The Month of Kislev: Rekindling Hope, Dreams, And Trust

- Good morning, welcome to this podcast. Today's podcast is Lewin Ishmat. You're on the Anabigadal Israel. Success in your job. This class is also sponsored by you. You could tell you who to memorize a ghetto and reach a brown matchmaking. All right, today's class. We're today's the month of Kislav. Thank God we are finally out of the month of Khashvan. And we're in the month of Kislav. We're gonna talk about two practical things that you're gonna have to work on in this month to get to optimize this month. You know, every single month has a specific energy. And this specific energy allows us to hit our specific goals and to optimize the month of the energy. The two things you can focus on is gratitude and trust. Gratitude and trust. The concept of, there's a concept in many other stages of hemicology, he says, whoever doesn't complain in the month of Kislav will merit huge miracles. That means to the degree that you complain, you diminish the miracles in your life. So this month, it's a great month to focus on. Anytime you have a complaint, focus on three things you're grateful for. And the reason why, again, same thing as we said before, if you cannot recognize the source in your life and you cannot appreciate the source, then why would it be given to you? If all you're doing is complaining, then why would it be given to you? It makes absolutely no sense. You have to always recognize the source. Who's giving it to you? This is the reason why we recognize the source. So our ego doesn't get to our head. And then we appreciate the vessel. We appreciate the more we appreciate. Same reason why we don't give kids diamonds. We give them marbles because they can't appreciate diamonds. So if you, we don't give a kid a diamond because he doesn't know what to do with it. Same thing, you will not be given things that you cannot deal with. These two things, both gratitude and both certainty, which is trust, are both forms of giving, giving. When I'm grateful, I'm giving God pleasure. When I'm able to have certainty, and I don't have fear. Remember, the Torah says, the most popular line in the Torah says, do not fear, the most popular line. That's your default. Your default in life is to be a chronic warrior, to be pessimistic. That's the default. You walk around in the world and you see 90% of the people shocked out, they're subconscious, they're not even present. That's the default, that's what the whole world is. When you are able to have optimism and have trust, you are able, now you're a giver. You're giving God pleasure. So these two things, in order for us to draw his chefa, we have to be like the creator. So how do we become like the creator? We go, we go in his image. In his image, we become givers. We become givers how we know that the work of the mind is having certainty above logic. Anytime that I'm able to be positive, I am becoming a giver. Why, 'cause the details are telling me, I should be upset, and I should worry. But if I'm able to think positively above the situation, I now become a giver. I now become a giver. And the same thing, when I'm able to be grateful, I'm recognizing the source. So these two things are the pretty much the two currencies in the spiritual world. Trust and gratitude, it's the currency. Everything else is just a fear. If you have these two things, you pretty much will have success across the board, across the board, because these are the things make you into a giver. Obviously, when we have doubt, we become takers. When we're grateful, we mimic Adam's sin. And these are the two things that pretty much cause the most problems in life, which is doubt and complaining and not being grateful. So now you know, that's the umbrella. That's the umbrella that you have to work on. Everything else is a result. There's even a study, there's a gratitude study that came out with 2003, that people who were grateful for what was the study. The people wrote five things down every single week. There were five new things they were grateful for. And then another negative group wrote five things, they were bothered that frustrated them. Basically, they tracked these people down in 10 weeks. The people that were happier, they were more grateful, they had more optimistic in the future. They were exercised more, they were healthier, they had better relationships across the board. Unfortunately, the people that were not were more unfortunately negative, they couldn't exercise. We know that stress takes off 50% of your muscle strength. By the way, it's an incredible number. 50% weaker, you become 50% weaker when you're stressed. When you get angry, it takes you four hours to recover from cortisol. So you can understand, you're biologically, I mean, you get angry, you're four hours in recovery. You can go to a coal plunge, you can do that, your nervous system is four hours in recovery. So you need to understand that. So this is why you have to be careful. If it's easier, just like the Rambam says, the Rambam writes a letter, that he talks about not getting angry. But he says, the first lower your voice, because if you already have a high pitch voice, you're gonna get angry. So he says, lower your voice. The same thing with gratitude, with complaining. You can't just not complain, because you're a complainer. You got me? That's your norm, that's your, that's like, we're not complainers, we have a habit of complaining. We're not aware we have a habit. So your