MATTERS OF THE HEART (FINALE)- LOVE, THE LANGUAGE OF A MATURE HEART (WITH APOLOGY)

Debs of the Spirit, we have read about revivals, we have had, about revivals, but what will my children know about God for me? A canyon revival hub dedicated to ignite a new fire through the knowledge of God, prayer and worship. What will my children know about God from this generation? We shall live, we shall pay the price until God is found by this generation. Revealing the length, the height, the depth and the width of the Word of God. And my generation is preparing for a lot of fire. My generation is preparing for that manuscript in God that has not been scripted. And we are going to live until we find God in our generation. Now bring in the Word of God, Pastor Brown Karinga. Praise the name of our Lord Jesus Christ. Hallelujah. Finally, finally, finally, we have come to the end of our series. Matters of the heart series. And hasn't the Lord been beautiful, hasn't the Lord been faithful. You see, it is He who started a good work in us. Surely, that is it, to completion. And I'm very happy that the Lord has had mercy on us all these days. And when I started this series, I said that this series is all about. It's not all about me. We've been doing it today. It's not about me. But then it first attacks me before it attacks you. So that the sword first pieces me before it pieces you. That the hammer first breaks me before it breaks you. That I'm the first victim of all these things that I'm teaching. And today is such a tough day. Who? This episode is an apology. This episode, even as I'm teaching, I'll be apologizing because the Lord has revealed to me many of the errors that I've done in the previous years in the ministry. And that I may not be huddled in hard to continue doing the same thing while expecting different results. This is a tough, tough thing for me to do. I knew I received this as the first summon in this series. And the Lord told me, you will preach it at the end whether you like it or not. That you will preach it at the end. So all this time I've been trying sometimes in non-gatherers of episodes so that I will just postpone this ending. But behold, the end has come. And here we are. Today I'll be talking about love, the language of a mature heart. Love, the language of a mature heart. What day? It's here. God came and told me that brown. You have an immature heart. He was in the room with me, so I inclined him. I'm like, what? I'm serious. And I'm talking that very honestly because you have treated yourself higher than you ought to treat yourself. You even start doubting God, you're like a hybrid. Are you sure? So he told me that brown. Let me take you on a journey of your heart. That I may show you the immaturity of your heart. Oh, Lord help me. I thought this would be easy. Oh, shake hands, Alibana. Zobranesia, le Paricambe. Maluza, Vramo, Sefalik, Elephariana. Robasi, Farcalia. Oh, Lord help me. Help me. Okay, first I'm going to start by describing an immature heart. That maturity is not a function of age as we all see it. That it is not just a brain or the, it's not just a brain that matures. I came to learn in psychology that many times when you say I love you, it is usually, is it a prefrontal complex, a fautex that is responsible for that. And the reason why ladies are able to settle at least, because that part of the forebrain matures faster. They as I think matures at the age of 17 to 18, while of men, men's, that frontal, prefrontal, fautex, I think I think I'm not certain. Matures at the age of 25 to 30. So you see that that is why they can make life-changing decisions at a very young age. But more than the maturity of the brain, and the brain I'm talking about, the physical organ, and the mind I'm talking about, the spiritual organ, the mind, which comprises of the will, the emotions, and the will, the emotions. My God. Will, emotions, decisions, we are talking about, all the faculty that enables you to live your solid life. That, more than the maturation of the brain, we are talking also about the maturation of your mind. And more than the maturation of your mind, the Bible says in Romans 12 verse 1, that I will be 60 there for Britain by the masses of God, offer your bodies as a living sacrifice. Then of us too, not be conformed any longer to the patterns of this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind. That one meter more four is B, E meter more four size, B, transformed, and irreversible change. That you may know God's will, He's good, pleasing, and perfect will, that you can have a maturation mind. And more than that, now Christ added that you must have a maturation heart. So, I will start today by describing a maturation heart. This is what He told me. I'm not going to add, even if this episode takes 20 minutes, I will add nothing, I will subtract nothing. He told me that brown a maturation heart needs to be taught and trained first to love God. I'm near maturation heart, that every heart in its conception is conceived in immaturity. There are near maturation heart needs to first be trained, not to love yourself, not to love other people, but to love God, because in loving God, its foundation of, and its definition of love is firmly grounded, that its love is purified in loving God. That is why I keep on telling people, and I told this, I told people in ignorance, in every form of ignorance, please do not date before you learn how to love God. I just said that, because it was just a revelation on the heart, but I've come to know that thing is true. That if you do not know how to prioritize