Ep. 29: Stroke NDE: In Heaven, Man Meets God in Many Forms (NDE of Bryan Duszczak)

Coming up, on not the end, NDE. It made sense to me that all these entities were expressions of God, God allowed these things to come down on different continents, different languages in different times as representatives of Him as a being which is technically what we all are, it all made sense right then in there. Many have died and returned to tell of their near death experiences. There are incredible stories revealed to the living that this is not the end. What's up guys, my name is Brian Dusek, just in every day Joe from the suburbs of Chicago moved to Texas about ten years ago. And I'm here to tell you about my NDE experience. But I wanted to give a little preface, it was never really that religious, although my parents had me baptized twice, once as an infant and once as a toddler, grew up with some spiritual influence from my new stepmom after I was eight years old. She introduced me to things like Buddhism, meditation, yoga, aliens, Whitney Striber's, communion books. I read that when I was a kid. Not big on meditating myself, I'd tried it a few times, I was too hyperactive for that. But I was definitely curious about powers of the mind, things of that nature, I actually remember checking out a book once, I think that was seventh or eighth grade about astral projection which I found very interesting and believed or not, I had accomplished astral projection a couple times as a youngster growing up further in my life, I kind of faded away from that up until I was about 18, did a little traveling, stayed with some Buddhist monks, Sufi monks, Rastafareans, Hari Krishna's, I was on the road for a little while with the rainbow family of living light. I've ever heard of them, a bunch of hippies and others camping out in the national forest like 10,000 people at a time which I found very intriguing. I played a lot of drums while I was on the road for money, just kind of busking. And then came back when I was 19 and got into the workplace, just living an average life, got married in my early 30s, and kind of lost my way spiritually. I guess you could say I gained a lot of weight. I was steadily about 160 most of my life and then I blew up to the last time I looked at the scale was just reaching 250 and I'm sure that I gained a lot of weight after that. My peak I think I was around 260. So I was working at a better known business as a sales guy. And over the course of a few weeks I had a pain in my left leg in the calf where I was limping around the office. I actually thought I had some sort of Charlie Horus or Sins Plint. But lo and behold the way I was eating with the fast food and the pizza and the bacon and the red bull and the mountain dew, which were my four main food groups at the time. I had developed a blood clot in my leg that I wasn't aware of. I had visited a clinic and they told me I had chinsplints that into any X-rays or MRIs just gave me some strange medicine that I took for another week or so. And just one day I was eating a chicken bacon onion pizza from Rosales in Chicago, drinking my two liter of Sierra mist and a sharp pain hit me right here underneath the right side of the ribs. I got on WebMD and I didn't really get any results so it was just getting worse and worse. I thought it was maybe in the gestion, took some pepto, that didn't help. But that's when it started getting really bad. My vision was impaired. Like I literally only had tunnel vision, like just this area. Everything else was kind of static or golden out so to speak. The ringing in the ears, the shortness of breath got progressively worse. And my wife at the time and I were kind of fighting so it took some pressure but I finally got her to drive me over to the hospital in Cheryl String, Illinois. I got out of the car and she drove away thinking that I was being too dramatic. Needless to say, I didn't know I was even having a stroke at the time. But I did make it about 30 steps I think it was into the hospital and at that point I could just say it was something like, you know, I've never experienced before. It was kind of like one of those dreams where you're trying to run and you're just going super slow motion. The tunnel vision had decreased to maybe the size of a paper towel tube if you were looking through the tube. It was a very panicky feeling. I knew at that few minutes that I was basically dying. I didn't know why or what was happening but I made it through those doors and I looked to my left and I remember seeing good pen people kind of standing in line waiting to fill out paperwork. Others were sitting down in the waiting room with various problems, broken arm, whatever cuts. I just knew that I didn't have much time left so I virged and looked to my right and luckily saw an orderly or nurse wearing the green smock and he was pushing a gurney and I kind of took one last step towards him and I was like just trying to say like help me and that was when it kicked in. I remember seeing my hand and then the back of my head fall to the floor and I've never seen the back of my head without using a couple of mirrors before and immediately I just realized like I'm not in my body because my body is down there on the floor and I'm kind of looking around and it was just dawning on me like how can I see I know I'm out of my body but I have no eyes so I'm astral but yet my first thing was to look at my body and look towards like my midsection of where my spirit was and there's usually