habit, the habits are not so great. So now you have to change your habit by going into positive. And we know that right away God tells us, same old day I need, even the blessings in the morning are programming you to find the good points. Thank you God for not making me a slave. Thank you for not making me, giving me strength. Thank you for taking me wisdom. So pretty much the morning rituals are programming you to focus on the good versus the bad, right? Even you're supposed to get dressed, you're supposed to put the right over the left, right? We always put the right over the left. Why? Because we want tested of Gavura. We want to see always the kindness and everything. So you're pretty much programmed for these two things. We're programmed to say a blessing. Every single time we say a blessing, we're recognized in the source. We're appreciating the blessings. So you're sort of programmed this. The problem is, is when you do in synagogue and when you're doing on the road, it's two different people sometimes. And this is where business is business, and Moses is Moses, it's not really the way. That means you have to bring Moses into your business. You have to bring this consciousness into your business. And that's why you have to focus on being, just focus on, you're going to catch a complaint. Okay, three things I'm grateful for. Three things I'm grateful for. Right away, stop creating a new pattern. I'm about to complain. Now I have to think three things I'm more grateful for and write them down, et cetera. It's a good way to, it's a good way, it's a good hack. And then at the end of the day, you get in life where you practice. Not in life. You get in life where you practice. And if you practice this, you end up getting it. It's what we say. Everyone says many times that faith is according to a person's mouth. You know, on a holiday of Passover, what do we say? Dianu, when's the last time you said Dianu? When's the last time you said the word, Dianu? God, it's just enough if you gave me this husband. It's just enough if you gave me this house. When's the last time? Look at the husband, you gave me, look at the kids you gave me instead. Today we have Dianu in reverse, unfortunately. You see the problem? It's Dianu in reverse. If you just gave me this, it would have been enough. God, if you just gave me this, it would have been enough. If you would have just gave me this enough. Thank God if I made only this good news today, it would have been enough. Again, I'm not telling you we're all there, but what happens is the more you are grateful for, the more you are given more things to be grateful for. If you cannot recognize a miracle, it will not be given to you. You will not recognize it. What's the point? If the whole point of this world that we're in today is to reveal the Mahoot, that's the mission statement. Your mission statement is to reveal the Mahoot in your life, to reveal the king in your life. Who's running the show here? Are you running the show? Or is the creator running the show? You are here to reveal the creator's light. That's the mission statement. Everything we're doing is to reveal God's light. On Rosh Hashanah, this becomes steroids, by saying Hashem, who I'll keep, but technically throughout our lives, you are revealing the king, and you have to ask yourself, how good of a job, are you doing that? You know, my name is Gidal, yeah. Make God's name great, so that's my mission statement. I have to make God's name great. When I'm complaining, how do I make God's name great? When I'm not doing, how do I make God's name great? I don't. Gidal, yeah, turn the dial it into the hay. Are you ever shopping online and suddenly a discount that helps you save pops up? It makes your day, sometimes even your week. Want that feeling month after month? Well, new customers who save by switching their home and auto insurance to progressive save hundreds. Cue your happy dance. Get your quote today at progressive.com. Progressive casualty insurance company affiliates and other insurance not available in all states. So your job is to reveal God's name great. You, and we do that by becoming givers and having trust. There's no glory that God gets from a person who's fearful and depressed. There's no glory. Even the times of the armies when they were fights and there was wars. A person who was afraid, you know what they told them? Go home. Go home, you know I go home because you're going to scare the crap out of everybody else. You're going to scare everybody else. You're going to deplore the value. You're going to make everybody nervous. And all of a sudden it's going to be contagious. So having certainty above logic is how you become a giver. And you get the result because of the certainty. Like I said before, we have to make decisions. We have to go. We have to make decisions. We have to go because all of this without action means absolutely nothing. means nothing and moon is just the belief that thinks believing in God. Trust is taking an interaction. Trust is the trust is where the where where you start getting results. Faith is just is I believe in God. Wonderful. Good for you. What are you doing about it? I mean you cannot faith and no trust. That's the difference. The execution is the trust. Whether you make long term plans. You know imagine going out with somebody. I don't know if I want to marry you. But I'll have a good day with you. There's no trust in the future. And the way it works is because of the trust is