132: Official 2026 Oscars Experience Debrief

direct from the broski nation headquarters in los angeles california this is the broski report with your host britney broski that was impressive hello hello hello guys yeah hello hello everybody hello everyone welcome back to the vanity fair oscar broski report what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck okay i have to get something off my chest really quick that's been weighing on me let me just kind of go through this and i'll be right back let me just kind of go through this and i'll be right back If we are punching, we're punching at each other, not down. So yeah, it's all of those things kind of swirled into one. And so Conan being a part of that formula is just, it was very, very surreal to get to talk to him. So after that, we wrapped the carpet. I talked to so many incredibly iconic people. And then after that, we wrapped the carpet. I went back to my green room and I kind of just like sat down and let my gut out for a second. Cause you stand there for four hours, suck it in your gut. I, uh, we went into the party and I have about 55 margaritas. About 55 margaritas. And I mean, just one after another, because I was like, I got to catch up. Everybody here has been drinking since 8 PM and it's now 11. So let me catch up. And so I go in, I have three back to back. Which was stupid because I hadn't eaten since about 3 PM. And so I have about three back to back. And then we start doing our rounds. I say, I start saying hi to people. Hi, how are you? Oh my God. Hi. You know, I get talking to, to some people. I'm not gonna, I'm not gonna, no, I'm not going to say who, I'm not gonna say who it was, but this is an event where, you know, get drunk, have fun. They're passing out in and out burgers. I saw some celebrities where I said, Oh, I didn't know you had it like that. Like a bit messy. Like they were also doing 55 margaritas. So that's why I felt a little bit less, um, shameful of what I'm about to tell you. After probably about the 45th margarita, we're walking around me and my friend Elizabeth, who works for me and we're, we're kind of, you know, doing the rounds and I see Jack O'Connell. Okay. Okay. I see Jack O'Connell. Okay. He wore fangs to the carpet. Hey, and not like, Oh, it's grills as fangs. He wore prosthetic fangs to the, I need him. I don't give a fuck. I need him. SAS Rogue Heroes. It's one of my favorite shows. Okay. And I've talked about it on here before. It's just some random show that I think is on BBC something. And I only started watching it because Jack O'Connell was in it. Okay. He plays Patty main. Who is this? Like off the he's off the shits. Like he plays a rogue hero. I mean, they are completely batshit crazy for, and it's based on real life people, but of course it's dramatized for television. And also, yeah, it's a world war two show and yeah, it glorifies war, which I don't love, but I love the acting in it. Okay. And guess who else is in it? Tom Glenn Carney. House of the dragon. Best friend. So I go, I see Jack O'Connell. Okay. And I'm, I'm thinking like, y'all remember how intense that Jack O'Connell face was for me? Like he, it was something very, very visceral. And I see him across the room and I say, Oh, that's Jack O'Connell. Like that's, he's actually right there. And we had to walk by him to go to the door because we were about to leave. I go, I've had about 45 margaritas. My left eye is wandering. If there was ever a time where I would have the courage to go up to Jack O'Connell, it's now. And I wasn't going to do some weird shit. I was just going to say, I love you. You're in that world war two show and you're defending the, I'm drunk. I'm in his ear. You're defending the British empire, which I know you didn't want to do that. I know you didn't want to do that because you're an Irish. You play the Irish. They called you Patty. You're not to be called in to fit the British lines in France. I'm drooling, but I know when you're there, your dad died in the show. Remember that your dad died and they wouldn't even let you go over his funeral because you had to go to the British front lines in France or all down the Western front. And I know that we had to storm the beach. I know. So sorry about your dad, but also you're awesome. You're awesome at show. And then when you made, like I just spouting off plot points, holding him hostage. You know, my, my friend Ian calls people like that punishers, people who hold you hostage, punishing you. And usually it's like, it's funny. It's funny. Okay. And obviously I didn't actually do that. Or I only did it a little bit. I only did it a little bit. Okay. So I go up to him. I go, Elizabeth, I'm going to do it. She goes, okay, go do it. And I said, okay, I'm holding my shoes in my hand. By the way, I'm fucking barefoot at the party. I'm barefoot at the gig. The bottom of my feet are black. I go to Jack O'Connell, 45 margaritas deep. And I say, I just need to tell you SAS Rogue Heroes. I love that damn show. I said, and you know, Tom Glenn Carney, that's his co-star in the fucking show. He goes, yeah. I said, yeah. Did you see his play? And he was like, no, man, I didn't make it out to London. Does he? I said, no, I didn't make it out to London. Does he? Does he? Does he? And I was like, yeah, me either. I was in London. All right. So I'll let you know, I'm a huge fan. You have a great night. And he was looking at