Novelist Claire Vaye Watkins on the beauty & brutality of the desert
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Claire V. Watkins’ new novel, *Yellow Pine*, is set in the Mojave Desert near Death Valley, where a massive solar energy project threatens the region’s unique and biodiverse ecosystem. The story centers on Rose, a 40-year-old woman who lives in the desert after a painful divorce and separation from her daughter, choosing to stay in the remote area to defend the land she grew up in. Rose joins a small, defiant community of misfits and activists protesting the green energy development, which Watkins frames as part of a broader pattern of environmental exploitation and injustice. The novel reflects on personal and historical trauma, including Watkins’ upbringing near nuclear testing sites and her father’s role as a procurer for the Manson Family. Through Rose’s journey, the book explores themes of sacrifice, motherhood, and spiritual connection to nature, highlighting how the desert’s harsh conditions evoke both fear and a sense of divine presence. Watkins questions whether protest is effective, but insists that even futile action carries moral weight—especially in witnessing and resisting the degradation of natural landscapes. The novel blends personal memoir with ecological critique, showing how environmental injustice disproportionately impacts marginalized communities, while calling readers to confront their own complicity in systems of extraction and displacement.
This is Fresh Air. I'm Terry Gross.
Like the main character in her new novel,
Claire V. Watkins lives in the Mojave Desert near Death Valley.
Also like in the novel, the desert around her is being developed
by an energy company for solar energy.
Solar might sound like clean energy, great,
but solar on this grand scale is wreaking havoc on the desert ecosystem.
Like many frontier territories, the desert attracts misfits, loners, drifters,
and as Watkins puts it, weirdos.
In the new novel, each of those types is represented
in a small community of people protesting the, quote,
green energy gold rush.
But really, what can they do?
What power do they have to defeat a corporate project already underway?
Is protest futile, delusional, self-serving?
There's a lot of questions this novel raises.
Like, how could a mother decide to live in the desert
when her ex-husband and child have moved across the country
for a better job?
How has Rose, the new novel's protagonist,
been shaped by having had a mother, father, and stepfather
who were each addicted to alcohol or drugs?
12-step programs have always been part of her life
as a witness or participant.
Watkins' new novel is titled Yellow Pine.
That's also the name of the solar desert project in the book.
Her previous novel, I Love You But I've Chosen Darkness,
is her most autobiographical book
and quotes from the memoir My Life with Charles Mansfield,
by her father, Paul Watkins.
The cover describes Paul Watkins as Manson's number two man.
His role was procuring teenage girls,
recruiting them to join the Manson family.
Claire was six when her father died of cancer.
In reviewing her new novel,
former Washington Post book critic Ron Charles wrote,
Among the swelling collection of books
confronting our imperiled planet,
Claire V. Watkins' fiction remains defiantly alive.
Her stories. are rooted in the American West,
that awesome expanse of dunes and deserts
that uninformed observers would call empty.
Where life has adapted to the damning conditions
of heat and drought,
Watkins finds characters burned away
to their elemental anxieties and desires.
Claire V. Watkins, welcome to Fresh Air.
Thanks, Terry. Happy to be here.
Happy to have you.
So, it's too hot, I would imagine,
to be in the desert.
This summer.
So, where are you staying for the summer?
Yeah, it is too hot.
I'm staying in Orange County.
I split my time between there and the desert.
I think this is the first summer of my life
that I haven't spent significant time out in the Mojave.
So, yeah, it's a bit sad.
Can you describe the part of the desert that you live in
and what the environment is like?
Sure.
I live in the eastern Mojave desert,
about halfway between Las Vegas and Death Valley
in a little town called Tocopa,
where I grew up.
It's not for everybody.
It's about 100 people.
That will be the understatement of the interview.
Yeah, it's for about 100 people.
And it's really beautiful,
just like staggeringly gorgeous landscape and scenery,
huge, huge mountain ranges.
There's a lot of nature.
There's a little river that goes through town,
the Amargosa River.
It's mostly underground, a subterranean river,
but it surfaces in these hot springs.
And there's just this, like, explosion of life around the river.
What kind of life?
Well, pretty much anything you can imagine.
Birds, bats, insects.
Each hot spring has a lot of endemic species,
so living creatures that only live right there.
Each of them has a little pupfish.
Most charismatically, probably desert tortoises
and then less charming creatures,
like gigantic, black-biting horseflies.
Yeah, it's a very alive, very biodiverse place.
