EP. 260 - MASSACHUSETTS: THE LINDSAY CLANCY CASE PT. 2: THAT WINTER NIGHT

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meals laundry pods even they can't screw up have you met my kids and with bj's gas she gets there for less they call me the road warrior this is your home road warrior mom home of the save join for just twenty dollars at bj's dot com slash mesquite and save 10 cents per gallon for six months open soon limited time offer new members only bj's home of the save warning the following podcast is not suitable for all audiences we go into great detail with every case that we cover and do our best to bring viewers even deeper into the stories by utilizing disturbing audio and sound effects trigger warnings from the stories we cover may include violence rape murder and offenses against children this podcast is not for everyone you have been warned in part one of this story we talked about the life of lindsey musgrove clancy a woman from connecticut who always knew she wanted to work in health care after college lindsey got married to patrick clancy and began a career as a labor and delivery nurse in boston massachusetts her patients and her co-workers said that she was the perfect person for the job lindsey was kind and compassionate she loved working with mothers and their babies and soon enough lindsey became a mom herself over the years she had three beautiful children cora dawson and callan but after callan's birth lindsey experienced something many mothers go through postpartum depression and anxiety lindsey knew something was wrong so she sought out psychiatric help in the fall of 2022 after seeing a psychiatrist she started taking antidepressants but the medication wasn't working desperate for help she continued seeing her doctor she even changed her medication time and time again hoping that something would work but nothing ever did and with each month her mental health continued to spiral towards the end of 2022 and beginning of 2023 lindsey had been prescribed a total of 13 medications she journaled and read books about postpartum depression she wrote in private mom forums on social media she called two different suicide hotlines she tried out a partial hospitalization program and she even admitted herself into a psychiatric hospital but in the end nothing worked in part one of this story we talked about everything leading up to january 24th 2023 and today's episode will be about that fateful day and everything leading up to lindsey's trial then in part three we will talk about the trial itself and all of the media surrounding this story but before we get into everything i want to add an extra disclaimer in this episode we will be discussing topics of suicide postpartum depression and anxiety postpartum psychosis and the murder of three children who are the victims in this story we will be discussing topics of suicide postpartum depression and anxiety postpartum psychosis and the murder of three children who are the victims in this story i also want to emphasize that i am not a doctor and although i have done a ton of research on postpartum and my undergrad studies i am not an expert and as always please consult your doctor about all health related topics discussed in this episode the last thing i want to mention is that information continues to come out about this case every day and while we have tried our best to be as factual as possible there's always a possibility that new information can come out changing the story so our main focus here is to try to figure out how we can change the story and how we can change the story to tell you the facts using information that has come out during lindsey's trial and we are going to try our best to be as unbiased as we can so that you can form your own opinions but with that being said this is the story of lindsey clancy i'm courtney brown and i'm colin brown and you are listening to murder in america you are listening to murder in america in the early morning hours of january 24th 2023 lindsey clancy couldn't fall asleep she had been tossing and turning all night long an ongoing side effect from her medication lindsey's psychiatrist dr jenna clancy was in a state of shock and shock and shock and shock and shock and shock and shock and one of her toughs had just increased her dosage on the new antidepressant she was taking amitriptyline it was the 13th medication she had been prescribed in the last four months but soon enough the morning light began to shine through lindsey's bedroom window by the end of that day that window would hold an entirely different purpose but for now the light shining through meant it was time to get up and start her day just like she had done for the past few months lindsey got up got dressed and made breakfast for her children five-year-old cora three-year-old dawson an eight-month-old callan after breakfast lindsey got cora dressed for her doctor's appointment cora had been having some stomach problems there was also concern she might have a uti cora's preschool teacher said that she hadn't been feeling well the day before so at 8 a.m lindsey and cora arrived at her pediatrician's office as she and cora waited in one of the rooms patrick sent her a text message it was a picture of cora sitting on the examination table patrick responded cutie lindsey loved her children there's no denying that it was exactly why she was sitting at the doctor's office with cora that morning the clancy children had been to the doctor a lot in the past couple months as lindsey's mental health worsened she had become overly paranoid about the fact that she was going to be in the health according to patrick when cora had a stomach ache lindsey worried that it was a problem with her liver symptoms of uti made her think there was something wrong with cora's kidneys a small vein on cora's nose had lindsey believing that she had a gene mutation so if any of her children weren't feeling well lindsey was quick to get it checked but patrick would later say that he wasn't concerned about cora's stomach issues and he hoped that after speaking with cora's pediatrician it would quote bring lindsey back to reality the clancy's had been seeing their pediatrician dr lindsey roshart for the last four years and through her time knowing the family dr roshart believed that lindsey was a great mom on that morning as lindsey sat across from her telling her cora's symptoms nothing seemed to miss dr roshart suggested that cora might be constipated so she recommended miralax a stool softener she told lindsey that if cora still wasn't better she should schedule another appointment in two weeks during this appointment they also tested cora's urine luckily everything looked fine around this time patrick sent lindsey another text message how's it going good her urine looked good so nothing's wrong with her kidneys few good after cora's doctor's appointment they made their way back home to 47 summer street in ducksbury massachusetts it was a cold winter morning heavy snow had fallen the night before lindsey pulled her black kia sorrento into the driveway then once inside she and cora removed their winter clothing patrick had a busy work day ahead so he went down to the basement to work while lindsey took over watching the three children now cora and dawson didn't have preschool on tuesdays so lindsey did her best to fill the day with fun activities that morning the kids made art projects lindsey made them lunch then later that afternoon lindsey even took the children to the backyard to build a snowman when they were finished she took a picture of cora and dawson standing next to the snowman and lindsey said i'm not sure what's going on with the snowman and she sent it to her mom paula paula later texted her back saying that's a big roll of snow i was wondering if you got enough for the kids to play and it's a pretty nice day to give them something to do on a day without school get the hot chocolate ready lindsey also sent the picture of cora and dawson to patrick moments later he responded oh wow you're a good mama the image of that day was about as picturesque as it can get the clancy's were a respected family lindsey Lindsay labor and delivery nurse. Patrick worked for Microsoft. They lived in a nice home. They had three beautiful children. Children who were running around in the backyard, laughing and playing in the snow. Patrick Clancy later said that throughout the day, he would go upstairs from time to time and everything seemed completely fine. The kids were having fun and Lindsay seemed to be happy. No, she's having one of her best days. But sadly, everything was about to change. Now, this next part is where things are being heavily debated online. So we will tell you what happened next based on the evidence later uncovered. At 4.02 p.m., Lindsay grabbed her phone and looked up Miralax, the stool softener that Cora's pediatrician recommended. She looked up if there was a kid's version and there was. It's called Pedialax. The next thing we see on Lindsay's phone is a restaurant. She looked up a place called 3V and at 4.13 p.m., she put the restaurant into her Google Maps to see how far away it was from their home. It was 5.8 miles. Now, from here, about 30 minutes pass with no phone activity. Then at 4.43 p.m., she looks up 3V's menu. Next, at 4.48 p.m., Lindsay called their local CVS to ask if they carried Pedialax and the employee, manager Angela Krause, confirmed that they did carry it. She said it would be found on aisle 13 and 20. So, with the confirmation that they had the medicine Cora needed, Lindsay hung up. Angela Krause would later say that Lindsay sounded completely normal. Nothing seemed amiss. Now, from here, at 4.53 p.m., Lindsay sent a text to Patrick, who was still working down in the basement. Any chance you want to do takeout from 3B? I didn't cook anything. It's been a long day. Patrick would later say that this was an unusual request. They usually got takeout from Chestnut Street Grill, a restaurant that was only 2.8 miles from the restaurant. The restaurant was only 2.8 miles from the restaurant. The restaurant was only 2.8 miles from their home. They had eaten at 3B before, but it was a further drive, about 5.8 miles away. But nonetheless, Patrick agreed on picking up takeout from 3B. Lindsay responded, Soon after, Patrick texted Lindsay his order. Then, at 5.10 p.m., Lindsay called the 3B restaurant and placed a takeout order. She got a Mediterranean bowl without protein for her and the scallop and pork belly risotto for Patrick. She also told them that Patrick would be picking up the order. Once again, the hostess at the restaurant said that Lindsay sounded completely normal. Now, at this point, Patrick was finishing up work. So once he came up the basement stairs, Lindsay asked him, Could you pick up Cora's medicine from CVS while you're out? Patrick agreed. He would later say that before leaving, he grabbed Callan and swung him between his legs. He kissed Cora on the forehead and then waved goodbye to Dawson, who was sitting on the couch eating chicken nuggets and green beans. Patrick then put on his coat and yelled out to his family, I'll be right back. Now, later on, Patrick would be asked a very important question. If your wife told you she had thoughts of harming your children, why would you leave her alone with them? Patrick would later say that he had no reason to fear leaving the children with Lindsay. She seemed to be having a good day. In the weeks leading up to January 24th, he had already gone out several times while Lindsay stayed home with the kids. She had been interacting with them, sending photos, and appearing more like herself. He said that nothing that afternoon suggested anything was wrong. Patrick later told the New Yorker, quote, So what do you do? Somebody's having a great day. Should I call the hotline? End quote. Now, at 5.15 p.m., Lindsay texted him a picture of the pedialax he was supposed to pick up from CVS. Patrick also claims that he left the house at 5.15 p.m. But footage from inside the CVS shows Patrick walking through the doors at 5.32 p.m., 17 minutes after he said he left his house. Now, the CVS is just a three-minute drive from their home, and it's unclear why there are 14 minutes unaccounted for. But before Patrick Clancy is even seen walking into the CVS, we want to discuss some activity going on at the Clancy home. At 5.23 p.m., Lindsay's Apple Watch that she always wore is shut off. However, it's unclear whether it was manually turned off or if it died. At 5.24, 1 minute after Lindsay's Apple Watch is shut off, Patrick Clancy sends a work email. Later at trial, attorney Kevin Reddington asks Patrick if the email was sent from his Surface Pro, which is the laptop he worked from in the basement of their home. At 5.32 p.m., 8 minutes after sending that work email, we see Patrick