Hopecore and Apple Watches feat. Towa Bird

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though well that's clickbait and then oh hey oh did we like have something today or what's the that's what i told you bro we had practice no we didn't we had practice oh my god oh my god what time are we supposed to do that like a minute ago love that wash wait see oh my god no that's you count the links and then right right right oh oh my god well here just take a seat with us yeah we can just talk about it it's like unpack this well we haven't even told them that we're working on the album yet i'm upset i feel like we should talk about it okay we can talk about it okay let's like unpack this together because because what happened where's your clarinet here's the thing where's your clarinet you know you know i'm on triangle don't even do me guys actually though like where's your marimba it's just it's been well marimba yeah do you know about marimba no i've heard of marimba which one's that the way how you're gonna have to like tell about instruments i'm like in the marimba is that um is that the little mermaid one yeah it sounds like yeah you know what i'm talking about yeah yeah it's giving like it's usually like an island sound like they use it for the island right for the island girls right the love island girls right right right right well hey what the hell yeah we're feeling horrible but you didn't even tell them we're working on the album i'm kind of feeling horrible well i was i was alone at bun practice just in that desolate room by myself with my marimba just me and my marimba right but that's and nothing to do and you're sick why would you do her like that right and you get her like and it's evading accountability and why would you do that i'm like well why would you well hey welcome and we're like and scene like and no and welcome and thank you for coming through thank you so much what the hell being in your apartment oh we're so upstairs i know we're hella upstairs that's why we have to be quiet on the floor because yes and if you want to introduce yourself yeah to the neighborhood hi guys i'm toa bird in case you were wondering there's only one thank you so much no and thank you hello and they know i'm like they y'all know t y'all know t no actually let me not appropriate your culture with ll right and don't let us do the accent you've offended me so many times already no because honestly we need to talk about that and just like the l of it like not t is it not is it not t well it's hers t oh i thought you were just talking about in general it's not t in general but then like my friend who does like that one more time hello right it's the peaky blinders right and so it's just like okay is that would you say that's right rate it rate it love yeah really oh yeah 10 10 10 i know about that no congratulations that's really good yeah i'm familiar with 10 i know i'm knowing i'm knowing 10 i've heard of 10 she's an old friend i came as soon as i heard um congrats on having an accent that's really awesome thank you for like i was just like boring busted bitches like it's actually like the only thing that i bring to the table no and the hair because you came in this fit and the hair oh which is kind of triggering to me because i just cut mine off i was actually fishing so okay perfect right right and we fell like it's no hell hard because it's just like also guys like toa's wearing my shirt mind you she like borrowed it for me right and i'll be getting it back after this episode so y'all will be seeing it more so it's just like and i thought we weren't gonna say that on camera but that's like yeah how many times have you worn this shirt in this space um what's the shirt count well the thing is i haven't been able to because it's just like you know after our last practice like you took it from me you're like oh can i start wearing this and i know you gave it to me so it's just like it's been unavailable yeah and so i was just like oh no it's all good and then i like see you popping out with it and now you're here and it's just like well well it's brave it's brave yeah i'm sorry no it's a it's totally all good i think i need to give you like a ukulele apology or no tap apology you know both of which sinister just nasty just no like a no tap apology is like girl that's very like 2016 though tease it's kind of fun should we bring it back and it's a notes app yeah i mean like say what you need to say you should just make a really vague one right a create mode if you will you're like a create mode it's more sickening it's a little more like button to the top yeah black screen create mode button to the top yeah but the notes app is like damn and you draw the trench coat right and that's the sinister apology and what about the handwritten though no a handwritten letter post-it no no that's performative i think but the performative is the notes app too it's the same shit but it's just like the paper the pen like well because that's how you know it's the same shit it's the same shit it's the same shit it's the same shit but also no one needs to read my 10 year old boy handwriting like no one needs to see that with their eyes boy handwriting yeah yeah do you know how to write in cursive yeah and it but it's unfortunate it's not like lovely beautiful cursive well some of the girls don't know how to write in cursive anymore are you some girls no the kids oh yeah they don't teach cursive anymore really they don't teach a lot of things anymore right unfortunately like what things um like math and reading reading is a huge thing reading but no apparently they like phased out of cursive which is crazy because i do write in cursive so it's like i don't know do you have beautiful you i feel like you look like you have beautiful handwriting thank you come on penmanship sweet yeah um i do i i write in cursive it depends when i'm writing the journal gives very much um scary the journal gives very much not you know not organized handwriting but like if i'm writing like a card i think i could do a little one too yeah but i get nervous when i write performatively or like when i have to write like with when i get nervous so like my handwriting is never like as good as it is when i'm just kind of you know vibing just like writing in my journal and stuff so oh yeah but i do write in cursive and i'm scared that like the younger kids will not be able to read anything that i wrote down if they have to read my penmanship yeah i think that that's their problem it just like ices me out like it just puts me in like a weird like yeah like a very like no it's lonely it's a lonely place it's a bygone thing but we are as unks wait how old are you unk 27 28 well 27 27 just turned when'd you turn um march 30th so you are a aries yeah unexpected aries wake that up yeah you don't give aries really thank you right then what's the rest thank you so much what's the rising thank you so much thank you no yeah thank you that's my guys thank you that's also one of my right big accomplishments um taurus rising okay there it is yeah i was gonna say yeah there we go a sign it's making sense yeah yeah virgo oh so it's straight hello button to the top yeah it's like loki strict as fuck yeah trench coat again button to the top yeah once again trench coat mention okay glad we're here glad we're here glad we're back here it's button to the top but the aries kind of adds a little one too like it's just like if it adds a little sprinkle if you're only so buck right do you get that and what and if you had to explain that to me what would what would it what is that yeah what like it's just like if someone like stepped to you yeah gave you like a little attitude and you'd be like it's like but you wouldn't do too much right if you have you heard the song knock a few buck knock a few buck yep this feels like when you know when there'll be like amish girls on tiktok and stuff and they'll be like drink a four loco they'll be like drink a four loco please because knock a few buck is okay fine like yo right no okay that's fine i just i'm coming out as amish i guess no and it's just like you shouldn't really have heard knock a few buck technically so it's like it's okay unfortunately because i didn't grow up in this country i've including this one but i think that's a pretty good metaphor for why were we 14 well and that's why you're like hello like i'm a class like classy and shit like classy as fuck no i'm like well someone knocked a few bucks you're like wait like oh well no like oh and it's unfortunate it's unfortunate i have to go back to my farm my amish farm oh i thought you actually had a farm i was about to kiki that would be sick i that is my dream horse and carriage i don't know if i'd want animals but i want a farm oh yeah but i want that animals are i feel like are an important part that's the like ecosystem yes but it's okay maybe what that's where the money is but i wouldn't want i don't think i would make anything right right no like actually because i just like personally couldn't i could i could care for an animal but the second it dies like i'm also gonna have to die unfortunately yeah so it's just like just that much of an empath in the sense that i wouldn't clean up for myself necessarily because that sounds like insane but just like just like just like just like just like just like just like genuinely like if i raised a cow for like 15 years i would have yeah you put your full i'm selling the whole shit with like straws farm yeah but like love the idea of like growing strawberries and like stuff like that not so attached to this yeah right i just like actually hate like the idea a carrot no a carrot did you say a carrot vegetarian no no i've dabbled i did a one two but no i'm actually back like full slaughterhouse unfortunately oh nice i wasn't eating red meat for like 10 years but you're back i'm back well i was i was gone for like seven years and now i'm back okay was it red meat or everything is that it's everything i'm full first thing you ate i ate um like my old housemates chicken curry and i felt immediately nauseous oh that was that's rough and then six months later i'm in paris having a steak so well what do we do paris wakes it up because they're they're like pure as fuck well exactly like nothing will make you sick and it's just like the chick like the chicken was the one thing that was like i was never really able to give that up to be honest oh really it was just like a red meat cut in a fierce way because of this cow one time but anyway we're back yeah you connected with the car i did unfortunately when i was like 19 and my brain was still like you know what i mean very malleable and i was just like behind a cow for three hours and it literally turned off the road to a slaughterhouse i was like bitch i'm about to turn with it like and then after that i was like down to yeah it's something something like shifted in that day but i mean red meat is also just so like damn like yeah it's giving big iron yeah like it's just like meaty as shit it's meaty as shit um but a burger though got me together yeah yeah how was that experience for your body and stomach oh my the first time okay so what happened yeah first time back great return first time back was a hot ass minute ago it was like a couple months ago and i had red meat it actually ran through my stomach like the fucking tomb raider like i was literally in the bathroom like door locked like oiled up like i'm literally about to die so then i was like oh literally feet up on the toilet seat like hands on the wall i was like it's over yeah um and so literally running like you know what fuck it like i don't know um so i kind of was like nah oh yeah no like folded over like no toes curled like no clothes on like praying like hashtag praying um no clothes no everything on the floor because it actually was that serious no