Running It Unregulated

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So should we just start from the top? Like, I don't know. Oh my gosh. Well, let's simply start from the top. Let's simply start from the top, which is like, I don't know if y'all felt freedom before. Do you know what I'm saying? Like the crisp autumnal freedom betwixt which you don't have to wake up at six in the morning three times a week anymore. Like let freedom mother effing ring. Oh, let it ring. Let it ring. Like, let it ring. Because honestly, whole house was mad. And it's just like, honestly, you know. Oh, I mean, the twinkle that I have is like actually so brazy. And the amount of like TikTok like auctions that I was like running to like mentally get through everything that was happening. Are you going to talk about the TikTok auctions? Oh, not only am I going to talk about the TikTok auctions. Don't even, don't even plug nothing. I'm not freaking out. No, here's the thing. Here's the thing. Here's the tea. Like she works there now. Well, can I, can I say that genuinely, maybe I've said this before on the pod. And if I have, I'm sorry. But genuinely, I don't know if y'all know tea about like the TikTok auctions at all. But like some people go, go, this one girl was talking about like she was in, she's on her like lab grown diamond teas. I've been hearing about the diamonds. Which the diamonds are tea. And like the, the designer jewelry. Cause it's like. Okay, here's the thing that I was thinking about is I like the fact that it's secondhand. Well, of course. Yeah, but I just like, it's like tea. I don't know. Anyways, with that being said, there'll be like people who do like vintage designer jewelry, whatever. But Jordan Woods was in one of the lab grown diamond lives. Really? Yes. And this girl was like, she was like, Jordan got on and I was like, bae, like I'm not about to auction against you. Cause it's like. It's Ovea. You gonna win. It's Ovea. But the ones that, yeah, I do like a lot of like the lives and stuff. Um, but I was thinking there was a point to that, which if I was in high school, cause when I was in high school, I mostly did a lot of retail. Like I worked at Buffalo exchange. I worked at Nordstrom and I also worked at a gas station, but that's besides the point. That was just for like a character building arc. But essentially I would so fucking do that job. Like now, if I was like young or in college, because literally it's so fun. Like the girls on there are such a key and the guys too. But like the girls, especially, like literally so fun. And they'll be like, Oh my gosh, girl, like imagine this. If you're like at 4,100 and I'm like, wait, I love that. You know that. Cause you're like local to LA, but it's just like everything. But I've honestly, I've gone overseas and now I'm in like Japan and Korea. So in China, sometimes I do dabble. Um, but you know, you know, no, and you're real, you know, you're too real. You're true. There is like, there is, um, there was a mental illness that was a brew more. So the ADHD, the dopamine levels, like firing off at like going, you know, someone, for example, this literally just happened where I was like, you know, like asking you about a bag, whatever. And there's like a process. Like first you ask about the bag, Oh, it's tea, it's gorge. And then they were doing like a lot of like Halloween sales and stuff. So then you'll be like, Oh, that's my dream bag. Like I've always wanted that since I was like literally seven. And then there'll be like, Oh my gosh, like, I love that so much. And then they'll show you the condition. And then you'll be like, well, what's your best price. And then that's when you can start being like, Oh, your best price is only this. Well, actually my budget is this. And then like sometimes if their boss isn't there, they'll like give you that price or like whatever on like certain websites where you're like buying like designer items. Yeah. That is the price. You know what I mean? Oh, well that is the price. Whereas like, if you like go on like the auctions and stuff, like you can tell them like, actually I want like more money off, but essentially, they'll take like sometimes like $500 off. - No, that's I. - And it's like always free shipping. - It's crazier. Honestly, if we have any like divas in the comments, the work, the auctions, like I do, I'm really curious about what the behind the scenes is. - I know. - There's so many now. - Yesterday we met a girl who this, she knows this guy and like, that's his business is he like runs one of those like live selling places. - That's crazy. - But so many people go live. Like Boy Smells goes live. - Yeah. Everyone goes, it's QVC era. - It's QVC era. And I'm like target customer. - No. - I, that's why I can't watch those simply. - Yeah. - But I did go to, I went to a resell like a, because it's not any better. I went to a resale, like vintage designer, like whatever, which we should really go there though. - Yes. - Other than it's like mad dangerous, but you go and it's like a showroom. And then they give you an iPad, which mind you, that's already how, you know, like is like dangerous. - They have a mini one at the Grove. - Oh really? - Yeah. Inside the revolve store. - I want to talk to, oh, okay. That's the one that we went to was like the flagship. - Yes. That's where I got Lisa's bag for her 30th. - Tee. - But I went to the Grove. - No, a hundred percent. I fear the one that we went to was giving like, I think I tried on like 25 bags. Like I was in there just trying on bags just for fun, like Chanel shoes. Like, I don't know, like just like having fun, but it's dangerous. - It's dangerous. I know. I have a lot of friends who also like rent stuff. - Totally. Totally. - But I feel like that's hard. Cause like I have a friend who's like rented for like three months in a row. And then she just ended up buying. - We use at that point. It's just like, girl, just get it. - But it is real. Cause I feel like that. But yeah, no, there was like a mental illness happening with the TikTok auctions of it all. - I got you for sure. - And oh my God. I mean, I would sell the fuck out of some bags. Like if that. - Oh, you would kill. - Baby. - You should just run that on the side. But honestly, like how do you do that dough? - Well, - I'm just wondering where you get the supply. - I mean, so I've, I've seen like so many, 'Cause there'll be like big ass, you know, like what's it called warehouses not even warehouses or like conventions oh well like people kind of like sell repurpose a lot of people like fix them and sell them so like yeah they kind of like you know like find ones that are like straps broken or like there's peeling and then they have someone who like does like a paint touch-up or like whatever or yeah like some of them like completely repaint the bags which I personally that doesn't like bother me because I'm like well now you made it the color that I want yeah simply you know what I mean um but yeah I mean they kind of like source and get the supply but I think also too I have some friends who have like big ass crazy fucking designer collections who they like sell their bags back to them so it's kind of like uh you're just kind of like we're all passing around the same bag yeah well yeah yeah so I feel like that's so like either people approach them with the stuff that they have or whatever right no and that's that's real because honestly the only reason I even went to that showroom was genuinely because when we were running that half and being so serious like on just the dopamine just the dopamine trying to find it somewhere I was like I was thinking about it from mile like 10 to 12 like I was genuinely having the like the affirmation in my head that after this I'm going to buy myself like something yeah it's a quantified oh like actually I quantified it actually and that's the thing though is like as after that I just had a gnarly hyper fixation which I was like just talking to my therapist about this and like whatever just like unmedicated but like I can't even really find like I don't even think I would spend hell of like I'm not gonna buy an Hermes oh no but just know that I felt like I put an Hermes effort yeah you know what I mean so for that it's just like well damn well I think like time you make any kind of big purchase it a better be something that you love and will like stand behind because i feel like again like when it comes to like buying bags and stuff like everyone has their own thing like i don't give a fuck about like owning a house you know what i mean but some people like give some people care some people care about going on like bomb ass vacations And some people like to like, you know, like just everyone has their thing that they're like down to spend money on whatever it looks like. And like, again, like I think that like when it comes to like buying like designer or like fun, like pieces, whatever. But I feel like for me as like I've always like loved clothes and stuff. But I feel like now being older versus when I was younger and like buying designer, like now everything that I have, I'm like, oh, yeah, I'd have that forever. Whereas like before the shit that I bought was like, oh, well, I saw so-and-so with this bag. So like I want this bag, you know, totally, which, you know, that happens, too. And that's its own lesson to be learned. Yeah. But I'm just like, no, I mean, hey, something's just looking around. And also just like sometimes, you know, not every coping mechanism is the healthiest. 