walk into the CVS. Surveillance footage shows him walking straight to the pediatric aisle at the end of the store. Patrick scans the shelves for the stool softener, but he can't find it. He later said that it was during the height of the COVID-19 pandemic. At 5.24 p.m., he sees Patrick walking into the CVS. Patrick scans the shelves for the and almost all of the medications were not fully stocked. Now, he said that they had a generic brand of PDLX, but not the brand that Lindsay requested. So, wanting to get the correct one, he pulled out his cell phone and called Lindsay at 5.33 p.m., but it rang and rang without an answer. Back at the Clancy home, even though Lindsay's Apple Watch is turned off, we still see some movement. Around the time that Patrick calls her at 5.33, Lindsay's iPhone shows that she went up a flight of stairs. Then, at 5.34 p.m., just one minute after Patrick calls her, Lindsay calls him back. Here's Patrick describing that phone call. "It was very brief. I just said, I think there was a generic brand, and I said, is this one okay? And she said, yeah, that's fine." "And what was her demeanor during the call?" "She's pretty quiet. It sounded like she was busy. I remember hanging up thinking she's probably in the middle of getting baths or something like that." The conversation only lasted 14 seconds, but according to Patrick, Lindsay confirmed that the generic medication was fine. So, from there, Patrick walked to the register and purchased the medication, as well as a pack of Wildberry Skittles. He then left CVS at 5.37 p.m. and drove to Three V to pick up their takeout. Now, Three V was about 4.5 miles from the CVS, roughly a 10-minute drive. Footage from the restaurant shows Patrick walking inside at 5.54 p.m. After speaking with the hostess, she hands over the food that was under his name, and he leaves at 5.55 p.m. Patrick was in and out of the restaurant in about a minute. Then from there, he gets in his truck to drive back home. The trip from the restaurant back to their house in Duxbury took him roughly 12 minutes. According to Patrick, he arrived home at 6.09 p.m. He parked his white Chevy Silverado next to Lindsay's black Kia SUV in the driveway. Then, with the CVS bag and the takeout in hand, he entered the house through the side door near the garage. Patrick said he took off his boots and placed the CVS bag and the takeout bag on the kitchen island. But something was odd. The house was eerily quiet. He couldn't hear his three children or Lindsay. Patrick said he could call out, saying that he was home, but there was no answer. So from there, he walked towards the basement door. He noticed that the door was shut, but the light was on. Now, this wasn't unusual. Patrick always tried to keep the door shut, and Lindsay had the habit of keeping the light on. So, Patrick opened the door. In front of him were the stairs leading down into the basement. Patrick said he called out, but again, no answer. For a moment, he said he wondered if Lindsay had left the house. He tried to remember, but he couldn't. Patrick said he called out, but again, he couldn't. He couldn't remember whether he had seen her car in the driveway. He later admitted that sometimes it was hard to tell in the dark because her car was black. But it's here where he pulled out his cell phone and called Lindsay at 6.09 p.m. However, again, she didn't answer. Patrick said he then walked away from the basement and went upstairs to the second floor of the home. He said he checked the bathroom, thinking the children might be taking their baths, but they weren't in the bathroom. Next, he started to look around the house. He said he had seen the children's rooms, but behind each and every door was an empty room. However, there was still one room to check. He and Lindsay's room. As he approached the door, it was closed. So, he reached out his hand and twisted the knob. But it didn't budge. The door was locked. Patrick would later say that it was in that moment when he knew something was terribly wrong. Yeah, the previous owners, when they installed the doorknobs, had these like these little keys that they taped to the back of each door. So, I got the one from Cora's room and then I started unlocking the knob. When Patrick finally opened the door, he found another empty room. One that looked nothing like the room he slept in the night before. For one, the bed had been pulled away from the wall and a window was wide open. A cold winter breeze rushed into the room, making the curtains flap against the wall. Lindsay's cell phone was right there on the bed. But most notably was the crimson red around the room. Patrick said the blood was everywhere. On the floor, on the nightstand near the bed, on the walls. It was everywhere. It was everywhere. Um, it looked like it was sprayed almost with like a hose and there was a huge puddle in the middle of the room and it was sprayed all over the, pretty much every surface. I remember it was on the doorknob. Now Patrick claimed that he only took a few steps into the room, but seeing the blood and seeing that the window was opened, he immediately turned around and ran down the stairs. He exited the house through the back sliding glass door and quickly scanned the backyard where he said he made a shocking discovery. There, lying in the snow, directly beneath the open second story window, was his wife, Lindsay Clancy. She was lying face up. She had cuts on both her wrists and another cut across her throat. Patrick ran to her side and saw that Lindsay was still alive and it's there where he asked her, what happened? Lindsay was barely conscious, but Patrick said that she told him, I tried to kill myself. He said he asked where the kids were. Lindsay responded, quote, they're in the basement. I said, where are the kids? And what was her response? She said they're in the basement. And at that time, she didn't tell you that they needed help or they were in danger or they were injured, correct? Correct. Patrick said he pulled out his cell phone and attempted to call 911, but he had trouble. He said his phone kept switching between Wi-Fi and the cellular network so the call wouldn't go through. He said for a brief moment, he almost started screaming for the neighbors. But finally, after a couple of minutes, the call went through at 6.11 p.m. Now, the 911 call hasn't been released to the public, but there is a transcript that Courtney and I will read from. My wife tried to commit suicide. Explain how she tried to commit suicide. Where is she now? Stay awake. How old is she? 31 to 33. Is she awake? Yes. Is she breathing? Yeah. Lindsay, what did you do to your neck? She's talking. When? Last half hour. How far did she fall? 20 feet. Is she responding normally? A little bit. Wake up. What part of the body was injured? Neck. She's breathing. Lindsay, look at me. Look at me. Are there weapons? I don't see any. Where are the kids? Do not move her. Open your eyes. Can someone. Okay. Lindsay, look at me. Open your eyes. I'm going to tell you how to stop the bleeding. It's not bleeding. It's open wounds. She's in the backyard. Is there something on your neck? A knife or something? Lindsay, wake up. Put pressure on the cut. Lindsay, look at me. Say my name. She's conscious. Don't move her. Tell her to be still. I'm going to stay on the line with you. Is there a fence? Right here. Right here. I need you to stay and go check on my kids. Now, as you just heard, during the 911 call, two officers arrived on scene. Their names were Stephen Hall and Brian Josephine of the Duxbury Police Department. Officer Josephine was the first to arrive. About three to four minutes after the call, the two officers arrived on scene. After Patrick called 911, here he is explaining what he saw when he walked into the backyard. Away, I observed two parties, one lying in the ground and one standing over it. Obviously, the person on the ground was Lindsay, and the person standing over her was Patrick. But here's what Officer Josephine observed next. He was standing over Lindsay at that point. It appeared that he was trying to communicate with her. I observed him. With a cell phone. It was kind of down by his side, so I don't know if they were talking or what, but it was probably a split second. And then he turned in my location, saw me as I was illuminating the yard with my flashlight, and then that's when me and him crossed paths. Patrick had stayed by Lindsay's side for several minutes until police arrived. And when the officers stepped into the backyard, that's when he went inside to check on the children. Here is Officer Josephine explaining Patrick's movements. He was heading, I believe, up towards the deck. Yeah, obviously, I didn't know it at that time, but he was just walking past me pretty fast in an abrupt manner. From here, the officers turn their attention to Lindsay. Here's Officer Hall explaining what he saw. She was on the ground, if you were looking at the backyard on the right side. She had cuts to both wrists and to the left side of her neck. But strangely, he didn't see anything. He didn't see anything. He didn't enough, none of her wounds were actively bleeding. The officers also saw that Lindsay was still conscious, but barely. Semi-conscious, in and out of consciousness. She would wake up and move around and then kind of just go still again. In her semi-conscious state, Officer Josephine said that he started talking to Lindsay. I just was trying to get basic information, where she was hurt, where she needed attention, anything I could do to kind of help her until fire arrived. But it appeared as if Lindsay was unable to speak. Her head would move around, but when they asked her questions, all she could do was moan. It was clear she was in a lot of pain. Now, while the officers were with Lindsay in the backyard, they heard the sounds of sirens coming from down the street. More help was right around the corner. Officer Hall ran out the back gate and waved the fire department over. But it's around this time when they heard a sound. Yeah, I heard a sound. I heard a loud scream from inside. It was just a sound. Myself and Officer Josephine ran towards the slider and entered into the house. Once inside, the officers were standing in the kitchen, but they followed Patrick Clancy's voice and eventually found him in the basement. So we went down the stairs and there was a picture at the bottom of the stairs, I believe, of Lindsay and Patrick. And the basement splits off into two, a right and a left area. And the screams were coming from the right end of the basement. And the screams were coming from the left end of the area. So that's where we directed our attention to first. Upon turning the corner, they saw Patrick. He was coming from a back room. When he uttered a sentence, they would never be able to forget. Quote, she killed the fucking kids. Here is Officer Josephine describing that moment. Upon his observation of us, myself and Officer Hall, he proceeded to head in our direction, leaving that room. And at that point, he looked up and he screamed, she killed the fucking kids. Now, according to Patrick, moments earlier, once the officers arrived on scene, he went into the house to check on his children. He said he knew exactly where to look because Lindsay told him they're in the basement. So Patrick ran down the basement steps, still on the phone with 911. As he went down the stairs, he began calling out for them. Guys, guys, Patrick yelled, no answer. Once he made it down the stairs, he said he spotted Cora lying on the floor in the den area. She was facedown with a black exercise band tied tightly around her neck. Based on the 911 transcript, here is what was said. Tragically, next to five-year-old Cora was eight-month-old Callan, also facedown with a blue exercise band around his neck. Patrick said he rushed over, turned them on their back, and immediately began untying the bands. He later described the knots as similar to, quote, when you initially tie your shoes but don't do the bow, end quote. But after untying Cora and Callan, Patrick said he started looking for three-year-old Dawson. He said he checked the bathroom, then crossed to the other side of the basement and looked in the exercise room, but nothing. Then he entered his office that was right beside the small exercise room. And that's where he found him. Dawson was just to the left of the door. Patrick said it was clear he was already dead. Like his siblings, Dawson also had been strangled with an exercise band, a yellow one, that was still tied around his neck. Patrick untied it. He said he then rushed back to Cora and began attempting CPR. Then he ran back towards where Dawson was in his office. It's around that time when Officer Hall and Josephine ran into the basement. After telling them she killed the fucking kids, Patrick told them, quote, I