Hi friends you're here listening to not the NDE podcast I know and you probably weren't expecting me to jump in here but I just wanted to let you know that this podcast is a YouTube channel in fact the YouTube videos come out first in the podcast episodes come out delayed a little bit so if you're wanting to stay most up to date with all the new near death experiences I recommend going to the not the NDE YouTube channel.
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In reality that is but like an aperture of a camera and an aperture of a camera controls the amount of light that's let in and how much of what is in front of the lens can be seen so I was shown that there really aren't divisions between dimensions it's just like when our awareness is broader and we see more more light is what guides the way.
Many have died and returned to tell of their near death experiences their incredible stories revealed to the living that this is not the end.
I've sat here in thought where do I start and I guess the place to start is in the beginning as a soul I came into this world having made the choices of family I would be born into the place I would be born into many many many of the events that I would experience.
During my time here in the unfolding of the awareness of who I am the soul now the journey began pretty rough I was born into a family already had a lot of turbulence a lot of unrest a lot of discord a lot of violence emotionally physically.
Psychologically and then came me and in the first six months of my time here many events occurred some I have memories of some like the first significant memory that I have was as a six months old infant.
Being in the late in a crib there with a bottle and suddenly realizing there was no one there.
At whomever was there to be caregiver caretaker parent mother father there was no one there.
And sure enough later in my life I learned that's exactly what had happened that my father had left that my mother had left psychologically and then on that day it physically left.
She had gone from the apartment where we lived and left me there.
And in that moment in the mind I began to realize that that was the beginning of my journey learning how to survive in this world.
Many many events happened after that to take me to a place of being adopted and I ended up being adopted by family members.
It was literally as if I'd gone from the front and into the forehead because that same disturbing state of being my mother displayed was taught to her by others who raised her and who created that mental state to have her do the things that she did.
Fast forward 39 years I am in a place where I just can't figure anything else out.
I can't find a way forward and no idea what to do with myself.
So I quit my job my job I owned my own salon and I sold all my equipment and sold everything from the salon and closed the business and decided to go to Hawaii.
A new adventure or that adventure ended up leaving me homeless not a bad place to be homeless not that you want to be but left me homeless there in Hawaii.
And through the experiences I was having my body began to break down because some years earlier due to what I called the lost puppy syndrome of my life I had been what my mind would tell me was abandoned by my own mother.
So I was like a lost puppy in the world. I'd gotten involved with people in situations and contracted HIV and at the time of my journey to Hawaii I'd stopped taking medication.
Therefore my body started to break down and I ignored it believing in my mind that I was more powerful than any disease because from childhood I have always held an awareness of who I am as a soul.
Not all of the pieces in parts as a child but aware that there was a soul there was the only way that I survived through the years of mental, emotional and psychological abuse and just the violence and the discord that was the home that I lived in.
So I was in Hawaii I had stopped taking medication and of course my immune system began to break down and I started to get sick at this time again as I said I was homeless and I just walked the streets doing what I could to eat if I ate.
And I had previously been working at a youth hostel and the owner of the hostel saw me and said you look pretty rough why don't you come and stay.
They told him I had no money I had no way to pay for staying there he said that's fine as you can do whatever you are able to do and you have a place to stay at least and not be on the street any longer.
That was a blessing and things evolved I kept getting sicker, kept getting sicker and sicker as the immune system breaks down you become vulnerable to every kind of bacterial infection, viral infection, fungal infection and others.
I got to where I weighed about 145 pounds and I am a six foot four man and I weighed 200 pounds, 20205 in my normal weight.
And a friend of mine that was working at the youth hostel said James if you're not going to take medication any longer please try something else, anything else.
And she directed me to a friend of hers who was an amazing acupuncturist intuitive not just the acupuncture method and the science of it but very intuitive.
And I had already reached a physical point that I don't have even much memory of those days surrounding my first transitional experience.
So I agreed I went on and went to the place where he had his office and so beautiful quiet place amongst the beautiful setting of Kilo Hawaii where I lived.
