MARSOC & The Battle Of Fallujah | Unsubscribe Podcast 253

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No, this is anyone that sits in that seat. This is not my job. I'm not doing this f*cking job. You're a representative. You're running to be a representative. Represent Cody. Represent Cody. I resign already. I resign. Now somebody takes Cody's job. Hi everyone. Welcome to the unsubscribe podcast. I'm joined here today by Eli Double Tap. He Alfred, myself, donut operator and Brandon Burberba. Thank you. I've been told when I do Cody's job, it's too nasally. No. Good. Hi everyone. I said your last name right, right? It's close. Oh my bad. It's okay. It's okay. I tried. You got my first one right. Oh, that's good. I can't spell that one. You can spell that one. That one. Hell yeah. I'm f*cking Arnold in this group. Yeah. There we are. Oh. Do welcome bro. We've had. Yeah. We've had for a few years now. I think everyone has met you or talked to you in some capacity for the last couple of years. Yeah. Definitely recently. I think we just met it. We met on an escalator at range. We did. And I didn't want to be that guy that like fanboys. I'm like, I've seen you on the internet. Nice to meet you. Nice to meet you. I mean, you had the Spider-Man moment of like, hi, we're both busy. Yeah. Yeah. We had like the, I know who you are. We should. Yeah. I know it's like that was it. I'm doing shit, but I'm familiar with your game. Your name's not familiar with your fizz and we've been in contact online for a few years, actually. Yeah. Yeah, man. And what's really rad is like, I always like to tell the internet world like, you know, seeing people's personas on the internet and then getting to like no behind the scenes. Like, that's one of the things I first asked is like, oh, hey, thanks to you message me back in the day. Or I'll shout you message. I'm like, did I respond? Was I a dick? You know, like, those are like the first two things. So then I'll know what era of life I was in and, you know, you've always responded back and always been super kind and, you know, this, the community of veterans, influencers are weird name, but the veterans with a voice, right? The veterans that she was to bring up and not bring down that it's, it's, it's not a lot. It's not the, uh, the norm, you know, it's so like, I've always like appreciated that and it's, it's, it's nice to see because our own, each, each our own and there's so many young men and women that watch us. And it's not the, our generation that's going to suffer is these young kids that are looking up for role models in their life and, you know, they, they see like, you don't have to have stupid videos. You can just have stupid conversations and, you know, like, you can just be bros and rils and that's, that's what the world's lacking in authenticity. So I appreciate like all the conversations we have had. So the internet's watching, like, they are real people and I'm, I'm super humble to be here. And I'm super great. It was super sicker is like the cross-pollination of, uh, like, like social media followers, like, oh, when are you going to get on that subscribe? I'm like, dude, I think I'm going on it, like, like, like, I think it's happening. This has been way too positive so far right out the gate, say it, say it, say it, say it, it's like, he's like, he's like, he's going, he's going, he's going, he's going, he's going to wrap up the engine. He can't just cold start this shit. It's. Yeah. And we also talk lots of shit, I'm here for it. I'm all about the shit talking dude, you're, so your former Marines, if you want to tell the audience a little bit about yourself that don't know because I mean, we all know, but you have a stellar career and you were in for, for a little bit too. Yeah, just over 15 years. Yeah. Almost 16. Yeah. So I joined the Marine Corps in 2003. Uh, self-sufficient. I just want to be a Scott's sniper. I'll older you. I'm 40. God, I look like shit. Yeah, dude. Dude, you look great. Damn. Bro, it's stressful. I look older than you, dude. It's, it's like, I've worked really hard to live as stress free as possible, right? It's like, it's like in the military, right? Bad job choice before. Yeah. Bad job choice before, dude. I want to avoid stress. Marine Corps. Marine Corps. I don't know about stress. Marine Corps. Anxiety depression. Those words didn't exist in my childhood, you know? And I, so I enlisted in '03 and, um, I was a Scott sniper, Force Reconnaissance Marine, then Marine Special Operations Command started. So I started that, I'm a plank owner of that for the West Coast. And then I, yeah, I retired in 2018. I came back from the last deployment. I was the sort of North Special Operations Task Force, uh, senior listed advisor. And so I came back from that deployment that I spent the whole time, like, watching, like, kill TV, like the wall of TVs. And it was actually my greatest deployment because I got to do exactly what we all said when we were the lower echelon guys, like, man, oh, I wish people just, like, took care of us. Looked out for us. And I got to be that guy and, you know, fight for dudes. And it was great. And anytime I got yelled at officer and, like, not care, A being a master sergeant, they can't do anything to me. And B, I was 245 pounds of, like, pure just awesomeness. You know, sex appeal. They didn't want to do anything to you. And I'm Jewish. So it's, like, they can't, like, hate on me, right? Because I'm just, like, are you, like, anti-Sim I, bro? Like, what's going on? You know, you get to pull out that card, you're like, oh, well, well, well. Yeah. So you take off your small mitch. Yeah. You know, it's funny, actually, it's crazy, like, I actually had a Yamaha, uh, my first deployment was Fluja Iraq. And so I'm 18 years old and I didn't, I, I grew up Jewish, but once my grandmother passed away, we did, like, Christmas and like, I never did a bomb, it's fun and all that stuff. And so, like, ethnically not, like, blood, yeah, my blood is from that origin, right? And so, on my first deployment, the, the chocolate comes over and he's like, I heard you're Jewish and he brought me a Passover kit. I'm like, what's a Passover kit? But I genuinely don't know what is a Passover kit. So it was like all like kosher mill. So it had like, it had like juices and like, it had like a beef stew. I'm like eating like shitty MREs. I'm like, I get, you're telling me that that's for me. And so it's sick of it. And inside this kit, it was like a little like gift box inside this kit was a white Yamaha. And so I'm like, oh, bro, the Iraqis are going to love this. So I like put on this like, you just taught an entire generation of enlisted guys how to game the system though. Yeah. Well, you get better food. Oh, yeah. Oh, yeah. I recognize their terrified. That's a J-Tack for the space laser. Yeah. Basically. And so I'm like, we're in this Yamaha helmet. So like, it's like this beautiful white turns to like nasty brown and black and I'm going on patrols and I come back and do my juices gone. My beef stew is gone. I'm so pissed, bro. I got rated. Dude, Marines are locus, right? Like, if you have anything good that's different than what they have, it's gone. You know? Grab the juket. Oh, yeah. Grab the juket. Yeah. That's great. Yeah. So that was that. But I was able, so my last deployment I came back in and I was having a bunch of like tell tell signs of, I was breezing over my first deployment. I took around to the helmet on my very first day in Fallujah. I got shot in the helmet in my very first gun fight before noon. It's not very good at it. March 26, 2004. Yeah, it took around. Yeah. I'm like, oh, you sucked. There was no respawn. It was kind of weird, right? It's kind of like what Eli, what you always say is like, yeah, I got the bad at my job award. Yeah. Yeah. From the enemy marksman to bad. Yeah, there you go. Yeah. From the get go. Right? Like the day just halfway started and then it, you know, there's seven months of that, you know? So that was fun to be a appointment on a sniper team and the first thing that turns the corners my head. So I'm like, always trying to like present my body to give them more, something to shoot at because I'm like, I've already taken around and at the time we didn't really have like gear supplies. So like I'm walking around the same helmet with a hole in it for like a couple of weeks until. That's the most marine thing I think I've heard. And it wrote, did it read the ridge or did it just stop? No, it just, it just penetrated the top lip and then it just stops it like it bowed in on the inside. Yeah. It knocked your ass down though. I was super crazy and I'm kind of raising over that too, but it's like, I had this crazy out of body experience. I remember, so we were inside the second floor building and my sniper team was ahead of the entire battalion, how a sniper team supposed to be used the eyes and ears of a battalion. And so on a sniper team back in the day, there's four guys, so we had my sniper, my team leader, my assistant team leader, both have a bolt gun, sniper rifle, then the radio operator, myself being the point man, have a M16, right, the musket. And so. - With iron sights at this point? - We had eight cogs, we had only guys that hate eight cogs, and we actually filled the eight cogs on that deployment. They started issuing it out to the Marines. You know, this is like back in the day where we were the only ones that had radios and seven bravos, and then the grunts had like one pair of night vision for like 12 guys, one radio for. - And it's a monocle. - We got one eye with one eye, though. - Yeah, it was a two into one, seven bravo war. Like, is that a car building a dead body? Or dust, definitely retainer? - I'm not really sure what that is, right? - There's a lot of Marines who are just doing a potato sac, right? So just sharing the monocle. (laughing) - Just better than what the sign had to raw dog, the donkey story, just pure moon light. - Doing what we would get when we got to Iraq, I remember going in Chowholl finally, and then talking and seeing Marines was like, why y'all got fuckin' M16A-2s with the triangular handguards? - Like what do you mean, Mike? - Brave. - Wow. - So we had eight. - They're brave like they had a choice. - I know, we paid the same. And then you look at Air Force, like we could pay the same. - Get paid the same, better shit. We actually had A4s on my deployment, and then I remember seeing like my first M4 in like, combat, like in the real world. I'm like, bro, can I hold your gun? Like that's how like, like, Google I was. I'm like, I'm here, walking with this like musket, right? - When the man with rifle goes down to one with the M on, picks up the rifle, continues the fire. - Yeah. - And it was just, it was fun, bro. You're 18 and you don't know anything. And then I found out really fast how quick life was. So I'm in this, this, I see this guy in the black man jam, I run across this, across this rooftop. And I just start shooting. And so I'm dumping now, but now we're taking machine gun fire. So like my two snipers are like sprawled down on the ground 'cause they can't really interact. They got a pistol and a bolt gun with fire rounds, right? And I'm shooting, I run out of ammo. My radio operator is on the other side of the window. He pops out the shoot, and I'm reloading. As soon as I reload, I pop out through the window and it's like lights out. And I, I still remember this day, the like oxygen getting sucked out of my life, like all the air getting knocked out of me. And then if you guys ever played a video game where you got too close to a wall and like glitched and you saw like a top down view. And so I have this like crazy out of body experience. And this is 18 years old, bro. I don't know shit from shit. And like, I feel like my whole life is fleshed behind, like fleshed by my eyes. But it's like all the things I was never gonna get to do. Like not the things I could do 'cause I was 18, I didn't do anything in school. You know, I was just waiting to go to the military. So it was like all these things of like what I wasn't going to get to experience, like love, you know, sex, you know, steak again. Like this shit that was in my future that wasn't even real yet. And I ended up getting the typical story. You hear this like white light. You know, I get literally get sucked back into my body. And I wake up in the prone position, convulsing. And my assistant team leader is on the prone. He's kicking me. My convulsing was actually him shaking my body vigorously. He's like, are you fucking dead? We just see the blood. Like, are you fucking dead? I'm like, what's up? I'm like crying and laughing at the same time. And they're like, get on the radio. Call for backup. My body fell by our only radio 'cause it's by the window. And so you know how like we talk on transmission. It's like, hey, how's it going, break? So I'm gonna go do this later, break to, I'm like, war hammer, break. This is break, grimp, reaper, break. Like every two words was a break. It was like the most fucked up comms. And Neal is to say like, we gotta hold a nobody. And so we're like, we gotta get the fuck out of here. So we crawl out this room, get down to the bottom floor, set up comms again. I'm still appointment. So now I'm like in that rear security watch and the bridge point that front of the store. And I see all these heads walked by this window. I'm like, oh my god, they're coming. You know, they're coming to like see their kill. And it's this unfinished building. You know how like, unlike America, right? There's no like loans here. So when money stops there, they stop destruction. Right, so they were in an unfinished building. And I see this shadow come walking by. And I'm a scared shitless. I'm in this little bathroom. My buddy's trying to set up the radio. My heart is pounding through my chest. I'm like, dizzy, I'm crying. Still I don't know anything. And I see this head. I just like muzzle thumped this motherfucker. Cause I gotta like see what's going on. And muzzle thumped one guy. This guy, he didn't have a gun as older dude. And then one guy turns into like six guys just coming to her house. So like, instead of them like letting them walk by we're like grabbing them and bringing them in. So like, my snipers have them all like gunpoint with their pistols and shit. They're like, we got to get the fuck out of here. You know what I'm like, it was like a scene from the office. Like, like it was what the fuck do we do now? Yeah, what the fuck do we do now? And so then we're like, let's hot wire a car. So we go out there and we don't know what the fuck we're doing. So we break a window and apparently you can go up in the ghetto. Yeah, you can't just break a window. And there's the keys don't aren't magically there. So we're like, we're like, we're like, we're going to a hot wire car. Oh yeah, that was done this. Yeah. We'll figure it out. We'll figure it out. We'll figure it out as fuck. Basically it's not stressful right now. Yeah. All of our years in business on the internet, we've all used Shopify. 