Lily Phillips

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Rick, where are you going this weekend? I'll be in Houston October 1st, 2nd, and 3rd. Come on out to a show. Yeah, don't be a bozo. If you're in Houston, go see the Ricker. The Rick man. Ricky Glassman. And if you're not in Houston this weekend, I will be in Tacoma, Washington this month the 15th through the 17th. And I will be in Salt Lake City November 13th and 14th. Michael will actually be with me in Houston and Tacoma. Get tickets at rickglassman.com. I'm also adding. I'm also adding. New dates for the tour, either starting in December or definitely starting in January. If you want to sign up for my email list, I will let you know if I'm coming within 50 miles of your city. Go to rickglassman.com for tickets and to sign up. Okay, perfect. Sorry, sorry, sorry. I just wanted to check. Dude. So sometimes I'll watch like a podcast and be like, God, I look so sweaty and oily. You know, because of the light, sometimes it makes you look like really glossy. I know that the lighting and the angles matter. I've never seen it. I've never noticed that lighting or angles make me look more or less sweaty, though. I think so. I think the lighting always gives you quite like a. It's got your skin, doesn't it? Yeah, to be fair, like you haven't got makeup on, so it's still a bit. Or maybe you have. I got a good skincare routine. Yeah. Yeah. So does she. So as we're getting into this, I understand that you're in the adult entertainment industry. Yes. So is it fair to assume that when you said so does she, are you talking about like you used. Skinceuticals? Yeah, there's been facials like. Yeah, like IS Clinical, Rosewater. Yeah. So I noticed you're putting something in your mouth. We'll just get this out of the way real quick. I am very sensitive to sounds. Are we chewing or is that just a pack? Snus. Do you do snus? What is that? Is that like. Yeah, nicotine pack. No. Do Americans do that? Yeah, it's called. What are they called? They do zins. Oh, of course. You know, there's a drug that I do do. Which? I'm sorry, I said that. Do, who? Yeah, like that I do. And it's a free plug here. I actually took it right before this. Oh, wow. Magic Mind. What is it? Is it Lion's Mane? It's got Lion's Mane in it. It's got, and I never say this right, Ashka. Ashka Galaga? Ashka Gaga. I think you said that right. Ashka Galaga. That's the girl from Star is Born, right? And it's got like some other stuff, but. I don't drink coffee because one out of 10 cups makes me a little anxious. I just end up like needing to poo straight away after. That's my own issue with coughing. So if that were the case for me, I would drink coffee constantly. I really get things flowing. I have a hard time. Pardon me, I know we just met, but sometimes in the morning I have a hard time going. Really? I have to take magnesium. I go like three times a day. I'm quite. Have you always been that way? Probably more recently. What has changed? I mean. It might be all the men that's been stretched out a bit. Listen, I want to talk about all the anal that we're going to talk about if that's what we're into, but that's not making you poop more. I don't know. I just. Maybe it's the coffees. I do just poo a lot. I'm glad. I see a lot of fibro, I guess. Yeah. So I have been watching some of your podcasts and I. For years, I've been wanting to have somebody in the adult entertainment industry because I am curious and I have questions. And I tried to get in it a while ago and they said I was too ugly and my dick was too big. Too big? Yeah. Oh, I've never heard that one before. They were probably just being nice. But as I was watching some of your pods, I started to develop new opinions. Okay. Not specifically on the business aspect of it. Yeah. But on other people's curiosity or other people's like what they believe, what podcast hosts believe their audience is curious about. Okay. And I have questions and I have opinions on it. And before I do, I want to ask questions specifically about you going on promoting. First being, why say yes to this? And not specifically to my podcast, but like, I'm sorry, our podcast. But like, what are you. Is this to promote? Is this because you like doing other things? Is it collaborative? Like, could you. What's the intention? Yeah. For me, I love doing really like diverse stuff at work. Like, this is fun to me. You know, like, I like waking up and doing something different every day. So I wouldn't like to like shoot every day, but like doing a podcast, maybe doing some TV stuff, shooting for my YouTube. So I just like the, like having basically different things to do all the time. And also like it's great promotion. This will get like clipped up and put out on TikTok and things like that. And it's fun to meet new people I love like, I love discussing. I like a bit of debating. You know, I'm always down to maybe try and change a few people's point of views on things. So promotion. So somebody has. I'm a comedian. It's usually comedians coming on for a special or actors coming on for a movie or something. Yeah. Your videos are pornography. Yeah. And, but you're not here to promote. Hey, I did that movie three years ago. I'm not promoting that movie. Like, are you promoting the newest thing or is it just to get people to go to your channel? How does that work? Yeah, maybe. People to go to my channel and also like education around my work and things like that. Letting people know what my job actually is and like what entail, like what my shoots entail. Okay. Well, yeah. Do you have like a, do you have a way of answering that? Like. Yeah. I mean, like it depends on what kind of shoots. Like if you're breaking down some of my like more events type of work where you've got like a lot of men, like breaking that down from like the social media stuff to like the shoots and then to the aftermath. Is that similar to how in America's Got Talent, they have a full one hour show, but they segment produce it for the clips? Is your business similar to Britain's Got Talent in that way where it's not about the full scene? Okay. Yeah. Yeah. I guess like for me, I prioritize the social media stuff because that's what kind of sells the video. Have you ever tried to go on Britain's Got Talent? No, I don't think I do. I don't have any talents. I don't know how that would work. I can balance teaspoons on my nipples. That is a talent. You could balance them on your nipples? Yeah. You know how people do it on their nose? Right. So you're saying the spoon part, you can't put the handle on it. No, just the spoon. Okay. Well, I'm not going to ask you to show because this is not that kind of show. But if you could do it the other way. With the like the. The spoon, the handle, like this. My udders aren't that big. Your what? Udders aren't that big. - Udges. - Udges. - That's British for nipples or boobs? no I think it's like a cow's udder udder's got it yeah I like I I'm new we don't know each other yeah you know and I'm not stoned and I kind of wanted to get stoned for this but it's too oh my god why didn't you tell me I would've got some like mushrooms in apologies it's okay I have a show tonight and I don't want to get stoned oh I wish I was coming to your show um I'm here all week if you are I'm not but like I feel myself being like oh there's certain things I want to play with and like make jokes and I ask and I can't sometimes I when I feel myself wanting to joke I feel myself I want to joke for joke's sake versus I want to joke because I have jokes I want to do and the first one I look back when I'm editing this I'm like no stop just you know so like I want to kind of ease into it but like you're allowed to make as many jokes as possible sure I appreciate that I'm not like I'm not someone who takes offense to things I just don't want to make you know like can I tell you something it might be it's similar to joke performance anxiety I don't want to force it so I want to get to oh you want the vibe to be right this is why we should have been started or I'm just acknowledging something that I trust in 10, 20, 30 minutes maybe but I'm genuinely like curious about more serious things and I don't want to waste time not joking about boobs and udders and poop the big three but I saw you on some podcasts and I don't like mentioning stuff if a name comes up we'll bleep it but there was one I saw in particular where I have I don't think I have at least not a conscious strong point of view on this business or your business or the people in it I don't have sex with as many people as you and not many people do I don't have sex as many people as a lot of people do yeah and like I watch it and I'm interested and I'm curious so like I don't judge it I didn't even I didn't even think about it until some of the questions that came up and some of them I was like oh yeah that is a little and some of them like who cares when she was asking questions it felt like no I don't mean anything by this did you feel that? I think because she's like an ex-TV presenter she's used to the world of being like having to be so unbiased and it's so like you cannot tread on any toes so yeah she was very like careful as to how she worded everything but it still came through so I don't like this seems and that's fine and what I noticed that you kept doing was you kept saying that I have no shame in this and I'm not judgmental which I thought was a nice thing to say and as it went on and as I watched more it really felt that way it really feels like you don't judge people and I guess that helps for the judgment that you're receiving at least online have you always been accepting of yourself and I ask that have you always been what seems like and I don't know you're so accepting of yourself other people's things yeah I mean I've been someone who has known who I am for a while like from a very young age I always knew who I was going to be what I am like I never had that kind of like weird thing in my childhood where I was like trying to be someone I'm not and things like that and like everyone's always loved me for that and that's why I've always continued to just be confident in everything I do and also with other people I think I'm someone who doesn't care a lot about things I could not care give less of a shit about what we watch at night what we eat I'm just someone who's like I don't really care and that carries on throughout like my entire life about most things so like when it comes to like something you do or say it's just more like it's not necessarily I don't really judge because I don't care do you not care because it doesn't matter to you or you don't care you don't judge those are different things like I think I just don't judge like I've always been someone who's like each to their own you do what you want I don't mind like I think it's so important that we all have different experiences perspectives because that's what makes us human like everyone kind of having different opinions on things that makes the world go round I agree with that completely and I care about I I I asked us to move the couch over yeah you know like I want I didn't want the water in that so I filled it up in this like it's so I have to the point where it's exhausting to the point to where like so see I care about like work stuff like if we were in a video and it was like you know like about this how you say you wanted it us to be like viewing each other I get that but in terms of like hmm I don't know like what other people are doing like what we're watching you know just random stuff like I don't really care about things too much so my podcast is called Take Your Shoes Off because it's we're not in my house but when I am where I record you take your shoes off because I have OCD and that's like one of the many rules I have yeah and I say rules like judging myself like I'm I'm giving other people rules it's in my house so I feel you know it's how I feel safe yeah but like if we were if you were at my place I would have a blanket on the couch and you'd be sitting on the blanket not because of you I thought you meant me specifically no no everybody including me if I'm wearing outside clothes okay so like if I've never understood that you don't understand it or you don't follow it no I just don't follow it I understand that like some people find it gross that maybe you've been sat in someone else's car or on the tube or whatever I understand that but I've never followed it think of it this way I don't know where my guest has been when you come over will you please wear a condom yeah yeah that's how I feel because even if they're clean I don't want to have to wait 14 days to get my couch tested you know what I mean and I'm the same way like when I go home if I were to walk in wearing this having sat here I'd sit on my blanket see I wish I was like that it's exhausting I'm like the least cleanly person you know like I am a dirt bag as much as I try to like keep my house tidy because otherwise it makes me like a little bit you know like where is something you know you can't can never find anything if you place a mess but like I'm I care the least about like cleanliness do you think that translates into outside of what you do professionally just having sex with people