when it gets serious it's like when your teeth chatter i know all the fuck about that and it's like vibrate and your teeth shatter all about that when you're shitting yeah like when it's that you're shivering no oh wow i've never gone you feel it you feel it you feel it literally gagging me so crazy no i know all about that i had a toilet chela moment like at coachella i got food poisoning and from the spring rules mind you so beware right stay vigilant girls were eating them this this time yeah they definitely like got their shit together i think because it was giving like if not then like we have to pursue legal action you had to take the elf first though yes and i was teeth shattering like leg shaking like yeah honestly naked and afraid like no one coming here crying yeah i know about that i've never had yeah the thoughts that are running through your head yeah oh yeah it's just like literally pleading with god like telling him i'll never do it again wait hey wait remember wait hello um hey literally was like when i went from being vegan and then i moved here which you would argue you would think i'd like stay vegan well and like because when i first moved to la because i had been vegan from like sophomore junior year of high school all the way until i don't know i was like 21 22 that's a long time and then i wanted to go to john and vinnie's have you been before yes okay yeah everyone was like john and vinnie john and vinnie's and i was like well who the fuck is john and who is vinnie yeah and here we are yeah thank you john and vinnie like sitting on the couch um dead ass ate there and like saw sparks of light well because that's like that's like vegan antithesis damn near like the cheese and the meat and the no it was like the bread and the and sorry see that was an accident and it's just like when you have somebody with an accident you gotta stop it's okay you gotta put an end to that it's just it don't guys don't worry no but i would be ran through too it's the equivalent of like when avatars like put their like their braid in that's how i felt when i ate john and vinnie's did they do that in the third avatar the fire they all plug the brain that's how they lock in right yeah that's how they walk in for their shift yeah they put their their hair bussy on it no like hair bussy no like when i'm riding the shit with my neck hella bent back i'm like fuck no right nobody talks about the pixie bitches the avatar pixie bitches no well they can't remember well they can't do that right well they could do one long braid and then the rex the oh like the rat tail that would be oh that's how i would like that i'd show myself that i'm like different i'm like i'm all i'm like all avatar wait that's kind of t i never watched the third one that'd be everything unfortunately wait so when'd you move to la or you're in la yeah yeah five five years under five years like four and a half years and how have you enjoyed yourself so far honestly love it yeah loves it yeah i actually do in a in a genuine way didn't think i would right didn't think i would unexpected love yeah it's t but i hadn't had been here before i moved so i just like full sand wait really yeah because you used to live kind of gaggy it is right it's a little bit crazy it's like a little unhinged oh it's that's the airy sun that's where she appears and then she goes where it's just like and then she hibernates but you ate that i mean you know la has reviews so i guess it's not like super blind it's not like you went to like kennesaw georgia or something but you know it's not like you went to like kennesaw georgia or something but yeah yeah that is kind of crazy i'm like that is kind of crazy it is kind of crazy i like stepped off the plane immediately went to um the lax uber lot no i took the shuttle you took but i had my shit like i had my life yeah right how many bags so many bags and like guitars yeah oh wow not even an uber you just gotta let them know off the plane like what it's about it's straight to the lot it's like you step off the plane and go straight to the lot well you have to yeah yeah no now i don't care if i literally like make my account go negative i have to get an uber black from the yeah because i just the lot the it's a lot it's a health gate oh yeah i don't know and you're like brave as shit for doing that i don't think i knew that there was another option right what else i probably wouldn't have taken the other option but i right like the escalade the escalade pull up the escalade pull up yeah that would be a sick way to enter the u.s though you're in my boom i just like just even the idea of being at lax i'm like damn they kind of like wow that introduction to the u.s is crazy yeah it feels like the philippines no when i when i got here i was like whoa i'm in the philippines low energy unfocused foggy you might be dehydrated gatorade zero powders have been scientifically designed to help improve hydration balance in the body with a clinically proven electrolyte blend and no artificial colors or flavors great tasting hydration no matter where you're going shop now online or at retailers nationwide gatorade hydrates better than water is it in you? symptoms noted are signs of mild to moderate dehydration consult a health care professional if symptoms persist wow whoa have you been to the philippines i have thank you and see i haven't been yet whoa i'm going this year i didn't know that yes i am because i'm like my grandma's getting old yeah so i need to like because who on like is your mom filipino i'm filipino and see they handle are you are you yeah mommy filipino oh yeah did you grow up with the filipino side of your family yes yeah oh so you like no ball in a serious way yeah i'm locked in with them yeah yeah they're cool i got like 20 cousins oh in a serious ass way yeah and like your cousins are like also your siblings yes yeah and i know about that and i know about that in a serious way it's everything wait i'm excited for you to go i am excited to go because like yeah yeah my grandma lives in manila right that's right me saying right i'm like right right thank you um yeah i'm like really excited to go because yeah my grandma's getting old and like love her yeah like she's everything she literally i don't know about i we weren't allowed to have like babysitters and stuff my mom was like so like strict with us so anytime we did need a sitter she was our sitter and like i love her so much she's everything so i'm gonna like key with her i'm gonna key with her yeah how's your tagalog horrible feeling feeling horrible about like feeling absolutely god awful because it's so crazy like i dead ass like i didn't even grow up with like my dad's side of the family like it was pretty rare when we would like go see them so genuinely only the filipino side of my family so like again a lot of filipino food filipino functions a lot of like you know the filipino like cultural experience are you are you karaokeing are you singing oh are you fucking kidding me are you fucking kidding me what's your like oh because that's my big one oh this is like the karaoke queen oh okay literally i have a machine at the house oh nice just a microphone into my amp yeah and just i'm like we're running a youtube style handle it okay and do you do the like wireless mic you know the one with the little speaker on on the side well like the the bluetooth device is ready to pair and i do know about that yeah but mine is like literally giving my guitar center like microphone no you've got a wired it's like running into autotune no like dead ass box am you got a playback recording yeah and like there's all that shit and literally i'm like and handle and handle um and i do you're like the edger and looper pedal like you're like building your chords yeah like with us sitting in the living room like no real bad no small thank you and i have like the sign up sheet because i'm like right right because what's your go-to karaoke song oh my god i probably uptown girl yeah that's a good one yeah it's in a really good karaoke oh perfect key perfect key it's a perfect key do you ever i kind of got like a boy girl voice so like i love it's hard for me to sing in the like female register and i'm not quite low low enough for the you know yeah got got the boy girl voice no i was in a vocal workshop like oh you're knowing oh well yes and i was marked as a kid literally she was like you're an alto i was like the fuck's that supposed to be like but like yeah no i was like why would you say that bro like that's crazy but like and what so like stand up right yeah because uptown girl right that's a classic you have you done a cover of that song like no but i honestly yeah because it's like you should honestly just have a show where you do carry it no i was literally gonna say like if i were to you should do it oh bitch you really could wait you do sing if i clocked in for my shift if we did a show and you did karaoke i think the girls would live no literally get your fucking amp like right right right right i think the girls would live no that would be like a key but not like proper well yeah but you could just go do it like karaoke yeah that's like very like trisha paytas yeah it is very trisha paytas yes it is it is like yeah wait that'd be key okay a soggy new singer like and then yeah you should just do like karaoke like okay it's just like okay okay right like no but tell me about your songs okay i'm like what are the choices i like what do i like um losing losing your religion losing our religion like that's a good one right the promise i'm right but i'm just it's a lot of 80s honestly well because you fuck with 80s i fuck with 80s like heavy yeah group collective silver springs is a fun one because you all just get a like you know belt it out um what else is a really fun one you got to do crowd pleasers i feel like avril lavigne is always like a girl that's a good pick yeah that's a good pick i don't like live laugh love for the karaoke no she doesn't however if i was going to do it because i'm just like honestly it's just it takes a certain amount of like it takes a certain amount of there's a vulnerability there's an intimacy there yeah that i can acknowledge i'm not always trying to like be in conversation with so like for me i can do karaoke specifically if it's like me and my friends yeah rent a room or at dom's house yeah i'll do karaoke but like oftentimes i think my like my connection to karaoke is that it's like somebody's birthday party and then it's like you're singing in front of like your two friends that you know and then like all of their friends and you're like yeah it's karaoke without consent exactly and we don't need we don't and we don't need i just like don't have that vulnerability like locked in right now but like if i was going to do karaoke my dream scenario which is with my friends i'm going like full one direction ballad in that bitch i don't know personally like and i am a mood killer i'll be honest i'll kill the mood if y'all give me the opportunity like it's made just for me but fuck it honestly i'm going more than this i'm going more than this and i'm going that have you like no right because i'm like literally it's no t it's no t because honestly and that's the thing is like that's my barometer is like if i can do more than this one direction and more than three people go bar for bar with me then i'll do the karaoke yeah but if i'm gonna do more than this and everyone's gonna be like what is this and i'm like guys i just can't even participate but if i had to participate which you always have to i'm doing paper planes mia no shade that's a good one yeah because it gets the girls going you know what i mean i can't go bar for bar with that one and then it's just like yeah yeah we handle not a lot of singing not a lot of singing yeah it's so good and i would argue another good one is