why you will succeed. It's not because of the situation. It's because you trusted in it. You will succeed in it. It's actually the trust that creates the success. Not the not the details. It's the trust. People are too spent on I have to be 100% sure in the details. No. The trust is it will success. And remember once you can trust that allows you to surrender. That allows you to surrender. If you don't trust you can surrender. If you can't surrender you can't receive. And this is one of the things that we need to really really work on this month. If we really want to get results in life. The results are there. Any desire that you have is a desire from the creator. And he wants to give it to you. He created, he gave us, he got created us with the biggest appetites to receive. If you didn't want to receive, why do you think receiving such an issue today? He gave you the biggest appetites to receive. But he wants you to transform receiving into giving. He wants you to be like him. That's our mission statement in this world. When you are pessimistic, when you are complaining about everything, there's no glory that God gets. What glory does God get? If you're fearful and you can't make a move because you're afraid of failing, what glory does God get? There's no glory. It will be given to somebody else. Esther Amalca, she was told, if you don't want to take this mission, it will be given to somebody else. So sometimes a lot of times you're going to get missions in your life and you don't do them. They'll be given to somebody else. You're going to get money. They're going to get tested with money. You don't want to give charity. You don't want to be a giver. Don't worry. I'll be taking away from somebody else. We know people in a blick of an eye can lose. Look at this guy from NVIDIA. A lot to stock that for cheating on a Chinese girl. 10 points. That's it. I'll be given. I'll be given. A person has a gift in life. He doesn't use it for the right thing. He'll be giving to somebody else. Don't think wealth is permanent. Don't think. I mean, we hear this. Look at this guy. He's doing great. Next thing, you know, rape charges. Just go on in one second. Don't think anything is permanent. God gives you everything and He tests you. Everything's a test. What are you going to do with it? Your job is to have certainty over logic. Certainty in what? In the process. In the process. In the process. In the process. Not in the details of every single day because there could be many things to get you to the process. For example, we had to go through Heshvan. That's the process. Heshvan is the process. Can everything be easy? Why? Because then you would suffer from shame. So, Heshvan is the word and Heshvan is the known. That's the 50. We know Kislav is the letter in the Kislav is Samach, which means "Asamach is made from a coffin of valve." If you look at it, that represents the numerical value of 26. Coffin of valve, the Kislav. That is, if you take both of them, 110 is Ness, a miracle. So, your ability to handle Kislav, your ability to have endurance and to have resilience and to be positive after is resistance because most people, once they go through challenges, they're knocked out on the emergency room or they have desire. This is why it's very, very important to work on that concept. So, work on trust, working on having certainty. Take action in your life. Just take action. I'm thinking about going to the gym. Don't think too much. Thinking does nothing right now because you're trying to rationalize things. You're rationalizing too much. You can bring it into Khachma. It's the concept of a vision. I have a vision to do something right away after a vision. You must take decision. Beena is now making a decision for me. So, this month will give you a bill. You have something you haven't done. You have something you haven't. You want to start something. It all starts from your trust. Your trust. That's why miracles happen. The difference between this month and Nissan, which is also connected to miracles. Nissan, the miracle came, and then we built faith. That means first came the miracle, and that the miracles created our faith. That means we had to back that Nissan, the arousal from above. So, we pretty much had to see it, and then we believed it. This month, it's below. Hanukkah, darkness. We have to believe it, and then we'll see it. See the difference? So, this month is a lot of action, and according to the action you take, is the miracle that you will have. According to the matter. That's why the month of, that's why Hanukkah is hidden miracles. It's hidden. They had to take action. Because they took the action, it lasted longer, the lights. The lights just come on by itself. So, there is an arousal from below, but there is a sense. There's a lot of a sense of complete optimism, et cetera. The Baal Shemtafs tells us that the only way a person can fall is if he loses his trust in God. That's the only way the other side can get you. There's impossible for the other side to get you. Only if you have trust in God. If you have trust in God, they cannot touch you. You cannot be touched. Nobody can touch you. Nobody can harm you if you have trust in God. But if you give away that trust and you fall into fear, then we fall into the jurisdiction of fallen fears. What is fallen fears? Fallen fears is misplaced fears. And that causes whoever you fear to harm you. The numerical value of the, when we look at the fallen fears, if you look at the letters in the alphabet, the ones that are fallen, those are the numerical value of 280. 