How to Reinvent Your Life Starting Today

Hey, it's friend Mal and welcome to the Mal Robbins podcast. [MUSIC] Our guest today and the conversation you're about to hear proves there is a bigger possibility waiting for you in life. It's not too late. You can reinvent your life at any moment. You can figure out what you want and you're also capable of creating it. My very close friend, Hota Kotby is here to talk about reinvention and I've been waiting for this moment since I started this show. Hota more than anyone else will prove to you that reinvention is something you can do. In her 20s and 30s, Hota climbed the ranks in newsrooms across the country and refused to quit until she landed one of the most coveted jobs in the world, a co-anchor slot on the Today Show. In her 40s, she became a breast cancer survivor. In her 50s, she adopted her daughters and became a mother for the first time. At 60, at the peak of her career, she walked away from it all to launch a brand new tech business with no prior experience. Every single time life told Hota, it's too late. She said, no, it's not. Watch me. The wisdom she is sharing directly with you will prove that it's not too late. You can reinvent your life right now. She's going to walk you step by step through how she did it over and over and over again. She will teach you how to gain clarity when you don't really know what you want. She'll show you how to stop closing the door on bigger possibilities that are waiting for you, how to keep going when other people say you're not good enough and how to truly start to believe that you do deserve more. This is one of those conversations that is going to hit you like a freight train. You're in the right place at the right time and I promise you this is exactly what you need to hear. Oh, I want to give you a quick heads up. There's a special segment later in this episode. Oh my gosh, you need to hear it because it's about taking a pause, a real pause and why it matters more than you think. So stick around so we can take a pause together. This special segment is sponsored by our friends at Celebrity Cruises. Hey, it's your friend Mel and welcome to the Mel Robbins podcast. I am so excited that you're here. It's such an honor to be together and to spend this time with you if you're a new listener or you're here because somebody shared this conversation with you. I just wanted to take a moment and personally welcome you to the Mel Robbins podcast family. I cannot tell you how extraordinary today's conversation is going to be because we're talking about how it's not too late. In fact, you can do it today here in our Boston studios is the one, the only Hota Kotby. Now if you know who Hota is, it's probably because four years she was the beloved co-anchor of the Today Show. In fact, she and Savannah Guthrie, they were the first all female co-anchor team for a major network morning TV show. Hota is also the number one New York Times bestselling author who has written nine books, including her newest bestseller, Jump and Find Joy, which is all about embracing change in every season of your life. Hota has won four Emmy Awards, three Gracie Awards, a Peabody Award, and the Edward R. Murrow Award. And so, Hota's life story is one giant demonstration of how you can change your life at any moment because Hota has done it over and over again in every decade of her life from climbing the ranks in newsrooms in her 20s and refusing to quit to going through divorce, being a cancer survivor, adopting her daughters at the age of 52 to walking away from her dream job on the Today Show to launch a new company in her 60s. If there's one person on the planet who can convince you and teach you that it's not too late, and there is more that your life has in store for you, it is Hota. So please help me welcome my dear friend Hota to the Mel Robbins podcast. Hota! Welcome to the Mel Robbins podcast. I've been waiting for this, Mel. I've been waiting for you. Well, I am so excited to pay it forward because you have shouted from the rooftops and celebrated me every single time I have been on the Today Show. We have become friends. I am so excited to sit with you, to have the person that's with us right now, get to have that infectious Hota energy zapped right into your veins. And everybody knows you as the host of the Today Show. But what they don't know is you are one of the wisest, most honest, infectious, inspiring person that I've ever met. Wow. Wow. Can I just say one thing? First of all, I received that and thank you and I love you. But when I'm looking at you in this moment, I am having a total flashback to the first time you came on the Today Show. And we wondered, who is this tornado? Who is this person who walked in? And I remember your energy preceded you. And what I remembered hearing your story and thinking to myself, my God, like so many things in life are possible. I stroll through your studios today. And I feel so proud of you. And so it just shows what possibilities are there. Because you're walking it, you're talking it, you're living it. And I get to sit in it and it feels really good. So thank you to you. Awesome. Thank you. Awesome. You know, and that's actually what we're going to talk about today because I feel like more than anyone that I know, you have this incredible story where you are constantly reinventing yourself. You're constantly thinking about what's possible. You're constantly challenging yourself and the norm. And you know, where I want to start is if I take everything too hard that you're about to share today, what could change about my life? I'll tell you what could change. First of all, where you are in this very moment today, right now with all your problems and all the crap that you're carrying and the job you may or may not like and the relationship you may or may not be into, all of that is not your destiny. This is not where you are going. And the key to me is something that I feel like I've learned is sometimes you feel like I'm on a train and I'm going to go to my grave. I'm on the way. Just pull on in. And I think what I realized is you can stop, hit the brakes on your life at any time. I don't care if you're 20 or 40 or 60 or 80 brakes, pause and look, look at your life. Just look at it from 35,000 feet and then decide, do I want to change it? And I'm here to tell you, like I feel like I'm living breathing proof that you can change it at any time. Things you thought were impossible are not impossible. And they are actually probable. You can do these things, but you have to know that the possibility is out there. You are on fire. I'm on fire because I feel it in my bones. I feel it in my bones because I was the person who thought, this is my life, this is good, is it's going to get? And I am grateful and thank you. And that's enough. And I went from that's good enough to that's not enough. And there's more for me out there and Mel, it's out there for the taking. I think we sit there and go, you know, that's enough. Don't be greedy. Don't be selfish. It's too much. Abundance, man. Abundance is available. I mean, look at you. Look at me. It's out there and available. I love what you just said. So I'm going to take a giant highlighter and highlight it to make sure as you're listening, whether you're on, you're taking us on a walk or we're in your car or you're watching us on the big screen on YouTube at home, that you went from, okay, this is enough to that's not enough. No, no. No, I mean, good enough is not enough. Good enough is not enough. And I'm not saying be constantly dissatisfied. Okay. I'm not saying that because I think especially and we're going to get into it, we're going to get into your story because you have done this, stop the train, look around. Do I like where I am? Do I want to get off? Do I want to go to different? You have done this so many times when you run through these kind of major points where you're like, stop the train. Yeah, stop it. Stop it or freaking accelerate the train. But talk for me for just a second about the difference between, okay, good enough is not enough. Being an abundant point of view. And anything is possible or what if possibility expansion point of view versus good enough is not enough. Mm-hm. something that you bash yourself. - Yes, what I'm saying? - Yes. So I think sometimes you can feel like you're always having FOMO like what's over there? I don't know what high is good enough. Look at their relationship or look at that job. That looks better than my job. I'm not talking about that. I'm talking about that when you quiet yourself and sit and you think to yourself, is this relationship? Is this job? Is this whatever giving me what I deserve? Because I think when you feel like you're not worthy, then you take the guy who's, "Eh, he's okay. I'm not okay. He's gonna, I'll take that." Or the job where they grind you down and nobody ever gives you any compliments and you're not really getting a raise and you've asked for it 20 times and they're not responding. Like I think there are moments to look at your life, reevaluate and change it. I'm not saying I want that beach house and I like what they have and I'm never going to be satisfied. No, I've been satisfied in my day to day every day with what I have. I can also do that and look ahead and go, "Okay, I feel like I'm worth more than what I have right here." So I believe I deserve more. And it takes a lot to say that. I mean, there were times where I thought, "Do I deserve any of this? Do I deserve this job? Do I am I worthy of it? Do I even deserve?" I mean, at one point, male, I thought, like, do I even deserve my kids? Am I worthy of them? Like, I thought those things before and now I've kind of turned a page and realized that, "Yeah, yeah, I do deserve my kids and I did deserve that." So in really listening to what you're saying, let me see if I'm tracking 'cause I think that is really important. When you're talking about, as just a starting ground, the, is this good enough? The mistake that we make is we look outside and go, "Oh, it's the things, the job of this, the other thing." You're actually challenging us