um love on the brain okay okay see everybody nodded right because that's a cloud freezer right there wow yeah i would be pleased as as a crowd member yeah but then it's like it relies heavily upon everyone singing at the same time i'm just like yeah i can't hit those notes but like right i'm not hitting but like i'm just thinking about rihanna thinking about her like fuck yeah that's a hard song but it's a good one she she tore that up no she like ate the fuck down and now she's like a mom and we'll never see her music again and that's okay and i respect that hope she do be pregnant though that's what i mean like she's just hella like busy bro yeah she's busy bitch if i had a kid y'all i'd literally be like everyone shut up literally shut up you would never see me i'd be behind my door right yeah i'd be behind my door no yeah actually um but shout out like people who have kids thinking about y'all would you ever have kids yeah i would love to have kids really and you probably will never see me wait that's tea but it's like i created a thing i'm like oh my god i just want to hang out with my baby right wait that's really sweet like the first person that said yes loki wait really yeah well because you know we just gen z pos yeah i'm kind of like a hopeful ass bitch you know i'm like i'm like filled with joy no because you're real we need more to talk about that yeah we should talk about that and then as fun as it is to to be a nihilistic ho it's like also nice like is it fun enjoy yourself right god forbid no god forbid god god forbid we have hope god forbid it sometimes no that's like god did for bay but like yeah um no that's actually everything wait excited for you and like excited to know that like people exist and i'm gonna force that motherfucker to learn cursive i'm gonna wait right sit down i think by then the pendulum will swing back because we're already being like oh the girls can't read like that tiktok is going to be like oh the girls can't read like that tiktok is going to be like everyone trying to read silhouette and it was giving like oh hell no it's either giving like yeah they couldn't read it or they could read it but if they could read it there was no comprehension there yeah arguably because the girls are doing the site they're like not knowing what that means yeah i know what a silhouette mean okay i'm like dude i tried this is so random it's about to get very random in here i tried on this aritzia dress the other day was it giving silhouette mind you mind you oh mind you because first of all it literally didn't read it it was like oh my god i'm like oh my god i'm like oh my god i'm like oh my god i'm like oh my god i'm like oh my god i'm like oh my god i'm like oh my god i'm not even trying to be fucking funny gave me a bbl yeah yeah because me like this because nobody wants to talk about sewing nobody wants to talk about sewing as an art form because what they did was it's the dress it's just like a slip dress but they sewed like an extra no if you sew don't say anything because i don't know what they did but i'm going to try to describe it as a girl who doesn't know what they did but what i can presume is they made like an extra hem on the inside so like the hips like poke out a little bit down the leg bbl and ruined the rest of the dress it is an insert like they low-key padded it's t though it's t yeah it's a little sports bra in your in your literally and it's just like a cup so it's like not even too much like it's just kind of like perfect but then every dress i tried after that i was like a little cushion to sit down on yeah if you're laying on your hip a little like skin like butt pad well the skin don't get me started on the skims mama the skims butt pad the skit well the skims there's a lot of stolen valor happening with skims like they be doing the bush stolen valor girl the nipple piercing stolen valor hard nipple stolen valor right my do you have none of like hella just like oh actually yeah right i'm like right right in the sense that like you know what i mean because i'm like girls who got it like that i'm like like let the girls because no shade if i got my nipples pierced oh and you're wearing the skims i'm literally like bitch because you didn't go through that you didn't go through that you didn't go through that and i don't want to go through hell therefore that's what i mean like that's valor on your chest and like you deserve to like rock that shit without it being exactly without anyone questioning because honestly i'm like i should have done that when my brain was still like 19 years old right because you know when you went to college that everybody did it like the first year and everybody's like ah and i'm like unfortunately my cortex is here so now like when i think about it i'm like i can't do it i can't do that oh yeah i also like it takes so long to heal like you have to stop working out i can't stop working out you'll be working out and no and honestly let's get into the zen of the mind because the second you said you're joyful i'm like what do you do to stay joyful though because joy is not the default emotion these days right and we should wake that and hope too yeah right hope core hope core that's a real muscle you know like and if you say you just work out like we are gonna have to fight but it's okay i know i do i do i know you're running but thank you i know you're running i see you thank you no i be i do be running but are you like push pull like yeah it wasn't the vibe yeah scary like oh yeah in a big way oh wow do you like at home gym you like go to the gym i'm i'm at the i'm at the spot okay i'm at the spot with the boys with the boys oh and it's like i'm barking at them oh wow put down my fucking yeah right no let's go it's really scary out there wait and you're taking your creatine or like what's tea i'm taking my creatine okay if i remember okay i remember it's not powder or like gummies is there a gummy there is a guy is there the gummies wait i just started wait let's talk there is a gummy it's tea it's like this array it's expensive as shit i'm just telling y'all now so no one gets mad at me i'm kind of out already okay well here's the tea i just like it because it's a gummy they sell it at ulta love but you do have to take you do have to eat four so if you don't that's kind of intense um it's like it helps what does it do it like it basically puts a bunch of like water in your muscles yeah so it like helps like eat that recovery and like and it tastes bad or no sour green apple 60 is what i have it's actually not that expensive oh okay we'll see i bought the one the bigger pack that comes with 90 gummies but the tea is if you take four a day which is like five mil five milligrams yeah work which is like the usually like if you're really trying to like cook right and so oh i'm trying to cook okay i'm trying to look crazy shredded oh yeah i'm sure yeah no and i and you're gonna handle that and you're gonna handle that i'm really taking care of business over here no seriously no and i love that like i love someone who's handling it yeah yeah you just like are you just weightlifting are you doing other stuff too yoga and pilates as well well and see that's the sculpt right there you see right because we can't play about and yoga be so damn hard and nobody wants to talk about it yeah in a serious and pilates and pilates yeah core activation that's happening but i'm like yoga does that like i'm feeling that shit you know are you like wait reformer they be clickbaiting like they're like it's like so relaxing and zen which it is but it's like you're going sculpt right yeah because the girls are strong the yogis are very strong they're so strong so i'm like don't be surprised if you go to a yoga class and they and you're sweating yeah yeah well because there's like hella classes too because one time i went to a yoga class i was just dead ass stretching yeah and i was like needed this flow i'd be like okay let me know i literally just feel like stretching as fuck i'm like right i kind of need my heart rate up though i'm like no that's good 170 that's probably why you're do you wear an apple watch garment nothing dude i might be coming out as an apple watch where i am and the way my bag because i was embarrassed yo but but i will not be seen i will not be seen with okay it's a it's a utility you see so it's like that would make sense it's a tool exactly it's a tool like sometimes and this is how insecure i am like sometimes i'll take it off from my walk from the gym to the car oh mine's like just in case and like how would they know well because two apps ago or maybe the last app right i dead ass had mine on yeah and i was like holy shit no it ages it ages me 10 years it's just like but it is like it's a tool though it's a tool for the gymming and like the rings and that uh well i would just assume we were just talking well i'd be like you're i would assume you're still handling something right and respect because it's about everything else i already know fucking like your rings are closed because everything in form everything informs each other like how my rings stay closed damn and i know that about you no and i'm like damn like that's really crazy like already had the water bottle in the bag i was like girl like no and happy for you guys seriously no that's really awesome wish my water bottle was here i miss her do you want it is it like right there no i'm just like i might smash one of those ices instead you know oh well boom well boom you can handle well you can you know they they're hooking it up for the girls as long as my rings are closed then i can smash right the reward right the rings being closed damn that's crazy are your rings closed not right now okay well not yet no it's early days usually it's like 11 yeah well i've like low-key my shit's been like fucked up because i've was on my zoom in like such a crazy way yeah i'm putting in work i was like on my 5 a.m grind like first workout at 5 a.m that is crazy it is crazy this is what happened because like personally i don't subscribe to the 5 a.m especially when you have mad shit to do because it's like yeah by seven you're actually like falling asleep to the 5 a.m and i'm like oh my god dinner table yeah but i was like running with my friends and they wanted to run at seven so i'm like if i'm at the gym five to six and then you know like you got to handle business before you run yeah it's just like there's business to handle yeah like can't have my teeth chattering on the trail seriously well because the teeth will be quick to chatter on the trail like something sinister there about so i need to close in a pile yeah yeah so i need to like wake shit up and like do some shit like what i'm like you're taking care of us next thing you know by the time i get there yeah right on time right and the seven is a is a dig and the five is the dig on top of the seven days so it's like damn but then like after i like did a bunch of traveling got sick as shit and so now i'm like slowly working my way back up to five and you'll handle them five is crazy work no it's like fucked up but now you're getting up at 4 30 4 20 4 20 blaze and i just don't know what costs 4 20 blaze it but at what cost at what cost well it's like you can't see it your friends right because it's just 7 30 falling asleep at the dinner table yeah no it's fucked up i'm not saying it's right but you're you're there's a there's a goal there's a goal in here there's a goal and it will be handled it's just like i did that capricorn thing where you like accidentally like did too much and like committed like way too hard okay and now it's like you just like you're gonna handle though you have no other choice but to like do it and we're gonna see you through and now we're handling too but i i hear you on the whole like time it like changes your day it does it changes