280 is the name Par. This is where all the harm in the world comes from. All the harm that comes from a person comes to a person comes from fallen fears. Comes from fears that he created that he gave energy to. As long as you need to give energy to the fears by having certainty, they can't touch you. But any harm that we have today, any jurisdiction, is given because a person is fallen fears. This is why it's so important. Part of the, part of the, part of his bodhidud is the second part is accounting on fallen fears, making mishpots. Create the world? Help me. I'm afraid, I'm afraid of this. Help me gain trust. As long as you commit and you confess, yes, I'm afraid of this. I need help. Then you give and help. But when you let these panic attacks, and if you look at the Torah, how many panic attacks created disasters? Every time it's a panic attack, a disaster, right? They cried over the spies, disaster. They cried over a Moshe coming down, disaster. Panic attacks are disasters. You have to get this right. You have to get this right because if not, you're going to come back another world and do it again. So you better figure it out. That's the bottom line. You got to get it right. And again, you got to get the gratitude right because when you know get the gratitude right, you're going to get so much disappointments that you're going to realize, what do you, you know, I thought, I thought the other day, what's the risk of positivity? Honestly, what is the risk? What risk do you have by being positive? There's zero risk in all the rewards. Being negative, there's no, there's no upside. And you just have people to complain with. You just have people to complain with. How many, I mean, do you look how many Yentas are on the social media? Just complaining. Just low energy complainers, just Yenta and sending behind a computer with their big mouths. They can chop and talk like that. But it's all low, low self-esteem complaining. It's the bottom line, sitting behind a computer at low self-esteem and you criticize everybody else because you're a loser. It's the bottom line. It's that simple. I have an extra Scorpio energy today. Excuse me. So that's the bottom line. You have to have certainty and remember, to the degree that you build yourself and you have certainty, you draw God's bounty, and that makes God happy. It's very, very important when you're going through a test. God, we have to pass this because you gave me, I'm a co-creator with you. When you have, when God's giving you an opportunity and you're feel for it. You're not passing that test. The bounty goes to the other side. Any Sheffa that's not directed to you becomes Pesha. Pesha, you know the word Sheffa becomes Pesha. It gets flipped. And now the Sheffa goes where it's ago, only fans accounts. Vegas, the Tuma. Either the Sheffa goes to the Kedusha or goes into the Tuma. It goes into the impure energies. The impure energies also get fed. But they get fed on the fallen Kedusha, on the fallen holiness. All the Tuma in the world goes to the other side. There's the side of Kedusha and there's the side of the other side. If we don't grasp it, the other side grabs it. And the other side is always trying to hijack Kedusha. The other side is always trying to hijack. That's why our job is to actually do the opposite. We have to actually extract. The negativity to the positivity, we have to, anytime we fall into sadness, all our devotions go into the other side, believe it or not, it's very scary stuff. All our devotions go to the other side, even if you're praying, for example, you're lighting candles, you don't care what's lit, you can almost let your finger on fire, you have no devotion, the other side grabs it. Something that does not have a heart and a mind, the other side grabs it. Even if you say it, it doesn't go anywhere, because it's like a body without a soul. This is the same thing when people have relations with no intention of giving, just selfishness, right? Only selfishness. There's no satisfaction because there's no give, there's no receiver. It's just too much self. This is why immorality is such a problem because there's no give, there's no giving and taking. There's only, there's only taking. Anytime there's only taking, there's the other side, part of life. When you do a mitzvah with happiness, you're actually going to extract all the times that you were sad and you can extract that, that things back into the, into the akadusha. So this is why joy is so important in the spiritual world, because joy is actually, we're actually extracting the negativity that we got, that once was stuck on the other side, bringing it back. This is why joy breaks everything, joy breaks everything, nothing, person gets to joy, which is the hardest thing to do, he breaks, he wins in every, any, every channel, because it's the hardest thing to do, imagine how much surrendering you have to be today, imagine to have joy today, how much letting go you have to do, how much letting go you have to do, you need a master's in letting go, you need a master's in surrendering, you need a master's in judging people positively, you need a master's in patience, right? You need to believe that every day is recreated, that's a lot of work, that's a lot of work, I mean that's, but if you have unworthiness then you're going to worry, see the problem is is the worthiness, that's really the root. If I