can't wake them up. He came from a back room, so we ran into that back room. Just past the door on the left side, there was a body of a young child. He had his feet towards the door and his head towards the wall. The first child the officers saw was three-year-old Dawson. He was shirtless, wearing a diaper. Here's Officer Josephine explaining what happened next. He was laying on his back, kind of close to the gym bag. Like I said, he was lying on his back, his head was tilted to the right-hand side. Looked at him, kind of in the face area once we got closer, and his face was white, gray, lips were blue, eyes were bloodshot, looked like blood vessels were popped in his eyes. Seeing that, my first instinct was to kind of grab his head and tilt it to the side, see if I can get a pulse. But I mean, based on my training experience from previous incidents, I knew it wasn't going to be good. So I moved the head. That's where I observed some red marks on that right-hand side. So I picked the child up, went chest to chest. And as I did that, it was kind of like a mucus or a foam that leaked out of his mouth onto me. I grabbed him, went back towards the way we came down into the basement, and I headed up to the stairs where Sergeant Homestead was coming down the stairs. And I started yelling to him, to get out of the way. By the time Officer Josephine made it outside, the claim Nancy's neighborhood was filled with emergency vehicles. It was dark out, their flashing lights illuminating everything nearby. Sirens echoed throughout the street. Neighbors had gathered, wanting to know what was going on. Officer Josephine quickly ran to an ambulance and handed Dawson to the EMTs. Now keep in mind, the officers had only seen Dawson down in the basement. They had no idea there were two other children, but as they were standing outside, they suddenly remembered what Patrick told them. She killed the kids. I can't wake them up. Plural, not singular. So from there, they ran back down to the basement. There were two children on the floor, motionless, and EMTs and paramedics were working on them. Those first responders worked tirelessly to help Cora and Callan, who were lying alongside each other. Cora had no pulse. She had already turned a bluish-purple color. Her eyes were bloodshot, and there was dried blood around her mouth. There was also a pool of blood on the carpet near her body that began to seep through Officer Josephine's pants. He was forced to move her body to another location and continue aid. It would later be revealed that the blood on the ground came from Cora's mouth. Now as for Callan, the first responders were shocked to see that he still had a very faint pulse. So immediately, Cora and Callan were, quickly rushed to an ambulance outside. While the children were being taken out, Officer Josephine found Patrick in the kitchen. He described him as, quote, "frantic, kind of in shock, still screaming," end quote. It was at that moment that they decided to transfer him to Beth Israel Medical Center in Plymouth, where his three children were being taken. - Around the same time, Officer Hall walked out the back door of the Clancy home where paramedics were still working on Lindsey in the backyard. They were getting ready to bring her to the hospital, but she was a suspect in this crime, so Officer Hall would have to accompany her. As for Lindsey's condition, she was still in and out of consciousness. The wounds on her neck and wrists were bandaged, but as we mentioned, they were not actively bleeding, so they weren't too concerned about those injuries. Now, by looking at the scene with an open window above her, they figured she had jumped out trying to kill herself. She fell about 13 feet, so they were worried about her neck and spine. It was later revealed that Lindsey actually had spinal fluid coming out of her nose. So to prepare her for transport, she was placed in a cervical collar and secured onto a backboard. Then from there, she was carried off to the ambulance. From the time first responders arrived to the time Lindsey was placed in the ambulance, only seven minutes had passed. Throughout that time, she didn't speak to anyone, but continued to make painful groaning noises. She also kept trying to yank the oxygen mask off her face. On the way to South Shore Hospital, paramedic and firemen Robert Costanzo said that he noticed Lindsey's pupils were constricted and she was unresponsive. Fearing an opioid overdose, Narcan was administered. - We gave two milligrams of Narcan, and she seemed to become a little bit more agitated, reaching, trying to grab, reaching out with her arms, but no verbal communication. She never fully woke up. - Lindsey and the children were taken to the hospital and taken to two different hospitals. Over at Beth Israel Medical Center, doctors got word that three children were on the way. - Yeah, so we had heard that all three were in cardiac arrest, and the Corps in particular, they were still working on doing CPR and doing what we call pediatric advanced life support, so medications to try and restart the heart. And they also mentioned that they had used what we call a defibrillator to shock the heart to try to restart it, and they were still doing CPR when they were arriving. - Cora also had an intravenous line put directly in the bone marrow of her tibia. In a critical emergency, especially with children who aren't breathing, finding a vein can sometimes be difficult. Inserting directly into the bone marrow gives them immediate access to the bloodstream. Doctors worked on Cora for an additional 30 minutes after she arrived at the hospital, but despite their best efforts, there was never a pulse, and she never started breathing on her own. Five-year-old Cora Clancy was pronounced dead at 7:28 p.m. - Doctors also desperately tried to save Dawson's life. Like Cora, he was given CPR, fluids through an intravenous line placed directly into the bone marrow of his tibia, and they gave doses of adrenaline to his heart. Every possible effort was made to save him, but three-year-old Dawson never started breathing again on his own, and his heart never beat again. Doctors worked on him for 40 minutes before finally calling his time of death at 7:28 p.m. - And then there was eight-month-old Callan. Like his older brother and sister, Callan was also in cardiac arrest, but somehow he had a faint pulse. Because of the severity of his condition, he was airlifted to Boston Children's Hospital for specialized pediatric care. Upon arrival, doctors noted that Callan was cold to the touch and not moving. His pupils were dilated, and there were obvious licks, ligature marks, and swelling around his neck. But for three whole days, baby Callan held on. During that time, he was intubated and on a ventilator. Although it was rare, at times he would take a breath on his own, and he had a heartbeat, but Callan had extensive brain damage. The exercise band that was tied around his neck cut off the oxygen to his brain, and a CT scan revealed significant swelling. He was moved to the ICU for additional care, but ultimately, he wouldn't live. He had to make it. Dr. David Casavant stated that Callan never responded to any physical tests that examined his reflexes and reactions. He remained unresponsive to, quote, "both things that would cause discomfort and things that would cause pain," end quote, meaning Callan was brain dead. Fortunately, in those three days he was alive, family members were allowed to visit him in his last moments. Patrick Clancy later said, quote, "I was fortunate and grateful to feel his warmth until the very last moment. Faith is my only hope of believing he felt mine," end quote. Eight-month-old Callan Clancy was pronounced dead on January 27th, 2023. - But as you likely know, there was another survivor in this story. Lindsay Clancy was brought to the South Shore Hospital as trauma one, meaning it was the highest level of trauma, and she was suffering from life-threatening injuries. Now, she was breathing on her own, but she was in and out of consciousness. Dr. Michael Vufovic testified that she arrived with a GCS of 10. - It's a Glasgow Coma Scale. It's a series of things that we look at to determine how responsive somebody is, you know, whether their eyes are opening spontaneously, whether they're able to speak on their own, and whether you're able to understand what they're saying, and then how much, if at all, they're moving, whether they're moving spontaneously, whether they can follow commands, that kind of thing. - Okay, so the Glasgow Coma Scale, GCS of 10, what does that tell you as an emergency room doctor? - Tells us that she was not very responsive on arrival. It sounds like she was not speaking intelligibly, and the doctors at South Shore Hospital were concerned about her ability to maintain her own airway and made the decision to intubate her, which means putting a breathing tube down her throat into her lungs and placing her on a ventilator and sedating her. - Lindsay's eyes were open, but she was not communicating. Doctors noted that the wounds to her neck and wrists were superficial, so there was no damage to the tendons or muscle. They also saw that on each of Lindsay's wrists there were hesitation marks, which Dr. Elizabeth LaPasada, a forensic pathologist, testified was a classic finding in suicide attempts. There were also two full-thickness lacerations to the sides of her neck, meaning she had cut herself through the skin and into the subcutaneous tissue. But because those weren't life-threatening, they focused on her more serious injuries. Scans revealed that Lindsay did not have a brain injury, but she did have a thoracic spine injury with a burst fracture of C1 and fractures of C4. She also had swelling in her chest and all of her ribs had been broken. But something else that they noticed was that Lindsay's body temperature was 82.1 degrees, which meant that she was experiencing severe hypothermia. To warm her up, they placed her in this warming blanket called a bear hug. Now, it's around this time when Lindsay's parents, Paula and Mike, and her older sister, Allison, heard about what happened. They rushed to South Shore to be by Lindsay's side, but they weren't allowed to see her. In fact, just four hours after she arrived, Lindsay had to be airlifted to Brigham and Women's Hospital in Boston to receive specialized care. - During the helicopter ride, a police officer was right there by her side. In fact, every room that Lindsay went into, as the doctors were crowded around trying to keep her alive, an officer was nearby. Because technically, Lindsay was in their custody, while the investigation into the deaths of her children was underway. But after arriving at Brigham and Women's, and those early morning hours of January 25th, Lindsay coded after her blood pressure dropped. According to Dr. Lapisada, Lindsay's spinal injury and hypothermia caused her heart to stop beating, her pulse weakened, and she suffered a, quote, "complete cardiac arrest," end quote. Doctors quickly stepped in, administering CPR. Dr. Volfovich explained that Lindsay received, quote, rounds of cardiopulmonary resuscitation, with compressions and medication, end quote. And somehow they were able to get a pulse. Now nurse Rochelle Amaday, who cared for Lindsay in the ICU, would later say that medical staff talked about the possibility of Lindsay having postpartum psychosis. In fact, on the night of the murders, Patrick Clancy was taken to Beth Israel Deaconess Hospital in Plymouth, where he spoke to Lieutenant John Santos and Trooper Joseph Rabbit about Lindsay's condition. He told them about her anxiety in September, her different appointments with medical providers, her various medications, and even her thoughts about harming the children in late December. Patrick then walked them through the evening of January 24th, the CVS, the 3V, what he found when he got home. During this interview, Patrick said that his marriage to Lindsay was wonderful and the two, quote, got along great. Now by the following morning, the world woke up to the news of what happened. A mother, a labor and delivery nurse, accused of strangling her three young children with exercise bands, then slit her wrists and jumped out a window. The people of Duxbury were beside themselves. The Clancy's were a respected family and the people who knew them had a hard time believing it was true. Lindsay loved her children. Everyone said that about her. Their hearts also broke for Patrick, who lost his entire family. Two days after the murders, while Lindsay was still in the hospital, and while Callan was still alive, Patrick's friend, Matthew Glazier, started a GoFundMe for Patrick. He said the money would be used for medical bills, funeral services, and legal help. On January 28th, 2023, the day after Callan was taken off