me with this expression, like, uh-huh. Oh, yeah. Also fully interrupted a conversation. He was having to tell him that. SAS Rogue Heroes, you're fucking awesome. You blew up those planes. There was fucking awesome. Anyway, I know you're like, your family's Irish, but you're from Darby. You're from Darby. Right, Jack? God, those are some good times you and I had when I was watching your YouTube videos. Okay. Bye, Jack O'Connell. Like, get your fucking head in the game, bitch. Having 47 margaritas at the Oscar party. You need to be serious. I was like, I'm a professional. I'm a professional. Saw Jack O'Connell. Shit my pants. I'm professional. I'm talking to all these people. Hi, how are you? Oh, we love to have you on the show. That kind of thing. Right. I'm networking. I see Kyle McLaughlin. Hi, my love. That's family. I'm running around. It's crazy, too. There's so many. There were a bunch of Royal Court alumni at this party. So that's a really cool thing to be able to be like, how are you since the last time I saw you? Which is, and it's stupid and I shouldn't be able to do that. But for some reason. Yeah, sure. I can talk to Paul Mescal. I can talk to Kyle McLaughlin. No problem. Those are my friends. Jack O'Connell. There's shit in my diaper. I just loaded my diaper. I loaded my diaper. I need to go to the bathroom and Elizabeth needs to wipe me. And then I need to go home. Like, I can't believe it. Walked by Michael B. Jordan and I had the wherewithal to be like, I'm not going to bother him. Best actor. That is my 2026 Oscar winner. Best actor. He was surrounded by like Miles Canton and some of the other cat Delroy. And then a bunch of the other cast of sinners, a bunch of just random people. Obviously, like he's going to be surrounded all night. And then you see that crazy video of he went to In-N-Out and there everyone was like, I'll let him eat. But I also know he wanted the Instagram picture. Okay. And I respect it because those pictures went crazy. And I respect it because of him at In-N-Out with the Oscar on the table, eating the burger. Bitch, that's like, get the photo. You know what I mean? Anyway, I see him and I'm like, obviously I'm not going to bother Michael B. Jordan, the MBJ. I'm not going to do that. And then I saw Jack O'Connor. So that was something I did that kind of, I had humiliated myself. Um, I had asked Conan, what are your, what are your bathroom habits? Probably won't do that again. But those are the two moments, right? The four hours that we were live and the whole day of prep beforehand, we had a rehearsal the day of like, it was a lot and it was chaos. The carpet was chaos because you never know who's coming. The, the, some of the tech was like, they were having some issues, but they fixed it. It was just, you know, you got to roll with the punches. This shit's live. You got to go, go, go. And, uh, I feel very proud. I feel very like surreal and out of body that that happened. And thank you to kind of, you know, making sure I can get through those moments. But you know what? Let me tell you something. I took a gab of Benton at like 4 PM. The carpet wasn't until seven 30. And I feel like by that time it had worn off and I just locked in. Like it's, I don't know if any fellow theater kids feel this way. I am so fucking nervous before something like that starts. And the minute it starts, it's like, oh, and going, it's like memorizing lines or anything like that that requires a performance. Even on Royal court. I feel that way. I get so anxious before we start just because it's the unknown. And then once you begin, you know, whatever happens happens, at least we're here. At least we started. It's also nice in those moments to be the host. Like you are in control of the vibe, but if it starts to go South, you can, you can pick it back up. You can redirect, you can, you know, I think it works. I'm a Taurus. I'm type a, I'm what like I can being in control of that vibe actually really works out well for me because if it was the opposite and things started to tank, that's why I do that anyway as a guest. If I'm a guest on something and the shit starts to go south, I redirect because I'm a control freak. Okay. Anyway, it's nuts. This is a skill set I never, ever, ever, ever thought that I would use. When I was at the bank, when I was doing insurance, like what the fuck? I never pictured myself as a conversationalist, as someone who was like, yeah, tell me your life story. And now it's like, yeah, I guess that was just a sleeper dormant skill that I had. So it's pretty awesome. And I feel so lucky to have my writers, Annabelle and Sabina Metchke, who like, they get my voice and we collaborate on, you know, what would be best for this scenario. And they begin it and we finish it together. And it's just like such a beautiful, wonderful soul. Seeing collaboration. And then Stanley, of course, and Elizabeth and my whole team. I'm just so fortunate that I have so many funny, kindhearted, normal, I say that in quotations, people around me that, that just get it. And they understand both the traditional sphere and the chronically online sphere. You know, it's like when to, when to turn it off. Okay. I also need to mention that in the span of this four hour live stream, I talked to two victims of, um, fan fiction, actually multiple, but two, two that come to mind and that is Taryn Edgerton. Sorry. And that's also Tom Blythe. Sorry. Okay. I'd