100%. But it's the realest. No, 100%. I'm just in a gnarly window shop right now. Like I can't pull a trig on anything, but just know that. Personally, I just feel like the last like how long we've been training, actually, like two months. Yeah. Straight up. Yeah. Every time I think about it, when I've been talking to people about it, I think I've been telling them six months. Oh, yeah. Which I think that was just kind of like a projection of how I was feeling it was going. Because, no, you're right. Like it actually was dead ass like 10 weeks, maybe nine. Yeah. But. And then I won. I wonder. OK. OK. Sorry. I will say, though, that like it was it was really gnarly. No, it was gnarly. It was gnarly because I feel like. Which part? The training and or the half? Yes. Because this is what kind of made last year a little easier versus this year. Girl. Is last year we were training during like when it was like cool outside. And then the half was like June. So like. Whoa. When we ran. That night, it was like not hot yet. Like it wasn't like, oh, we're in like L.A. Summer T versus like this year when we started training, it was like L.A. Summer, but not only like L.A. Summer, but like the hottest summer. Yeah. So it was like even if we were like running out like six, seven a.m., it was still like it was still hot. Yeah. So that made it true. That made it extra hard. And then on top of that, work wise, we were just like a lot. Happening. A lot of projects, a lot of like side quests, like went to Spain in the middle of that. Yeah, we did a lot. So it felt there was like an extra sense of like, oh, wow. Yeah. When you put it like that. Yeah. That does make a lot of sense. No, because when I tell you I had like a crazy, crazy, crazy, crazy bad crash out and I like went to therapy. This is like the week after the half. And I was like sobbing to my therapist. And she was like, yeah, girl, because you've been running it unregulated for like three months, like not grounded, unregulated, literally just like doing your best, like burnt out. Just. And like, that's what happens. Like, but yeah, I have like notes for myself. I have notes, too. Yeah, I do. I mean, honestly, after the December break, like actually. I don't even know. Something drastic will shift so fiercely that my hair is going to be white. Like, I don't know. Oh, yeah, I do. I do feel that deep in my system as well. No, but that. Yeah. Yeah. Which we can. Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. No. And we and we did do that. And it was ran. It was finished. And it was finished. It was finished. Yeah. And it was handled. And it was handled. I did almost die twice. Yeah. And like, I'm not even saying that to be funny. Like, I'm actually being dead serious. No, like, did it handle me? Absolutely. Absolutely. No, absolutely. Did it turn me every which way but loose? Absolutely. Absolutely. Honestly, like. Like, we can do a mile by mile, like, freaking playback because. Honestly. Yeah. Because straight up, which shout out Sav. Thanks. She ran it too. And shout out Lisa. No, shout out. Shout out Lisa who just bodied, by the way. Shout out Nicole. I know. Once I found out Nicole ran back for someone, I was like. I know. You what? She real, though. No, she real. She's the real. She's the realest. But here's the thing. Here are some disclaimers before we do the mile by mile, like, playback. Is first disclaimer being last year's course was hard. But this year's course was like another demon. Like, I told my girlfriend, I was just like, listen, dude, because she only ran once. Yeah. She only ran nine miles once, which, mind you, before that, Max, she had ran like three and a half miles. So she just kind of. She just kind of like low key handled it. And I told her, I was like, that is the fucking like, if that was your first half marathon, I would like be shook, especially if I never trained, never anything like, oh, I would be honestly, they would have had to get out the wheelchair for me. Dead ass. I. With all of the training that could have arguably been maybe longer, like, I don't even think it's like longer. Though, it's like the condition. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. It's just like that was. I was feeling things when we were running that I've genuinely never felt before, which was crazy. Well, the thing is, too, is the amount of hills, which, you know, I think they had like a live. We watched it on one of the our older apps where we watch like the whole marathon and stuff. And it was like, there's a big climb. Mile three. But that was like the only big climb that I feel like they was mentioned. Yeah. Like a big shout out to. So in my mind, I was like, OK, I'm just going to like handle the big climb. And then after that, I'm going to like settle back in. But that was like not the case at all. And I'm thankful for those days of running on the beach because, you know, even though the beach was like, baby. Well, in comparison, I'm like, oh, I'll run the beach. Yeah. I'll take the beach, please. Yeah. Because if you were like running our other spot. Oh, baby. There it would have been. I don't even know how it could have been worse, honestly, if I'm being honest, but it would have been worse. It would have. Well, yeah. And then the other thing is, because there's so many hills and like your body's working like super hard. Like, literally, I saw everyone posting like their stats of like either Strava or their Apple Watch or Garmin and everyone's heart rate. Like the. The average heart rate for everyone was like one hundred eighty five to one hundred and ninety the whole half. Like our hearts were like jumping, whereas like usually when you're running, your heart rate is at like a zone to like it's like you can talk. That's like breathable. That would be like a zone. What? Like three or four. I mean, because it was not like the hill was insane. Number one. And then the second hill, the surprise hill was also like. Yeah. Gnarly. And then after that, still, there was kind of like rolling inclines happening. There was two more after that. Like they weren't as steep, but they were still hills like they I and in the mile play by play. dude mile nine and a half mind you just already like you know what just i don't even know how to explain like what that feeling was but was just like okay fine there's 13 so it wasn't 13 yeah 13.1 or whatever yeah okay fine nine and a half my boyfriend has a sign and so last year i cried multiple times and i was like fine like i literally be like that i'd like wipe it we keep pushing because like keelan was there and he was there like q was there like it was a whole key i see the sign i start crying i i actually like genuinely funny because i'm alive not funny in the moment like i feel myself start to tear up and immediately my throat like closes i've never felt that before i literally was like and i had to immediately after like i took like three strides and then i had to stop because i like tunnel vision telefast and i like couldn't breathe so i was literally standing there like for like five seconds oh okay no worries because my lungs i'm assuming were just like doing the only work like cannot handle finish the half c sav same thing happens i start crying and i like my air just stops like sound off below if you know what that is but like no shade that had me like oh i'm scared yeah and then i hear about people like girl because then here go the new york marathon it's like take that and double it people actually like getting injured like actually this is this is the other thing that i was going to say because of the hills and everything is the way the muscle cramps were going crazy like usually i don't have like salt tablets like all like sometimes i'll do like an electrolyte drink or whatever but like you know i feel like people be on like the salt tablets and stuff totally to just like keep their like sodium and like electrolytes like replenished and stuff and the way at mile six there was this girl who like i literally saw her calf and it was like this like straight up like crazy fucking charlie horse like her shit just got locked up because she was just like her