some sort of cord attaching you to your body at least that's what I've experienced when I was astral a couple times and there's no cord and I'm fully removed from my body 110% and that's just a very panicky feeling like oh crap I'm dead a lot of things cross your mind in a short period of time I will definitely say when you're outside of your body time is not the normal linear tick tick tick tick tick I could think so quickly and so rapidly that many thoughts were going through my soul I guess I want to say my mind but I'm not attached to my body but that one of the first biggest things was like holy crap I didn't finish my mission I couldn't tell you what the mission was but I was well aware that I hadn't finished my mission as Brian and body form and I just knew that I needed to get back in my body and finish my mission it's not that I thought God would be mad at me but I definitely thought that I disappointed like I came here for a purpose I came here for a reason I had something to do and I didn't complete it can really explain that also what I was noticing is as people were swarming towards my body to pick me up get me on the gurney get me IV and fluids everything that I looked at my non exist in eyes with my soul I noticed that I could feel the molecular density the molecular structure of things that's a hard way to explain but for example the gurney I looked at the metal pieces but I could feel like the coolness the coldness I could feel like it's molecular structure it's really hard to explain almost like if you looked something metal I could almost like taste it but with my soul it's hard to explain that I could look at somebody's clothes and just feel the porous material and you know it was light and that the fibers I could feel that molecular density of it but I'm not touching it in any way it's a very strange way to explain it also hearing I could hear but I'm not hearing with ears I am feeling the vibration of everything around me that I focused on the voices I could feel them in my center of my being at the time I could feel the actual vibration of words that are being said also I could sense the emotions of the people around me that the nurses were really keeping their cool a couple of the people standing around were like oh I hope that guy is okay but I do remember the panic if you could have an adrenaline rush as an astral soul I was having one just oh gosh oh no oh my god I'm dead like what do I do I didn't finish my mission holy crap what am I going to do like oh my god I got to get back in my body that was the combination of the feelings I'm feeling all in a matter of seconds and as this panic is ensuing I could literally feel like it is almost like an adrenaline life you've ever been like shocked or scared or surprised it's that kind of feeling but yet I don't have a heartbeat but yet I could feel that energy in me very panic you feeling so that being said within moments all of a sudden I realized directly to my right there's like this light it's very bright much like my computer screen monitor right there coming from my right and there's this almost a blanket of light I want to say it's not solid but there's beams of light like surrounding me almost like a cocoon feeling it's just coming around me and hesitating me I'm becoming increasingly calm who collected happy love. I can't really explain that feeling. I've compared it to being in your mother's bosom that she's reading in your favorite bedtime story. You're petting your favorite puppy. You're eating a warm chocolate chip cookie and you're right there by like a champ fire or even a fireplace. Just all the good loving, cozy, secure, comfortable, the love. It was just all that and then some. Those are just earthly ways to explain that feeling, but it was a million times better than that. Those terms didn't do it justice. Again, I don't have eyes, but if I focus my attention, I'm looking to my right and there it is. This entity right next to me, it was beautiful. It was beaming of light. It was humanoid. It was bright, but yet comforting, like a golden yet white hue to it, and kind of like if you look really close at a TV screen. You see those little RGB dots in there? There were colors emanating from it, but there was mainly golden white. I can't really explain that, but it was all pure love. I actually like to compare it to if you've ever seen the movie Cocoon from the 80s. There was these light body alien entities. This was a light body. It was humanoid, and it was an entity. But the feeling that you get, there's no negative. I didn't even question it. I just knew as it kind of hit me, there was a familiarity there. I look over and it's looking at me like, "Hey!" And I just, I shyly, meekly. I kind of knew in my head, but in my mind, I just asked, like, "Oh, are you God?" And it looked at me like, it was a combination of always, yet most of the time. And it kind of bewildered me. It's looking at me like it knows me much like if you saw an old friend at a bar tapped him on the shoulder, and he turns around and was like, "Hey buddy, how you doing?" It was that feeling like just like, "What's up?" And I had to ask. I'm just like, I also see Jesus in you too. I'm not really normally a religious guy, but the feeling, the power, the energy, the kindness, the love, this energy was so pure that I just, I see Jesus in you too. And he's like, "Yeah, yeah, sometimes too." I'm just like, "Wow, that's so bewilderingly." I'm an honest, so I saw more. I had to ask. I'm like, I feel