Ep. 41: Wild NDE: She Sees Ancient Code, Curses at God, & Views Past Lifetimes (NDE of Rosalia Quintana)

Coming up, on not the end, NDE. But it was like, if there was this electromagnetic field and this wall full of, not wall but like this energy, like kind of like if the air carried symbols, I don't know if that makes any sense. But all of a sudden I could kind of just see symbols and it kind of incinerate like a tablet of code, some sort. And with what that caught my attention, I found that to be very intriguing, very interesting. It's trying to like the cipher, you know, or see if I had no idea what the code meant, at least not in my current awareness, sorry, at that moment. And again, you know, I found it weird that this was happening. And then I had a thought. I don't know why I had that thought. I was, I thought, oh my God, did I die? When I did that, there was this acceptance of dying, if it makes any sense. It's like I was fighting it. And then the moment I said, well, fine, you know, I guess I died, you know. And then after so much praying, honestly, God came forward. And it seemed like we were in some kind of sphere. I can never tell where is that location or what, but it felt kind of like very similar to the flower of life where like planet earth that this is kind of like a sphere or like a tourist field, kind of moving, always moving in motion with light. That kind of scenario. And I was very angry, very, very angry at God. I started cursing at God. I said a questioning. If, you know, he was a God of love, if he was good, you know, why all the suffering, all the death, all the things that happened to the children. And why would you do that? You know? Many have died and returned to tell of their near death experiences. Their incredible stories revealed to the living that this is not the end. Hi, my name is Rosalia. And I'm going to be telling you a little bit about my NDE. Before I do that, I want to tell you a little bit of background, a little bit of context before I jump right in, which is going to be the main portion of the video. So I was born and raised in Cuba. I've been in Miami since the year 2000. And here I studied to be a nurse practitioner. Well, I started actually as a HHA, then as an LPN, then on RN, and then a nurse practitioner. So the long route, right? So I've been in healthcare for quite a while. I always felt called for service. Wherever I find myself at, I always feel like I try to be of service in any way that I can and try to do the best that I can wherever God needs me to be, right? In my relationship with God throughout time, especially before my NDE, which happened in 2022, my relationship with God has shifted. Before the NDE, I explored many religions. Also, there was a point where I didn't believe in God. So I, you know, there was a seeking, this questioning of where is God? Is God a real and these kinds of things, right? And, you know, I'm glad it has been that way. It has allowed me to explore and find a lot more of our similarities than our differences and to be able to appreciate and honor, you know, every religion. In 2018, I had a medical spa, you know, financially, it was going well. Everything on the outside looked successful, but I was not okay. I went through the biggest depression that I've ever experienced. That was 2018. And I naturally started to look for alternative solutions, alternative solutions to depression, anxiety, panic attacks, suicide ideations. So I started to see, you know, what else is available? What are the options? What are the solutions? So naturally, I started exploring breath, work, sorry, samaric work, energy work. I mean, pretty much anything I could get my hands on to try to relieve some of the pain and the spare and the hopelessness that I was feeling at the time. And again, you know, I've met so many wonderful teachers along the journey. I have transformed along my own heroes journey, per se, throughout my own dark night of the whole, you know, in this, in this quest and this adventure of life and these challenges, right, that we are resented with these trials and tribulations. And sometimes when we're in the eye of the storm, we can't quite see the purpose of that experience, at least from my experience, a lot of what I have been through, I have been able to slightly understand it a little bit better a couple years after, right, looking back into it now, reflecting on it, practicing self-inquiry and just really continuing to be curious and continue to be open. Some of the other avenues I explore where I was all my quest, it was plant medicine, de eddas, a lot of the teachings are passed down through advanced spiritual practices and verbally. And, you know, all of these journeys, they served its purpose of remembrance, remembrance of our oneness, remembrance of our love, of our true essence. They each played such a key role in my journey of transformation in this path, right. But I wasn't really, there was always this kind of seeking more or seeking to fill a void or to find an ultimate truth or an answer or I'm not really sure how to put it into words, like something was missing, you know, that's the best way I could put it. So in 2022, I was camping in California and I went to sleep. I'll share what I can remember. I started to feel very extreme temperature changes in my body, okay. So I do want to clarify