unprofessionally I know you're in a relationship but I have to imagine you've had sex with people before that relationship that wasn't for work yeah from what I've seen in one particular episode but like you've talked about looks aren't the most important thing to you yeah I'm drawing a correlation you know what I'm saying is that like aesthetic doesn't matter yeah yeah yeah I'm just a very like nonchalant person and I'm super like into vibes and like just getting along with people like having a nice time I'm not too superficial my parents were visiting California where I live yeah and they stay in a hotel when they were and they were leaving in the morning and I'm very close to my parents I'm at the hotel all the time I take my shoes off in a hotel I'm like I was about to leave and I put my shoes on and I had to go pee and my parents were leaving in the morning and I didn't think they cared but I don't want to take my shoes off to go into the bathroom and I asked my mom I said could I go into the can I use your bathroom without taking my shoes off and my mom said I don't care about anything I remember I laughed and I've known certain the differences between my mom and me with this because she has OCD in a different way that's so me I love her already she's incredible that's so something I would say I just I do not care I don't give a shit what an easier life yeah exactly and that is why I like preach this to people this is why I'm so happy maybe it's because I'm really ignorant to stuff as well because I don't care about a lot of things but it makes me so entirely happy and like I'm quite a delusional person I'm just living in my own dream world essentially but if you never wake up I guess it works what as in like what is it to die deep what is it maybe death is truly being born back in the energies of our life Harriet Tubman maybe my okay here it is my mom said I don't care about anything and for a moment I'm like can I adopt this and then I go into the bathroom and I saw her toothbrush what'd you say you should try it sometime hear me out I saw her toothbrush on the sink on its side so the bristles were touching this random hotel sink yeah and I was like oh no I can't do this what I can't do this nah you know what I've like fished like my phone out the toilet before and just kind of like wiped it off and been like like there's many things I've done it in like public toilets like just some really well yeah if your phone falls in the toilet you get it out no no no but just like random no no but as in like I don't really care about like do you wash your hands I'm not a massive hand washer like I'll go I'll go to the toilet for a wee and sometimes I won't wash my hands we would never work no what if I just wore a hazmat suit the whole time that's my that's people say what type of porn do you watch I don't think I have maybe I do and I haven't realized it maybe I'm sure like there's patterns to what I end up picking but like it kind of just like you throw something up and like but I wonder if hazmats would be a kink of mine if we could touch I would touch you we can't I'm a super physical can we do it I'll tell you what why don't we touch like this that was a good touch that was nice man it felt good Yeah. Wait, do you pee in the pool? No I'm 30 years old You know I can't tell if If you If you're just lying Why would I lie about that I pooped in a pool It's a salt water pool I pooped in a pool Yeah Okay fair enough You're definitely not lying Swipe to a clip Is that true Yeah Okay See even that like Wait are you asking If I seriously poop in a pool Yeah No Oh Well why are you lying to me then Okay Now And you know what And now it begins I believe there is a Huge difference With jokes and lies And intention is only Part of the equation Agreed But to me If I say something that I'm joking That could be a lie I'm assuming that the other person Has to know I'm joking Okay No see I'm like I think I'm a little like Autistic in that way Sometimes I can't like Read it You know what I mean I do And that's why when you said Are you being serious I didn't want to lie Okay But no I think I think if I pooped in a pool I would pee in a pool I would agree I would agree Like Peeing in a pool Is a hand job And pooping in a pool Is a blow job Eleanor Roosevelt Pooping in a pool Is like a whole like orgy Pooping in a pool Is an orgy That's the furthest I think poo and pee Is like extreme Like That's what I'm saying To me in my life To me in my life To you Maybe And I mean this In In the In the worst way No no In any way One person To an orgy Yeah If that's like Whatever that space is To me A pee to a poo Is around Is not that far apart Oh see I think It's quite far apart I think that's because I have drink I drink pee Like You do remind me of my mom Not because of that Just because of Not caring about The toothbrush Yeah Okay so you drink pee But you don't Drink poop No That's why I draw the line But I do like That's a good That's good merch Yeah I drink pee But I don't Drink poo That's where I draw the line Yeah Now when you say you drink pee Is this like a Like this is because There are people that Fetishize that So you do it for your work Or you enjoy it No I do enjoy that Oh well then you gotta try Yeah Magic mind Not only does it taste Better than pee It reclaims your brain That's amazing Yeah You drink pee Yeah It's actually like I think everyone thinks It's really disgusting I've never I've done it many times I've never liked it Pee is like Not that disgusting to me At all Someone could like Like even like As like An infant Like Pee is not that gross Like you could pee on me And it'd be like It's funny that you said Even an infant As if that's the worst case To me if I had to get peed on Even if as a child Like before I did this for work If someone like peed on me I'd be like Oh when you were an infant Yeah like Yeah when I was younger Yeah Like I've never found pee gross But poo is Poo's like Yeah poo's Yeah I think it's just Because it smells Do you have a dog? Yeah Alright Watch this I wanted to I was I thought I was gonna I thought I was gonna be a lawyer And then I'm like I don't want to I can't really read But like Sometimes things come up I'm like I would've been a great litigator What's a litigator? If you were on the stand And I was like Trying to Bias your perspective For the sake of What I'm Wanting the jury to believe Like if I'm like Oh okay She doesn't like poop And she liked peas Interesting Now here would be my Cross examination So you can like Psychoanalyze people quite easily When it comes to Pee and poop That's kind of You know And like some You know That's your niche Yeah Eating But You have a dog Has your dog ever Gone potty in the house? Yeah Would you prefer Your dog to take a poop On the floor Or a pee? Oh You've got me here You've got me here Because I'd prefer To take a poo on the floor Right So it's really Isn't liking Pee more It's Where is the pee Coming from? Where is the pee going? I think it's more like The mess of cleaning up That's how I View the situation Right Pee's a lot more like A lot more admin To clean up Right Yeah But Cleaning your floor Is different than Cleaning your face I'd be a fucking Great lawyer You've got me thinking No further questions You've got me thinking now Now where were we? Yeah How did we get onto this? There was something that Back to your mom Because I love her You don't know my mom yet I'm telling you something She's She's perfect My family is amazing I hear you're very close to her Close to your family Yeah I am I am A lot of people were asking questions About how they feel about Dude I can't I don't want to talk about it too One of those podcasts Bothered me so much Because like I was saying I don't have a strong take I could I could understand Why people judge the business I could understand Why people accept it I could understand Like I just don't have A strong take on it Yeah He had Such a strong take on it Do you know who I'm talking about? Oh yeah Yeah yeah yeah yeah Yeah so I have an opinion And I want to talk about it But I would love your opinion Oh yeah Let's do it Yeah Let's do it It also seems like You know I mean You know Give a shit But did you have a Like Did you enjoy that? Enjoy what? Did you enjoy that interview? Did you feel How did you feel? I think as long as I don't mind Getting into the hard stuff As long as people are respectful I think Sometimes it feels intense When people are like Do you not just think That's disgusting Like I think that That is Saying something is like Disgusting Vile is a very like Harsh take on it What about the people Watching this That like to eat shit? Yeah Yeah Like someone could say like Oh like Is that not pushing the limits? Or I think like Disgusting Or like vile Is a very like Disrespectful word You know There were moments Where like I understood Where he was coming from Whether I agree or disagree I'm not putting it I'm like I get like Oh this is how this works I can listen to someone On the opposing end And be like I understand where you're coming from 100% The way he was doing it It affected me And it wasn't just because I don't know you And But I was I was feeling it for you But I would have been Anybody sitting opposite him There were things that he was saying And he was asking And then he would go Really? Really? And then you had to like Repeat yourself Over and over And the judgment in it It's like If you're not going to believe me Then like don't ask the question Because I'll just say You know But yeah I mean follow up Is one thing But like I don't know I was just watching I was getting riled up And my idea of what this podcast Was going to be Which it still can be And it never is exactly what it is Because I've watched a few And this morning before this I was watching that one And I just watched you sitting there Being like Yeah yeah I understand And you weren't defending yourself And there's And when I say defending yourself It's not even on the career choice Or the actions But like What you enjoy You want Like if I don't believe you drink pee Sure If I do believe you drink pee And I think that's gross Sure But to be like No you don't Do you But And then it's like What are you trying to do? Yeah And I was like questioning like Why is this affecting me? And I haven't figured it out But like I think Zooming out enough I get triggered To being taken advantage of And people speaking When I'm not going to get into it too much But when I was younger I had to go to special Special school And I found out that People were saying stuff about me that Oh I understand why you thought that But why didn't you ask me Or tell me that wasn't true So You weren't defending yourself And there's There's Why do I need to defend myself? I accept who I am And it doesn't matter Beautiful Yeah And I'm defending myself Because I'm standing up for myself And fuck that Also Yeah And I don't know when I'm going to be able to It's just instinctual Anyway My like My take always on it is like That's fine if you have your opinion I have mine I know my real reason And who I am So I never need to like Keep barking back And fighting back Like I could sit on a podcast And tell someone Till I'm blue in the face That this is why I do something And I do enjoy it And you know They're still going to Bite back and say No you don't know It's just a difference of Opinion At the end of the day They are never going to know How I feel doing something So they can't They don't have a fact on it It's not factual fiction It's subjective So it's like What do you want me to do You know So you say it's a difference Of opinion 100% They're never going to know How you feel Not if they don't Ask you questions And when they're telling you And I was also And I'm projecting this But I was also What What I was doing He invited you on the podcast Yes Right So I think he was Protecting himself From the judgment That his peers Are saying Well you accepted this Or you And it grossed me out And it felt like high school Yeah And despite Even agreeing with some of his I don't know if judgments Is the right word But maybe we'll get into it But like Yeah I You know I I put a blanket down On the couch You know I mean I've so I'm so I'm so different in so many ways from a lot of people i don't know and i i guess what i'm saying is i wanted to be like hey man why did you invite me here yeah i wanted you to say that to him dude you should listen to half my podcast if you think that one's like a little on the edge because most of them are very like bitey or judgy and things like that being judgmental and bitey and tough topics if done with tact because if i'm judging you i'm because i'm telling i'm also telling you about me and what i see for better and for worse so that's one thing but he didn't accept what you were saying then anyway i'm riled up and it's clearly not about that podcast yeah no i kind of agree though sometimes you can tell that it's a bit of bravado and they kind of feel like they have to say this because this is the whole of the internet's opinion i find a lot on podcasts where the host is maybe um like one she is quite big in england she's like uh was an ex um tv presenter tv presenter and so she has a massive audience where they hold her to such