life support, Patrick Clancy made a comment on the GoFundMe. It read this. Thank you all for your love and support. The warmth I've received from the community is palpable and your generosity gives me hope that I can focus on some sort of future. I've seen all of your messages and contributions, including some from people I haven't seen in over a decade and many I've never met. I see and appreciate every one of you. A lot of people have said they can't imagine and they're right. There's absolutely nothing that can prepare you. The shock and pain is excruciating and relentless. I'm constantly reminded of them and with the little sleep I get, I dream about them on repeat. Any parent knows it's impossible to understand how much you will love your kids until you have them. The same goes for all of you. I've seen all of your messages and comments. Cora, Dawson, and Callan were the essence of my life and I'm completely lost without them. My family was the best thing that ever happened to me. I took so much pride in being Lindsay's husband and a dad to Cora, Dawson, and Callan. I always reminded myself that each day with them was a new gift. Callan usually woke up first and would rest his head on my shoulder for a few minutes as he adjusted to morning. Dawson typically sang or spoke his thoughts out loud for a while before we'd go get him. Cora was a big girl and she was a big girl. She was a big girl and she was a simply walk downstairs. I can still vividly picture her coming into the living room each morning with her hair in a mess, smile on her face. We always started our days together, reading books, cuddling up on the couch, and playing with magnet tiles. I loved taking them places, whether it was scooting at Chandler Elementary, vacation, skiing, out on the boat, or to Duxbury Beach, one of our favorite places on earth. They gave me purpose and I never took it for granted. There is now a massive void where that purpose won't go. Cora had an infectious laugh and was stunningly beautiful. She was the cautious one, but it was really because she was so caring. She used to say she wanted to be a doctor and a mama when she grew up, and she would practice by giving Callan checkups. If she was leaving the house to go somewhere, she would pick someone to take care of Caroline and Charlotte, her baby dolls. She had all the doll accessories available, so her sitters were well equipped. Before she turned two, she was already wrapping them in perfect swaddles. We would tell her she's such a good little mama. She loved all babies, both real and pretend. She loved sloths, unicorns, tea parties, going to lunch with Nana and Grandpa, and giving presents to people. She knew everything about princesses, her favorite being Sophia the First. She truly loved her brothers and us, and said it often in her sweet voice. We did a lot of father-daughter activities together, like skiing and visiting San Francisco, or just talking. I loved her, my firstborn, so much. Dawson had beautiful, brown eyes that beamed with friendship. Everyone said he had a raspy voice. He was naturally humorous and generous beyond the norm of a typical toddler, always willing to share his toys with others. For all the love he received, he always gave back more. His best quality was his pure kindness. He loved trucks, tractors, dinosaurs, paw patrol, worker guys, and being outside. He was adventurous and mischievous, and enjoyed causing trouble, which he typically found hilarious. He was also remarkably smart. We always said if we were to have a baby, we would have to have a baby. If we didn't save enough for retirement, it'll be okay. We'll just live in Dawson's guest house. He would hug me tighter than most adults, and every night he told me inconsistent words at bedtime, without fail, goodnight dada, I love you. We had a special bond from day one. He was my buddy, my first boy, and truly a gift. Callan was our easygoing child. I always said it was because he was the third child, he had to adapt, and he did easily. He was born with hardly any fuss, and was by far our best sleeper. He was just an incredibly happy and vibrant baby, constantly smiling. Our nickname for him was Happy Callan. He was sitting on his own, and you could tell he was enjoying his growing independence, as he would grab any object within reach. Sometimes he joined my Microsoft calls in the background, playing in his jumpy. I would keep my camera on, too proud to leave it off. He started saying dada whenever I walked in the room. The last moment we had together was our routine. I would come up from my office at the end of the day, and say, and swing him between my legs while he laughed and smiled. If I was ever having a bad day, Callan always knew how to heal me. Perhaps that's why he held on a little longer, to spare me whatever pain he could. As excruciating as it was, I was fortunate and grateful to feel his warmth until his very last moment. Faith is my only hope of believing he felt mine. Callan died with enormous courage despite being so little. Maybe it was his way of demonstrating what I need to do to press forward. I'll always try to draw inspiration from him. He'll always be my little hero. I want to share some thoughts about Lindsay. She's recently been portrayed largely by people who have never met her and never knew who the real Lindsay was. Our marriage was wonderful and diametrically grew stronger as her condition rapidly worsened. I took as much pride in being her husband as I did being a father, and felt persistently lucky to have her in my life. I still remember the very moment I first laid eyes on her, and can recall how overcome I was with the kind of love at first sight you only see in movies. I remember the moment I first laid eyes on her, and can recall how overcome I was with the kind of love at first sight you only see in movies. It really didn't take long before I was certain I wanted to marry her. We said I love you to each other multiple times daily, as if it were a reflex. We habitually started every morning with a passionate hug, yielding a sigh of relief like we had received the perfect medicine. If too much time passed without a hug, she'd look at me and ask, did you forget? We mutually understood the reality that people can have bad days, but we stuck to the rule that when one of us got lost, the other was always there to help bring them home. We loved being a nurse, but nothing matched her intense love for our kids and dedication to being a mother. It was all she ever wanted. Her passion taught me how to be a better father. I want to ask all of you that you find it deep within yourselves to forgive Lindsay, as I have. The real Lindsay was generously loving and caring towards everyone. Me, our kids, family, friends, and her patients. The very fibers of her soul are loving. All I wish for her now is that she can somehow find peace. I promise I'll put all my energy into her. I'll do my best to carry on in your honor. Dad out loves you so much. I will always remember you. With love and endless gratitude. A happy, devoted couple. Everyone was heartbroken for Patrick, a man that lost his entire family in one night. Soon enough, the donations started pouring in. Eventually, the GoFundMe reached over a million dollars. As for the Clancy home, the street was completely filled with news crews covering the story. In the days after the murders, crime scene investigators walked through, taking pictures and gathering evidence. From what they knew, Lindsay Clancy, the woman found in the backyard, was the one who killed her. She was the one who killed her. She had strangled her three children in the basement, using exercise bands. And then, she tried to kill herself. But as they looked around, this didn't look like the home of someone who would murder her children. There were kids' art projects covering the walls all over the house. There were pictures and more art projects taped on the fridge. There was this huge banner that stretched across the room, with pictures of Callan from every month of his life, documenting just how big he had gotten. The Clancies had a playroom filled with toys for the children, and they were all children. On the wall nearby, there was a big sign that read, "It's a Wonderful Life." Then, in the backyard, there was a sign that read, "It's a Wonderful Life." snowman that Lindsay and the children had built just hours before the murders. But amongst all of the innocents, the evidence of this crime was also sprinkled throughout the home. In the basement, investigators photographed the three exercise bands used to kill the children. They swabbed them for DNA and then put them in an evidence bag. Investigators moved from room to room collecting journals, medication bottles, laptops, cell phones, parenting books, and books about postpartum depression and anxiety. Upstairs in the primary bedroom, they photographed all the blood, the bed that had been pulled away from the window, the blood on the window, the baby monitor, and Google Nest camera. They photographed the nightstand, where they found a spray bottle that read, deep sleep pillow spray. Also on the nightstand was a large butcher knife that sat covered in blood. And then next to the knife, there was a coffee mug that read, quote, because kids. Now Patrick would tell investigators that inside of this cup was some lemonade and a white substance. So detectives theorized that before slitting her wrists and neck and jumping out the window, Lindsay had ingested some crushed up pills, trying to end her life by overdosing, which seems like a very important part of this story, something the police should have looked into. But surprisingly, they didn't. Investigators never tested the cup or the crushed pills inside of it. Why? We don't know. In the days after the murders, Lindsay Clancy remained in a coma. But on January 26th, she finally started to wake up. She was not allowed to have visitors, but there were several professionals there who wanted to speak with her. However, Lindsay couldn't speak. One of the injuries she sustained was a crushed thyroid, which makes talking very difficult. She was also still intubated and loopy from the drugs she had been given, but she was able to write. One of the first people to speak with her was forensic psychiatrist Dr. G. William Biswas. She gave her a pen and paper and then asked her, "How are you feeling?" Lindsay scribbled on the paper, "Horrified." Next, Dr. Biswas asked, "Do you have any questions?" "Do I have an attorney?" Lindsay asked a number of other questions too. "Is my body broken? Are my legs straight? Can I have visitors? Where is my family?" Dr. Biswas only spoke with Lindsay this one time, with Lindsay communicating with pen and paper. But according to her, Lindsay showed no signs of psychosis. She also noted that Lindsay showed mental competence when she understood the severity of the injuries and agreed to have surgery on her spine. Lindsay's surgery was conducted the next day on January 27th. She had suffered a massive hemorrhage. There was extensive blood loss around the muscles that held up her spine due to the injury, and she had to receive a blood transfusion. But after surgery, once Lindsay was stabilized, they put her under suicide watch and constant surveillance by both medical staff and the two police officers. Lindsay was not out of the woods just yet. In fact, she was still in critical condition at the ICU. She was intubated with breathing tubes, connected to different IVs, and she even had restraints around her wrists, despite her wrist injuries. Lindsay was also permanently paralyzed from the sternum down, caused by the fall from the second-story window. She had what's called a "Jefferson fracture" of the C1 vertebra, which is the bone right at the top of your spine. This injury caused permanent neurogenic bowel and bladder dysfunction. The day after Lindsay's surgery, on January 28th, one of her nurses, Rachelle Amadei, communicated with her using a whiteboard. On it, Lindsay wrote that she was confused and couldn't feel her legs. Two days later, on January 30th, Lindsay was a bit more alert, but Nurse Amadei noted that her demeanor was "flat" and she had "no emotion." Lindsay also had difficulty sleeping, so they gave her some medication for that. On January 29th, Lindsay also spoke with her doctors about her health care proxy, which is essentially the person who can make medical decisions for you, if you are unable to make those decisions for yourself. For Lindsay, that person was her husband, Patrick. But just five days after the murders, Lindsay requested that her proxy be changed to her parents. Why? We don't know. The only thing Lindsay has ever said about it is that her parents were always supportive of her. But that same day, on January 29th, psychiatrist Dr. Sejal Shah conducted a mental health examination on