have, if I'm lacking worthiness, I will always find the way that I'm not worthy of this, it's not going to work out, so sometimes the work is really, really to work on the worthiness, on azamara, we're not going to really drill down azamara, you have to think you're worthy of God's blessings, because he get the enjoyment that the creator gets is so much more than you can handle, see we, we, we become unfortunately, we become very self-centered and we only think about the gift, we don't think about the givers, enjoyment and giving, we don't think about that, you don't understand, oh we think how do I receive my soulmate, how do I receive this, how do I receive that, do you think about the creator's desire to give you something, how about if he gives it to you early and you, and it leaves you, and then, and then you complain about the creator and then you complain. So we're always being tested constantly to make sure there are vessels or completely they have, they have the right desire, we don't want confused vessels, because if it's a confused vessel, I'm going to throw you the ball, you're wide open, you're going to, you're going to drop the ball, now the quarterback loses, the receiver loses, everybody loses. So we always get the purification in life to make sure the clarification is right, but this month is, is a month to go, and you have to, and the word, this is where the word "kiss" or "kiss", I trust in God, I have confidence, I have trust, I have hope, right? He who trusted in Hashem, he who trusted in Hashem, Psalm 32, a person who trusted in Hashem will have mercy, will have mercy surrounding him all the time, I have that, I have a massive painting in my office, one who trusted in Hashem will be surrounded with mercy, one who fears, one who trusts as a man will be cursed, you want to trust in Hashem, you want to trust in Fauci, people who are trusting in Fauci back then, Fauci, Fauci, who's Fauci? So you have a Michigan guy predicting deaths, I almost laughed at people, and people, they were crazy, doctors predicting deaths, this year 300,000 by 2 months, 600, crazy to people listening to him, this is how, this is the crying you should have, COVID taught how much, how much people did not trust in Hashem, and they felt the fallen fears, that goes to show you, you felt the fallen fears, it was the test, to show you what was really inside of you, so this is what Kislam is really, really about taking this action and taking advantage and manifesting as much as possible, and again, being positive and being, it's not a logical thing, it is not a lot, there's no logic to it, you don't have to understand, it's called jump first, and you will understand, first a Munah, then you need to understand that you You have to be okay with not being okay. You're going to be okay. You don't know 100% certainty, but if because of your certainty, that's when you will succeed. So if you're worried about too much risk, too much calculation of too much risk, you're worried about failure. You're already lost. You're already lost. It's in a, I'm telling you this works every single time. It's the action. It's the action that creates. That's the, that's the bithachon. It's God wants you to split to see, He wants you to have their pursuit. Every single one of them even, even our sages. Abraham Avino. What did he do? He ran to the guest. He ran to the guest. Right? Abraham Avino, he settled his donkey to sacrifice his son. There was no minute of hesitation. There was no hesitation. The Ramakhan says the reason why we hesitate and the reason why we're, it's because we're lazy and lazy comes in it, laziness comes from a lack of faith. Bottom line. If you tell your kids, guys, we're going to Orlando at five o'clock in the morning. There's no hesitation. They're up in a second. Packed, ready to go. If you tell them we're going to synagogue at 10 o'clock, it's a whole different ballgame. You need a, you a hot truck. You a hot truck, 10 cappuccinos, coffee, candy, you understand? You need nothing for Orlando. But for synagogue, you need a sugar factory for God's sake to get them down the block. I'm just telling you why, why, one's an obligation, one's an opportunity. There you go. So you almost have to understand that your energy determines the value of everything in life. Your energy determines value. If you think Pitachan is okay, big deal. I learned in class some Pitachan is not big deal. Then you're not going to put much effort into it. Where you put so much effort, that you put you checked in PTO. But Pitachan, we have to understand, worry, perfect. These are symptoms of lack of trust. It's a symptom of lack of trust. That's a symptom. You can't surrender. It's a symptom, you have a control issue. That's a symptom of lack of trust. That's, you should be focusing on trust. How do I stop controlling people? How do I stop becoming angry? How do I stop talking gossip to people? Work on your self-esteem. What do you need to talk about other people? Honestly, if you have to stop talking bad about people, you have a self-esteem issue. What is stopping, that's too much defense. What do you need to put people down? Go build yourself up. Either you're building a building or you're knocking people down. And the story. Stop talking. This is why I'm not a fan of these stop-talking-lush and horror or stop end-timerism. Get better. What do we, this is root causes? Get better. Focus on the unity. Focus on self-esteem. Build people up. These are symptoms of