that jovial, the kindness, the, I'm like, "I see Buddha in you too, but I'm singing with my mind, right?" And he looks at me and gave me that Buddha face. If you look up Buddha right now on Google, you'll see it a little smile that usually keeps in that jovial, jolly laugh came out of him just, "Oh, you're also Buddha, like, wait a minute." These are expressions of God. Okay, that makes sense to me. And I, I'm looking at it and I had to ask too, I'm like, "I feel this presence of something ancient, something time, something wisdom, hard to explain, but I even asked, like, are you also Krishna?" Like, I'm asking, like, there's a combination of beliefs, but I definitely felt like this entire, it made sense to me that all these entities were expressions of God. God allowed these things to come down on different continents, different languages, and different times, as representatives of him as a being, which is technically what we all are, it all made sense, right then and there. And, you know, I'm still panicking, like, I'm sorry, I didn't finish my mission and he's like, "Relax, relax, you've got time, let's go for a walk, you've got time, everything will be okay." And in that moment, I just kind of let it go, like, I kind of saw my body going off with a couple of nurses, they're trying to get a bag started with an IV and I just was like, "Oh, okay, hey, if God says don't worry about it, I just kind of ignored what's going out with my body." And he kind of led me in a, I guess, to my right, like, just turned and I followed. And if you've ever seen the movie The Matrix, where we appeared next, next was much like that room where Neo said we need guns, and then all of a sudden the racks of guns appear. It's a golden room, I would say it's not endless, you feel somewhat confined, but yet you don't see any walls. It was like that whitish gold feeling, just like in The Matrix, and we're just kind of standing there talking and he's like, "Well, you have some questions for me, don't you?" And yes, I absolutely had questions for you. First off, how do I get back in my body? And I'm like, "What do I have to do when I get back in my body?" And as quickly as I could ask a question, and again, I'm doing this, it's definitely telepathic because there's no oral words. The responses that I'm receiving are more like, it wasn't in English, but yet I'm interpreting in English. I can't really explain that either. It's a, hardly explained telepathy because whatever they're saying it, and I just remember the first words that I've received that I translated in was, "Wather, aspirin, and citrus peels. That's what I need to do when I get back in my body. Okay? Great. Wow. That was pretty fast. And then just, well, if I can ask questions, I was like, well, what do I need to do after that? To like maintain my body. And in that moment, so many things just t-t-t-t-t-t-t-t-t-t-t-t-t-t-t-t-t-t-t-t-t-t-t-t-t-t-t-t-t-t-t-t-t-t-t. And I just remember little pieces that was like Moringa seeds, sea moss, intermittent fasting, stop drinking soda, lower your carb intake, just all these like diet changes that I needed to make in order to maintain, lose weight, clear these clocks out of my system, and basically survive. There were so many thoughts popping in my head. And mind you, again, time is very different when you're in this spirit world. It had probably only been two minutes in the real world, but yet this feels like easily almost an hour, it's happening here. And I just started asking questions about life in general. I would say that, if you've ever thought about what would you ask God if you ever had the chance, I was asking the questions, but unfortunately, I think it was just so many terabytes of data that I don't really have the recall here in my Brian meat suit. I wish I had that, and if anybody is watching that, knows how to hypnotize and get that data out of my head, I would love to talk to you, feel free to find me. So that being said, I am downloading, downloading, downloading all kinds of data, asking questions, getting answers, asking questions, getting answers, and something happened. I'm kind of hard to explain when you're having a conversation with God. You've figured I would have just focused strictly on that conversation. Call me ADD, but my bandwidth had increased from a few questions to more questions to so many questions to a terabyte of data to where there was like this full bandwidth happening. I was just asking layers of questions, books of questions, chapters of questions, and I still remember little pieces too. Things about healing or biology, like mental issues, like how to fix them, not that I had them, but how I wanted to help other people. It was very strange feeling, and I have to go back just a little bit. There was one thing that God had said when I had asked, like, are you Buddha? Are you Krishna? And I had realized that these are all messengers of the one thing he had said, you know, wow, you're remembering quickly this time. And that's when it kind of hit me like, you know, from the span of my soul being on earth, to all the way to where I am right now is Brian, and then beyond that, being Brian was just a little blink in the time of the entire soul's journey. It's kind of hard to explain, but if you're here for eons and have all these lifetimes in between, and then just in this moment I'm Brian for however long I live, it's hopefully 70, 80 years, and then there's more beyond that. It just hit me like a brick, like, oh, this time, right? You know