something before I jump into the details of the ND. Number one is this was not in a clinical setting and it is difficult for me to talk about my NDE because coming from a clinical background, always looking at cases, you know, signs, symptoms, a diagnosis, a treatment, studies, imaging, ruling out, et cetera, right. So coming from this very logical and structured background is difficult for me to share my NDE because it did not happen in a clinical setting and because I did not have a medical diagnosis that would sustain, like, or would explain or would justify what happened, right. So, you know, that puzzles me a little bit. I want to understand it. I want to, like, know what caused it. I want to know all these things, but there's a point in the journey where these validations or justifications or whatever for miracle or God's work, it's no longer needed, right. You're operating what I like to call, like, in the miracles on, right. You experience miracles and, and for normal events and, and just different things and different experiences where they're no longer needs to be, like, a medical justification for you to experience these types of things. But obviously, I had did not have that understanding at the moment, you know. So if you're going to go farther into this, know that, you know, this is not backed up by any scientific clinical settings or studies or anything like that. This is just my personal experience. I'm sharing with you what happened to me, what I felt, how it transformed me. And maybe you'll get something, you know, out of hearing this story in this journey that it's meant to be for you, right. So I remember feeling these extreme temperature changes in my body, like extreme, hot and extreme cold, but I've never experienced these temperature changes so strongly, so abruptly in my life. And it was like so cold that it was to the bone to my bones and so hot that it was again to my bones, the closest thing. So a lot of the things I'm going to be sharing, I just don't have actual words that can describe the experience. I don't know if that makes sense. So that's one of the first things I remember, these extreme temperature changes. And then I find myself kind of like outside the camping ground. And I thought I was dreaming, because I don't know, I didn't think anything else of it. Like, oh, this is strange. Then I started to kind of like look around and I could see kind of like a high-look graphics or something similar to that. It's hard for me to pinpoint the meaning of these symbols, but it was like if there was this electromagnetic field and this wall full of, not wall, but like this energy. And like kind of like if the air carried symbols, I don't know if that makes any sense. But all of a sudden I could kind of just see symbols and kind of incinerate like a tablet of code of some sort and what that caught my attention, I found that to be very intriguing, very interesting. It's trying to like the cipher, you know, or see if I had no idea what the code's meant, at least not in my current awareness, sorry, at that moment. And the moment I thought that there was this vacuum or this something that kind of like pulled me into it. And it was kind of like a black tunnel or a void or a darkness space, no light, zero light. It felt scared, it didn't feel welcoming or loving to me at that moment because everything was so strange to me, I didn't understand, and to this day I still, there's a lot, I don't understand, there's still a lot of unpacking and integrating as it is, even all this time has passed. And I was in this void with fear. And I just started kind of reliving or thinking, you know, very negative thoughts, kind of like guilt and shame and things I had done. And I felt like guilty for leaving early, you know, that I was leaving my wife, my son, my mom behind, and they would be without me and that I still had things kind of pending to do. I didn't want to, even though, you know, I was feeling with all these things initially, when I had that experience, I didn't want to die yet, it was like if I had unfinished business or something along those lines, like it wasn't time yet. And it felt like I couldn't get out of these negative loops and it was just this darkness and these negative loops and I was kind of stuck there, I couldn't find my way out. And I got very, very tired of what it seemed like fighting against nothingness, I just, there's no being, there was no guidance, there was nothing, remember there's a point where I thought, you know, I thought I was a good person that I would go to heaven or something like that. And then instead of in this darkness, you know, I just, I couldn't understand. And there was a point where all of these negative thoughts and emotions and just like, I guess self-made loops of kind of hellish like situations to be honest is the closest thing I could get to. I like, I started to get more and more scared because I felt like I was going to be stuck there and I didn't know how to get out and I started praying, praying for God to come and get me out of there and I prayed until I couldn't pray no more from the very bottom of my heart for help. I gave up and when I did that, there was this acceptance of dying if it makes any sense. It's like I was fighting it and in the moment I said, well, fine, you know, I guess I died, you know, and then