body had like no sodium in it and i was like a hell of people were helping her like yeah she wasn't it was very communal like yeah like no one was just like whatever and there was like a guy getting like the paramedics and stuff but i saw her and i was like yes because we're running these hills and like you know i feel like people probably did and we did a lot of like zone two running where it's like conversational easy pace like whatever and then you like add these hills which like you know athletically i feel like you definitely need to be trained to like it's a different level of endurance because now your heart rate is like so high and you're like sweating more your body's working extra where it's like whatever you're using for like the easy runs where like your heart rate's not as bumping you need to like honestly like double the like freaking you know whatever you put in your body and stuff and especially since it's at night too because it's like your body's probably already whatever sodium you put in your body it's probably already gone by the time it's like five or six p.m like honestly like an hour before i'm like i should have just popped a 350 milligram of sodium just like bad i should have had a seafood boil but no like actually like truly no like should i have like some malden flaky sea like simply because tell me why let's start mile one tell me why mile one we start off turn the corner hill i was like okay yeah okay and i okay i told my girlfriend because when we started i was like looking at my watch and we were doing like 12 21 and i was like i'm telling you right now for the first three miles we need to run like a 14 minute mile yeah like literally like 14 30 14 minute because i'm like once we get to that hill if like after it like we're gonna be like chopped and screwed yeah so i was like we'll just stay running whatever and we were in the first corral so i was just like trying to like stay out of everyone's way no 100 100 and then mile two it's like gorge it was very gorge still like hell yeah and then mile two it's like gorge it was very gorge happening the water's gorge the water's gorge thank god mother and then mile three which is the heartbreak hill there was a guy with a flag that said heartbreak on it i was like i'm very much in love like i've not experienced heartbreak right now like i don't know what you could be referring to oh yeah and then i see my friend katie and she's like wait look up there like that's the hill no one heavy on up there because the hill was really steep i was driving through like silver lake earlier like after the half and you know them hills that be jump baby jump and like when you drive you can't see over the edge i literally turn my boyfriend i go no that was like the hill i literally um where i go like like the place like not trying to dox myself sorry i go up to mount olympus quite often and literally when i fucking tell you when i was like driving up to mount olympus i was just driving on that road and i was like no i see her everywhere now like every time i see a steep back hill i'm like wait like that's like san francisco i ran your bro bro and i and i genuinely like real talk it was yeah like that's not even like that's not that's just like simply what happened no like i was like that's like a san francisco like straight up like hay and ashbury babe no like your glutes are like absolutely on fucking fire simply that was that was higher than 12 330 like bitch that was fifth like to what like yeah bad no bad that was like mind you i'm coming downhill trying to not sprint because first and here's the thing can i offer can i offer one you know to any half marathon marathon my one thing would be listen some of us lazy yeah okay i truly like when we were going down the hill i like had one foggy memory of maybe somebody saying one time don't like run hella fast down a hill and i like genuine low-key like in hindsight because then when i get in the car and dom's like well you low-key should have just let your body go as fast as it could go okay that would make sense because here's the thing both hills going down white knuckle gripping it trying to be like let me just keep my pace like let me keep it by the end of the marathon i was feeling like fatigue in my legs that y'all could have like violet regard like rolled my shit like a blueberry at that point because i'm telling you like the will the last like four miles and then you got to go three and then you got to do two and then you got to do one was actually so low because my legs were like on the verge of none like i'd never felt anything like that before bricked up bro well simply because that would make sense that i was using every single muscle i was truly using every single damn muscle to come down the hill so my like request if i was gonna run another marathon a half marathon let's throw a cute little infographic up you know what i'm saying let's do a little like a you know if you run in really if we run in downhill make sure you're doing this or just like for dummies you know and you know running for dummies like the san francisco marathon for example like if you go on the page they tell you to like all the things you need to adjust and account for like especially the people trying to pr because you they like your girl i mean and they're hills are like insane like that's like 26 miles you know but like they're like okay you need to account for this you need to account for that so if your training is looking like this or your pace is looking like this then really you're giving this and the only reason i even like was like let me slow down let me like whatever was simply because my physical therapist i was like talking to him which i mean amazing things was like i mean my knees were completely fine my back was completely fine like totally i wasn't like feeling like any pain or anything traps were gonna explode but like well that's because i'm literally holding like two fucking machine guns on my chest like whatever like literally had two bowling balls like no period yeah like traps were ready to like actually like explode but i was talking to him about yeah like running uphill and he was like honestly i would just power walk it if like he was like if you like start running and like your heart rate is like just going absolutely crazy like he was like power walk it or like run so slow and then just like literally run as fast as you can because it's more muscle to like hold your body and keep a pace than just let yourself essentially like damn near like fling your body off the fucking hill and that would make sense you know everything making sense backwards uh because damn yeah because damn and that's real that's honest that's honest but honestly after the hill there was a breath of ignorance a bliss that could only come from ignorance truly because after the hill i was like well perfect we're done how decadent okay yes four five six seven eight six seven eight seven eight eight like genuinely when we got to the second hill i i clicked out well i have clicked out because we weren't even halfway there oh so you can't click out but like low-key i was looking at that hill like i was a little irritated dude like it's irritating it's irritating second hill reveal like dead ass like dream face reveal i dead ass bro When I tell you loud as shit, I literally turned to my girlfriend and I was like, this is so much harder than last year. And literally seven girls turn around and they're like, right, right, right. Like, I thought so. I thought so. And I was like, no, guys, like, no, guys, like, mind you, on my fourth out of fifth gel by mile five. Stomach just absolutely just silly putty, just absolutely just trying to do something with that. Both of my water's pretty much gone. Oh, oh, that's how I knew. Literally, when I tell you I did the Morton gels and they have like their biggest fuck, but I had two with 100 milligrams of caffeine. Well, I didn't have both, but the first gel that I took was the one with like 100 milligrams of caffeine. The realness of that. So I literally was like, do the hustle. I was like activated as fuck. And then I was like, OK. I really, you know, like can't have any more caffeine. Like, it's time to fucking chill. So then I did like half of the caffeine. So I had like 50 more or whatever. And then I just had the rest of like a fucking full carb one. Yeah, totally. And it felt like I was running after literally eating a fucking Chazitsa from the cheesecake factory. Literally, I was literally running with like a Chazitsa in my gut the whole time. You might as well just been a Chazitsa. No, to be honest, just blend it up. Honestly, like they could have handed me like genuinely slop in a bucket at that point because water gone, goose gone. Fine, you win. OK, like you won. Because in comparison to it's just like, you know, the course hard when, OK, when your hardest opponent was the beach, which is like real rolling hills, like really hot. I never ran out of water on there once. I never done more than three goose even last year. Didn't stop for water. I think we stopped at like 11, mile 11 or something like that. Maybe took like two goose. I just can't believe, mind you, the afters of eating like eight gels. I was stopping at every water station just drinking whatever. Oh, I literally like the electrolyte station. Oh, the salty splatoon. Yeah, the salty splatoon. Like the salty splatoon. I literally was like, I was like taking a cup and then I dump it. Yeah. Toss the cup and then dump it and just have like one giant like 16 ounce like like literally big gulp. No, 100%. Like dead ass like big gulp and then like wash it down with water. 