So I don't even know how I got up the stairs at that point I was very very very anemic and I got up the stairs went in the doorway and he looked at me.
As if I was already gone but his arm around my shoulder and he said come on and let's see what we can see and let's see what we can do.
He laid me down on the bed and immediately he began to express what he was going to do what he was going to look for and let's see what's revealed.
And it was if I could hear his voice and feel his presence becoming more distant and more distant though physically we were there.
At the same distance, but I felt a vibrational distance, a distance of the alignment from
him.
And at that point, it was as if I began to fade, and in that fading, a stillness came,
a stillness and a levity, a levity that I'd never experienced before in this physical
realm and in this journey.
And that levity led to a warmth.
By that time, I was out, and I began to feel myself embraced in a way that I'd never
felt before, embraced by something that felt immense, felt warmth, I felt protected, and
I felt loved from what I think was probably the very first time in my life.
And in all of the sudden, I could feel movement from this immense, this movement, as if there
was a push to move me through something.
And in that point, I came into the open ocean where during the months before, I was sick,
I had been swimming with dolphins and whales.
And there I could see myself, my infantself, there in the water, with the biggest smile,
and the biggest warmth and protectiveness and love and this maternal presence, and
then in my vision here from the side, came by me, the mother whale.
I was experiencing a transitional alignment with my soul, seeing myself reborn through
the belly of a mother whale.
And there I was, loved by a mother, but I had never presence before, until that point,
and immediately all of the old veil of fears and unworthiness, and all of the things that
had transpired, beliefs that I created in my mind, due to that experience that six months
old were gone.
And there a few minutes later, it was as if another one was born and there I had a little
brother, a baby whale.
I myself could see myself in the physical form of an infant child, a human child, toe-headed
like I was at birth, and there was this immense feeling of maternal protection and love and
care and freedom.
And in that, all that I had carried with me, up until that point was released, all of
the fears again, and the ideas of how could she have left, could she not hear me, crying
out, all of it left.
I had carried that like a weight on my back, my entire life.
I guess I had reached the point that I had reached to become that ill because I couldn't
find a way out of that.
And this experience allowed me to release all of that that was in my mind and see the reality
of who I am as a soul, due to that mother's love and that moment.
Well, in that experience came in practitioner, touching me on the shoulder, bringing me
back to my awareness of this physical realm, and said, "I've done all I can do today.
Let's let you go back to the hostel."
And I did, I continued through the days and a few weeks, and my condition just continued
to get worse, and as it got worse, my friend Lisa, who was also a nurse, said, "I'm going
to take you home.
I'm going to take you somewhere where you can have some peace, where you can be with
yourself and see what happens."
After a few days, spending time in her house, she could see that my condition was just
getting continued to get worse.
As if the transitional experience already wasn't as deeply as we could go, it did get worse.
Physically, I got worse, and she said to me, "James, we have to take you to the hospital."
Just as I cannot take care of you here, not in your condition, I don't have equipment,
I don't have anything here.
And so I agreed, and at that moment I surrendered my life, whatever would happen, and that's
when the magic started.
The moment that I surrendered and became aware that I didn't need to control, that I could
let go.
So I went into the hospital, she took me there, and we went into the emergency and said,
"We've got a very sick person here, we need to find out what's going on."
And of course, then was the whole battery of tests, and they tested me for everything,
and wanted to try and give me this contrast to do, I guess, cat scans or some kind of scans
on my body.
Of course, I was so sick, they wanted me to drink it, and I couldn't keep it down, and so
a few days went by, and I was put in a isolation unit, where no one could come in unless they
had hazmat suits on or something like that, kind of like we had during COVID.
And a few doctors came in with their clipboards at one point, and I remember the doctor coming
beside the bed and saying, "Mr. Newman, and I was always already in that distant place
where I felt like I was distant from the physical world."
He said, "Mr. Newman, we believe you have leukemia, because my bone marrow had shut down.
And come to find out five months later, I had a disease that was called MAC.
M-A-C, M word this long, A word this long, and C word this long.