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We were going to start over here. They're like, "Yeah, well, we were shooting at that building. And that building were like, we were in that building." And so at the time there was a lot of speculation that I got shot by 556. And so I, I don't really care what I got shot by because it's been the day my helmet saved my life. And if it was 556, what a blessing for a green tip to not go through my helmet. Green tip being armor piercing, obviously. And I'm just so grateful, but that was like the beginning of it and didn't even end there. So I linked up with the grumple tune. They gave me, they linked up with the core and then I get a motion in the cigarette. Okay. My Delta Force is doing a cordon down the road. They're like, "Hey, they need sniper security support outside by these railroad tracks." And I'm like, "Urgh." So I'm on point, dragging my gun and my assistant team leader come up to me. And he's like, "This is when people were built differently." And he's like, "Pick up your fucking rifle." I'm like, "Oh, my God." So I'm like, "Okay, you know, I'm not a robot at this point, but like I need encouragement to like kind of survive because I don't really know where I'm at." We get down to our sniper position and I just, I'm by the railroad tracks. He's like, "You can pass out now." And so I just passed down these railroad tracks until like the op was over. I remember the, it was like the APCs or the striker vehicles. I remember the striker vehicles come up to the objective. The CAD does their shit. And then it's like, "I'm out." I get woken up and I ended up getting pulled out that night. My patoon commander. He's like, "Hey, I'm going to send you back to the rear to get checked out." I'm like, "I'm not going anywhere. I'm staying here." And he's like, "Listen, we're only setting up mortar tonight. We're all pulling out tomorrow morning. You have my word. You're going back tonight." So I go back and sure everyone pulled out. So basically. As far as excuses go for leaving the op, getting shot in the head is pretty good, I would say. But you know what? It was crazy. There was a lot of guys. There was a lot of them being shot. Like, there was. He had his name, but like the two assholes because he got on OAF1. He got shot. Cheek to cheek. Oh, so on the flusher deployment in OAF2, cheek to cheek. So he got like double tap. Both deployments all through the ass. I don't know how that happened. And so there was a lot of guys just literally walking wounded. Like dead guy, dead service members, dead fighters, wounded fighters, wounded Marines. That was the very common thing in a very short 24 hour period. And so we ended up pulling out a flusher for a week. They come up with a game plan and we go in. And that was when like really all the just the horrible stories you kind of hear of like the portalities of war. That's really all kind of kicked off. But this deployment I talked about my last rotation in 2016, I saw a lot of telltale signs of like just my TBI catching up. I was constantly tired of always taking these little ranger naps and shit and I was super, I was stressed to eat Oreos. My wife would send me these like amazing care packages. And it was like, you know, those like seasonal Oreos, like whatever flavors. And like she made these like mason jar cakes. So I like share it with my homies and like, but then I'm like, wait, I can dip this in this frosting. And that was like my stress. Well, I'm waiting for this nerd in Arizona to like. turn a predator or 180 degrees to destroy a target. I'm like, he's not turning it fast enough. You know, or like I'm yelling at a fucking lieutenant colonel who's too scared to wake up a major at the C. Gisota for the Sagittif, right? These higher echelons of strategic operations because like general sleeping right now, I'm like, bitch, wake is ass up, bro. Like you're that much of a, like, and I saw so much bureaucratic red tape, you know. - Terrifying. - It was super terrifying, and you know, people say like, well, that's why I don't promote, you don't promote because you're in selfish, right? Like you don't promote because you like comfort, but then when someone gets in charge of you that you don't like, that's your own fucking fault, right? And you know, I promoted very fast. I was actually, I picked up mass charge in 10 and a half years, so I promoted extremely fast in my community, and taking over a company was a very big, like it was a big deal. You know, there's only 16 company operations chiefs in Mars, like at any given time. And once you do that position, like, once you take out four teams in country, I mean, you're kind of a main man, unless you fuck up, you know. And I was managing every seal, every green beret, every marine rater, both in Iraq, Jordan and Lebanon at the time. So it was a very big operation at that. Yeah, and like, you know, I looked a certain way, so I already had this like counter stigma against me, but that was my whole Marine Corps career. And so it was just like, it was great to be able to shine, but not to shine for Cody, but to shine for like my people, because, you know, I always looked up to the good leaders and the bad leaders in the military. I'm like, I'm never doing that bitch did. You know, dude, I'm taking what he did, and I'm gonna use that next time I have to give an ass chewing, right? Cause it was just like, it impacted me in a positive way. And military is already so toxic, and everyone's already so serious. I'm like, why are we doing this, right? And when I saw how these officers that are in charge of lives were more concerned with their face value to their higher superior, it really like, it's just disgusted me, bro. So like, I just completely came unhinged and I gave that deployment everything I had. I came back and they're like, hey, I want you to be an off-chef again. I'm like, fuck you, dude. Like, I'm done. And I didn't really know why I was done. My attitude was kind of going south. Then I thought I was a good Marine. Like, I always took care of the guys and girls, but like, I was, I was just kind of toasted from it all. And I'm like, this, I'm never taking care of myself. I'm finally gonna do it. So I ended up taking over a position at our schoolhouse, our Marine Raider Training Center. And I get, I get this order to go to, it's called Intrepid Spirit. You guys probably heard of that. We call it the pseudo-TBI clinic, but it's really all-encompassing for everything. - Is it during, now can you have this while you're in service? This is once your-- - It's absolutely while you're in service. Yeah, so most of us in girls when they get out-- - It's also like, I think they do like, even people that deal with like, amputations and stuff like that, right? - Absolutely, there's rehab. There's all sorts of different therapies and modalities there. And but generally what happens, unfortunately, is like, guys and girls when they're retiring, they'll go there for their two week mandatory thing, get all their stuff like, you know, identified in the medical record, then they retire. But when you do that, bro, as you guys know, like once you're a civilian, no one gets a fuck about you. You know, so like, I always tell guys, like you gotta give a fuck about you while you're active duty, because you have front-line privileges. You know, you can, no other time, can you walk into an aid station and be like, "Hey, I need to see the dentist and the fucking neurosurgeon, right?" You can't do that as a civilian. You're dealing with the bureaucracy of the fuckery that exists. - And the hard part is, while you're in, though, a lot of the time it was frowned upon to go to the aid station and that's, for sure, like that's awesome to hear your leadership. It was like, that's a fuckup right there. These guys are screwed once they get out without this being a track record. - I mean, once you got shot, you didn't even get to go to the aid station, right? - No, I went to the wrong one. So, dude, it was mission two, and then it was wrong aid station. We went back, we went to Charlie companies, 'cause we just, we lost two guys that day. So, Bravo Company, we're all scrambling. - You went to Charlie. - You were doing out-of-network provider. - You didn't even get to go to Charlie. - I can't, I need to see a medic or something. And they're like, "Oh, what the fuck?" Are you even with us? I was like, "No, I'm with Biko." What the fuck are you doing? Well, I got shot. Oh my God, sit down, go here, and then they sent me to another aid station. That aid station wasn't even part of our brigade. So then, they patch me up, and then I'm on a mission to the very next day. I was like, "Oh, cool. "Here's what we're doing in the room." - It's only leaking a little. - It's just the bruise all the way around my leg. My buddy, Cadoka, I've told the story where he got shot in the head on third mission, or we're just pulling security, and he just draws, sits up, he's like, "Whoa, what the fuck?" Bullet road, the ridge of the helmet kicked out, A, okay. - Insane. - Yeah, that's all I was like, did it stop or did it actually ride the ridge around? We seen it go through one goggle. He had to wear them, I think, half through the deployment, didn't get a trade those out, but they did let him keep it when he got out. - Yeah, that's, that's, yeah. - Yeah, it's so nuts, 'cause I do this like, go ahead. - Yours had to be like a direct impact. - It was, it was direct, yeah, Jesus. - There was a lot of cases on that deployment where it would ride the ridge, it would go in and kind of skirt the guts of the helmet and come out or the skirt, the skeleton, and come out the other side of the skin, but not pierced the skull itself. - That army soldier had really good accuracy. - Oh bro, it was a brain, so like that only headshots, you know, only headshots. - Well, they did have eight cogs. - Dude, that's true. - I was like, I was like, I had some knowledge there. - It's an Enrico Boocamp, bro. 500 yards with iron sights, bro. You know, like that's every marine, no matter their job, they can shoot 500 yards with iron sights. I don't know if they still do iron sights. They could do optics now and Boocamp potentially, but I mean, I'm a cook. I can shoot you and kill you at 500 yards. I'm a grunt. I can shoot you and kill you at 500 yards with multiple shots. Like, that's this most savage thing about the Marine Corps. So like, whoever that was, good friendly or foe, bro. They were like, I'm good at shots today, dude. They're trying to level up and get that prestige on their gun, you know? - It was a really white terrorist. - Yeah, the Gold Tiger Stripe came out in a lap. - Why is this guy's head right there? Wouldn't he eat you? I'm like, how am I supposed to see? Like, I'm gonna have to do my job. - Well, a lot of people too, they think like, you know, armor being rated to a certain, you know, oh, it's this caliber. It's supposed to, you know, it'll stop the bullet, you know, blah, blah, blah. They don't realize, okay, no, it'll keep you alive. - Yeah. - But you're gonna get fucked up. Like even body armor, I mean, let alone helmets. I mean, that's an entirely different ballpark. Because again, you're dealing with like TBI's and like that. It's crazy work. - Yeah, it's crazy too, 'cause like, so throughout my career, like I progressed from the infantry, which is the backbone of the Marine Corps, the fuck is the most savage people. Force recon in Marsox. And then like, as I progressed through these different jobs, I was like, helmets, ballcaps, nothing. I'm like, what the fuck is wrong with you guys, dude? They're like, and everyone's like looking cool. I'm like, man, you guys look sick as shit. But you're an idiot. I'm always wearing my helmet, bro. Like, I- - I fear once been to my show. - You're gonna be the drippiest corpse, dude. - Yeah. - Yeah. - Yeah, I was terrified to not wear my helmet. Like, if there was ever a lesson, like, that's my- - I wouldn't want it. - Like, what would people like to do? It was like, my security, like, I needed that thing, you know, and then my armor got smaller and smaller. I'm like, oh, I don't need these extra large plates. I'm 255 pounds, I need to move faster. Give me these medium ones, you know? Like, it's just covering my kill box. - The whole plate. - Yeah. And my muscles will stop the bullets. - Dude, honestly, that was my mindset. I'm like, I'm the biggest baddest motherfucker, Marsock. And if I go to a door and I was to take shots, I want to be able to push through the threshold so I don't fucking cause a disaster that in doorway, you know? And that was my mindset. Not saying it was, you know, I never got to do that. Think goodness, you know? But that was my mindset. I think it's a lot of mindset. We all have to have- - It's a incredible mindset. - It could be the baddest motherfucker in your world to do a job that there's only one thing that matters. Are you gonna do it? Are you not gonna do it? - Well, I mean, even doing Marsock's a wild because how many years did it take you to accomplish that and go through all the training in the school? - So that started in, so Marsock started in late 2006, I think on the East Coast and like 2007 on the West Coast. And I actually just got, I got back from my second infantry deployment. We did operations still current, which is a really big endeavor. And I'm like, dude, carrying all these like heavy a shit. I want like light guns and packs. And I'm gonna go try out for force. And so I try out for force recon and I was actually coming back from airborne school and I got back. And they're like, we're no longer force. We are now Marines special operations battalion. I'm like, what does that mean? And they're like, everyone stop growing, stop shaving your faces and stop getting haircuts and worse civilian clothes. And I'm like, what the fuck, are you serious? Where am I? And they're like, we're gonna give you guys cards. And if anyone has any issues, you tell them to call the number on the back. I'm like, bro, this is sick as fuck dude. Like at winning, that lasted like two days, right? A little bit longer than two days. But not definitely not a week in. It went straight back to like a stop-o. - Oh, they let you taste it. - They read it with. - You will eat the cap, you know? And it's like, you want a ham sandwich on survivor. - It's like this could be really cool for 30 seconds. - Yeah, yeah. - Yeah, they definitely pulled a like, who do you need on us, you know, and. - I was like, that government might say, it's like this is gonna be around for years to come three days later. - I feel like. - Yeah, we need you to shave. - For the Marines having the, like the, I don't know, the general consensus that they're slow to change. I feel like they change shit like that all the time. Where they're like, well now we're getting rid of tanks. Also, we're getting rid of the Scout sniper program, but not really, it's gonna be named something else and kind of functional and different, but they're still gonna have snipers, but kind of sort of not the same. And then like what you're saying, like. - Did they go back on the tanks thing? - I don't think so, they got rid of their tanks. - Yeah, 'cause one of the boys that, you know, works for me at the shop was a former Marine tanker guy. - Yeah. - And he was very butt hurt as soon as he. - Last I knew, yeah, the Marine Corps doesn't have tanks anymore. - The sniper thing was so stupid, actually was forced enough to speak, you get the last Skowl Sniper graduation in East Coast and it was like a really big honor, you know? And I heard rumors, I don't know if it's true or not, but I heard rumors that the general was a like a lower ranking officer at the time when those Marines, when they remember when they pissed on the dead Taliban and so like that. And so like he was like butt hurt from that, you know, that disgracing this. I'm like, but then I'll go back to like the history of World War II and like the Marine Raiders and the Marines out there like no shapes. Well, Cody, 'cause they didn't have water. Well, bitch, I was in Iraq with no water and you made us shave, you know? I don't know if you've seen Japan and the areas around it, it's surrounded by water. You know, like dudes wearing like ear necklaces and it's like, what do you expect? You're taking a bunch of like normal people and you're putting them in completely abnormal situations and you want me to play rules of engagement. I mean, look at the painted Japanese Skulls. For example. Trophy Skulls, have you seen those? No, yeah. Like the pictures that wives would take with the Skulls that their husbands would send them of dudes they killed. Like they're like posing with it. Like back in the 1940s when it was like, it was a hassle to get a picture taken and they're like going to a photographer and like posing like, look at the guy that tried to kill my husband and he killed him instead. Like, fucking crazy. You put guys in that situation, like this shit's gonna happen. What kind of shirt is that? Actually Eli, these are what are called shorts. Fabletics shorts. But where do you put your head? It's complicated. Well, they look comfortable. Indeed they are and there's something about starting a new workout that just feels so great but you know what isn't great. Having to buy all of the gear. All that changed when I signed up is a VIP at Fabletics. You got 80% off all your clothes? That's right Eli, 80% off everything. I thought it was one of those deals that's too good to be true, but no, it's true. Do you feel the 80% off? It feels so comfortable. That's right Eli. 