100%. And then I'd be like. Bro, because like, bitch, I was literally stuffed up. Oh, and still my body was like, is that all you have? But did you see the girl on TikTok who ran the race and she ate so much fucking food? No. That's like her tea, though. Oh, yeah. Wait, that which we. I love. Because she literally like ate so much food. She took like seven shots. Low key. Yeah. Can I say something? Should I had a. We should have took a frickin sminosh me. Oh, dude, if I had this in my back pocket. No, I'm I'm actually dead serious. The girls were on the track drinking and I'm like, but here's the thing. Y'all are all running past me. So then it's like who like who here knows science and who doesn't? Because I don't think I'm missing something. I'm missing. Something. Yeah. The second hill was like, OK, GFY. Fine. OK, fine. After that, when it just started to do that kind of like that rolling shit. Well, that was the part that kind of I was like, y'all got me like this. How dude the rolling loud. But the part that was like crazy was it's in L.A. because there is like it's not flat. Like L.A. is just like there's like hills. It's like the terrain is not flat. Yeah. So when you're when we were going up mile five and it's like not like this, but it's up. And then all of a sudden, the only way I would know we're on a hill and I'd like gain consciousness after like disassociating. Yeah. Was I'd be like, I'm breathing kind of heavy right now. Oh, that was me, too. And then I would look like up, like into the horizon. And I'm like, and then I look to see the people running like on their way back. And I'm like, oh, shit. Like, I'm going up a hill again. No, it's a hill. And so like, surprise, the baby's a hill. That's literally just what kept happening. And then. No, have you? And that's what kept happening. Yeah. And then mile 10. Oh, we're at 10. Like, honestly, Dorodia. Let me say something, too, girl. My goal. It's OK to not reach your goals. OK, shoot for the moon. You land the stars. All right. At the end of the day, my goal was. I'm going to keep running simply. It's very simple. Even if I run like really, you know, whatever, like do my thing. Mile eight, maybe the way my body stopped for me. Yeah. Well, that says, yeah, the rest was a run walk. Well, that's what I was going to say, because literally I have there's this girl who I love so much. Her name's May. Shout out. That's literally my queen. And she, like, posted her blog. And everything. But, dude, I think the general consensus was everyone's legs were like literally bricks by like mile 10, because that was like, I don't know, maybe there was like one last little like bust down. And then that was it. And so it's like at that point, your body has like, you know, you slow down. It's not as like whatever. And so you're literally just in the aftermath. Yeah. Of like what you've been feeling. And I'm like, God, it was the last two. It was like, OK, who's going to be mad if I stop at mile 12? Well, that's what I'm saying. By mile 10, I genuinely was like, I was literally the TikTok audio that's like, where is it? Where is it? Like, I was like, I need to turn around like right now. And there is this sign. It said like three more miles to go. But it wasn't. It was like actually like there was only like two and a half or like two or something. And I was like, wait, what? What? Like I. I started like freaking out. No, it was giving freaking out core. The whole time. Yeah. And then at mile 11, I like genuinely just like like booked it. Like I was like, I need to literally get like get out of here. No, we need to get out of here. Honestly, though. And when I saw mile 12, I was pissed because it was clickbait. It was really bad clickbait. Like I was like, I almost like bursted into tears because of how bad the clickbait of a celebration it was. Like I like low key felt like like I my throat got tight. Like I was. Yeah. Yeah. No, I am. I just can't believe that happens for some talking about like honestly after genuinely after I got home, like I clicked the hell out. Like I haven't talked about it. I said anything like I just like forgot that I didn't forget. Actually, we'll never forget. But like I just. Like talking about it again. I'm like, right. Because like you were there. I was there. So I was like, it was just like, OK, so we were there. And that is what happened. And that's crazy, dude. I just I was like, I was fucked up, bro. And after I would I I was feeling like sick, like sick for some reason. You get the flu. Oh, that's like a thing. It's called the runner's flu. We're like, oh, yeah, I have been hearing about this. Yeah. Like you just get the runner's flu because the guy who ran the first marathon died at the end. Yeah. Yeah. So what? No. So what? No, let's talk about it. Well, you didn't have water. Well, well, it was probably a long time ago. I don't know what it was, but it's named after a guy whose name was Marathon. Mind you, he ran that distance and then died. And I just think that also begs a bigger conversation, which like not even too much on like whatever. But like Athens. Yeah. Like because he was like telling like I don't know. He was like spreading news about something or like warning them about something. Well, that was me yesterday. And he ran for twenty six miles. And then. And then he like told them the tea and then died and then died, which I'm glad he got the tea out and R.I.P. Obviously. But it's just like I think that there's something also that we could be wary of being like trendy low key because like with so much love, it's like, baby, I was watching the New York marathon and like hearing from people who are running and stuff. And I'm like, yes, yes. Yeah. Actually, yes. I can like go do your big one, but also just being mindful of the actual like. Not severity is not the word I'm looking for, but the like. Serious. The. Yes. The seriousness. How grand of an adventure. Not adventure. Like venture a marathon, for example, is and how strenuous that really is on your body. We need to be honest about that, too. Yeah. Because I know it's like cute and fun. And I was like late 20s. You just start running a marathon. It's like. But Mr. Marathon died. Yeah, he did. And we don't talk about that. And I mean, so I'm like, no, there's like really I mean, like serious. Dude, you could be a perfectly healthy individual. And if you like overexert yourself in anything, like anything, you know, you like your body can only do so much. Like, again, like if anyone who like if you overexert yourself, like there will be consequences to that. And like, yeah, very like unfortunate ones. Like rap dough is like real as fuck. You could go to a hot Pilates class and literally get wrapped out. Oh, a hot Pilates class for me would be like, what? a half marathon was like this year, like in 50 minutes. minutes or less um i just i think i would tell myself like if i could talk to myself which i can i think it's just just like good like i don't say that either is like a deterrent or like anything to discourage anyone from like trying because obviously like it like you do it and you are like wow there is a feeling of like wow that's crazy that i'm capable of that and like you know pushing your body and like being all those things yes i just think that like you know as girl who again ran it again this year like as a key but then like genuinely couldn't breathe two times that this time like that spooked me into like okay because see how it's actually like really serious and i'm really like pushing my body here which i knew that but i'm really pushing my body and i'm not always in control necessarily of how my body reacts to what i'm putting it through if that makes sense so there are ways and there are things and there are even like the downhill so like i could have been more informed on you know maybe the you know maybe the the ways to yeah be a little make it a little easier for myself or just make sure that my body is like ready to do that tang yeah because it gave like regardless i was gonna do to