God, if you do not know how to choose God in the means of many options, if you do not know how to genuinely love him and to share your love for him, and to allow him to love you, you will never allow any other human being, and even though you can make a decision of the mouth, and the decision of the brain and the decision of the mouth, you will never make a decision of the heart. It will just simply be a form of pretence. It will be a form of pretence. That this heart first has to be taught how to love God. It has to first be founded in the love of God, before it is founded in any other love. We have four forms of love according to, I don't know who invented this, but there are four forms of love. Even in the Bible, you're talking about also Jesus asking, "John, do you love me? Do you agape me?" John says, "No, it's Peter. Peter, do you agape me?" Then Peter says, "I feel love you." Then Jesus asks, "Can you agape me?" Then he says, "I feel love you." Then he asks, "Do you now feel love me?" And now Peter says, "I feel love you." So you see, there is a difference between God's definition of love and our definition of love. That this love agape must be the foundation of every kind of love. That there is no kind of love that can be founded, unless first the love of God has been founded upon that heart. That there is no other kind of love, there is no other kind of relationship. Make sure that the person you love has first loved God and that you have first loved God and that you have loved each other in God's kind of love before you love them in any other way. That agape is a foundational love, upon which we can build every other form of love. can build every other form of love. We have filled out the people who love their father. but they hit them. You love them just because they give, but literally in your heart you hit them. Because you've not learnt to see them as God sees them. I know your father is a drunkard. I know your mother stalks wards that are like arrows, but until you learn to see them, like God sees them and see to learn to love them, like God loves them. You will never love them, like a daughter needs to love their father. I know they have done. In fact, somebody was talking to him and they said that, "Ah, is this, is this, is this, is this thing low? Somebody who does this practices witchcraft? Let me tell you, the first weapon you need to use is a weapon called love. That you love them so much, that the Bible says in John 136, "For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, whosoever believes in Him, shall not perish but have everlasting life. That you need to realize that you cannot evangelize to them with hate. The first instrument of your warfare is love. That love is not just a fruit love is a weapon to be wielded in the hands of the mature. And the mature heart first has to be trained to love God. Look at the progression of Mark, chapter 12 was study. Mark chapter 12. And was study. Listen to this. These are the commands of the Lord, verse 29. And Jesus answered first and principle one of all commands is love is here or Israel. The Lord your God is one Lord. Verse 30. And you shall love the Lord, your God out of and with a whole heart and out of and with your whole soul and life and out of and with your whole mind first you must learn how to love God. That is Jesus' foundation, that first you must love God. Then look at this and with all your strength for this is a first and a principle commandment. You can do nothing in love or in life until you learn how to love God. Then number two was that you won. The second is like this. You shall love your neighbor. Ask yourself. Your wife is your neighbor. Your friend is your neighbor. So, none after loving God and that loving God involves or includes accepting God's love for you. Then you will learn how to love yourself. To love yourself in a form that is not selfish. Then after you love yourself then you will learn to love your neighbor as you love yourself. Because you only truly love yourself if you love God. The best form of self-love is loving God. Any self-love that does not love God is selfish love. That first you love God then you love self. You start not accepting weaknesses but you start laughing how God made you to be. I was teaching somebody the other day that Esther had a form and beauty. Esther had a form and when the Bible talks about form is talking about figure. And then the Bible starts describing that Vashti did not have form but she had beauty. That you need to accept yourself. The way God created you. That you will hear God's voice. In the stillness telling you how beautiful you are. How beautiful he created you. He will start loving after you love God. Now he will be shed. Brood upon your heart and Romans 5 verse. And then you will start loving yourself because one of the effects of sin is hatred. Hatred of God. Hatred of self and hatred of others. My God. That is that hiding yourself from God, hiding yourself from yourself and hiding yourself from others. These are things that have happened in that particular order. Then he continues to tell me that a mature heart is a hut with mature thoughts. A hut with mature thoughts. Look at this. 1 Corinthians 13 11. 