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Wait a second. Are those white socks? Hey, you piece of shit." That's why you're dying out there. Learly verbatim. Verbatim. Why you guys are dying out there? Actually verbatim. verbatim. You know why you guys are dying out there? 'Cause you're wearing white socks. You're shitting me. So the Marine Corps has this rank called first sergeant. And first sergeant of the Marine Corps are like officers in the military. It's 50/50. It's really hit or miss, right? One can be molded and groomed. Officers are just groomed. That's really it. They're just groomed from the get go. And that's okay, right? But first sergeant, especially in the special operations community, they're not organic to that organization. So they come from the big Marine Corps. And how Marsox is, Marsox, one of the most amazing units of Marine Corps has to offer from our support enabler and obviously our team guy and girl staff. And they're just so capable. But the problem is, is we hamstring ourselves. And so they bring in these outside entities that are like, I'm going to make a name for myself because everyone's trying to, everybody wants to be the general staff. Everybody wants to go to that next level where guys and girls in the job, they're really concerned with, yeah, they want to promote, they want to progress, but they're really cared about the mission and the men, right? They're like, what they're there for. And when you get these first sergeants in there, I remember being in a firefight in, I was in Marsox, being a firefight on my second Afghan deployment and run this hilltop in, I was at this place called the Fad Robinson and that was like the okay girl. Everyone came out the Fad Rob to get their combat actual ribbon because we were always shooting. Like it was, it was always happening. And our command leadership came out there and they're like, you boys need a gun fight and we just like, obviously not talking the radio like, all right, they're just, they're going to come up here eventually, but we don't have to like speed this process up. And so they ended up coming up there and they're like, did you boys call this sentence a tick? And we're like, fuck no, man, this is a little stermish, bro, a tick being a troop in contact. You know, like, we're actually just trying to get their cab. Yeah, do it. And so what would happen was they're like, and this is verbatim, you guys call this sentence a tick. Therefore, they would rate a combat actual ribbon, right? Cause it'd be an actual, you know, you told them, no, no, no, I'm like, no, this is a skirmish, bro. And he's like, he was pissed. Then he looked down at my sleeve and so on my pocket sleeve, I had a radar patch. He literally tapped out and flicked it. He's like, no unit patches. And then they left. They don't care about you. It's just a job for them, but this is a whole nother fucking world for us. You know, like, and that's the problem I see in like the warfighter community. It's like, why are we here? Why do you train me to say, die, mother fuck, die, but a but a jam, you know, stabbing things with a frickin' k bar on the end of your rifle? You're training me to literally be a fucking killer. But then you say, hey, but you need to be a tab dancer on this deployment. Funny thing about Fallujah, there was, Fallujah was like crazy scariest experience I've ever endured in my life, traumatizing, I've never seen more death and destruction. Like so many fucking bodies, I've seen ancient bodies fly up from the sky, from bombs, dies in the evil by dogs, like stacks of human bodies, just the king in the streets. Like it was fucking insane, right? And what's funny is before we went on that deployment, we're actually training for this thing called SASO. I believe it stands for security and stability operations, basically like martial law. And so we're training for this like halt, who goes there? Where's your idea at? I'm the sergeant of the guards, you know, like this like super generic TV stigma of what a military person is. And that's what we're training for. Then we go to hell's kitchen and we're like, oh my god, you know, it's such like if it has a pulse and a gun, it's dying, right? Like it's like a free game, I don't think he's going to give me his ID. Yeah, I don't think he's going to play nice, you know, and it's, it's, it's just, it was the scariest part was that mindset and that train up to it's like, yeah, we're going to pull in vehicles. You're going to search them one by one, oh, now they're just created vbits and now they're just blowing up. Yeah. As they roll in. Okay. Now we're just going to hand this off to the IA. Yeah. You know, it's stupid when the people you're fighting are like, they're so dumb. I'm just going to walk from my house, wave at them to this bush where all the casheys that because I know they're not going to kill me. And then when I get to my casheys, I'm going to go kill them. And like, we really will watch this and you, it's just like, why am I here? I know they're bad. I've stalked them. I have pictures of them, right? But they don't have a gun in their hands right now, but I know as soon as I lose sight in five seconds, they're behind that bush where I lose contact because they'll hit their trench. Next thing you know, I'm taking rockets and RPGs and machine gun and like a matter of moments. And I think it's a great example too of what people talk about now and like in regards to like, you know, the United States versus like let's say China or Russia where the United States doesn't do things militarily because of political will or like, oh, we're holding ourselves back. Other people don't do it because they can't. It's like China's not taking Taiwan because they can't. Russia's not taking Ukraine because they can't like all the, all the people on Twitter that are like, so if I'm understanding this, this means that if Trump can just go kidnap Maduro, then technically Vladimir Putin can just go kidnap Zelensky. And it's like, he's been trying for four years. What are we talking about? Yeah. They basically can't. They've been doing this tried dumb spy versus spy shit, trying to do the exact thing. Like it's physically or incapable where the United States is like the thing we're held back by is we've made our own rules arbitrarily for our people. We could if we wanted to. If we wanted right or wrong, I mean, I mean, everyone's on a leash, Marines, everything. It's like, and it sucks because when you're actually in war or just going back to with bad officers, it's crazy, the missions, they will, the predicaments, they will put soldiers and just to get a medal. Bro, it is a medal, dude. Oh, how many men do you lose? Well, we needed to do a star night raid up a river. They will do a mission based off of fucking river raid, just to get a silver star. That is a fact. What? That is a fact. Oh, dude. Oh, yeah. You the fastest you learn how expendable you are and no one gives a **** is being in the military and being like the front lines. It's like trying to hit an achievement in a video game. Yeah. Well, I mean, the example that comes to mind is literally like, oh, we could, this level could be harder if you want to and we'll give you a **** bonus points on your Xbox score. Like this literally what it is. The example that comes to mind is like the very end of World War I where like there was a ceasefire agreed to, like all the terms of surrender were already put in place. It's like, okay, nothing we do now will matter when it comes to diplomacy or the reason we're here. But we're going to do one more **** and push anyway. It's like how many 19 year old kids **** and died because some general wanted to make a name for himself. That's it, man. I remember it was it was that same second Afghan deployment. There was any time they're like, hey, there's a company up coming down. You know your ****, right? Like you know, you're **** and this whole deployment, the team that I was attached to, we're just doing disruptive operations. So our whole mission was to fly in with 160th. You know, set up ambush sites in the Taliban's backyard and just literally pick fights That's why the Commandos would come in, because the Afghan Commandos and the and ring Commandos were too much shit. And it was like losing that face value of like Afghans, f***ing up Afghans. So they like how can we de-escalate that? How can we not put them in a kinetic situation? And so they put us in a kinetic situation. So when the command of the Afghan Commandos came in, it was like hey, we're here to help reinforce your village, bring stability, blah, blah, blah, blah. And you know, create like a militia. And so that's what they did. But that was our whole mission was just a fight. And they were like all right, there's a company mission coming off and we're already doing pretty crazy, hellish shit like in literally like outward, the only bad guys left. So there's no IITs 'cause we're in that backyard. And no paperwork. Yeah, no paperwork, that's just right there. And they're like, all right, you guys are gonna patrol. So the commandos just came in. You guys are gonna patrol behind the commandos. And in three days, we're gonna resupply you with ammo and water and then you're gonna go to this bridge. We're gonna be on the other side. Then you're gonna walk across the bridge and when you get across the bridge, then our EOD tech is gonna go across and then blow it up. I'm like, just blow it up now. Like why are we doing this? Why, and then why the fuck would I walk behind will like, why would I walk behind an already advancing force, which is already technically proven, it's technically proven where they're already in placing like IEDs and fighting positions and booby traps, right? Because you're like, let's go see what happened here. Why would I go do that? And luckily I had a team commander, Matt Manoukian. Unfortunately he was killed by, he was murdered with an insider threat on the next deployment. But he was a team commander actually was, - If you don't mind back an insider threat. - Insider threat. So basically, what happens in the special operations community, we work a lot with our partner force. So in Afghanistan, we work with the Afghan National Army and the Afghan Special Forces and the Afghan commandos. Well, in certain aspects, we give them access to our operations center, we give them access to like our joint buildings and facilities because we're by, within through with our partner force. - You're building relations. - Yeah, you're building relations and rapport. And so what happens was one of the commanders came in with Afghan and like killed three of our Marines with 1911 and then ran out in. That happened numerous times, multiple bases. But that's also the problem that you have when you give us more rules that I can't, that I can't even adapt because you're not on the ground. It's literally the scene from Black Hawk downwards. Easy for you to say being, you know, however many square miles up in the sky, you know, it's unforgiving down here. You know, there's always someone who doesn't know what the dust tastes like when it's mixed with blood and like that dry, like dehydrated spit that are calling the shots. And that's okay. We all have a place in the pecking order in our roles or responsibilities. But like, you know, if you have a business and business is going good or business is not going good, are you not going to go see and investigate what's actually happening, the ground truth, and there's just such a disconnection because it is a political war. It's really war as a fucking jam in the first place. It's a political war and then it's a, it's this self-married, self-looking ice cream cone. You know, like there's, I remember, I've worked every tactical position and like joint billet and I remember being at the sea just out of, which is the combined joint special operations task force. And that's a mixture of like army, air force, navy, Marines, like all the special operations guys and girls. And there's like these majors in there and Lieutenant Colonel's like, I hope I don't get another bronze star for the deployment. I already have six of them. I'm really hoping for a Maritoy service medal. What, they don't have ice cream in the childhood today. I'm like, so don't you bitch, like what? This is what you, where's the V device? Yeah, this is what you're complaining about, dude. Like you're living in a lava land. There's dudes and chicks out in the battlefield, bro. Like hoping that someone picks up the radio when they, when they need you. Like hoping there's an air asset available that's not doing a resupply run for Otis Bunkmire cookies for you. You know, like, if there's multiple wars taking place. And then, by the same time, it's really easy to talk shit. That's okay, bro, because we thrive in like straight up chaos and shitty ass situations. And that's what gives us our resiliency and it gives us that, that ability to like find a way. You know, you mold really quick in that. I think that's where, when you're always the tip of the spear, that's when you're a unit, you're battalion, wherever you are, you get ingrained in it so quickly that's, you get through that danger period. 