tang and like i genuinely like couldn't breathe two times and it was really scary yeah no i mean if you're scared that's literally like that is really scary and yeah no that's why i was like let me get in physical therapy and like like lift some weights because i'm just like let me like get shit right which i feel like i don't know my traps are gonna explode because of my sports bra um besides that you know legs were like sore and shit but the worst like the worst pain that i was in this happened to both my girlfriend and i because so we like finished and then there was like a little area nike had set up which thank you so much thank you the way how i was eating after that will be studied thank you simply and quen literally getting on someone's oh getting a piggyback ride was up to me maybe you're so real i've been on back she is actually like the realist i would have also been on back yeah um so i like finish i am sobbing to anyone who will let me literally i saw may sob to her was like i love your video so much you're everything like i just love you so much sob to her cried so hard saw my friend sarah who i hadn't seen in a while and i was like sarah sob to her and i was like that was just like really fucking hard sob to sob sob to every like literally just kept like like bursting into tears you have to and then like because of the gels that i had and them just like literally like stopping me up like i was so just like literally like nothing was coming in nothing was going out like it was just which honestly i would prefer that over like but everything was coming in and nothing was coming out yeah my well who runs the gate exactly let me talk to who runs the gate because so then everyone's like eating and stuff and i'm like fuck that looks so good but like i literally can't eat like there's i can't which that's like not obviously like what like come on stop come on like come on stop no so i'm like in the car and i'm like trying to be like okay like i do need to eat so like what could i eat that would like sound bomb as fuck right my girlfriend was like i want pizza so we like order pizza it gets to the house and i'm like i can't eat like i don't know i just didn't end up eating next morning i wake up i'm like fuck i'm so excited i'm heating up this pizza heat up the pizza go to take a like take a bite of the food the top of my mouth was like sore like it hurt so fucking bad like eating was like painful that's like my worst nightmare oh when i tell you i'm sorry oh my like calf cramp like whatever the only thing that genuinely happened to me was like i was like i'm like i'm like i'm like i'm like i'm just like oh wow like like okay like learned my lesson so i looking i'm looking it up i'm like why does the roof of my mouth hurt after like running a lot like a long distance and i see like all these like forums like running forums reddit whatever they're like oh well because like after a while like your mouth just like opens sometimes or like if you like are running fast or like whatever like your mouth just like opens to like get more air in and i'm like oh and if you have your mouth open for so long like the air has just been like like chafing your shit yeah it's literally yeah and he was like so your shit's just like extremely dry and i was like so i'm gonna have to run with mouth tape wow honestly don't because then you end up me like well you called me a mouth breather well now i can't even eat because it's well that's fucked up and that's the worst part no that's like that actually would have put me into like that would have like set me the hell off and when i tell you it set me off like i like genuinely started crying i genuinely he's just like no because it takes every day and um yeah it was like that for three days so didn't have that happen to me last time i'm really hating that um but this time that was like a new symptom that i was like not loving um but like appreciate my knees being fine appreciate my like lower back being fine totally but like my mouth being like like throat go no you're not no honestly yeah though i feel like the body wasn't too crazy like yeah the body wasn't too crazy after like no shade i got on a plane you know what i mean so it's like and i remember times when we were training where i would run like 10 and i genuinely couldn't bend my knees like for the next two days so i'll take that yeah i did the compression boots but yeah i just would like set up a timer every hour to just do a lap around my apartment no yeah that's not yeah that's real because you got to keep the blood flowing and all and all yeah but i was yeah it was bad um well no like that was really hard and like can i say i went to mexico after like is everyone gonna get mad at me because like i did actually click out so hard that like the all me sitting up straight like hold on because let's talk about the all-inclusive love an all-inclusive had no idea about the all-inclusive i think the only time i did an all-inclusive was when i was like 18 years old in jamaica like before i had memory so i like really wasn't thinking about it like that all-inclusive when you're an adult the way that i was eating going on a cruise oh my god well i couldn't do that but i did i did have fun on land i'll tell you that and honestly before we left too like you know you know it's gonna be a good vacation when you're in the airport and you see like a white woman with the craziest bus down you've ever seen in your life yeah you know it's gonna be a good vacation when you're in the airport and you see like a white woman i saw this lady like white mother with two kids who were also getting like stared at by me unfortunately because i was just confused i was so confused but like we're on that in like two seconds yeah you're like your bundles no i and i'm being so serious i have never seen that hairstyle she had pink white and black hair and like some were dreads some were twists and like some were braids they were free styling and some were just like leave out like kind of crimped and okay also i mean we could have a conversation about like how ray shows up you know and like all these things because i don't know if she's just serving like maybe she was black and she just like really looked like oklahomian like i don't know but like it actually gagged me so bad at customs i was like bitch we about to turn up no shit i mean she wasn't on the same flight as me but just i feel like that's kind of that's kind of like anyway it's like an omen for like a good trip yeah that's like also when you see someone who's like actually looks like a tomato and you're like oh you're like it's about to be turt yeah i i just because it was her she was giving that and she was giving imagine i accidentally like docs but she was giving like trashy chic in the sense that like her bag was very like trashy chic like it was it had all these like sickening stilettos on there and it was like but it was like like it was like i was like okay i'm not really sure yeah she was serving like jwoww no like bad like i wasn't really sure what that had to do with like the pink leave out but like period like okay sure but then me just doxing the hell out this family but then like one of the kids was like western and was serving like yeah like western and then the other one was like brandy melville so i was just kind of like like i just wasn't sure no i wasn't sure what was happening like you're like when you're cool with everyone no when your friend when you have friends because i was like okay when your mom cool with everyone when your girl apparently your mom cool everyone because i was just like okay so like yeah sure sure yeah okay boom okay boom we get on the plane i passed my parents on the plane sisters and brothers in christ jesus baby in the front row in front of them baby row next to them and i literally walked by them and i said good luck like that ass no shade this one baby and again i'm sorry i'm the hater and maybe motherhood will change me if ever like i almost said like if ever touches on my life but that's not an invitation that's just like i'm just being realistic that people change and like maybe i'll change that baby was turning up so goddamn hard the entire my fucking flight where we can only be like praised b it was only three hours because two of them maybe that was karaoke like it was very like it was low-key a little demon like it wasn't demonic but it was just like damn like i know you think you're dying because i understand like you know it's because they're like super uncomfortable and like bitch it's loud and it's scary and like your fucking head's gonna explode like i get it that motherfucker cut up so hard though because we land we land and i and i go to stand up and it's literally like sitting sitting on his mother's hip turning on people like this literally it was like ah ah like how