Have a Great Day (Will Mahony)

I would have done a legitimate investigation to find out what exactly happened on 9/11. How did they know who did this so quickly, like they did, Lee Harvey Oswald? Who's going to investigate the investigators? Who's going to investigate the prosecutors? Who's going to hold them accountable? Who's going to hold us public officials accountable? And that's all we're trying to do here. I'm trying to, in addition, to trying to find the truth. Do you honestly and truly in your heart believe that Sandy Hook actually happened? Yes or no? All right. Number two. It's only just begun. Yeah. Yeah. I stayed in Battersea Park. I don't know. It's a far walk though. I thought I was going to be in the middle. When did you do that trip? Like last year, the year before. I thought I was going to like rack up all this footage and like make cool videos. And I have all the footage but it's just like, dude. Video editing is a lot harder than I thought. Oh, it's terrible. It's so time consuming. Yeah, it's so time consuming. You're sitting in front of a computer and it's like, dude, then I got to do another podcast next week so I'm like, I can't waste all my time doing this. I just got to get faster at it. Right, right. You need to be addicted to Adderall in order to do that shit. Yeah, but I had a shitty one in Paris. Like even when I got to Paris, as soon as I landed I was like, fuck, dude. Yeah. It didn't even clean from the last dude. No. No water pressure. Bathroom is leaking. Dude, whenever. It's fucked up. Dude, dude. I don't know if I told you. I'm going to Ireland tomorrow. Yeah. Yeah. Mom. But yeah. Like that's the one, like one of the cool things about the Instagram, like followers and stuff is like, I'll just put on my story like what neighborhood should I stay in. Like the kids know kind of a swag. I'm going for it. Yeah. It's like beautiful women. Where are you going in Ireland? So there's like the Dublin airport is obviously in Dublin, but on the west side there's the Shannon airport, which is like a tiny airport. So we're landing there. I'm going with my homie Miguel. I wish he was here. He's fucking hilarious, but he's the kid I DJ with. Yeah. I'd, it's a, basically I'd never DJ the name was a joke. And then from Instagram, you like started it with DJ bonus. Yeah. Can I stop this whole show? Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Can you explain what you, who you are? Okay. The weird shit is I was looking at like when Instagram like way back when it's chronological. Like I followed Aspita, Father Steve, literally organic. Years ago, Billy was talking about Aspita, because I thought they're the funniest fucking kids in the world. And like Aspita and Father Steve sketches they doing shit. All of it makes me fucking cry. They're there. All of it's like my oldest friend, but I know him from Sunday school. That grew up like so far away from it. We were doing the cast. What? Like 2020. Yeah. And you were telling me about like Aspita. Yeah. He's like, who the fuck is that? Who the fuck are these guys? Yeah. But then explain to the audience, but also to me, exactly what you do. So I grew up with Austin and Steven. They started making clothes and making bread, but I never had an interesting clothes like I don't, I don't give a fuck, but, but I was like, Oh, I got to make something, you know, because it's like, if you sell a $200 item and you, you know, sell a hundred of them, which is not that many, it's 20 bands, which to a, you know, 18 year old kid, you're like, holy shit, like that's like incomprehensible. So they, they were selling clothes and then I was like, Okay, I need to sell something. And at the time, I would make these little YouTube videos that would get 500 to 1000, 1500 views, but I like making them. And so I was like, Okay, I need to sell something, I need money immediately. Like all of all the things that you have a job, dude, like I work and at all, dude, I moved that one. I was 18 in with my girlfriend at the time in the city, like five blocks away from my mom script. Where are you from? From Queens. It was retarded. But I just want to, you know, I just, you're trying to have sex right now and tag my parents here. Sex whenever you want. I can. I got a job at a fucking beer garden. That was like popping, right, but during the summer it was popping because it's a fucking beer garden. But I got a job at the beer garden in like, let's say December and oh my god, I'm getting off track. Sorry. I fucked up. Is this in Queens though? Yes. This is your comma. I mean, all right. The comma. This is the whole. This is the whole world. My own story. So they're like, yeah, work here in the winter. Get your bearings and then in the summer, you make a shit ton of money. But it was like to the point where it'd be two tables of shift as a fucking not even a server as a bus boy. Yeah. And your paycheck at the end of like a five shift week is like 250. And then again, I'm like, but if I could sell a hundred dollar thing like to 200 people, it's 20 bands. Yeah. So I was like always. I don't know what that would be like as like a kid because like bank accounts in my 20s were like maxed a thousand dollars. Like that. That was like a two week paycheck. It would be like almost a thousand eight hundred dollars. I will spend all of this at the bar and show people how rich I am. Oh, of course. But yeah, I was just getting paid fucking dog shit. And the job was a block away from my crib and I was like all shift, every shift I would think like, okay, but if I sprint back to my apartment, I'll be there in 30 seconds and I can fuck my heart, girlfriend. And so that thought process was just like eat at me and then just high tea, bro. Yeah. It's not your fault. An old man once told me a con hair can pull a freight train up a mountain. So there you go. Literally, my fucking boss was a loser. It was just a horrible job. So yeah, that one day I just ran out of the job and went to my crib. But yeah, so I settled on like a magazine would be a good medium that I could cause like, I think magazines are cool medium, but it's like super underutilized like, they're gone now. They're completely gone. Exactly. And I remember I was just sitting on the train and fucking Queen's just like going through it like zero dollar, zero prospect, zero anything. And then I just thought I was thinking like running through these ideas and the magazine sounded good. So I went to the magazine store. It's the craziest job though, like from like where from like the do to be like, fuck, I'm making no money, fuck it, I'll make a magazine. Like that would never enter my mind. Yeah, but it was also like I wanted to just, you know, just say what I wanted. Because I always like graphical stuff, but I didn't want to put on a fucking t-shirt because that's lame or whatever. Yeah. Well, your boys are making t-shirts. Yeah, they were good at it. Right. Yeah, yeah. And also it's like the proximity to them where it's like, and they would be like, oh, you should do something like you're funny. Yeah. So it was always like, but then the magazine. So I went to the magazine store and they were all fucking wack as fuck. So I was like, all right, I'll just try my best. What were you like, like as far as magazines like, what was the shit you were looking at? Nothing. Like nothing. I mean, what year is it? You talking about it? This is like, I was like 21 at 20 at the time. So like, vice was probably done. Yeah, vice was done. Yeah. The old school magazines were sweet. Yeah. That's the only one I knew about like, mad magazine. And there's still like visually cool like art and fashion magazines. That's why I went to the store just to look at inspo or whatever. Yeah. And they're like all different weird shapes and sizes with like spiral and some of them aren't. You know what I'm saying? Yeah. There's a lot you can do with it. So it was kind