like to apologize to both of those, uh, young men because, uh, yeah. And Tom Blythe knows. So hi. Hello, Tom. Apologies. Seriously from, from team broski. That's my fault. Okay. I've talked about him in a way on this podcast that sends a chill down a lesser man's spine. Okay. And he confronted it head on. I was like, you know, Tom, I've said some stuff about you on my podcast and I just like to apologize. And he was like, yeah, yeah, it's been sent to me. So, uh, very, very kind. Thank you. I was like, yeah, I don't know if it was kind. It was more like caveman. After I saw the hunger games movie, and he did that fucking Quinn audio. I came on here and here I'm going to be like, so Tom, when you're getting in the mindset for like, be serious, like be serious. Sometimes I feel like two kids in a trench coat. How did they let me in here when I'm on here? Like, and then I'm like, so Tom, tell me when you get in your mind, when you do play movie, how different is it really? When you get in the, like who the, I feel like he gave me, a grace I did not deserve. Same with Taryn Edgerton. When I tell you the Kingsman movies, Hey, the Kingsman movies, the Elton John movie. There are so many things that dude has been in where I have like, he was the lock screen on my iPod touch. Do you understand? He was the lock screen on my iPod touch. And now I'm like, Taryn, yes, tell me. So there was a bit of that where, we had some, some fan fiction heroes cross my desk and I am just having to come face to face with my own, you know, my own actions, my own, um, actions that were based in horniness in the past. And that's just, that's part of it. You know, that's, that's part of it. And it's so funny to think that like, that's, I'm at an age now turning 29 this year where I don't, I don't know if that's acceptable anymore. I don't know if it was ever acceptable. So having to kind of deal with that and that's not fun, but it is hilarious ultimately. And objectively, it's very funny. If I'm like, I used to, I used to make ape noises on my podcast to you. Anyway, nice to meet you. Sure. Sure. Okay. Let's talk about the Oscars. I'm going to pull up my predictions. I did. separate things where I said I did one for who I think was gonna win and then I did one of who I wanted to win okay so we'll go through both this is who I thought was gonna win actor in a leading role I picked MBJ I picked MBJ because I believe in hope because I believe in hope and he fucking won I felt very good about that okay and I feel like the SAG awards or the actor what is it called now guild actor awards kind of were a predictor in that so absolutely the biggest congratulations to MBJ um actor in a supporting role I picked Sean Penn one battle after another I do believe he won actress in a leading role I picked Jesse for Hamnet actress in a supporting role um I I actually picked uh Teyana Taylor but I think Amy Madigan won which period and we'll talk about weapons in a second casting I picked one battle that's who won right best picture I picked one battle after another which like duh and then but but and this is who I thought was going to win okay we'll get to my my favorites next for directing I actually picked sentimental value but I think Paul Thomas Anderson got it didn't he costume design I picked Frankenstein cinematography I actually picked train dreams and I can't remember who won was it one battle Oscars winners oh no no no best cinematography was sinners that's fucking right makeup and hairstyling I picked Frankenstein okay there's so much to say sinners this is my opinion I saw that shit multiple times in theaters there is something there's a rewatch ability to it there's a timelessness to it it does not feel dated or like it ever will be dated like they really did something very magical and very special that blending of cultures um uh dj scene the dance scene I have chills thinking about it like when you create a moment like that in cinema I feel like it was a collective everyone was like you know like yeah and sinners won best score which yeah by the way fucking yeah by the way for film editing I actually had picked marty supreme but marty supreme didn't win anything so and then international feature film I'm pretty sure sentimental value won right oh no wait best sound was f1 I'm geeking casting was one battle after another best original screenplay was sinners sorry score and screenplay that kind of had confused me I can't read too well y'all know I can't read too well okay yeah those were the winners here were my who I wanted to win okay actor in a leading role mbj actor in a supporting role look okay y'all know I am the biggest Frankenstein stan I I was addicted to that movie I still think it is quite the feat like all of the um what's the word it starts with a p p uh uh like when the set design is functional you know what I mean I don't know but that you know like the ship in Frankenstein was fully inside and outside and like it moved and I like everything was real and it was the word escapes me um I thought that that deserved some form of you know acknowledgement um I also I picked Frankenstein as cinematography I picked it as costume design I picked it as makeup and hair I picked it as production design um and I picked it as sound because I wanted it to win I wanted it to win and I think that the best supporting actor and best supporting actress categories were completely stacked