after so much praying, honestly, God came forward. I can never tell where is that location or what, but it felt kind of like very similar to the flower of life where like planet earth that this is kind of like a sphere or like a tourist field kind of moving, always moving in motion with light. That kind of scenario and I was very angry, very, very angry at God. I said a questioning, if you know, he was a God of love, if he was good, you know, while the suffering, all the death, all the things that happened to the children and why would you do that, you know, I just couldn't wrap my head around a lot of the things that happened in the human experience at that moment. So and I had no reaction from God and I think I even got more mad at that. And there was a point where there was just this kind of pause between my cursing and God and there's just a moment where I kind of felt like I got everything out of my chest and there's just a moment there where I was just looking at God and God placed His hand on my shoulder. And when God did that, at that moment, I don't know how to explain it. I don't have the answers. I didn't bring back much, but at that moment, that one moment, everything was perfect. Everything was love and everything was oneness and there was no time, there was no space, there was this, there's no human love, there's no no love. Like that here, at least not that I've experienced, you know, now I have a different understanding of here and there and just everything, right? But I didn't at that time and that's okay. And at that moment, I had no more questions. My questions were gone, there's everything was answered. I didn't know what else to ask. I was perfect, whole, complete, just one with God. And it has been the most beautiful experience I've ever experienced. At some point, I was shown my life review, but it started from before incarnating. I could see that I chose my parents, my place of birth, just like different things that I chose. I did see how I pre-planned, I was only shown my dad's side of the family. We were all sitting in a circle and kind of pre-planting different lessons and different things and how they were showing me exactly what I needed by being exactly who they are, which really has helped to heal the relationship with my dad and we have become very close since then. So it's just a different understanding of I guess the dynamics of the soul, I mean, I don't know what to call it. What else is important that I want to share with you guys. There is a point where I could see many lifetimes that I've lived and it was kind of like a hologram where I don't front of me just switching characters, I don't know how to explain it, you know, I've been male, female from every continent, from every culture, from every religion already. And it was just this, it was almost kind of like I knew what each lifetime, like the lessons I had learned from each lifetime and what it had brought back to me. But again, I could barely, at least in my conscious awareness, right, bring back a lot of what I experienced for some reason. And yeah, at some point also everything was kind of like telepathically, there was no need for words like we do here and it was kind of like the reason why I'm here is to help and, you know, I didn't really have any clue at the moment as to help with what or how am I going to help or just the general idea that I was here to help and that we are co-creating with God that life is a gift, that life is a miracle, that everything is love, everything is oneness to love, one another as ourselves, no separation, you know, in any kingdom with any of the elements, everything is absolutely interconnectedness, creator and creation are one. These are the main points, you know, and there's a beautiful message that everything I'm still integrating, I'm still deciphering, it's still, there's so much, like I said, that I couldn't bring back with me, but one of the beautiful messages was music is the answer. And that has really stuck with me, you know, since then, you know, I've dived a lot into many things including quantum physics, quantum harmonics, music, I studied piano after that, you know, just a lot of investigation has been done after, at some point, I don't know what point that was, I don't know how long this lasted for because it seemed like, again, there's no time or space, I couldn't tell you the exact time, at some point, I must have come back into my body, I don't remember being asked if I wanted to come back or I simply was back, and in the morning when I woke up and I saw the sun in And I saw life and I saw textures and the birds and just it was like if life had slowed down for me to see the miracle of life, for me to appreciate being alive. And at some point the morning I told my wife what had happened to me, I told her I think I had a near death experience or something happened to me, you know, I'm worried something is wrong with me or that I have something that we, we have in cod on just like regular checkups and stuff like that and I, we immediately left and I went to the hospital, I got checked, I had all sorts of testing done. My pituitary was high and the iron levels were high but I didn't, we didn't find anything important that would point to something of that nature happening and I had a very difficult time integrating the experience because I just