of, so yeah, just was like, all right, I'll try it. How many pages was volume one? Dude, it was like a hundred, but it's such dog shit. That must have looked like it. That's a lot of stuff. Yeah. It was like retarded. Dude, I don't even know what the fuck I was writing. I mean, there was some good stuff like, but most of it was just dog shit. But yeah, graphically, like, I didn't know Photoshop. So it was just like, it was like text and boxes and so on. That's what we do. Yeah, Pixar. And it was funny because you guys, you probably know big brother magazine, like, oh, it's like an old skate mag, but, but like, after the second or third issue, someone was like, oh, it reminds me of this old skate mag. And I looked at it and it was like, it was very similar in like formatting. So it's just cool because those kids, and you were a skater. No, no, my husband. I watched you skate though. Troll. Like, that wasn't you? Are you serious about it? Ethan Lois, shout out Ethan Lois. I've watched you skate. Like, that was Arthur. I broke my leg. Oh yeah. I had a skate park. I get inspired. I'm like, I got to hit this fucking pump track. Was it? And then I fractured my leg. Really? Yeah, I did that and then just played called duty and stalker too until my eyes bled. Did you see Weckingball got injured and I think he was talking to Sam about, like, skating and he's like, he's like, you know, man, like, I had to come to terms that I'm injuring myself playing with a wooden toy. Yeah. I just like, but actually, Weck is back now and he does, he makes a lot of funny stuff. Um, can't lose your money, makers. Yeah. Right. I got fucked. I like, it happened. It sounded like a tree broke and I was like, fuck. Cause like last time I, I, I retired from skateboarding at the Oli. Like, all I could do was Oli and then raise the front of my skateboard to go down two steps and that was the end of it. And then my brother's doing a pump track because like, it's not that bad. I was like, all right, I'll do it. And like, I should have stopped at the first three then. I mean, the dog and me just wanted to go for the big jump. So always the injury there. It was a pump track. So like, I was going around and I was like, honestly doing pretty good for not having skateboarded since I was very young, but then there was like a real steep one that went around a curve. And my brother never goes up the steep one. Not that it's competition, but he never goes down the steep one down around that curve. I hit the curve and then bailed, but my leg came out to stop myself and when that happened, it broke it. And then I was on a, you ever been on a knee scooter? I've never broken anything. That's it. They say you're on the last cycle of life. If that's the case. I don't know. I'll put a press on you, but you may be on the last fucking one. - The tree bridge. - Snap shit. - It happened and then I tried to walk it off and I felt it move and I was like, okay, this is broken, I'm fucked. And then I was, me and Spey were doing podcasts in Austin and I was just in a knee scooter trying to keep up. - Honestly, you have the perfect job to need a fucking knee. - Yeah, yeah, it wasn't that bad, but it was like depressing 'cause I was in a hotel and like I would get like what a burger delivered to the hotel door and knee scooter ever to an opening. Like I might as well pull it in with a cane. - I was like the war veteran in the VA hospital. - It was very fucking bad, dude. - Like an IED victim? - Exactly, yeah, I felt like it. It was, I think I handled it pretty well. All things considered. - Oh, you chanted, man. - I mean, nobody could ever come and build disposition. - I was told that you get really good treatment at airports when you break something. I rolled up there with two crutches with my crutches and three bags and I also go, Matt, will you ship these home for me? He's like, dude, don't worry about it, you give it to them. He has a cheat code of a black wife. I was just a white dude on crutches and I was like, yo, where do I go for the wheelchair? And they're like, you got to check your bag starts and then I just crouched all the way through the Austin airport and wanted to kill myself the entire time. - What were you guys doing in Austin? - Just interviewing people. - Oh really? - Yeah. - That was like the first time we ever did it. - Try a front load of bunch of interviews, yeah. - That's cool. - Yeah, and we tried it. We tried that and then next time we will hopefully go back down there next December and I will not skateboard. I'll just chill and fucking be 32. - I like Austin. - It's a fun city. - It's kind of fucking, it's fun and it's weird because like you were telling, like when I was texting you, I was like, I kind of want to get on T on what? - On T on T, yeah. - You think about it because like you've just, did you just start chasing the pump? - No dude, like I lost a bunch of weight and then this whole summer I've just been, I've just been horrible. But I got a little bit too skinny then. So I was like, how do I have that bobble head thing? So I was like, all right, I think I need to put on some muscle. But I'm like, dude, I think it'd be hilarious to like publicly run it. Like be like, yeah, I'm running a 12 week cycle. Like fuck it. - Dude, go trend boys. - It's funny. But the mental side effects of that are fucking insane. - There's also a risk that your estrogen gets peaked up. - No, I know. Then you gotta take the shit to like balance every, I'm just playing with the signs. - Is the scariest part of it. - We can't do any of that. That's why like Pep ties on it. So I was like, I can't injection into my body. And then you're just beholden to modern medicine. Like, especially at your age, if you get on T for the rest of your life, hey, you're gonna have an IVF kid, which like, I don't know the sign. - Is that a fact though, or are you just? - It's not looking good. It's not gonna help. It's like, it looks like a perfect, like the way it's rolled out where like Rogan, if you're 55, you feel like shit. Yeah, do a get on T, do it out of the fuck you want. - Right. Games almost ever anyway. - Games of fuck, get a six pack one time. Congratulations, you're hot. - I wanna get a six pack one time. - Do it at the end. That's what I'm saying, just fuck it. - I don't want any tea though. I just want to get a six pack. - I wish, I see like hot people and I'm like, that's nice. I wish I was that, you know? - That is some, dude, I feel like everybody in Austin's on TRT. - That is, like that is the whole thing down there. Where like every dude's like, they go out to eat and it's like they bring their own water. They're fucking arms are vain, you shit. And they're like asking for no seedles and stuff which I'm fully for. But sometimes like, dude, just live your fucking life. - Well, yeah, dude, that, that was like kind of my thought this summer. It's like, I was 225 this time last year. I went down to 178, no, 225 was, I was like a bloated pig man. Zero muscle, zero muscle. I went down to 178 and I was like a pin, like a fucking pin head, bottle head, free. - So now like 186. - When you got down to 186, 170, like was that on purpose? - Yeah, yeah. - So you, like, dude, I didn't drink. It's 93 seven ground beef, sweet potatoes and eggs, bro. It was horrible. - It's not a life to live. That's where like, they got people like, you see the chicks that look like Roblox characters where like they get all the plastic surgery and stuff. Like, especially for you, 'cause me and Spade can't comprehend like what, just like the difference in age between me and you, like what you've dealt with growing up with internet porn, Instagram and all that shit. Like, I know too many dudes that have gotten Botox. - Oh yeah. - And it's like actually scaring me to the point where like the dudes are just gonna- - He told me one of his friends got Botox and I left. I was like, no way. - That's