Episode 5: Getting out of Limbo & into Manifestation

[Music] Hello beloved friends and soul family, welcome into the container of Hewlett Energy Podcast. I am so happy to have you and I'm just laying safe space around all of us across space and time, so whenever you are listening to this, just know that you are receiving a beautiful protection layer from me and I hope that you will receive everything that is for your highest and best and the highest and best of all. So as you will notice I've changed the name of the podcast from away with the fairies to Hewlett Energy. This is a new direction and a new directive in that I hope to share each podcast, you know, wisdom and experience in which I can help you in healing your energy. Also along with the esoteric wisdom that I have been guided to share and the reason I you know began this podcast and with that in mind today I want to talk about the natural energetic cycles of energy transformation and how that impacts you on a daily life as you move through the changing cycles of your own healing journey. Many experience the unknown and a state that feels like limbo and it can be scary when you're in it as you feel like you are never coming out of it and it can be prolonged if this is the mentality. I think the wisdom of this was sort of lost, the observation of the cycles of nature also lost, you know, even the feminine cycles of women with our own bodies has been kind of medicated into obedient by birth control and stuff like that. So we aren't necessarily observing all these natural cycles and then with those natural cycles comes this deep wisdom. And so I want to bring light to the cycle of energy transformation today and how to understand the limbo period and how to accelerate your transformation or your emergence from the limbo period. I've just come out of one myself and while it is definitely uncomfortable it is such a beautiful place to be when it is really honored. So every time that we go through an up level or every time we go through a healing or every time we desire to manifest something in our life we trigger what's called an activation which is a shift in our energy from one state of vibration to another because the whole world is you know energy and vibration. Everything is a frequency. It's like the universe is a beautiful symphony. It's singing and you know playing these instruments in this harmony and there's so many different octaves and there's there's there's different qualities of sound and and all of us are sort of our own woven symphonies of sound if you want to think of it from sound or you can think of it as another quality of energy which is light which is colors of light. You know everyone has different kind of colors in their aura that stand out and we're each so unique but we're all created from these frequencies from these qualities of energy that stem from the one. So if you think you know all light stems from the darkness and the darkness is all the color qualities all the sound qualities together as one harmonious sound. Darkness is all of the light before it is any color before you can see it it's just a womb of light and then for creation to happen light begins sound begin and you know when creation begins if you're we're going to talk in sound they believe you know they say it's the own the one sound came out of being or white light separated from the darkness and white light is all of the color qualities as one colored all of them together is the seed down of creation at every sound as one sound and so first creation was this one separation of the light and the dark from nothingness from from literally this womb of oneness into all that is into everything as one this and from there came the myriad of all things so own separated into a vast eternal array of so many different sound qualities at different octaves of vibration or you can think of the light refracted off the boundary and created a myriad of the entire color spectrum which goes into 144,000 different color qualities which can then separate even further and more and just create a huge myriad of all these different frequencies of sound or all these different qualities of light however you want to think of it it's the same thing because every sound will be a light a the color of light or a shape or a mathematical new number so it can manifest in different ways but it's all the same thing so these are all the energy qualities of vibration that exists and then we're created from a bespoke compilation of frequencies that make up your energy body so you'll start as the one you'll start as a spark of this divine oneness you'll have a certain you know subtle body that will arrive as a boundary to begin your creation and within that subtle body different layers of qualities will arrive to make you an animated living being that will exist at different frequencies so you'll have you know the the templates of your creation you'll have will you you'll have your spiritual body that will arrive to create the initial form for you and then you'll have your causal which will be all the templates like your karma and the contracts that you agree to that make you an individual and then you'll have your mental qualities and then you'll have your emotional qualities and then you'll have your vitality the animating life force that animates you and your physical body with life and then finally you'll have your physical body that is made of the earth so that you can incarnate on this earth resonant here and you can have all these spiritual qualities all these higher vibrational qualities grounded within your physical bodies that you can walk upon the earth now it is such a blessing to be here on this earth we get to flow through the cycles of energy transformation in a very accelerated way doing alchemy transforming ourselves enlightening ourselves ascending ourselves healing ourselves and not just ourselves but those who awaken realize that they then have the responsibility of healing their ancestry and when they heal themselves and they begin to make choices to heal their ancestry by choosing different outcomes for themselves with the power of their free will you they realize that they begin healing everyone in their life even if they're not trying to everyone they're courted to everyone they're connected to begins to benefit from the increase and frequency from the choice of greater love and whenever you initially make a choice because that what it is it's free will you choose to manifest something in your life you choose to