So where you described, it's also around where you grew up,
and it's also where the main character of your new novel lives.
So now I want you to describe how it's being developed.
Yes, so the vast majority of land
in this part of the country is public land.
So it's owned by, in theory, all of us,
but it's administered by the federal government.
And it has been sort of in the crosshairs, I would say,
of what boosters like to call the green energy gold rush.
So it's extremely sunny.
It's a good place for solar development, in theory,
for that reason.
It's also kind of. being besieged by other types of energy development,
like geothermal and mining.
I mean, mining has been happening out there
for a really long time,
although the scale is getting bigger and bigger.
The aquifer has been pretty dramatically depleted.
And, you know, there's not a lot of water in this area
to begin with in the best of times.
So the natural resources are really being pushed to the brink
in a pretty dramatic way.
And there's been a long,
long history of environmental injustice.
You know, Yellow Pine and where I live
is not far from the Nevada test site
where the federal government detonated
almost 1,000 nuclear bombs until 1992
when I was about in the third grade.
So it's a place that's been, like,
treated like a wasteland for a really long time.
And that story has been very cooperative
and convenient for extraction
and exploitation of the natural resources.
So I was worried that while I'm really,
I feel really convinced
that we need to decarbonize the economy
and the need for renewable energy is obvious to me,
I was really concerned that there would be
some really serious sacrifices being made
that didn't seem right to me or fair
and that I don't think will actually
help us transition off of fossil fuels.
So in the novel, there's a small group,
there's a lot of protesters who want to stop
this development of the desert.
But the novel really does ask the question,
like, what's the point?
They're not going to win.
There aren't a lot of people around to watch.
There's not a lot of media around to report it.
They're in the desert.
So what are your thoughts about that?
Well, yeah, I think at one point they say,
you know, it's not a blockade
because we're not delusional.
But they are still very principled.
You know, they can tell that this is wrong.
And so it, I think, is a matter of morality.
Taking action, even though you don't have
a real grounded expectation of being successful,
I think there's still value in the action
to watch and witness and be able to say
that you saw what was there.
I mean, that's what drove me out to Yellow Pine
was that I wanted to be able to say
that I saw it before it was gone.
And I guess I kind of,
I kind of just feel like if you only engage in an action
that you're certain is going to be successful,
that's pretty cowardly, really.
You know, I mean, we want to be strategic
and effective as activists,
but there's no guarantee in any of this stuff.
And that doesn't mean it's not still a worthwhile way
to spend your life.
As you mentioned, you grew up near
where there are a lot of atom bomb tests
and also near where there's a lot of
there's a big disposal site for nuclear waste.
Yes.
So how aware of that were you when you were growing up?
I was painfully aware of it.
I was, I don't remember a time when I ever didn't know
about Yucca Mountain, that nuclear repository
that you're referring to.
I mean, and that's another win, you know,
there's a lot of very gnarly waste
going into that mountain today,
but not nuclear waste because of people stood up
and said,
no, you know.
So, yeah, I, my parents were involved in activism
against nuclear testing and against Yucca Mountain
and against water, water projects.
And I remember feeling really hurt by it as a kid,
feeling like, so they think that's okay to do to me?
Like, I'm just a kid, you know.
It made me feel like,
we were expendable people
or that we didn't, we didn't matter.
I mean, that was, that's the story usually
of this type of exploitation is like,
there's no one there anyway.
It's a empty place, you know,
and that it's already dead.
And that's a really confusing thing to be told
when you're a lively kid who, you know,
I understood that that was wrong
and I didn't, I didn't deserve it.
And I know,
no one does.
And yeah, I had a sense of clarity about it
that I don't really think has gone away.
Were you able to hear the blast go off?
Like, did you know when it was happening
and were you warned by the government
when it was happening?
So by the time I came along,
the detonations were underground.