to go deeper. And to ask ourselves, honestly, is how I feel about myself, how I feel in this relationship, how I feel in this job, is that good enough? Do I feel respected here? Am I being treated in a way that's attractive and that makes me feel like I'm loved? Or can I be honest with myself and say, "I don't like how I feel in this relationship. I don't like how I feel in this job." And that you're actually inviting us to say, that is where the shift has to happen. There is something better that you are worthy of that will make you feel differently. Is that? That you put your finger on it squarely. It is like knowing and realizing that, you kind of have to stop it down and see and evaluate your relationship, really look at it and really look at your job and really look at your life. My friend, Ria Schreiver, had me do this exercise and it had me look at my life this way. So she said, "Okay. I want you to get a piece of paper and I want you to cut it up in a bunch of pieces." I was like, "Okay." So I did that. She goes, "On each piece, I want you to write down a part of your life that requires your time, your attention, your love, all the things." And each piece should correspond to how much time effort energy you put in. - Oh, so the pieces of the paper are different sizes. - It's like, "Okay, the big one, okay." - There's a job or there's taking care of my parents or there's taking care of my kids or, "Okay, got it." - So I started writing down kids and that was a big piece, the biggest piece. Work was, you know, medium size and then it was visiting my mom, exercising, taking care of my dog, taking trips, blah, blah, blah. So I looked at my whole thing and she goes, "There's your life." How do you, is that shows you, are your kids really bigger than your job? And I go, "No, actually not." So it's changed those. So we flipped those. And are you really spending that much time visiting your mom? No, okay, why don't you switch that? Why don't you switch that? So make work even bigger. By the time it was done, I looked at my papers and she goes, "That's your life." Do you like it? That's how you're gonna spend your life. You've just shown me. Here it is. And I looked at it and I thought, "Pause, stop, reevaluate." And look, so the job piece, the family piece, all of these pieces and all of a sudden I looked at my life in a totally different way. So I think what I'm saying here is, like take your life and try to 360 it. You know, whether it is your relationship, your job, and how it all fits together, and then do a reevaluation and take a look at it. Because otherwise, girl, you'll be marching off. You'll be going to the end. You'll be like, "And now I'm 90." And you're like, "Why didn't I, what was I think?" And I could've gone, "Could I turn back there?" Yes. But it moves too quickly. So it's like a stop down. That exercise is an example of one way that you can stop the train. Yeah. And force yourself to look. Yes. You know, I want to read to you from your New York Times blockbuster, best-selling book, Jump and Find Joy. I am reading from the introduction and you say, "I truly believe that it's never too late to let go of what you know isn't working and to go for what you want." Mm-hmm. Yeah. What does that mean? Well, in that particular case, and again, I love this person, so I don't want it to be any kind of a slight against him. But this, one of the things I was referring to is, I was in a long relationship with a wonderful guy named Joel, who was a lovely human, great dad to our kids, all those things. But sometimes in a relationship, it just stops working. Mm-hmm. Or you realize that as you grow and as things get better, something's not sinking in. Yeah. And, you know, we tried all the things like, there was a guy who said, "Every couple of years, reintroduce yourself to your spouse." Hi. I'm Mel. Hi. Just so you know, I don't like Apple Bees anymore. I loved it. I like Outback now. I know you always want to take me to Apple Bees. I'm over it, okay? I know that was our thing, but now I've grown and I'm here now. You know, in all these ways that you can re-evaluate your relationship. And I think after a lot of those kinds of things, I think there comes a point where, sometimes values don't align and sometimes things don't align. And so, it's okay to take different paths. We took different paths, but their parallel paths, like Joel just came over. He hung out with the kids on Halloween. He dressed up. So he's a big part of their lives and we are happier in this way. But I think it's important sometimes, and I don't encourage, it's not like, you know, look at your spouse and I don't encourage that. But I think there does come a point where you say to yourself, there's nothing innately wrong here. Sometimes it's the quiet parts that aren't there. And not in a, you know, everything was fine, you know? Well, I love that we're starting here and I'll tell you why. Because the act of reinvention is either something that will be forced on you. Because somebody does something terrible and the relationships over or somebody that you love is no longer here or something like it's either forced on you. Yes. It's forced on you when your kids grow up and move out. It's forced on you when industries change. It's forced on you when a recession hits. It's forced on you when somebody dies. Or it's something that you give yourself. And when you said, really, you can at any moment stop the train that is barreling down the track. You can at any moment break your life into these pieces and honestly ask yourself, is this actually how I spend my time? And how do I feel in each one of these areas? And so what you're pointing to is the permission to feel worthy and joy and to feel fulfilled in new ways. And any woman that's ever had children who was a stay-at-home mom who quietly starts to feel like I want to do more. That is the exact same moment of reinvention. Because it's not that there's anything wrong. It's a beautiful thing. It's an amazing thing if you can afford to stay home with your kids. But there's something that's very quiet that is dying at you that just, and what I believe that is, and I think the dots that we're going to connect, is that that is this abundance that is available to you. That is the fact that there is something you're worthy of. And you can claim what's worth, you're worthy of without making the thing, whether it's parenting or the relationship or the job that you're leaving unworthy. You see what I mean? A hundred, a hundred. And I think, too, it's like the first piece of the whole thing is speaking it out loud, even if it's a whisper, even if it's to yourself in the bathroom mirror, even if it's to your dog waffles. It doesn't matter. Like speaking the thing out loud. What is the thing that whatever your thing is for me, one of the things that was missing in my life that I did not believe I could ever have because of life's challenges was motherhood. For me, I had gone through some challenges early in my life. I had breast cancer in a divorce and went through those things and I had missed that train and it was crushing me, crushing me. But I buried it so deep down because it was not available to me. I was not going to speak about it because if I spoke it and why would I say something that would never come to be? So one day, I was in my 50s. I was 51, I think, and I was walking down the beach with a good friend of mine. And her name is Jen Miller and I love her so much and she's kind of a mother to everybody. And she said casually as we were talking about life and we were just at a baby shower and she goes, "Oh, we never wanted kids." And I stopped and I looked at her and I said, "Actually, Jen, I I kind of always did." And she said, "But you've never said that." And I said, but I want to say it because it's like I want to be an astronaut or whatever it's not happening. And she goes and she goes, "That way you always said you wanted to be a teacher of elementary school kids?" I said, "Yeah." She goes, "That way you said you wanted to run a summer camp?" I said, "Yeah." She goes, "Oh my God." So I kept saying myself, "I can't believe I said it." And I go home, speak it out loud. I go home and I turned on access or something like that. And Sandra Bullock had just adopted a baby named Louis from New Orleans. I was like, "How old is Sandra Bullock?" I'm like, "Oh my God, she's my exact age. It's possible." And so this secret, this, you can't have it. Don't say it because you can't have it. I said it. So I was like, "That was weird." So I was like, "Is that a sign?" So I ended up watching something else on TV. And there was this little boy. And I remember the image so clearly and vividly. He was in Syria and he was covered with soot. And he was crying and it was terrible. And his parents had died and I looked at that kid and I was like, "That kid. That kid needs me." Like, I'm not like, "What am I doing here? They're kids who need me too, just as much as I need them." And one by one, after speaking those words out loud, things were happening. And so here I go, I start the adoption process. I'm 51 filling out papers. Like, what is happening here? Mel, I am like sitting at my desk because it's never happening. And the phone rings. And the lady on the other end of the phone says, "My two favorite words in the English language." She says, "She's here." Haley Kane. This was solely because I spoke it out loud. I promise you, if I would have buried it like I've buried other things in my life because it's out of my reach, something about saying it in the universe changes things. And it changed it for me. So, I mean, what I guess I'm saying to your lovely, incredible listener who's here is, it's not too late. It's not too late. Whatever you have in your brain or in your soul that you're carrying, like, no, no, just say it. Say it anyway and see what happens. Like, I think we bury things and I think it's good to unearth them and give them a go. You know, the visual that came to mind, as you were saying, say it because something happens when you say it is I had this image immediately of a door that you open. And when you