like waving at people okay me when i'm like literally the most annoying baby on the flight like me when i have to do press after vacation it was giving like i mean he had parents like they were going on vacation you think i don't even want to know because then i'm gonna start sounding like a republican like i'm no fucking shade bro but if it's not essential i'm just unsure okay here's what i have to say i'm just unsure as someone who's like not a parent at all not at all what i obviously what i will have to say is i'm just like i it begs the question right and like again like maybe if one day for whatever reason somehow some way like i don't know like my tubes work or something like i don't know um i think it kind of baffles me a little bit in the same way that i feel like if i brought my dog to like disney world like like if a tree falls but like no one hears or knows like did it fall or anything like that and like a baby who's going to like you know like cancun like no but like what are you doing going to puerto vallarta like i'm like but that's my question like unless you're like visiting family or like this like doing your press tour like yeah yes yes yes but it's just like if you're taking your baby to a resort i just feel like the all-inclusive like i just feel as though i don't know i just feel like we have hella time like i just like don't know and like obviously like a puppy and like a baby aren't the same but like maybe they are well and they feel like they are to me listen i understand like it's a very gen z piece of shit take like okay fine and it's a little selfish because i understand like my okay well hold on no no no again it's expensive to find a sitter it's like a lot of logistics and stuff but at the same time like why is he eight months going to puerto vallarta like i okay and well it wasn't i'm sorry because apparently i also have like i can't understand i don't yeah like my boyfriend was like no like he's probably like one and a half i was like okay i don't know well maybe not one and a half well i don't know no it was like hard babies are hard it was giving boss baby honestly yeah truly the baby looks like boss baby okay so maybe one and a half maybe like one i don't think that was giving one and a half i don't know um i would say a little under one but i don't know maybe i don't know about well because babies are do you think the baby could walk i knew okay well then that didn't look well i was about to say wait well it wasn't walking it's like what in the air like girl relax sorry you're gonna do a lap literally like i couldn't just like walk to the bathroom um my thing though and again i'm not a parent i'm sorry like this could be very haterade tease but like i guess my thing is also like it's it's only annoying to me because it's annoying sure but it's like distressing like my thought is always like damn if y'all just going to like cancun dead ass it's like you put this baby on this flight like it has to sit through a three-hour flight like it's screaming its ears are plugged like i guess i just don't know if i personally feel like the juice is worth the squeeze and that and that's what i mean because it's like and then the worst part is like yeah i guess there's photos to be like you know you went to cancun when you were a baby well in no shade that's me with babies at disney too yeah because oh girl you eight months like meeting like it's just and actually actually genuinely i'm gonna stop that thought right there because then when we start getting into the ethics of parenthood it's like they gonna put me on fox oh yeah so i'm like let me stop not right but it's just kind of like okay if your baby's going to cancun like is it for me or for her you know what i mean because it's just like damn like like and i get it honestly like mothers deserve cancun i'll say that like you push a baby out you deserve cancun that's what i'm saying like they deserve cancun so bad that they deserve a baby free wake that up no like i'm being and now we need to talk about child care now we need to talk about funding but yeah we can do that and that's the other thing too it's like i don't know i feel like for me if i was a mom which you know again like that may never happen in this lifetime um i will say that like hashtag for shirley doe i truly truly love bob's the way i'm literally like you can't go there with me well not until you can like key a little no you know well no that's total perhaps no perhaps no perhaps i have i have thoughts on this um but anyway no yeah like other sorry just like just sorry to be talking about babies all the time but um it was lit though like honestly shit was turnt no it's fun it was very like do you guys do like like snorkeling or anything no dude snorkeling makes me so motion sickness same horrible hate it um no but we like swim in the ocean which is always like so grounding and like real bitch i was getting my shit rocked as fuck love that though um went to town it was gorgeous people were so nice yeah you had a good time yeah okay but it was nice to just like i don't know like i don't know if i have vacation often for real for like vacations are always like very um you know like thing forward or like active in the in the festivities but the resort just be like girl just like stop just vibe no i know that's how i felt when i went um to mexico too like literally i was just like we did like hashtag nothing and it was like really kind of crazy yeah like i literally just downloaded like a ton of shows on my ipad and was like at the pool just like no and handled bad yeah yeah and like got a massage and then just yeah had dinner and then just like in the dinner like i was i was like food boxing no at the all-inclusive you're like grr because it's just like crazier like you can eat everything and room services is free like it's actually like crazy yeah it's bomb i need to talk to them about something but no um so like normalize that no normalize that and just normalize like wow i just i feel free yeah no like feeling alive needed that feeling alive and well i literally watched like seven movies t wall seven i watched what do we watch well we watched a new nathan fielder movie which my god i mean i feel like i don't even want like it's like hard to like want to talk about this and like we're getting towards the end of the app but i'm just like that movie bitch like documentary documentary but also nathan is so i don't you can't even like i mean obviously we're gonna like keep as many spoilers out as possible because like everyone should watch it or if we are gonna like spoil something um have you guys watched it gills have you okay um real um but it's just like one of those things that i'm like i don't know if i'm like you can't even like i was talking to my like a group of friends who were like oh like is it scary like they just like couldn't understand like what was happening and i was like neither did i like when i like the first half of the movie i was like okay what was that like okay and then the second half i was like oh okay like word yeah and then the last like portion i was just like fuck yeah i feel like genuinely and i think i'm gonna see it again with new eyes but that was like one of the that it was like definitely one of the best documentaries i think i've seen in the last like five years and i also think like it is really difficult to genre bend when it comes to documentary because arguably one of the most important parts is the trust that you have with the audience so when you do anything that starts to change it's like it's like it's like it's like it's like it's starts to feel any sort of anything other than which is sorry i'm like verbally processing i was gonna say anything that feels fictional at all or um to produce like i feel like it's it's difficult to always like keep the audience trusting you as a filmmaker but i was i like started when i was saying that though because i'm like some of the documentaries now are just so like yeah over produced and chopped and screwed so maybe that's not like super relevant anymore but the way how he genre bended down was actually so sickening and the way how the genre bending also asked like a broader question i was like y'all come and get your body chain like i haven't seen and maybe there are documentaries i just haven't seen that are in that world but like i haven't seen any documentary that did what that did and i think it's also really difficult sometimes to paint like a portrait of people and maybe it's because they had really kind of like colorful subjects who were willing to do it but i think it's also really difficult sometimes to paint like a portrait of people who were willing to do that themselves like it was obvious that they were trying to like establish themselves in some certain way or they were kind of like using this opportunity to like