a high standard that i then felt like she had to kind of question me on certain things and i even i think she said before like oh you know i've got to i've got to kind of ask this because like the viewers want to know and stuff like this so i'm sure you know there's some stuff that maybe she doesn't even agree on but it's because of like who our audience are yeah and that i felt like i thought she was being extra gentle like i think she was being gentle for you and my read of not knowing any of you people was after about five minutes i was like oh you don't have to be i didn't think she had to be that like it seemed like her intentions were to get information i thought that was fine anyway um so you like to eat shit i i i wonder i guess it's not my like chosen dinner now but what i'm getting at is your uh willingness to go in the bathroom with shoes on as a literally and as a metaphor like the playing bathrooms without shoes on okay but that combined with you not needing to defend yourself and like i'm just trying to like find some characteristics because when i meet people and our lifestyles are so far removed from each other and there are like what could i take you know what i'm saying like would i want to those type of things and i have been actively trying to work on my ocd okay and i had a therapist years ago tell me to sleep with people like well that would help kind of it wasn't specific for ocd it was um uh this was years ago and i had a girlfriend and i had not slept with uh many people and she had slept with at that time what i felt was and i mean this when i say no judgment i mean it in fact the judgment that i was making was i felt like oh man she's cool and i'm not yeah she knows more about guys and i don't um maybe i think it's less about the experience and the knowing yeah um more about me being afraid i was afraid i was scared um i didn't kiss a girl until i was almost graduated from high school so you had no experience um well this years had passed since then but it never even now i talk about this on stage even now like i'm scared to go in for a first kiss because not what if she doesn't want to kiss me and she says no but what if she doesn't really want to kiss me and she does kiss me and like it's just easier to just do that and then like not the point i'm bringing this up but like i i never know what how people are really feeling so as i got older there were these opportunities of like being physical people that i turned down that was because i was afraid of like do they really like yeah okay so scared of rather rejection or maybe people lying to you about actually being into you yes oh that seems really like deep-rooted it is and i work on this and i'm aware of it like and it's not even specifically with romantic intimacy it was when i was a kid i i didn't really have friends and i didn't know this i have a joke that i say on stage sometimes that um i didn't know i it wasn't until i was an adult that i didn't realize i had friends i just thought everybody was busy all the time because like people were like nice to me and but then they never included me and i always was like do you do you like me like do am i okay do you accept me um my question of asking your acceptance because i have i've never felt accepted but i didn't realize it as man this magic mind hit i'm not even fucking letting you talk anyway the point i'm getting it was i felt like when we broke up i'm like man she's so much cooler than me but that doesn't make sense because i don't think that is what makes you cool but emotionally i'm still stuck in high school my therapist was like oh my god i'm not why don't you try sleeping with more people and see if that makes you feel cool and i slept with more people i didn't think it made me feel cooler in that high school sense but what it did make me realize was oh i don't need to be afraid of not trusting other people's intimacy like their intention right as i've gotten older i've kind of i don't know if i've regressed or i don't believe that anymore because what i've realized is having sex with somebody doesn't mean you're connected to them yeah and i know you talk on this and i would love to let you talk i'm sorry but also having sex is so connected with somebody yeah is it disassociating is it doing something just because i want to be cool or because it's my job or because i'm horny and you know it's fluid yeah but like you're you're in a relationship and you have a certain type of sex with your boyfriend i heard you talk about could you talk to me about the what intimacy means to you with sex and what intimacy means to you and what intimacy means to you and what intimacy means to you and what intimacy means to you and what intimacy means to you and what intimacy means to you and without sex but like and without sex but like and without sex but like connected to somebody yeah i mean obviously it's an connected to somebody yeah i mean obviously it's an energy exchange i have all different types of energy exchange i have all different types of energy exchange i have all different types of sex when it comes to like on camera and off sex when it comes to like on camera and off sex when it comes to like on camera and off camera um in terms of like on camera stuff camera um in terms of like on camera stuff camera um in terms of like on camera stuff it's a lot more like fun and we're back cut to 50 minutes of my and we're back cut to 50 minutes of my and we're back cut to 50 minutes of my porn porn porn do a little bit of left look do a little bit of left look do a little bit of left look yeah thank you yeah thank you yeah thank you my left sorry yeah thank you i'm sorry my left sorry yeah thank you i'm sorry my left sorry yeah thank you i'm sorry about my little testicle what was that i was giving a high five what was that i was giving a high five what was that i was giving a high five into the mannequin oh okay i was giving a high five into the mannequin oh okay rick don't you're in a relationship rick don't you're in a relationship rick don't you're in a relationship i wish i could help oh i'm gonna i wish i could help oh i'm gonna i wish i could help oh i'm gonna i'm gonna shoot i'm gonna shoot i'm gonna shoot oh yeah baby yeah oh yeah baby yeah oh yeah baby yeah um and it's a lot more fun and playful um and it's a lot more fun and playful um and it's a lot more fun and playful and just like we're all just here to and just like we're all just here to and just like we're all just here to make each other feel good make each other feel good and it's just like oh um also about and it's just like oh um also about and it's just like oh um also about like the content and making sure like like the content and making sure like like the content and making sure like you know we've got the good angles and you know we've got the good angles and you know we've got the good angles and the artistic kind of skill behind it the artistic kind of skill behind it the artistic kind of skill behind it maybe like we want the lighting to make maybe like we want the lighting to make maybe like we want the lighting to make us look more sweaty us look more sweaty us look more sweaty yeah and like the different positions yeah and like the different positions yeah and like the different positions and how can we make look this make this and how can we make look this make this and how can we make look this make this look different and how can we look different and how can we look different and how can we even like where i shoot sometimes i even like where i shoot sometimes i even like where i shoot sometimes i like shooting really like beautiful like shooting really like beautiful like shooting really like beautiful locations and it's like maybe on a locations and it's like maybe on a locations and it's like maybe on a balcony in prague you know and it's like balcony in prague you know and it's like balcony in prague you know and it's like got really lovely lingerie and it's got really lovely lingerie and it's got really lovely lingerie and it's it's there is an artistic eye to it and it's there is an artistic eye to it and it's there is an artistic eye to it and things like that whereas like with my things like that whereas like with my things like that whereas like with my boyfriend it's so much more about boyfriend it's so much more about boyfriend it's so much more about feeling just like being in my body feeling just like being in my body feeling just like being in my body like out of my head and just feeling the like out of my head and just feeling the like out of my head and just feeling the whole kind of um whole kind of um whole kind of um the whole sensations of like everything the whole sensations of like everything the whole sensations of like everything going on and like connecting on a deeper going on and like connecting on a deeper going on and like connecting on a deeper level level level do you like to make eye contact when do you like to make eye contact when do you like to make eye contact when you're with your boyfriend yeah yeah do you're with your boyfriend yeah yeah do you like to make eye contact when you're with your boyfriend yeah yeah do you in scenes you in scenes you in scenes uh yeah i do i do yeah do you feel uh yeah i do i do yeah do you feel uh yeah i do i do yeah do you feel that's that's that's connective yes yeah what's that about i connective yes yeah what's that about i connective yes yeah what's that about i don't know don't know don't know i think it's like telepathic like oh this i think it's like telepathic like oh this i think it's like telepathic like oh this feels really good feels really good feels really good do you feel like when you're making eye do you feel like when you're making eye do you feel like when you're making eye contact they know what you're thinking contact they know what you're thinking do you feel like when you're making eye contact they know what you're thinking better better better yeah yeah does that make sense yeah yeah yeah yeah does that make sense yeah yeah yeah yeah does that make sense yeah yeah um then you have intimate um then you have intimate um then you have intimate sex for work then too yeah but not all sex for work then too yeah but not all sex for work then too yeah but not all the time i would say the time i would say the time i would say like maybe like more the performers that i like maybe like more the performers that i like maybe like more the performers that i perform with like regularly and get on perform with like regularly and get on perform with like regularly and get on well with outside of work and they're well with outside of work and they're well with outside of work and they're more like friends whereas like more like friends whereas like more like friends whereas like i do shoots with like the public and i i do shoots with like the public and i i do shoots with like the public and i wouldn't necessarily say like i feel wouldn't necessarily say like i feel wouldn't necessarily say like i feel oh right connected to that you do stuff oh right connected to that you do stuff oh right connected to that you do stuff where it's fans where it's fans where it's fans it's more just like civilians i don't it's more just like civilians i don't it's more just like civilians i don't really like to use i've heard you i've really like to use i've heard you i've really like to use i've heard you i've i've heard you use that term civilians i've heard you use that term civilians i've heard you use that term civilians yeah i was looking in the comments and yeah i was looking in the comments and And people are like, why is she calling them civilians? Doesn't she know she's a civilian? And I'm like, guys, she's just saying like, I get that. I get that more. There are comedians that refer to non-comedians than civilians. And that I feel is a little like… But that, yours I get because like… Just people who aren't in the industry. Do you meet them before? No. They just walk in? Yeah. Has there ever been a time where they walk in and either aesthetically or the vibe, you're just like, no. I've never said no to anyone, but I definitely like… That's crazy. That's my judgment. I don't… Yeah. Yeah. You don't say no to anyone because you don't want to say no or because you don't have a reason to say no or because you have a reason to say no, but you're like, fuck it. I'll just do it anyway. I don't really have a reason to say no. All right. Got it. Everyone's… No one, like, has been particularly… Before shooting has been particularly rude or anything like that. I don't really ever speak to them before shooting that much. And, like, usually they're just chill guys. Like, honestly, every single guy, you think, like, I get… I understand that people have this perception that they're this, like, gross, dirty, old man. It is so diverse, the people who show up to, like, my events. As far as what they look like or their behavior? Yeah, look like their age. Do you ever talk to them after? A little bit, sometimes. Depends if I've got time or not. Podcast idea. You do that, and then you… We do, like, a Q&A? No, a proper sit-down. Okay, yeah. Like, a one-on-one… Post-nut interview. Yeah, PNI. Yeah. I… During my… Let me not say no to having sex because I'm scared phase of my life. I did a pod… This was way before this podcast came out, but, like, before people knew… I mean, like, this was… I mean, over 10 years ago. I slept with a few women and then asked them if they would do a podcast with me after. Yeah. It was called The Morning After with Rick. Yeah. I never posted any of these, and I won't. I love that. What's that? I love that. Did you ask them questions on, like, how the sex was and stuff like that? Yes. And more specifically, why and when did you decide that you wanted to have sex with me? And, like… There was one woman where we were going to go on a date. We had met on Instagram. And then the day of, she said she doesn't really feel comfortable going on a date because she's never met anybody online. This was a while ago, and she had never done it. And I said, seriously, but I thought it was funny. Like, I was being cheeky, but I said, how about it's not a date? How about instead of me picking you up, I meet you at the movies, and we each pay for our own ticket? Right. So, it's just like, oh, we met then. Correct. And she's like… I would love that. And then, we ended up… We had a nice night. Yeah. She came over. She stayed over for three nights. I never experienced… Like, we didn't leave for three nights. This was the first time I ever had anal sex. Nice. 