bury something deep in you and you don't say it because you are convinced you missed the window. You're convinced it's too late. You're convinced it won't work out for somebody like you. You are the one that keeps the door closed. But when you say it out loud, you have just opened up the door, which allows the energy to shift. And the possibilities. I mean, I've got at home now an eight-year-old and a six-year-old. Think about that for a second. Because of that conversation that one day on the beach, I have an eight-year-old who is in third grade who dressed up like a saints cheerleader for Halloween and who is, you know, God knows what she's going to be. And I've got a six-year-old. And the two greatest things in my life happened because of a whisper, of a not being afraid. And I think, you know, when you talk about like fear is what is holding us all back. And I am just convinced that for anybody who's dreaming about opening a business, it doesn't matter what it is. I don't get going back to college. You know, should I try that? Should I open the flower shop? Oh no, I don't know. I don't know. Just friggin' say it and try something and see because you know what's going to happen if you're sitting at home? Nothing. Nothing. Nothing's happening. And so swing for it. And then see, at least you've tried. And I think that's, I think that's one of them. But the open door is it. Because you're right. You're the one who's locking it close. Yes. You're the one who's saying, no, it's not going to happen to you. Yes. You're the one. Because you're the one that blocked all the possibilities that it could. You know, as you're listening and watching, here's what I want you to do. There is somebody in your life because I'm so struck by the fact that you can identify the exact moment, the exact conversation, the train is going down the beach. Normally, and I'll tell you anything. And you're like, whoa, wait a minute. I actually want kids. Yes. And you stop. I can see it as clear as day. You stop. We've all had that walk where you turn to a friend and go, are you really having the marriage? When are you going to leave that job? Like, you know, just like something, but I want you because I know there's something you're saying to yourself, just listening to Hota right now. I've told myself, I can't start a business. I've told myself, I'll never find love again. I've told myself, I can't have children. I can't be a parent. I've told myself that there is something that it is not possible for me. And here's what I want you to do. I want you to share this episode right now with somebody that is in your life that you trust and say, I just listened to this incredible conversation with Hota. And it made me realize that I've been blocking the possibility of ever finding love again. I've been blocking the possibility of starting over. I've been blocking the possibility of getting out of debt. And I needed to tell somebody I trusted. And so I'm telling you, and watch what happens in your life when you open the door to the possibility that you could have this thing. And I think we want things so much that are meant for us. That one of the reasons why I know I've closed the door in the past is because the thought that I would allow myself to want it and it wouldn't happen feels too painful. That's it. That's the whole thing. Like, but if I open the door, Mel and Hota, and it doesn't happen, then what? Yeah. Then you have the life you have now. Yes. Right. Nothing's changed. Yes. You just spoke it out loud. I think the whole idea about that, like you said, the job that's not working. It's like there's this phrase I love, which is just repotting. It's like you're pulling yourself up by the roots. And when you're in the air, you're scared to death. You're like, Oh, God, there's no water. I'm going to die. I'm going to die. I'm up here. My roots are flailing. And then gently placed into a bigger pot nutrient rich. The soil's good. It's soaking up. You're like, wait a minute. Oh, look what it's like over here. I thought if I left this little pot, I was going to be dead. And what you found is you just needed room to grow. I mean, your heart's ability to expand is beyond measure. I thought I had all the love I could handle before my girls. I was like, I have a great family. I have a great boyfriend. I have a great puppy. I have a great, great, great, great, great. And it's all true. It's all true. But when you crack it open, the amount of love that will come toward you that you had no idea was even possible. It was so out of the realm of even my wildest, I couldn't dream that big. Like I couldn't my my brain wouldn't take me there. But yet, I'm actually living that life. And I often think, what would have happened if I didn't have that conversation? What would have happened if I didn't, there were many leaps and things I took in life? What would have happened if I if I was to a fruit? Where would I be? I mean, I could picture my life. I would be probably married to someone who I shouldn't have been. I probably would have been working in a job that was okay. And my life would have had this kind of a parameter. Right. Well, I want to just go back and keep circling back to the fact that as you're listening and watching, you don't miss that this begins with you stopping the train for a second. And you asking yourself, how do I feel in my life? And is how I feel good enough? Because Pota is here to tell you, it's not good enough. And there is something that is so much richer and deeper and more profound and possible for you. But it begins with that quiet admission that, yeah, okay, this is, okay, this is a good life. And. And I think it's also, Mel, you're trying to, because sometimes you can think about taking a leap or should I go? And sometimes your leap is up where you are and back down. You actually are in a place that is perfect for you. Sometimes the leap doesn't have to be out. It can be up a weight landing. This is it. Sometimes I just need a different point of view. I'm actually exactly where I should be. And I think that's very, very important to think about. I mean, look, I was, you know, at the today show and I was leaping up and down saying, what's better than right here? Like nothing. I mean, to the rest of us, because I think this is another thing that's really amazing about your story. You are at the height of your career. You have one of the most coveted jobs on the planet. When I was growing up, I always thought the job that you had was like the best, I mean, the anchor of the morning shows, what? The Olympics. It's a good day. Meeting everybody. Guys are always having fun. The people you get to work with. Oh my God. And now, and I'm psyched. Wait, what? Hold us, leave it. Wait, what? And so I am saying that because, you know, what happened that had you. Go even in the height of everything. And like to go, well, you know what? I think there's something else. I'm only quite sure what it is. No, it's kind of weird, right? Well, it's not only that it's, it's, it's not, it's weird to me because I'm watching you. And being in your presence and in that space, like, it is custom made for you. What you experience through the television with Hota is, is 100x what you experience being on television with Hota. And so when that happened, it must have, like, was it, were you afraid? Were you, like, how did you walk away from what looked like was perfect on paper to become the CEO of a company that you are building in an entirely new space? You know what's funny about, well, something hit me. It's about decades for me. Okay. My 30s and 20s, I worked my tail off, which, and I worked through most of the decades. My 40s was kind of my tricky one. It was, I got sick with cancer. I got divorced. My 50s was like, wow, kids, Savannah, first female anchor team. You know, it was like, so then I was approaching my 60s and I thought, well, what is, what is this one going to be like? Yeah. Now it could be an extension. I thought, yeah, why not? 50s, 60s. Yeah, we'll keep going. And every now and then I got this kind of thing, but this is 60s. Like, how is this decade going to feel for me? I actually paused down on that and I thought about it and I was thinking about how, what I wanted it to look like and I took some time and I was, you know, wondering, is this, have I done everything and is there more to do with the today's show? I feel like I've interviewed all the coolest people. I've done the Olympics. I've done all these fun things. Like, is there more for me to do or, you know, is the same grade, you know, could be great too? And then something weird happened. It was my 60th birthday party. It was like, the party and it was on the today's show and it was one of those big ones where people had signs. They made, they drove. I drove for Minnesota. Happy birthday, girl. My birthday too. I was like, I loved it. My whole family flew in and it was like of a lifetime. Jenna's dad, president Bush, gave you a painting. I was sobbing. I was crying the whole time. But something weird was happening. My sister, my best for everybody was there. And while I was there, I was almost having an out of body. I was literally like hovering above. I was like the top of the wave. I kept thinking the top of the wave. This is the top of the wave. I could feel it. I was like, I chill, I've chill down. I was like, this is the best it's ever going to be. And I knew it. I knew it like warm hand on my heart. I knew it for sure. And something just came over me. And as I was looking out, I was thinking to myself, okay, did I just decide something on this birthday, on the plaza? Like, is that true? Like I was so, I'd let the day settle, went home, went, you know, thought about it some more. We'd moved out to the suburbs, me and my kids. And I was watching my kids play out in this, you know, climb trees and do fun things. And I was like, huh, is there, is there a different life awaiting me? And my little girl, hope who was six, was climbing a tree in the front yard and up and down. She went, I was watching her. I was just thinking about what am I going to do? What am I going to do? I want