these things. Take this pill when you get a stomach ache after eating a hotdog. What are you eating a hotdog for with rice? What are you, it's like, what are we doing this? Prevent it. The key is prevention is the key. And this is where I say to say, Hashem is your shadow or shadow mimics gods mimics your up above. Basically Hashem is your shadow. However, the shadow is below is above. That's the way. That's Kabbalah. All we're doing in Kabbalah is reuniting as so below and so is above. All we're doing in Kabbalah is we're trying to figure out just like yesterday's class. Which Svira is misaligned? I have a beautiful orchestra and the piano player is playing too loud. And the orchestra is out of line. What happens if you go to an orchestra with the piano player is too long and the drums player not in the same beat? It's terrible. Even though they're all there, but they're not united. So this is Toho energies when one energy is too loud. It's too loud. We have to just align it. All Kabbalah is and all prayer is, and this is where you will get more from alignment than more from ambition. You can be ambitious and not be aligned. That's the Aries energy, too much Aries energy, right? Or the opposite side of the Libra is too many other people, not you. All we want is alignment. Alignment creates Sheffa. That's a line. That's why what do we say? I want to make God's will, what I make God's will, he will make it my will. When I'm aligned with his will, when I accept his will, if God wants me to have a, this should break right now, then I want it to break also. I want to be aligned with his will and trust in the process, then he will be aligned with my will. But if you're not aligned with his will, right, you're in a car and the alignment's off. You imagine how exhausting it is to drive in a highway when the alignment is off. Every two seconds, every two seconds, you come out and you have exhausted, I can't deal with this car ride. Why? Keep some pulling to the side. Fix the alignment. So if you keep on pulling to the side and thinking, you know better, and one thing, listen, one thing I can tell you, I've mastered surrender and I've mastered letting go. And I know, I know nothing. So if this is the way God wants it, I also want it. And that seems to be always the winning recipe. It's when you think you know better because the essence of knowledge is to realize you know nothing whatsoever. You take, you take calculated risk, you show a bitachon and then you sow, you have to let go of everything else. You have to let go of the results and you have to let go of the timing. You put points on the board, let go, don't watch the scoreboard. That's a bitachon. You just go, go, go, go, move, move, move. Heaven does the results. It's when we are trying to play God and we move and then we watch the scoreboard. It's not changing yet. I'm upset it's not changing yet. Why is it not changing? How come it's not happening this way? Who the hell are you? Who are you? Who are you? Who, how do you know that's the way better? How do you know that's the better way for you? How do you know? How do you know? How do you know this is a better way for you? How could you possibly know? Because your trauma from the past tells you this is the way better. The essence of knowledge, this way it's so important but not what tells you, leave your brain at the door. You want to receive, you need to erase everything about yourself. It constantly told us, don't replay yesterday. Because yesterday can affect you from today. Don't replay. Hasid, hasidud would put every therapist out of business. You know why? Because they're telling you today's a brand new creation, what are you talking about yesterday for? Today's a whole brand new creation and we have to live in this concept of optimism and we have to understand that it is your action that's going to give you the success in life. And it's your inaction that's going to cause the prison of your life. It's your ingratitude that's going to cause the biggest problems in your life because you think things have to go this way and things have to go in this timing. It's not true. It's not up to you. At my 10 steps, the 9th step is let go of the timing and the 8th step is letting go of the form. That is not up to you. We have to focus on a feeling. How am I going to feel if this happens in my life? I need to focus on that feeling. I need to download that feeling. I need to walk around like that feeling is already part of me. The rest will work out. That's even physics. I just have to focus on the feeling. I want to focus on the feeling of throwing a cheesecake party in the room, red box, orange box, three spoons, caramel in the middle. That's all I have to focus on. I have to focus on how that cheesecake is going to taste. What's going to get me to the cheesecake party? That's got. That's got. That's got. And because I have so much confidence in it, I will taste the cheesecake party. If I can't see the cheesecake in my prayers, we have a problem. We have a problem. We have the means there's a doubt. There's a doubt. If I don't feel excited about this challenge, I have a problem. That means there's anxiety and I'm not going to win that challenge because I lack the trust or I don't trust in the form or I don't trust in the timing of it. Or the timing is taking too much and it's driving me crazy and I have fatigue. This is exactly, if you think about this concept, is any single time you want to win a lawsuit, the other