'Cause I'm sure you have that same like K.A. first X amount of days and tell you figure out what works and what doesn't. Once you find out what works, every time. Then you try to, we talk with Brandon on it. It's you train up the next, you don't get to train up the next unit for your AO. You're kind of like, hey, we cause the death blossom. If you get blown up or anything, just shoot everything. You're gonna have new patches. They're going to test you. Just trust us on that one. And then they don't listen and they lose a lot of people. And it's like, did you try that yet? No, we were told not to. Why were they telling them not to? Just, every command, it's almost like, it's almost like every commander that goes out there, and this is not generic. 'Cause I worked with a lot of amazing Marine Corps officers. I've worked a lot of Navy Special Warfare officers and Army Special Forces officers. So like, there's clearly a really good majority of amazing ones out there. But there's also a lot of ones out there that are trying to win the war and terror in their six month block and do it their way. And another thing too is like, if you're coming to replace me and I give you advice, you have to be pretty, if I say, hey, man, you're looking like you're having a hard time in life. Have you ever thought about just taking like a day or two once a week just to like, take care of yourself? You have to be pretty open to do that. You know, you have to like, be humble. Dude, especially in war, that'd be a wild dude. I, that is a crazy statement to hear. I was like, you should take a day off. We didn't have that, I don't know about that. But I'm just saying like, and like, to hear that advice, you'd have to be like, kind of open to it. Yeah, look at it, god damn it. Ah! Turrican, I've been watching you put your drink on that ledge. Thank you. I'm doing podcast now. It's mid, it's mid to one. I've been like, oh, it is all low. You should run for Congress. I am horrifically so. I've given up. This is like a, as soon as we're done with the podcast, I'm going back to the hotel. Come back to the beginning of every one of our views of us just eyeballing, not branded. I was looking at you. I ball in that drink for a two podcast now. It's, there's standing water. I'm in my tank. I'm in my assistance. Do you want my assistance right now? I can, I can help. I, I, I gay chicken qualified. So I can, I can't, I can't help. I'm willing to try anything quite, dude. There's some reason you definitely do not want to play gay chicken, but, dude, we've got that's don't threaten me with B.A.H. That drink was just, I just see that stim sticking up. I'm like, Brian is playing a dangerous game right now. We were out of the, the small ones that didn't have the stem. The stem was, I, I will admit, that was dangerous. I'm hindsight being 2020. Probably shouldn't have pulled that move. But, you decided to play on a hardcore mode. This is going too well. I should elevate the liquid above a very small base. Listen here. Tentry girls make do, all right? Oh my God. Well, that was right up there with the Zincident. Yeah. No, that is nothing on that. Immediately, I'm just like, well, I'll see you on the fucking subreddit. Oh man. So what are you up to now? Oh, you know, just on the internet. How did you blow up on the internet? These are my favorite stories because we all have ridiculous stories of how we ended up here. I'm so, you are wet. Brandon peed himself. Yeah, I peed off. Yeah. I did the tucking. Yeah, yeah, it took. God, that was all of it. Oh, no. Now Brandon smells like Jack because that's for the first time ever. Brandon smells like Jack and Coke. The wet front. Dirty wet fronts. His ass is totally wet. Your Gucci is totally decimated. Your Gucci is decimated. You're definitely sterile down there, not sterile, but I would call it a sanitize. Yeah. I wasn't joking. I felt it pooling in my feet. Bro, who's hammered right? You can't. Jesus. The entire thing. Brandon. Brandon gets completely soaked, throws the podcast off the rails immediately. I need a towel and another Jack and Coke. It can't happen twice. Yeah. That worked out on the pocket table last night. Let me tell ya. He lost three hands and then puts all of his chips in and goes statistically. I can't lose this many times in a row. Loses everything. I looked you in the eyes and like, I can't be wrong three times. He was wrong with the time. You gonna learn today. I'm sorry. I didn't interrupt. What do you love to your brother? Oh, you know, just looking at your wet pants. Yep. It's pretty. Yeah. Chasing dreams. Oh, it's back. It's on my balls now. You gotta sit on it. At least you just got the towel down there. That's it. Like a diaper. You running for what now? You should go. You should take off the clothes and put a rope on for the rest of the podcast. I might. Like, honestly, that's the, that's the part I'm not even, like, I'm not even drunk. I love that. No one's been walking around in just a robe. I might do it. He was walking through the Venetian shopping area like the mall in just a robe. A really? Yes. Do you get like a fucking massage this morning? Really? In-ro? Yeah. You both walk out of this room in ropes. but he would road no shirt, flip-flops, and like shorts, whoever used naked. - And all the people. - You were the whore. - Yeah, all the people. - (laughs) - Why die to walk in a swath like. - Yeah, who would these be? - Do you have a spare robe? - Huh? - Do you have one? - Do you have one? - Oh, fuck. - Oh. - Do you like a mouthful of hardwood, yes? - Go on. - Then boy, do I have a product for you. - I'm reenlisting in the Navy. - No, not this time. - Oh, the product is fume. - What's fume? - It's an amazing device for those trying to kick those nasty habits. - When you said hardwood, you actually met hardwood. - I'm sorry to disappoint, but yes, I mean literal hardwood. - I love hardwood in my mouth. - Wait. - You know what's garrer than hardwood in your mouth? - Dying from cancer. - A fume has an award-winning design. - There's no battery, no chemicals, just flavored air. - Dile that air flow with the clickies. - When you ever tried maple pepper? - No, I like crisp mint because I'm a coward when it comes to flavors. - Cody, what's your favorite? - I don't know about flavor, but John C. Fume told me it was sexy and sleek. That is a sexy and sleek piece of wood right there, Cody. - Oh yeah, put it in your mouth, suck that flavored air. - Quit cranking your wood on camera. Start your guilt-free journey with the Good Habit and use code Unsub where you can get a free gift with purchase and start your long overdue breakup. - Just head to trifume.com/unsub and use code Unsub to start your Good Habit today. - Honestly, this is fucking red. - I might just paint on these red. - Why you got to jeans on? - What's up? - Your balls are sweating. - Netflix, Jesus. (laughing) - I'm not-- - I'm not back and get saved. - Is this what you saw after you had shots they had? (laughing) - Pushing you back in your body. (laughing) - Go, my child. - It's not time yet. - Do you see foos? - No, hey, soos. - Oh, hey, soos. - That would be very confusing. It's not your time yet. I'll see you in a couple of years on a podcast. - Yeah. - Yes, you will. There you are. You have spoken. - This is actually kind of red. - You look good. - Yeah. - I'm so embarrassed, right now. (laughing) - It's like cool. That had to happen on this episode. That totally won't go in the front of the podcast, definitely. - That's right. That's definitely not a-- - An attention gainer right there. - I didn't even react. I'm just like, oh, it just accepted it. - Yep. - This is my fate. - This is how-- - This is just brain incomes. (laughing) - What? - No, I get why Hugh Hefner just walked around in these things all the time. I think there was no other reason. But-- - Being comfortable. - Yeah, just being comfortable. - And free. Anyway, what are you up to, brother? - Oh, you know, I'm just enjoying the ride right now. This is great. At your expense. So I, semi-sorry, I guess? - Yeah, that's all right. - It's what we're here for. I love it. - Yep. - Good spirit, though. - You could have been really angry. - What's up? - You could have been really angry and spilled a drink on you and got pissed off, you know? - Oh, yeah, just storm off. Like, fuck this, I'm done. It's not worth the money. - The podcast is ruined. - Yep, podcast is ruined forever. - This one's never airing, sorry. - That's okay. - Waste your time. - It's not a waste. - Just walk out, like, actually, genuinely upset. (laughing) - What are we home? - You guys. - Change his exploits. - Well, so, Mr. Cody, what did get you starting getting actual traction on the internet? Going back to Nick's question. - Yeah, so are you guys familiar with Softlet? - Yeah. - So, my friends, the owner of that, and he came from our unit in Marsockin. When I was on my medical board, there was a thing at the time, it was called the fellowship program. So, basically, you could go work for free at a company during your time out. And Softlet created a position for me, and I got my command to sign off for it. So, that's where I learned, like, photography and videography and, like, just graphic design. Like, they took me in, gave me an apartment, my wife and I apartment, and, like, gave me a chance to, like, heal and, like, experience, like, I was so stressed, bro. Like, my life was falling apart. Like, cognitively, I couldn't even, like, dress myself. I was getting lost in my own house, falling off my motorcycles. I drive down the street and not know how I got there. Like, TVI kind of shit. - Yeah, like, everything was, like, just catching up to me. So, it was, like, I was very desperate, and I was very reliant and dependent on other people for helping assistance. And, so, they gave me this shot, and it was, like, great. And, so, you know, we started shooting content, and, like, they gave me some, like, internet, like, maybe, like, notoriety, but, like, you know, they put me on softly to have my own, like, softly work out. And, it was, I got to be in the softly family and do events with them. And, so, that started giving me traction on the internet. And, then, really, I started to grow my social media, just by, like, sharing YouTube and, like, Instagram stuff, and, like, kind of, like, what I was going through in life, which was terrifying. I remember the first time I got cold, I got cold stolen valor on my second YouTube video. And, I cried for, like, a (beep) week. And, the comment, the specific comic was, you might be military, but there's no way you're a special operation. Special operations, guys, don't talk like you. And, I'm like, I'm just trying to help you, boy, and fucking, like, you know, I-- - What the fuck does that even mean? Like, what was he trying to-- - I was talking about, like, middle health. I was talking about, like, depression, anxiety, and, like, the shit I was doing to, like, combat the stuff. And, you know, when I got out of the Marine Corps, I told myself, well, whatever everyone else is doing, I'm not going to do. Like, guys in my job, you just go out, you go contract, whether you work for the commander, you go work for the agency, which is what I wanted to do. And, God had different plans for me, and that, you know, I literally went in, like, kinda like a functioning vegetable. And, so when I had that opportunity to go live that life, I had to turn it down, just 'cause I couldn't even, like, time out and shoot this time. And, so, I'm like, well, I'm not going to go do that. So, I'm just going to go bet on me. I didn't even know what that meant. I just soaked me, you know, my wife and I sold all of her shit. She's like, if you got six weeks left to live, what do you want to do? I'm like, travel around, take pictures. I started to get into the habit of, like, saying the first thing that came to my mind, 'cause I was always trying to, like, come up with the right answer. But, it's just, like, saying, like, what I wanted to do. - Favourite slur right now, go. - penis! - That's not a slur. - Favourite slur? - I'm kidding. - Man. - Oh, he's going through a rola dex right now. - Well, I'll just say, like, people aren't getting bullied anymore. And, there's this, like, this, this looney-tune, fictitious reality that people live in, where they've chosen to, like, call home, their fortnight, like, call fortnight their home, and where they run their thumbs, and that they forget that they live in a world of repercussions. And, the crazy thing about it is, like, it's easy for me to threaten you if you should talk to me, but what you, what I've learned over my journey, is, like, when I hate on you, bro, it's just really saying everything about myself. And, that took me a long time to figure out. So, like, I actually embrace it now, 'cause this gives me more content. And, like, one of my favorite things to do now is, like, troll back the trollers. So, like, I just, like, I use it back. So, just, it gives me, like, added ammunition. I make it fun now, vice back in the days, like, really hurt because I'm, like, why are people so mean, when I'm just trying to share something in, like, positive, and I don't even know what the fuck I was sharing. But, yeah, I just started, like, talking on the internet, and then, I kind of, like, grew a message, you know, I started my brand and we defied the norm in the van, and just this message is about, like, literally defying the norm. And, at the time, I really didn't know what it meant to me. I just knew that I could not do what everyone else was doing. Like, I needed to do something different, because you worked the job that you fucking hated, just for money, and then you put yourself, like, that was kind of like the roadmap for a lot of the guys that I worked with. And I'm like, I want to live, like, I really want to live. - And in time, just to go back really quick, it's one thing, and you want to actually make change when you got out from your lifestyle, 'cause you were very conditioned one way, and you're like, let me take time for myself, my family. - I wanted to make change when I was active duty, and for the first time in my life, I was when I was on my medical board. So, my whole dream, as a young Marine, once I found out that there was, like, tier one units I could go to, and when I made over to Marsock, I applied numerous times, but because of manpower management, or something like that, I never got a chance to go, and then there was this one opportunity where, like, hey, no matter your rank, no matter how long you've been in, like, if you get selected, you meet the requirement, you can go. I'm like, this is my chance to finally go to selection with those stipulations from my command. And so I go to my neurosurgeon, I'm like, hey, bro, like, I'm finally getting a chance to go to selection, and he's like, I'm like, I wanna postpone this medical board. He's like, okay, but let me ask you this. If you were to go over there, do you think you would be a liability? And for the first time in my fucking military career, I was like, honestly, like, yes, I would be a liability. And that really set me on a whole different trajectory, 'cause that was already hard, asking for help was fucking hard, fighting for myself was fucking hard. So I was already fighting for survival, 'cause no one would listen to me. And I was noticing a pattern where I was super destructive. So