you to go up and down, a little tree, up and down. Hi, mom, look, I'm like, oh, here you are again, up and down. Okay, good for you. And then she's at the top and I go, hope you're at the top. I go, what are you going to do? She looked at me and I, kids, she was, I guess it's time to find a different tree. I go, what? She was a different tree, right, mom? I go, yeah, a different tree. Yeah, yeah. So I left and I was like, my heart was full. I was like, oh, my gosh, I think I've decided. And then there was some actor on the show and he was talking about waves and everything was, you know how it is when you say something? He's talking about waves and I'm listening and he goes, oh, to let me tell you about this, I rode the Oscar wave. It's high. And he was telling me it goes and it's so high, but you know, it's going to crash, right? Because every wave does and you ride it and you're like, yes, and the wave goes down. He goes and then I made the decision to paddle back out. So I paddle back out and I rode the next wave. And that one was my indie and it was a fun one. It was a little, but it was fun. And the next one, he goes, you paddle out as many times as you want, but there'll be different waves. So I was thinking about it. And so with all of that, and I also started thinking about like my time pie, I was like, we all get a time pie. Here's how we carve it up. And I have one life and that's it. So what am I going to do with it? Right. Is this time pie the way I want it? And I realized it wasn't how I wanted it. And in that moment, I thought about my kids walking to school, the suburbs starting a new company. I was thinking about that. I had that brewing in the back of my head, a little office. I walked my kids to school, walked to my office in town. Like I could see it. And so with that, I made the decision became clearer and clearer. And I thought to myself, if I can put my head on the pillow, when I sleep, I know it's the right choice. If I'm tossing and turning and I don't know and angsty and Mel, I could sleep. I could, I could sleep. I mean, the hardest part was telling my mom because she loves to watch me. I love your outfit. It's so amazing. Like, that was my worry. You know how you worry about how other people were reacts to your big decisions. So that's how I decided in that moment. It came with some angst, of course, plenty, but also some clarity. So I feel like if I had unfinished business, if I hadn't have interviewed everyone I could have dreamt of and done all the great things, I probably would have been like, "Oh, you know, but I'd done seven or eight Halloween's, I'd done plenty of Olympic since Torino, I've done, you know, all that kind of stuff. So I knew inside." Wow. Yeah. I love that warm hand on her. Yes. Talk about that because when you open the door to possibility, even because now you've given us two examples, well, actually I always did one kids. So that's one door that's opening. Another door that opened is, this is as good as it's going to get. And if this is as good as it's going to get, is this enough? And so you open the door to, is there a different chapter in my life? Yes. Even though this one is really amazing. And then the waves are coming. And then by opening the door to that possibility, what happened, of course, is the, I got to find another tree message comes in. The waves come in. You start to notice that you're not even in the biggest moment. You're just observing that you are. Yes. And that's how this starts to unfold. And have the feeling of knowing, which is very unusual. I didn't think I would ever have that feeling. But you're right. The door is open one by one. And there was some. kind of clarity. You know, that feeling when we've all had a knowing. You know it. Deep down if we sit quiet enough, you know, you know that you're supposed to be here. I know exactly what I'm supposed to be doing, but we were too busy sprinting to stop to think about what we're doing. Like the chapter of my 50s could have gone on until either the today show or I said, thank you very much. It's been a great run. Bye-bye. Because it is coming. Yes. It's always coming. That's true. You know, there's a time in every career where you go, you start off and you are like, wow, wow, wow, wow, it's amazing. And then you should go, it's still fun. It's kind of fun. Okay. Oh, God. You know, and I think, and I think we try to hang on to the end. It's like, you know, white knuckle hanging on. It's like, hang on, dude, you know, maybe catch it before it drops off the cliff because this is gravity and life. Everything's that. Everything is this. Everything, it's just recognizing. I'm here now. Oh, I'm here. Okay. This is a nice place to say thank you. Yeah. You know, I think it's knowing like that knowing. Hoda, you are on fire. And I don't want to show you down, but I do need to take a quick pause. We can hear a word from our amazing sponsors. And I also want to give you a chance to share this extraordinary conversation because the people in your life who need and deserve to see a bigger possibility for themselves, maybe you haven't been able to convince them that they deserve more. How about you let Hoda convince them and don't you dare go anywhere? Because when Hoda and I return, you and I are going back in time with her and you're going to hear this extraordinary story of how Hoda landed her first job in television. This story is a must here, not only for you, but for any young adult in your life or anyone who is feeling like they might just give up. So don't go anywhere. Hoda and I will be waiting for you after the short break to stay with us. The Let them Theory is the best gift you can give this holiday season. It's the gift you give to someone who's overwhelmed to the people pleaser to the friend who carries way too much to the sibling who's exhausted from dealing with everyone else's emotions to the coworker who needs a break. It's meaningful. It's practical. It's hilarious and it's life changing. The Let them Theory. For everyone on your list, available at Let them dot com and wherever books are sold. Welcome back at your buddy Mel Robbins and today you and I are here with the one the only Hoda Kotby and we're talking all about the fact that it's not too late. So Hoda, you and I have spoken at so many of the same big conferences and big corporate events and you tell the most extraordinary story about landing your first job out of college. Can you share that story with us right now? I was a B minus student at Virginia Tech. Okay. My SATs, I skimmed the trees barely making it. Okay. I was a tried out. I had fun. Yeah. Yeah. So it wasn't my finest hour college. So let's I mean, it was fun. But so when I graduated from Virginia Tech, they did not have a big communications department at the time. I went looking for a job and I borrowed my mom's car for a one hour trip from my house in Alexandria to Richmond to get hired. I roll up there and I'm dressed up and I'm feeling good. And then shake the news director's hand. I'm like, I'm Hoda. I'm like, I love it here. I'm going to sit there. I'm going to date that guy. Like I had it. I was like done. The guy takes my tape. He puts in the machine. He plays it. He stops it. He goes, Oh God. You were, why are you not even ready for Richmond? Why did you come here? I go, I had the interview. I had this my only interview. I only had one. He was like, well, you're not ready. You're green. Who sent you here? How do we get this even happen? And I had a friend of a friend in center. Yeah. And then it goes, but wait, I got a buddy of mine. He's hiring at Roanoke. I go Roanoke Virginia. Okay, goes, if you leave now, he's going on some trip, some news directors trip. Do you want me to call him and tell him you're coming? I said, yes. So it's four hours away from Richmond. So I called my mom. I go, mom, I'm in a bar of the car. I didn't show us. How was Richmond? I got to want Richmond. Okay, nobody wants Richmond. I want Roanoke. So I drove to Roanoke. I roll up there. I'm like, okay, I'll sit there. I'll take that guy. I don't care. It's good. That takes my tape. Place it. Stop sit after, I don't know, 30 seconds a minute. He goes, you are so not ready for Roanoke. He's like you're green. You're not good. You know, see you later. And I'm like walking out and he goes, whoa, hold on. Before you go, I got a buddy of mine. He's hiring in Memphis, Tennessee. I go, okay. He goes, he's going on the same news directors conference. I'm going to. He's leaving tomorrow. I go, yeah, yeah, yeah. Call him. Tell him I'm coming. So I go, mom, she goes, do you like Roanoke? I go, no, I need the car for two more days. I'm driving to Memphis. So I hung up. Tennessee is the long skinny state. Memphis was over here. I drove across the great state of Tennessee all the way to the end. The guy meets me. I look like a crazy because I'm exhausted and I handed my tape. And he goes, he plays it and he stops it. He goes, how do I? Why would anyone send you here? Memphis is a big market. Who sent you? Roanoke? No, no, no, no, you're not ready. And so this went on. No. So he sent me to somebody else. I kept driving. I drove and drove and drove. I was 10 days driving around. I got rejected in Birmingham, ABC, NBC, CBS. No, no, no. That was three. I drove to Dothan, Alabama. Okay. That guy asked me, do you know how to put the tape in the machine? Like I was a child. I got rejected. I got rejected everywhere. It was over 27 nose. So I felt terrible. I'm a loser. James Taylor on the radio. Take me home and end this nightmare. And I got lost because this is what happens when you're driving. And there was a big sign that said Greenville are eyes on you CBS. I said, let me roll in. Let me get rejected in Greenville. And let me get a map. I'm going home and starting my job in PR or whatever. And this guy's dance and droney was my life changer. I roll in their hot. I look like a big old mess. I handed my tape. He goes, my name's Stan. I go, hey Stan. I was sports director yesterday and they promoted me. I was like, okay. He goes, what's your name? I go, how to come on in, Hilda. Let's look at that type. So