One Thing For Everything

Well hello world! I hope everyone is doing outstanding. This I don't know I think you would call this one one thing for everything. Yeah one thing for everything. So let's know a podcast. I think it's Neil Brennan. He's a comedian. I believe he wrote for the Chappelle show back in the day. He has a lot of folks on that are that have came through an addiction and are working a program of some kind, the recovery of some kind and it's always a very fascinating discussion and I might always enjoy it. And he said something to the effect that most moderate users you know of any substance don't know how many days it's been since the last time they used it right like most people don't count. This has been this many days since I had a drinker. It's been this many days especially if they're not stopping right? It's usually because something is going on and it made me think I think that you know it is that an over simplification. I mean sure. But it made me think about what I did and I remember doing something very similar and I told myself this countless times. This is my last whatever insert the blank and then I'm done. This is my last drink and then I'm done and inevitably it was not my last one. And before long I was right back to doing whatever I had sworn I was finished doing. At this time it's going to be different. Then I would do the exact same thing I would think the same way and then pretty much make no changes that might actually produce a different result. And thinking it would that's how I started to understand when it says that we are insane. That that was part of the insanity that made more sense to me. And what I learned and I know about myself to this day I needed a replacement. I couldn't just not do it. Something had to fill that void. And it was fortunate because I mean I walked through doors of a place right and it gave me an actual physical place to go. A people to talk to. A book to read and then something greater than myself that I could engage with every single day in different ways. You know I could do a meeting. I could do a text or a phone call. I could do some readings. I could pray. I could meditate. I could be of service. I could talk to somebody else. Like these little actions that you know they repeat I repeated them over and over and over and they started to fill up some of that space that occupied the one thing I was trying to give up. And that's what I think a recovery program in essence is offering us. You give up everything when you're out there. You know in in the throes of whatever it is you're trying to change. You make this strange bargain. So you either give up everything for that one thing or you give up that one thing for everything. I am so grateful every day that I figured out I wanted the latter and not the former. Peace.