ridiculous, bro. - Like dude, literally, 'cause you have wrinkles on your forehead. Fuck dude, who gives a fuck? - Like that's what we were talking about the other day. It's like dude, you can just die. Like you don't have to be beautiful for your entire life. - The other thing is girls don't give a fuck about shit like that. - When I was like 18 and 19, I used to, 'cause I always had like a pushback fucked up hairline. Well like a big forehead. Now the hairline's retreating further. So it's like I'm just cooked. - Yeah. - But when I was a kid, I would be like the wind would blow in my face and I'd be like, oh fuck, I gotta fake, you know what I'm saying? And then I remember when I was like 21 or 21. Like young, I was like, fuck this. Like this is fucking gay. Like what am I so worried about this? So I shaved my head and like grew my beard 'cause I just wanted to like make myself. - But girls don't give a fuck, even when I was bald found with a dude. - They don't care about anything dude. - Nothing dude. It's all a complete sigh. I'm like, when did you get the rat tail? That was like, that was like a year ago, I guess. He got a fucking rat tail and the back of his head was his hair, but buzzed in the shape of a rat and then the tail. - That's that's it. - That's what I'm saying. It was like an actual rat tail. - Yes, it was a 100% a rat. Like that stuff, that is a good fucking move. But like, I'm like your attitude towards thing is what gives me hope for the fucking future because like my boys are, like everyone's getting fucked up with modern medicine and like being beholden like dude, my T levels are low. Like if you go and get your T levels checked and you didn't sleep that good the night before, they're gonna be low. - Of course. - And then you're in your fucking head about having low T. - And then you're gonna get stressed out and lower your T. - Exactly. You wanna know a sign of low T is wondering what the fuck your T is? Like what are you gay or something man? Just fucking literally. - Exactly. Been saying this. - Dude, I've literally never been, like I've never taken a prescription drug of my life or like, I don't know. Like it's just crazy theory about that. Like when people are doing that because I told him like, like when I was in college, I had a girlfriend. All of her friends, like they would bump their side cabinets and you'd hear the pill shake. And like dude, like through life, you have to deal with these experiences. And if you're completely numb to it, you're gonna, like if you go off that shit, you're icing yourself. - Absolutely. - There's no way to deal with that or anything. - Yeah, dude. Like I have definitely, like in that, especially when I was real young, like with the inception of the idea in the magazine, like that, and I'm not saying the magazine is like this grin, I mean, I think it's pretty good. But it's funny. - It's funny to talk. - Thank you. - I appreciate it. I wish I had a nice day, it's very fucking good. - Great day. Have a great day. Sorry. Sorry. But it's like dude, like that has been like pretty developmental for me, I would say. But like that would have never came, had it not been preceded by like years of fucking mental torture. - Yes. - I know exactly what you're saying. - Like if I was completely, or not completely, but if I was like chemically satisfied. - You'd still be at the beer guard. - Yeah. - Literally. - Exactly. - That's all creativity, because you don't understand that creativity comes from a place that is like, it's almost like an anxiety. It could be anything really, but it's just your emotions. - Of course. - You dealing with 'em, getting 'em like Kung Fu Panda with the ball and just being like, oh yeah, and then that's that. Dude, you get all these fucking psych meds, dude. There won't be a fucking TV show. There won't be a magazine. There won't be songs. We'll live in a silent fucking way. - There is the angst, you need the angst to do something with. - Especially when you're a kid. - That's why older people have a hard time, 'cause they lose the viril. 'Cause they're just beaten down by life. But every fucking, dude, there should be an army of like 25-year-old dudes making shit. - Yeah. - And they're worried about their hairlines and their tea, dude. - It's whack. - You've transcendent. - Yeah, dude. - Also the whole, it's just retarded, dude, it's like, so what's the end goal of like, quote unquote, like looks maxing? It's like, so that you can, it's like-- - You're attracting dudes. - But if you're standing in the bar looking like the hottest fucking Kendall and then some fucking fat fucking retard walks up to the girl that you're thinking about and goes, hey, you're kind of cute. Like that, you serp's like all of that looks, man. You just gotta, it's all to avoid going up to hot girls. Like, that's all looks maxing. Just walk him to, hey, your face is fucking lonely. - I used to talk to Bill about this where I was like, this is a weird thing. 'Cause his friends would be like, trying to look hot. And I was like, this is so alien. And I don't know if social media did it or whatever, but it's like, it was really like, if you're cool. When I was younger, it's like, if you're cool or you're the funniest, like, if all the other dudes thought you were cool, you were getting the hottest check. It had nothing to do with what you looked like. I mean, the kids of God, the sniss when I was in school were just like, dude, goofy looking big. And the funniest dude is a big fat dude. Another guy had like a fucking Jew fro. - Yeah. - Raking in sniss. Dude, older chicks like fucking anything. - Yeah, fuck, it's still the same shit. Yeah, it's still the same shit. They just got people twisted with the Instagram stuff. - I mean, it's thousands of years of like, human fucking behavior versus 50 years of a weird siop. I would just show it on a fucking TV show and then they're trying to siop all the little guys. - Have you seen Stick? No, what the hell is that? - So we don't have to get in on that. - We can, it's absolutely fine. Fucking, Stick is the Owen Wilson show where, like some young kid becomes like a golf pro and his caddy is a tranny. And like the whole thing, like everyone's calling her they like all that shit. But like the thing that fucked me up is like, I grew up watching like Zoey 101, pinned. And that's Jamie Spears is a little sister. That stuff like I can still remember every episode of ever watch and like thought about beating off to like forever. If I watch stick and like if I'm if I was my age, you shouldn't unlock what transexuals are until you're like in a goon hole that like you don't talk to about anyone else. This is like if you're at that point of the internet is like dude, you should go on no fat. Like you you've crossed the Rubicon. We are now into like mind control. This is bad, but they're showing this. And like this kid's falling in love with their making out. And like they'll sit there and be like dude, you're a fucking weirdo if you think that's weird. - Yeah, it's like I'm a bigot or something, but they're playing Marco Polo. And then it's like a romantic like teenage or scene of how he loses his virgin. They lose each other's virginity to each other. And I'm like to the boss, dude, this is insane. If this is what they're pushing on kid, like this is social engineering. - Yeah, the funniest thing about like like studio network television like that is that I don't think anybody's watching it. Like I think there might be less than one hunt. Like I believe that I told of that. Like I think like Instagram reel, probably like a viral funny Instagram reel that's like like in the end. - Probably has more watch time than a studio show like that. - I, we thought about this and like do you watch ES panel? - No. - So we were at a bar. - But I watch clips. Like I watch John Boy Media on TikTok, you know what I'm saying? - So we were at