They were happening in a subterranean way,
which was ostensibly better
because it wouldn't be,
you know, releasing
directly into the atmosphere yeah exactly yeah but the problem is of course that that's where
the water is there is underground oh right yeah so no i didn't hear them or see them my mom had
as a kid she would go up on the roof of her trailer she told me stories about going up there
and they would put like sunglasses on to be safe you know um and yeah my my grandma worked in
casinos and atomic tourism was like a part of our life what's atomic tourism atomic tourism is the
most amazing coping mechanism that the people of southern nevada came up with to deal with the fact
that the their own government was was bombing them it was a phenomenon where people would come
to vegas to watch the detonations and people would dress up as like atomic bomb girls there
were show girls who had like mushroom cloud headdresses
you know and they would dress up as like atomic bomb girls there were show girls who had like
headdresses and they would dress up as like atomic bomb girls there were show girls who had like
and there would be parties to like bomb detonation watch parties up high in the casinos
there's still a lot of like i don't know it's almost like the culture sort of metabolized this
like ghastly like deeply wrong phenomenon into a tourism gimmick it's incredible
it is incredible yeah you have cancer in the family maybe as a result of it like you're right
that your father probably died from the mining or
from the atom bomb test this is the thing with environmental injustice which is kind of a wonky
academic phrase but the way i understand it is it it means you get less life you know that there are
some some people who um get more time on this earth than than others some people are expendable
in that in this model that we have and we think we can kind of cordon it off it's what what activists
are doing and i think it's a good thing that we're able to do that and i think it's a good thing
talking about when they talk about a sacrifice zone um yeah we have this myth in america i think
that like we can do this stuff elsewhere like war is something we do elsewhere and um but it we do
it to ourselves too you know when we when we hurt the land um in the air and the water we're we're
hurting ourselves so yeah he could have got it from a number of um shenanigans but at the end of
the day it's a good thing
he only lived to be 40 years old so you describe how living in the desert means living with death
all around you and i want to say that i grew up with westerns on tv and westerns in the movies
and one of like the common themes one of the common plot points in westerns is that somebody's
kind of trekking through the desert and they're lost and they're parched and they're on the verge
of death and buzzards are flying overhead or the villain has dragged the hero into the desert and
left and they're on the verge of death and buzzards are flying overhead or the villain has
left him or her there to die and they're parched and you know starving and buzzards are flying
overhead um so i don't think that's what you mean when you say there's death all around you in the
desert so what what do you mean what is dying all around you well it's not that dissimilar from
those tropes you know i i think to be a um small you know barely upright hairless mammal walking
around in that
um climate can be really scary and it does make you feel like oh i could die out here you know
it's not we're really not that far away you know you're air conditioning your car overheats
you're on the side of the road and it's 120 degrees there will be buzzards circling and
i think there's something primal and immediate about that um and i think i was exposed to it
mostly because my um my mom ran this little museum and i was like oh my god i'm gonna die
and rock shop on the edge of death valley and a lot of tourists would come through especially
european tourists maybe they had seen some of those westerns that you had seen and wanted to
have a a death valley adventure and and my mom used to say that it was her job to
save the european body from the european imagination and i would listen to her and
occasionally people would go go missing and i would listen to the dramas of someone not making
it which
happens pretty regularly out there it's an extreme place did you ever get lost in the desert and
worry about dying of thirst yeah i have actually i got um a pretty mild heat stroke uh once when i
was in joshua tree of all places the most you know gentrified part of the mojave desert forgive
me joshua tree i love you but um i just got really hot and i was on a short walk not very far from my
car at all in a
place i could have thrown a rock and hit someone's house probably i was really not out in the
wilderness but i got so disoriented and heat does something really wild to your brain and i was
kind of not sane and couldn't find the path back to my car and everything starts to sort of look
the same i got really disoriented and really panicked and luckily it didn't last that long
but yeah i've been confronted with how quickly it can happen on on the opposite side um like
joshua tree of all places i could have thrown a rock and hit someone's house probably i was really
not sane and could have thrown a rock and hit someone's house probably i was really not sane and
jesus and moses spent significant time in the desert i mean moses got the 10 commandments in
the desert jesus like fasted for 40 days and 40 nights and was tempted by satan um and i'm
wondering if living in the desert has um affected your sense of divinity yeah it has i wasn't raised
religiously or even very spiritually at all so i came to joshua tree of all places and i was
to that on my own later in life um i was given the gift of desperation they say and um just needed
help like i had this i came to this point in my life where i felt like um i had kind of exhausted
all the like intellectual secular educated uh um ways of living and i needed something a lot
a lot older um and when i'm in the desert i can feel a feeling of being a part of something bigger
than me um which which is how i how i think of the divine um i can really appreciate um