he took my tape. Bill, he sticks at the machine. Stan plays my tape. The worst tape in obviously history. I've played it for everybody around the southeastern United States and got nothing. And that man stopped the tape and he looked at me and he goes, Hilda, I said, yes, it goes. I like what I see. I like exploded in tears. So what it taught me if you're a kid getting through college and trying to figure out is not everybody needs to like you. You just stayed your one. If you have one and just to show you Stan, love me. They told us to bring someone to studio one A who changed our life and I brought Stan, San droney, who was like, I knew it from the beginning. I'm like, well, you are the only one because nobody else thought it was worth anything. But I think that's the thing. If you're graduating college in your 20s or whatever it is and somebody tells you you're not good, you're not good enough because that's what they all told me to my face, you're not good enough. And that will that will bust your confidence in half. But when you find one person, one who says, I'll take a chance. Then you're like, he changed the whole course of my life. I would have gone into PR and been in DC right now probably doing something. But because of Stan, I got to be here because of Stan, I got to anchor with Savannah because of Stan, I got to go to the Olympics. Just one. So I think it's possible. It's a possibility if you don't quit. If you don't quit. Well, I would say it's because of Stan, but it's also because of you. Because most people would not have gone through 27 of it. And the important thing to extract from that story, whether you're 20 or you're 50, rebuilding your life after divorce is the 27 and the one. Because all you need is one Stan. And if all you've got in your nose, then you haven't met your one Stan yet. And as long as you don't quit, you can't lose. Yes, that's right. Because quitting is the moment you lose. Yes. Yes. And I have to say, Mel, I was questioning like, is this God saying like, wrong door, stop knocking, how many nose do you have to get before you say, okay, I get the message now. And I'm not sure if it was just stubborn. Like I was thinking about it. I've thought about it before like, was it just being stubborn and like being, you know, like, I'm not going to give up. I played sports in high school. So I never quit to the end. Like I believed we could win. If we're down five points and there's three seconds, I play basketball. I was like, we can get, we can do it. Like I had that mentality. Like it's possible. Well, just for the day, yeah. Just for the day, try that mindset. It's possible. It's possible. It's possible for me to still go to job. It's It's possible for me to still find love. It's possible for me to start a whole new career at 60. It's possible for me to have children. It's possible for me to get out of debt. It's possible. And that is important because that opens the door to you continuing to work and walk toward it. The second you say to yourself, I've become convinced, Hota, convinced that the number one thing that stands in everybody's way is discouragement. This deep sense that even though you know that you want something more, even though you know there are things in your life that you would love to experience, that you are capable of doing the work. You're capable of going through the 27-nose. You're capable of finding your one person that says yes. But if you're discouraged, that means you've said it's not possible for me. That's huge. That is huge. The other day I had a crummy weekend. I don't know what it was. It was just like the kids were out of control and everything was not good. And it's just like one of those weekends. And I was listening to something. And someone said to say the phrase, good things keep happening to me. And I was like, please do not even start with that drill. I was like, this is not right. No one's listening. My kids are barfing. It's not working. So in the morning, I decided, you know what? I'm going to say the phrase. Let's see if phrase is really work. So I woke up that morning. I texted my trainer and I said, can you meet me at 515? And he said, yes. I said to myself, good things keep happening to me. Ryan's available. So I get in the car. I start it. It's about 10 after 5. He's really close. I go, good things keep happening to me. My kids slept through the night. Good things keep happening to me. There's a parking place because I'm early. I never get this spot. I'm going to do a workout that's going to-- And I have to say it sounded cheesy when I started it. By the time I got home, I was like, kids, good morning. Like I felt different. I agree 100 that what you tell yourself, because I had to search for things that were good in that morning, because I was in feeling it. I was feeling blech. I wasn't feeling-- but they're there. You just have to find them. So I just was seeking. I became like someone who was seeking. Well, what you did in those six words is you manually and intentionally change the settings in your mind. And you turned on kind of the attention network in your brain to cast it out. And there is so much extraordinary research. We just interviewed Dr. Leacrum. Who's this incredible neuroscientist studies the settings in the mind and the impact it has on your body. That is a beautiful example of her research and how you can intentionally activate your brain and change the settings. And those words-- good things keep happening to you. Six words-- change the settings, signals to your body. And now you have a completely different-- yes, experience of the day. And I actually think the best advice is always cheesy. Do you? Yes. Because everybody goes through their day in a bad mood for no reason. Yes. Everybody is a little resigned and suspicious, and kind of beaten down because we've closed the door to possibility. Because we've spent years telling ourselves, we're not worthy and we're not good enough, we're not this, and we're not that. And so when somebody comes along who's as bright as the sun like you are, and is like, hey, why don't you say like good things keep happening to me? And you're like, shut up, I don't want to say that. Like this is stupidest thing I've ever heard. This is the cheesiest thing. Don't you dare tell me in my crappy life that good things can happen to me. Do you know how bad my life-- so then people start arguing. Yes. And yeah, maybe your life is terrible right now. But that's why we attack the possibility. You know, that's so interesting. I just had a flash moment while you were saying this. I was at a retreat with Maria Schreiber, and this woman raised her hand in the back. And she said, thank you for that talk. It was at the end. And she said, I just want to say something. I am lost. She said, my kids have left home. My job is thankless and terrible. And my relationship is dead. And now it's even more in the spotlight because the kids are gone. Everything's terrible. Can you help me? And I remember Maria looked at her, and she said, well, I would love to help you if I knew you better. I don't know everything about you. She was, but I will say something. She said, language matters. She said, you're not lost. You're here. You packed a bag. You put on that outfit. And you came to this session. You're not lost. You're seeking. You're not lost. You're searching. And we talked about how language, what we say to ourselves matters. And I feel like that feeling and that language and realizing that there are other words you can use to describe yourself. My life's crummy. My life's terrible. My life, you know, you don't know my life. Right. And if you're listening to this, you are seeking. Yes. So you're not lost. And your life is not crappy because it can't be. You are seeking. You're looking for something better. And that's like, I think that shift is what I know is how people I love and it's helped me through life. It's like realize that you are, you're never really stuck if you're searching. You're never really. That's true. Actually, when you say I'm stuck, I think it's an example of one of the things that you told us at the very beginning. You can stop the train at any time. Because when you say I'm stuck, the train is stopped. And now you're no longer in the rat race. You're no longer running through your day. You're actually present to the fact that the train's going nowhere. And so I would have clapped my hands and said, thank you for being honest. Thank you for recognizing that your life doesn't feel. Right. Like you wanted to feel. Right. Right. Now what? Now what? Are you going to spend the next decade arguing about how bad it is with yourself and trying to prove to all your friends why it's bad and that they should feel sorry for you? Or how about you go over to Microsoft co-pilot and type into AI? This is what I hate about my life. What do I need to do to make it feel a little better? That feels so good and easy and doable. It's not easy. It's simple. It's simple, but it's not easy. And it's not easy because of that discouragement and that fear. And so, Hoda, I would love to have you talk to the person that is like, I can't believe my sister sent me this episode. This is exactly what I needed to hear. Damn it. It's so much easier to complain about all this stuff and like that look in the mirror. I remember once I had a friend say to me, why would I go to therapy? Find out I hate my husband and my life. Then what am I going to do? Yeah. Right, they're rather variant. Well, I've spent lots of decades of my life bearing stuff. And so for the person who's sitting there having this wake up call, you're starting to go, I got, I'm opening the door to possibility. I don't like how my job feels or my relationship feels. I don't like how I feel in my body. I need to start taking care of myself. I don't like the fact that I'm becoming reclusive. And I never see my friends. I don't like the fact that I've grown distant from my family. Whatever that feeling is. And you're quietly starting to draw together the courage. Yeah, especially to change something huge. I walk away from the today show saying out loud and