a bar eating wings the other day. And I'm like, yeah, Bill, like it was like four TVs of ESPN and it's nonsense. - Yeah. - And I'm like, I was like dude, who the fuck is watching this? - Dude, my dad is like fucking hilarious. My dad, like the one thing my dad hits and he likes like, I mean, he likes hockey and baseball. It's like the ranchers and the Yankees. But even when he was watching it really heavily when I was younger and we would go sit in the bleach, like he would get, he would try to get like bleachers tickets like once every couple of weeks. So we would sit and go to a lot of games, but he hated. Like if he watches baseball, he like, it's either on mute or he's saying, "Shut up all right, sports talking is like the wackest." - Is the most forced conversation. - It's almost like a homey. It's like if you go to a casino and you're homey, it's like, well, I know how to play cards. And it's like even when their system inevitably doesn't work and they're down worst in any way, they go just as I thought. - Yeah. - It's like they'll go in court and play. - Sports casting is the fucking wackest shit ever. - I think a lot of it though is like there's a high, like we've talked about like the NPCs of the world. Like dude, there's a high amount of people who wear it. It's like you have a job, you have a 4 on K, everything's going good and it's just like, I got vaccinated, it doesn't matter. Let's just chuck on the SPN and see what the first thing is gotta save that, everything. So I think there's like a high level of NPCs running. - The Denzel, the Denzel Sply Lee one, I'm like dude, I think Sply Lee's gay. - He might. - For real. - Not that it matters. - Well, he's like a Knicks fan. Sitting court side at the Knicks and watching him lose for 30 years. - He said that shit to me about Denzel and Sply Lee. It's like dude, I've never seen Sply Lee with a chick court side. - Oh. - If I had a court side and it's weird. - Take it's the first thing I would think is like, is that my phone? - Yeah, tier one. - Oh, I'm sorry, fuck. - Doesn't matter. But you know what's interesting with like sports is like, as when you're a kid, when I was a kid, I was a baseball fan and then I kind of grew out of it, but now I like it again. But I don't watch a game that I don't gamble on. So like sports, sporting is like so closely tied to gambling. - That's why we didn't really address. - I know. And it's like, people don't really address that like on those mainstream kind of sport, sporting shows. - I mean, it was illegal for the longest time. I like they're like trying to talk about overs and unders and it's all from Disney. So it's like the most forced thing in the fucking world. - Sports gambling is very, very odd. - But you can live off of it. - Yeah. - You can bet on baseball. - Or you could die off of it. - You could fucking meet your demise if you've bet a little too much on shit. - Honestly, betting on like a UFC fight where the guy who you bet on is also kind of cool. Like McGregor in his prime betting on him and then watching him. - It's kind of insane. - That was fun. - Yeah, that's why I never, like I played football in high school like all that shit and I never understood it, but I also never had action on a single game in my life. - Never. - I've never been. - You gotta download it immediately. - You got that $25,000. - You download Chinese women's table tennis and you'll be like, like when you're watching, you have to see you're like, oh, ooh. But it's like when you're gambling on you, you're like killing him. - Yeah. - Kill him now. Kill him that is family. - Yeah, I just could never get into it. And like also, I was just too broke to be like, I'm gonna put 50 on this game because that was do or die, dude. I'm not gonna be fucking making money off that shit. - No, yeah. It's funny you brought a Bitcoin before because it's like, dude, I'm not gonna listen to a fucking big, like I feel like investing advice and Bitcoin advice is like largely consumed by people that have like under $10,000 to like, it's like Bitcoin might have $100,000 and then it's like, and then you'll have one-tenth of a down payment after a hundred X is, you know what I'm saying? I watch, I think a lot, like I don't invest a dollar into the stock market and I swear to God, like most of stuff is just a way to take all of your wealth from you and then the dudes who do have all of your money will be like, yo, we gave you two percent last year a way to go. - Right, right, right, right, right. - Thanks for the fucking money. - I don't invest in anything. I'll probably-- - Invest in yourself. - Right, right, that's what I'm doing. - Invest in the magazine. - It seems like that, how long did the newest issue take? - So like I, the last time I made like a short form video was like, dude, like a year ago. - Yeah. - And then I just, you know, like, I'm not gonna lie. Like when you upload a fucking video and it's like getting a trillion views in one set, like the dopamine is pretty fucking awesome. - That's gonna be insane, yeah. - But it's like, the magazine is more like that kind of like long term thing where when it's done, it's like a real sense of accomplishment. Like the short form stuff is really appealing 'cause you get that nice hit. - Yeah. - You're the man. - Right. - But I was like, I want to give birth to someone, you know, like I want to fully invest. - Yeah. - So that, it was like a year basically. I mean that, like that is a lot of shit for it. The header or the letter from the C.A.L. was make me fucking cry. - That's good. - Are you not in the weed? - No. - I'm fully fucking with you dude. Like, all of that, like I know a lot of kids, like I can't function without it. And they all are like the lowest achieving. Like they don't get shit done ever. - Yeah. I mean, it's just like weed is super predatory. It makes me retarded. - Dude, I spent weed every day all day for like eight months. And then one day they were like, you know what I'm saying, take out the trash after like later on. I was like, all right. I opened the front door and I looked at the dumpster, like we lived in an apartment complex. - Like a sponge bomb, absolutely. - It was like an apartment complex. We're like, you know, there's a communal dumpster behind the like chat box fence. - Right. - I opened the door. I looked over and I go, oh no, I can't do that. - Yeah. - Shut the door. - Yeah. - Fucking bugging out. - Super scared. - I thought that there was like, I saw somebody that had their license plates. And I thought that they're like, they had like D.A. agents in the neighborhood. Like I'll do, they know that we have drugs and they're coming. They're all my friends are gonna pin on me. And like this was like after all day, every day. So it's not a good thing. - No. - Maybe every once in a while. Just a little a little bit, maybe. - I tried to start it back up and it was like three days like this fucking rules. I'm chilling down. It was just like, - Yeah. - You ever think about killing yourself? - I was like going to sleep. - Absolutely. - Oh my God, it's over for me. - I mean, it's the same as fucking alcohol. It's just like, if you're like perpetually hung over, that's not a good fucking thing. But any like, that like the people used to talk about, I feel like more often, like the shame after you goon or after you jerk off, it's like that is, there's shame to it because it's a, like jerking off is specifically like kind of a gross thing to do, especially with porn. - That's crazy. - But like there's all, part of that feeling is probably just like a dopamine crash, you know? - Yeah. - And all these things have that. Like people, I remember when I was growing up and we, like, I remember when it became legal in Colorado, I think it was the first to do it. - That's crazy. Like, did you have shit weed? Like, beasters and stuff? Like maybe? - Well, I never, like, I smoked