like it you know I I kind of would have been happy with any of them winning I think what Jacob did was fantastic and I think that all of the prep that went into it and it you know from all these interviews and you know respecting the process like the studying he did of of the you know movement of reanimated corpses and all these different modes of research that him and Guillermo kind of partnered together to create the creature with even down to how on certain parts of his head a different color hair was growing out you know like I appreciate all those details I really do appreciate it I just think that for best supporting actor he was it was too stacked so I actually picked Stellan Skarsgård but yeah I think what Jacob did was fantastic but I I think Stellan Skarsgård and Sentimental Value I would have liked to see him get it okay actress in a leading role obviously I wanted Jessie Jessie got it actress in a supporting role Sentimental Value fuck me, girl. It fucked me up. And the sister who plays, not Nora, Agnes, that scene where the sisters are in the room and she gets up on the bed and they hug and they're crying, something tore in me. Something shifted. So I actually picked Inga for sentimental value, but I also would have liked to see Wound Me from Sinners. I think that those were my two top picks. It's like whatever happens, happens. But those two movies were so special to me. There were so many of these movies that I was like, I genuinely enjoyed. Sometimes it's like with the Oscar movies, it's like, all right, Oscar bait, Oscar bait, Oscar bait. And maybe that makes me sound like a fucking dilettante. I don't know. But this was like, it was very hard. And it really came down to. What were the nuances of the performance that I really was like, okay. So I'm happy for Amy Madigan. Fantastic. And Weapons scared the fuck out of me. Bitch, I had never seen Weapons. I watched Weapons like two nights before the Oscars because I was like, wow, a horror film nominated? I know The Substance was nominated last year, but that feels like rare. For a horror movie, especially one as original and cool as Weapons to be nominated. And to have made such an impact on culture, you know, like people were going to St. Gladys for Halloween and they were doing the run and like, that's, that's cool. Especially for a horror film that wasn't memed. Something like Megan or like any of these movies that have been memed, the Babadook, the Babaday. Like it's just, at what point is it still a feat of cinema and not a meme? So I will say I did not know in Weapons, that they had ripped her meat bag open. Okay. No one had told me at the end that they go ahead and they rip her meat bag. When all the kids go, they rip her jaw open. I was horrified. They had flayed open her flesh sack. I was like, oh my God. Crazy. That movie is fucking crazy. And I liked it. It was a witch. I love that shit. Practical, practical effects. That's what I was trying to say earlier. Practical production design. Everything is like, it works. Okay. Casting, I picked Hamnet because whoever casted those children, those kids, oh my God. And of course, like Paul and Jesse, their chemistry was just, I can't believe it. It, there is something about picking people who have fully convinced me they are a family unit, you know? And not that, it's, it's one of these things of like, spoiled for choice. Every single movie, I was never pulled out of it by anything, you know? So casting, I picked Hamnet. Best picture, I would have liked to see Hamnet or Train Dreams. I loved Train Dreams. We have to talk about Train Dreams. Train Dreams for me. I know it wasn't as flashy as some of these other movies. I know that it didn't get a lot of press or, you know, people weren't really talking about it in the same way that they were Hamnet or whatever. But like, y'all know that I personally am a sucker for the movies that make you feel thrilled and happy to be alive, despite the sorrow, in spite of the sorrow. And that actually the sorrow is what makes the joy so bright. And I think that's what makes the joy so bright. Right. Any movie that has the full spectrum of the human experience, I am going to freak out about. And there's this scene at the end that I actually, I can't think about for too long. He's had everything taken from him, yet he goes on. He rebuilds. He gets a dog. He goes back to, you know, the same plot of land that the tragedy happened on. And he's an old man at this point. And he, we're getting, into like the forties, uh, or is it, it's like the, the, the twenties, thirties, forties through his life. And he goes up in an airplane and bitch. I was snotty crying. And it's not even like, it's a sad movie, but it's, it's one of those. It's like, Oh, I just, Oh, what a gift. To be alive. What the, the, the eternal gift of life. Oh my God. How we take it for granted. Oh my God. So many people, so many people we've lost that we want here today that it's like, we need to live for them. And by living in sorrow and, and walking in sadness, you do them no honor. You do them a disservice by not living your life to the fullest. So this was one of those movies where I was just like, Oh my fucking God. And I loved Hamnet. Obviously, if we're talking about best picture, for a drama, I don't know, girl, Hamnet, Hamnet. But then it's like, what was my favorite movie? Right? I, my favorite movie is between Frankenstein and