get their get their message and their story out but it's like so difficult to keep a documentary like engaging and tell us something about people i feel like without maybe the more traditional like talking heads or like a narrative process or like something that kind of like helps the viewer understand what's happening or like i feel like even watching it it was more so like i thought it was so interesting is like or just like nathan in general when he makes like anything i feel like he's the ceo of like i don't even think he necessarily like you know however the opportunity was like presented of like you know let's just tell our story right or it's like we get to talk to elizabeth holmes and like hear from her period like i feel like he knows that much and he just lets everything else like happen and unfold like so untouched and like yeah you know what i mean like he like even the questions he asks are like yeah like yeah that was like that was like masterful work like i was expecting to get like an email from my documentary teacher being like did you guys do like dead that because you know she'd be tapping in sometimes but that was like one of them tanks where i was like no y'all y'all gagged it and no shade shade actually this is about to be shade but like y'all know i do not like i already don't like the like oh the netflix like menendez brothers like fiction like i feel like this documentary was just so it it what's the word i'm looking for like it really painted why i do not fuck with shows that are like oh we're telling the story of this person but like how ethical is it to be like oh the dropout is about elizabeth holmes but we definitely like added a bunch of shit knowing that your audience is coming to it being like well this is elizabeth holmes like how like that whole question too i'm like you know let's wake that up yeah because it's like oh this is tv but then it's like okay well if they don't actually have like a steve jobs poster like if they don't actually you know like i don't have like a zayn cutout in my room when they make my like documentaries and it's like you know what i mean and i really and i think like i appreciate that and i think i appreciate the broader question of like like who's the reliable narrator and like where is the truth in like you know whether someone buffed up a story or like so many different like scenarios and outcome especially when your voice is like distrusted already you know what i mean like i feel like it's so hard to see like you know there's so many questions to be had about like you know are you master manipulator is it willful ignorance like the puppeteering and who's like the grand fucking puppeteer and yeah and just like the unmovable force of elizabeth holmes but the unstoppable object well and two like two the last two things i'll say on that simply is like number one if she gets out of prison well when she gets out of prison if for some reason she like like actually throws that shit and like invents it for real that's about to be the gaggiest comeback like of all time if i was to believe that she's somebody who truly believes in what she's doing and is like no this is something that i can do but like girl the whodunit of it all like it can or it could like girl like let's answer the question like can it or could it if she really like threw it back like i don't know and handled that i would have to give my flowers yeah i would i think also too it's kind of speaks to just investor culture in general and like tech culture too of just also like and the entrepreneurship and like again like the funding of it all the angel funding the startup of people again like a half finished product of like you know the iphone or something like that of like oh yeah you know we're presenting this iphone and like by the time it comes out it should be able to do x y and z and it's like their job to make that happen but if it doesn't like you fall on the sword you know what i mean because it's like i and i think like that's what was so interesting too about like her case which like not knowing this but like it felt very um stock market crashing of like of course they're only fucking you know like the investors she defrauded investors but she didn't defraud um the patients and i felt like just even that whole conversation throughout the documentary of like she's like well i didn't defraud the patients just i just got in trouble with the the um investors and i'm like but maybe you did mad damage you did mad damage to real people to real people and i think also too you know i think often though the fact that like of course the real people like not the like fucking five percent who was able to like throw checks out yeah like those were the people who got their justice but like the actual people who like either had faith in her product or were like guinea pigs in her product testers look back that were not true that were not true like she wasn't found criminally negligent for like defrauding them yeah and i think like you know again like that just also speaks to like right the lack in like the justice system and stuff no 100 and also yeah it just like comes down to like fucking money like it comes down to money and that's why i guess i mean by being like if she comes out and like flips the script that would be crazy because then i guess therein lies the whole question of the whole entire movie which is like are you actually just like not understanding why this is insane like are you really truly an inventor who is like really believing like yeah i can do this tang or are you truly like truly truly truly a scammer who's willing to actually like damage like damage do damage yeah like short answer do damage like and actually harm people and like well and i think like that's kind of the thing is like you know when it comes to like these other startups who like genuinely get to you know or who's like a good fucking example of this of like uh outdoor voices you know what i mean we're like she was like you know i can't remember her name but like self-funded all this shit like like emily weiss glossier like one of those just like that company of like the girl boss era of like you know outdoor voices is like actually like a very great example of like oh you're this you're that you're selling all these products you're opening up all these storefronts throughout like the country and stuff and like people are sitting you down for interviews how did you do it all this stuff like cult following and then you get a new projection of like how much your company's actually worth and how much revenue you're actually doing and like the actual money you're like bleeding out to like substantiate and like keep your company afloat and then you just get a like file for bankruptcy you know what i mean and like oh yeah you know that's what happens in business and i feel like that girl i i can't remember her name right now but essentially with outdoor voices she did it but like with retail we're like you know she did the company the whole thing they end up just like fucking bleeding money because like it takes a lot of it takes a lot of money to make a lot of money totally especially in retail i think it's like hard because i don't know there's like a physical product there and stuff tiny haney and yeah so like everyone's like so into her her story all this stuff and then they had to like close their doors file for bankruptcy or no they got acquired by a company because they were like literally about to have to file for bankruptcy yeah but in the fuck up of like you know their shit falling apart there's all these influencers and non-profits that like end up not getting paid um because my friend has a non-profit oh my gosh my friend evelyn which i'm like i have to shout them out like they're everything but essentially they like partnered with her because height club that's what it's called um but it's like a non-profit where like they like reconnect like poc indigenous woman um like back to you know like nature and stuff because it's like such a like white dominated space yeah and they were doing it they do a ton of collabs still with outdoor voices and their last payment was ten thousand dollars that was due but like you know because they got acquired and all this stuff okay so then this year they relaunched and all these people like influencers were like bro you still own you got loose ends this much this much this much but evelyn was like the problem is and like the biggest fuck up they've done so far is that they owe evelyn's non-profit to a non-profit and they're like oh my god i don't know what to do with you i don't know what to do with you i don't know what to do with you i don't know what to do with ten thousand dollars which for a non-profit who's like giving back in such a serious way hiking gear trips all this stuff that they can do and