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What my dog does, I wouldn't let a person do. Yeah, agreed. It's different for your dog. Your dog gets like a get out of jail free card. So I think physical intimacy also has like, I'm not the same way when it comes to that. But then we're doing this podcast. And it was like, we went from you not wanting to go out with me to me saying, hey, I'll let you fuck me for three days if I don't buy your ticket. You know, like it was just interesting. It was such a great conversation. And I genuinely learned so much about how people receive me. It kind of inspired me to want to do a podcast because like, well, how intimate. So now you're going to be honest with me. Yeah. But from a interesting, but also I think a comedic point of view to have a conversation with people right after that. I don't know. I think it'd be a great podcast. I like it. I used to in university send out, was it on Google document? I could send out like a tick sheet. To see how I can improve in bed. So it'd be like, out of 10, how do you think the head was? What would you improve? What was your favorite part of us having sex? Like, what were the highlights? What were the bad points? Like, if we were to do it again, what would you want to do differently? And it was like a whole like score sheet. And then I think that did actually help me to improve a lot more. It's like, kind of like Kobe watching the scouting report. Yeah. I mean, like this. This was at university before I ever did it for work. Do you still have those? Maybe somewhere. You're going back like six years. to sign them now but if you do could you send them to me um i after having sex with somebody love to talk about that not specifically it's so important people find it so uncomfortable but it's so important the end of the day good sex is only about communication brother brother now here's where i'm 100 having sex the first time with somebody it's always going to be shit not necessarily but it doesn't it can be and that's not a symptom of yeah it being bad and i do feel that way with sex i feel that way in friendships as well like hold on like can we figure this out and have a little bit of a shorthand and then then you start to be better at talking to people and so having sex with as many people as you have and saying how was the head and all these things do you have tricks that you could like i don't know write a book but like i could write a book i i talk about my act when i was first started when i was i had my first girlfriend i never kissed her i bought a book to learn how to kiss but the book was about not the book was about everything else and i've read so many books and i'm like i feel like i could write yeah yeah what could you like teach us okay well first things first everyone's different so communication like every time i'm i have sex with people now even if it sounds like people might sound unsexy but i'll be like you know how do you like it do you want me to like grab your balls or like are you more of a tip or do you want me to do i want you to grab my balls but my left ball is smaller than my right ball because i had a varicose seal when i was younger and when i went through puberty didn't grow as much and i feel insecure about it that's okay it'll be easy to put in my mouth will you like will you tell me like it's okay if you think it's weird but will you like tell me yeah yeah like this kind of like i'll say this a little bit more like sexy vibes and also easier to put in your mouth a regular size ball isn't hard to put in a mouth well two depends how big they are well my left testicle is small yeah and i i still am but i used to be so insecure about it really yeah it's not i don't think girls take that much notice of ball size girls love when balls are symmetrical you're out of your mind yeah true girls love like he's not very nice to me but his balls are the same size yeah i'm more focusing on the penis for me anyway but but yeah usually i'm i'm always like trying during sex and like i'll even tell the guys like i'm so invested in making sure it's good for me as well like even if it's like can make things feel more awkward or whatever i'll always speak up and be like no do that differently awkward why why awkward because you're being direct people might feel like it's like oh awkward but i'm always like there to speak up and be vocal are you like that in your life as well yeah because that kind of is conflicting with the idea of you're saying you're not bothered you don't need to speak up about things no it's in what oh i think you meant in my sex life no no no i'm saying you as a sexual being communicating your needs asking questions about somebody else's contradicting somebody saying no more this is very like what i was wanting to be in that room with that other podcast for it to do like no you know like it seems like you're very direct and saying what you want and having opinions on what you want in the bedroom or on a balcony in prague yeah and i'm asking does that translate outside of your no no no but i care about my work like i really care about it and i care about my sex and my enjoyment because this is my like whole entire life whereas like in my private life i'm not gonna like i am the worst at confrontation if i like if something happens where i'm like not too happy about it you won't be hearing about it i won't talk about it i'll probably have a bitch my friend about it and i'm over it um pardon me for being uh not licensed to psychoanalyze something no no go ahead but i want to i recognize patterns and i want to talk about this you'll speak up with what you want and you'll be direct in your sex life and you said two things you said i care about my work and my life is my work yeah you take work aside all your other life the implication is you don't care about that yeah well i'm just it it really depends what it is but most things your life i'm extremely nonchalant about like my life but it's like i'm also such a person who's like everything happens for a reason you know god has a plan for all of us so it's just like i just like to just let things happen but if you have confrontation with somebody you said you won't speak up but if somebody is not it's not a confrontation you'll say something say like someone does something that i it depends what it is someone like is like a tiny little thing so i don't really ever like think to speak up or mention it because i'm just like oh whatever and so like that's just kind of how it happens it's not necessarily like confrontation is there something about the confidence you have while having sex where if there is a little thing hey could you do that softer could you you know you know you've been sucking that tit too long or whatever the thing might be you'll say something but a little thing in your real life you won't do you is there do you feel like a different person i think i i do enjoy my job because it feels like it gives me so much control and like i do i do like that so maybe that's what like is different about i don't think i feel like a different person but i think we all have different sides to us you know um like you're not the same person as you are at work as you are like maybe with your parents and so stuff like that i understand i think it's just like having i agree having like um not not like just like a bit of a like i'm more extroverted if i'm on camera if you see me at home i'm probably like scrolling on tiktok it's just like different vibes you know i know how to read a room when i come onto a podcast which is funny i'm happy to like be down and be silly whereas i go into a more serious one i'm happy to more talk about serious subjects it's just like reading the room could you give me an example of there's before having sex there's boundaries which i feel is more important to set in a professional aspect right yeah and then in a personal aspect there's uh fantasies or kinks or i guess i don't like what could you explain the difference between those and give any examples so usually when i go into work we have like a checklist of do's and don'ts so maybe that's like spanking pulling hair um spitting squirting um yes to pee no to poop yeah bum like any anal play um kind of like a massive list where you check it all off and you look at it before having sex with somebody yeah yeah and we talk about it so we both get the list let's do this in real life and we're both like crossing each other crossing each one off and things like that what do you mean crossing it off like rather like ticking the ones you want to do or oh there's like a form it's like a physical list send me that as well i want to put that up this is a standard if you're in the adult film business these are your yeses and nos yeah and is it do you check off yes or do you check off no or is it um you can check it off either or oh so it's a yes and a no yeah but like usually we'll talk about it anyway beforehand because like it's nice to you want to be able to like remember when you're in the scene exactly what each other's and then i'll also just go over like so what's like is there anything you really like you know especially when it comes to like coming i want to make sure that like we can get this finished on time and stuff like that and i just my partner has the best experience possible whereas like when i'm in like maybe sex with my partner we'll discuss day to day like oh like that's kind of horny or like you look hot in that or like i want to see you bent over there it's it's a lot more like natural all this talk about coming is making me have to pee i'm gonna go pee really quick go for it um uh stick it in one of them no no no so this idea of uh hey here's what i like here's what i don't like i've thought about this when meeting people that like i want everybody to have and i i know what i would write on mine i've never physically done it a one page yeah hey here or what i believe are some of my strengths here's where people get annoyed with me here's where i have blind spots that i've become aware of that i don't know how to handle here's how i like to get fucked whatever it might be take this i would love that i would love that in real life do you see any value in you know you get std checks every 14 days yeah you communicate hey here's what i like here's what i don't like all of these things in a professional sense maybe it feels like that's just how you be a professional i think that's a great way to get to know i'm not specifically you know do you like in the bum or not but yeah that's that's on there yeah you know uh uh is it is when people chew loud does that really affects me so oh so you wish you could do that oh so you wish you had like a physical list of like your do's and don'ts not sexually um well but both yes but it give out flyers to people as soon as you meet them but it's not it's not for strangers it's for people that i might have any relation with okay and i've learned to do that in my life in communication like like when i'm like uh when he put the the whatever the zins yeah yeah and you were like oh that yeah i want to make sure hey it's going to really affect me if we're hearing that instead of waiting until i go hey could you shut the fuck up you know let me just say i i don't like that could we find some way of either not doing it or some type of compromise yeah for me i think like i'm not too bothered about that because it takes a lot for me to be like annoyed at something because i don't care like just you know i mean that's just my like what do you care then what are you saying no to what am i saying no to what's like um i don't really have any pet peeves i'm trying to think i uh uh i can't think of anything that would like really annoy me if you did right now when was the last time you were annoyed sex not sex work not work um wow maybe like my oh my fridge has been out out for like a week like my fridge just hasn't been working and