filling out the paperwork at 51 to adopt a child for the first time. Saying out loud to somebody that you love, I'm not really happy anymore in our relationship. These are really big things. So what would you say to somebody who is cracking the door open and they're not ready for their friends, Hoda and Mel, the kick it wide open. But you are at least feeling that tingling sensation of like they might even be reaching to hit pause. Because I don't know if I can handle calling off the wedding. I don't know if I can handle my parents' disappointment when I change my major or I tell them I'm going to follow my dream and go move across the country or the planet. Yeah. Well, it definitely takes a ton of courage to make a change. If you're thinking about it and it's eating inside of you, I think you have to take baby steps because don't fling yourself off a cliff that is not smart. Don't quit your job. You need the insurance. Do not jump out of your relationship without really examining. And I think it's important to take a deep look at what the dissatisfaction is. One thing I do every morning that's helpful to me is in my journal, I have four prompts. every day I use the same for Oh, I can't wait to hear these prompts, but how about we take a quick break right here? So I can give our sponsors a chance to share a few words. And when we come back, here's what's going to happen. Hoda is going to walk you through those exact four prompts that she uses every single day. Now these are the prompts that have helped her reinvent her life. It's going to help you do the exact same thing. And you know, speaking of help, if this conversation is inspiring you and of course it is, it's going to inspire the people that you love. So please take a moment and share this with somebody that you deeply care about. But don't go anywhere. We have so much more to dig into, including these four prompts to stay with me. We'll be right back. Welcome back. It's your buddy Mel Robbins. And we are here with the extraordinary Hoda. We're talking about the fact that it is not too late. And Hoda, before the break, you are about to share the four journal prompts that you use every morning that help you gain clarity. So what are those prompts Hoda? They are body, intellect, emotion and spirit. And under each one, I write what they need. What does my body need today? It needs a walk. It needs bath. It needs manicure. It needs sleep. Write it down. What does my intellect need? About that book that's been sitting on my bedside table forever that I haven't cracked open. One chapter. I need one chapter of something intellectual. What do my emotions need? I didn't get time to put my kids to bed well last night. I'm going to take time and I'm going to read. And what is my spirit need? Oh, I need a better connection with God. So I'm going to read this or do that. Once you start looking at your life on the daily, you understand what you need and what's lacking. And I feel like that's like a mini road map for the day. Now you're thinking to yourself, I want to change. I'm scared. I don't know how to do it. Okay, here's what you do. I read this somewhere, but you do 30 minutes for 30 days. So you want to start a new business. Here's what you're going to do. Today, you're going to spend 30 minutes today whenever it is. 30 minutes. Checking out, oh, go on AI. I want to open a coffee shop. What is the competition in my neighborhood? Blah blah blah blah. 30 minutes done. Tomorrow, 30 more minutes. Okay, give me a business plan and blah blah blah blah. Boom. Number three, you do it for 30 days. When you're done, you have 900 minutes clock. 900. So you know whether you want to open a coffee shop. You have enough data. You're going to understand whether that's a good idea or not for you. So my advice is baby steps toward the jump. You need to dissect it and figure out if it's really what you want. Because I think sometimes we think we want it. And you're like, I'm going to run and jump off the cliff. Oh my God, what's down there? Don't do that. Like we're not idiots. We need, we need our paychecks. We need our insurance. We need these things. But we can explore possibilities at the same time. Yeah. And the biggest thing is it doesn't matter what the, don't worry about the odds. What are the odds of me starting a business? Oh God, it's not going to work because the odds are, if someone really said to me, what are the odds of me becoming an anchor on the today show? I swear, if someone crunched the numbers which AI could, it would have been a million to one. Stop sign glasses, funny name. I was way, every way. I looked, you know, no one could say, it was like a million reasons why it didn't make sense. But it does. So don't play the odds. Do your thing. Do your dance. And I think examine it. And I think go for it because the option is being right where you are. And that may be where you want to be. Well, and the time's going to pass. Yeah. Anyway, yeah, it's going to pass anyway. Yeah, but you get to choose what you're going to do at the time. And so I want to just extract to make sure you got that incredible tool. Because Hota's now building from the deep down depths of really stopping the train, asking yourself, how do I feel? And is how I feel in my life? Is this good enough? Mm-hmm. Explore a mindset. What if it's something else possible? Think about saying the phrase out loud. And that opens the door to possible. Doesn't mean you have to become a parent. Doesn't mean you have to end the marriage. Doesn't mean you have to quit the job. Doesn't mean you have to do anything. You're just considering the possibilities. Right. And you're opening the door. And now you've taken it a step further into something very tactical with these journal prompts where you're now asking yourself, what does my body need? And the things that you said, I'm like, I do need a bath. Yeah. I definitely need a manicure and pedicure. Don't even get me started on the pedicure piece. Like I don't, I like, I thank God it's closed toes, seasons right now. I need a wax. I need like, I need, I need a lot for the body. Like all of those prompts, the spirit, your emotions, how this all plays together is I guarantee you, if you've set out loud to yourself, I need, I need a job where I feel engaged and energized. I need a job where I feel respected and considered. I bet then when you go to the tactical and you're like, what does my body need? Yes. What's going to come to the surface is, oh my gosh, I am so stressed. Because now you've opened the door. And when you say my intellect, I need to be engaged in my work. I need something interesting to do. Oh, my spirit. I mean, and when you start to prompt the daily and then you use the 30 for 30 days, that's how it takes it into action, there's your roadmap to go deep, deep, deep into action. And I think the thing that stops people and stops me is like, when you don't know what your purpose is and you're like, what is it? What is it? I don't know where to go. This is all I got. I don't know which thing I should do. I think that that piece of it is also so huge that it makes you think to yourself, I can't do it. I actually heard a story that moved me and I was like, this is purpose, this is what purpose is about. And it was, they called it stuff more stuff, even more stuff and purpose. And this guy named Ken Behring was a real estate dude and he made lots of money and he was kind of cranky and wasn't a happy dude. But anyway, he made all this money. He's like, now I'm going to be happy. He bought his wife the big house, got the jewels, got the car. He's like, this is good. Six months later, he was cranky old Ken again. He was like, oh, God, this is not good. He goes, you know what I need? More stuff. Yeah, so we got that house on the hill. He got the Lamborghini. Get the better. We'll get the private plane. Yeah, more stuff. Six months later, cranky Ken again, wasn't feeling good. He was like, oh, God, he goes, you know what I need? I need to buy something big. So this man bought the Seattle Seahawks. He actually bought the team. He bought the team. He was fist bumping on the field. He was like, this is amazing. Six months later, felt like crap again. He was like, geez. Buddy, he says, hey, come with me to Bosnia. I'm going to drop off some wheelchairs. Do you want to join? He was like, I'll go. So they take 75 wheelchairs. And when they land, there are 75 disabled people on the tarmac. He's opening up the chairs and one by one, they're hosting these people, all putting them in the chairs. Gets to the third guy's lifting them up. And the guy kind of grabs his hand. Then he looks at Ken. Ken goes, you okay? He goes, yeah, yeah, I just want to memorize your face so that when I see you in heaven, I'll say thank you. And Ken said it was the first time in his life. He felt sheer and utter joy and purpose. First time. And it changed the course of his life. He ended up taking wheelchairs to people who needed them. But finding what can found or finding your the thing that gives you tingles, finding the piece that we're all searching for. Because I think change is easy when you have the piece. You're like, oh, now I know where I'm going. Because it's hard when you don't know which way to turn. But I think finding that concrete piece and I was thinking like, how do you do that? And I did ask a friend of mine who's a professor and she said, this is what I tell my students to do. She said, I tell them to list five people who they admire and they want to switch places with. Just even for a day, who would they be? So they list them. Could be anybody. It could be the lady who runs the coffee shop. It could be Beyonce. It could be your mother. It could be whatever. Boom, boom, boom, boom, fine. And write down the traits. Why? Well, this, that, the other, I like this. I like that. Then write in another column things you don't love about. They're like, she said, what you'll see is a pattern emerging. She goes, one of them was like, everyone was an entrepreneur and she never even thought that. One of them was everyone was in the spotlight in different ways. So you like something in