heal something you choose to a level it creates an activation so it's like a light switch goes on and this activation then cajoles transformation so first you move into first you activate a new living reality that will switch on the light and then you're in this light lit room right your energy bodies are all fired up and you are you know waiting for this new reality to manifest however the reason that you weren't healed or the reason that you don't have something that you wanted to manifest or the reason that you weren't activated before is because there is an energy within you that doesn't resonate with this new reality that you're bringing in so you have to release the old paradigm that you were in and so the activation is the shift this awakening this realization that you're up leveling and you've now began it it's a beginning then the transformation begins and this usually is accompanied by a necessity for change so you will have to change a way that you think you will have to change a way that you live you will have to change a relationship dynamic a work dynamic whatever it is that is called for change and the shifting not only in your external reality but your internal reality will begin. And this could be as simple as you decide to heal and the emotional wound, the emotional past, the trauma makes itself known. And you have the opportunity to sit with that truth and process the energy by allowing yourself to feel it. You know, a lot of trauma is trapped because at the time of the trauma, we aren't able to process what happened because it's traumatic. You're in shock. And so it goes into the subconscious and then people react from trauma response where anything that's resonant, anything that's like or a reminder of it will trigger this response where the person begins reliving the trauma. And what that is is a signifier that the emotional energy around the trauma needs to be recognized and released from the original source wound from the original source event. And once that's released, the person is liberated and it becomes a memory that no longer holds any emotional weight. And so this is an example of a transformation is, you know, recognizing processing, releasing those emotions. Another is, let's say that you want to manifest more money in your life and you recognize that you can and you activate that reality by by having this manifestation. Now, if it's aligned with your soul purpose, then this will activate. And normally it's aligned with your soul purpose if you're wanting to manifest for your highest good and the highest good of all. When there's no ego involved, when there's no lower astral attachment to it where you're not just wanting to buy things in the material world, but you're wanting to support your purpose where you know that you deserve wealth and abundance at a soul level. And so let's say you want to manifest more money than whatever is in your psyche, whatever's been conditioned within you, whatever's in your ancestral lineage, whatever is in your subconscious that might tell you that you don't deserve it, that you're not worthy of it. That will come to the forefront that will rise out of the subconscious into the conscious and it will be your job to process and release it. So the activation is this decision, this all of a sudden realization of this shift. And then the transformation is the healing process of whatever it is that was blocking you from achieving or up leveling into this new paradigm comes forward to be released. And this is where a lot of people start to run away because they have this excitement, they have this realization of this up level and it feels so good in that moment where you just recognize like yes, I can achieve more, yes, I can have more, yes, I am love or whatever the activation is. And then all of the shadows start to arrive and they run because they think, Oh, I've gone backward. Oh, I've done something wrong. Oh, I don't want to address this. Oh, no, no, no, no. Are you not comfortable with the shadow? But it's actually through the embrace of the shadow that you become unified and whole and more empowered. And that's the transformation that you move through now. You can get support from guides, people like healers who are on this planet to help you move through energy. If you don't know how to move through yourself, but with the power of your awareness by adopting a loving approach, by adopting, adopting compassion and embrace, you can move through it yourself. Now, it's not comfortable, but we're not meant to be in a state of comfort all the time. That's not where you grow. You grow and then just comfort. You grow in the shadow work. And so the shadow energy will be coming forward through the period of transformation and how you approach it determines how long it stays lingering because it's not lingering to haunt you. It's been haunting you. It's lingering in order to be released, set you free. And so by recognizing the shadow and embracing it with the power of your loving awareness with the power of your heart, by allowing this shadow, by allowing what has been haunting you, by allowing what has been repressed, by allowing the conditioning that no longer serves you, the trauma that no longer serves you, to have a voice, to speak its truth, to make itself known so that you can look at it and say, "I am aware that this was my truth. I am aware that I was suffering from this. I am aware that this was my source of pain. And I embrace you fully and I no longer feel this way. And by moving into a higher vibratory approach of love and observation, and by having the power to embrace your past, by having the power to fully open your arms to what no longer serves you instead of pushing it away from you and making it other than or pushing it down to subconscious and thus await and thus a blockage. By embracing it, you open the way." And so the transformation is this period of just really getting into the truth by undoing everything that is untruth within you. And a part of the energy transformation cycle that is not necessarily spoken of is after you move through this beautiful wave like process where you might be high and then low and then up and then down through the energy transformation, you then move into this beautiful little container called limbo. Now this limbo period is very acute and it is very boom. It is wow. When you walk into limbo, you feel like you don't know who you are. You feel like you don't know what you're doing with your life. You feel sometimes I feel completely exhausted. A