like i've had to get a guy to come over and fix the fridge and he didn't fix it so just it's just been left because he like he fixed it and then it turned off again and i was just like oh and so i just haven't got a fridge i'm drawing a correlation between how much we're bothered by something and how much that then gets resolved versus not being bothered enough to get the thing resolved right so if you were bothered more your fridge would work but if you were bothered more you would be annoyed more and i don't know where that equilibrium is but i think we're on opposite ends of that and i am trying to move over a little bit more to not being so bothered it's it's a bliss life honestly as well like i have a pa so like anything that like like i'll call her up and just be like hey my fridge isn't working do you mind just like sorting that it seems like she minds it or he minds it is it like because it hasn't been fixed yeah well she did send someone over and then i just haven't messaged her back since to say that sounds like an old school porn scene my fridge isn't working sir please um can i help pay for that um what it was it was oh that was always paying for yeah paying for it it's like when you get a plumber over and you're like oh what am i gonna pay with i i think that was before my time of watching porn i just remember goofy goofy skits yeah i just remember seeing movies making fun of that kind of porn i love the goofy skits there's always a place in my heart for them i would love no obligations don't answer me now if once this comes out if if you like it uh at some point i would love to write uh a porn a porn scene but just the role play versus what the actual sex yeah okay i don't remember i know i've talked about this on a podcast but i may have edited it out but i probably didn't but if not i have had this idea for the longest time actually not the longest i'll tell you when i had it when i saw the whatever the newest top gun is yeah shout out to glenn powell whatever the newest top gun was when that came out there was a scene where tom cruise uh i don't remember her name but he likes the girl yeah she she dropped you've seen the movie right yeah no i haven't but yeah i kind of know the job well you would love it and she goes inside she closes the door the next time they get off the motorcycle she goes inside she doesn't close the door but she doesn't look back so what do we what do we i guess i'm supposed to come in okay so he goes in and let's say we're 60 minutes into the movie 45 minutes in the movie they have sex i thought how fucking wild would it be if for 45 seconds it showed them fucking each other like showed the penetration it showed the grabbing of the boobs and the making out and the spitting or whatever the crazy and then it's the rest of the movies just i've always said this i have said this for yonks how good yonks ages yonks ages even longer how good would like a full movie be without the shitty sex scene it's like the full-on porn of it i want to make a rom-com yeah i pitch this to my manager and he goes you're just making a porn i go yeah i go no no i mean like no because it's a movie it's a blockbuster movie a proper yeah that's blockbuster that's very that's like saying this is going to go viral christopher nolan's like he's on it i mean yeah and imax that's what because i've always watched a movie is where they've got a bit of a sex scene and you do get a bit horny you're like oh because you've had so much build-up of the storyline and you are like really feeling it by then they have the sex scene and it kind of leaves you like a little bit blue-bold because you never really like get to anything it's like maybe 30 seconds of them snogging maybe a bit of tit yeah has that perfectly described your experience yeah i don't get blue balls from it i do i don't get blue balls from it um um isn't isn't for women isn't it called purple puss i don't i've never heard that i just made it up but but a rom-com where you're not expecting it and you see it so many ideas and things i want to do so i'm probably not going to do this but i'm planting that seed now it's it's we've made the idea we're probably not going to end up going through with it but we we have the idea but it's not it's not there's not a lot of sex in it no there's maybe one scene in it right yeah because then it just turns into much of a porno yeah it's a movie i want a movie where like where like uh somebody goes to the to the to the you know to a woman goes to a restaurant and she just she's starting over a little bit and uh her her her fiancee you know didn't show up to the altar all the the cliches and she goes in and to a restaurant and the server is just she looks at him and and she can't she this is not like her but she says you are gorgeous and he goes i'm working what am i supposed to do with that and and she goes anything you want and then he laughs and that's it it's just a little like oh my gosh uh she's eating and then somebody comes over and says how how is everything and she goes everything is really good and then it just cuts shows under the table he's eating her pussy but like we see it but it's anne hathaway yeah anyway fantasize about this quite a lot i mean what's that you've like thought about this through quite i think yeah well the the the problem with it that i thought is because what makes this so fun to me is people watching it and having no idea but once that happens people are going to be talking about it the thing is as well once it would happen once in a movie it would happen in every movie i don't know i know i think it would there are movies where it shows stuff not actual like penetration there's one where it shows a blow job i don't remember where it is it's some french movie ah that's that's the french for you who you telling but uh years ago i remember i did a sketch with with um uh kyle cease rachel rocks and rachel star uh you know who the rachel rocks and rachel star are they are they are porn stars from um before your time yeah and we did this uh where it was like a pizza delivery show it somebody order a pizza yeah somebody order a pizza you bunch of pizza no we already ate oh i'll just i'll leave this pizza pizza pizza pizza pizza pizza that wasn't that nice i maybe i'm just it's the magic mind but like i think that would be fun to to to to make one of those yeah i mean like and then you guys do whatever you want for the sex stuff but like but then do you have your rainers broken you know do we have like actual actors or do we have porn actors because i mean famously porn actors are not are not real actors like i would be so dog shit actually that's that's why i haven't moved forward with this yeah because i don't think actors would do it i'm not sure anne hathaway is getting on all fours oh she has children now also she wouldn't be on all fours she would be um the server would be under the table so she's legs up just open i'm an ally just legs open and hathaway i think that the idea of porn stars not being good actors i think it's because we've accepted that we don't need that and i would like a lot of people will skip just skip it because we don't have 30 minutes to have a wank you know sometimes needs to be a quick fivey i'm i'm old-fashioned i i i'm i i like it used to be scenes and not like moments and now you could see full scenes i masturbate more than i used to and i i believe it's in part because i have a little more time yeah uh but i'm joking about that because i i never was able to get into it and still i don't believe you okay okay so you're not believing the acting that's why you can't get down to it but some people i can even if it's not real they're a bit like i don't have to like i just does it seem real but like do these two people seem connected okay and that's where seeing scenes where there's like there's conversation beforehand uh i don't watch all the way but like i i watch that first do i believe this chemistry yeah and if i don't i'm on to the next so it takes me i also don't love watching stuff over and over again i feel the same way with songs like i'll love this song and then i don't want to ruin this song okay so you don't like i have like links to like some of my favorite movies in my notes because then it's just quick easy to watch movies like entertainment not pornographic pornography but then sometimes you say yes porn or not porn yes porn oh got it but sometimes with porn like if i'm gonna watch a storyline i'm gonna not so quickly because like I'm so horny that it's like I can't, I can't say how much 20 minutes because I need to get to the good part because I'm just about to cum anyway. Are you just about to be, the good part hasn't even happened yet and you're so close? Yeah. That's what I'm saying. I need to skip forward. So that part I think is really more important than maybe we realize. If it's getting you so close and you haven't even seen anything yet. No, I don't mean like, I'm not, I'm not getting off to the acting, but I'm just, I'm just like having a wank as I'm trying to like skip through it. Got it. What I'm saying is maybe we're not getting off to the acting because, you know, we're not studying Uta Hagens. Yeah. I want to believe that these people like each other. Don't we all? And I can't imagine I'm in the minority. Yeah, don't we all? But then it's, yeah, you're not going to find people who are hot down to fuck and can act well. Well, like you can, but slim pickings. That's where, when there's, couples that do stuff. I feel like. Agreed. Agreed. I know what you mean. I sometimes see people where it's a woman and you never see the guy's face. I'm assuming because the guy doesn't want to be shown. And I'll then see something else about that woman. You'll see. And it's a new dick. Oh. And I, and I, I legit be like, what happened to them? Oh yeah. You know what I'm talking about? How did they break up? Yeah. I'm being, I'm being sincere. I'm like, well, what's going on? Yeah. When she's had the same dick for the last 20 videos and then suddenly, it's a new one and you're like, they must've broken up. There's, there's, there's somebody who I remember. I, I saw, I'm making this number up, but let's say a year or two later, like, oh, and I remembered, oh, I remember that girl. And I had seen that girl with enough videos to assume a relationship or just she was only with this one guy. And it was a new one. And I was really like, like, what's going on? What's going on here? I want to know the backstory. Yeah. Do you feel that way? Like you said, you said everyone wants to believe that they like each other. Do you believe, like, is that something that you prefer? Or does it not matter to you? Well, as in, in my videos? Not specifically. Well, sure. But I don't mean yours. Or when watching. When you're watching. No. You don't care? No. Because sometimes I'll watch weird stuff like anime or I watch like alien porn and like, it depends what porn I'm watching. But no, I'm not really that bothered on if they have like too much of a connection. Do you watch when you're watching, like, I could tell when a comedian is laughing on stage to help sell the bit or because he's feeling insecure. Okay. And I'm like, brother. I can't read a room well. I've noticed that. You know, a lot of people pick up on, on like little micro movements and stuff like that. I'm also not good at it. I'm not good at it. I'm good at it with laughs. Almost that's like the only thing. I wonder, is that why I got into this? Like, I know if it was a real laugh. I can't really know, but I have a better tell. Not in the bedroom. That's why I think, that's why I think, like, it seemed like she's selling at least that she had a great time. Did she? And when I'm with somebody, I could have conversations and feel safe enough and she could feel safe enough to tell me. But when I'm watching, no. So like, yeah, it doesn't matter to you. Do you then, when you're, when you're having sex and you have an orgasm. Yeah. I don't think you're hiding it. But if you don't, do you fake them? I have faked them. What's the difference between faking an orgasm on screen versus faking it? I don't think I've ever faked, like, really enjoying it, to be honest. I have faked an orgasm more because it's like someone certain wanted an orgasm in it. Oh, the director wanted it. No, no, no, no. Like, say like, it's like a custom video. Oh, so they didn't hear you. Pardon. You said what? A custom video for like a client. I don't even know what that means. Like, on OnlyFans, people request a custom video. So they say, hey, I want you to have sex with somebody. And they want you to have sex with somebody. And this is what I want. Not necessarily sex, like a solo video. And it's like with a certain toy, like a black anal dildo. I cannot really come from, like, just blasting myself in the ass with a dildo. But they wanted me to come in it. And so I'm like, fake it. Sorry, it kind of loses the movie magic. Could I give you some, not notes, but perspective? When somebody says, hey, will you put this black custom dildo and have an orgasm? Orgasm from it. Could you say, hey, I don't come from that? No, but I'm like, I'm happy to like, like at the end of the day, my job is also acting. It's fantasy. So do they know that you're