Lindsay. She wanted to determine if Lindsay was competent enough to make a decision about changing her proxy. In fact, the previous night after Lindsay had surgery, she told a nurse that she was experiencing hallucinations and delirium. So, concerned, Dr. Shah wanted to speak to her. When she asked Lindsay if she was having any current delusions or hallucinations, Lindsay said she was not. There was also no suicidal, homicidal, or paranoid ideation. But Lindsay admitted that she was confused. Dr. Shah listed her mood as okay, and her thought process as organized. Dr. Shah determined that Lindsay's delirium and hallucinations might have been brought on by the anesthesia or lack of oxygen after surgery. Ultimately, she listed Lindsay's judgment as fair, and her behavior was not noted as calm and cooperative. But the following day, on January 30th, Dr. Shah spoke with Lindsay a second time. And this time, Lindsay reported that she was no longer confused. Once again, Dr. Shah noted her mood as okay, and her thinking as organized. There were no signs of suicidal or homicidal ideation. Now, another person that was able to see Lindsay during this time was Chaplain Sheila Cavanaugh. She first saw Lindsay on January 25th, the day after the murders. Lindsay still hadn't woken up yet, but she wanted to pray for her. Then, days later, on January 31st, Chaplain Sheila Cavanaugh was able to see Lindsay again. And this time, she was awake. Here is Sheila Cavanaugh describing this interaction with Lindsay. And now for a brief ad break. Anyways, y'all, let's get back to the show. She continued to look like the photograph you just saw. She was covered, tubes everywhere, the neck brace. Her emotional state was very neutral, a flat affect, but I remember vividly the first thing she said to me. Now, she had heard me for a couple of days. We had been praying together. And so when I went in on Tuesday the 31st, she said to me as I held her hand to comfort her, I am so glad my children are safe. I replied theologically to Lindsay and I said, Lindsay, your children are safe. They're safe in heaven with God. And I held her hand throughout that conversation. And we prayed for them. According to Sheila, that very same day, Lindsay told her that she had heard a man's voice telling her to kill the children and then kill herself. And the voice was persistent. Lindsay said that if she, quote, didn't follow the command, neither she nor her children would be safe, end quote. Sheila Cavanaugh said that she visited Lindsay 14 times during her stay at Brigham and Women's. And each time they met, Lindsay always brought up the voice she heard that day. Now, on February 1st, Dr. Shaw spoke with Lindsay for a third time. She noted that Lindsay felt down about her paralysis and, quote, the events leading up to her hospitalization, end quote. But she also noted that Lindsay was, quote, future oriented and there were no signs of hallucinations or delusions. But for anyone else who wanted to speak with Lindsay, they'd have a court order to get into the room. One of these people was clinical and forensic psychologist Dr. Paul Zeisel. Now, Dr. Zeisel earned his master's degree from Harvard and his doctorate from William James College. He had over 37 years of experience and testified in over 1,000 forensic cases. In Lindsay Clancy's case, Dr. Zeisel had to get a court order to speak with her. And on the day in question, he also had to check in with the police officers outside her hospital room door. But on February 4th, 2023, 11 days after the incident, Dr. Zeisel was able to evaluate and speak with Lindsay. When he walked into the hospital room, he was shocked to see that Lindsay was handcuffed to the bed. Now, police officers and medical staff would later say that they were soft restraints, but Dr. Zeisel said otherwise. They weren't soft. They were regular, what appeared to be metal handcuffs that police officers and perhaps officers in this court use for detaining people and arresting people. They were not soft. Lindsay was on pain medication when she first met with Dr. Zeisel. She said, During a mini mental health status examination, she told him that she didn't know where she was or what time it was. When it came to what happened, she said she remembered, but the details were fuzzy. Now, Lindsay was also given the HARE psychopathy checklist, which indicated she did not suffer from antisocial personality disorder, but she was severely depressed. Now, Dr. Zeisel noted that Lindsay suffered from anxiety, racing thoughts, hypomania, and auditory hallucinations. In his professional opinion, after their examination, he found that all of the different psychiatric drugs Lindsay had been taking triggered a, quote, manic psychosis that included strong command hallucinations, telling her what to do. Lindsay would speak to a number of professionals while in the hospital who seemed to have different medical opinions on her state of mind, but she had a very long road ahead of her, and the investigation into her children's murder was still underway. But in the meantime, a memorial started to grow outside the Clancy home. On the mulch along the driveway, neighbors and Duxbury residents left flowers, stuffed animals, and balloons for Cora, Dawson, and Callan. A small memorial for their lives, and a quiet token of love and remembrance. But the house on 47 Summer Street was no longer home. After the murders, Patrick Clancy never came back, unless he was stopping by to grab clothing or delivery. One day, he even found a rotting apple pie on the doorstep. He would later say that Duxbury was swarming with media and reporters, and he didn't want the constant reminder of everything he had lost. So instead, he stayed with his parents for a while on Scituate Harbor. On February 3rd, 2023, the funerals for Cora, Dawson, and Callan were held at St. Mary of the Nativity in Scituate. It was the church Patrick's parents attended. He chose to hold the service there because, if he didn't, he wouldn't be able to live. He didn't want to die. It was away from all the reporters that were still lingering in Duxbury. But during the service, Reverend Bob Dehan read Patrick's eulogy, as it was too difficult for him to read it aloud himself. Family members noted that Patrick appeared catatonic. It was clear he was still recovering from the loss. Three days after the funeral, on February 6th, Patrick and his attorney stopped by the district attorney's office to give them some additional evidence. Patrick had a bag filled with nine of Lindsay's presents. Now, when asked why he had them, Patrick said that before the murders, Lindsay's medications were constantly being adjusted. And for the pills she was no longer taking, Patrick said he had been instructed to take them to the police station to properly dispose of them, since you're not supposed to just throw them in the trash. But Patrick never did that. Instead, Lindsay's pills sat in a big baggie that he kept in the center console of his truck. Now, at this point, Lindsay was still in the hospital. And although Patrick forgave her, he didn't reach out to her. However, on February 4th, he received a phone call from a number he didn't recognize. At the time, he said that he was at the shore to clear his mind, so he let the call go to voicemail. When he later listened, he heard Lindsay's voice. As it turns out, she had used Dr. Paul Zizel's cell phone to call Patrick. She apparently wanted to tell him that she loved him. Lindsay told Dr. Zizel that she hadn't heard from Patrick. She wanted to know how he was doing, and she was concerned about where things stood with them. Dr. Zizel later testified that, quote, out of human compassion, he allowed her to call her husband. But Patrick didn't answer. So two days later, Dr. Zizel let Lindsay use his phone again. And this time when she called Patrick, he did answer. Patrick would later say that during this phone call with Lindsay, she confessed to murdering his children. After hearing that voice, Patrick hung up the call after only one minute. He said the woman on the other end of the line didn't sound like his wife. Patrick stated he felt lost, and that he had, quote, nothing left. But during this phone call, Dr. Zizel was in the room. The call was actually on speaker, so he heard everything. But she had said that she heard a male voice ordering her, telling her that she didn't have any choice, but she had to kill her children and then kill herself. Two days after this, Dr. Zizel spoke to the media about Lindsay. 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When you have delusional thinking, fixed beliefs that are unchangeable, and hallucinations telling you to do things, telling you to do things that are malevolent, and you believe those voices that are telling you you need to do what they say, that's when things go downhill behaviorally, psychiatrically, and unfamiliarly. And that's what we see in the most tragic of cases where individuals who could be healthy and normal, and quite frankly they're paranoid, worried about what others think, they hold back on what they care, and in some cases throughout the country and the rest of the world. And that's when tragedy occurs. And I think that sort of is under the overall rubric that this case falls under. Lindsay remained at Brigham and Women's Hospital for several weeks, but she was eventually transferred out of the trauma surgical ICU. Staff noted that she appeared calm and cooperative. She ultimately received three stitches to her right wrist and one stitch to her left wrist. Lindsay was then transferred to the trauma surgical ICU. Lindsay The wound on her neck was superficial, so it required no stitches, but Lindsay Clancy would never walk again. After two weeks of recovery at the hospital, Lindsay's family was finally allowed to see her. Her sister Allison testified that they visited her as often as they could. Lindsay's parents refused to speak to the media. However, while all of this was unfolding, they started living out of a hotel near the hospital. Now it's around this time when the toxicology reports came back. They showed that nothing was found in Cora, Dawson, or Callan systems. It was determined, however, that Lindsay had several medications in her system. They found a sub-therapeutic level of the benzodiazepines Ativan and Valium, which are central nervous system depressants. Lindsay was known to take these over the past few months. Ativan was actually the only medication that brought her any relief. But also in her system was an elevated level of Seroquil, the antipsychotic medication. Now, Lindsay had already weaned off this medication weeks earlier. Out of all of the medications she was prescribed, Seroquil was the hardest on her. In fact, shortly after taking it is when she said she started having suicidal ideations and thoughts of harming her children. So she got off of it. But according to her toxicology report, an elevated level of Seroquil was in her system. However, it was not a toxic level nor a lethal dose. Now another drug found in Lindsay's system was Lamictal, another mood stabilizer. She had actually never taken this drug before, but there was a therapeutic level of it in her system. There was also evidence of the antidepressant Rimiron and Trazodone for sleep, but they too were at normal therapeutic levels. Her toxicology report showed there was no alcohol, opiates, or other illegal drugs in her system, even though there were not lethal amounts of these drugs. Investigators theorized that this was actually her initial suicide attempt before she decided to slit her throat. So she was able to take the Seroquil and Lamictal, but she was also and throat and jump out the window. However, they never tested that cup by her nightstand, the one where Patrick said there was a white substance inside. And because they never tested it, it's hard to say. Something else I want to note is that they also never found where Lindsay would have crushed these pills. Usually there would be pill residue on a counter or even residue on the thing she used to crush the pills, but that wasn't part of the evidence police gathered. And to this day, the crushed pills are, a big question mark in the investigation. On February 7th, 2023, Lindsay Clancy was formally arraigned, appearing by a Zoom video call from her hospital bed at Brigham and Women's. She was ultimately charged with three counts of murder. Additionally, she was charged with three counts of strangulation and suffocation and three counts of assault and battery with a dangerous weapon, the exercise bands. A not guilty plea was entered on her behalf. Now Lindsay's parents, Paula and Michael Musgrove, knew for a long time that Lindsay was a drug addict. She was a drug addict. She was also a drug addict. At the time, she had been a drug addict for more than a decade. She was also