side, what do they do? They make you just so fatigued that you have to settle. You understand what happens with the Aitsahara? He fatigues you. He gets you fatigued. And he gets your head and he gets you, okay, I'll settle for nothing. That's it. That's what the other side, any lawsuit is the same strategy. They will fatigue you, fatigue you, fatigue you, but you're letting them fatigue you. How do you let them fatigue you by trying to control and not being grateful? And that's how people get fatigued. And once you fatigue, you settle for nothing. You settle for nothing. I know I've been through enough cases of my life where I know the game. It's he gets you on fatigue. That's what Amalik does. You know what Amalik does? He attacks the ones in the back. He gets you fatigued and then you say it doesn't work. You can't be fatigued. You have to understand the reason why you're fatigued is because you're controlling the timing and you're controlling the form. If you didn't control the form in timing and you surrender, you wouldn't be fatigued. So sometimes you have to take your hand off the cup and take your hand off the scoreboard and just let it go. And walk away happy. You pray, walk away. You do a good thing for somebody. Walk away. If they can't get back, what's not up to you? What are you going to do? You know? We want people to change. Look, I'm tired of this person. It's not up to you. It's not up to you. That's what we said. No good deed goes unpunished. No, that's not true. You're forced. Maybe you're to cut in this world is to give unconditionally to somebody. And you don't have to worry about receiving it. It's only because we're not receiving is the fatigue. And that's the problem. It's the receiving which is distance from our creator that showed us our intentions was not the right intention in the first place. And this is why we need strength. We need prayer. You need strength. You've got it. I can't handle this. Help me. Help me. I can't handle it. I can't handle it. I've lost my patience. And this is why in Qatar, all of this stuff requires so much patience. Because God's not interested in the results. God's interested in who you become and then the relationship. That's what he's interested in. Who you become out of this test? And is your relationship getting better with the creator from this situation? Or is this a scoreboard thing? Or is this just a transactional thing? Like the guy being frustrated by saying Nishmat Kohai and not getting anything happening. Of course. He said Nishmat to get something. He wasn't. Nishmat is to show you how grateful you are already. So these are things that we have to really, really look into. But this is a month you have to take all of the convictions. It's certainty above logic. Certainty above logic. Certainty above. That's giving. Giving work of the mind is to have certainty above logic. Work of the heart is your relationship with others. Your relationship with others is the work of your heart. That's the Toma Devora book. That's the letting go. That's the mercy stuff. That's the work of the heart. It's giving without expectations. Work of the mind is having faith above thinking greater than you feel. As Joe dispenses us, thinking greater than you feel. Can you think greater than you feel? Can you plan something before it's happening? That is giving. That is what's called giving. When you think greater than you feel. When you could be optimistic. When you see nothing, there's nothing changing. That's certainty. I have certainty that this is good. I have certainty that this is exactly the way I have to go. I have certainty that this is part of the process. I have certainty that the vessels have to break. Imagine Starbucks. When they were creating the first Starbucks, it was a Italian bistro. Imagine how many times they had to change it until it became Starbucks. That's. I'm certainty that this has to be. If I had to become an Italian bistro, then I had to do this. Showering the vessels, fixing. Showering the vessels. I'm certainty that this relationship has to go through this. And then it has to go through this. And it has to go through this. As long as you have certainty, you can't lose. Once you lose certainty, it's not like you fall in low-man's land. Then you fall into fallen fears. And then you're just giving energy to the worst-case scenarios. That's where your self-esteem is going to get. That's where the laziness comes from. That's where the. That's where Malik attacks. A Malik attacks the weak. They don't attack strong. They don't attract the strong people. Malik attracts when you are weak. And it creates and tells you where the Malik tells the person. Everything is just happenstance. It's just happenstance. It's not there's no faith. There's no faith in God. It's happenstance. Although this podcasting and all this is about to do, it's all worthless. Go back to your world. Go back. It's all worthless. That's what a Malik does. He plays you through your head. He makes you hopeless. How you tried this, what did you do? You tried the class, did you try this? Didn't work. Nothing works. Go back and he gets you. And that's where he gets you. So you have to understand the enemy. You have to understand the enemy. Just the same way is I heard a quote from Marcus Aurelius. The best revenge you can have on your enemy is not do what they do to you. It's to become a better person. Ramakman says when somebody is trying to dig, when somebody is trying to harm you, you only