1 Corinthians 13 11. This is what the Bible says. That when I was like a child. I took like a child. I thought like a child. I reasoned like a child. Now that I have become a man. I am done with childish ways and I've put them aside. For now we are looking in a mirror that gives only a demon and blood reflection of the reality as in a riddle or an enigma. But then when the perfection comes we shall all see in reality and face to face. Now I know in part. Now you see that he says that when I was a child I thought like a child. I talked like a child. You see childish ways include my God. The fact that you can look at a woman and just imagine sexual thoughts that you keep women like sexual objects. That there is nothing else of value that you can have in relationship. That every relationship has to be transformed into a romantic relationship. You see that that is a way, a childish way of thinking. A mature heart has to learn it is a hut that has mature thoughts. Mature thoughts. What is God thinking about you? What is God thinking about this person that I alone know the plants I have for him plans to prosper him and not to harm him, plans to give him a future and I hope that if you think any thoughts that are not God kinds of thoughts you're thinking immature thoughts. But if you look at a man you start because of hatred you start imagining thoughts that are thoughts of destruction. Those thoughts are not mature thoughts. That immature heart even though broken by a man will pray that may God prosper you. May God lift you. May God cost you. No, no praying may God destroy you because you hurt me because you broke me. That is any mature thought. If there is something that a mature heart has is its reaction towards being. My God today and you will realize that I'm not teaching this out of my own perfection. I'm teaching this out of the book of Nehme Chharaz on a mongo. A mature heart is a hut with mature thoughts with mature intentions. That it does not just come and you know ladies ladies ladies please learn this that you will ask a man what do you want with me. Men will have the right kinds of answers but wrong kinds of intentions. Right answers wrong intentions where I want us to build a feature and I realized all through my relationships I promised marriage. I promised marriage one day I was dating a certain girl and honestly I know she's going to listen to this and I ask her today do you know I broke up and she doesn't remember. She doesn't remember or she remembers is that she said brown we cannot do this. I dated a certain girl and I remember she's a very powerful man of God by the way and she came no I came to her and I told her now that you have a big minister and I have a big minister so who who is going to serve a who. Hey maybe I don't have my wife to build South Africa maybe I mean Nigeria both of us have big ministry so who is going to who is going to support the other one. This question disturbed her. She told me brown I cannot do this very fine at all. Do you want me to find you. And in my heart I was like ah she doesn't have capacity. Mom my mom called me and told me brown name is Kiyama Chozi. Mungwa Miniam Biams Chan Analia Hu Yum Stan Analia. Brown you've had a daughter close to her close to the heart of God. Brown you don't know what you've lost. I'm like mom she would not even be but answer the question and you know you are asking the wrong version of her. Right now she's just trying to figure out her own ministry. Why are you giving her that kind of button. Can you do that yourself the question that you asked. My God I was so ashamed that in every relationship I promised marriage in the first day of conversation and anybody who is listening I've said this to everybody that I have probably heard. I am sorry. That if relationship I would not I would ask and promise. And the expectations would be heightened. I know that I have destroyed the best of relationships by a promise of marriage. It's just that I cannot mention names, but I have lost the most important people God had placed in my life. Because of any mature heart. That I knew what they wanted and I promised them what they wanted, not what I was able to give. I knew what they wanted was to settle down and to get the seriousness of these people. I promised marriage. I promised marriage and these people opened up their pockets to support them. My ministry opened up their hearts. They opened up their time to support my ministry and in the course they were more heart. I am sorry. That my intentions were not right. Sometimes you a man can date a lady because of money. You know that when a girl truly loves you. She will open up her pockets for you. So you will make the best promises. You will do that your intentions are wrong. I will repeat this statement and mature heart is a heart with mature thoughts, with mature intentions and with mature affections. Mature affections means affections that do not fluctuate. That onions and it comes 100 meters of Kirokido, you start and it can be what has changed. Only God has called me to ministry. Nonsense. Didn't God call you before you started the relationship. I have used this excuse and I have lacked in this having mature affections. Mature affections are affections that can be dependent on the relationship. They have a consistency of expression. My Jesus. Next point. A mature heart desires to love but lacks the capacity to love. There is a statement I said in one of this, I think in the controlled room. The episode on the controlled room that there is this expression I used to use. Many people have heard that it is just a desire. I just want to love somebody. I just want to love somebody but you are not giving a priority to the guiding of your heart. You just want to love. It desires to love. But then when it starts loving, it realizes that there is no capacity in itself to keep the fire burning. You see, the word love is the word, it means fire affection. It is a fire that has to be kept burning