a drug addict for a long time. She was a drug addict for a long time. Just how much their daughter had been struggling before the murders. Lindsay often confided in her mom about what she was going through. Paula saw Lindsay's desperate attempts to get better, and her parents wanted to fight for her. Part of that fight was finding a good attorney that could represent Lindsay. Ultimately, Lindsay's parents depleted their life savings and their retirement to hire a renowned defense attorney named Kevin Reddington. Reddington looked at Lindsay's case, and he didn't see a cold-blooded killer. He saw a woman in crisis. A woman who had been seeing a number of doctors concerning her mental health. Someone who tried out medication after medication with no relief. He saw the ER visits, the partial hospitalization program, the calls to suicide hotlines, the McLean Psychiatric Hospital stay. All the signs that pointed to a woman who was desperate for help. Help that never came. Reddington believed that in addition to being severely overmedicated, Lindsay killed her children during a possible episode of postpartum psychosis. But not everyone saw it that way. Assistant District Attorney Jennifer Sprague argued that the killings were planned and deliberate. That insanity was not a factor when Lindsay killed her children because she acted with clear intent, knew right from wrong, and understood exactly what she was doing. She used Apple Maps on her phone to determine how long it would take someone to drive from her home in Duxbury to 3B. She had her phone in a 3B restaurant in Plymouth. So she would know how long someone would be gone if they were in that errand. She next went on the CVS website at 4:47 p.m. and then called CVS on Summer Street in Kingston. She spoke to the manager of CVS and asked if they had the kids' Miralax. The manager told her no, but they had other similar medications. According to the manager of CVS, her voice did not sound slurred or impaired in any way. She had no trouble understanding the defendant and it was a perfectly normal conversation. The defendant did not take advantage of the situation when her husband left the home that night. She created the situation. She used Apple Maps to make sure she would have enough time to strangle each child before her husband returned from where she had sent him. The defendant is a danger to herself and others. She planned these murders, gave herself the time and privacy needed to commit the murders, and then she strangled each child in the place where they should have felt the stress. The victim's mother was the one who was the most vulnerable. She was the one who was the safest at home with their mom. She did so with deliberate premeditation and extreme atrocity and cruelty. This was not a woman in the throes of psychosis on January 24, 2023. This was a woman who acted intentionally, rationally, and swiftly to accomplish a very specific goal. Assistant District Attorney Jennifer Sprague asked that Lindsay be held without bail and transferred into traditional custody. But Lindsay's attorney, Kevin Reddington, pushed back. I question whether she would ever make it to a trial. She's suicidal. She's extremely emotional. However, she's unable and has been unable to express any happiness or sadness or cry. And in fact, sometime about a month or two ago, she made the comment, "I just wish that I could fight." And she said, "Well, I don't know, I don't know. I just don't feel something." Now, our society fails miserably in treating women with postpartum depression or even postpartum psychosis. It's Medicaid, Medicaid, Medicaid. Throw the pills at you and then see how it works. If it doesn't work, increase the dose or decrease the dose. Then end up trying another combination of medications. We're talking a relatively short period of time from when that baby was born in October. Up until January, when this incident occurred, that she was on such significant dosage of medication. Her mood was terrible after she got out of McLean Hospital. She still had the suicidal thoughts. As the government has indicated, she even told her husband that she had suicidal thoughts. You think this is something that she's planning to kill these three kids by going and getting a menu? Going onto Google Maps or whatever it is and finding out the distance? When she tells her husband she's having suicidal thoughts? Probably. A month prior, thoughts of hurting the children. They go to the doctor again and she's on the medications. On and off, on and off. This is a significant issue between the postpartum depression as well as possibility of postpartum psychosis that is pretty much ignored. And while Assistant District Attorney Jennifer Sprague asked that Lindsay be transferred to jail, Attorney Kevin Reddington argued that she remained hospitalized until she could be transferred to a rehab. Given her catastrophic injuries, including paraplegia from the spinal cord damage, he argued that she needed medical and mental health care, and that it would be inhumane to transfer her to jail. Ultimately, Judge John Canavan agreed with Lindsay's attorney and allowed her to remain in the hospital as she awaited trial. Towards the end of March 2023, Lindsay was transferred to Spalding Rehabilitation Hospital after suffering a severe spinal cord injury that left her paralyzed. She received specialized treatment aimed at helping her adapt to life with paralysis. While there, she tried to regain as much independence as possible with her upper body. But soon after she arrived, one of her good childhood friends, Amy Bevins, came to visit her. The two had been friends for nearly 29 years. Here is Amy describing that visit. We made small talk. We played Uno. It was. Pretty basic visit. I remember her asking about my daughter. I remember her asking about any updates to life events for our friends. We talked about some hobbies that she was doing while at Spalding, and then played a game. Before the visit, Lindsay's older sister, Alison, had specifically instructed Amy not to bring anything up. The children or the incident. So they never spoke about it. Lindsay didn't talk about why she was in a wheelchair. That was a bit of an awkward, uncomfortable topic, wasn't it? I think it would be for anybody, yes. Absolutely. And the district attorney asked you whether or not she cried and whether or not she told you about her children and anything to do with her children or that incident. You both basically stayed away from that entire subject, right? I remember also being told not to. I was also told not to bring that up specifically, which at the time, I figured that that could be. due to the recommendation of mental health providers etc who were treating her right and who told you that her sister on may 1st 2023 lindsay was transferred to tewkesbury state hospital and while there a priest began visiting her regularly although lindsay and patrick had never been particularly religious it seemed to offer her some comfort the priest was actually the same priest who had baptized callan in ducksbury but at least once a week he would drive to the hospital just to pray with her he gave her some rosary beads but the staff took them away saying they were a suicide risk so the next time he saw her he brought her a rosary that was shorter something she couldn't slip around her neck dr karen towers a forensic psychologist told the boston globe that lindsay was unbearably depressed and had been suffering from intrusive thoughts and flashbacks august 11th 2023 was lindsay clancy's 33rd birthday but this year there would be no celebration lindsay spent her birthday at the state hospital where staff watched her around the clock there were no gifts no cake no happy feelings at all according to the new yorker lindsay struggled every day with thoughts of suicide even on her birthday so that day lindsay's father mike musgrove reached out to patrick and asked if he would call her mike said that lindsay was quote in rough shape and going downhill end quote ultimately patrick took the advice of his father-in-law and called her he hadn't spoken to her much since the murders only a one-minute conversation back in february when he called on august 11th lindsay was with a therapist but what she told patrick on the phone broke his heart lindsay said that every single day felt like the worst day of her life she said she missed cora dawson and callan terribly and shortly after that their phone call came to an end at this point patrick clancy's life looked much different after the loss of his family according to the new yorker and the weeks after the funerals patrick actually traveled to central america and europe for a while he said he stayed in hostels because going to hotels and seeing families was too hard on him now it's unclear exactly what he was doing during his travels but it's believed he spent some time hiking the manikin waterfalls nature reserve in costa rica but after coming back to america patrick returned to ducksbury where he gathered cora dawson and callan stuffed animals and their unspent arcade tokens giving them away to friends then about four months after the murders patrick left his parents house and moved to manhattan new york for a fresh start patrick told the new yorker that his new apartment was right next door to a busy preschool he said he couldn't stop himself from watching the parents on rushed morning drop-offs knowing that that was once his life now in the months after the murders everyone was still feeling the pain of what was lost patrick's mom sue would later speak to the new yorker about lindsay she said quote i don't hate her i don't call her names i have empathy but lindsay hurt a lot of people she hurt her parents she hurt us and all our kids our cousins our community lindsay has to pay for what she did fortunately it's not up to any of us to define what that payment is end quote on september 15th 2023 the new yorker decided to leave the home for the rest of his family he said he didn't want to be a part of his family but he wanted to be a part of his family he said he didn't want to be a part of his family he said he didn't want to be a part of his family on september 15 2023 lindsay clancy was formally indicted by a plymouth county grand jury on three counts of murder and strangulation in the deaths of her children moving her case to the massachusetts superior court by this point she had already been evaluated by several experts who believed lindsay was in a psychotic episode when she murdered her children the prosecution would later hire their own experts who disagreed and we'll get into all those findings in the next episode but as 2023 turned to 2024 the heaviness of the crime could still be felt in the city of duxbury to raise money businesses in town started selling tassel bracelets and cashmere crewnecks each marked with three commemorative scallop shells for cora dawson and callan they wanted to keep their memory alive as for the clancy home at 47 summer street it sat empty throughout that first year but in january of 2024 the clancy house finally sold in an off-market deal for six hundred thousand dollars as of january twenty four the house finally sold in an off-market deal for six hundred and seventy five thousand dollars interestingly the buyer was a man named interestingly the buyer was a man named interestingly the buyer was a man named michael phippen who was the former michael phippen who was the former michael phippen who was the former assistant district attorney in plymouth assistant district attorney in plymouth assistant district attorney in plymouth county county county but the same month that the house sold it but the same month that the house sold it but the same month that the house sold it was the anniversary of the murders was the anniversary of the murders was the anniversary of the murders january 24 2024 january 24 2024 january 24 2024 and by then patrick had started a new life and by then patrick had started a new life and by then patrick had started a new life in new york city in new york city in new york city but he returned to duxbury to attend the but he returned to duxbury to attend the but he returned to duxbury to attend the memorial service for cora dawson and memorial service for cora dawson and memorial service for cora dawson and callan callan callan here he is speaking at that ceremony here he is speaking at that ceremony here he is speaking at that ceremony it's very fitting that we're here it's very fitting that we're here it's very fitting that we're here together at holy family together at holy family together at holy family which i always consider part of our which i always consider part of our which i always consider part of our neighborhood neighborhood neighborhood i have memories of coming to this church i have memories of coming to this church