me, I've been here in the in between, in between lifetimes, choosing my missions, going on journeys, whether or not it was on earth, but I quickly, like, remembered little pieces and other lifetimes in that moment. So fast forward to the bandwidth opening up, something changed. I don't know what it was about my ADD as a spirit, but I remembered there was something more, and I just knew that there's another frequency, another plane, another dimension, another level, not really sure what to call that, but I remembered a tone, a frequency, a sound, a note, to where the best way to describe it is if you're at low baseline, super calm, almost like an on, that you're just on regular frequency, calmness, not too hyper, not too low, I went, oh. and I could just say that the highest note that I could think of, I kind of periscoped from this plane that I was in at the moment, this dimension, and things split. It was like a portion of me is still here learning, asking questions, studying, I remember books, I remember halls, I remember cabinets, I remember other entities, I remember being in a school down there, but my focus and my attention completely went to this new plane, I'd say 89%. I was still studying down there, but yet, that's my subconscious, but consciously, I went to this new plane, and within a few moments, here I am with the perspective of, I'm above Earth, Earth I would say would be a giant ball, but quite a few miles away down to my left, and I'm just like, whoa, this place feels really familiar, like I know this area, and this is kind of weird, like what am I doing up here, how'd I get up here? And then I noticed I was kind of hearing like, "I was out, I was out, I was out, I was out, I was out." I got, I got, like voices, I know that sounds weird, but I could sense that down there on Earth, which is like this glowing golden orb, I could see, many of the life forms, humans, just these little specks, dots so far away, but they were all gold, like you could see, much like Matrix Vision, when everything that was animate had that gold queue to it, but everything that was inanimate in the movie was green, but I could see everything that was alive, like on Earth, plants, animals, people, and I realized these voices are people, and I started like kind of focusing in on these voices, and I can still remember one of the first ones that I heard was this little girl, was this mommy, mommy, where are you? I was swimming in the water and my foot got stuck in the mud, and she's like, is right there realizing that she just drowned and passed away, and I could actually smell like a swamp water, almost like frogs or a bayou type scent, very strange indeed, but this poor girl is realizing that she just passed, and I mean, I could literally feel the moisture, the clammyness, the swampy feeling that she had just felt, as she's passing away, like almost as if she was choking too and had this water inside her lungs, and it was kind of a lot to handle, like, why can I hear these people that had just passed away in the in between, and just as that feeling was kind of subsiding, I hear this, I want to say Irish Scottish, maybe both, but I hear moderate, moderate, where are you, honey? I remember that the truck coming around the corner and the lights and the sounds of the (chuckles) and this guy just realized that he has been in a car accident with another truck, and his wife must have been right next to him and he just passed away and he's calling out to his wife, and you could feel like this love between them, how much he misses her, how he's panicking that the love of his life and he's dead and he's left her and you could feel all these feelings of the relationship and, you know, like, it's a very strange feeling indeed. And then I also remember the third voice, which kind of makes me depressed to talk about, but that was a young man, 16, 17, 18, and I remember he had kind of like a similar accent to me, Midwestern, not Southern, might've been South Canadian, North Midwest, Chicago, Michigan, something like that. But you could just hear him, like, kind of chill, kind of depressed, but he's just like, man, I probably shouldn't have taken all those pills. You know, my mom's going to be a real mad at me, but I couldn't take the, the, the pressure anymore and, you know, just been so sadly at least, but I felt this was the only way to go. But apparently, this young man had just taken himself out by swallowing some pills and it kind of shocked me, like, wow, how can I hear these people that are in the in-between? Like, there were so many of them. Those were just three that I really remember. I remember a little girl, too, she had been like five or six or seven, just, see, it also just been in a car accident. She's calling out to her parents. Very sad indeed. And I'm kind of looking like, how can I hear them? Why can't I hear them? Like, why am I allowed to hear them? What am I going through right now? Why am I seeing all of this? And I kind of was like just looking around almost, disgusted or sad or something. That was a very somber feeling. But I kind of look up and I look up to my right and I realized this is a familiarity to me. Like, I've been here so many times, but why? Am I here right now? And I look up to my right and there are a couple of these entities much like how God showed himself just kind of different, not quite as pure as God's light, but yet very pure. They were much bigger than me. And they're just kind of like floating in the distance. Very humanoid. And