like, anything good I did in the military. I was quickly losing because I was becoming extremely violent. I was having uncontrollable adrenaline surges. Like, my central nervous system was just completely crashing, right? I would be driving in a car with my wife and like, miss a turn and like, shut the fuck up! You're like, what are you doing? And she's like, she didn't say anything. She just looked at me. And I would just project this like insecurity onto my wife. It's having all these like bloops all the time and, you know, and I was really desperate to wanna change that shit. And so it started when I was active duty, which was sick because guys are stubborn. You know, guys don't even ask questions. Do as well run through a room to get to a buddy, to get to an objective, a target. They'll fucking risk everything for that op. But they will not raise their fucking hands to ask a general question. They won't ask, why are we doing this stupid ass thing? But they'll fucking run into a machine gun bunker. Same thing when it comes to getting out. Like, guys, did you know that like, you can get on testosterone and your dick can work? They're like, what? I'm like, yeah, I just went to the doc. I said, dude, my dick doesn't work. And he's like, let's check your blood. I'm like, holy shit, you have low testosterone. They're like, how did you do it? I'm like, I just asked. - Which to my knowledge, isn't there like a correlation, like a direct correlation to like low testosterone and men and like TBI? - 1,000 percent, you know, I work for a hormone company called core medical group and it's super sick and the coolest thing about that company is that we have a core medical group based on a book written Florida and we have a core medical foundation and what's really savage about that is we provide a year's supply of blood work, a hormone replacement therapy and concierge service for service members that cannot afford service members and law enforcement officers who can't afford a hormone replacement therapy. And we've been doing a study the past few years of like if we can get a man or woman their blood work done get their hormones optimized and balanced and get them on some type of like whatever that sometimes this testosterone sometimes is an estrogen blocker sometimes is even a peptide right or sometimes is just knowing what's inside you so you can start building scenarios that aren't even real. We're seeing their lives change and you know there's this thing called like the operator syndrome of their con and like you know the TBI all this stuff but like dude what did you expect you're injected with everything known to man that you don't even fucking know when you're 18 years old you know they do in the military you're exposed to literally every heavy metal like all the shit that I used to make fun of heavy metals toxins contaminates chemtros or like you know organic food on top of that complete lack of sleep with no amount of sleep cycle. All the things I made fun of are absolutely real and we're exposed to it. I remember throwing flash bangs in the shoot house and putting a dip in you know doing a whole entire shooting package shooting thousands of thousands of rounds and eating a subway sandwich sandwich pound in like three monsters and be like what's next. I'm going on a mission day after day V dehydrated and every once in a while someone would be like. I'm not doing good. What'd you do? I had five ribbons before. I had to see four. It's just. Yeah. Stupid. Stupid. Fucking poor. Re-security. I'm bulking bro. I mean even even you like the the army's guidelines for shit like depleted uranium they're just like well isn't that like bad for your nuts and they're like well like yeah just like don't like hold it there too long. It's like does that mean bro there's a fucking 18 year old kid throwing boxes and batteries in a fire pit and we're all standing around smoke and cigarettes be like man that patrol fucking sucked huh and we're like yeah that sucks smell and batteries like all the shit that. Burn pits bro like all that stuff that we didn't even think about right and all the things that used to make fun of like the organic stuff for the pure like years of just running a toll on your body you know absolutely spiritually immensely as a whole not the level but physically do like we don't take care of ourselves because we don't know any different. You know like you got something wrong with you suck the fuck up. Oh there's something really wrong with you here's a motrin dude like I had unlimited access to motion at free fall school unlimited there was a bucket of it. I'm going to take it like for motion so when I come down for this jump I'm going to be able to walk back to the house you know like it's like but we don't even know what we're doing and we like how many z-packs did you take in the military. I'm sick let me take a z-pack and nuke my entire bio like gut biome. I didn't know what a fuck but gut biome was you know I'm just know that if I take the z-pack whatever is in me is going to die you know sick I'm going to go back in the fight it works and some of the rest of it yeah I'll sit it out later as a spider let me get the flame thrower yeah it's the spets now spets now's approach like hmm five terrorists 95 hostages 100 body bag mission accomplished yeah so me so there's just all these things but I think I've completely TBI this conversation we're talking about yeah burpits us soldiers burn their weights in the middle east wars it's my body that's my battalion it's my unit everything so when I went into like but were you exposed to them I was like well New York posted a series that's my friend I deployed with and they're like oh you were you have like a hundred percent the photo on the brochure about burn pits is me I'm in that like that sort of thing it's like handling the burn pit corner away you do not have to overhaul your life to start 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really push this to the system so we don't just give our veterans medicine pills and tell them get fucking been I'm like that's shit's colon all bro the problem is the VA or the government the problem is us right it's like what are you gonna do for me it's like what are you gonna do for yourself and the problem is is like we've all gone through hard shit and if we don't open up her voice even in our darkest time like no one can ever change because no one's gonna want to let you down right they they they look at you differently than them which is the silliest thing like if people meet me mean they're like I didn't do anything you did I was just a I'm like shut the fuck up I'm like bro you're in the military thank you for your service because they think we completely undermine ourselves so now you take a person like that who has problems maybe it was sexually abused which happens in the military maybe it was in a a TBI that went unreported because someone didn't want to get in trouble right like people aren't going to step up themselves I got to speak on a board during I was a master sergeant fucking I mean EA for like three and a half years now I'm like super senior and I'm about to retire and I got to sit on this board for this like a TBI or this traumatic brain jury like conversation thing in my command and my neurosurgeon calls me out I'm like fucking anxiety central like my palms are all sweaty because I'm about to speak in front of people and like I just could not handle normal but I got up there and what I said was that like I'm a E8 and I fucking blood and sweat for this place and I got pushed back to get help can you imagine what the the E3 that just checked into our unit that got over in the previous unit or got fucked over in this unit do you think there I'm an E8 there's only one ring above me and I'm getting what do you think is going to happen to them no one's going to listen to them and that's the problem that I really saw because I was that problem too I would see young men and women coming as their enablers of support guys and girls I'd be like why the fuck are they getting into like physical therapy they just got here I have to wait for an appointment like this kind of self entitled true I had a fucking massive ego and but then I'm like I'm glad they can go like it took me to fall on my own face to see how hard it was to even get help when I was desperate for it to be appreciative all the times that I saw people get help when they actually wanted to be proactive on it because I wasn't proactive I was I had the opportunity to be proactive so many times I always postpone it because I'm going to get a chance to go to selection I'm going to get to go to the school I'm going to get to do this that's all I that's all I did and a lot of the guys and girls have worked with they're in the same mindset so when we get out it's like yo dog or if you're not happy with your life then only you can change it and I truly feel like you know how you guys are positive right like you know there's a lot of our peer groups that just literally shit talk other veterans and when you guys are positive even in like you're talking fun it's still uplifting and positive we already knock each other what who hates successful veterans more than anyone else oh he gets knock a drink over that's fine ups but there's a lid on as a lid I can take the lid off I can knock over that glass of that mug if you like it would make me feel a little bit really funny if you really funny if you spilled it on yeah that would be the biggest one yeah veterans fuck all our other veterans you know he's still a drink here yeah veterans just out the woodhouse or marcher I'll fetch another roob sir like Brandon what are you going to do in return nothing here scary is it because my smile people always say that I recognize you I'm like is it my smile that you recognize devilishly good looks definitely good looks man mama mama gave me the jeans and uh but yeah but it's just it's all crazy and but so I think back to the original question is like how to social media so I just started talking about all these things I was going through and then I think it was it was right when COVID ended you know when that thing happened Sean Ryan reached out to me and he's like hey you know because for years people were like get Cody Alfred, Cody Alfred, he's like, "Hey, do you wanna be in my podcast?" And I'm like, me? I'm like, "Yeah, sure, okay." And I'm like, "Thank God, 'cause I'm not gonna get "on a plane wearing a mask." I wasn't gonna go nowhere, like I don't care who you are. Jesus Christ was to meet you. I'm like, "Tell 'em I'll get back to them." Brother, that's just like gonna happen, you know? And I get this opportunity to go and shot Ryan's show and I like just data-dumped my life. I was originally supposed to talk about conspiracies and aliens and like Tarteria and all sorts of weird shit. That's what he's like, "What do you wanna talk about?" I'm like, "Are you into this stuff?" He's like, "Oh, I am." So we're just starting-- - So the reason nobody knows how to get to a Garthas, because you wanted to talk about yourself, obviously. - It's not even my fault, bro, he asked me. Where did you grow up? I'll tell you everything, I'm like, "Oh, dude, "that chair was the most therapeutic chair of my life, man." And that chair changed my life and-- - Well, even how much of the nerves or what about your gummy bears? - The gummy bears did not last. I'm a gummy bear slut, dude. And like, those gummy bears were so bad. - Just a shirt, you should sell that as a shirt. - I'm a gummy bear slut. - Just gummy bear slut. - You know what the funny part is? - You would sell a shit. - Gummy bear slut's a really good shirt. - Yeah, that's a gummy bear slut, bro. It was so great, yeah, they were so good. But yeah, I was nervous. - If I saw somebody like you wearing that shirt, I would have so many questions. - If I wore that shirt here, they'd tell me to take up my shirt like this guy. He's not too sick and wants to fuck, you know? - Fendi, you wanna show your shirt off? - Yeah, come show the shirt. Apparently the security team at the casino saw his shirt and told him he needs to quit wearing it in public. - Profile, dude, bro. - I said I should have just one of you. (laughing) - Not in you, not in verbal. - Not verbal. - You would be like, (laughing) - They would be like, never mind that. Sorry. Why they apologize right in the way in the fear? - They're watching, they're watching, they play blackjack though. This guy's definitely not autistic. He's losing weight in the morning. He's alive. - No, he didn't, get the soup. (laughing) - He did not get the rain man kind of autism. (laughing) - Imagine setting your makeup, then forgetting it's even theirs. Meet new groupie setting mist from Mabelie, New York. Gel to mist technology locks in your look for up to 24 hours, with flexible all day comfy grip. Just plump, dewy, hydrated skin that still feels like your skin. Try new groupie setting mist from Mabelie, New York. - Maybe it's Mabelie. - They just watch him. - There's 31 flavors and he didn't get that one. - No, he did not. - Still stemming the entire time. He's having a good time blowing money. - Where'd we even go from that? - No, no. - Dummy Burst Slut and Autistic are ready to fuck. - Oh man, it's fucking beautiful. - So you got, you started talking about that. Sean Ryan, how was that experience when they actually reached out for the first time was like, oh shit, okay, I'm in a prep or how much prep work went into it. - There was no prep, I didn't, I didn't. Yeah, like I said, we're supposed to talk about aliens and things and so I'm like, I was excited for the opportunity, you know, and I was episode 34 so still pretty infinite on his stuff and I was just humble that I got an opportunity, like somebody wanted. - Yeah. - Tater. - Yeah, I don't think he knew what he wanted to talk about. I think he asked me and I'm like, and then I'm like, I was into like reading all those books. I'm like, are you into this? And he's like, what are you into? I'm like, I'm into these weird things. He's like, do you want to talk about that? I'm like, sure, I can talk about this stuff. And that's really what my thought process was going down there and clearly that's not what happened. - Yeah, I thought I didn't know if we were going to get another Lord dump or you're like, oh yeah, no, well I was a guard at like area 51 for a couple of years. You know, that sort of has seen some shit. - Yeah, no, there was, there was, we didn't even talk about aliens, you know, and honestly, selfishly it changed my life by giving myself, I never even processed, I never even thought about some of those memories till that share. And so, and that was the first time I ever like, I already had to do like a congruency of like timelines, when I was in the military for my medical board of like, yup, I ate a hundred mclicks on this deployment and I had to like kind of go back into my timeline of experience, but like, to go back to my childhood or like, my interaction with my oldest son who lives in Germany with his mom that I didn't have contact until he was freaking eight, you know? Like, these like, these real questions and he kind of just like opened up Pandora's Box and like gave me an opportunity to speak in. It was awesome, you know, before I even knew what the feeling scene was, like