go see no damn USA fight live. I only do you I get better visuals and coverage of it at home. I'm not going to deal with y'all. Thank you, at least adjusting a G and and patty for entertain me. That was a good fight patty on even know how you made it out of that alive because he cracked your shit. You didn't you went out swinging literally and figured. But you ended up looking like Martin and you know when so this is really for Derek Lewis. What happened brother? What took place? Why did you lay down with open arms and open legs and allow that man to whip your ass like that? Just lost the nerve I guess. Anyway, any questions? No, I did not understand almost everything you said, but work. But your energy was filled sports. Every time you said Waldo my brain said fall down and then I just kept laughing. I mean, what are you supposed to do about it? I just kept laughing at that. So I really retained precious little of that. Every time I say it, I think of Waldo or all the fall down. I don't fuck you somebody who don't know who I'm talking about. Let's go think of somebody else. That's why you was laughing. What did you say to my bracelet, Faldo? And I just did just repeating. Mine does every time. Oh. Swammer, man. It was a pretty good fight up until that point, but Derek, step up to the mic. Oh, man. But overall UFC 324, the reads for you. That was that was so boring. My God, bring a book. I'm finished. I just want to say real quickly, speaking of sports, a lot of people have been mad at Anthony Edwards for what he said about the ice shooting in Minnesota. He was basically like, I don't really know what's going on in the world. I don't have social media and all that, but you know, I'm with the people because the people be supporting me. So, you know, I support the people and praying for everybody. Me and my family praying for everybody involved. That's the smartest possible thing. Anthony, I was about to say, I don't know what you niggas expected out of Anthony fucking Edwards. Okay, that nigga don't even take care of his kids. He don't even give a shit about his kids, okay, the fact that he doesn't say, I don't know what you mean. He ain't none of my business. Honestly, the response I wish a lot of people would give when they're asked about social political issues. Yeah, I don't really know because I don't have social media and all that, but I'm with the people and, you know, I heard about it, so you know, praying for everybody. That is the smartest thing you don't get out of Anthony Edwards, and I understand this is related because, you know, this is the third person ICE has killed in Minneapolis over the past like month, and a lot of people are focusing on the white people who have died and not Keith Porter Jr., who died on New Year's Eve, killed by an ICE agent. And I would, I mean, I would just, obviously, that's unfair if you can find the GoFundMe for Keith Porter Jr.'s daughters, the GoFundMe's for the other victims are- I'll put the link in the description. Okay. Because there's our over a million. His is just under 200,000, and it's like, if we lived in a world where black, you know, these things happen to black people, mattered to anybody other than black people, then the shit wouldn't be happening to anybody else, like it wouldn't be happening to white people, but it also wouldn't be happening to us because we would be living in a world that gave a fuck, a society that gave a fuck about its people, and we just don't. So I understand like a lot of people are frustrated by this, and I am too, I get that, but they don't care when it happens to us because it's quote unquote supposed to happen to us. They don't support when it happens to us the way they do when it happens to one of them, because it's not supposed to happen to one of them. This isn't a society that says, you know, people might say all lives matter when you say black or eyes matter, but actually nobody's life really matters, especially if you're not rich and if you're not white. So it's, I'm frustrated by this, but I also understand that this is America, so yeah, if you can donate to the GoFundMe for his daughters, please do. It's just beyond frustrating what this government is doing and that we were explicitly warned multiple times that this very thing would happen, and y'all still said, I don't give a fuck. But anyway, that's not going to be the primary focus of my read this week. I'm actually going to pass my read this week because, you know, dogs are just, they're just a part of this week's episode. I am going to pass a read. This read was submitted by Effie. Effie also included three photos of herself so that we could see how gorgeous she is. I thought you were going to say her dog or something. She says, "My name is Effie and I'm a five year old schnause or terrier mix and I'm supposed to weigh no more than eight pounds. However my lazy ass mama don't be taking me on walks like I need to and we both just sitting over here getting fat." So this read is for my lazy ass mama and her fiance. First of all, I'm pissed off. You showed up to a foster home looking to adopt some crazy ass Chihuahua that you thought was cute. And I was just there watching that bitch bite you with nonstop barking. So yeah, of course you changed your mind. And maybe I did look underweight at five pounds with the face of a grandpa. But when the white foster mom said, "This is tidbit and put me in your man's arms." I knew to look at y'all with my big brown eyes like pussy and boots and y'all melted just like clockwork. So let me remind you that you adopted me and took me home. So I'm a region of field because I think you have forgotten that I'm still getting used to you. You and your little fiance, which I could give two shits about because nobody invited me to take engagement pictures, but anyway, what y'all not going to do is keep complaining about my bad breath. Bitch, pay the $500 to get my teeth cleaned in. You think I give a damn about the economy? Don't be trying to figure out how you can give me only pause to make money you broke bitch listen. Oh my