I noticed one of them was very, even though they're ambiguous, I got the sense that he was male. And then there was another one, I guess, further to my right. That was a sense of female. Although there's not a lot of features, much like an Alex Gray painting. And if you look how he kind of displays, you could tell there are men and women, but yet there's no real organs to see it. Anyways, I'm kind of looking up at them and I realized there's a familiarity about them. Like, I know them, but I can't think of their names. I cannot recall. And just as I'm looking up at them, the male version kind of looks over and looks at me again. And was just like, hey, what are you doing here right now? Now it's not your time. I felt like I was wandering around a closed mall or something and I just got caught by the security guards. Like, I'm sorry, am I not supposed to be here right now? I'm not even sure. Exactly how I got up here. I just remembered a frequency. You just kind of looked at me like, I know you, but yet you shouldn't be here right now and he starts nudging the female entity that was next to him. He's like, look, look who it is. And you know, I realized that these two had been helping all these people in the in-between, consoling them, helping them find their next mission. They look very short-handed. Like almost like a switchboard operator taking in a thousand calls and there's only three operators to take all these calls. They're very busy, but yet they took the time to talk to me and the female one just like, holy crap. Like, you're not supposed to be here right now and like an epiphany kind of hit her. Like, wait a minute. You knew this was gonna happen. I'm like, you know me like that? The male was like, like, look, it's him. But they said a name, it wasn't Brian. It was my soul's name. They freaking knew me. And I was like, slowly kind of remembering. Like, this was my space. This was my office. I worked here for Eons before. And I know these two, they know me and it's just kind of coming back to me right now. When he said my name, I can't say it with the human mouth, but I felt it in my soul like, yeah, that's who I am. That's what I am. That's my soul's name. The eternity, all the past lives and all the next lives that are coming, everything combined in the one. That was my name, my soul. Not the bodies, but my soul itself. And they knew me and mind you, still in the background. In the subconscious, I'm still going to school. I'm still talking to entities. I've been in classrooms this whole time. I'm recalling it right now. What it feels like to sit at a desk knowing that there's other entities around me that are also learning these different subjects. But yet, again, my focus is here in this like spiritual realm. And the female says, like, wait a minute, you knew this was gonna happen. You gave me something to give you just in case this happened. And she's just kind of like, hang on, I'll be right back. I'm gonna go get it. And kind of mowsied off until like, what I've said was more like a spiritual realm, janitors closet, just kind of mowsied away, kind of poofed into the distance. I'm like, well, that's kind of weird. I wonder where she's going, you know? So the male entities looking at me like, so hey, like, give me a mission report. How's it going down there? And I'm just like, hey, man, evil is in charge. They're poisoning the water. They're poisoning the food. Man, they're still slave down there. We're paying to live on a planet, you know? That's not normal. Like, we're struggling and bustin' our butts and this, that, and the other. And they're so unhealthy down there. And they're poisoning us and they're slavery still. And like, we need help. We need to send more people down here to help. And that's when it kind of hit me. Like, I understood, in that moment, as he's speaking back to me, he's like, well, yeah, we've been sending people down there to help turn it all around and like, raise the vibration of the planet. And that's part of your job is to help wake these people up and activate them and help raise the planets vibration. And they're down there already. I mean, we'll send more, but you need to work with the warrior, the spiritual warriors that are already down there. And it wasn't really competing like, yeah, okay, great. But how do you do all that, you know? I just would say. that's what I wanted to know how I get okay great wake up people raise the vibration of the planet okay I can okay but how and it just wasn't clear to me still to this day I don't fully understand I get that's part of my mission but how do you do that so anyways the next move that happens is this female entity comes back with this pretty large much larger than a bowling ball but I'd say smaller than a beach ball sphere I remember there's like a violet there's a red there's oranges there's speckles in it there's like this lightning type vibe like a plasma ball kind of if you remember those plasma things you touch them in the lightning will come to your finger she's holding this thing she's like here this is what you gave me to give to you because you knew this was gonna happen but this is what you wanted me to yeah wanted me to give you a taste this happened and I'm just like okay I don't even know what that is I don't remember giving that I don't fully remember you right now but she's like here catch and threw it at and I panicked you know we're maybe less than 400 feet apart from each other and this thing's coming to me real fast but I realize