lot of times I actually get sick because your body is now purging the energy that it was holding on to from your emotional and mental and karmic causal templates that need to release from the body to really set you free. And you just feel like you don't know where to take a step forward. Now this is where many panic and go, "Oh, I have no idea what I want to do with my life. I don't know who I am. I need to do something." So they start acting and they start trying to create or they start fighting through this unknown, pulling them downward, pulling you into the render. And you fight it and you try and create in your life and it feels like you're fighting against this tide and it's exhausting. And you end up then moving into more learning because you won't have waited for that actual clarity on where you were released to post to take the next step. So you forcing and forging ahead, you might miss the magic of the actual manifestation that was magnetizing and coming toward you because you weren't honoring this divine feminine period of rest, restoration, unknown surrender. Because that's what Limbo is at this dark period of requiring complete surrender. You know, I create a lot. I work as a healer. I lead pilgrimages. I am a writer and I post on social platforms. And when I'm in this period, I can't do anything. And I'm self-employed. So it's kind of heroing because you're like, "Oh, well, I need to create for my business." But I just, there's nothing I can say. I barely know who I am. I'm not that. I'm not going here and enough to write something wise. I'm just trying to survive and let the energy do its thing. And so in this period, and if you honor this period where you're in the complete unknown, where you literally feel like you're just in like not even anywhere on earth, you're just in this liminal space before. You like you have a virus or something. You're just sort of like in this cloudy chapter of just complete unknown. And if you allow it and you fully surrender, what is happening is that your holistic energy bodies are completely releasing the old paradigm from you because they can't do that when you're in a period of action. You have to go into another metaphorical womb. You're being completely remade, completely rewired, we rewoven to be rebirthed to step into a new paradigm, to step into a new reality, to step into a new state of vibrational being. And so it's like this shroud of darkness is pulled over you. Maybe you get sick because you need to purge stuff from your physical body. You no longer need. Maybe you go through some sort of crisis where you really need to release in some way. And if you surrender and you allow yourself to just take a mental break, if you allow yourself to just be because after a spiritual awakening, which is what an activation is, you awaken to a new reality. But then the reasons that you weren't in that reality before have to shift and share and release and unwind and become clear, which is what the transformation period is, which will all come forward as you're taking it day by day. So, spiritual awakening people think, "Oh, I'm just gonna wake up one day or have this spiritual experience, and then I'm gonna be meditating on a pink fluffy cloud in Nirvana." Spiritual awakening is harrowing, because you all of a sudden wake up, and the old life that you were in doesn't feel right to you anymore. It doesn't, you see, it's almost like everyone else, and all other experiences you realize, "Are they asleep? Like, am I the only one awake?" Like, you feel very isolated, you see things differently, and it's chaos, because you begin to start to feel more, to think more clearly, to see more. And you go through a phase of mourning as well, where you're mourning your old life, you're mourning who you were, you're mourning what you believed in, and you feel isolated because you are now deeper and higher, and maybe those around you aren't experiencing the same thing. And so, even though it might feel isolating, you're never alone, because you begin to have higher connections, you know, guides start coming closer, and a new community will arrive. So, it's pretty harrowing, it's kind of chaotic, and you move through this transformation, and if you trust, and you believe, and you keep taking steps through this chaos that has descended around you as through the transformation phase by holding on to something that feels like it's guiding you through, which for me, I always saw this golden light in my heart, and like, leading off into the future somewhere, and I knew I could trust that golden light, I knew my heart would guide me, and so even when it got really chaotic, I knew I'd find my way through, and I knew all the chaos was not something I was doing wrong, it was actually serving me, everything that was coming up emotionally, mentally, physically, was serving me, was the opportunity for me to release what I had been holding onto, or release what my ancestry had been holding onto, or release the conditioning I'd received from my parent in order to liberate myself. And so then you arrive in this limbo period, which is like walking into a womb, and it's just dark, and you are in the unknown, and you barely know who you are, and there's absolutely no clarity ahead. And this is where the surrender comes in, and the trust comes in, and if you allow yourself to be there, it might take two weeks, or even less. If you fight and you push against it, and you tried to create from this place where you're not clear on what's step-to-take, then the cycle might repeat again and you might go into more learning. However, the minute, this mystical minute that the limbo period is complete, these doors open, and you step into this new stabilized reality, this new paradigm that you have created, that you touched when you went through your activation, which is an awakening, and you step into this accelerated manifestation period where everything that you activated comes forward, and you almost feel like you're in a dream world, you're like, wow, how is all of this happening for me? I mean, like literally two months ago, I was in another place, and now I have what feels like everything I ever wanted. And then you will have so much energy and life, increased life force and stamina to create with clarity, with a mental clarity, what it is that you're supposed to create. And this is a really kind of heart-mind connection space where you're drawing in life force from the below because through the transformation you will have cleansed in your