faking it? No, probably not. What do you do to fake it? You shake your legs? No, I usually imitate my usual orgasm. Well. So like, you'll never know. Well, the one thing I can say is like, I think I can usually tell if I'm watching porn. That's what I was going to say. If the girl can enjoy it. I could tell a comedian laughing. Could you tell a fake orgasm? Yeah, yeah. What could you tell? I think it's like the way a girl sounds. And like, I think just like the movements, like, I think a lot of people overplay it. Whereas like, usually when I have an orgasm, I don't, it depends. It depends. Because sometimes I'll have like a, you know, like shaking, convulsing kind of more one. But I, I think usually I can just spot if it's fake. I think usually if the girl's like, it's like, I think that is like really fake. Like so high pitch. I hate when I'm with somebody or watching it and that they're doing that. I want to be like, I want to say knock it off. Yeah. No, yeah, literally. Literally, because I shot with girls. Like I kind of put a thing on like, I only really shoot with girls who are bisexual. Because I don't want to be with someone who is like, straight and not really into it. Like I want, I want us to both enjoy the experience. There are women that are straight that have sex with women? Yeah, yeah, yeah. Really? Yeah, for, for pay. Straight for pay. Oh, sorry. Gay for pay. That's the saying. Do men have sex with men, but they're not really gay? Yeah, yeah, yeah. I, okay. Yeah. But, yeah, so I kind of said like, I just want to work with girls who are bisexual because I want us both to enjoy it. Because as well, like I was getting some videos and I can tell they're being inauthentic and I don't like that. Like the whole point of my videos, as much, is like acting. I try and be my like authentic self and stuff like that. Best way to perform. Yeah. Feel that way on stage. Yeah. So I would like to ask you to do, if you feel safe and comfortable doing so, two act outs. And I want to see if the audience could tell the difference. Okay. I'd like for you to have a fake, don't tell me which one is which. Okay. Have a fake orgasm and then have a real orgasm. Do you want me to do any movements or just the noise of it? Whatever you want. Okay. But again, one of these is a fake orgasm and then one of these is a real orgasm. Okay. Okay. Oh my fucking God. Oh, that feels so fucking good. Yeah, keep doing that. Oh my God. Keep doing that. Oh, I'm going to cum. I'm going to cum. I'm going to cum. Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, fuck. Oh my God. Oh my God. Okay. Scene one. And then the next one. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. Okay. It's too obvious. The second one was real. Yeah. But I would say the first one like actually sounds like me. Like that's like usually how I sound when I cum. I'm like, I'm going to cum. I don't know why I always say I'm going to cum. I'm going to cum. I'm going to cum. And it's like, oh. And I'm always like very like, like so loud when I cum. Even though people say like, oh, you know, a lot of people say, it depends. If I'm on my own, I'm not that loud. But when I'm like, with someone, they're eating me out. I'm always so loud. There's something about it. I think the orgasm is a lot like harder and deeper. Sorry. Sorry for what? I don't know. There's a kid in me. And I mean that in the, in the metaphorical sense. Is sitting opposite you doing that. And there, I have so many thoughts of like, one, how, how ridiculous this is that I asked you to do that. Okay. Because when I asked you to do it, I was making a joke because you're not going to have a real orgasm on this couch. Yeah, you were like, not with Rico in here. No, you're like, don't tell me which one's fake or which one's real. So my joke in my mind was, they're going to both sound the same, but you actually came during one of them. I actually only thought about that as I was doing it. I was like, well, they're both fake. So then as you're doing it, so now in my head, I'm watching you and I knew, I didn't know, but I assumed right away that, oh, that first one, she's doing real. She even explained how she would do it. So that one's going to be the real one. So the next one's not. So now I'm watching you do a real orgasm and I'm aware that the camera's on me. So I'm thinking like, what either bit could I do or what face could I make that I'm not going to be embarrassed from looking at during it. And I'm also, I'm also like, this is, this is so funny and awesome. Like, I love joking and people ask me sometimes like, are you joking all the time? Do you joke during sex? And like, yes. Yes. I love laughter. Laughter is the best, like the best during sex. It means you're the most comfortable because you just both have a little giggle. And it's also makes it like a lot more like light hearted. I'm not fucking like trying too hard. I'm not trying to be so sexy or anything like that. I think it's, I'm just like a giggly, fun person anyway. So I think it's great to be yourself in the bedroom. I'm feeling a little defensive and this is my own being of self-conscious. I want to acknowledge that. But like, I'm not always joking. I'm usually not joking during sex, but like, I'm not like trying to make, but like if something happens or I see a bit or something's I am not going to stay away from it. It's like sometimes you'll fall on the floor a bit or, I don't know, your head will hit the thing and you'll laugh or something like that. I think it's important not to try and pay it off cool because I think that's bad. I had an ex that sometimes, and pardon me if this is not politically correct, but she does a great Vietnamese voice. I thought you were going to say queef, like a Vietnamese queef. I'm telling you, you could hear a queef and you would know what island she was from. She would do this character and then she once did it during sex. I have never, also, I was so attracted to her and we had such a great connection. And the fact that she even made that as a choice already made me laugh, right? So the novelty of it that eventually would wear off at first, but I had never experienced both still being present and having sex and being intimate and connected with somebody and laughing. And it wasn't like, sometimes you laugh for a second and then you get back into it and you laugh and you get back into it. This was at the same time. And I realized, this is magic. But there's a stigma of like, maybe I feel this way because people think I'm not serious enough. But there's a stigma. It sounds like sex should be so serious and I don't subscribe to that. Boring. I'm not all too with that. Like I'll always be giggling. Like when we do these group events, usually some guys- By group events, you mean- Group events with a lot of guys. Some guys will obviously be stood around waiting and they'll start like making jokes and stuff like that. Like, yeah, give it to her. Oh, they're all watching it happen? Yeah, yeah. Like, you know, there's other people around and like sometimes they're making jokes and stuff like that. And I love that energy of just like, we're all just trying to have fun and have a laugh and have a good time and feel good. Like, I hate the thought of like, trying to make things too serious. How come there's no porn like that? How can you edit that stuff up? I mean, my porn. My porn. You have porn where there's bits and stuff? Yeah, not bits, not bits. But just like, we'll just be joking and there's like a bit of like, I don't know, what was this guy saying? Like, when we were at, I literally just did a glory hole event and this guy, like, he came and he came like straight in my eye and he was like, oh, straight to the eye love and like, just things like that. Is that a joke though? Are you saying he was making light of something? Got it. Just like, just like general like, laughter and like, not like, not your thing where you like, try and make a bit or make a joke. Why are there ever scenes where you're getting fucked and then the guy stops for a second and just fucking does a little bit of this and slaps it around? Not specifically that thing. Yeah. But like, there's, there are. There's porn out there like, with everything, isn't it? There's even a category called comedy. Have you not ventured into that? No. I don't, I don't, like, I'm not as specific as I am in life. I don't think I am with porn. With porn? No, you don't seem like the kind of guy. You seem like the kind of guy who goes onto Pornhub and clicks on the first, second thing they see. No. On the For You page. The reason it takes me so long isn't because I'm masturbating for so long. It takes me so long to order from a restaurant. It takes me so long to find a movie to pick. So you're picky. Sorry. You can leave. You can just leave. So you're picky. Just get the fuck out of here. Sorry, that was so entirely rude. One thing I will say is like, I didn't realize how much guys, some guys only care about body. Some guys only care about face. I care about, I care about if they're funny or not. I can't come to a woman who doesn't make me laugh. Yeah, yeah. But some guys genuinely will like, prioritize. I was like speaking to one of my friends who was like, I couldn't care what her face looks like as long as she's got a big back. Big what? Big back. At meaning ass. Yes, yeah. And I was like, what? I care if the guy has a little penis, I'm out. You care if what? If I'm watching porn and the guy has a little penis. Oh, you're out. Or like a really big belly. Oh my God, you're so picky, dude. Just have a wank and like, and get on with it. Excuse me? You're so picky. No, I know. I'm not really offended. No, I, you know, if I order a hamburger, I need no cheese. Yes. Grilled in raw onions. Oh my God, we would never work. That's the reason? You think that's the reason? Or do you think the reason is just because we live so far away? And because I fuck thousands of men. Yeah, I don't think that, I don't, I know I wouldn't be okay being in a relationship with somebody and I'm only bringing that up because of our joke and sincerity of it working out. But like, I know, I don't know. I believe your boyfriend doesn't, like I, that makes sense. If you don't care about that, then you don't care about that. So I understand that. You said that 80% of people in this business are in relationships. Yeah, yeah. So obviously that's not an issue for so many people. Yeah, 100%. And also it's like, it's a massive kink for people. To watch or the fact is knowing. Yeah, of watching. And also, if you think about it, we're all actual cooks because we're all sat on our phones watching people have sex. I think. So he's doing the same thing as everyone else, but he's also getting to fuck me and be with me. And I don't know, is cucking watching somebody or is it watching somebody that is your partner? No, it's watching your partner. Right. Yeah. Could we get a fat check on that? We don't do that. Well, listen, I have, I'm feeling myself like wanting to, I would, if I'm ever in London again while you're here or if you're ever in LA, I would love to do a weed episode with you. Oh, yeah. Do you do weed or just mushrooms? No, both. I've never done mushrooms. What? I have them. I bought them. I've never done them. Uh, I've, what? Why have you, fair enough. We're different. I get scared. I get scared of so many things. I get scared all the time. What's your biggest fear? I'd have to think about that and once I found that answer, I don't know if I'd want to talk about it on here. Uh, yeah, because you don't want people to know you. Uh, yeah. It would be like people coming up to my left side. You know, it's like, stop! Oh, Jesus Christ. I didn't know you were there. Do you have a biggest fear? Do you know a fear that you know that you could connect? I have dark. Do you? The dark. Oh, you're afraid of the dark. Yeah, like, all my house has all the lights on at all times. All the lights on or has night lights? All the lights on. Main light. I'll sleep with the main light on. What are you afraid happens in the dark? I just don't like it because I can't see what's there. Ooh, spooky. Do you go in the ocean? Uh, yeah, but not, not, not a lot. And don't go deep in. That scares me so much. Yeah, I know, I know what you mean. In pools. I can totally relate to that. Not put pools. Pools scare me sometimes. How deep are these pools that you go in? If it's night, like a pool at nighttime. Can't see the bottom. And you can't see the bottom. See, it's kind of similar to darkness because you don't know what's there. Yeah. Yeah, but I guess like, I feel that if there was somebody that lived under a pool that was going to grab me, they are more well-versed of surviving in water. And I feel like if, if it were in a hallway somewhere and it was face-to-face, I would have a better chance against that person than a shark. Nah, but what if it's not a person? What if it's not? Oh, so you're afraid of like goblins? Yeah. The ghoulies. Yeah. I was that way when I was a kid. That happens to me sometimes. I don't watch scary movies now because I was recently, I went downstairs to get water and I thought to myself, because all the lights were off, which is fine. Yeah. It wasn't when I was a kid. I thought to myself, I