your day because i was i was with my friends and we went out for dinner and it was like a very respectable time we got back to mine at like 10 and everyone was just like sitting around on the couch like kiki-ing i just fell asleep yeah i was just asleep at the function and like they were and they were just there talking for like the next hour and a half and i was just asleep it's kind of my dream scenario yeah like that's why i don't host because i'm like by 10 30 i'm like no everyone has to get out of here like i'm like y'all know with a quick right with the quickness and also i need to also be in bed at the same time so it's just kind of like hard and i'm gonna become resentful over you real quick because even though i haven't expressed it yes every minute you're so because i'm literally like i'm going to be as long as you want and i'm like oh my god it's so like i don't know i just started doing the thing where i'm like no i'm just like you have to i just let people say i just don't even host like i'll just be out in bed you do do that i'm the ceo of like spend the night post up on the couch right i'm going to bed but like y'all can literally like come key as long as you want yeah that's why like every year i would have my birthday party at my house because like versus like having it at a place like an actual proper you know place because i'm like shit y'all stay here y'all do y'all a one two i'm going to bed staying there right yeah i'm like i'm gonna go the fuck to bed yeah i have been caught there locked by 10 30 i'm like all right um anyway y'all yeah no that's hell i just like can't even at this point i can't even host because i i'm noticing in myself like pattern recognition that i keep doing this thing where i wake up like well and i literally will wake up meditate drink a cup of coffee feel so good at like 9 30 that i start texting everyone like guys at 10 p.m tonight we should drive to vegas and like have such an awesome time and then three hits and i'm like why is everyone texting me like i'm literally like guys you're like i'm actually i'm sorry no and to the point now where i'd be like prefacing my text with that if you get a text from me in the morning i'm literally like and this is what i'm doing i'm like i'm like i'm like this is the spark of inspiration that i get when i'm really feeling it so i can't tell y'all if it's gonna like last like and if it will i'll text you at four like okay we're on are you guys doing a group chat like is there a big group chat happening or is it oh wow i just i personally can't take accountability like that sometimes like i need to kind of like i need to crumb some things and like see like who's up and like see like whatever and then you know yeah see who's down right because i don't want to do the big group chat let down of like guys actually i decided that i need to play like papa's hot dog area so it's like awesome but you know and it's true i mean y'all know me like the girls be clocking me so it's like whatever you don't have an ipad you're like you're like look at me and you're like this fucking fool has an ipad you don't have an ipad though you give no ipad i'm no ipad i'm not giving ipad but i did have an ipad i was like first generation ipad baby because right you know right our age we were we were at our age we were yeah totally fruit ninja fruit ninja yeah about that and um temple run right that's like the og text that's the og text oh well now it's like all the all the games are like working my motor skills are fine like yeah yeah yeah look at this mobility i know the ipod's tea oh wait i love that's all i can say about that no i love like an ipad moment the ipad with the apple pencil like it's like with the apple watch like the whole watch no the whole the whole pill like low energy unfocused foggy you might be dehydrated gatorade zero powders have been scientifically designed to help improve hydration balance in the body with a clinically proven electrolyte blend and no artificial colors or flavors great tasting hydration no matter where you're going shop now online or at retailers nationwide gatorade hydrates better than water is it in you symptoms noted are signs of mild to moderate dehydration consult a health care professional if symptoms persist the ipad is for fun yeah what are you guys doing on your ipad i'm running businesses oh like i literally run a coffee shop a pizzeria a hot dog stand at a stadium generic stadium we don't know which one and like one i'm right now i'm also investing in a sunday shop oh yeah you're running businesses oh i'm like dead ass and they're like working for some reason um and then also like on tiktok now i'm in an era screen big screen because i took it off my little screen so now i do the big screen with the apple pencil yeah shut up and it kind of honestly kind of helps because it feels like that yeah and it's this sometimes and sometimes it's this when i comment that's the like there's a certain kind of there's a certain and that's like like something about it do you do a swipe text situation on my phone hell yeah on my apple on my ipad i have to take it off because then it fucks with the gaming because then sometimes it's like the coffee's over there when i meant to like it's just like too much yeah yeah yeah the coffee's over there no the coffee's over there it's supposed to go to table five it's just like really annoying yeah business is falling apart yeah the business is it depends which business yeah i do have one let's you're so she yeah yeah my airplane shop my airplane chef is not doing well right now i'm trying to run a nasty stint in new york and they're eating me up it's really annoying but it's just like sick yeah and it's just like and i haven't been back i'm avoidant i'll say it i'm like because when i come back y'all gonna get mad at me once again yeah we're seeing it yeah because if you don't shout out the avoidance shout out the avoidance she was in new york like i was in new york like stop yelling at me yeah i know i've been in my avoidant text era too it's bad oh i'm really bad wait let's let's all read how many unread texts we have i don't think i'll have the most my phone immediately no i won't have i won't have the most wait love island texted me love island texted you talking about 9 p.m girl let me show you oh i'm chilling i'm chilling i'm chilling i did do a mask clean recently so i'm chilling what are you saying i'm only 592 mine's 667 yeah okay period what what what that's bad okay well a lot of them are probably like you know like like spam and the discounts and the in the whoop the whoop because i do i do put my phone number and everything i'll be honest no i'm getting my phone number out if the coffee's good i'm like period and then they're like texting me and it's like great like 592 wait what's yours it's not that bad 193 oh wow oh so you're responding don't worry you're responding you're responding to who you want to respond to yeah yeah you know and 116 missed calls oh perfect 822 emails well i don't even have a number on my emails because i know better than that what are my phone what's my number giving oh i don't even i don't even have missed calls i just have one from spam y'all know y'all 222 in the number though so was it spam or 148 missed calls right i'm sorry y'all it's okay no i'm feeling my shit right now but i'm like i need to respond to that but like unfortunately like i just the adhd babe it's overwhelming it's overwhelming are you guys calling people yes i'm big facetimer big facetimer yeah i love like literally if i need because i'm horrible at tech as we all fucking know right but it's like if you need to like talk to me or if i need to like get a hold of someone i'm facetiming you so we can yeah proper handle that used to be my judge but lately like i i again pattern recognition like i think i've built up like an anxiety around the fact that like it's never a short call it's never a short call so like in my head like i used to be like oh just call real quick but i genuinely will not be on a face time less than two hours so it's like we need to stop oh i do i do be clocking i do the same thing too yeah it's my my sock is like outrageously short today oh wait and i just need to just have like i just need to work with like the ebb and flow of like the cut of the pants so it was like i don't know yeah i don't i don't know it's making me feel a little insecure that you're seeing a little ankle oh i didn't notice till you said that see all right and there's a grander lesson well if it was like a low sock yeah no if it's an ankle sock yeah i'd be like then that's crying honestly if it was an ankle sock though with the way you're dressed i would just assume there's something i don't know oh yeah like it would be giving like oh i'm just like not sure yeah i'd be like oh i'm chopped already like i've been wearing these spots in every single episode actually do you have a little sock under there are you oh oh this is a part of my foot this specific flat yeah i've been through everything in these spots like you're in bed you're in the shower oh yeah actually we'll see that till they stay clean i just get in the shower it's it's a whole thing shout out camper like love you and like they would pay me dust but i'm just like just know that i love you okay the amount of people that pay us dust no and they're real wait but i want to know though is there anything that you do besides working out that attributes to your joyful spirit like are you like a mindfulness diva i'm kind of a mindfulness diva on the low though yeah again this is like i'm so granola in a way that people love though yeah people are not knowing about that it's an unexpected do you want to keep the like do you want to keep the secrecy and the privacy of that or no i'm i'm down to get a little granola today we should if you can meet me there oh and i'm literally when my eyes literally like this i'm like oh yeah yeah i mean you're waking up at five so let's well and you're waking up at five exactly yeah and so i haven't achieved those kinds of levels well i'm like i fell off a little but i'm about that's okay though yeah you're good you're good when you wake up at five are you like that's what i mean like whoa the day is done no with my schedule like in such a crazy way because like i have my shit down to like yeah science type shit for the weekend or the weekdays because the weekend like it's a lot more like whatever core but like but like during the weekdays like i would like to you know it's really on the days i like am at the gym like with a trainer you know what i mean because the other day you got a trainer i do because i don't be knowing how to do shit right that is the i'm just guessing okay and that's t though that's t i just like no i would like fuck my backup like all this shit so i'm like girl tell me what's t you know what i mean and you're lifting weights you're lifting in a big way in a in a way that's like intentional yeah right yes but i'm not gonna be like you know shred like hydrox hydrox hydrox hydrox or whatever hydrox right you know what hydrox is no it's like a bus down it's like crossfit x like i don't know it's giving crossfit kind of it looks to be like a triathlon but like honestly it's like you run uh you do like eight kilometers whoa yeah pull wall ball don't you swim too or something oh okay oh okay sorry anyways it's like yeah it's like a fitness race no for fun but not for beach yes i try and go to the beach every week that's like another core thing that i do i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know yeah i'm like a night beacher i fear your night yeah i don't love the day beach i do be howling i do love the night beach yeah you're howling at the moon yeah real talk yeah the wolf the wolf oh yeah yeah yeah like burning shit on the beach or not if that's not legal that was a joke but