i have memories of coming to this church over the years over the years over the years sometimes we'd come as a family and then sometimes we'd come as a family and then sometimes we'd come as a family and then on days when lindsay was working on days when lindsay was working on days when lindsay was working there were times where i would build up there were times where i would build up there were times where i would build up enough energy to bring the enough energy to bring the enough energy to bring the kids myself and we'd always sit by this kids myself and we'd always sit by this kids myself and we'd always sit by this the north entrance over here and the north entrance over here and the north entrance over here and i remember one time feeding dawson a i remember one time feeding dawson a i remember one time feeding dawson a bottle as he sat in the car seat bottle as he sat in the car seat bottle as he sat in the car seat and holding cora in my other arm and i and holding cora in my other arm and i and holding cora in my other arm and i think i ran out of energy pretty early think i ran out of energy pretty early think i ran out of energy pretty early that day that day that day the last time we were here was christmas the last time we were here was christmas the last time we were here was christmas 2022 2022 2022 dawson gazed at the cross above the altar dawson gazed at the cross above the altar dawson gazed at the cross above the altar and he asked his usual question and he asked his usual question and he asked his usual question he said is that god he said is that god he said is that god and i said yeah buddy that's him dawson and i said yeah buddy that's him dawson and i said yeah buddy that's him dawson was baptized at this church and callum was baptized at this church and callum was baptized at this church and callum was baptized here was baptized here was baptized here by father bob himself by father bob himself by father bob himself it's been a full year my hope is that it's been a full year my hope is that it's been a full year my hope is that today we can begin a new chapter and today we can begin a new chapter and today we can begin a new chapter and continuing to remember cora dawson and continuing to remember cora dawson and continuing to remember cora dawson and callan but also inspire callan but also inspire callan but also inspire the world to carry on their legacy of the world to carry on their legacy of the world to carry on their legacy of kindness kindness kindness i've said before that i've tried to be i've said before that i've tried to be i've said before that i've tried to be more like them more like them more like them everything i've done this year i've tried everything i've done this year i've tried everything i've done this year i've tried to think of what dawson would want to think of what dawson would want to think of what dawson would want me to do me to do me to do what core what would make cora proud what core what would make cora proud what core what would make cora proud and what make might make callan smile and what make might make callan smile and what make might make callan smile so starting just recently we're so starting just recently we're so starting just recently we're encouraging everyone to take part in a encouraging everyone to take part in a encouraging everyone to take part in a special initiative which i'll explain special initiative which i'll explain special initiative which i'll explain first by sharing a quick story about first by sharing a quick story about first by sharing a quick story about cora back in 2021 it was the height of the back in 2021 it was the height of the back in 2021 it was the height of the pandemic pandemic pandemic and we were spending a lot of time at and we were spending a lot of time at and we were spending a lot of time at home home home and i started to notice our house and i started to notice our house and i started to notice our house seemed to be shrinking seemed to be shrinking seemed to be shrinking and some of it had to do with core's and some of it had to do with core's toys toys toys so just to understand the amount of toys so just to understand the amount of toys so just to understand the amount of toys we're talking about we're talking about we're talking about it's important to know that cora was it's important to know that cora was it's important to know that cora was our first born our first born our first born she was my in-law's first granddaughter she was my in-law's first granddaughter she was my in-law's first granddaughter and her birthday was on christmas eve and her birthday was on christmas eve and her birthday was on christmas eve she had a lot of toys she had a lot of toys she had a lot of toys but some of them weren't even getting but some of them weren't even getting but some of them weren't even getting used so we sat her down we said cora used so we sat her down we said cora used so we sat her down we said cora you have a lot of toys right you have a lot of toys right you have a lot of toys right and in a signature response for cora she and in a signature response for cora she and in a signature response for cora she said i do said i do said i do and i said so you know and i said so you know and i said so you know you're pretty lucky a lot of girls don't you're pretty lucky a lot of girls don't you're pretty lucky a lot of girls don't have many toys and some have many toys and some have many toys and some some girls don't have any toys at all some girls don't have any toys at all some girls don't have any toys at all so i said what do you think about so i said what do you think about so i said what do you think about taking some of the toys that you have in taking some of the toys that you have in taking some of the toys that you have in donating them donating them donating them and she gave it some thought she sure and she gave it some thought she sure and she gave it some thought she sure enough she grabbed a collection of old enough she grabbed a collection of old enough she grabbed a collection of old toys and gladly put them in a box to be toys and gladly put them in a box to be toys and gladly put them in a box to be donated donated donated a small charitable act but nonetheless a small charitable act but nonetheless a small charitable act but nonetheless one of those proud parent moments one of those proud parent moments one of those proud parent moments if cora did something similar today if cora did something similar today if cora did something similar today she would do it with love from duxbury she would do it with love from duxbury she would do it with love from duxbury which is a really beautiful initiative which is a really beautiful initiative which is a really beautiful initiative started recently by some members of the started recently by some members of the started recently by some members of the community community community with love from duxbury is a collective with love from duxbury is a collective with love from duxbury is a collective mission to spread kindness throughout mission to spread kindness throughout mission to spread kindness throughout the community the community the community and beyond and it doesn't have to cost and beyond and it doesn't have to cost and beyond and it doesn't have to cost you anything you anything you can take an elderly neighbor out for a walk you can take an elderly neighbor out for a walk you can take an elderly neighbor out for a walk cook a fresh meal for the new cook a fresh meal for the new cook a fresh meal for the new parents in town parents in town parents in town invite one of the other dads out for a invite one of the other dads out for a invite one of the other dads out for a beer with the guys beer with the guys beer with the guys or simply tell someone how much you care or simply tell someone how much you care or simply tell someone how much you care about them about them about them if you'd like you can talk about it on if you'd like you can talk about it on if you'd like you can talk about it on social media and use the hashtag with social media and use the hashtag with social media and use the hashtag with love from ducksbury love from ducksbury love from ducksbury if you're the praying type you can pray if you're the praying type you can pray if you're the praying type you can pray for each other for each other for each other you could pray for moms who are you could pray for moms who are you could pray for moms who are struggling with postpartum struggling with postpartum struggling with postpartum the kids teachers or ducksbury's first the kids teachers or ducksbury's first the kids teachers or ducksbury's first responders responders responders it's okay to not be okay sometimes there it's okay to not be okay sometimes there it's okay to not be okay sometimes there comes a time for all of us when we can comes a time for all of us when we can comes a time for all of us when we can use some support use some support use some support so far we've seen an enormous outpouring so far we've seen an enormous outpouring so far we've seen an enormous outpouring of kindness of kindness of kindness corey dawson's friends have shared corey dawson's friends have shared corey dawson's friends have shared their artwork to be displayed around town their artwork to be displayed around town their artwork to be displayed around town local businesses have stepped up local businesses have stepped up local businesses have stepped up the media has caught attention of it the media has caught attention of it the media has caught attention of it many people decided they would check in many people decided they would check in many people decided they would check in with their mom friends just to make sure with their mom friends just to make sure with their mom friends just to make sure they're okay they're okay they're okay people in town were invited to spend an people in town were invited to spend an people in town were invited to spend an hour with maui the therapy dog hour with maui the therapy dog hour with maui the therapy dog someone bought groceries for their someone bought groceries for their someone bought groceries for their neighbor neighbor neighbor a local cookie artist and nurse donated a local cookie artist and nurse donated a local cookie artist and nurse donated 90 seashell cookies for kids to decorate 90 seashell cookies for kids to decorate 90 seashell cookies for kids to decorate and just this morning a kind stranger and just this morning a kind stranger and just this morning a kind stranger bought the next 50 people in line bought the next 50 people in line bought the next 50 people in line a coffee at starbucks a coffee at starbucks a coffee at starbucks and they said this is with love from and they said this is with love from duxbury this mission can go far beyond duxbury this mission can go far beyond duxbury this mission can go far beyond duxbury duxbury duxbury it's not for any it's not it's for it's not for any it's not it's for it's not for any it's not it's for anyone from anywhere it doesn't matter anyone from anywhere it doesn't matter anyone from anywhere it doesn't matter where you're from where you're from where you're from as long as you're spreading kindness as long as you're spreading kindness as long as you're spreading kindness you're doing it right you're doing it right you're doing it right and as long as we keep it going i think and as long as we keep it going i think and as long as we keep it going i think we can change the world we can change the world how much i don't know but i can say it how much i don't know but i can say it how much i don't know but i can say it will be for the better will be for the better will be for the better there are so many people who have there are so many people who have there are so many people who have offered care and compassion to me and my offered care and compassion to me and my offered care and compassion to me and my family family family but i've also seen so many people come but i've also seen so many people come but i've also seen so many people come together in a positive way together in a positive way together in a positive way taking part in this mission will be a taking part in this mission will be a taking part in this mission will be a widespread honor to cora widespread honor to cora widespread honor to cora dawson and callan embodying the way dawson and callan embodying the way dawson and callan embodying the way they lived they lived they lived and the things about them that brought and the things about them that brought and the things about them that brought so many people closer to them It also honors this incredible town. I'll close with a quick prayer that Cora used to say before going to bed. She made it up herself, and it's short and sweet. Dear