that i'm a part of this living land
and i give it something and it gives me something even just thinking about my breath
um and these these dark times have driven me to buddhism lately so i um have that practice to
kind of draw on and i've done yoga for a really really long time so um but yeah i i think i think
that that must be true everywhere that um there's a divine part of me and in all all of this but
it becomes a part of me and i'm a part of this and i'm a part of this and i'm a part of this
and it's very very clear for me out out in the desert um and that's why i need to keep going out
there so on the one hand you're living with death all around you and on the other hand you're
experiencing this new sense of divinity living in the desert so um those are both
connected and opposite at the same time um yes and and and
in your new novel and in your previous novel you write a little bit about living in the face of
imminent death and in the new novel um the main character's boyfriend describes how he used to
dangle off of a cliff without a rope to feel the presence of god and he describes it as a meditation
that focuses you because you can't think of anything else but your body and the rock you feel your breath
you feel the wind on your body so it brings you back to your body and it makes you in the world
in your previous novel i love you but i've chosen darkness you write about a boyfriend jesse lived
like he was dying take it from me you do not want to live with someone who actively lived like he's
dying so um can you talk about both sides of that you know the downside of living like you think
you're dying and the downside of living like you think you're dying and the downside of living like
a sense of exhilaration and why why you thought about this in the first place
well i thought about this probably because my first memory is my dad dying when i was six that's
really like where i begin in my story i mean he was sick with cancer for a few years before
he died and i don't really remember having a time where death wasn't a really a presence in my
in my family you know that his his
um
absence like changed everything and i've come to feel pretty grateful for that actually because i
have not i mean i've made mistakes and lived foolishly as much as anyone has but i have been
gifted with not being quite perhaps as in as much denial of the fact of death as i
might have otherwise been i don't know our culture is so weird about death
um it's like they're opposite hands but they're the same hands because there's i don't know as far
as i can tell there's
There's a part of us that is, you know, infinite and divine, like we were talking about.
And then there's a part of us that's very finite and only here for a little while, as far as we know.
And we're in this body.
And I felt really grateful for that.
And it makes me want to live a good life.
Well, we need to take a break here.
So let me reintroduce you.
If you're just joining us, my guest is Claire Vey Watkins.
Her new novel is called Yellow Pine.
We'll be right back after a short break.
I'm Terry Gross, and this is Fresh Air.
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I'm Terry Gross.
Let's get back to my interview with Claire Vey Watkins.
Her new novel, Yellow Pine, is about a woman, Rose, approaching the age of 40, who, like Watkins, lives in the Mojave Desert.
Rose joins a group of people, misfits, weirdos, protesting an energy company's giant solar project, wreaking havoc on the desert ecosystem.
Rose has also chosen to live in the desert while her ex-husband, Terry, lives in the Mojave Desert.
Her ex-husband actually moves to Philadelphia to accept a better job.
And after they agree their daughter would be better off in a Philly preschool, their daughter moves to Philly, too.
A painful separation for Rose, but not quite painful enough for Rose to move, too.
When the novel begins, Rose is working for an environmental group that she considers part of the nonprofit industrial complex.
So in each of your last two novels, the main character decides to live far away from her young daughter.
In the new novel, the couple has been living in Nevada, but they've been growing apart, they divorce.
The husband gets a job in Philly, close to his parents and his sister, and they agree it would be best for the daughter to go to preschool there in Philly.
But Rose stays out west, moves to the desert, and works in a fundraising job with an environmental group.
She's kind of relieved to be away from her ex because they've been drifting so far apart, but it's painful to be away from her daughter.
In your previous novel, I Love You But I've Chosen Darkness, the main character goes to the desert where she grew up and decides to stay
and leave her husband and their young daughter behind if they don't want to stay in the desert.
What got you thinking about what it means to live far away from your young child?
Well, I live far away from my own young daughter for most of the time.
She's with me on break.
She's with me on breaks and on summer vacation.
So that's a sacrifice that I've chosen to make, and I think it's for her good.
I think it's for the greater good, the good of the family system.
And I think it got me thinking about right sacrifice and wrong sacrifice.
You know, parents have to sacrifice for their kids.
And I also notice that when there's too much sacrifice, it can get pretty dark.
You know, we get into territory of like martyring ourselves or not living our lives in the name of our kids, you know.
And it's so much pressure for a kid to have to bear.
Like, they didn't ask for that.
They didn't ask to be born, you know.
So I'm just interested in the process of a parent letting go.
And in the case of. In the book, you know, trusting that the other parent is trustworthy and has got it.
And I'm really lucky that that's my situation.
If you're comfortable talking about it, can you talk a little bit more about what the process was like of making the decision that this was a good sacrifice and that it was good for the family?
You know, I think I would probably rather talk about Rose's approach to it.
Sure.
That's the main character in your new novel.
Right.
Yeah.