sinners. But what did I like in my heart of hearts, Hamnet versus train dreams. So I don't know. Um, for directing, I picked Chloe, Chloe's out for Hamnet because it, it takes such a special relationship between a director and, you know, everyone else on the set, but specifically the actors to accomplish what they accomplished with Hamlet Hamnet. And I just think that that should not go unnoticed even hearing about, you know, they had dance takes or they had silly takes to balance out how heavy the subject matter is in that fucking movie. So I think that that she deserves her flowers like over and over and over again. Um, cinematography, I pick Frankenstein, costume design, Frankenstein, uh, international feature film, sentimental value, writing original screenplay sinners. I did pick sinners cause fucking duh. I cannot believe he wrote that shit and direct. I just Ryan Coogler. I am, I am in all, um, writing adapted screenplay, Frankenstein. There's a theme here, visual effects centers and, uh, avatar one. I'm pretty sure sound, Frankenstein, like I said, from the like shifting of the, when he's pushing the boat and for like all the sounds the creature makes and all the, like, I don't know, just the lab and everything. I was, but I understand, you know, that that's my pick production design, Frankenstein, uh, music original song. I know the K-pop demon hunters one, one, I have not seen K-pop demon hunters and I know I'm probably missing out on a huge part of pop culture. I picked, I lied to you because that was my favorite fucking song. I picked sinners because that shit, that soundtrack, dude, I can't like, I'm going to get mad. Like I'm actually going to get mad. And then in the same vein for original score, I also picked Ludwig for centers because everything I have very rarely, and I'll be it. I'm not, I'm not a film bro. I'm not, I'm not a film bro girl, but I do enjoy Stanley made fun of me the other day. He was like, cause I was having a conversation like this with him. You know, I was like the technicalities or whatever. And he was like, dude, you would love cinema. You'd love movies. You should start watching them. I was like, you know what? You're actually so fucking right. Anyway, I think that music is such a huge part of what makes a movie an experience of viewing experience versus just people on a screen and centers and, and blues music and the way Ludwig Coogler collaborate is something out of a dream. It is something so flow. Like they just hit a flow. They, they speak each other's language. It is just a, a seamless blend of here's my idea. Okay. I'll take it from here. I just, I'm in awe of it and centers. If, if I had my way centers of Frankenstein, I would have won every single award. However, okay. And then makeup and hairstyling, I picked Frankenstein. So those were my picks. For who I wanted to win just out of my personal preferences, but congratulations to every single person that won. I think this year was so much fun that we were watching it from the green room. I had it set up on my phone, like at the after party, because I was like, obviously we need to know who won to, to riff on it and to, to, you know, if any of these winners come in to, so I'm not just like, so if you want to want, won't you like that? I just didn't want to. And we were watching it and when MBJ won, bitch. Like everyone screamed, everyone shot up out of their chairs. I was clapping and it was MBJ won, MBJ won, MBJ won, MBJ won. It was so good. And then one battle, one best picture and everyone was like, yeah, yeah, that was expected. So very, very, very eventful. Very fun. This is the first year I've really been, you know, plugged into the mainframe of the Oscars. And, uh, it's very fun to celebrate art and cinema. And theater, you know, cause it is a form of theater in, in this current landscape. And And we never, ever want to undervalue the importance of these type of movies and the themes that we see and relevance and timing and, you know, things like a carpet. And you may think it's not a time to make a political statement, but it is, you know, and it's just it's a lot of fun. But it's also it can be very heavy. It can be it's very important. These these events and these moments and these films are very important. Presentation is very important. And there were so many wins this year that were just historic, monumental. I have chills thinking about it. It's it's it was amazing. It was amazing to witness. And the energy on the carpet after was just I've never felt such an infectious joy by everyone. Everyone was excited to be there. You know, just it was it was really, really fun. So thank you to Vanity Bear for having me. Thank you to my whole team. Thank you to Broski Nation for if you tuned in. I did not expect y'all to. But wow, thank you. And the clips are cute, you know, and I'm I'm excited to keep doing things like this because I want to keep getting better. And I think that's important. You know, if you want to do this for a long time, like I want to keep getting constructive criticism and doing better. So if I was a male director, just in the in light of the Oscars, if I was a male director, I would have a crazy pair of glasses. OK, to be a good director. I don't tell you this. You have to have a crazy pair of glasses and they have to be a thick frame or they have to be some crazy shape. And you have to have a hat. You have to have one of those