I felt fucking seen before I even knew what that was and-- - So you'd never spoken to anybody about this stuff before? - No, I tried to and then I realized that I would, I would get too choked up and I didn't really know why 'cause I was still pretty fresh. I think at this point I was out of the Marine Corps maybe like three years, two and a half years, maybe three years. And so like, I was still going through a lot of like, things that I couldn't quite identify yet. And I wasn't happy, I didn't love myself, I was really struggling, but I was functioning struggling, right? Like, so it was kind of working, but it was also not working the same time and the wild thing about that is Sean text me he's like, hey dude, it's gonna go air tomorrow, you ready? I'm like, I typed this like paragraph and I asked him to please don't air it. And I'm so grateful that I wasn't selfish and sent that. But I was so scared, I'm like, what if I said too much, like what if I broke a rule or something? You know, I was-- - I didn't know you didn't send it. When you initially said that, I'm like, oh, and he just fucking sent it anyway. What an asshole. - Yeah, no, I mean, I totally think he would respect, I mean, I don't even think, I know he expected my-- - Yeah, like, let's you on red. Oh, notification from the Sean Ryan. - I'm just like, oh man, Sean, Sean seems cool. He seems like a really great interaction. But I didn't send it, but I was scared and you know, and obviously, and then the podcast comes out and like, I'm like really uncomfortable 'cause I was just being me, but I was also doing what most people will have and never done is like, just be themselves. And the first like thousand comments was like, I'm not taking a life advice from a guy with face tattoos. What a piece of shit with face tattoos. This guy needs Jesus Christ in his life. Like, all these like, typical, douche-ery things of SD digitally. And it really fucked me up a bit. I'm like, dude, I'm just being me, sharing my story, but I'm fucked up for being me. Like, I'm sorry, I'm not perfect. But then, wouldn't you know that that was only so small compared to the amount of pauses? Let me do it. I get stopped. It's been uncomfortable for a lot of years. It's not so much uncomfortable now because it means a lot to me to that people take time out of their day to be like, hey dude, you've been back to my life. You show me that I could go get fucking help. Because like, TTSD, trauma, I'm gonna fuck who you are, bro. Like, we all have it. And I've been into psychedelics since 2018 and I've done the majority of all of them. And there's always one comment that I made her, how it all started. And it's not war. It's not combat. It's not the (beep) it's not the abuse, it's not the neglect. It's when you were a kid of some shape or form. And then that forms into you not seeing yourself and all the things you're going through. And you know, throughout this journey for myself, I didn't even process. Brutting process getting shot in the fucking helmet. I downplayed it for years. People are like, dude, you got shot in the (beep) helmet like, okay, okay. I'm comfortable in a walk away. Hey, you're the youngest master sergeant of okay, that thank you, walk away. Like, I just felt uncomfortable because I never even acknowledged like, all the crazy shit that I even got to experience, you know, good or bad. And so it's super sick, man. And like, it's funny 'cause I'll get (beep) talked by a bunch of like, soft guys, special operations guys on the internet. All the time about me. Because motherfuckers hate when you don't hop on the bandwagon. And if you speak logic to illogical people, you trigger them. And then when you tell them you're triggered, that just puts them off more. So I just keep on saying you're triggered. But anyways, but out of all those things, the amount of people that I've like, last year a shot show, there was like these guys, team six guys, there's fucking dudes all around. They're like, bro, I appreciate what you're doing. Thanks you for saying the things that you say. I'm like, you're bad motherfuckers. This dude's a fucking nobody talking (beep) behind his screen and you say thank you. And so I'm like, bro, okay. And then I've like, I've really asked myself this whole time, like, what is the point of all these things? If I'm not gonna use my fucking mouth, right? Like, if I'm not gonna use what God gave me, this voice, the most powerful thing we possess, I'm just, I am truly selfish. And I feel like it's just, it lacks its boldness. It's a lack of boldness in your life to not open up. You know, if you can't say no, then you'll just agree to everything, bro, that you have no backbone. You're lukewarm motherfucker. And that, I don't choose to be that, you know? Like, I don't choose to be a lukewarm motherfucker. I'm not perfect by any means, but like, I have beliefs. I know what I stand for, I know what I believe in. I've worked really hard to get there. And it wasn't like, it just happened overnight. It was years of fucking facing the things that no one could see. They're like, oh, you're killing it. I'm like, bro, I'm really suffering, really bad right now, but I am getting better. You know, instead of fucking up 10 times a day, I'm only fucking up five times a day. You know, I started looking for more reasons of how my life was changing than how my life was staying the same. And that was a big paradigm shift for me. And, you know, but it started off with the Sean Ryan show then back to like, how did I blow up on social media? Sean Ryan, like, jumped me up, did I remember the first time? Sean Ryan video drops, I go live the next day on Instagram. Just to say thank you. Dude, 60,000 mother fucks relied on my Instagram live. I'm like, oh shit. No pressure. And I was like, oh, fuck, I just like, if I didn't look at the numbers, it would have been anything, right? Like I'm pressing my phone, but I saw 60,000 people on my like 34,000 follower count. And I'm like, oh, like my stomach just like went on my ass home. And I was like, oh, I'm so uncomfortable. You're giving missions and your like direction to people who run into combat and all of a sudden you went for-- Oh, for sure, dude. A screen, you know, a device that doesn't have a button, you know? It's not even a real button. And that thing terrified me, bro. But you know, that black box dude is like the portal to so many positive influence in this life, right? And you deny they'd be a shit talking one, or a mother fucker that stands for something that is positive. It's so, it takes the same amount of effort and energy. And these guys that just talk about it, Shit online. I'm like pro you have a girlfriend or a wife that's like man. That's my man right there. Just talk it shit All day I get them. I'm like that's that has to be the conversation I'm sure that's the exact conversation You told him bad My man my man just gets on the internet all day. Just talk shit about motherfuckers. Oh, I mean makes me proud Brandon, you need not One more time you got this Brandon, can you? Brandon, do you like it? Brandon, where do you store your firearms all over my house in? Every fucking crepus. Well, do I have the product for you Nick show him here hand it to me Brandon So I can show you Brandon. This is stop box Stop box. We love box. You selling me What's in the box? You have to open it and find out all right. Well, let's see if I can do this. Oh, wow look at that Oh, I don't know. Can I hide my goop in that? You can hide your goop in that Cody. Cody, do you know I love this thing? Why? God, why? Biggest you don't have to use keys God not included Cody, you've got multiple cats in your house including squirt who's quite the scrapper Mm-hmm. Would you want squirt to have access to your firearms? No, he's violent. 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I think that's that's that's that direction. I think is healthy Do it and honestly I give credit to the people that have triggered me online like all the dudes that have talked shit about me online They have the impact of my life positively and I and I realized there was my own peer group in Mars Like when I first got out my I've only had one job as civilian I worked for four months at this start-up cannabis company in LA. I'm like a director of operations I'm like damn, I'm gonna pay for you money. This is sick. I got face tattoos like I'm a glorified drug dealer get paid I'm like this is epic fuck you you look happy you look successful this guy And I would tell myself these things. I'm like that guy didn't do shit in my job And now he's getting this opportunity so like but I will never type it as you talk inside of me But then I realized even during then I'm like he's just triggering me of what I could do if I had the courage to do what he's doing Because I was too scared he's doing something that I want to do but he's bold enough to go do it. I'm not not you know I get I get a All you do is read Wikipedia pages on the internet. It's like I mean fucking kind of go for it bro Like it's it's a dope ass job. Nobody. Stop it. You just have a podcast. Yeah, okay try it. I'm sure you just try and you just do it like Yeah, just try it and like these guys that talk shit. It's like I'm like why is this bothering me? Do I believe that and you know Hey jealous That's easy to say too, but at the same time is making my nervous system feel uncomfortable making me feel that That whosiness in here and it's like what do you think that is why well at the time I didn't understand But I started to dive into like my nervous system and like okay. I don't believe that my mind doesn't believe that But my body still doesn't know the difference right and therefore like okay. Why is that sugar me? Is that true? Am I not showing up in certain areas of my life? Am I being a phony? Am I being a fraud? I mean the most hurtful comments are the ones that have like a little nugget of truth to it Where you're like if that's like an insecurity that you've had or like something that you think like oh Man, I might have phoned this one in or something like that and so you see a comment that said man you phoned this and you're like It's the one that the ones that make you more aggravated not even not even like rooted in truth for me It's just like or at least what you why am I given this energy? I'm giving an energy because clearly I do believe I'm a piece of shit in some aspect Mm-hmm, you know, and you know, I'm I'm a big proponent of plant medicine. You have you heard of that solution? Have you heard of ambiolife science? So that solution is a nonprofit that's by Marcus Capone He was a team six guy believe and so his foundation sends special operations veterans to Mexico with this company called ambiolife science and You go down there. You do. I began in five me O DMT and I I had no a couple people actually I've been under twice the first time I went down there. I truly believe I found God in my belief in a Mexican in a concrete room of Mexico But when I came back home I got two to three day thing, right? It's a five day event Yes, so you go down there you do like a sweat lodge and then the next day that night you do you you fast and you do I you're I began ceremony and Then the next day is like a massive recover day the call the day of the great like gray day You're just my first experience of just like twitching like tweaking out on the bed like just super nauseous because like you're You could not have like me. I have like I was got to have any visions or any sightings in my mind It was just darkness and stillness same thing with I began, but your body is detoxing I woke up the next day. I had more mobility in my life than I've had in years because it just attacks at inflammation You know, it's insane what it does and you're just physical mobility physical mobility I was able to touch my toes for the first time like on the first try It was the most well thing and then secondly the most important thing about I began is your guaranteed Guaranteed to move the gray matter in your brain So like people that are really scared, but they have always crazy TV eyes. It reverses TV eyes This isn't heal you But it starts to put things back in its place so you can actually make progress in your life because they've actually done studies on this They actually did a study with a bunch of seals out west Put them through I began did the MRIs and cascans on them and saw how their gray matter shifted in their brain from their already exposed a blast exposure to Post I began the neuropath ways no Form again or in different ways in different ways. Yeah, like you know, I've seen there's there's a lot of studies that are coming out nowadays Especially I think they just remove like one of the there was like a government limitation on the ability to study stuff like this But which whether it's like psychedelics in general like I began or psilocybin like actual like documented Improvement when it comes to like TV eyes and healing the brain do 1000% I'm a I don't believe that plant medicines for everybody But I believe that changes for everybody and some people are just so resistant and that's okay Because there's a lot of other modalities out there. There's a lot of like Basic, you know, I therapy that can re-neural you know re-engaged neuropath ways in your brain There's just a lot of things out there But I've always felt called the plant medicine for whatever reason and then after that day you do five-me-yo DMT Bufo the toad they call the god molecule and I tell people like you're getting when you go down in Mexico your guaranteed three things one your guaranteed to Feel better in your body guaranteed guaranteed your guaranteed to move the gray matter in your brain guaranteed And your guaranteed a chance to let go and if you look like me or Eli, you're not guaranteed to come back Well luckily it's a super safe. You're like a gait of community like it's like five star. You're gonna Mansion like it's like you got you got monitors you doctor. Hey. Why are you sleeping on the bed? Go move the yard Just confuse us for the yard work. It's like okay. You guys would fit in perfect You know, it would be great. Be like at home, you know? Yeah Yeah, he's telling us to move back Well, you like this country. Go back. Go back to where you came from Yeah, I've seen so many changes and individuals from it that I know have TBI or Really bad PTSD and then I get a watch the experience of them even having alcoholism and it's gone literally They've done it once they don't crave booze anymore. It's most wild shit. I've ever watching the these are individuals I'm sure you've seen the same thing. They're addicted to substance. I was gone over We don't know where the other you can't argue that it doesn't rewrite something in your neural pathways. I was there with a with a Army Ranger Army Ranger arrangement did right army range guy. I can't even speak right now army Ranger I am tired from shot show. So you're 40 also my friend. It's going around. Yeah And he was an alcoholic and he changed my Perspective on at first I thought the messages you say call self it you call selfish It will get people to think and I don't it's not gonna It's not gonna stop you but it might make you pause at one millisecond to think about your actions because there's no tagbacks I used to think that was it