you know just like little pit with like you know little pit in the sand kind of vibe oh nice yeah that's really nice it's very serious oh okay yeah yeah okay so you beginning no but tell us more tell us more about the granola yeah the granola is good guys like i'm here to tell you a lifestyle like when we find out you just like eat granola we're like oh okay perfect like love do you be like hiking teas yeah i went on a hike yesterday oh love like already i'd be hearing from you we're outside we're outside yeah i'm outside that's good to be though it's very balanced yeah do you like i also like if i get pale and i think this is like something that a lot of mixed people have it's like if i get pale i look gray like i look sickly okay yeah okay okay wow patient unfortunately well and we're like sorry about that no we're like getting into like summer now so yeah and it's like i can't be like out in the streets looking gray tea yeah like gray right like i'm not i'm not there yet i'm not there yet and that's okay i don't have the security to wear my apple watch or be gray right i know we should just do both exposure therapy yeah right you know what i mean everyone put it on their fucking apple watch we're going honestly we're going to the club i would like literally get mine from my bag and like literally be like rolly on my wrist honestly yeah because rolly on my you really on your wrist bitch is back from your no i actually are you like hey that was kind of the most sickening part of an apple watch i feel like for me when i have one back in the day hello well when it's in the airpods and you're like hello i'm like yeah it's what woke it up for me was i added like a like you know so it has data on it and then i yeah in a big way to like right if i don't want to bring my phone on a run right because then it'll a i have maps on there that makes sense now we're fucking talking you know what i mean we're fucking talking so it's just like it was really like a convenience thing but like you know an apple watch will literally be like hey girl like uber eats can like send you a notification being like hey i'm like bitch it's like there's someone at your front door yeah like literally i'm like okay girl like release me no like release me from the shackles but like no but honestly it's like a good way to get off your phone yeah yeah because that kind of sold i'm like t three hours and not be on your phone because like one time you called me and i was on a walk and i didn't have my phone but i answered on my watch like hey but that's why i didn't the data is kind of selling the data is kind of selling because like at this point i like don't even want my phone it's useless now oh isn't it crazy like when it dies and you realize that it's literally just like a hunk of metal and you're like my phone is like actually never died so like i don't know but yeah but i can imagine that to be very disorienting yeah no like i'm like it's never your phone stay at one percent that read your phone's at one percent isn't it she's kind of under my butt right now let's see no 69 nice wait at noon okay i'm like wait hold on yeah happy oh wow 85 for real right have you been in any of the activities the pride activities no i haven't done a pride activity yet yeah have you guys been in the activities not yet this is like my first year like really like entering into the activities oh right because the activities because the activity when you say activities well okay here's tea i like for the first time have a girlfriend which like love i have you know because let's stand up for the flag yes um and i went to weho pride my friend's phone did get stolen whoa as is tradition scared do you know tea about sweetwater and bernie sweetwater no or like the lesbian bar of it all tell me what's happening there's like a new lesbian bar called sweetwater and weho there's like a ton there anyways it just opened up really and i went and i saw bernie sweetwater with my own two eyes what's it by it's next to what's the one with like is it beaches maybe beach is the one that's like yeah that's on that strip right there yes unlike santa monica yeah it's like san vicente and santa monica yeah like rockies or whatever yeah and the or maddie's now wait didn't they close rockos yeah now rockos yeah yeah now it's called like maddie's oh mine haven't been there in a minute no it's a damn mind i just stopped being gay i just stopped i talked out because me like and then actually yeah no actually i stopped too no but like my girlfriend lives in west hollywood so she but she's like right there so like in the yeah so we could literally just like walk yeah and i was like wait i didn't know it was like tea for real like y'all like oh the strip mama is not a joke no literally it was and that's why i don't like genuinely yeah you're getting your phone is getting stolen oh your phone's getting stolen and i'm doing an alani new butt chug like genuinely yeah like actually mind you i literally so my friend your funnel your funnel the peach alani new like badass my friend had like a you know like the fanny the fanny right in her front like zipped down zipped down zipped down and i literally i'm not kidding put mine and this is like disgusting but like idc inside like literally oh you have like literally in your butt like inside my butt literally no like yeah and had mine like inside my pants and i was like no because you're gonna have to like literally be like you're gonna have to write yeah like when somebody asked me to dance i'm like damn it like i'm like no and then my phone's stolen right i'm like wait you're digging in me like you're gonna have to dig yeah but no yeah like actually dead the fuck ass and my friends did get like no because in operation like how did they okay this is what i'm gonna do i'm gonna do what happened and now because before i'm saying because two years ago my friends all their shit got stolen too and i was like wait how like kind of like a what's the word not a tradition but like the the entryway what's the word i'm thinking about um right passage um like that ass but when we were like walking through because on one side it's super open because like this the street was open and then the side where like it was closed for the parade we were walking on that side and it's like super slim it was giving concert where you're just walking and you're like oh my god i'm body to body yeah and you need to have your hand on your shit well and that's when i realized like that's so easy like because everyone's just like you could oh if you get like mind you literally have been like literally been in the cut and like somebody bumped into me it's over like the second your friend's like oh somebody bumped in baby it's over mind you your phone's gone and by the time you open find my phone it's like this and then it stops like the operation is sick mean the operation sick man yeah it's very sickening yeah no i remember the like phone the phone uh the phone what's his name the guy in italy and he was like big bucket big bucket yeah where was that motherfucker when you know like and he like literally like spray paint their face no it's awkward and we hope right before we went out i was like you said we need the italian i was like we're gonna pick pocket and that's why i said i'm putting words yeah because you genuinely need to have your hand on your yeah the girls being the ellen girls be taking the phone down i'd be like excuse me the ellen girls be wanting your damn phone it's like oh fuck now yeah and it's gone now yeah and so her shit got like yanked sorry to that um and yeah and if we if we had apple watches on this is the lesson if we had apple watches on we'd be safe exactly right we'd be good i'd be like what you'd be like no i just walked around i'm actually i'm on facetime right now right i'm gonna fucking zoom in no like playing papa's pizzeria like yeah no that's awesome sorry i got like a word number two yeah um yeah no the weho they were they were snatching girls stuff but anyways dude i went 2022 like my first year in la right and i was like have to and i will never be going back yeah yeah i'm now homophobic no i get that i know and that was my lesson it is a kiki though it's like a specific it's a very you really have to commit you gotta commit it's a specific you gotta be in a mood you have to want to you have to be in that mood but that's the thing if you're in her mood then you're in she'll get you together yeah but if you're even half in the mood i just want to see what like sweet water was about oh like the bar of it all for sure and it's just like it's giving like it's cute yeah it's giving it's cute okay like guys it's cute like no go go get a drink go i think i think you know i don't i don't even think just us no just paying dust no no y'all should go y'all should go and let me know i'm convinced yeah and let us know and let us know honestly if you're in her mood then you're in her mood if you're in her mood we should go honestly that would wake some shit up we should go on just like some kiki well because nobody wants to honestly it was a key though he wants a key and see i'm like clock the time because it's me like we should go oh my god and i bet you it's like not past noon yet like literally right because i'd be feeling it like i'm like we should do everything yeah a handstand pop it we should go if you ever feel called to go to sweet water i'll pull up that would be tea i would love to see it for real we should she open literally this past weekend oh whoa like she opened on saturday night and she's like oh my god she's like oh my god she's like oh my god she's like oh my god like her grand opening was like saturday oh my god so we like went after dinner oh that's nice that's actually yeah and i was just like okay like hello divas no let's wake that up and it was like all like i don't know i feel like it is really demo well okay well let's talk about that it seems that the demo was right well okay i will say the saturday demo was giving i don't know if it was giving like friends and fam because there were there were a decent amount of gay guys but there also were a lot of like lesbians older lesbians and some younger ones okay a lot of them yeah but i like fuck with the older lesbians because i'm like y'all like paved the way and no right yeah of course like y'all were like and they were there they were there right they were there for the first they were there they were there with the breaks no like dead ass because i'm like i always think this too i'm like y'all had to be the rizzlers for motherfucking real oh and you know the riz is something fucking serious it's so serious it's so serious because they had to they were carrying it on their back yes like you can even just be fine shit like you know what i mean like you literally had to be like yeah you wanted them uh i'm like what yeah you listen baby girl i'm like no literally hello like 45 with a mohawk i'm like what no wake it up let's wake it up i'm like but living for a lot of diversity though no it was actually an age because and then i was gonna say sunday it was like the young and what about like is it are there a lot of like white gays happening there or is it like honestly it was it was giving like and what about like no that'll be honest like just no like no honestly yeah oh kind of like just every like genuinely every everyone i would say like sunday it definitely was giving like wider but i feel like that's the parade or sweet water it was sweet water okay but sweet water at the during the parade because they had like stands up yeah so i'm like i don't know what to like chalk that up to but it also was younger so i like don't really know like tea necessarily um and this was like my first time like at the function for real but i was like okay bernie like yeah let me get it for you no i can just get it for you really