silly hats. And by silly, I mean newsboy cap. What's it also called? Flat cap, patty cap. That's what my Irish friends call it, a patty cap. And I think that's funny because, yeah, it is. So I would if I was a man, actually me now, I'm going to shave my head and I'm going to wear a patty cap and I'm going to have a crazy pair of glasses. I'm not going to pluck my chin hairs from my PCOS and I'm going to grow a beard and I'm still going to wear probably a push up bra. And I'm going to I'm going to put my my big T.S. Madison boobs on the table and I'm going to have my patty cap and I'm going to have glasses. I'm going to say the thing about animation. OK, so that's. For Halloween, I'm going to be. Guillermo del Toro with big tits. For Halloween, the week of Halloween, I'm actually going to be alternating between Sir Duncan the Tall egg egg on. Because, you know, for for egg and also for Guillermo, like I can do well, Guillermo has hair, actually. So maybe just for egg, I'll do the bald cap for Guillermo del Toro. I'm going to actually that's a hilarious Halloween costume. And none of you bitches better steal that from me. I'm going to be I'm going to do his blazer and his little scarf that he wears and the glasses that make his eyes a little bit big and the hat. And I'm going to draw on the beard and I'm going to walk around with a copy of Frankenstein. And that is fucking funny, bitch. That's comedy, mama. Yeah, mama. Ever heard of it? I'm going to be Guillermo del Toro for Halloween. Wow, I can't wait for Halloween. I'm so excited. Drunk, drunk and vomiting dressed as Guillermo del Toro. OK. Let's talk about Rosalia. La Rosalia is on tour. She opened the Luke's tour last night. By the way, hung out with Luke's Pascal at this event I went to recently. Mama, I love her. That that's queen. I fucking live for her. We hung out and it was we had a time. So hi, Luke's. Anyway, Rosalia looks the she's doing ballet. Yeah, that bitch is doing ballet on the stage. She's doing ballet and singing opera. You bitches could never your favorite could never. And I'm serious, like the reverence for high art to the point where she takes it. She says, I fully understand this and I am now going to put my own creative and modern spin on it. And I'm going to regurgitate it back out to an audience where you will now recognize. Recognize some famous opera riffs, dances, techniques, because she has such an understanding and deep reverence for that art form is just like that's what it's actually about. That's what it's about. And that's the shit I love. It gives me chills. It makes me horny. I can't believe it. Like that we get to exist in the same time period as someone like Rosalia or Beyonce, who also sings opera, who sings shit like Ave Maria in the midst of her set list. I can't believe it. Because it's important and because they are deeply interested and fans. They're fans of these types of art forms because they're eternal. They are evergreen. They are infinite. They are never going away. They've survived centuries. Okay. So I think Rosalia with looks and with the album, I've been doing a lot of I've been watching a lot of her press. I think obviously she's so worldly. And she is. She is so intelligent and cultured. And it's clear she spent a lot of time traveling around the world and absorbing. She's been a sponge for the last few years. And to do that and then, you know, squeeze the metaphorical sponge out on to the to the to the table to the kitchen counter of music. She's taken her sponge and she squeezed it out into the counter. And now she's rubbing it all over. Okay. I think that. Oh, I was going to say I watched her fashion neurosis. Okay. If you're not familiar with fashion neurosis, it is a podcast slash show on YouTube hosted by I feel I'm 80% sure it's Sigmund Freud's fucking great granddaughter or Sigmund Freud's Sigmund Freud's granddaughter. I mean, her last her name is Bella Freud. And she's like a therapist, a psychotherapist. So she sits there in the chair and interviews these people. But it's through. It's through the vein. It's through the lens of fashion. And I love, love, love, love that show. And the first question she asks, she has the guest lay completely flat and there's a camera on their face, like from straight above. And then there's a camera to the side. And then there's one kind of from down. And it's so intimate in the best way. And there's also a truth and a freedom in not having to make eye contact with the person interviewing. You, which I think is a fun, you know, psychology trick of when these people are staring at the ceiling and they've got their hands on their chest like this. And you're asking them some pretty deep questions about their identity, their upbringing, why they make the decisions they do, what they've done in their career to get them to this point. There is a freedom in just thinking about it and saying it versus maintaining eye contact. Or, you know, that kind of guarded vulnerability, if that even makes sense. Of like, if someone asks you an intimate personal question, the instinct is to look away. You know, like, let me look away and think about it and answer it looking down because it's soul bearing to make eye contact with someone and say, here is who I am and here is my truth. By removing that element, you get a more honest answer. So I just really, it was, it was tea. She did fashion neurosis. And I just. It just, it