So for Rose, you know, the decision is a mixture of good reasons and maybe some bad reasons.
Like, she's pretty guilty.
At one point, she describes herself as being sopping with guilt when the decision needed to be made.
But she has some good reasons, too.
She feels, like, called to defend the land where she lives.
She feels that that's a meaningful purpose.
And to have a parent that has a meaningful life, I think, is a great gift.
To have a parent that is still, like, a full-fledged, whole human being, which is what Rose is trying to do, I think that's really, really important for kids.
So your previous novel, I Love You But I've Chosen Darkness, starts with this postpartum questionnaire.
And it's a multiple-choice questionnaire.
I want to read some of the questions.
One, since my baby was born, I've been able to laugh and see the funny side of things.
A, as much as I ever did.
B, not quite as much now.
C, not so much now.
D, not at all.
Two, I have looked forward with enjoyment to things.
C, not so much now.
D, not at all.
And so on.
And so Rose comes up with answers in essay form to all of these, like,
A, B, C, D, multiple-choice answers.
She counters it with her own real answers.
So did you have to take a survey like that?
I did, yeah.
Questionnaire?
Yeah?
Yeah.
That was the first piece of writing that I did that became that book, I Love You But I've Chosen Darkness.
When my daughter was born, I took this questionnaire.
And I found the language just very confusing and baffling and funny, accidentally funny, unintentionally funny, I thought.
So, yeah.
Then I thought, well, this should be an essay test.
And then I started writing these little essays in response to the questionnaire.
My doctors definitely described me as having postpartum depression.
And I, you know, I followed their advice accordingly.
But I don't really think that's exactly what was happening.
I think I was having a kind of an existential crisis.
I think it was like a spiritual confrontation with myself.
I had this child and doing something really, like, heroic.
A lot of the other stuff that I was doing in my life sort of suddenly seemed really meaningless.
And the things that had given me a sense of purpose, like striving in my career, they just suddenly seemed absurd.
Can you say more about what this was about, this existential crisis?
I was a really ambitious young person.
I was striving a lot to do everything in the right way and in the right order.
Like, I was a straight-A student.
I did really well in school.
It helped me get out of my kind of crazy family scene.
And I was kind of in a survival mode, I think, looking back on it.
You know, using, like, my education and eventually my profession, like, as a university professor, to get safe.
And even using intimate relationships.
As a way of getting safe.
And then all of that was kind of culminated in having this child.
And I think I was telling myself a type of, I don't know, almost like a messianic story.
Where, like, once I arrive at this place and I'm middle class and I have a husband and a child, all will be good.
And it wasn't.
I was still myself.
And I still had, I had, like, deeper stuff that I needed to confront.
That couldn't, the, you know, solution wasn't outside in, like, external validation or money or prizes or prestigious jobs.
It had to, like, come within.
So when she was born, that was really the beginning of me starting to, like, dig in deep with myself.
And just, I think, the way Mary Oliver phrases it is, like, live your one precious life.
Well, let me reintroduce you here.
If you're just joining us, my guest is Clara Vey Watkins.
And her new novel is called Yellow Pine.
We'll be right back.
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Let's get back to my interview with Clara Vey Watkins.
I want to ask you about your father.
Because he joined the Charles Manson family.
And for people who don't know Charles Manson, and some of our listeners might be too young to have, like,
seen documentaries or read books about him.
But why don't you describe Manson?
Most people would probably describe him as the leader of a cult, a cult of young hippies,
who were, as Joan Didion says, participating in the paranoia of their times.
And eventually, spectacularly so, it culminated in these murders in Los Angeles in 1969.
And my dad was a teenager.
For him, in the beginning, the family was all about music and sex and drugs.
And he'd come from a pretty gnarly household.
And I think. Your father.
Yeah.
And Manson, too.
Not incidentally.
Yeah.
So, yeah, Manson was a lot older than most of them.
A lot of them were young women.
A lot of them had those women, the girls, and some of whom eventually committed the murders.
They had been, like, given to Manson as children.
So, it was a really exploitative scene, it sounds like.
What I would say to you. to people if they're not familiar with him, he became this, like, boogeyman that showed the
culture. Joan Didion described it, the day of the Manson murders, as the day the 60s ended.
And it became this fable, this allegory about how, like, the countercultural impulse was dangerous
and could only lead to, you know, murder and mayhem. And it scared a lot of people off of
the kind of thing that the hippies were up to. And it gave their enemies a lot of ammunition.