quickly boom whoa sorry it's just like yeah you guys were on a tight shit we're kind of just we're like you know what i mean like there's like just as a natural blonde you know yeah it's hard it's hard it's been hard for me do you be like journaling and stuff too yeah yeah are you guys on that pen to paper cursive honestly cursive pen to paper but then like lately i've been like not doing that lately i've been in my like actually silent meditation bag because sometimes i feel like i start writing shit down and it's like am i just like reinforcing these things by thinking about it every single time i write it down wow so i'm in kind of like a weird flux right now well you just unlocked the next level well but like new map is t yeah but then like the overthinking i'm like when you start journaling the overthinking and then you're journaling the thing you're like every single day i'm like am i just like manifesting this again wow that's really real but journaling's everything yeah the rumination thought spiral exactly like sometimes it's not necessary we're working through that right now it's really tough and when you're silent meditating are you experiencing a lot of quiet are you experiencing a lot of like okay things are happening in my brain and i'm putting them to the side for now i feel like it's a lot of like i'm past like i think i'm getting a little bit better where i don't mind thinking about things because i don't think that like silence in the brain is necessarily the goal right but there is like a there's like a fluidity like a a stickiness that i'm trying to get rid of right now to like sticking to every single thought and like having to like approve or disprove that thought and on top of that as like an adhd person what that's like an adhd person um i'm really into the guided meditations right now because i'm kind of hitting like a like space yeah i'm really into the guided no but would love to i'm in my youtube bag my diva lavendaire oh and some other girls oh i don't know i have youtube premium because i'd be on you i'd be on you just called me a brokie oh no no like brokie by all got your netflix your hulu your peacock baby if i don't have my youtube that's my netflix ytp yeah so it's like this money that i'm spending on youtube premium is like also the money that i'm not spending by being logged into everybody else's shit actually shout out my mom and dad thank you guys oh it's just like i'm like i'm paying for my family my family shit which is like and you're big stepper no but i'm young baby oh and i'm like so why why is siblings yeah older too i know all about that i know all about that and damn they're paying you dust they're paying you dust for that but it's okay you're rewriting the narrative of the younger one you know what i'm saying like i know i'm actually angry about it now okay you should probably yeah you should address that in the family group chat honestly yeah wake that up why am i because why would i be right yeah and the spotify account too taxed wow honestly thank you you just unlock some gratitude because i'm like no because my mom be holding it and my mom and dad be holding it yeah they yeah they're holding it i'm the same way my mom's like my mom's like so what's tea with that hulu yeah and i would be like the nothing i guess no give me that six digit cup honestly damn i don't know maybe that's a filipino thing because my mom be like low-key like running my shit as fuck and she ain't no and i like i mean if my parents ever decided to kick me off i would understand because i mean i'm 27 years old but it's just like the only thing i think i do for them is the wow presents plus and that's it so because they're in their drag race bag obviously so boom boom okay boom okay you know it's no shame youtube premium the youtube premium just for the meditations because if i got an ad during a meditation like i would actually have to report myself yeah that's like actually really fucked up and i didn't even know that was a thing yeah um but no i mean the guide meditations are nice because then you can kind of just like focus on the voice which then kind of inherently like clears a lot of the mind yes and then my even love and therapy and they're like i am loved i'm the artist in my life i'm like bitch you're so real and do you repeat that back oh out loud out loud because the mental health was so sickening that it was like yeah they're just saying it in your head do you mean it though let's say it out loud no and that's until you believe it until you believe it yeah the mental health is is giving so that you have to love oh you have to say it out loud there's no there's power in the saying it out loud because then it's like you're saying it out loud but then you're also hearing it there's no there's no other option well because in her meditations he says you can think it right and you want better and speak it yeah sometimes having roommates though is like well they're i'm not with them but i used to have roommates yeah yes i'm just like exiting that so like i actually am in the kitchen like saying everything out loud and like burning sage and like yeah nice i'm doing i'm doing my one too so like in the morning and at night cross legs sitting on a chair oh cross legs sitting on the couch really feeling weird about my spine honestly so i've been on the floor with it lately with the leg like perched up like fuck it oh yeah yeah that's nice it's cool but meditating is nice i'm on that right now dude i'm kind of on that too yeah it's like i like how you it's like huge if something resonates you're like no i'll be doing that i'm trying to get though and back into the physical bag though like the i'm trying to find like the walking and we are like running so like the running is nice but like you guys are running together no oh well not in practice but we're running the same thing but also my friend is running more than me which is a full marathon and then i'm meeting her on the half marathon type okay yeah okay wow you feel called let us know i don't okay yeah i don't i'm not at the moment i've been having some ankle health issues oh yeah definitely i know all about that you're knowing about i just not ankle but knee yeah i'm like bambi in this bitch like it's it's like oh the size of my ankles like they're not they're ungodly small oh yeah i'm eviscerated i'm tiny but actually like i'm tiny in a way that it's like oh i'm unstable i'm unstable like i'm unbalanced yeah and strengthen the ankle the toe raises the toe raises yeah this you got to protect the ankle for real i sprained it three times last year do you do any like inkful inkful right do you do any ankle strengthening or just i should be the achilles of it all i used to i was like i was like doing it and then i was like once you start feeling better you it's easy to fall off dude even the toe raises for real because it's like the joints i just have you're knowing about the toe raises i'm knowing about the toe raises are you having ankle situations no because i always do the toe raises and i always protect the knee i have to i i have like fear i have i have like the instilled fear of like growing up like if anything feels like a little different than yesterday i'm throwing the sleep on there well that's what i was gonna say and i'm handling it i'm handling it i got like runner's knee which is like oh the patella patella tendon yeah and it scared the absolute shit out of me yeah like i didn't run for like two and a half weeks yeah it like really scared me so bad because i thought i tore my finiscus right and then me realizing that like oh like everyone actually just like experiences that yeah because running's hard it's just like the volume too for like the marathon of it all but anyways i got a like specific brace for it and i've just been like like yesterday i was like completely fine right so i was like oh okay work i haven't ran them so i'm back that's right oh you're back yeah oh you're good i ran one mile and i was like yesterday love and a mile sounds sexy no it was like scary only a mile are you outside are you inside i okay so for just a free run that's like chill vibes outside but for like the the ones where it's like tempo or like you know different speeds and stuff i do that on a treadmill because it's like easy to control control yeah but yeah i ran one mile and i was like holy fucking shit what i think it was just like that what well it was like the post sick post yeah out of routine like it just no getting back in your body yeah totally and so anyways today after this i'm gonna run two and a half yeah because i was like girl don't be scared you'll be eating them threes like it's not no and i'm gonna do three and a half but then next week because my long run was supposed to be seven and a half miles i'm like baby i can't do that so so next week my long run's four and a half so what i'm gonna do is monday come monday the next week's schedule is like way chill and then i'm gonna hop back in like that's like the reminding of a schedule i'm like yeah you're just like actually gave me like cortisol spike yeah are you running sorry so i'm not putting you on spot that'd be currently yeah would you run it girl you'd be doing oh my god watch locked it oh i'm like i don't know what the motherfucking apple watch where bitch don't even read it y'all know so i'm on business so it's no shade i'm about to get an apple watch now that you're talking about the fucking no phone like that actually woke something up and i'm just wearing on my ankle okay like i'm gonna be like sitting at the restaurant no it is it is nice in terms of like what about like an apple necklace or when i used to wear an apple watch i used to i was one of those bitches that would wear it on the inside yeah were you fitbit no no that was me yeah they're coming out with we sports resort sorry that was completely separate but i just have to say that on the switch bitch i'm like you know my come on yeah i see no it's t it's about to be sickening bitch because you can fly the planes anyway sorry oh that made me think about we fit which made me think about we sports resort which i would run actually they run but like the one where you'd run oh yeah and we fit oh and i'd handle that yeah yeah yeah you take care yeah that was everything no but the fitbit the fitbit the aura ring yeah wearable tech are you sleep health no okay t you kind of give sleep health but i'm not giving sleep health that was like in a positive way sorry wait i do give sleep yeah like you give like you get good sleep yeah dude i'm trying i'm trying time you go to bed i get like really frustrated if i don't get good sleep i get like angry at myself but it's like totally out of my control but i like kind of grew up in a household where it wasn't like the emphasis wasn't on getting good sleep really yeah t and like there are other people in my life who are like oh no my parents were like sleep is medicine like yeah you get good sleep i feel like it's one or the other like you grow up in a in a household where parents are like get up at 5 a.m like we're going yeah and that was kind of my situation and that's real how much do you sleep now do you think i think that's i'm like sleeping out of spite you know so i'm like trying to get like eight nine oh for sure yeah yeah you need like eight or nine you do right at least like i'm like eight as yeah are you dude i'm like at six right now like six seven that's right kind of sickening though because i do envy the people that aren't like that yeah it's t it's t don't encourage her doing that like we just got off that like literally no my my six seven sim was really fucking bad really do you want to talk about it six seven right where did it stem from do you think i just get really bad stims sometimes yeah i feel like sometimes they start ironically and then they like form it did it did