and only one that has the capacity can keep it burning. Only one who has the wood and the resources to keep it burning will keep it burning. Hallelujah. My God, this is not an easy thing to preach that only mature heart desires to love. Genuinely, it desires to love. It is very fast in saying I love you but very slow in showing I love you. Very fast. My God says that be slow to speak but quick to action, quick to action, very slow to speak. I mean mature heart is always fast, selfish and weak in its nature. Selfish, it's all about me, it's all about my ministry, it's all about what is selfish. Today I admit I have been very selfish and in the process God sends help us but you end up dating help us. And then you break help us on account of ministry. It is true God desires to keep ministry but God is a just God and today I am here to ask for forgiveness. And at the same time to plead for mercy from God because it is not all about me. Oh, that there are people who went to God. They felt worthless because they could not date Pastor Brown. Because I probably gave an excuse that God just wants me all to himself. God has said that I'm being distracted and all that they picked was that they were unworthy. Today I want to tell you no. I'm going to his baby girl no. I am sorry and I'm sorry. I'm sorry, I am sorry. I am sorry. Love is not selfish. Love is not always fast. Love for my mature heart is optional. Number two is seasonal. Number three is conditional. If you do not do this, I will not do it. It is seasonal. It has seasons like winter, autumn, spring. It is like a university. Only there is a day when there is a sun and there is a day it is never constant. It is very seasonal. And then it is optional. That I present it just to get out of a relationship. It is love for my mature heart. And my mature heart deceives because it is first deceiving. It is it thinks that it is it is oh my god. On behalf of also other men. Sorry. My mature heart is one that says one thing I desire. Rahul, find one of the manifestations of a mature heart is an ability to keep one relationship to go. You have to have, I do not too much forward. Yeah, I love you. You forward. I remember once in my life I did that I sent forward. I love you. And then it went as a forwarded message. That you cannot keep one relationship. That the proof that you have a mature heart. Is you lacking faithfulness? You know that God separates himself from people who are not faithful. You cannot commit yourself to a relationship. One relationship. How do you expect to commit yourself to one marriage? This heart is deceived. It cannot say one thing I desire. That the point with the fact that you desire many things. He talks about matter in look chapter 10. That matter. You worry about many things. Well, your priorities are in many things. Well, a mature heart after God knows one thing that it desires. One thing that it desires. An immature heart will not only hurt H.U.R.T. An immature heart will not only hurt. It will also destroy and kill. That is why I said I'm sorry. That I might have been the beef that was sent to kill still and destroy. I stole your affections. I killed your affections. Oh my God. There must be anyone who does not enter. Anyone who does not enter by the dough named Christ is a thief. As I say, I might have been the thief. But now your spiritual life was killed after dating. I passed the brown. He even started hating God. I am sorry. Because an immature heart will not only steal. It will kill. It will destroy. It will hurt. There are people who will stop going to church because of past the brown. I refuse to have that. No. I am sorry. I am deeply sorry. I am deeply sorry. Well, the Lord was taking me through all this journey. He was telling me that brown relationship is about building. I have told that no one starts to build except if counted the cost. Counted the cost. And make sure that they have enough resources that you will not end their building in the midst of the journey. It is building lasting relationships. Proverbs 24 verse 3, that through wisdom a house is built in through understanding a house is established. That wisdom is profitable for building. But then lasting relationships are a product of understanding. That the mature heart is an understanding heart. That is why in one of the conditions of the heart in the diagnosis, diagnosing your heart book or manual is that every heart has a capacity. every heart has a capacity, that is why we need to prefer an enlargement of the heart. Now if you are given people beyond your capacity, you are going to start hurting them, you are going to start ignoring them, sometimes there is a heart which has a capacity zero. You cannot manage another person except yourself, in fact even yourself you are not able to love, you are not able to love your God, so your capacity is zero, once you add one to that zero, it becomes destruction. Building God was just teaching me in this so eternal way that you don't build because of emotions, you build because of revolution, that wisdom is not seen in speed, but in steadiness, that relationships that have, you hit your speed, you just want to date up, you just want to date up, you just want to date up, that wisdom is not seen in speed, but in steadiness. That many cars that have accidents, they were not driving slow, they were driving very fast. Then they will not continue to tell me that building is not about putting building materials together, it's about knowing when the season to bring the materials, that you can bring a roof before a foundation and destroy everything. That