Well, Manson used the whole, like, free love, sex, drugs, and rock and roll kind of thing
to totally exploit women, young girls, teenagers who had just come to California, who'd maybe run
away from home, who had no direction. They just knew they had to get away. And so, you know,
he would know how to flatter them and take them to his home and use them sexually. And then,
apparently, your father, because of music, started playing with Manson because your father played and
Manson played. But then your father, as Manson grew, like, darker, your father became his procurer.
He was the one who found the teenage girls and brought them into the Manson cult. And I think
it's fair to call it a cult. So, like. Like, how much of that did you know when you were growing up? I know your mother told you some,
and then you and your sister learned more about, you know, like, Manson and your father from
books like Vincent Pugliosi's Helter Skelter. But how much did you really know? And I should say,
your father was not involved with the murders. He wasn't even in town, I think, at that time.
Yeah, he was out in Death Valley. So that's kind of where the mythic, like, presence of the desert
in our family, it was almost as if, like, the desert was the desert. And so, you know,
the desert saved him from being involved. And Manson was the one who first sent him out to the
desert to find a hole for them to wait out Helter Skelter in, you know? And that's a really good
point about there's nothing really countercultural about Charles Manson, maybe except for that he
liked to do drugs. But, like, he was very sexist, very, very racist, you know?
And he did some time in prison.
A lot of time.
Do you know how your father ended up being. Manson's procurer of teenage girls?
Well, the way my mom told it, it was because he was very good looking. And he was young. He was
young enough to enroll. He enrolled in Pacific Palisades High School, briefly, to meet women.
It sounds like in my dad's book he writes about, and it's a tricky thing because it's a co-written
book. I don't know how much of this is actually him, and he's not around for me to ask, you know?
But he writes about it as being just, like, a wonderful,
time for a kid who's, like, come of age in a really violent, repressive, like, 1950s,
abusive, scary house.
Your father turned against Manson and was one of the main witnesses who testified against Manson.
Do you know how he decided to do that?
When he wanted to leave the family, at first Manson said, okay, that's fine.
Then he changed his mind, and they were in, like, a power struggle for a while.
And they were out in Death Valley at the ranches. And eventually there was a night that he describes
in his book where he opened the door of the cabin where he was staying with a couple other people
who had also defected from the group. And Manson was, like, squatting there with a knife between
his teeth. And so he thought he would be killed. And he walked that night across Death Valley,
basically, probably around, like, 50 miles or so.
But he fled for his life and then went to the police, went to the Inyo County
sheriffs. And I think he was trying his best to get safe. He had heard about the murders,
but at that point people had been kind of, like, gossiping or alluding to them. I think he was
just, like, getting, you know, a very, very hard reality check and realizing that this was not
loving paternal guru that he thought he had.
What did your mother know about his involvement with the Manson family when they met and fell in
love?
You know, my grandma met my dad first the night before. He was a bartender, and she had gone out
to the bar. And I think she told my mom something like, there's a really cute bartender out there.
He was in some cult, but he's really cute, and you should go and, like, chat him up. And my mom did
that. And my understanding is they talked about it right away. I think everybody in town pretty
much knew.
But she was okay with it?
Yeah, I think she understood that people make mistakes and can be lost. I mean, she definitely,
like, made her share of mistakes. I think some of this was that eventually they got involved in,
like, 12-step recovery, you know, where you are part of the medicine from recovering from addiction.
is to be honest. So I think they had a pretty profound philosophical and spiritual tradition
that was helping them navigate the complexities of what, I mean, that's just being a human.
I want to ask you about solitude. As you write, there's a difference between solitude and being
lonely. What do you like about solitude? And were you always comfortable being by yourself?
Yeah. I started surfing recently, so I'm like, I got a lot of surfing metaphors going on. You
really got to kind of try, like, stay in the pocket of not becoming isolated or too lonely
or misanthropic, which is a risk for me, feeling like other people are bad, like a malevolent force
that I'm a part of.
I don't like it when I get into that way of thinking. Ideally, solitude helps me be
with others, but I have to be able to retreat from them. I also, you know, most of the peopling I do
is in reading and in books. And I have to remember that those aren't real people either, you know,
as real as they can seem.
Do you feel that one of the downsides of being with others is that you're not able to
be with other people? Is comparing yourself to other people, fearing you're coming up short,
or feeling like you're competing with them in some way?