remember I would have been so scared and then immediately, what would have a fear, like I talked myself into being scared and I ran upstairs. This is the issue. This is the issue. I do this every time. I'm like, I'm fine. And then all of a sudden, I'll be like, don't think about it. And then I think about it and then I'm like, what if there's a man in the corner and da-da-da-da-da-da, you know, and then your mind just runs. Where's your safe bait? Where are you safe then once you get in bed? Like the man in the corner can't get in your bed? Yeah. Yeah, 100%. Under the covers? Yeah, yeah. Do you ever have to go- Oh, I can't have my feet hanging out in the covers, no. I talk about that on stage sometimes. The idea of like, the difference between how, what men and women are afraid of and women, what they're afraid of in real life in a parking lot versus men, like if the goblin under their bed is going to grab you. But that's the thing. And you have to get under and I remember I used to, if I was really scared, I'd have to also put my entire body under the covers and I would be hot. Oh, no, I don't like that because then you can't see. I like to keep watch. But they can't get you in the bed. No, but I just, I don't like that because then I can't see what's going on in the room. Even sometimes I'll brush my teeth and like wash my face and then when I close my eyes, I'm like, oh, I need to be looking at all times what's going on behind me. I'm not going to say what it is, but I have a certain ritual I do when I wash my face for that reason. Yeah. I need to make sure everything is good. Now I just wash my face in the shower. But I'll go like this. Because you're too scared to have your eyes closed? Yeah. Do you sleep with the light on? Yeah. Really? Yeah, yeah, yeah. All lights on. No shit. Yeah. Is that why you were feeling so tired now? No, no, no. Not too bad. Even if I'm, I'm not too bad when I'm staying with someone because they're my safe space. You know, like I'll wake them up if I see anything. But I usually have to have the bathroom light on at least. So like if I'm staying with someone, they'll have to like endure the bathroom light on. What's your earliest memory as a kid of needing to have lights on? I don't know. I've just always slept with the light on. I remember just going to bed and always, to have a knowledge on. - Did anything ever, not, I don't mean anything necessarily. physically traumatic but was there a like an inciting incident that happened that you could i remember my friend once saying like you're not scared of the dark because you you think that the wait what is the saying she's like oh you're not scared of the dark because there's nothing there you're scared that there's something there yeah does that make sense yes you're not afraid of the dark you're afraid of what might be hiding in it yeah essentially right that's it yeah nothing else scares you not not particularly um yeah so anyway the reason i want i feel like i want to get high with you is because uh i feel myself not asking everything i'm curious about and not leaning into things that we were talking about um based off of my own uh i don't talk about my relationships on like if it was if this was one-on-one i have no right so you didn't want to go into your like sex life too much oh yes that that wasn't even specifically but yes that that is also it i i don't feel comfortable and again this this is specifically because i put out an episode every week and i have learned that over time people could piece things together from this episode this episode and people have come up to me uh i remember i got out of a relationship once i never talked about it and somebody came up to me oh because you didn't mention this in the past few weeks and i was like oof so there's pros and cons to having a podcast and i'm so grateful that people want to watch this and it's provided a living for me and i get to meet people and become friends with people and sell tickets to comedy shows and i don't like all the access i'm giving people yeah it's like your privacy essentially but like in the moment like right now i'm like i don't care i don't care like there's things i want to talk about that i don't really care i'll talk but i know me and i've set these boundaries for me because what if i care later all right but when i'm high for whatever reason you have no boundary uh i i don't know i don't i don't know how to explain it i it's it's i'm not even when i watch i'm like yeah it's true but i was hot like there's something i've i've allowed myself to go be on the playground when i'm high yeah versus do i really want to talk about this publicly i don't know right um and there's so many things that we've talked about where i want to be like i know and maybe i would maybe after this i'll feel better if we do this another time um but yeah it is like it's and it's making me even appreciate like the vulnerability of like what you're doing having sex on camera isn't just about showing your body it's about that part of intimacy and you even said that is a completely separate thing than your personal one and i'm sure that's if not a conscious choice still a choice of yours do you feel that like this is out there this is for the public to see but i don't want them to see this yeah it's like keeping one thing private to me i've i've me and my partner have already spoken about we'll never ever have sex on camera right because it's more just like that's work i don't want to make our sex life work you know i like i like i like that it has that like it differentiates itself you know um no but as well like i'm so public with every single part of my life i'm like i'm not going to and it's just nice to have that like one little thing yeah but sometimes sometimes i'm too i've got too much of a big mouth for my own good because then like that's when my dad starts messaging me like why are you telling everyone about my piles you know what i mean like you're like fuck uh i i'm curious and i'm not going to ask for the sake of your father um but but that's the thing that's what i'm talking about because like in the moment i don't know if it's because i'm five years older than you or because i've been doing podcasting for so long i don't know if it's because i'm five years so long where i'm like i feel like i could talk about anything and then when i go back and watch i'm like i'm just revealing too much i don't need to be doing that um but i do think there's a commonality between what you do and what i do which is you are sexual you have sex on camera do you have intimacy in your personal life i love jokes and as much as i'm performing on stage but like i'm also always wanting to do that in real life and where is the difference between me as a comedian uh you know as a as a brand do i call it whatever like you know what i'm saying versus me just like and i don't intentionally i don't have one yeah i don't know i just if these cameras were off i would want to have this conversation i would probably reveal more things and i would ask more specific questions that i felt even though you're saying you feel anyway that's that's the same i've never had that kind of bit of privacy before being with my partner and stuff like that and as well like sometimes i don't know if you feel like it like i'm sure you like go on stage and do it but i'm you perform and then like people might expect that all the time every second of the day every minute and sometimes you just want to like switch off and have a little doom scroll you know yeah there's times where i'm on stage and i don't want to be that and i've learned that i don't have to be so i'll be on stage sometimes and i'll be way less animated than i am in person right so no no i think quite the opposite i think some people like i think more times i get do you ever turn it yeah and it's like and what do you what do you then what do you want to talk about yeah what are we going to talk do you wait do you do you have take like your jokes from like your personal life yeah so then like you so i'm sure you talk about everything the difference is it's curated and intentional right so you and i are in conversation right you ever have a conversation with somebody and you have like vulnerability hangover after you're like yeah that is in every single podcast i go on um do you think you feel no no no no no i don't feel like it's more just like oh i don't want to watch that because i can't remember what i said yes so on stage um um that's part of what it is and i'm okay with that because hopefully nobody's recording it and it was just for us in that moment and i'm fine revealing it in the moment but if i'm putting it out there for people to see there's an intention behind that and and when i talk about something on stage that feels uncomfortable what i like about that is why did that feel uncomfortable and now i want to talk about it more but here once i have that answer it's done like oh i couldn't explore that and that's why i was saying like i don't want to like okay i feel there's more i want to explore in this type of conversation but let me you know let me wait a minute and see if i still feel that way next time okay yeah but i was i don't i didn't think i had expectations of what you would be like um before watching the podcast that i watched you on yet i was i was i don't know surprise is the best i i was surprised that like i you have no idea you'd be surprised how well you don't know somebody just from watching them get fucked you know what i mean which is how like usually when i see somebody having it's because i know something about them already and you are so more so i notice from the things i watch so accepting of other people in a way that how could you not be of yourself oh i love that i i do the connection i made from that is people who are accepting of themselves are accepting of other people yeah and vice versa yeah um so i don't know if you lucked into self-acceptance so it worked out in your life um you feel like maybe you did yeah i've always been someone as well that like i've never felt embarrassment like embarrassment's kind of like a bit of a social construct and like i've always lived my life in this way of like especially when it comes to stuff that people would find shameful saying like oh i don't know i've got hair on my bum bum hole right now it's like i love telling people all this stuff because it's like everything embarrassing is out there of me and it's not even embarrassing because it's just like we can all actually really probably relate like that's like you're not afraid of the dark you're afraid of what might be in it i'm not afraid of my hairy butthole i'm afraid that other people are noticing it or thinking about it and they don't know why yeah and they say it like so you say it first so you've always got the kind of control of like yeah i have a hairy bum hole and what i like it hairy well keeps it warm okay um then there's three reasons why things wouldn't work out uh the i remember when i was in high school i had a pimple that i was so embarrassed by that uh and i realized if i just went in and i said i have a pimple i know i have a pimple and i'm not embarrassed anymore i've got this huge pimple guys um that was day two the first day my mom drove me to school and i said i'm so embarrassed by this pimple and she said let's not go i i'll never forget that i'm like are you serious yeah and she drove me home and i didn't go to school because i was embarrassed about something which looking back at i didn't think of it as my mom was helping me not be embarrassed about my pimple as much as my mom was supporting me with like i'm like feeling emotional my mom was supporting me about something where she's like it's okay to be ashamed it's okay to be embarrassed and as much as i do feel embarrassment and shame with things where i relate to you is i i don't spin about it like yeah i'm embarrassed this is embarrassing that's okay yeah i'm allowed to feel that without being embarrassed about it and i'm like yeah i'm embarrassed this is embarrassing yeah i'm embarrassed this is embarrassing that's okay yeah i'm allowed to feel that without being like i'm it affects my worth yeah i'm someone who doesn't really ever get anxiety like i've never really experienced it truly which is such a blessing um but i think that that is also because i'm i'm probably quite like an ignorant don't really think about things like i'm not a deep thinker and like this is where like i don't really get embarrassed like you know and i'm also just like a everything happens for a reason like it always works kind of person have you experienced that to be true or is it easier to believe that to take the control out of needing to make no i think i've always found that true yeah yeah yeah do you think being close with your parents uh I relate a lot of my love for myself and acceptance of who I am based off of the voices I received yeah agreed agreed my parents were so amazing at raising me like they are always daily affirmations and things like that and it's like even unconscious stuff they were just always had my back in everything that's given me the most amount of confidence do you have any friends in this business that didn't have a relationship