is why I said that now lasting relationships are built as a result of understanding, when you bring a roof ahead of a foundation, when you bring my God, that through understanding, understanding that there is a time for everything, understanding that is a time to build, is a time to bring down. I was going through my notebook that I wrote in 2018 and the Lord was just teaching me out of it, that friendship is naked mess without shame, nakedness without shame. The love destroys only when it is not towards friends, love destroys only when it is not towards a friend, that if it is towards anybody but a friend, love will destroy, that is why the foundation of every relationship should be friendship. Friendship is that atmosphere that two people can be revealed one to another without guilt attachment or feel the exposure. That anywhere there is friendship love flows, that patience of love is that friendship, the patience of love is that friendship must grow. When love is running on a fast lane, you need to take it down to a friendship lane. Easily if it is not a mungal economy, I do not understand any of them, that it takes a fast moving card to cause an accident. Love is not blind, it chooses what to see. Love is does not bring trust, friendship does, that friendship is the product of survival. Friendship is the latter, not the former. The type of nakedness that does not bring a rousal, the type of nakedness that does not bring a rousal, that you can be open and yet. My God, I am sorry, I am deeply, deeply sorry. Emma Chua Hat is a product of a diligent work of the Spirit. Emma Chua Hat, we love God and love God well. Emma Chua Hat, we love men and we love men well. Emma Chua Hat, we love enemies and love enemies well. And then God continue to tell me how he develops a Machua Hat number one through trials and adversity. James 1 was 1 to 4 and first Peter 1 was 6 to 7. James 1 was 1 to 4 and first Peter chapter 1 was 6 to 7. Number 2 through his word, 2nd Timothy 2 15 and 2nd Corinthians 3 18. Jesus in us and us in Jesus John 17 was 23 and in conclusion he told me this, that Emma Chua Hat receives truth, that let's read, let's read first Corinthians chapter 13. Before I cannot teach about love and not read this, I cannot teach about love and not read about and not read first Corinthians chapter 13. I think I taught on it sometime back. Love and dewa is long and is patient and kind. I am sorry to everybody and I'm not just talking about romantic love relationships, but those people that have not been able to endure and to suffer long with them and those people that have been unkind to, I'm very sorry. Love is never envious or boys with jealousy, it is not boastful or when glorious, it does not display itself hotly. Verse 5 it is not considered, it is not arrogant, it is not inflated with pride, it is not rude or unmanally, it does not act unbecomingly. Love, God's love in us does not insist on its own rights or its own way for it is not self seeking, it is not touchy, it is not touchy, it is not fretful or fearful, it is not resentful, it takes no account of evil down to it, it rejoices, it does not rejoice in injustice and in righteousness, but rejoices in right and truth, when right and truth prevail, it bears all things, it bears up under anything and everything that comes, it is ever steady to believe the best in every person, to believe the best in every person, it hopes, its hopes are fearless under all circumstances and it endeavours everything without weakening. Love never fails, it never feeds out or becomes obsolete or becomes or comes to an end, as for prophecy it will end and it will be fulfilled and pass away, as for tongues will be destroyed and seized, as for knowledge it will pass away. For our knowledge is fragmentary, in complete and imperfect and our prophecy is fragmentary, in complete and imperfect, but when the complete and perfect turtle comes, the incomplete and the imperfect will vanish away, and then in under the context of love, he said that when I was a child, I speak as a child and understood as a child, I thought as a child, but when I became a man, I put our childish things, I put our childish and infant ways, and when I grew up, I left infant ways for good. For now we see through glass a hair, through glass darkly, but then face to face, now I know in part, but then I shall know even as I'm known, and now, I buy the faith, love and charity, but how do the greatest of this? The greatest is love. I'm a sure heart will always produce food, sweet to the eaters. That is the heart, that lasts a prodigal and the prostitute world teaches you how to love. This is what the Lord, the last words of the Lord in my own discipline, in my own teaching, as he was disciplining me, he told me, that if a heart that lasts a prodigal and the prostitute world teaches you how to love, loving your enemy will be the list of your worries. That is all I have to say. But all in all I want to say I'm sorry, to you that he's listening that you thought that I did not give you attention, or I did not treat you as he deserved to be treated, or to you that I broke your heart. I am sorry. I am truly, truly sorry. For promising and never delivering, for my mature heart, for putting myself first, I am sorry. And with heart, we conclude 2024. Come, bless you. Shalom, Shalom. My name is Pastor Brown Caringer, and I want to appreciate you for sparing your time to listen to depths of the spirit, podcast, I pray and I know. I am convinced that you are blessed, uplifted and encouraged. 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