His story completely changed my perspective. He said one day before he went before he's in Mexico with me He was having the great day wife cooked breakfast. Everything was fine and dandy He was having literally the time of his life his kid was about to go to a friend's house down the street and play Xbox Have a party and his wife is about to drive the kids down there and he was gonna go grab the meat and bring it down there He said, "As soon as this fame and left, he walked outside. He had no intentions of doing this. He walked outside, put his extension cord around his neck, put it over the grating. He had, like, what is it, what lattice or whatever that thing is called, and he hung himself. And his wife came back because the son left their controller at home. The wife came back and so unfortunately the son saw his dad hanging. The wife and the son were able to pick him up and like get him off and get him help. And that completely changed my vision and idea of what I thought this guy did not have one s**t of ideation and just like that he decided to go for it. And like future plans and everything like that. Yeah, future plans. I mean, one of my great friends, Daniel Brown, he was a Navy Sartre. So they're the special amphibious reconnaissance corpsman. One of my best friends. Just a beautiful man, beautiful soul and we're on the phone and we're supposed to link up next week. He moved back to Nebraska with his family. We were both an Idaho together and we were going to do business together. So he's like, yeah, let's link up Monday and let's talk about this business plan. That was a me pushing. That was him pushing it. Right. That was his objective. I'm like sick. Two days later, I get a call from his wife saying that Daniel's gone and it like it crushed me, dude. It just so crushed me. And I'm like, fuck, this motherfucker is selfish, dude. Like what the fuck? But then hearing the story about this ranger that I met who is a beautiful man, dude. He's has, he's the best stories, dude. He's a time in prison like crazy shit, dude, a lot of trauma, a lot of trauma. And he has a heart of gold really means well, but for him to make that decision, it changed my mind. Well, so we do I began, we do our five me oh, and he hasn't touched alcohol since. He actually said in his trip and his journey with I began because we fly you fly into the San Diego airport and they you say in a hotel and they pick you up and drive you across the border the next day. He said in his trip, he woke up in the San Diego airport. Terminal, there was no one there. He walked in. He knew exactly where the bar was because he had a beer on the way there in real life, right? So he walks to the terminal. No one's there. He walks into. I think it was like the stone brewery co pours a self beer. He says as soon as he takes a sip, this all in his mind, he said he just exploded. And then he flashed back to childhood, flashed back to war and kept them flashing back to all these things. And he says he hasn't had a drink since then. But the crazy thing about that with that much level of change in your life, right? And especially with five million DMT, five million is the craziest thing I've ever done because no matter how strong you think you are, there is only surrender. And the hardest thing I think for humans in general, not even men, not even veterans, just surrendering, right? Because we hold on to this life because life is good. Fucking talking on phones, microphones, spilling drinks in ourself, you know, we're going to have fun. All right. Listen. You want to go do I've a game for that? Yeah. You suffered. Yeah. That's what I'm going to flash back to is that moment. No. But you handled it like a G, you know, you handled it like a G, you're like, I will not be defeated by a wet taint. You know, like brits, don't worry, he's going through the treatment. That's good. Did you do war? No. Worse. Yeah. You ever heard a swamp ass? Yeah. In front of other men. That was me. And that was the last time Brandon wore a robe. Yep. Never again. True story. You know, and so you do this, you do this five Mio experience and it's, you have to completely surrender. But anyways, I, I'm like, I felt so loved and empowered through this journey. But I went back home and I tried to like, well, I feel loved. I know I'm connected to it, whatever that it is to me. And I'm like, why can't I accept love in my life? I'm like, why can't I accept this love that I just got the experience and I know it's real and there for me? Well, I got cold back. I got invited back again a year later, like, hey, you want to come back for round number two? And I was terrified because I'm like, I know what I'm about to have to go through. And it wasn't that I began that I was worried about. It was like that five of Mio because so you did it twice? You have to die. Yes. I did it. I actually did three times. Oh, if I do, also the worst tagline for a business like you want to die 80 fucking times. Well, I know you're going to die. You know, they don't say that. But like, I know you're going to die. I know. Because all my friends that went through it, it's like, you die like a hundred times. I'm like, you're not selling me on this. But the thing is like. You're honest with you. The cool thing about that though is like, when we hold on to everything in this life, right? We hold on to our past identities, really reprogramming our lives and our mindsets and our relationships and all that shit. It's just, you're choosing to hold on to an old version of you that you say you don't like, but yet it's like, well, I might need this gear pouch if the apocalypse happens in 30 years from now. You know, like, we hold on to all this shit that we don't even, I really realize, at least that was in my world, right? So I can all, I'll just speak about myself. If you go, if you ever go again, I will join you on that. Well, I'd love to get you guys connected. You didn't tell them so, Brandon has this. Yeah. Apparently, I just had my traumatic experience, so I'll have to, you know, do you be surprised, man? You know, traumatic, you know, trauma is like, it doesn't matter how you got it. The fact that you got that motherfucker. Legitimately though, I do know like a lot of friends, mutual friends that have gone through that experience. They've gone to Mexico. Whether it's through that group or not, I'm not sure. But have gone through the, I've gained five MEO, five MEO, and they've said nothing but good things. So I've changed it. So I go back on the second trip and I'm like, I'm excited to go because I'm scared and I realize a long time ago when you're, when you're, when it's scared and nervous is the same feeling as excitement, it's just a different word that I'm choosing to like bounce around on my head. And so I'm like, if I'm scared, I know I got to go and I know that the only way if I don't take a step forward, I'm just going to freeze and lock up and that's not going to happen. So I know I'm just going to push forward and the first thing I say is, I hate you. And I started, I started to cry, I had, I did like two, two, three, say this to myself. Okay. And I'm saying it out loud in a garden full, a beautiful garden, overlooking this beautiful ocean, beautiful, beautiful garden flowers everywhere and a bunch of like amazing people ramen. And I just started to cry and then I yell out at the top of my lungs, I fucking hate you. And then I keep on saying, I hate you, I hate you and I'm just like ball in my ass off and I haven't cried like this in so long and I'm just, I'm grateful that I'm crying. And I'm, I'm really kind of like just going through at this moment and then I ended up saying out loud, I am you, I am you, I love you, I love you and I don't know why the fuck I would say those things, but then it really changed my, it changed my entire life because I realized for 39 years how much I hated myself, even when I had smiles in my face, even when I wasn't lying to myself. You know, so those, those texts, these comments are a negative, the, the shit I was saying in my head, the reasons why I'm like, man, why can't I make my marriage better? I'm like, why can't my business wrong get like, why, why, why, why, why, why, why, it was because I couldn't accept me and I'm a believer in that you say you believe in shit, but if you don't believe in yourself, then the thing that you believe in is also bullshit. And so that's means like the ultimate like equalizer and I realized I couldn't accept this love that I experienced a year ago because I couldn't even accept love for myself. You know, I'm like, I want my wife to love me, I need my wife to love me because that will make me better like no one's going to give me the love that I need but myself. And if I can't be open to that, then I can't accept anything else because I couldn't accept my wife's love. I couldn't accept my friend's love. Like, I always felt like someone's trying to get an angle on me or like, she just takes something from me and I'm like, why, why am I always better than I'm people and investing in people, but they're not investing in me. They were doing it the whole time, but I had, I had these goggles on of like fucking hatred for myself and I just didn't know it. And I turned 40 last May, so May 23rd, I turned 40, dude, the best year of my life, bro. Like, to whatever it was last year, 2025, the best fucking year of my life, bro, and your DM to me, your, your text to me was amazing to read because you're like, holy shit, it's been a really good year. Now I'm focusing on myself. You could see that change in yourself. It was awesome to read. I was like, dude, congratulations, you just so positive. Even towards me, you're like, I love seeing what you're doing. It's awesome. Awesome. And same. I was like, dude, same. You're crushing it. I love your journey. I love that you're very vocal about it, but now that you're saying this out loud, it makes a lot of sense. Yeah. People are like, man, you're fucking killing it. I'm like, bro, I don't even, I don't even have money to pay my bills this month, dude. But I'm like, if killing it means happy as fuck, and I love my life, and I love my family, then I'm murdering it, bro. You know, and I wait till that gummy bear slush. You gummy bear slush? Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. You can make this happen right now. Dude, I just want to feed families in the town that I live in, and drive a Porsche. Like, I want a rally Porsche. I want to feed families and fucking own a rally Porsche, right? I'm a guy. I'm just going to be more away to that, you know? That was, that was like, I'm like, wow, he's so altruistic. Oh, he still, dude. Yeah. Oh, dude, rally Porsche. I've been in the classics of my entire life, but what I live, like, the classes that I used to have, they would just fall apart. Yeah. I'm like, I want to put a big ass elk on my rally Porsche, and I worked with the client back a day, he's an artist, and he commissioned this like, my favorite color is yellow. And so it's yellow with black tiger stripe, and he drew me, he painted me in the picture. And like, this is got like, ball lights in the rack on top and like, I'm going to fucking have an elk on my Porsche and drive it every day. And it's just, it's, it's only matter of time, you know, and, well, to completely change gear. Sorry, but going back to some stuff he said earlier, you, you were saying like your first deployment and whatnot, you're like, oh, yeah, and I, I talked to my wife, or my wife sent out. Orios and frosting. Yeah. Which for one is just such a flex on the enemy. It's like, we will go halfway around the world, not only to kill you, but we're going to be eating better food than you have while we do it. Not even just Oreos, the seasonal drop. Seasonal drop. Seasonal drop. Seasonal drop. Seasonal drop. The logistical flex of that is hilarious. But it sounded like you made your wife very early. No, I meant my wife actually before this, my last deployment. Oh, really? Okay. Maybe I misunderstood. I heard before I was married for six and a half years, and I was the, I was the, the typical story. Bro, she's not good for me. Like, you don't know anything. She loves me, man. She loves me. And, you know, obviously, it's always easy to talk about. I was equally guilty in a toxic relationship, but that was actually hard. Dude, getting divorce is hard. I hated my marriage. I hated what I was doing. I wanted it to end and I'd be like, I wanted a divorce and she's like, fine. I'm like, no, love me, love me. So like my desperation for wanting to be loved, stand back very long time in my career. I just didn't even know it. You never really know until you read the whole book. And so I was actually married for six and a half years and I met my wife actually stalked her online. So like, you know like, bro, dude, there's a lot of good looking dudes that are jacked and tattooed out there, right? I can't just like your first post. I gotta like scroll down a couple and like, you were going to know I exist. And at the time-- - At the time. - No, it's fellas. - Yeah. At the time, my minister there was just like-- - Guns-- - Dralk. - Carlies and like classic trucks, right? And then I had this like crazy like, curled mustache was my photo. It was from like a deployment photo. And luckily one of my buddies, wife's worked at the same bar that my wife was working at and she's like, who is this creep? And she's like, oh, that's my husband's friend. And so like she kind of bridged in introduction and bro, dude, like-- - Who's this creep is a-- - Yeah. - It's a great segue. - It's a real moral of the story. - Yeah, somebody who's friends with the wife. - Oh, for sure. - Have a buddy who's married to someone with hot friends. - That's great. - That's great. - Dude, my wife is, my wife is savage dude. She's everything that I was at the time. And she, I was on three deployments with my first marriage. I got one fucking care package that I had a set up before I deployed on that on our deployment, right? I never got anything else and not what was me, but like, this is my wife, you know, my-- - That is a what, that is a depressing ask. - It was so depressing as fuck. - Hopefully this deployment trusted me right. - Yeah, it was pretty fucked up. I got theme packages like once a week whereas that on my last rotation. And my wife was just-- - Dude, dude, I'd open up, it'd be like a movie box, bro. She would like send me beer and like beer and like chips and like popcorn. - I didn't know they were allowed to send alcohol. - She's, bro, you're not allowed to do a lot of things, but do you listen to rules? - Well, barely left them there. - I barely left them there. - Hey, fair enough. - I had to make a set, you know, like-- - I'm an American, you know? - You ever heard that back-to-back world champs? You know, before everyone went woke and told you're just working for the Jews, you know? So, you know, like-- - I was still going back to meeting with the pastor and you're like, "Sake, you're Jewish and you're eating bacon, you're like, "Yeah?" - Yeah. - Yeah, yeah, yeah, exactly. - Oh, what about it? - Are you about that? - No, the juice box for the beef is snug, yeah. - So it's kosher meat. - Yeah, so you tell me if I'm Jewish today, I get that beef stew. - You didn't. - So I'd be, yeah, so I'd be up, so I'd be up. - Why is this napkin circular? - Yeah. - Yeah. (laughing) - Man, they got everything in this kid, you know? - That's so f*cked up. (laughing) - Oh, shit. - It's great, dude. - You know, there was a, dude, I had a pastor said, "Baird, June." And for a short time, that was like my nickname or whatever. - And 'cause there was only like so many Jewish, and I was a scout sniper. So I had like SS tattoos on me. A scout sniper, they're like, "You've racist." I'm like, I'm f*cking Jewish, right? Like how do I hate myself? What funny story? I just literally did hate myself, you know? Chokes on me, you know, years later, I'd realize that. But yeah, just wow, anyways. But like, "Baird, June" was sick. All my paddles have like, "Baird, June." Like literally-- - Pretty f*cking cool moniker. - It's super sick, you know? It literally bear with the f*cking star of David. You know, I've got another paddled, big-ass star of David. And then I, I post those things nowadays, wanna do it just to troll the internet. 