weed, like a, can you get me on the bench? - Twice in middle school. - And then. - Didn't work? - Yeah, yeah. - I don't know. - I got like four times and nothing happened and I was like, all right, I gotta figure this out. And then like, I did it and thought I was gonna be it now. - Right. - Yeah, like, I must have had the same experience because I remember when, like, one, the last time, one of the last times I smoked, I was like, the person who was giving it to me was like, "Okay, you gotta inhale, super deep, then hold it." And then I had like the, no, the gnarliest fucking panic attack. And then, that was like maybe 15. Then I waited till I was 18, tried it again with this chick, two hits of a joint and immediately just third person. - Yeah. Fucking crazy. - It's just so clear. - The thought of fucking camera view. - But since then, dude, I'm like, I have like a real phobia. Like, I'm like, I'm almost on the opposite side where it's like, if one of you guys were to light up and join this room, I'd like-- - Get pissed. - Not, I wouldn't say anything, but I'd be like, "Oh, I gotta running." Like, I was doing a-- - It'd be like if I broke out of line and started snorting. - Yeah. - I mean, that'd be fun. - No, no, it's about that I have the fear of getting high. Like, for example, I was on L.A., right? And where at this, my homie's like, This girl is having a party at her beautiful house with a pool and they have all this catered beautiful food. And I'm just like, you never know, man, like, it's L.A. man, you could take a bite of this pizza and somebody goes, oh, yeah, that's the sativa pie. Yeah. Like heroin. Dude, if I'm out in hammered and like somebody has a vape, I'll like ask them to hit it. Like all my homies know this. And it's like branded. It says like geek bar. And I mean, for jewel. And I say, there's no weed in this, right? And they go, what are you talking about? Like, this is a jewel. Like I can't even bump things from people because I'm afraid that they store the joint in the same pack and that the legal contact time. Yes. I'm horrified. I'm fully fucking with that. So I like, I think like it works to a certain extent. But like once you have your adult brain, it's like those thoughts aren't meant to be you're not meant to have those those thoughts and also be fucking high because that's where it gets dangerous. Yeah. Like you get a new exit on the highway where it's like it's going to get fucking dark. Well, I mean, you can live your life or you could open up the exit and go, I'm strong enough not to go down there. Yeah. But like that's what I did in my bed. You want to avoid it for sure. Yeah. That's what like I thought I could and I tried to watch peanut butter falcon. And I couldn't pay attention to anything. And I thought my I was like this. I was like, I was like, I was like, I was like, I was like, I'm literally like, I have street shots. If you can pull up the screen shot, it's like 16 of the same things like in different shit. Like when people don't get the right answer from rock, they read the answer so they can get it. It was like how to end the weed high. That's like calling it the fucking weed high. It was the worst night in my fucking life. Really? When was this? Dude, literally like a few months ago. So what'd you do? You were just chilling at your crib and you spoke to join? I fucking started dancing with the devil when I broke my leg. My brother had 2.5 milligram weed minutes. And I was like, dude, absolutely perfect. I'm not getting too high every night when I was in the hotel by myself. I was just like hitting a mint, going to sleep because the viking him, you can miss me with all things pills. Of course. Live very close to Ken's then seeing that. I know how that story ends. Yeah. I don't think I could get addicted to pills, but it would be so awkward if I did for me and all my boys and my friends. Like that would suck. That would be very embarrassing. So I don't want to do that. But I like I thought it was cool that my brother's like, those were 2.5 milligrams. And then that was up until Christmas. Amazing. And then my brother had 10 milligrams skittles that he gave me. I was like, this is perfect. I'll do a little too hard. The thing that's very hard is eating one skittle is almost impossible. Right. But I held it down and I was how many milligrams per 10 per skittle 10 milligrams. So it was like nothing. I was eating half. Like I one night I was like, dude, I'm barely feeling it. I'm kind of just chilling. I really want to chill. So I ate one watched a black mirror episode about a dude who starts doing acid and then starts talking to the little lemmings on the TV. And that ends and I'm about to go to sleep. And then my girlfriend opens the bathroom door and I pop up and wake. I'm like, I was fucking way I'm gonna go to sleep. And just fucking around me goes like, you remind me of like a lobster and a rat and one thing. And I was like, what do you mean? And then after that, it was off the races like I open up Twitter and close it. But Twitter's scrolling in my face. I'm like, this happens every time you open Twitter. You're just brainwashing yourself. You guys can be like get high because you guys have like social media life. I don't know what that's like. Like me and Tom talk about like, there's kind of like a part of yourself that's on the internet. Yeah. That I don't have. So it's like that would come in with a paranoia. I mean, dude, I mean, I'm just asking like like a flood. Yeah, I don't know what that would feel like. I don't know what that would feel like to have like an internet kind of like presence. But then also now you're high and you recognize that. But now you're high. You're like, that's there. I do that. I posted that. Yeah. I put my phone down and like the screen was still like in my head. I was like, terrible. This has to end. And then I had magnesium place in it in my on my first floor. But I was like, I'll take magnesium glycine or what if that fucks it up? So I start googling the world magnesium glyphosate fuck up the weed high. And I just kept taking the weed high. And then after that, it was that guy was on acid. And I was like, my brother has no idea where this is from like, what is this has some acid on it? Then I'm now I'm tripping on acid. And then I woke up next day and I put that to bed. And then once I read that article about weed, I was like, alright, at least Will's fucking agree with me here. I just I can't I've my intrusive thoughts are like so heavy that it's like the idea of like, it's like, you know, when people say, Oh, chill out, don't psych yourself out. It's like, dude, I can't do that fucking. When I'm driving here, it's like I'm just like thinking about it the fucking plate. I don't know. I just my brain is like on overdrive and not in a good way. Oh, yeah. But I remember the last time I got high when I was like, I mean, God, highs is a really a stretch. But I was like 20 and took a hit of a joint. And I remember I had that initial because I when I was like 16, I had a panic attack. And there was a four year gap. And I was 20 from weed. Yeah. And I was like, I'm going to try it one more time. I'm going to give it a run. And I'm better now. Yeah, better now. And I took and I think I took two hits of the joint. And then I was like, all right, this is chill. This is chill. And I was in the shower alone. And it felt great. No, I literally had the thought as the shower was running over the head. I'm like, I'm not having a panic attack. Like this is chill. And then like, yeah, you just made a bet. I literally said because if I was having a panic attack, it would feel like this. And then it literally just immediately. And that that was so weird because I gave myself that panic attack for the second time. But I just then you unlocked that skill. Right. Exactly. And I if I was what I'm saying is that was always there. Yeah. It's not like