Yeah, that's a real hazard. I mean, comparison, I think is, especially for an artist, I think it's
pretty much useless. You know, I try not to do it at all. I've had times in my life where I
have kind of been on a, like, comparison is like a drug I'm trying to kick. Because I'm me, you know,
I'm me. I really,
for some reason, for me, it's Zadie Smith. I want to be like, why am I not doing what Zadie Smith is
doing? And it's like, well, you're Claire, babe, you know, Zadie's gonna Zadie and George Saunders
gonna George Saunders, and you just do Claire, you know, that's enough. I feel, I feel best when I
can inhabit that and let everybody else just do their own thing, too.
It's been great to talk with you. Thank you so much.
Likewise, Terry. Thanks for having me.
Claire Vey Watkins' new novel is titled,
Yellow Pine. After we take a short break, TV critic David Bianculli will review the new series,
Furious, created by Elizabeth Merriweather, who also created New Girl, The Dropout,
and Dying for Sex. This is Fresh Air.
This is Fresh Air. The new Hulu series, Furious, stars Emmy Rossum from Shameless as an FBI agent
on the trail of a serial killer. Our TV critic David Bianculli has this review.
Lawmakers chasing female fugitives almost have become their own subgenre.
Lucky is streaming weekly episodes this summer on Apple TV.
Killing Eve was a huge hit a few years ago for BBC America.
And way back in 1987, the movie Black Widow may have started it all.
It showcased Deborah Winger as an investigator in pursuit of a serial killer,
played by Teresa Russell, who married wealthy men only to murder them. That very movie it
turns out was the official inspiration for Elizabeth Merriweather's new Hulu series,
Furious. Black Widow is even named on screen in the opening credits.
But Merriweather, who's the creator of Furious, has done more than merely update or remake Black
Widow. She's totally transformed it, giving it new purpose and depth, with more unpredictable
twists and complicated, flawed, surprisingly funny characters. All those aspects make sense
once you remember that Merriweather not only created the very clever sitcom New Girl,
but also two excellent miniseries focused on troubled women, The Dropout and Dying for Sex.
In the Black Widow movie, Deborah Winger was fine as the film's protagonist,
but Teresa Russell as the chameleonic killer was way out of her depth.
Furious has no weak links whatsoever. Emmy Rossum, who played Fiona in Shameless and the title role
in Angeline, stars as FBI agent Alice Black. She has an antagonistic relationship with almost
everybody, including her boss, played by Danny McCarthy.
who's got plenty of attitude of his own you wanted to see me you need to stay in your lane
why am i being told a brooklyn homicide detective wants your advice on an overdose death i worked
out of the brooklyn north homicide squad when i was with the nypd i don't care what you did at
the nypd your job now is to stay in the applicant pool and answer the phone when the crazy people
google the fbi and call the number on the bottom of their screen i know you're requested to be
assigned to sex crimes but leadership will assign you an operational squad when you're ready
i know that you know a detective named uh danny kelly because he requested your help i do
we worked homicide at brooklyn north together is this the officer you disclosed having a domestic
relationship with that wasn't him that was someone else what happened bad breakup so you came running
over here because i like to know these things in advance yeah and i just told you alice is on the
of a female she suspects to be a serial murderer played by lola petticrew the irish actress from say
nothing the more we see of her character who goes by many names and guises the more slippery she
gets and also more multi-layered when we first meet her she curls up next to her latest victim
who has collapsed on the stairs she injects him with a fatal dose of fentanyl puts her face right
next to his and watches him die i don't really like listening to you
i don't like the sounds you're making
but i love your smile before long she sets her sights on a new victim a wealthy lawyer whom
she targets at a party she flirts then sleeps with him but doesn't kill him instead she waits
until the next morning when he presents her with a non-disclosure agreement to sign
for her cat and mouse game to really begin that game involves
him thinking he's the cat not the mouse and she's devious enough to adopt whatever personality
and push whatever buttons she has to in order to ensnare him in her web this victim is played
by rob delaney who also played a kinky character in dying for sex it says i can't say anything
about you i can't do anything to hurt you will you destroy me it's like you own me
no it's just you know it says that you can't share any information and there's a liability clause but
i want you to own me
i want to belong to you
look i'm just a lawyer okay and i know we did a lot of drugs last night
but i'm not really into the crazy stuff what if i just like
stayed here all day and waited for you to come home i i'm not i can't you have cameras
you can watch make sure i don't do anything wrong i'm not i'm not going to give you a key
to my apartment i don't want a key i want to be locked up there's also a third very shrewd woman
in furious nora one of alice's fbi superiors played by quincy tyler-brown
bernstein they're all riveting but the male actors are outstanding too not only the ones
mentioned already but also scoot mcnary jake lacy and rob yang as alice's former and current