are doing to like give back to their community and they're paying influencers right now to like they're doing brand deals with influencers right now promoting their product and then they're saying but they're not financially responsible for anything that happened post them getting acquired but you're probably what you're paying whoa which like you know like insider trading tea i'm like baby i mean like i don't know they're like numbers and shit but i'm like in marketing and whatever their marketing budget is you have ten thousand dollars you have not only ten thousand dollars but double it twenty for someone like you know what i mean but i was like i don't know if they're just like choosing to ignore because then that opens the floodgates of everyone else yeah they owe money too but like regardless i was like that's like fucking malpractice to me like that's like theranos 2.0 like genuinely like you know like theranos yeah and it's just like i think the higher you go especially when it comes to like medicine yeah like shit that's don't you can't you can't play in medicine and that's the thing like what are we serving here because there's something really sinister if truly truly truly like your motivation is just to make money and in that wake there are so many people who have suffered with their health. in your product taking it for its word like that is some shit that's like well it would i mean like also too like that's literally what my mom does for work is like she looks at blood samples and tells people like what's going on they have cancer like whatever and so i'm like again like if you are literally like creating a product essentially where it's like you're also like taking out like a whole i mean obviously i would hope that they would find a way to like you know people who have been doing that job to like work within the tests and stuff but i'm like again yeah you're taking away like hours if not days of work you know what i mean and like you're saying it could be happening and within quickly yeah and so i'm just like that's like saying like oh like instead of having to like you know walk like now i have a car for you yeah but that's why i'm like if that is you know a technology that's possible and something that can maybe be done and i guess yeah that all it just all comes back to the question of like the money the funders the all and that's the thing i just feel like because we're so fucking like literally monopoly man like genuinely like we're you know just the capitalism like actually bad is more so it's like the time like yeah i'm sure she could have made that product it probably would have taken like 15 20 years before it ever like they actually had like one product that could probably even do like three blood tests right yeah which would still be like revolutionary accessible and like yeah that would that would be insane but it's like the time right yeah like they would have to like fucking live you know live yeah and like maybe they would just have to have like you know like fund research instead of like funding a product and that's the other thing too because it's like who the fuck wants to fund research literally whole house don't want to fund research yeah because it's like well i don't have any there's just research i have nothing to show for and i think i feel like that's really where like again that's imagining a pure intention you know imagining a pure intention totally but like still i'm like yeah shit takes time and i feel like there's no patience for any of that like everyone's just like either it's here now or all finds and again like i think there's like that also that like capitalist corporate 100 of like oh you can't do it well there's five motherfuckers i could pay for like half the price who would do it totally with a smile on their face and like you know what i mean yeah totally and for less and for less so oh yeah it's just a mess they're a mess happy to look at disaster no happy to look at disaster but yeah that film was incredible and um it's literally so good yeah they they knocked it so they period they ate down truly like shout out like shout out um what's your watch well my watch is club kid but low not even low key like high key the next pod episode i'm literally gonna have to do like a whole bust down talk about it because i'm just like oh we've moved into conservatism like genuinely we've moved into conservatism so bad and more importantly i'm like there is spaces that we need to protect and like i'm like literally after i'll say this real quick but i'll talk about it a little more in depth the next episode but we went to the premiere sav and i and it was like in fucking sane like literally so t the movie is incredible favorite movie of the year i loved it so much i think you know the bias in there being that like you know i was thinking of keelan i was thinking of q i was thinking like all our friends and like all our like dj friends and nightlife friends who like stevie like like literally the like fucking pump it bitch like every weekend or like keeping so many people's lights on by like so many different things that happen in nightlife and it is just the genuinely such a good film like i want everyone to watch it i literally think it's so good jordan so fucking talented the music soundtrack insane more importantly bitch witch bitch tanner mother fucking thank you thank you 36 open scene don't don't fuck don't don't ever comfort girl i saw the credits i don't like i want to take a picture so bad but like i was scared my flash was gonna go off also i was like literally sobbing like so i was like okay like you know no like don't tanner i literally texted him i was like i'm so fucking proud of you you literally like tore so nasty and that movie's so good i just feel really like honestly the hope core episode that's coming next i'm just like simply but it's just like genuinely i feel like especially with like film you know and like the award season of like just people who've been winning and like the movies coming out especially in like this next generation of like filmmakers yeah who are like making like real fucking shit like nathan stock watching wildwood that took like 15 years i need to watch that like actually don't even freaking play with oh i have chills i have chills i have so many neighborhood watches because like of course you had a week off so i could like actually have well and i'm happy oh girl i'll literally watch that with you again it was so good and i'm back like watching club kid i was like that genuinely like set it off for me but my point was after the premiere they had afters they turned the club in the movie um they like turned it into a real club at los globos oh shout out los globos oh baby the after shout out los globos shout out los globos shout out los globos but more importantly the afters that happened and like that like joy and that feeling and like just also yeah just like all the amazing things happening right now i just felt very like we need to like turn shit back up yeah we do because i'm like we've actually like i'm just like bro like i'm trying to like i just think there's like something so special about being outside and like fighting to like stay outside but also like the community aspect of it like fighting to stay outside literally because i'm just like we don't be outside but also i'm just like you know within everyone's means of like what it looks like to be a part of their community i'm not saying you have to be like out every night at the afters like you know to like coming coming home when like the sun's going up but i just think there is like a participation in whatever way that looks like of like shit like like oh it's special it's so special it's so good i'm gonna be so good i'm excited to see it yeah i want to watch it again i want to watch it again i literally want to watch it like tomorrow it's literally so fucking good like shout out like they ate so nasty shout out which i'll get into later about talking um my neighborhood watch obviously mud shout out the girl shout out remy wolf and also i'm sorry like mcr bitch sleep has been i don't know why sleep is just like tickling something at the top of my head again but we're just so back we're so back and we've well we'll talk about it next time the amount of concerts we've gone to just like shit's been happening so mcr and charlie xdx and oh my god damn has it been that we did so much like y'all just i need to sit down and also be outside at the same time so i'm like still trying to figure it out no just figuring it out um but yeah okay well we'll see y'all next week just for just some key just some kiki just some key just a hint cheers think of this color shout out when you think about it no when you think about us think about this color simply when you 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