God. I was on death row and niggas was ready to euthanize me. That should tell you I'm from the streets. So please don't keep trying me. And going to die. I'm sick of you getting tired of me barking. I bark bitch. I'm a dog. It's in my brain. You dumb. And I bark at white people. So you welcome. I bark if I hear anything. Surprise lady. Hey, say, well. I'm pet proud. Breach. Literally. I'm shocking. I'm chiming in. You don't even need the ring camera because you have me for that and you are welcome. Yelling me again, though. And I promise the day somebody tried to break in this house. I'm staring you down. It's silence. Also, it's weird that you get mad when I follow you around the house because the moment you sit down, I want 100% of that laugh. If you sit on the couch, that means we sitting on the couch. My dog daddy understands this. So you need to pull up. Fuck a Velcro dog, bitch. I'm glue. Yeah. And you need therapy. I know you were looking, but you stopped and I'm tired of you crying when I'm trying to play with my toys and bite you and you can't just be extra affectionate when you have your usual 10 milligram gum, you're coming home late drunk as fuck, you uncable bitch. You know how annoying you are yelling at me because I can follow on the heels of your feet. And yes, if you leave the gate to the kitchen, open on the sniff, the floor for floor snacks. And if I don't get floor snacks, I'm going to knock over the candy dish so I can enjoy the chocolates that you put out for guests. You don't even like people in the house, so why even have a candy dish? You need to take me on more walks. I will leave you alone if I can go on more walks. Stop getting mad when I started tacking my leash, bitch. I'm just excited. You dummy. You know I'm a drama queen. So if you try to take me outside when there's snow on the ground, I will continue to how and cry because my feet are cold. And I don't fuck with the snow which you should have learned by now. I will shit on your bathroom, man, before I ever throw you in. I hate doggy daycare, but you keep surprising me with that bullshit once a month. I don't like other dogs like that. So if you think you're about to zoom in on the live camp and see me running around with Papito, you don't know that I thought, I would continue to follow the other humans around. Like I do at home, I know you wanted a dog and you named me after a character you played in your favorite musical, but bitch, I'm sure you were gagged when the daycare said I was the fifth dog named Effie. You know, I feel especially now, are you? Jesus. I am grateful you changed my name from Tibbet to Effie because that white lady really thought she ate when she gave me that ugly ass name, but I am very much African-American. So continue to put coconut oil and deodorizer on, so I don't smell like what I look like. And please stop singing, if I don't want to hear your loud ass singing or you dusting off your raggedy ass ukulele skills, the neighbors don't want to hear that shit either, I will gladly leave the room. I don't know. You need to get your shit together. I know you work three jobs and take care of your aunt in the home. You try to be a good aunt to your three nieces and you're in three different bands. I get it. You see, even though you put me in my kennel and turn on doggie TV on YouTube until your fiance comes home to take me out on his lunch breaks, I'm always excited to see you. I will always be ready to cuddle you. So get my teeth cleaned. Let me have your lap and give me more walks. You keep saying I'm perfect. Now you need to keep me happy, bitch, thanks, Effie. Effie, no notes. I feel like you made tremendous points throughout. I was a little bit triggered when you brought up the candy dish, but don't nobody come over. I feel like you have right knee in it, but I've been married. This was pretty sound. Shout out to Effie and her mom, Sean, who's clearly not doing what she's supposed to be doing. Get up on your job, bitch. That was one of the funniest things I ever made. As Laney is clawing at the back of my chair, like, why are you at home if we're not playing? I think she don't understand why I'm here, but ignoring the fuck out of her life. If I sit anywhere, if she was here right now, she would claw that door, push it open, figure it out, and then be like, this should be open because it's simple, right? Are you going to lift me up or do I have to jump up there? Yeah. Yeah. I just bought Laney some stairs so she can get herself where she needs to climb in and out of the bed. Like, I'm not, you nothing to bark at me to come lift you up every time you try to get somewhere, but it's crazy how these eight pound dogs be running your whole life. I wish you would say something about it. Oh yeah. And how dare I, bitch. So thank you, Effie, for sending that in. If you have a read you'd like to pass, you can email that to this one was sent to ask the read, but you can send that to pass the read at gmail.com if you'd also like to pass your read. But that is going to wrap up this week's episode of the show. Check us out on social media at this is the read. Our website is this is the read.com. I want to thank comedian Mel Mitchell for being on this week's episode of Crystal's Couch. We had a Wang dang doodle when I tell you, uh, crystal'scouch.com for all the links and to join us on Patreon, any other news from you this week? Kiffiri? Um, if I may patreon.com/kiffiri get into our new monthly playlist digs as well as some upcoming fun surprises. Look out for the GoFundMe link for Keith for the juniors. two different, um, go find me there's two separate ones. I'll put the link in for both. Okay, the one I saw was for his kids, specifically, um, by his mother, Franciola, the one that fits for their future, the title is support for Keith Porter, junior daughter's future. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. I'll put that one. So, um, just American man, please, please, please. That's it. Love on each other, pet a dog, roll your eyes back out of dog. We'll talk to you next week. Right. Y'all bye.