yeah the silence that happened from you when you said when you did because it's like one of those i also am realizing that i have like an aversion to loud sound like loud sudden sounds me just like naming symptoms i'm like i don't know i do i do i do i just realized that because oh good heavens yeah i hate good heavens i really don't like loud sudden sounds yeah yeah sorry guys no no no it's okay but i only say that because i realized every other loud sudden sounds except for that yeah that was fine well we're we love that and we're used to this you know what i'm saying so it's no t but i just realized because my brain does a thing where it's like you have to be quiet i don't know yeah it's just like immediate silence no i know my butt and my brain um well boom well boom like boom wait what did you know i want to know about the sleeping still though yeah the six hours and you feel great no i'm feeling bad really i'm feeling negative oh yeah well so why can't we sleep more scheduling or is it like no it's like my body's like time to go oh wow an anxiety thing oh yeah oh for surely for sure yeah but just been busy yeah you know and then it's like you know tell us about being busy i know i'm like tell us about being busy i put out a little album oh thank you how was the process last month it was good it took me a year and a little bit love yeah and is that a scary process in the sense of like i feel like when you start a project i'm projecting like i'm projecting like i'm projecting like i'm projecting when you start a project there's like the more time that it takes to kind of like end the project like i imagine it to be a little anxiety inducing of like what is this gonna be and then i hear musicians talk about like oh yeah this album took me a year or two years i'm like if i work on anything more than a month i'm like it's chopped in my head the anxiety the anxiety no it's really yeah it is hard it's hard to do long-term stuff like especially in a world where everything is so quick and instant it's it's hard to commit to something for so long and believe that it's good yeah totally totally like phases in and out sorry no no i cut you off and i'm sorry about that well i was gonna say i'm like literally because first off album banger thank you and thanks for creating really like and like thanks for creating like let's talk about art because like thanks gang no no no because gang you like ate the fuck out of that it's like crazy i mean like you know because like i feel like there's so many songs on there that are like so fun like dirty habit like oh you're knowing the name oh i know the motherfucking name on the fence to like oh i'm you dead ass about to be at the concert like hand like be on tour hand like oiled up hands in the air like it's about to be awkward yeah and you'll know because you'll see the glimmer from like from our section see the reflection off this right right exactly no like bird call like when you see is that what you call bird call bird call yeah yeah the apple watch i kind of want one now guys i'm sorry i'm not even gonna lie where are you getting out i'm laughing at the image in my head of you being on stage and seeing the glimmer of an apple watch that is fucking real i would live i would live yeah no but we'll be on stage with you so you'll feel no rings will hella be closed on tour right they're gonna be shut the walking in a circle on stage like the rings are closed no the rings are hella closed like 30 minutes in thank you zone three zone three heart rate zone three real bad yeah yeah i know about that um i'm familiar with them i know guys the apple dude i think i'm gonna buy one though i'm not gonna lie i'll you sold specifically on the data imagine i'm gonna i'm gonna spill tea oh i'm gonna have zero steps but like my brain is just like if i could leave my phone at home i will go outside barefoot it's actually a blessing and i will walk amongst the bushes and i'm gonna turn into like the san francisco bush man like i'll spill tea i'll spill tea once we you know right we'll talk about this but no like in a serious way though your album like eats out especially the last song miss victoria victoria that shit is like i can even like so vulnerable so raw like thanks man like genuinely you put your like whole heart into that shit for real i did yeah that was the long the the song that took me the longest to write which honestly wasn't that long in terms of i feel like people be like yeah i'm writing a song for two years right this one was like it's kind of long for me it was like five or six days oh so you just be like right yeah right and that's kind of like some sort of shakespearean right the flow state that's kind of a long time just thinking about writing a song though it would take five days to even know what i'm writing about like i would be like the did you watch spongebob growing up damn all right let's just kind of kind of familiar at the cameras well there's just like an episode where he like writes paper and it takes a long time and he just writes the you don't know about that that's really fucked up can we look up can we look up the spongebob the can we look up the spongebob the it's just like oh and see it's just like fucked up right oh yeah yeah that's what mine would give but like happy for you the spongebob by classy fart yeah well we don't have to talk you know what i mean it's just it's just like the the classy fart it's the zero one one two it took him like hella long and he's like sweating and like all this shit and it just says that so it's like great yeah but that was kind of me writing victoria oh wow i was like the the yeah me when i wrote like huh huh huh just like yeah yeah just like the huss do you have like a favorite about the hut just had to the huss oh or the writing about the huss yeah i mean honestly a lot of this album was dedicated to the huss wow and i know and you're real as hell for that i had to yeah i was a musician it's like a service and it would be y'all first name dead ass as the title it's kind of hard not to be name dropping people in a song it's like especially that song victoria i wanted to like name drop all of my friends from my childhood it's hard not to yeah but then i'm like whoa i mean like it's like mad relatable in there in a serious fucking way like real bad damn yeah yeah the storytelling no the storytelling the honesty of the storytelling thanks guys it's some real shit i was in that bitch like yeah the huss yeah thinking about the huss do you like performing i do i love it it's like one of my favorite parts of my job oh period because i'm like right i would understand or i would imagine that some people like performing more or less than they like the actual process of the making the music you know performing is like that's my bag period i'm really like being on tour yes okay i'm loving it i'm loving it so bad yeah what's your tour life look like um because we've we've we've experienced a little bit of tour life in a different way really but we need to know how the pros are doing it we need to know how the pros are doing it actually my tour life is like so not glamorous are you and you're in a bus depends sometimes i love a little fly i love to fly you know you're just doing doing a one hour yeah two hour situation and tsa pre like oh yeah clear okay okay oh clear i thought you were gonna say oh no i was like what do you say but they only just made that available to us yeah us being people who are not american right oh t yeah right yeah okay okay boom yeah they were like for a while and then suddenly they were like oh no i guess if you pay like two hundred dollars you're good yes well yes well that's kind of our whole thing yeah just money suddenly they realized they could make so much money no like greedy just greedy just greedy as far as she okay the plane and the tour bus and then the right yeah it's on your rider that's a great question i have to know on it like you can be honest is there an iphone on there is there a diptych are you maximizing are you maximizing your potential slay dude i should maximize my we do not at all my writer is like not that right i was gonna say like when yours is like three things and ours is like 18 it's like we kind of do we kind of do you know like the stories of people who are like i only want green m&ms or like oh hell no you know well i was gonna say i oh hell no like hearing about other people's writers i'm like what like someone dead ass did have a diptych candle in theirs and i'm like i wouldn't even be scared i think i wouldn't even fix my mouth yeah maybe like a bath and body works like barry chantilly but like a diptych oh well no yeah the diptych well we're stepping to new levels yeah because they're maximizing the slay dude mine are like wellness shots oh actually a really good one right wellness socks and then socks and then wellness socks and and then a new pair of socks really yes okay wait this is really yeah i've never considered anything outside of food before yeah no you can like actually i'm like you can get socks you can consider other things wow yeah sometimes socks i've been thinking about socks um is you get off stage and you've you've been you've been working out for an hour and a half and the ankles are just doing all the work the ankles are barely you should put like compression socks on and then you just want to be clean afterwards yeah right yeah just dry and clean we would know sometimes you need dry and clean oh well yeah we're just sitting for like two hours like a oiled up like turkey and then like a fucking baked bean it's like right like a beans and toast beans and beans and toast are you fucking with the beans and toast no really are the beans kind of sweet they're sweet why are they i think i would fuck that up i don't like i don't like toasted bread this is bushes and a little bit of tapatio bitch like yeah yo this is you should we should swap places i will eat like almost anything though yeah i mean see i'm not picky okay oh but then the beans and toast but okay well i'm not like fiending i'm not yeah i'm not like excited to see the beans when i see i want to know about that i'm not excited to see them i want all of the other things though like what like blood pudding sure i could get hit to it really yeah i'm not but then it's like we're thinking about the slaughterhouse again the blood pudding is a little hard for me it's a little bit because it's literally blood because it's blood because it's blood but then it's like if you're if you're eating the bacon and the sausage you should be able right because then it's like the blood's already there so it's like something very vampiric and sickening in that though is it is it congealed vibes like jelly it's not really jelly no but i also found out that jelly is different here like jelly jello and jelly those are different things and i don't know what the difference are they are well the jelly's like the the jelly's giving like preserved berries usually like and then the jello is like oh like show dubai chocolate i mean right it's jam yes jello is and then jello is like that jiggly shit yeah it's a jiggly shit but you don't put like gel like j or you know jelly right you would put on with like bread and like but you wouldn't put like jello on bread like you would just eat it on its own right right with like the fruits in it and shit and then what's jam what's the difference between jelly and jam jam is like a spreadable not the same wait jelly and jam yes jelly and jam jelly and jam yes so then why do you need two words for one thing because you know we just do too much like that's our whole thing too much it's really you're a dtm yeah it's really doing too much there is there is a lot of cm there's cm do you know about natalie nudge i've known about her well because if you want to talk about mindfulness we have to talk about what i want