the spot. One was everybody has kids. But a way to distill what you want. Because I think not knowing what you want makes you feel helpless. You're like, I don't know where I'm going. I don't know what I want. Well, I think that's why most people are stuck. They don't even clear about what they want. Yeah. So how do you think, like, how do you find that thing? Well, there's getting clear about what you want. And then there's opening the door to possibility to say I can actually have some version of that. And a lot of people in my get very stuck because you won't even be honest with yourself and say out loud what you want because you have convinced yourself that things like that don't happen to a person like you. And so the clarity is buried by the discouragement and by what society has told you. And so I don't believe people don't know what they want. I believe you know deeply what you want, but you have convinced yourself it's not possible for you so you do not even bother saying it. That's so good. Oh, that's so good. It's good because it's true. It's true. And you know, if you really sit with that, that's big. You could have easily told yourself nobody's going to hire me because my tape's that bad. But you knew what you wanted. Yeah. And the desperation. Yes, that's what it was. There was no inspiration. It was desperation. I'm a negatively motivated person. Like there's not a lot like you know, I'm flipping more to the positive and go go go. I want to go to that moment when your life turned upside down in your 40s and you got the breast cancer diagnosis. And I read that you felt like something cracked open in you. Yeah. Can you talk about how that experience changed you? And I also love the line you would say to yourself again, back to the language, back to the words, back to the settings in the mind. You can't scare me. Well, when I was diagnosed with breast cancer and I would guarantee that most people who are listening probably either know someone who had it had it themselves. And it's scary and terrifying. And I'm the kind of person who wandered it over. I did not want to discuss. It wasn't going to be part of me. It was going to be one of those things that happened that I was going to forget about. Yeah. Goodbye. I didn't want I didn't like how I told a couple of people and the way they looked at me was horrifying to me. Sad eyes poor thing. She won't make it like that was the feeling I got. And so I was refusing to speak about it. I was going to I was going to have a mastectomy. It was going to take a lot of time and it was going to be over with no more no discussion about it. And a funny thing happened while I was in the healing process. I I was asked to go on this today show shoot. They wanted to get me back on the saddle and come on. You can go and I was like yes, I wanted to go because I didn't I didn't want to be defined by anything that was happening. And so I got on the plane. I did this shoot. It was overseas in Ireland and I I felt horrible. My body was failing me. I looked scary. I felt horrible. And I was like what the is happening here? I was like I'm you know I'm my body's broken. It's over. I felt terrible. And I got on the plane to go home and a stranger sitting next to me who at the time I was just trying to put my earbuds in and get away from the guy. He was like how you doing? I was like good go away. Jesus. He's like no you you got how with you on one of those shows and I was like oh like I wanted to sleep so badly. And the guy started talking. And I liked him. He was friendly and he goes so he was asking me questions. I was asking him questions. And he said what's that on your arm? I go oh it's a compressions. Lee. Guess what's it for? I go oh I I had a procedure. He goes what procedure? I go I had an operation like I was like what the? And he goes what was it? I go go ahead I go okay I breast cancer. I said but I hope when you get off this plane you don't say oh I sat next to this girl with breast cancer. He goes what is wrong with you? He goes breast cancer is part of you. It's like going to college or getting married. He goes let me give you some advice and you can go to sleep. I was like all right I go and I'll never forget what he said. He said to me don't hog your journey. It's not just for you. He said think of how many people you could help to him to play in right home. He said you can put yourself your stuff deep in your pockets you can take it to your grave or you can help somebody. I've chose Ken Dwayne was his name and I never forgot it. And I was like I was hiding it. I wanted to bury it and this man just cracked it open. Open the door. This guy Ken a stranger. He changed everything for me. I was no longer hiding or ashamed or worried about what people would think of me. It was part of me just like going to college or getting married. And what happened as a result was you talked about the four words you can't scare me because language matters. I sort of had this epiphany when I was sleeping and healing and I popped up out of bed and I was like oh my god you can't scare me. It's like wait a minute the scariest thing just happened. Maybe I wasn't going to make it. I made it. Here I am. So now what? Now what? So with this kind of courage and like you know propelling me they were starting a new hour of the today show. A brand new fourth hour. Never been you know ever having before. And no one saw me in that job because I wasn't that girl. And with that epiphany if you can't scare me you should have seen me man. I ran up to the 52nd floor where all the big wigs were. I met Jeff Zucker. I'm like Jeff I had this epiphany. I had cancer but now and I went on this big speech. I ended up getting hired for the today show as a result of that conversation and some producers who are rooting for me. And I thought to myself it took me getting sick. Being afraid of dying before I had courage to ask for something like a promotion. It seemed so small and stupid and little like how and I was thinking to myself if I hadn't gotten sick I wouldn't have asked. I would have sat quietly at my desk and worked hard and not been noticed probably. But it reminded me like you don't need to wait till you're sick. You don't need to wait till you have no fear. Ask for the stinkin rays. Ask for the promotion. So what? If they say no. So what? You asked. You did something. You took an action. I mean sitting quietly your desk is going to get you nowhere but at your desk. No one's giving you a raise because they see you in the corner still working you to eight o'clock at night. Look at me. It's like nobody sees that. You have to take ownership and cancer weirdly made me believe that I was afraid of nothing which I was and it changed the game. I had this visual of somebody sitting in a cubicle hyping. Yes. Yes. And how this huge fear of Susan in HR or this huge fear of Robert the partner in the corner keeps you small. Yes. But at any moment you could just be like why am I scared of Susan or Robert? There's a million other places to work. Why am I staying in a job like this or a relationship like this? Yes. Because you have given so much power Yes. To both the fear and the other person. Yes. Can you speak directly to someone who's in the middle of facing something really hard and the fear is paralyzing. Paralyzing. Yeah. I mean look if you are sitting in a place where you are scared because number one you can't leave your job because of all of the responsibilities you have you can't you feel like you can't leave your relationship because of how what's out there what else is out there you don't know. All I know is I've heard countless stories from people who are on the other side and they are they will blow your mind. Someone who I interviewed a long time ago named Ion LeVan Zant who's a woman who is like one of these gurus in the advice space good friend of Oprah's told me the story about us. She was in a horribly abusive relationship and one day it was it was just the end it was enough and she packed her kids up she had enough money for a subway token at the time and she went to a shelter and fast forward to her life that was intended for her she went to law school she sleeps in a foreposter bed in a beautiful house in Maryland and has a wildly successful career on the other side of fear is the thing that you want. It's getting there on the other side fear is paralyzing and you can sit on your hands and picture yourself in five years from right now picture it like what would it be like in five years from right now it's 20 30 still sitting at the desk still in that relationship that maybe isn't suited for you. I think I think the moment will come and courage comes when you speak it when you have a good circle around you where you can bounce it off of and you know that there's good stuff on the other side like being on this side is scared. I'll use your clouds. It's like once you climb the mountain on the other side you're like oh my god. There's down there. So was I doing yes. Yes. So one of the things that you have done that I am so proud of you for doing because I remember when I came on your podcast and you put your arms around you're like, I'm leaving the today show, but I haven't told anybody yet. And I really want to talk to you about something. And I was like, oh my god, I'm so excited. I'll talk to you about it. What everyone. And our friendship exploded. Yeah. At the age of 60, you are stepping into the space of tech CEO. You are launching a new wellness app. Joy 101. This is a whole new chapter. You have never run or built a technology app. And what I love about this Hoda is that you're like, maybe it's possible. Maybe I could figure this out. Maybe I could like, you know, and what I would love to have you speak to the person who's been telling themselves, I'm too old. It's too late. I've never done that. I wasn't an engineering college. I can't do this. I can't do that. What has just jumping and saying, I know I don't know, but I'm going to figure out how has that changed your life? And what do you want the person listening to know about just saying, screw it. I'm going to figure it out. Here's the