like that with their parents where you can notice I mean it's your you can spot it out a crowd like that give me an example just like people maybe being like more insecure about the way they look and every photo has to be edited oh you think you think people being insecure how they look is a direct relation to the relationship with their parents I think it is yeah maybe I don't know about I mean pardon me I I don't know if I agree with that but please tell me I think I think it's just their their parents maybe like not telling them you know giving them the confidence and stuff like that and saying like you're beautiful you're amazing you are you know such a great person like you know giving you their affirmations or even like you know their dad hasn't been there or their mom hasn't been there you know there's just been a lack of kind of guidance okay yeah but I think a lot of things come from your childhood like sure mostly everything yeah um my friends that uh I connect with coincidentally but like the comedian friends I have I I noticed over time that like huh a lot of my comedian friends are close with their parents and I don't know if that's just a certain type of comedy I'm attracted to or a type of person I don't think it's coincidental but like there's a lot of very funny people who aren't close with their parents yeah as I'm sure there's amazing people in all fields that so it doesn't necessarily make it that way but there's a certain frequency but at the end of the day like to be a comedian you have to have immense amount of confidence and and really but you but you're putting yourself out there to maybe embarrass yourself in front of a group of people that's the same as saying I have a hairy butthole you're embarrassed about it so you put it out there sometimes it makes it easier to put it out there right um I can't speak for all comedians uh but I I've interviewed a lot of them and I've heard interviews of a lot of them and so many are so insecure I would never have thought that also when you're insecure you want to find value that you're secure about and if you're funny yeah let me show you this yeah and and some of it the comedy is usually like self-hatred you know like putting yourself down for a google yeah I also think that sometimes it starts as self-hatred and then because you're making fun of yourself for comedy it's easy like when I'm on stage like I there's been people in the audience excuse me I'm not um uh there's people I've people in the audience that like I've seen like Jesus you're so beautiful and I'll talk to them and I'll flirt with them and then I'll get off stage there's not a fucking chance I'm going up to that person what are we talking what am I going to do like I you know so like the difference is uh uh so you're putting on a little bit of facade when you go on stage it's not a facade it's it's it's it's actually the opposite a confidence blanket I think there's more masking off stage for people that feel that way and I used to be that way I still am some but also I'm sorry should I not have like that like me checking but on stage it's I'm performing you you you're subscribed and you're knowing that I'm performing I'm supposed to be talking okay and there is like let me reveal things about myself that if I get a laugh that's what I'm going for great in person they might not feel comfortable laughing or they might be like uh so yeah I think I think going on stage if you're insecure is a big part of the drive and also when you get a laugh you're like oh I guess this thing isn't as bad as I thought yeah and if you do it long enough I think you actually develop a sense of confidence of self because you you finally got to reveal who you were yeah and nothing's really ever as bad as how you think it's gonna be you know I mean it depends what it is it depends what it is but when it comes to yeah what you're what you're projecting what you're feared of like the it's really not that bad unless you're in a scary place if you say but being afraid before going on stage I used to not eat all day I remember those ones I threw up and I walked out of the bathroom while they were saying Rick Glassman I remember having like the taste of throw up in my mouth I didn't have time to in the sink but once you're on stage it's yeah it's you're in the flow of it yeah I mean it's like when you go get like your blood work done and it's like all the pain of it the pain of it and then as soon as they do it it's like it was a pinch I feel like the scariest part of the whole thing and it's like oh my god I'm gonna throw up and it's like oh my god I'm gonna throw up and it's like oh my god I'm gonna throw up and it's like oh my god I'm gonna throw up and it's like oh my god I'm gonna throw up and it's like oh my god I'm gonna throw up and it's like oh my god I'm gonna throw up and it's like oh my god I'm gonna throw up and it's like oh my god I'm gonna throw up and it's like oh my god I'm gonna throw up and it's like oh my god I'm gonna throw up and it's like oh my god I'm gonna throw up and it's like oh my god I'm gonna throw up and it's like oh my god I'm gonna throw up and it's like oh my god I'm gonna throw up and it's like oh my god I'm gonna I call it a towel but I'm respectful um if she would like me to but usually it's you know um case by case uh but if I ever um if we my partner and I are ever fortunate enough um to uh ejaculate all over her I'm gonna get up and I'm gonna get something two questions for you one and least important I want to give her warm water but the warm water takes a little bit of time so I'm gonna give her warm water but the warm water takes a little bit of time so I'm gonna give her do I give cold and keep the hot going and say hey I'll have a warm towel soon but I'm giving you this if you'd like it for now okay do you have an opinion usually I just get like a not even wet towel thrown at me you get it you get a you get a big towel you get a proper washcloth you wet half of it and you keep the other half dry you wipe out the semen I literally never experienced this in my life honey you've been you've been getting splooshed on by the wrong usually it's rather just a wet wipe or like a towel okay well then but I'm gonna okay I would rather have the wall oh no because after sex you're usually quite hot so I want to say the cold one ah good to know thank you for that some people want ice in their water some like room temp for the digestion and number two and more importantly I am very confident with the front of my body I I feel check this out now the back of my body I don't even I don't even want to say I have a small ass because I don't I don't know if I technically have an ass it's just legs into a back yeah and after I have sex with somebody and I go and get them a towel I am embarrassed of them seeing my butt so I do you scurry away like this I'll I'll like like if if we just had sex in the bathroom is that way how are you walking out talk to me and then walk out backwards and then there are some times where I see I'm like clocking that they're like you're talking to me walking backwards so I am assuming clocking that so I then will either moonwalk to do a bit you know or I'll just or where I'm at now in my life is with not fully accepting my ass but knowing um you know I'm a great basketball player I'll never make it to the NBA like I know where I am I will say hey um I'm really embarrassed about my butt you know like that's the best I think that's quite funny sure and that's what a luxury that I get to make that funny but it's really is a thing I'm embarrassed about my butt now I'm about to do this tv show where that I'm very excited about dating naked what's that dating naked no no it's called uh oh different and there's a bit where I go and I I basically do something and I I raise my hands and I'm wearing a long shirt and lift my shirt and you see my butt and I'm like fuck I get the bit it's the oh I would rather show my penis than my yeah and so I'm like well it's in like three weeks I'm like could I do enough butt exercises to get my butt big enough and no I can't so my thought is either I say I'm not gonna do that or I do that and my I don't want to and I also think if I do it and once my butt's out there then it's like fuck it I'm fine exactly I think it's amazing to just own stuff nine times out of ten I'm not really looking at a guy's ass too much I mean maybe other other counterparts might look at more male bums than me um but are you are you looking are you gay bisexual no I over assess things so was that a no he could assess things no no I genuinely do and he likes the male bum but um hey and don't watch this show I'm on but uh yeah in all honesty I don't think people care too much how big a like a guy's bum is and I think it's but then mm-hmm if you want to set your boundaries and you want to say guys I don't feel comfortable doing this I think that's totally fair I also agree it's fair it's not about like oh I'm worried that they're going to be upset with me it's like I don't like that I'm not doing something because I'm afraid like when I'm afraid I want to check in with that yeah you're like you're letting your insecurities yeah sometimes I think fear is good if you're afraid of the dark and you're going down an alleyway that's great find a friend carry mace get a flashlight but if you're in your own house and you have an alarm on and you know somebody came in and you're afraid of a ghoul like I get it I get both of those I mean it but there are some times where we have to challenge yourself to not be afraid versus when we have to trust the instinct and this is one where I feel like that's what my electrical bull says like you need to challenge yourself Yeah, that's wild that you sleep with your lights on like that. Yeah, 300 quid like every month gone. Yeah, talking it through you, I think maybe show my butt. I think show the butt. I'd give it a like on social media. Yeah, I don't know if I'd post a clip. I also wonder like, do I shave my butt? No, don't do anything. I like a hairy bum. I think it's manly. You're attracted to things I'm not attracted to. That's so real. You're fine with ugly people. And I like pee. So it's like, yeah, you're not talking to the best person here because like I like everything. But what I am liking is your perspective of like not caring about it. Yeah, I do like that. I think just own it. I love when someone's like done something embarrassing or they don't like something about themselves and they just fucking own it. Like that is the best thing. I think it shows such a good like thing of character. I agree. That's where comedy has kind of helped me a lot. I get so drawn to them people. Yeah. I don't have that many things I'm like self-conscious about. There are things where I'm not proud of. Like I don't think everything looks great with me. But like whatever. I'm not like, I'm not a hot guy. I don't need to be a hot guy. But there are some things. You're a cute guy. Thank you very much. But the butt is one I just haven't. Go on, show me now. No, no. The left testicle used to be a thing. I made that joke during before. But my left testicle is smaller. And I don't mind having a left testicle. But I was always embarrassed if like, if they notice my left, testicle is small. And if they didn't say anything, I'm like, you're just thinking about my little ball, aren't you? Right. That's where I feel like even before. No one's thinking about your little ball. I'm just going to say that. No one's thinking about them. I've communicated it to everyone I've been with. And they've all said the same thing. But I still feel like I need to say, I have a pimple on my face before you notice it. Because you're down there. And then there's a little ball. I want to be like, I know it's small. The other one's fine. I guess you're allowed to be like, sorry, he's a little more tiny than the other. But I wouldn't even point it out. As soon as you point out you've got a pimple on your face, now everyone's looking at the pimple. Yeah. And then enjoy the view. Because I'm not worried about what you're thinking. Now I know it. Yeah. Anyway, in conclusion, I think I'll show my butt on television. Why don't you try and get over your fear? As in like, no, no, no, no, no, no. Before that, maybe like go to a nudist beach. Flap that bum around. Flap that big booty of yours. No. I don't know. Just like, I think, and like, maybe even show some friends it. Just be like, guys, like, doesn't like, and like moony them. Just so then you get into the rhythm of showing people your butt. And then soon enough, like soon enough, you'll be walking around nude. Yeah. I'm not able to, yeah. What is it called? Where you like, yes. Just a session. Just cut to me just doing porn in three weeks. Yeah. You know, but always, but never, never from the back. Never from the back though. Yeah. I'm like, I, I went the other way. All right. Well, this was fun. Thank you. Anything in particular you want to plug or anyone? Oh, I don't like it. I don't like it. I don't like it. I don't like it. I don't like it. Don't stop. Don't stop. I don't like it, but don't stop. Nah. Okay. Well, theme music, I guess. I don't even know what I'm talking about. I don't even know what I'm talking about.