you unlocked it. You just experienced it. It's inside you. Yeah. I've done this on acid. That's terrifying. Yeah. And it goes on for 10 hours. But to me, it's like the same thing as like if you're if you're jerking off and you immediately think of like, you know, in the middle of jerking off, you're like, I'm going to die one day. I'm poor. I have nothing. And it's like, that's the same thing that happens. Like that would happen. I think if I smoothed to the point where it's like, he's a shower thoughts. It's terrifying fucking shit. And also the shit is like, it's so different now that it's like, dude, like I got panic attacks from hitting boofass weed from some retarding queens. Like, what am I? That's a sprayed with like fucking. No, this was prespray. This is just bad. Everybody. Everybody talks about like Jones talking about the atrazine turn of the frogs gay. Yeah. One of his main ones is the military grade weed. And that is great. That is real. That is Pentagon brought to you by the Pentagon. What percentage strength do you think like OG like like what Jimmy Hendrix was smoking? That shit must be like these percentages. Yeah. They called it grass. Yeah. It was all body highs. It was probably fucking amazing while playing the guitar with the bodies with a bunch of hot nigga girls. Yeah. He probably wasn't thinking about his mortality while playing purple. Yeah. He's not he's not playing like hitman blood money and his mom's basement and queens. Like, there's a time in a place and I don't think I'm there yet. No, I mean, you have to beat the game. I think at this point you just have to beat the game to introduce drugs into your life. I've never done anything. I've never done any drugs any psychedelics. I've never taken a pain pill either. You might be built for the other highs like working out. Yeah. But runners I did take half an out of all ones. Like me. Me and my homie, Miguel, we signed up to do a DJ set at this club and they were like, oh, it's 10 to close at like that's your set time. 10 to close. And then I just never thought about it. I remember we got there and I was like, by the way, what time you close and they're like four. So it was a six hour. They were there also at the same time like feeding you alcohol and to go. Yeah. So by the time like midnight or one came around, I was just gone. The thoughts start racing at a speed that like is crippling because I got a hammered first. And then at 1 a.m. my so your drunk thoughts go fast. Yeah. And then I took half of the lowest dose. And I was like, I was like 24. Like I'm not a young man. And I was just like, fuck it. I'll dry it. And you know, like the Spider-Man 2 promo poster where he's like on the side of the building. Like that's like that's what I was like looking at this like this DJ mixture. And it was like a F 18 fucking fighter jet. Yeah. And I knew exactly what to do. And it was so awesome. Yeah. It was like top gun. Well, how did that shit start with like the DJ stuff because like I love fucking playlists. And I like when I figured out like you're going and doing DJ stuff and it's like, dude, that makes me feel so fucking good because I love music and all that stuff. Like how do you start with like just day one where you just on a laptop hit and play? No dude. Are you a feature? So this is what happened. Like I started making TikToks. My TikTok was just well in the honey and I just made them for fun. But they started blowing up and then they dropped reels. But I didn't even have a personal Instagram. So I was like, fuck it. I'll upload these on reels. And then I'm making an Instagram account. I'm like, I don't want to be like make it my name because it seems a little try hard. I didn't want to just do like will underscore my honey. So I was like trying to think about funny name and me and Joey. You know Joey the rapper. Yeah. Yeah. Me and Joey came up with DJ owner boy. I guess I like owner boy is something like that I've thought about before. But like like when I was a little kid and then and then we made like the profile picture like the air Jordan. That was classic. Well, that is very funny. Joey was like make it that make it and I was like, uh, but and then so then I started uploading the reels and then they also started taking off and dude, a fucking fratty. I mean they go, hey, can you DJ, uh, it'll give you five racks for an hour? Are you sure? Where? Uh, what the fuck is they called? He's got all this oh fuck. Yeah, that's and I had never I never been to a frappard and like I never been to a house I don't know it's like you were done with car with high school right or did you got high school? I've finished high school. Okay, but I went to a CUNY you know a community college in New York City for two months So I never got to experience that and and my homie Miguel DJ's so that's like me and Miguel been homies But he would DJ bars in the city clubs and I was like yo like I don't know how to do this like Let's just do it do it as a duo and then a what that's the idea of the old like freak brothers Dude like the old comics from the 70s like this is like boner boys. It's like the thing or right like that Like we were like let's turn it into like a comic character but the thing. Yeah, amazing The thing you said it's like mixture between like freak boys like our chrome. It's like a linear It's a really good magazine. I'll try his hot checks in it. Yeah, the best things ever not to beat off to it But the kid the kid who did that comic to what you were saying before where it's like an army of 25 year old doing cool shit It's like I just put my email in the bio and he's like hey, I do comics and then I was like He sent me someone's work. I'm like Jesus like this shit is incredible and then I commissioned I didn't and I wrote in he drew it and it's like I think the medium is cool because it's so collaborative, you know Yeah, I do a lot of the writing but like a lot of the graphics like I don't I didn't take the I'm not a photographer Yeah, you know, I'm saying so I didn't do so. It's like a lot of people worked on that but Yeah, you take the picture of the steaming polish head on a skateboard. No, that's an iPhone picture I turn the saturation up on you know, I'm saying it's just like tricks of the trade dude It's like that's the magazine is so far because it's also funny to troll like the consumer where it's like they you know They buy it and they get in the mills. It's like who's to say there's not a Page that's just like, you know, my cockers like what you could do whatever you want and it's like by the time they see it And they're bummed about it's like well to the late. No, you know what I'm saying So you did the thing at Ole Miss. Yeah, well we started with summer Summer smash which is a music festival that was our actual first I misspoke. That was our first DJ and is Miguel big when it comes to DJ or like he's at least like in the mix with like getting into summer smash No, I got us in a summer smash because he's fuck because I asked the kid who runs at cold Bennett charcoal He I asked him out. I was like, hey, you know, it's like a music festival and and he you know What we've been we had been talking a good amount at that point I was just like hey like you know if you have a free 20-minute slot in this three-day music festival like maybe You can't miss no you can and he was and but but I was also hammered at the club and he and he was like As he does he just goes I got you and I was like oh and it was in like two weeks and I was like I was like okay But yeah, so it started with Miguel being like what was this net list for that? Well, that was like a music festival that was like a lot of young kids and it was 20 minutes So I didn't want to make it like a real like techno You want to make a statement? Yeah, so we just we played we were just strong We did like let the bodies at the floor. Yeah, that'll work every single time