got to a point where I started taking notes. That's how much I love her. I got out a spiral notebook and started taking notes. And I was like, you know, there are these rare moments when you're in taking something, when you're absorbing art or when you're reading or when you're listening to music or, you know, anything. That feeling of being seen so intimately by another person. They can be centuries dead. They can be. They're alive today. They can be famous. They can be not famous, whatever. When it's like, it strikes a chord of, I think the exact same way of what you just said. And I have, how rare is it to think you under, it's one of those interlinking moments of we are more similar than we are different as humans. We have so much overwhelmingly in common, way more than we have different. And sometimes. You know, with, with all the media that we consume in a day, it does not feel like that sometimes, you know, it's like we, the divide across the aisle has never been more vast, but it's really not. So it's stuff like that where when you hear a turn of phrase or when you understand a concept or what someone's trying to communicate and it's communicated effectively to the point where you're like, I feel like I've had that thought before, or I could have come up with it. Or you finish the sentence. It's like this, this synapses happens and it's, but it's like, I struggle to explain it. I can only explain it by this. This is stupid, but actually it's not stupid. It's only, it only sounds stupid now because I've read so much more than at the time I said this. One of the first times that ever happened to me was when I read George Orwell. George Orwell. I read Why I Write. And I also read. probably 1984. Maybe it was Animal Farm. I don't fucking know. But it was one of those moments where either the way he had written something or his line of thinking, you know, like his journey to get to the point he was making is exactly how I think. Where I was like, this man's been dead for however many decades. And I'm sitting here in my house in 2025 reading this book like, okay, twin. Like, what a special feeling. I felt that way again when I read Oscar Wilde for the first time where I was like, whoa, you could have plucked this out of my fucking brain. The way that, you know, his line of thinking went or the way that some dialogue was exchanged or, you know, something that maybe he wrote in a foreword or in a nonfiction. It's just like, wow. And there's nothing more intimate than writing. Because you can put things on a page and convey things through that medium that you would struggle to say verbally, if ever. If you could ever say it verbally. And it wouldn't hit the same. Because Killian Murphy said this recently, what he loves about fiction specifically, because I'm the same. I pretty much only read fiction unless it's a nonfiction by a fiction author that I like. He said that how rare and special is it in this life? And I don't know, how else you could get this other than through reading to get inside the inner monologue of someone else. And he likes it as an actor, as an exercise in empathy to put yourself in someone else's shoes. And that is the journey of fiction. That is kind of the, other than the point of entertaining, the point of fiction is to force yourself outside of your own head. Walk in someone else's shoes, experience someone else's story, live in their emotions, decision make the way that they would. Try to understand their justifications, things like that. It's just, when those moments happen, it's like, this is what life's all about. I have those moments very frequently, actually, where I'm like, this is what it's all about. Rosalia accomplishes that for me in a way that I have never, very rarely has it been so succinct and so like, Jesus. So I just wanted to say that her fashion neuroses, I think I wrote some shit down. Here are some of the notes that I wrote just as I was watching and, you know, things that were popping into my head. I said, the way she doesn't think twice about filling in her pensive gaps with Spanish, like she doesn't care. And sometimes she'll translate it. Sometimes she doesn't. And I think that's so powerful to just be like, she's fully talking in English. And then she'll be like, you know, a little phrase in Spanish and she'll keep going. And that's just for her. I love that. And at the end of the day, you know, it would zoom out to the wide of just these two women talking. And I'm like, this sounds stupid, but I hope you understand like the heart of what I'm saying of this is just two women communicating in their unique ways. And they are still being seen and heard by each other. Albeit Rosalia was speaking English to, you know, accommodate Bella did not speak Spanish. So yes, there's a bit of, give and take, but at the same time, like here are two women so solid in their identities and they're exchanging information in a way that is so respectful and is so empathetic and is so free flowing that I, it feels stupid to say because that's how conversation goes, but it was just special. It was just special when she would have these moments where she would just say something in Spanish. And then, you know, Bella's just nodding because you don't have to understand every single word. It's the feeling of what she's trying to convey, which that exists outside of language. So that was one thing I noted. Another thing is Rosalia