energy field, what you needed to, that was blocking energy flow, you'll be pulling up more life force from the earth into your lower centers. They will infuse and activate your heart center, which will open and expand, and then connect to your mind. So there's this really clear channel for you to then understand where to take the next step, but not only that, you will be supported by increased energy to have the momentum to create what it is you're meant to create in this new stabilized reality. So there's this energy activation, transformation, limbo, and then stabilization. And so moving through this cycle is so beautiful. And you will stay in the stabilization period for as long as you are meant to until you go through another spiritual awakening or another activation. And these cycles flow, some can be deeper and stronger and longer and some can be pretty accelerated and mini and just kind of minor up levels. And this is the energy transformation cycle that happens every time that you move through an activation. So a lot of people want to manifest new realities in their life. They want a partner. They want more money. They want a home. They want a spiritual community. They want spiritual powers. But when it comes to going through the transformation and then being comfortable in the limbo, they get afraid maybe because they're not aware of what those periods in the important cycle are and pull away or turn away or try to create and move out of it. And thus, don't get to the stabilization. Don't get to the place where the magnetization of what you manifested starts to come in. So you have to go through the complete cycle. And then that's when the miracles come in. Because miracles are just a spiritual technology that we don't understand. We don't have scientific proof for yet. But it's very clear energetically that when you activate yourself and you transform the energy that no longer resonate and you allow yourself to be reborn, literally we wove into a higher vibrational frequency, then the universe speaks an energy and frequency. That's a language the universe understands. So when you're standing in your power in a higher frequency, the universe brings into you what resonates because the law of attraction is a natural law. So whatever is at that higher vibration that you've activated with a clear intention with a heart and mind connection will come forward into your life as if by a miracle. But really it's not a miracle. It's your hard work. You know, you changed and transformed yourself in order to achieve by a very natural way of creation. What is that you want? Hence, the idea that you are a creator, which you are. So a beautiful practice that you can do to help with this heart, mind connection is to envision your heart and a golden sun, a golden or a light at your heart and turning that on to upwards and upwards, just imagining the power of that light going up and waltz to the power of, you know, a thousand suns, just continuing to increase the frequency of that sun and you inhale, increasing the frequency. It's time you exhale, releasing the energy that you know longer need. And you can also imagine a sun at your third eye in your mind every time that you inhale, increasing the frequency, every time you exhale, releasing the energy that you know longer need. And to complete this, we're going to imagine a sun also in your sigrall right below your belly button, inhaling to increase the frequency, exhaling to release the energy no longer need. And so now at your three elixir fields, energy centers, your harras, there are three glowing suns, and I want you to continue in your own time to breathe into these centers and feel the radiance and the power as you bring light into these centers of your body. And now with the power of your mind, which is the penultimate tool for creating and reweaving reality, you can imagine a golden light moving from your heart center up to your third eye, connecting the centers, and a golden light from your heart center, moving down to your sigrall harra, your energy center, below your belly button, connecting the three suns glowing in your energy field. And I want you to now envision this light radiating and expanding to the extent of your entire org field and breathe in this space, cleansing and purifying the energy that you no longer need. And from this clear space, from this high vibratory space, right now, especially in this kind of energy tunnel that we're in between December 1st and 15th, I want you to become clear on what it is that you want. And ask for support from your guides. Call them all around you. Call your loving guides at the highest light and resonance to come and hear your activation. as you activate a reality that is aligned with your hara, heart and mind. What it is that you want, what it is you want to activate and to guide and support you through the energy cycles of transformation, limbo and stabilization so that you can manifest the living reality of your highest desire, your highest heart desire aligned with your soul, needs and want. So I am leaving you with this practice that you can practice every day if it feels right and remember to ground the energy of course into the earth, you know, bringing light from your root down into the center of the earth and you can elevate by from your mind, elevating a light cord up into the central blocked external sun. Just sitting in this energy breathing it in, exhaling the energy no longer need asking your energy body to fill with all the light and the love that you do need to nourish yourself to get that energetic nourishment that you require for your highest good and the highest good of all. And when you're complete just releasing the practice, asking your energy to come to balance, taking your guys and releasing them and maybe write down what it is that you became clear on that you want to activate in your life and the courage that you're going to embody as you flow through the energy cycles that are necessary for you to evolve into your highest potential, into a level, into your highest potential now. So thank you so much for being here with me today and I look forward to our next session when we speak again soon and I'm sending you so much love. I'm just looking at the frost outside in my garden in Sleigo, Ireland and just loving the cycles that the earth moves through as well, just as we move through our own cycles. It's just so beautiful. And so I hope that you enjoy your cycles just as much and just as important as the earth. Blessing. [Music]