colleagues and special notice goes out to steve way from the tv series rammy who plays an at-home
patient cared for by the killer like many characters in furious he's hilarious one moment
tragic the next finally there's the context
and subtext of furious that gives it even more power nora is a student of greek mythology and
interprets the myths of both medusa and the furies in terms painting them not just as deadly monsters
but as angry victims the primary motivation of the murderer in furious turns out to be not greed
or bloodlust but revenge we learn slowly about her own dark past which involves a sex trafficking
ring of young girls there are
uncomfortable associations with the jeffrey epstein case which she makes clear when questioning one of
her victims just before dispatching him what's the punishment for people who know what's happening
and do nothing
what do they get the fugitive and her hunter don't come face to face until part way through
this eight-part series and when they meet accidentally furious ups its intensity and once
again explores unfamiliar unforgettable territory it may owe its inspiration to an old movie but
furious is a boldly original new tv thriller david bianculli is fresh airs tv critic furious
premiered july 27th on hulu and presents new episodes on mondays through the end of august
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Podcast Summary
Key Points:
Claire V. Watkins' new novel, *Yellow Pine*, is set in the Mojave Desert, where a solar energy project threatens the fragile ecosystem and native biodiversity.
The novel explores the lives of marginalized, unconventional individuals who protest the expansion of green energy development, raising questions about the effectiveness and moral value of such resistance.
Rose, the protagonist, lives in the desert after a painful divorce and separation from her daughter, reflecting on the personal and emotional sacrifices parents make in the name of principle or purpose.
Watkins draws on her own life—growing up near nuclear testing sites, her father’s involvement with the Manson family, and her experiences with environmental injustice—to ground the narrative in personal and historical trauma.
The novel examines the tension between death and divinity in the desert, where extreme conditions foster both fear and a deep spiritual connection to the land.
It challenges cultural myths of environmental sacrifice, revealing how marginalized communities are disproportionately harmed by industrial projects.
Rose’s journey mirrors a postpartum existential crisis, where the birth of a child leads to a re-evaluation of identity, purpose, and the meaning of sacrifice.
The story underscores that activism, even when futile, holds moral and emotional value in bearing witness to ecological and social harm.
Summary:
Claire V. Watkins’ new novel, *Yellow Pine*, is set in the Mojave Desert near Death Valley, where a massive solar energy project threatens the region’s unique and biodiverse ecosystem. The story centers on Rose, a 40-year-old woman who lives in the desert after a painful divorce and separation from her daughter, choosing to stay in the remote area to defend the land she grew up in.
Rose joins a small, defiant community of misfits and activists protesting the green energy development, which Watkins frames as part of a broader pattern of environmental exploitation and injustice. The novel reflects on personal and historical trauma, including Watkins’ upbringing near nuclear testing sites and her father’s role as a procurer for the Manson Family. Through Rose’s journey, the book explores themes of sacrifice, motherhood, and spiritual connection to nature, highlighting how the desert’s harsh conditions evoke both fear and a sense of divine presence.
Watkins questions whether protest is effective, but insists that even futile action carries moral weight—especially in witnessing and resisting the degradation of natural landscapes. The novel blends personal memoir with ecological critique, showing how environmental injustice disproportionately impacts marginalized communities, while calling readers to confront their own complicity in systems of extraction and displacement.
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The novel is set in the Mojave Desert, specifically in the eastern Mojave near Tocopa, halfway between Las Vegas and Death Valley, where the author grew up and where the main character lives.
The harsh, extreme conditions of the desert create a sense of vulnerability and mortality, forcing characters to confront their fears, desires, and connection to the land, leading to profound spiritual and emotional reflections.
The novel critiques large-scale solar and mining projects that threaten the desert's fragile ecosystem, depleting water resources, disrupting native species, and contributing to environmental injustice.
Rose feels a deep sense of moral duty to protect the land where she grew up, believing her presence and activism serve a meaningful purpose, even though it causes emotional pain and distance from her daughter.
Her upbringing near nuclear test sites and her father's involvement with the Manson family shaped her awareness of environmental and social exploitation, informing her focus on sacrifice, injustice, and resilience in her work.
The protest is not about winning but about moral integrity—holding space for the truth, witnessing harm, and asserting a sense of responsibility, even in the face of inevitable failure.
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