said something about exploding into your womanhood. Oh my God. Exploding into your womanhood. And she talks about the transition into her thirties and how life is just beginning. Like the twenties are horrible. You're about figuring it the fuck out. And that's not an easy, clean process. And there is no final destination. You will never figure it out, but that's the point is you are always trying. And eventually maybe you'll get the hang of it, but there is no, I don't know what this pressure is. Well, I do know what it is. It's an obsession with youth and beauty and how beauty is only tied to youth and a patriarchal society. So when you exist outside of that, when you let go of that idea, you are fully, fully able to exist as a woman, as a human in a world that does not center male validation, does not center dressing for men, speaking, you know, in a way that pleases men, existing in a world that pleases men. I don't give a fuck. I don't give a fuck. Life is so much richer and fuller than pleasing men. Men have bad taste. Have you ever seen what billionaires wear, bitch? Men have bad taste. Taste. So she said that. And then she said how she exists in the world now is better than how she existed in her twenties. So period. If anyone's having some weird feelings about aging or getting older, just know that it gets better with age. It truly, truly does. Then she described something that I wonder if anyone relates to. And well, this is, she kind of touched on this and I was like, I know exactly what she means. So this is what I'm talking about. Maybe I just have undiagnosed ADHD, which probably a lot of you bitches are going to say, yeah. But sometimes I feel like in order to start something, I need to understand the entire comprehensive history or like a starter pack before I even touch it. Like before I even started, for example, air dry clay, crochet, sewing. I feel like I'm not qualified because I haven't taken, I don't know the history of it. I don't know the history of, you know, all the different sewing techniques. I feel like I need to be exposed to literally everything before I begin even a beginner's course. And for that reason, it's paralysis. And I fail to start the Sylvia Plath fig tree metaphor. I fail to begin because there are so many things to learn that I'd rather just not learn them sometimes, but I want to learn them. I want to do it, but I get in my own way because if I'm not incredible at it at the first go, it's not worth doing. And that's like, some gifted and talented, you know, burnout shit from elementary school that I need to work on and who fucking knows. But it's almost this fear of I'm, if I begin and I'm bad at it, I'm making a mockery out of that art form. You're also being taught by professionals, you know, not even professionals, but like I'm watching these girls sew on YouTube and I'm like, I'll never be that good. And I don't know, that's such a juvenile way of thinking, but I start anyway. I've started with clay. I've started sewing. I've started whatever. And like, it's not bad. And I have to remind myself that like, that's not, that's really not bad. I may not have the technique and the skill, but like I can get there. And that's what I did with no technique or skill. So what about if I keep doing, you know, like I have to give myself this pep talk, but that really, I just wonder if any of you guys relate to that because Rosalia said something similar of like, sometimes I don't know where to begin, which is normal, but it's almost this fear of, of making a mockery of the art form by beginning. Does that make sense? Anyway. All right, guys, I think that'll pretty much do it for me. What an eventful past weekend. I have about a million and seven other things to update you guys on, but that'll have to do for now. We have an official playlist for Broski Nation. It's linked below. There's also an unofficial one. Actually, it's untitled by McGee, but also I've been back into Green Chattin's solo project, Chaos for the Fly. And he's got a song called Fairlees, which is fantastic. And that's kind of been on, on repeat. I like the score and I like Fairlees from that album. Royal Court, we release every fucking week. Okay. Bob the Drag Queen was just, the episode we released, he is so fucking funny, bitch. It pisses me. Yeah. Go watch Royal Court. We have a Clips channel. Go subscribe to the Clips channel. If you don't want to watch me talk for an hour and 10 minutes, I don't blame you. This is a long podcast sometimes. There's a Clips channel. If you also want this podcast ad free, there is a Patreon. Go subscribe to the Patreon. We've got merch, broski.shop. We've got a new video on the main channel. I save Matt Damon. Go watch that, Brittany Broski. I think that's pretty much it for now. I will see you next week. I'm about to travel again. This life is crazy. This life is fucking crazy. I can't believe I said that to the Jack O'Connell. I'm actually like, it kept me up last night. Like it kept me up last night. You know what else keeps me up? When I tried to play the banjo for Marcus Mumford. Like I don't, this job is a humiliation ritual and I will do it gladly. Okay. Loving you guys. Have a great week. Sorry for the late upload. Today's Tuesday when I'm filming this. So it's called the late upload. I'm sorry for the late upload. I'm sorry for the I'm out Wednesday. I love y'all to death. Happy St. Patrick's Day! Bye.