being played every single morning yay yeah yeah i'm like yeah you and natalie none collab no like that's oh my god can't wait yeah thinking about that that is on my workout playlist what is oh okay perfect on the workout playlist yeah it's kind of slow that would handle yeah no oh hey there's the tempo right there yeah yeah okay yeah yeah i got the broke bitch man i don't complain i just no it's actually to the tempo and then if and then if you're running yeah well that's it's a little too slow for my run unfortunately because my feet my feet match the temp yeah but this is pretty fast well that's like oh hey hey you know she's like wait okay yeah no i need something like i'm listening to like deftones and like type oh nice because if it's not like actually like they're screaming so hard that it's like moving me forward yeah suddenly you can feel your body exactly and hear my breath and it's just fucked up have you ever done run with no music yes i have that's that's like she's built different man yeah she's based honestly no i just like low-key it's nice i guess i just well i just like disassociate yeah it's easier on the treadmill than it is outside because outside you have to running no music that is like one of my goals in the training this time is i want to do it one time at least because that's like based well i feel like it is nice to do it at least once for outside because like i'll get like the really bad cramps yeah and then and that has to do with breathing so like it really it's like good for practicing like certain things yeah yeah yeah or like you know you can notice like oh i'm like over striding yeah yeah right the over striding right pelvis isn't tucked it's not tucked and i'm not protecting the core my core is not activated my core be so deactivated it's actually insane in a big way yeah i know about that like be running looking like a hot dog is fucked up i'm so serious too like i'd be like literally pooched out like yeah just back on sometimes it's okay to be pooched out there sometimes it's okay but it's not good for my lumbar spine i'm having an opposite problem where i'm talking too much oh i'm under tuck the posterior pain um i'm having like sides aside oh like yeah i'm having like a pelvis situation okay i'm having situations you're having the situation the internal external rotation it's fucking crazy i know all very flexible thank you okay okay someone cue it um right in like in my hips but in a way where it's like oh weak yeah right because then we need to strengthen because we're not we're yeah the glute bridges that's what we need yeah the glute bridges the it band releasing right yeah right the hammer times the leg extensions who gather you oh you're about to handle this marathon by the trust yeah once you hit these it's like period i'm like whatever those are amazing when i when i do this oh that i'm like oh my god i'm built like a fucking brick house in a good way that in a great way the leg press i'm like y'all are eating inside outside bot bitch y'all are eating that like i don't know dude i know that you're pressing like a really good amount of weight and i'm pressing i'm like a little but you're pressing though no yeah all that matters is that we're handling that press thank you we could clock in if you ever want to clock in together right dude we could clock in the gym good i'm like my trainer is a god shout out nicole she's a key as fuck and it's always big shout out nicole actually no because she'd be handling right she'd be handling and like loki when it comes to core though i get mad as fuck because i'm like bitch i can't breathe well because you're like telling me to do more shit right what's your core situation well so i do have sciatica boots so i'd be doing a lot of just like you know mm-hmm what's this shit called i said like you know i'm like mm-hmm and then the the like both sides of the core because it's like this side this side and then this side right i can't think of what it's called right now it's in the right the x where it's like cross so like you know a lot of this this hitting both sides the oblique situation yeah like the obliques but also just like you just like going across when you're running it's like this oh yeah so you're like you need to do you're hitting the cross side yeah so like a lot of like the cross body fitness a lot of scissoring yeah me and nicole right hello and she'd be handling and she's from brazil so like yeah you already know she's gonna handle she actually no like she actually built like so brazy yeah like yeah like they have a saying like butterfly filet like you just built like a butterfly and i'm like girl i don't even like butterfly filet a butterfly flew my windshield this morning no it was really sweet wait flute like it was like like you ran her over oh no oh my i wouldn't have shown up like actually i would have went home like i thought you know it was just like flying well it just like flew onto my windshield and it was like walking around i was like are you fucking kidding me and then it flew away and i was like we're up we're up something very special is happening in this space because you were coming right and hella had mu mu on too i was like the fuck it had mu mu loafers on it was stepping in the pennies the penny the pennies like i was like you're like whoa built like a butterfly thank you built like a butterfly the girl behind me driving on the way over here she was like doing her mascara in like as she was driving on the free on the 405 at like 60 and i was like wow this is brave as shit phenomenal work that's brave heart yeah i was like should i break check her real quick no exactly because then it's like let's test this out that is like so scary because mom if something happens i mean that's also everyone around you is that i probably oh exactly and bodies and mine because i was also doing my mascara oh right i was i was doing my beat right my daily beat right i didn't know about that no the daily beat the daily beat well well damn if it was up to us we'd like keep going but it's like we've already had you here in like ot right oh is it ot we always go to you with we go to you with gas like when the key is the key then it's the key and we don't like really like we just like won't stop but yeah but then we also won't like my doll then we also yeah stop because it's like two hours later and you're like wait a damn minute yeah yeah well wow guys watch like tell them you're like don't be shy you're like go ahead like they'll listen gentlemen by toa bird thank you thank you y'all and clock in thank you and clock in daisy where are the dirty habit victoria oh yeah i'm that like honestly is gonna be on my and wake that up and wake that up thank you man oh that's really cool i can't even cap because you ate the fuck down and don't cap because i was bumping that shit so brazy and i was on the fence to like they heard they were hearing that shit like all the way up like almost blew my speakers out like y'all yeah on the amp on the karaoke singing over it exactly right so there will be something in your mp4 file very soon mp3 mp3 um what's yours my any watch is sarat y'all i watched that movie on the plane and i've been meaning to talk about it but genuinely that shit had me like holy fucking guacamole high key mad as shit it didn't win an oscar because that was like is it a new movie it's new and last year last year too sound design oh y'all don't know shit about sound actually um they handled so crazy uh i will say i had no idea what was gonna happen in that movie and i've never been left like genuinely speechless by a movie like it just left me speechless like i don't know like right i was i didn't have i still don't have words to describe that's sickening other than like all the flowers in the world because that movie was like insane and wake it up for the girls boom um first thing that comes to mind nine the afternoon panic at the disco like panic at the disco i keep giving you flowers and y'all know what it is unfortunately like i fear not many things have hit that way in the way that they were doing it shout out brendan you're eight that time period shout out ryan but we don't want to talk about that um night in the afternoon panic at the disco is that on your running huh running playlist it is i have a lot of panic on there nice new perspective when i run like mile three bitch yeah oh mind you that whole album front to back that whole album wait karaoke song unlocked yeah yeah it's very nobody wants to be theater nobody wants to be theatrical and i'm really sick about it and it's just like nobody wants to be camp anymore and like y'all know that's my shit so panic at the disco could have panicked in the disco arise in 2026 with the way y'all be like not liking cringe people i don't know no probably so i fear that's just like a hidden job whoa cringe culture it done killed other situation oh because the brendan uries that are left getting paid dust i'm just killing art man yeah it really is killing art just killing art it really is i'm just killing art and exploration we should and a top hat honestly just on some like just waiting on some jason morass yeah on some jason all of the best things came from you know the cringe you know that one oh flipping it all the way back yeah yeah i don't know anything about that um but anyway next time you're on here i'm just gonna have a fedora on your seat like ready for you to rock oh yeah it could be brought back it could be brought back guys because why are people scared to wear apple watches it's all a cause it's the same cause of them it's all the same it's the same thing see you're right i'm gonna wear mine proud right apple watch proud and you're there and i'm not and you'll get there and you'll get there they'll understand because the rest see it's all informed by you know what i mean like it's all part of it i just need a new band for it okay what kind of band you think well because i'm like if i got like a silver moment maybe like a chain right you know something a little more like for like the everyday wear chains yeah they have like a lot of different kinds okay yeah or a sport band like solomon's on right oh yeah i got the rubber bucket where the black i got the rubber guys who cares cool bitches wear rubber apple watches boom boom just found out just found out talk about it but yeah well toa where can everyone find you and like all the things that you have going on tell them about right i'm going on tour and we're gonna and we're gonna be on the tour and you guys are gonna be there oiled yeah oiled up playing the drums it's no shade it might sound a little different than usual but like just know that it's just know that it's not it's a performance art thing like you wouldn't get it background vocals and stuff right yeah and then marimba once again yeah right yeah i don't know we'll talk about the band eighth grade jazz band like guitar bass guitar like it's cool exactly in a triangle and a triangle damn yeah um at the end just to finish the set just well yeah that's all it takes um yeah i'm going on tour what the hell thank you and then that's it okay boom do you have socials i do right i do yeah about that yeah they can find y'all know y'all know you know what i mean like it's like toa yeah it's like it's like toa i liked you right w-a-b-i-r-d it's like toa bird right yeah i'll be following on my ipad like y'all know the t with the pencil yeah you'll be following you'll be hitting this be following along notifical notifical notifical on drag name notifical cyrus you know what i had notifical button notifical cyrus i thought what if my drag name was trans fat all right y'all we'll see you love you all so much and like yeah and thank you for being here and thank you for being here um yeah i kind of i how am i supposed to recover from that all right we just don't bye i love you guys so much