I'll show you a video it's fucking lit because it's also like a rap festival so the kids weren't expecting it Yeah, and they just turn turns up and then we played an after party that like at that festival and then so I'm sitting there with Miguel I'm like okay, so you're telling me we get to pick the music we get free alcohol We get a free alcohol for all our friends and it's like dude if I if in normal life It's like if you want to go to the club and get bottles pick the music and get But when you DJ you get you get paid to do it. It's like so ask backwards It's like and also the act of DJing and picking music is fun. So either you had it. Yeah I was at the bar so far one time this DJ was sitting up there He's like a soft boy kid and I was like dude, please play Maggie May they'll go crazy and he just was not hearing it the whole time And I just fucking had to fall back. Well, dude. That was a year ago. That was only a year ago The first time we ever DJ, yeah, and now like what is like you're doing that like I mean, we do it pretty on your hierarchy of shit like where does DJing fall? I feel like it's funny. It's like DJing is like it's a good time. It's a good fucking. That's amazing Yeah, but it's all like all these things like I've In my head I've built it in a way where they all support each other It's like well, we're going to Ireland and we're gonna go to these rural areas and do these like you know go collect seaweed from the or Seamoss from the bay like my grandma used to do when she was lived in Ireland to ingest No, just like for like short form content and go play like Irish football and like you know And like do these activities where we can make good Instagram Reels and then at the end of the trip you go to Dublin and then it's like oh by the way Do you want to at the end of this trip where you've already been making fun shit? Do you want to DJ for an hour and make what 1200 euros? It's like Yeah, I'll do it. Yeah, it's like oh twist my fucking ear I guess I'll fucking get drunk and blame music Jesus Christ But it all kind of supports itself and then with the print stuff It's like well, I can write about that experience so there you go It's an article so it all kind of helps is you're looking at a creative. Yeah, I but it did like the Andy Warhol this time Well, Miguel's the best That's why I wish Miguel was here. Miguel's my boss guillade. He's a little boy. I touched and bring around It's like Kanye Virgil, but also Miguel's layers because he's fucking Jack Brown And he's like so he's great on camera. He's really good at DJing and then he's also like built in security But he's he's actually the nicest guy ever but I tell people he's a felon and he's mean That the thing that fucking blew my mind because I heard it on the Throne Fits thing is I didn't know like I remember like because I would watch the Warren Lotus shit, right? religiously and like him having cold bruise on his coffee when on his motorcycle when it's like 20 degrees out It's like you can only have cold bruise your hands have to be shaking. Right. I did not know that was you on the Fucking videos with your bald head. I thought he literally hired like an older dude that just rolled in and it was like I do that That was me and I think you said to something you said before where like having a thousand bucks in your bank account when you were younger working a job Yeah, Warren so I went out what watertown mass That's where Warren used to do his like old shit like hand screen printing out of and that was during that Dung and Donuts era and Warren paid me a rack For like whatever however long helping him and that was the first time I had a route I just it's funny your first thousand dollars. Yeah, everybody remembers it I used to tell believe that everybody remembers when they get their first paycheck Yeah, and it has a little yellow band on it and you're like there it is and Warren gave me everybody And it's like 1000 it's like what can I do with this? I mean yeah the world's your oyster when you have that much money on your hand I did that in grade school and it was like I Didn't wear jeans until I was a senior in high school because I just played for I just wear sweat pants I wear good parties wear sweat pants kind of a fucking pervert honestly thinking back on it, but whatever But like I remember up there yet. I was I just saw as I do this is it's cool to wear my pants Started getting boners. I was getting tired of putting pillows on my deck when I was chilling around people So it's like I'm gonna get fucking jeans. This is what they're for So that I was like all right, I'll figure this out But like I got money from work and for a contraction coming. I was like I'm going to get two pairs of jeans And this is gonna be fucking awesome. I can just enjoy myself out of part instead of being embarrassed I'm from What the fuck my girlfriend got on for me. I think it was American Eagle Fuck yeah, and supposedly they're making a good jeans City sweetie when you when you're the old Miss Fratt like what what is that like? Dude, it's like it's the best ever like I Was nizz you with it's like dude these I just imagine everyone gets nizz. I never been to a frat party But it's like you know the Ole Miss is like kind of it seemed to me like they were It was just so heavily policed like it was odd like yeah the heart. I thought frat party It's like front flip on the thing and it's project acts, but yes, I do there's like there's a security guard out front in the thing Like and they're not frat dudes. They're separate. They're right. They're higher security. I mean these are elite out dudes children Yeah, and then outside there's cops. Well, it's elite fraying there. It's southern and it's elite frats I don't know like all I've ever experienced is Penn State. Yeah, and I always felt bad for those dudes because I was like Don't never experience this again No, you're chasing a dragon your entire life. He's throwing the SP at them. You're like glory days You know, it's like dude. There's no way you're top in this to be an adult and to be able to party like that with a bunch of dudes You're friends and have girls come over and then you kick out all the dudes you don't Yeah, and so you and your busted rich friends are like no come to us. It was a good time But I was like I was like 25 these kids are 19. I'm like I'm way too old to be here They was kind of weird in that way Because I was like I should like the kids who picked me up the pledges. I was like Jesus these kids are fucking I don't need to talk to you like leave me alone yeah, um, but Yeah, it was a good time. I mean the whole like it's funny people beat up on frats because it's like all your pain for friends It's like dude these kids are fucking loaded They're like and also they're from like if if you go to a school and you don't like I never left the city ever So like my friends have been my friends forever But it's like I could only imagine how scary it would be if you're from fucking Oregon to go to Ole Miss and it's like You're paying for friends. It's like well my parents are loaded. Yeah, like why the fuck wouldn't I and it seems like they were like the things That are the thing that I fucked about with fuck with about them was that they were like They were actually seem like like they really got along and like it seemed like a fun time for them. Yeah, but I was like a side who knows what they. I think it's the best time. I think there's so much to those dudes. I just feel bad for them because it's like damn dude like you're never. You front load at heart. Like you're this is tough. That's right. I mean like I think the way you're doing it is very good because you're not like because if you do all that shit in college and then you just immediately hit the nine to five like it fucking sucks but if I mean not everyone's a creator but if you if you can do it the way you're doing it this