like wait I can't catch it I don't have any hands how do I catch things like ah and and that was it it hit me right in the chest and in that moment I gasped and in the real world my eyes opened and the orderly that I pointed at when I fell was looking right over me pushing me in the gurney he was like hey you're awake he's pushing his knuckles into my sternum try to wake me up like I'm no doctor I don't know procedures I don't know medical stuff but the guy's just like hey you can talk do you know your name and I said my name and he's like good good you can talk he's like do you know where you are and the G-rated version is I better be in a lip and hospital because I feel like crap and he started laughing he's like I still got your sense humor that's good he's like look man you just had an ischemic and the hemorrhagic stroke we gave you some anti clotting whatever it's called to break up the clot and unfortunately it broke into three smaller clots and from what we can tell one's going to your brain one's going to your heart one's going to your lung and I'm taking you straight to the OR you're about to have open heart surgery we're gonna crack open your ribs and get this these clots out of you as he's doing that he's got his finger on a plunger that he just put into my IV line with a syringe and he says this is the knockout juice you're going to be out for eight to twelve hours while we do this open heart surgery on you I'm one of the scariest moments in my life and in that moment I'm feeling this static energy much like coming back from an astral projection trip I can feel that energy is all around me and in this moment what I'm about to say and do I was not in control of I'm not really sure how to explain that any other way but my arm raised up when I'm top of his hand that had the plunger the syringe in it and my mouth started moving said nope we're not having any surgery today take me to a private room I know what I need to do and he kind of looked at me like and his hand started shaking and the hairs on his arms stood up a little bit and he just kind of froze I watched his pupils dial it whatever energy that was in me transposed to him for sure and changed his tone real quick he just kind of froze took his thumb off the plunger pulled it out of my line and he's like I don't know why but I believe you he's like what do you need and the first things out of my mouth after that I think I was back in control but I remembered what I'd learned when I was on the other side I said I need water I need aspirin and I need all the citrus that you can bring me stat like now and like take me to a private room I'm not going to have this surgery I deny it with everything that I am no surgery today take me to a private room aspirin water citrus just okay okay I believe you so you wield me over to another room another nurse came in as he left to go get those items I asked for another lady I like to call Hillary Clinton's little sister came in and gave me some paperwork to sign the release of responsibility paperwork a couple pages I dumped the room real fast and just signed that they explained what it was I understood if I died I'm not my family can't sue the hospital basically so I went through that and that orderly came back in the room two pictures of water four aspirins and a bowl of a number of grapefruit slimes lemons oranges and immediately I started peeling them but I didn't want the fruit body part you know I started cramming like literally cramming the peels into my mouth just as fast as I could all of it just all of it just started chewing on the peels washing it down across the aspirins into the water so I could just get this into my system quickly rehydrate and the aspirin I just knew I was gonna help break up the clots so in that moment the doctor that was in the OR waiting for me comes in and he's just like hey like what are you doing like you need to have this open heart surgery most people don't survive this like you're gonna have a heart attack here in a couple minutes when that heart or sorry when that clot goes back to your heart like you need to do this right now we should have cracked you open and cut you open minutes ago and I was just chomping out these peels and chugging the aspirin water and I remember I had my heart monitors on and there were some erratic sounds coming out of the heart monitors the peeps were off and just like I had mentioned before the voice of what I call God was speaking to me it was just immediately goes cough hard cough now and don't stop coughing so I didn't question it I took a swallow there were still crumbs and peels on my mouth but just and just kept going and kept going and I won't put my mouth got dry I took a chug of water and just kept coughing kept coughing and I think after like the 17th day 10th cough somewhere is around there I could feel this weird it was like a pop and then a squish and I could tell that that clot had made it to my heart and I kept coughing and I kept coughing and maybe I don't know 10 seconds went by I'm still coughing and I felt the squish and then a pop and it went out the other side I compared to what I feels like if a jellyfish went in the head first into my heart and then came up tail first out of my heart I just passed that clot the orderlies looking at me like whoa the nurse was standing there just like holy crap there was another orderly in there they had recommended to what do you call those the paddles they were getting the paddles charged up because I was having a heart