'Cause everyone hates Jews now. And, but two, it's like, this was cool. But then there's like this different generation that they're like, "Oh, I'm just a f*cking zombie's zogbot." I'm like, "What does that mean?" You know, and then they-- - I don't know what that means either. - I don't know what that means either. I'll follow it in a while. - But like, what is it? Boot liquor and what's the other cool terms you use nowadays? Throat goat? I got called a throat goat. Yeah, by another well-known special forces. - In person? - Oh, definitely not a person. - Yeah, that's crazy. - Yeah. - I saw him yesterday, but I got called a throat goat. The specific words were Tim Kennedy's throat goat. That was the specific words used. Because when the whole Tim Kennedy thing came out, I went on TK's post and I said, "Look at us." Typically just attacking each other and talking shit like that. But that clearly meant I chose sides and said stolen values fine and agreed to every nefarious thing that happened. But you can't be logical to logical people. But then the day though, if you are logical to logical people, it's very easy to dim yourself and to go back into hiding or join the mob and not ever be seen again. And I refuse to have a mom and dad that raised me. I refuse to have a belief that I said, believe in end to fucking play small. And it's not to be better than you or to be just different because I want to be a bitch. I only know how to be me and I am just different. And the thing is we're all different, but we're just scared to say us. To be ourselves. Had a meeting with the company today. And they're like, "How do you want to do this?" You want to get your camera out? Like, bro, we could just have a conversation. We talked about this. Let's just be bros, tell me about your new gear. And then my camera guy will figure it out. - 'Cause that's the shot show special is you go around the show floor and you see these people that just like, oh, like a fucking animatronic. They'll just like go into their five-minute spiel. It's like, bro, it's okay. Like you can, like we're not doing this for camera. Like we can just, we can just talk about this. Dude, I'm not trying to be like everyone else. Oh yeah, let me give me my 10% discount code. So I can say the same regurgitate a shit that I hear 24/7 like bitch. I'm not a teletron or a (beep) commercial, but I'm a real person dude. And like what I say impacts lives, right? And what I do impacts my own fucking life and my family and why would I choose to be a robot? And if I have a chance to be human or ask a question or get help, why wouldn't I want to do that no matter how scared it is? Like it doesn't make sense. Logically, it doesn't make sense to me. I'm like, man, you ran into a (beep) a machine gun fortified position and you're like, this is sick. And then you're like, man, who needs help? Who's actually feeling good? I'm like, I'm good, I'm good to go. I'm good to go because I'm scared to be seen by my own brothers. I think it's a scary thing. I think that's what's awesome. What you're doing is you're an individual that's you are at the top of your job in the Marines. You led from that position and now you are that inspiration because it's okay. 'Cause a lot of guys, they're gonna look up to you and the second you're like, hey, it's okay to have an emotional response. It's okay, X, Y and Z, they'll do it not just because you're the one leading from the front from that. So I truly appreciate that. - Thanks, man. - It's a, so many times in my life, I've asked like, man, what's my purpose? What's my purpose? And I'm looking around as I'm using the same purpose looking from my purpose, I'm using the same breath, asking where's my purpose when my breath is my purpose. You know, and if tomorrow I'm passionate about something else, that would be my purpose then. But like being being encouraged other people to do that, then here's a crazy thing, right? People are like, America sucks, the war's crazy. I'm like, listen, bitch, it will always be that until you realize how powerful you are. You know, like, could you imagine during COVID if people said, I'm not gonna fly today, fuck you. You would not have any rules. But I had to, I had to, I had to go to this business that business you hate, that business that you, you literally talk shit about to all your friends, that's why you drink so much in the fucking weekend, you come home and you talk to your wife, how you fucking hate a job? That job, you had to go there? - That's something that Mr. Gunsinger, I think actually told me at one point where he's talking about like people who are like, oh, you're a grifter, you're a grifter, that's another good word. - Yeah, so you're a grifter bro, like you didn't add for a company, he's like, yeah, I gave my unfiltered informed opinion on a product and in that, I did an ad for another company. Yeah, okay, sure, fine. That's, it's like an advertisement, just like anything else, like if you watch like the news or whatever they do, they do add, they run ads on that, whatever, fine, it's like it's a little advertisement and then like my unfiltered, unpurchased opinion. So you spend your entire 40 hour work week working for a company, you fuck hate. Who's the grifter? - Yeah. - You're the one working for a company, you genuinely despise for your entire week. - But you know, that's that fear, you know, there was a guy, there was a Marine Raider, I was going through the, the brain clinic with when I was active duty on my way out. And he was like, man, fuck this command, like, you know, I'm tired of this bullshit, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. I'm like, good for you, bro. So, you know, you can go in Terminal Leave, so that you're still active duty, but you're on leave and you can work out a real job, but you get paid. And so this guy's on Terminal Leave, wearing a contractor polo shirt in our compound. I'm like, the fuck are you doing, bro? You just spent the last two weeks to be talking shit about how much you hate this place, the stresses you out, he's like, bro, I need the fucking money. You know, I need the fucking money too. You know what I fucking did when I had zero dollars, 'cause I was an idiot thinking that I was going to save my way to financial freedom. All I wanted when I retired from the Marine Corps was a fucking Range Rover in the Panerai Watch. That's all I wanted. And I was going to save to the dollar, to the cent, what it would cost for both those things. And on my timeline, I was going to just have enough to go pay cash, and I'd be done with it. That's where my mind was at. I didn't have shit. And so when I got out, the only liquid cash I had was my classic truck, my dream truck. So I sold that bitch, as a 1952 GMC pickup. It was savage, and he blew white vinyl interior airbags, but it was nasty. - Yeah dude, ultimate dead truck. - What, dead truck? - Dead truck. - Dead truck. - Yeah. - Well, it was a ultimate fucking dope truck, right? - It was sick. - My buddy, Frazier's. - Oh dude. - You said Rally Porsche, Frazier's super and Rally Porsche's. - Oh yeah. - He has literally a Rally. - Oh yeah shit. - That is so sick. - Yeah, this is the first thing he did. He's like, I bought a rally, a rally portion. Like, dude, that is dope, he should. - That is super dope, thank you. - Oh yeah, my big ass is gonna fit in there and just drive it every day to the most fall off. - So what, now, what are, where can everyone find you on the internet right now? - Right now on the internet, my Instagram's probably my main daily influence, which is the Cody Alfreds of the Cody Alfred, that's it, THG. And then YouTube, it's the same, the Cody Alfred. And yeah, I told myself like four weeks ago, I'm like, bro. I'm like, man, I need someone to film for me. Like, if I had my film guy here, I would just like, be crushin' it and then my, one of my best friends, he comes and he's a videographer, he moves back home. And he like, I'm like, bro, we're gonna (beep) dominate, didn't tell him one thing. I'm like, you know what, fuck you, Cody? Like, you're gonna be that guy. Oh, when I'm rich, I'll be happy. You know, when I get jacked, then I'll be nice to myself. So I said, fuck you. And so I just been pulling on my phone and like, just getting my YouTube back up. I was super grateful because of everyone, I broke 100,000 subscribers like a couple months ago. And I'm just like, yeah, I stayed up to like two o'clock in the morning last night, 'cause I said I'm posting every Wednesday, dude, I'm like, I'm doing it, man. I've really over-complicated a lot of things in my life. And so now I'm not playing catch-up. I'm just doing the things that I say I do, you know, and not over-complicate things. - The amount of people, especially when it comes to social media or YouTube or whatever, that over-complicate things. I mean, I started on a fucking iPhone. - Make it efficient. - I still use my iPhone. - Yeah, it's like this, people think, oh, I need this kind of camera or I don't have this much production, whatever. It's like, no, just be you. - Dude, I cleared up minefield on my second deployment with a three-day pack. I took out all my gear, we put rocks and water bottles and I attached 550 cord and I would throw that bitch and I would throw it back, drag it back, then I would screw it up. I would put an IR-kin light on the ground. I would throw my pack and I would drag it back. I did this shit at 19 years old. And then here I am with opportunity and almost infinite resources, especially with social media, right? Hey, can anyone have this? People wanna help you and they wanna see you win, you know? And I'm like, I have every camera, every microphone that I need and I'm not producing anything and I realize that was so much of my life and I'm just so over that, right? I owe myself way more than I've been given myself for the years and like I said, I'm just stoked to do it. So yeah, YouTube and Instagram are like my main thing. Bro, YouTube is mean, Facebook is mean, dude. Hi rules. Instagram is like kind of mean, right? YouTube is like pretty fucking Narnar like mean. Facebook is like, oh my god damn, I didn't know people like you existed. They're like vicious. It's like a whole, we run ads for the hormone coming that I work for. And they were like, same typical, I'm not listening to a tweaker with face tattoos that made bad life decisions. Like my life is. It's savage, it's fucking, I got face tattoos. It's also the age gap though on Facebook a little bit. Dude, these are like old grifters and like bootleggers, you know, and what's the other one? Fuck, what was the other one? What was the other one? Comquats, something like that. Like, you know, like. Very elegant. Where are you? I clicked on these people's profiles and it's like. It's the older people, it's just like, Oh, hello! They're puppy or they're cat. I'm like, bro, you have a senior dick in like a decade, dude. Like what are you talking about? And I'm the tweaker. I keep forgetting integrity because he refuses to do steroids. That's what it is. Yeah, yeah. I can put in that shit in my body. Bitch, you eat taco bell. It's like. You listen to anyone in the white lab coat, bro. Like. Okay. Yeah, how many cans of spam have you eaten in your life? Oh, gross! Bam, dude. They were jolts. Yeah. Wasn't that. That's a 40-year-old thing. How much caffeine was in jolts? Enough to stunt my growth, you know? It was like that. Poor. Poor man's Mountain Dew spread. Oh, that shit was crack. Oh, yeah. Yeah. Fantastic. There was another one, the vault or something. The vault? Yeah. Was that it? It was a jolt. Jolt was a thing, right? Jolt was a fucking green. Yeah, green. Jolt was like one line and bolt. I remember because it like Hardee's or Carl's Junior or whatever. That was the one like growing up that they had vault in the. The dispenser? The dispenser thing. The little thing, you just refill it. And like as a kid, I was like, oh, I got something. I'm not supposed to have. And so I would just get geeked out on caffeine for no fucking reason. Do you remember like pressing all the things like. I'm going to mix all these drinks, now I'm like, baby. What was who was I, please? Yeah. Like, baby. Is this the salami I should be getting? She's like, read the package. I'm like, I don't understand the words. She's like, then don't get it. I'm like, fuck. Life used to be so easy when I'm like, whoo. Pretty marketing up by that. So that's like a whole mill in one package, you know? But fuck, dude, if you want to live and like, if you want to like, I don't know, give your body a chance to recover from all that we've done to it. Like, you got to like, actually think for yourself these days and it's not easy. It's hard as fuck, you know? So. Well, dude, it has been an absolute pleasure. Thank you so much for coming on the sub. You have to come down to you, San Antonio. We'll do a proper one at Unsub and you can hang out for a few days. Awesome. And then we'll go do, I began in Mexico and we need like, we'll come to that. And we're going all the time. We're going back to Iowa. No, Nick. We're going to Mexico. No, bro. The trees are going to start exploding when I get home. I heard about that. What? I have an exploding tree warning. The day I'm supposed to fly home. Right? Yeah. That's the thing? Yeah. Explain. Well, it's supposed to be negative 47. And when it gets that cold, the water and the trees can freeze, causing the trees to explode. Really? Yeah. Have you seen that in real life? No, I have. I mean, I've seen videos, but like, it's not like, they don't like, conclusively explode, but like, the real danger is like, it ruins the structural integrity of the tree and then it falls on your house or your car or whatever the fuck. Really crazy. Like, if it actually did, it's like, oh, yeah, no, it's gotten so cold that the landscaping at my house has become a clay ball. Yeah. Yeah. I'm thinking like, Tannerite explosions. Like, I'm thinking like, Tannerite explosions. We have Eli Double Tap, The Other Cody, Nick, The Fat Electrician and myself, Brandon Herrera. We will see you in the next episode. Thank you. Heavy bitches. Bye-bye. [MUSIC] Imagine setting your makeup, then forgetting it's even theirs. Gel to mist technology locks in your look for up to 24 hours, with flexible, all day comfy grip. Maybe it's Maybelline.