deal. I'm going to tell you what to do. Be a beginner again. Be a beginner again. I'm 61 years old and I'm a beginner again. It's like I'm on the JV basketball team and I'm learning how to do it all over again. And I see all these varsity players. And I'm like, I can't believe I'm actually in this group. Being a beginner again is one of the finest feelings in the world. I love it so much. I don't know. I'm learning every day. I called you Mel. You came on in a group meeting with my team. Mel came on with my entire team when we were just like toddlers, infants trying to figure out, you're like, here's what's going on. This is what this is what we are learning as a group. Joy 101 is a it's a wellness platform. It has all of the things I love so much and I'm learning how to run it. We're doing retreats. I'm learning how do you run that? Who do you hire for that? We have an app that has a place where you can put your your information in and it gives you a kind of a curated special program just for you. It's mind blowing. So as I'm going through this, I'm learning to build something brick by brick. First I called my sister. I'm like, Hey, Hala, do you want to do this with me? Yeah. My best friend Karen who's genius. I go, do you want to do this? Yeah. She's like, I have a friend named Mike. Mike was one of the founders of Open Table. He came and joined us. Mike said, I got someone named Radica. She's an awesome. She came. I got someone named Kate. And like, literally we're like this band of friends that came together to build this wellness platform. And I was always seeking those kinds of things. Like a breath work I learned to do later in life. And all these things and I was thinking to myself, like, once you get bitten by that bug, once you do a breath work class and you're sobbing and you go, what the hell just happened to me? I go, so I was hooked on these wellness practices that change. And you know, because you've had a lot of your guests on, they change the chemistry in your body. So I was seeking a place where can I find all that stuff. So I looked at calm, which was great. And I looked at headspace, which was awesome. But nothing was speaking to me. And I'm like, let's build that. Okay. So here's what I want to extract for the person. Yeah. Did you notice how how it just came alive? And she doesn't even know what the hell she's doing. No idea. And so the thing I want to say to you is if you've been holding out on starting the book club. Yeah. Yes. If you've been thinking, you know, it'd be kind of cool to grab my best friend and build a business. I don't know, like doing pop up things with art. Yeah. What's available to you? Yes. Is the energy and the vitality and learning and what it brings into your life, pursuing something interesting is what makes you interesting, because you now have something and a reason to get out of bed and to start learning again. And that's what I see in you. And so I want you to really take away from what Hoda is now doing at 61. And she's learning it's all it's hard to do this stuff, but it's worth it. Yes. Because you're opening the door to bigger possibility. Yes. And so be a beginner. You will not know how to do it. No idea. But just imagine the possibility and flopping over and over is a okay. If the person listening right now takes just one action from this conversation, what is the most important thing to do first? I think the most important thing to do is to tell yourself that it's possible and believe it. Because you're not going anywhere if you're not believing in the possibility. If you're trudging around saying, well, I guess I'll try. It's not working, dude. It's not going to work. You don't even want it to work. You have to go in with the belief that there is a probability of success for me doing this. And that's changing a mindset because you got to feel the things inside. And I know it sounds blue sky, but it is not the only reason I have been successful in all the places where I have tried is because deep down inside, I knew it was going to work. They wondered with me and Savannah together, it's going to work to women. We're not sure. We're not sure. I knew it was going to work. I know this business is going to work. They're like, oh my god, it's going to work. Is it going to work? Yeah. I go, you couldn't make it feel if you tried. I tell some of my employees, we're working. Get on the train. Like we're going. And it's going to work as you're not quitting. Not oh, never. Well, that's why something works. Because I'm going to keep working until it does. Yes. Yes. Yes. I love that. Hoda, what are your parting words? My parting words are it's never too late. You're not too old. And everything, everything, everything happens right on time. That's it. Hoda, I am so proud of you. I love you. I love you. I love seeing you win. I love seeing you going for it. I am constantly shouting from the rooftops for your success, for your joy. I am proud to be your friend. And I am grateful that you came to Boston and you shared everything that you did. And every time I spend time with you, I feel like the luckiest person in the world. I love you. I love you too. Now. Oh my God. I know it's going to be crying at the end, but that's how it goes. I love you too. I love you too. Thanks for having me. Really proud of you. And I also want to tell you, in case no one else tells you as your friend, that I love you and I believe in you. And I believe in your ability to create a better life. And please take everything that Hoda poured into you. And just consider it exactly what you needed to hear because it was exactly what you needed to hear. Alrighty, I'll see you in the next episode. I'll welcome you in the moment you hit play. I love everything about this. I just have to run in the bathroom. Yeah. This you cannot fail. You cannot. By the way, what a great way to start an interview. I need to think my glasses. I always forget to do this. And then I realize, wait, I look at that. Yes, it's true. All right. Are we ready, Brian? And the Edward R Murrow. How do you say that word? I never said a morrow. And the Edward R Murrow award. Hoda! Hello. Hello. Hello. Hello. Who are you? Oh, and one more thing. And no, this is not a blooper. This is the legal language. You know, what the lawyer's right and what I need to read to you. This podcast is presented solely for educational and entertainment purposes. I'm just your friend. I am not a licensed therapist and this podcast is not intended as a substitute for the advice of a physician, professional coach, psychotherapist, or other qualified professional. Got it? Good. I'll see you in the next episode. Sirius XM podcasts. This segment is sponsored by Celebrity Cruises. Whether you're chasing connection, calm or just trying to chase a little piece in quiet, their ships are the perfect place to breathe. Because you've got globally inspired food, immersive experiences, and nearly 300 destinations to choose from. It feels intimate, but you still get all the variety and experiences you'd expect from something way bigger. Think elevated, but feels personal. How about you and I, so down for a second? No, seriously, like, so down right now. Let's take a breath. And here's how I want to breathe with you. I know it sounds kind of weird, but let's do this together. Okay? We're going to breathe in for a count of four. We're going to hold it for four. And then we're going to exhale for four. This is called box breathing. research shows it is one of the fastest way to tap into your relaxation response. You ready to do it with me? Okay, here we go. Oh my gosh, I need it that. When was the last time you did that? When did you stop and take a breath? And I'm not talking about the quick autopilot kind of. I'm talking about the kind where you stop. You breathe in, you drop your shoulders and then exhale on purpose. I don't know about you, but sometimes I move through my entire days without even realizing that I'm holding my breath. In fact, when I said, "Let's breathe," you probably went, "Oh my gosh, am I breathing?" That happens to me all the time because there's always something. I mean, there's deadlines have got to meet. There's text and emails you got to respond to. My kids need my help or advice on something on top of all of that. Don't even get me started about the news and the headlines. All of this noise and that noise, it can get so loud. It's so hard to hear yourself. And when that noise gets the loudest and life starts to speed up and pile up, you know what you and I both do? We're both guilty of this. We start to speed up too. And I for one, I know it's one of my worst qualities because I start to match the speed of life. I start to bring more intensity and eventually it turns into burnout. It's not a matter of if, but when? Here's the truth. You don't have to earn your rest. You don't need to prove how exhausted you are in order to deserve a break. You need space now because your brain, your body, your life require it. And I'm not talking about a 10-minute scrolling break. That's not a break. Give me a break. I'm talking about real space. The kind where your phone is off. The kind where you can hear yourself think. Where you stop trying to fix everything and figure everything out. And for just a second. You just be. I think you and I often forget that nothing good grows in chaos. You want clarity? Make space. You want your energy back? Make space. You want to stop feeling like you're falling behind. You guessed it. Make space. This is your permission slip from your friend Mel to pause to breathe to reflect to take some space to step back just for a moment. So when you step forward again, you actually know where you're going. I want to thank celebrity cruises for making this segment and this reminder that we deserve to take a breath. And when you need a real reset, one of the ways you can do it, celebrity cruises. With the intimate feel of a smaller ship and the variety of a larger one, you get the best of both worlds. Elevated accommodations and listener payment world class dining. Learn more at celebrity cruises.com. Ships registry, multi and Ecuador.