God, thank you for a beautiful day in the neighborhood. It's good to see you all in my old neighborhood. Following the service, as everyone piled out of the church, media crews swarmed the crowd. Reporters tapped on the windows of Lindsay's closest friends and family, hoping to hear what they had to say on the matter. But they were tight-lipped. Now, a few months later, on April 15th, 2024, Patrick Clancy ran the Boston Marathon, in memory of Cora, Dawson, and Callan. He proudly sported their names on his running bib. He also penned one of Cora's bows to his bib, wore her bracelet, and he had on an armband from both Dawson and Callan. Patrick ran the marathon to raise money for Boston Children's Hospital, with the Miles for Miracles team. Ultimately, he raised more than $72,000. It was huge news. The New York Post later published an article, titled, quote, Grieving Dad Finishes Boston Marathon, in honor of three children strangled by mom. But here is a clip of Patrick speaking to reporters on the day of the marathon. All the people cheering, like, 95% of the people who called my name out, I don't even know who they were, and I don't have my name on my bib, so I don't know how they knew me, but it was just really, really moving. I love my kids. They're wonderful people. They had a lot of friends. Everybody loved them. And they had short lives, but they had really good lives. When this clip was released, everyone noticed that Patrick wasn't wearing his wedding band. There were whispers that he was divorcing Lindsay, but he never commented on the matter. However, his mother, Sue, would later tell The New Yorker, quote, He has come to terms with the fact that she is no longer a part of anything. She's going to go to the hospital. She's going to go her way, and he's going to go his, end quote. Now, at the time of the murders, Patrick was working for Microsoft. But after the tragedy, they gave him an 18-month leave. During that time, Patrick solo traveled. He moved to New York City. He joined a sailing club, and he even volunteered as a guide for visually impaired runners. It appeared as if he was trying to find meaning in his life after losing his family. But he did voice concern about how people would react to this. Patrick told The New Yorker, I have this worry that people will see me socializing and be like, shouldn't he be sad because his whole family was just killed? I'm still hurting, but I can smile and even laugh sometimes. And it's true for Lindsay, too, because humans are resilient. She's worried people just won't understand if she's a somewhat normal person. Patrick and his sisters also co-founded the Herd Foundation, in memory of Cora, Dawson, and Callan. The foundation aimed to help parents, as well as other people with mental health issues, to improve their lives and the lives of their children. The Foundation, along with the Herd Foundation, has been working with the Herd Foundation to find ways to improve the lives of people with mental health issues. The Foundation, along with the Herd Foundation, has been working with the Herd Foundation to help people with mental health issues. The Foundation has been working with the Herd Foundation to help people with mental health issues. of 41. months. For her evaluation alone, he spoke with her for 37 hours. Now, Dr. Ziesel said that his goal with Lindsay was to transfer her to a recovery center and get her off all medications. That same month, he noted she was, quote, stable, but still relying on medications for her mental health. But ultimately, her transfer to the recovery center was denied due to her having pending criminal charges. So instead, Lindsay stayed at Tewksbury State Hospital, living every day in what she described was the worst day of her life. Dr. Ziesel said, quote, she has bad days and worse days, end quote. Over the years, Lindsay had to learn to live in a wheelchair. She interacted with staff and other patients at the hospital. Staff noted she was, quote, pleasant upon approach and social with select peers, end quote. It was mentioned that she was well-liked by near-analysts. Before trial, Lindsay passed the time by playing dominoes. She spent some time in the TV room, and her family visited her almost every day for three years. Her parents actually relocated to Massachusetts and were living out of hotel rooms just to be close to her. It was later revealed that they had not missed a single lunch or dinner date with her. It was also reported that Lindsay took her medications every day without issue. She attended therapy sessions. But even so, it's been very difficult for her to make it through the days, knowing that her children are no longer here. Here is what Dr. Ziesel said about that. She really loves them and misses them and thinks of them every single day, almost every moment of the day. Before trial, Lindsay remained on a constant one-to-one monitoring to ensure she didn't take her own life. Chaplain Sheila Cavanaugh also continued to speak with Lindsay, estimating she had met with her over 200 times. Here's what Sheila had to say about their interactions. When Lindsay was admitted to Tewksbury State Hospital, I continued to see her on a weekly basis. We had built up a very comfortable, respectful rapport, and I felt it was in her best interest to continue that as she healed. She was still in deep grief. As Lindsay Clancy's trial approached, the media was reporting on the mother, a labor and delivery nurse, who murdered her three young children. But many of the people who knew her before the murders said that Lindsay loved her children more than anything in this world. And there were actually a lot of people who rallied behind Lindsay. To them, this was a woman who desperately needed help. Someone who tried to get that help, but couldn't. Lindsay was helped time and time again. Many of the nurses that Lindsay used to work with even posted to their social medias, sharing a hotline for struggling mothers. Many changed their Facebook profile pictures to an illustration of hearts with the letters L-A-O-L, which stood for Lindsay's Army of Love. And lastly, attorney Kevin Reddington filed dozens and dozens of character letters in court. They were from women who knew Lindsay, women vowing to stand by her, quote, darkest hour, as we wish any other mother would do for us, end quote. The letters emphasized that Lindsay was a devoted wife, mother, and nurse. Some stated that what happened was completely out of character and must have been the result of a severe mental illness, specifically mentioning postpartum psychosis. But here are a few of those letters. To whom it may concern, we are writing this letter to speak to what a wonderful person Lindsay Clancy is. We have known Lindsay for many years. We know that she is a great person, and we know that she is a great person. We know that she is a kind, gentle, and loving person, as well as a valuable colleague. Lindsay always went above and beyond when caring for new families in both her care and commitment. To whom it may concern, Lindsay Clancy has been a colleague and friend for many years. She is a compassionate, supportive, and excellent nurse. There wasn't anything she loved more than her children, Cora Dawson Callen, and her husband Patrick. I am proud to stand beside her. To whom it may concern, my friendship with Lindsay began when we met in sixth grade. We connected quickly in those early days as we started middle school together. Since then, over 20 years later, I can honestly say Lindsay is the type of friend that I am not just lucky to have found as a child. She has consistently been the kind of person anyone would be fortunate to meet in a lifetime. To whom it may concern, I would like to share the person I know Lindsay to be. I can remember a time prior to Lindsay and Pat getting married that Lindsay would say she wanted to have a baseball team of children. She would attend baby showers or weddings, and always ask to hold any of the babies in attendance. Her work family knew that she was pregnant almost as soon as she did. She wasted no time to share her excitement to expand her family. Many nights Lindsay would be sitting at the desk charting on her patients and rubbing her growing belly with any of her pregnancies. She asked her nursing co-workers for advice on the best baby items or favorite toy ideas for birthdays or holidays. Lindsay is soft-spoken, gentle, kind, compassionate, and always with a listening ear. At work, Lindsay talked lovingly of her children. I cannot believe this tragedy has fallen on Lindsay and her beautiful family. I am an RN at MGH in the OB department. This is a lovely woman. There is no doubt in my mind that Lindsay suffered postpartum psychosis. Dear Judge, please have compassion and allow her to recover in an environment other than a jail cell. I believe this will change the way we treat women who suffer from postpartum depression. Even in the most horrific moment of her life, Lindsay is still helping people. Dear Mr. Reddington, I am hopeful you will accept this letter of character reference for dear sweet Lindsay Clancy. Despite the tragic events that occurred on January 24th, I can attest to Lindsay's true character and know that whatever happened that day was not the real Lindsay whom we all love and cherish. Lindsay's unending thoughtfulness and love spilled over into all aspects of her life. This letter was written by a friend of Lindsay's, a friend of hers, a friend of her friends, her career. Everyone knew it. Another friend of Lindsay's posted on social media about a note Lindsay had written her after she had a baby. The friend's post read, "It was a gut punch to find this letter in my drawer the other day, to see this beautiful handwriting that I remember so well from our high school days. The past days have been heart-wrenching to say the least, but the warmth that I felt while reading this just has to be shared with someone else. Her message is too important. I don't have the words to adequately describe the kind of mother she was to her three babies or the kind of friend she has been for the past 20 years. So, the easiest thing to do is share hers. Lindsay wrote me this letter when I was expecting my son and about to become a new mom. Her words are so beautiful and embody the true spirit of motherhood. I always went to her for advice during the pregnancy uncertainties, the postpartum isolation, and the scary parenting firsts. She knew it all. She knew the roller coaster all too well. She is pure light and was still all-encompassing. She is pure light and was still all consumed by an inexplicable darkness. I know the true Lindsay. Amidst the terrible things that have been and will be said about her, I want everyone to know the true Lindsay. We need to do better than a pamphlet in the hospital. But under the caption, she attached a photo of Lindsay's letter. It read, "The biggest congratulations on your sweet baby boy. Get ready for the wildest ride of your life, motherhood. It's the most profoundly challenging yet deeply fulfilling experience you will experience. You're about to embark on a journey with the highest highs and the lowest lows. The joy, the pain, and everything in between. Everyone will have advice for you and an opinion. Take what you like, ignore what you don't, and do what works for you and your family. There really aren't any rights or wrongs when it comes to parenting. It's an art, not a science. There is no exact recipe for how to do it, and they don't come with a set of instructions. Your baby is a unique, individual, so what works for others may not work for you. At the end of the day, trust your instincts and love your baby. Know that everything is a phase. When things get tough, know that that phase will pass, and before you know it, you'll be on to a new phase. Enjoy the fun, precious, joyous moments, because there are so many of those too. You will naturally take beautiful care of your baby, but always remember to also take care of yourself and your relationship with Cole as well. Motherhood can be all-consuming if you let it be. Let yourself delve deep into it, but also take time to come up for air, and remember who you were before you became a mother. Now, that is where we're going to end part two. But in part three of this story, we're going to walk you through Lindsay Clancy's trial, and everything that has come out in this incredibly controversial case. Hey everybody, it's Colin, here. Thank you so much for listening to this week's episode of Murder in America. I know for our Patreon members, part three is going to be available very soon. We are hard at work on it behind the scenes, but as you know, this is an unfolding ordeal, so we are learning new information every day, and we're trying to keep these scripts as up-to-date as possible. 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