tells you, kill him with kindness. Kill him with kindness and dig the other direction. Because what happens is if you dig their direction, it's like one guy is trying to dig a hole. You're just going to help him achieve his task. But if you dig in the other direction, they can't do it. So we have to be smart. We have to be smart. And we have to understand the enemy and the ate Sahara, which is interested in two things. Sadness and anxiety. That's it. That's it. If they got you in sadness and anxiety, it's perfect. Because those two sadness and anxiety are, he's going to get every single thing you're going to do in sadness and anxiety. Now he gets your energy. He can't stand when we praise God and we give charity. He can't stand it. They run away. But when he gets you into sadness and anxiety, He's gone! Because everything you're doing, when you're sadness and anxiety, everything you're doing is with no heart and no mind. So that's where they get the energy from. And this is where Makhman says that he would walk into synagogues and read the Balshamt. We couldn't walk into a synagogues because what do you mean? I've got to now look into the synagogues. He says, "All the prayers are stuck. There's no room for me to come." The prayers were stuck. There was no room in the synagogues energetically. So this is why it's so important. Joy. Joy is, I could surrender that I know nothing. I can have joy that I know nothing. Even from Makhman tells us we have to use silliness sometimes. We have to joke around. Laugh at yourself sometimes. I remember one time I did a mushroom journey years ago. Years and years ago. And it was such a laugh. It was one big laugh. How I was taking everything so seriously and I thought it no better. Basically the journey was, I zoomed out. And I was watching myself taking everything so seriously, thinking I knew everything. And I was just cracking up the whole time. I was just completely cracking up thinking that I knew better. And that journey was such an eye-waking journey for me. Because I was just laughing. And I'm like, "Oh, really? You thought you're no better here? You thought you knew better?" And I think you should do this for yourself. Watch yourself, tape yourself, and see how you react to every little thing that goes wrong. And just laugh at it. And this is why the word laughter is the same word as schok, letting go. Laughter is the same word as letting go. Is the schien, is it oriental? Sorry, laughter, schok is the same numerical value as the light of the infinite. Laughing sometimes, even David Hawkins, if you look at David Hawkins' old videos, he was laughing. He says, "There's a lady that says, "I'm afraid to surrender." So she's like, "What are you think is going to happen?" I don't know, you might just die, and you just might not go. She was so afraid to surrender. What are you going to just disappear? What do you think you're going to do to disappear? She thought she was actually going to die. You understand how crazy of control we have? So Ms. Ratochev used these two months. Massive gratitude, massive trust, prepare the vessel for Hanukkah, get into the habit of saying, "I don't know anything." The more you know, the more you realize you don't know anything. The more you realize you don't know anything, the more you can surrender. And the more you can receive. Stop thinking, you know something. Stop thinking about it. Stop watching the timing. Timing does not belong to me. God gives it to you. Be ito, in its time. Before we say, "Potèche si décham?" He God gives it to you in its time because it would be premature. It would be not good for you. This is like eating an unripe fruit. You want it? Okay, no problem. Here's the fruit. And now you get sick because it's unripe. Unripe fruits means you want to take something before it's time. And the second, the form, the form, that's not up to us. How God does it? How the form? It's not up to us. It's not up to us. All we want to do is focus on the feeling of it. How do I feel when I am in love? How do I feel when I am financially independent? How do I feel when I have calm confidence? How do I feel? I want to feel that. That feeling, you will attract the conditions to feel that. That means the state changes the conditions. But if I want to wait to change the state to change the conditions, the conditions to change the state, big problem. Then you're waiting on the outside. The key is to master it on the inside. Through joy you will go out by having conviction, by being patient, by letting go a lot. The letting go is the most important, I would say. Because it's very hard, I remember when I was first doing his bodidudes. I would be up at two o'clock in the morning, crazy his bodidude in the next day, nothing. Nothing, nothing happened. So I'm like, I'm exhausted. I can't do this every night. What am I going to do every night? And nothing's going to happen. I was in a place to complete helplessness. If I'm doing this at two o'clock every night, and nothing's happening, what am I going to do? Stay up all night, it was such a mind game. And I realized, oh, one who prays with an expectation is not answered. Oh, got it. Then I showed up. And I just prayed, and then everything came. It was the expectation was the exhaustion. It wasn't the prayer. It was the, I prayed, I had the expectation. That's what killed me. Shem should help all of us. We should all merit. We should have major miracles. We should praise. And we should have a lot of certainty.