attack right in front of them and the doctors just looking at me like you know like never seen that before and that's it I passed the clot I remember I had a couple of small versions of that it's kind of how to explain like that was the big jellyfish and that it was traveling through my body I felt little winces and different parts of my body as it's traveling around but yet it came through a second time and it was a little bit thinner and then I felt the winces and little pieces of my body and then it came through again and it was a little bit smaller and it just that clot was getting smaller and smaller as it's traveling around inside my body but I do were I mean I don't know what to say I just luckily I remembered and God gave me a little recipe on how to pass this clot through my body and saved my life and that was it like three days later they let me out and I immediately ordered on Amazon actually while I was in there I did clay cleanses I bought parasite cleanses I bought maringo I bought sea moss all these different things that I could recall I just started ordering it and started taking it I started intermittent fasting I cut soda I barely eat anything with bread on it just implementing all the things that I learned while I was away and I'm still trying to kind of recall or let remember more because there's a lot of data in my head again if you're one of those hypnotizing type therapist persons that can pull this data out of my head please do because I really really think about it often that's I want to remember what happened or I want to remember what I learned while I was in there what have I learned since then how have I changed how has that changed my life I've become severely more empathetic I wouldn't say I was a bad guy but I was not I was more about me you know make money and being kind of irresponsible now I want to go out of my way to help people a kind word I realized how much of an influence of what you say and do to other people can really change them. Although I don't remember a life review, I believe now that when I do have one when I actually fully passed that I'll have that life review and I want to make sure that everything between, you know, then and then that I'm a positive influence on others that I try to help every chance I get, you know, little things kind of, I get put in situations where I can help, or at least I see a path where I can help and I make the effort to do so. You know, I've gone through a lot of trials and tribulations, health wise, mental health wise. So if I can be of service to help other people with based off of my experience, like I go out of my way to make sure that if given the opportunity, I'm doing that thing. I've noticed a couple other things, like I was doing lifting Uber for a while, I'd notice when somebody gets in the car, I automatically know things about them that I probably shouldn't. Sometimes I say something to them and shock them. Sometimes I give them advice that I probably shouldn't or shouldn't know, but I surprise them and I tell them at least what's coming to me. I'd say 8 out of 10 times, I'm correct and it helps them in some way, shape or form. A lot of health advice, but that's my experience. And again, I'm trying to recall these things. I want to know more about what my mission is. I want to know how to raise the vibration of the planet. I want to know how to turn other people on and activate these other spiritual warriors all around us that might be a little lost right now. I want to be able to help more people as far as releasing and letting go of their past traumas and things of that nature because I know how to do that. Helping them grow. So yeah, if you know anybody that can help me with that, thank you. I greatly appreciated. I actually have created a Facebook page. It's called Duzi's Quest, DOO, ZIES, Space Quest QESD. Feel free to send the request to join, answer a couple questions and I'll add you in there. You'll see a couple other interviews I've done as well as a written version of all this, which is a much longer version. There are other details I kind of left out just for expedient sake, but hopefully you guys enjoy all this and I'm looking forward to meeting other people that have had NDEs. Also, if you've had NDEs and some of these things as far as the telepathy or being in the presence of God and how that felt or the downloads and the knowings and that feeling of knowing the molecular structure of looking at things without eyes or feeling the vibrations and sounds of things around you with no ears. I want to talk to people like that. I want to know that we've got some similarities there and see if we can't kind of compare notes. I don't know. So if any of that kind of relates to you or peak security, feel free to come in and join Duzi's Quest or you can find me as Brian, BRY, AN, D-U-S, Z, C-Z, AK, and in the near future, I'm also going to be starting my own podcast. I've named that Omnistries. So if you go on YouTube and look up Omnistries, O-M, N-I-S-T-R-I-E-S, you'll find me. So yeah, thanks for the opportunity, thanks for hearing my story, and may the force be with you. How is this story meaningful to you? If you're watching on YouTube, tell us in the comments. If you're listening to the podcast, leave a review and tell us there. If you or someone you know have a similar kind of story, please also leave that in the comments or send us a message at our website. Maybe we'll feature you. Visit nottheandindie.com. Be blessed and a blessing, my friends.