couldn't find a logical sense of it. And I had, I don't know, a lot of questions, even though it seemed like my questions were just answered, I don't know how to explain that but after that, you know, I reached out for help, psychologists, psychiatrists, medicine, man, medicine women, friends and trusted people, counselors and teachers and I just continued learning a little bit more, what I noticed more is and I didn't come back with any like special powers or anything or, you know, it's very much the teachings I have received have been very much kind of like the approach of chop wood, carry water like just a very normal day to day things to do it with more love, with more grace, with more compassion for myself and for other people and keep in mind, you know, try not to hurt another person whenever possible, try not to react. So a broad play when something triggers me trying to be more mindful, just a lot more self observation, a lot more curiosity, a lot more joy, a lot more grateful. So one of the big, big shifts I noticed was that I was finally grateful for like eight years or something, you hear all the time, oh, practice gratitude, practice gratitude. I did so many things to feel grateful in the morning, just yet every time I would wake up in the morning, I was ungrateful and finally after this experience, I was generally grateful and I have carried that until today, I'm very, very grateful when I wake up in the morning, it's like, wow, unbelievable. So a lot more grateful, I started painting after that, I'm an abstract painter as well. I've written in two books so far, I'm writing my third one that's called the Infinite Eye, becoming aware of itself, it's going to be a trilogy and, you know, has a lot of poetry in it in regards to self-realization, to God, to love, you know, these kinds of same themes and, you know, I had never painted before that this, I started painting after that and it has been wonderful. I have felt a lot more joy, it's almost like my inner child is back online, if it makes sense. I'm curious, I try to stay very curious, very open before I felt like I was carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders and now it seems like I'm flowing with life. Not against it, like I'm no longer fighting it and everything I've learned for the past decade, I've tried to put in a way where I can share the teachings and tools and pretty much everything that I wish I had when I was going through my dark night of the soul, my awakening process and the self-realization process. So I share that through my, through every medium that I can, through my artwork, through my books, I just recently created Superconscious University, which you can find in our school community, which has tons and tons of value in there and it's a free community that you guys can access. You can access our resources for free and I hope, you know, that everything helps that my journey through this parenthesis here in eternity has not been in vain that it has a purpose. I was called to share this in 2022 when it happened, you know, I spend a lot of time in integration and I just, I didn't share for a bit and then I shared a couple of podcasts and then I paused again and went deep inside and it has been a while since I have done a podcast, I have not felt, I actually thought I wasn't going to do one anymore, but I sat with it, you know, I consulted and it was a yes to do this one. There must be a reason for it, you know, this message will get to whoever it needs to get to and always remember to follow your joy. That's what I want to leave you with. Remember to love one another. I believe the message has been the same throughout eternity and continues to be. We are one infinite loving awareness and the more of us that can remember that, that can embody that to the rest of our ability, I mean, we are human, right? So we're all trying best that we can and have fun, have fun while you're in the experience of being human, sharing love with one another, make time to do what you love, make more time to do that, follow your joy, it's never going to lead you straight to deep, deep calling of your soul, pulling you in the right direction, I think many of us are being called to step into our next level of service, right in our mission, in our remembrance of our one I am presence and essence within. So I feel, you know, many of us are being asked to to share, to speak, to transcend that wounding of not good enough, of not being seen or heard or take up space or share our truth whether it's backed up by proof or not or right because there's a point in the journey where, you know, the relationship is between you and God, the journey is yours and, you know, hopefully we'll share something that can help another human being along the way and try our best, these are pretty much the key points that I want to leave you with, thank you for taking the time to listen to the podcast and I hope me sharing my ND experience has helped you on your journey in any way, thank you. How is this story meaningful to you? If you're watching on YouTube, tell us in the comments. If you're listening to the podcast, leave a review and tell us there. If you or someone you know have a similar kind of story, please also leave that in the comments or send us a message at our website. 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