it's almost like N.V.S. watching you go out like when you went to Austin I was like this is insane this. He drove it. Did you drive the crown vick to Austin? Do we drove it to LA from New York? Yeah. He drove I mean he's got it. That was fun. That was a good thing. So we're in a room of elite. Elite money. You didn't make it to LA. I mean with that wasn't the goal could have done it. He was going to Montana but he went to Montana. We went to South Dakota. Well point shoot. I'll drive. He'll literally I love it. It's scary. That's what like I'm pretty sure like when I first hit him up and I was like dude if you need someone a truck or whatever to move merch hit us the fuck up. We'll do it. We don't get no questions asked no money needed just for the fucking experience and to help someone out like that shit pumps me the fun. You like driving. I drove trash trucks since I like when I was 24 until like three years ago I drove trash trucks every fucking day. I mean he's back to trailer into a dump yard. It was fucking nuts. I think barely worked. You just got to think opposite when you're driving a trailer. If you ever I ever fuck the trailer. No. Did you see that video? The guy making that you turn dude I tried to tell him. I didn't see it. Dude he was no remorse. I was fucking dude. This like off a zan or something goes. No he's just in like this guy got his CDL and California getting your CDL's hardest fuck at this point. I think it's seven G's so if you want to become like you got to go to school. It's almost like a you had like a mini college. Yeah when I got mine juke I like my family had a trash business. I took their trash truck and was like I pass cool. I also had a stick shift endorsement many people don't not a big deal who the fuck cares. Not bragging. But like that dude got his CDL and California newscom I guess just like like he's in a legal immigrant that Indian that got it. He was on a highway like you drove through Florida. Yeah. He was on a highway in Florida hit the fucking emergency exit you turn like a copwood in a tractor trailer when dudes were going like 80 and killed three fucking people dude they see the people hit them and turn around just go. They look they look for that they have no like no remorse don't get a fuck it's fucking insane. Yeah I couldn't even I've never been I I've like I've never broken about there's a lot of shit I haven't done one is hit somebody with my car and it's like that's like a horrible thing to say that out loud. But it's like the idea that you look over your look into your mirror and you see an exploded family. Yeah. Like I would just be in I'd be like I mean I would I think I would what would be a normal reaction but it's like I mean that guy's just he was just he knew that dash cam was on he was just trying to preserve his aura. Yeah. You haven't seen the video. No. No. He chilled so hard. It was like nothing ever. Yeah. The spade got into um there were like for a time right. It had a lot of death videos and spade he danced with the devil on that for a little while. I just there was a watch people die thing. I thought it was the coolest thing. I'm like wow they have all the subjects of the internet broken down. I remember that. Yeah. And turns out the biggest packets in the world are on it and talking to you exactly what mental condition you have. So right it's about an off the table at this point. Watching like that's like that like people who watch it just goers so disgusting right. It's just like I mean obviously it goes without saying but it's just if someone is like it is like interested in like archiving and categorizing. Gore being a savor of anything is fucking respect but like like when you grew up iPod like you had iPhones and everything right. No. No. I mean I when I grow your boys what your boys have like iPod touches and shit. iPod. No iPod. I mean when I mean the Walkman was still my brother had a Walkman. Yeah because iPod's got into it. Yeah. I remember like I was in probably eighth grade, ninth grade. My boy had an iPod touch and immediately it was like can you get born on that. Right. Like for real what's going on with that shit. Like I just wonder like just from the time difference between me and you're like how prevalent was like gooning and porn when you were coming up like what age of that shit start kicking it. No it wasn't I mean I compared to what these kids have now who is which is like horrifying to think about. No it was like for for kids like in the early 2000 I mean when did I have like a conscience for the grade graduation what year. I have no idea. I couldn't even tell you maybe like I mean how old do you win that out? 32 my was oh seven I graduated eighth grade. If you recall that that was I could say how old were you though I was 13 or 13 so I must have been it must have been like 2012 for me. That's what I'm saying the iPhones are out and about at that point. eighth grade graduate yeah I guess so but but it's like I never had I never had one thank god yeah I didn't get an iPhone until like mid I mean my family just didn't have money like that wasn't going to fucking buy me an iPhone. Some kids might have but I don't know I went to fucking public school. These kids didn't have any bread so like but from my earliest memories it was still like like a fucking you know pay per view kind of yeah a channel would be like hard to get to and then or your dad's laptop and you just type in like tits yeah and then not make sex not know how to fucking delete the history and then you're cooked yeah I did that I learned how to delete history because like when I was in fifth grade type in fifth grade porn and I spazed because I saw nothing about cops I saw everything was just about people getting arrested hit up my brother and then he showed me internet options and how to delete history that's so fucking fun and then like do when like spade and my brothers were like living in Westphilly together I was showing them like BME pain leapsed yeah I remember so I was in the deep end of watching like I wasn't like a full-blown gorkid but I knew where to find it I knew where to find the blood to wire stuff and now like Twitter tries to move that shit I just try to just push it to the side I think it's I think the crown I think I could do watch people die now over Jim fails Jim fails now are they are the top of they're the top of the unwatchable shit for me it's just that's my scary movie also it's like Gore is like if you if you type it if you're watching Gore it's like a video from Cinaloa recorded in 2004 but Jim fails is like down the block and it's a guy that looks like you I want to try and to do the same thing you're gonna try to do it in an hour well I tried to watch a dad do a shoulder press it was too much for him and he's screaming at his son to take the weights off and his son doesn't know how to he's like from the side from the side and it's like breaking it snap in his back did you what was the program you hit did you hit the door in the eights I sent you I tried I mean here's the thing dude I was so like my I so it's it goes along with the fucking gore shit and all the points like that shit is all like instantly was not that impressive for me because like dude for the first eight years of my internet no to know like no I'll get to but like my first eight years of my internet experience was all fortune so it's just like a media for real yeah I've I've used fortune when I was a little kid up until I was like you look at it we never understood how to post or anything on it no dude I it's weird it's it's similar to the it's like what like you know I feel like most people have dabbled in gore but it takes a special freak to post in categories because again it's like I never would post on fortune but but I was always on fit and so on and so forth and like like our fit yeah yeah no not our fit that's red it real I want to slash yeah slash