It is a condition that attacks three parts of the body, only once at a time, but it will
attack the brain, attack the lungs, or attack the bone marrow.
And the MAC had attacked my bone marrow and stopped it from functioning.
That's where the anemia came from."
He said, "Mr. Newman, we believe you have leukemia, but there are no cancer markers in
any of your tests and your blood work, so we need to keep testing."
Time went on, and of course things kept getting worse until finally.
I was constantly distant from the physical world, and they are lying in my bed, I transitioned.
I left the realm of the mind and the five physical senses, and the awareness of the physical
world, and went into full awareness of myself as a soul.
I didn't leave my body because the body still had life in it, therefore it meant that
the soul was still in the body, because the soul is the life-giving force that gives life
to this miraculous form that's created for us to come into and experience this world.
But there I was, suddenly no longer in the hospital room, and then what I felt like
was a train station.
It didn't look like a train station because everything was blue.
The blue of the ocean that I had been swimming in for the prior months before I was too
sick to get in.
I could see forms, just the outline of what we would imagine a human form to be, and that
blue was a little bit lighter, and all of this was just a place of pure magnificence, a
place of pure love, a place of awareness, of all things, and because I was no longer
in the mind, there was no fear, no beliefs, nothing that kept me imprisoned.
As our minds can't, it was free, yet there was an awareness, an awareness that I was
waiting for my train, whatever that train would be to go on to the next place that I was
to go to, and little did I know that it was a next aspect of my soul, was a waiting to
return to my physical form, and the awareness of the mind.
So before I transitioned back into the mind, I was shown a lot of things.
I was shown how this universe worked, functions of the universe, the paradigms of the universe,
and all of it in synthesis, except humans, except those who deem themselves humans and
not the pure light of the soul that they are, that I would be a messenger, so I was shown
how this transitional, transformational, ever fluid continuum occurs, that we are all
the light of source itself, next phase of the continuum is the soul, then earth because
this physical form that the soul gives life to is an element of this physical world, and
then the heart space, and the heart space being the place of expression of the soul, where
the mind is the place of expression of the ego itself, where all of the fears, the instabilities,
the discordant beliefs reside, the duality, the illusion.
of duality that things are separated or divided and we see that division in our world today.
I was shown so many aspects of how this universe functions as if it were a sphere because that
is the reality of it and then I was shown layers beyond this physical universe, layers of awareness
that some would call dimensions. Fifth, sixth, seventh, eighth, I've heard as high as fifteenth dimension.
When in reality that is but like an aperture of a camera and an aperture of a camera controls
the amount of light that's led in and how much of what is in front of the lens can be seen.
So I was shown that there really aren't divisions between dimensions. It's just like when our
awareness is broader and we see more, more light is what guides the way. We see more pieces of
the puzzle to the picture of all that is and in this we are aware of far more than the mind could
ever conceive. I kept being shown different aspects of how this worked and while I was being shown
these things, I could still see it was like people were walking by, others were coming to their
trains and going and all of this and many other things all being experienced simultaneously.
And in the background of all of this was this voice that kept saying, remember how this feels.
What do you feel in the presence of all of this awareness? Because that is where the vibrational
alignment is. So I remembered how it felt and until today, every time I paint a painting that
my soul is telling a story of wisdom as a messenger, I return to that same state of being.
So more was shown to me, more was revealed to me and the beautiful thing that I was shown during
that time was that it all resides within us. Each and everyone of us, every soul that is here giving
life to a physical form, whether it's this form, whether it's the form of a dog, of a bird,
of the dolphin, of the whale, of anything that flies and swims and moves and crawls in the earth,
all has a soul that is giving life to its form, to be a piece of the puzzle that is the synthesis
of all that is. We are an element of the whole of all that is. A golden thread of light sown through
all things until the mind decides to cut and divide, divide by gender, divide by race,
divide by religion and politics and all these divisions, sometimes language divides,
all illusional divisions and was shown all of this and then I could feel myself as if I was
getting up out of the bench, the seat, the chair where I was seated and I knew it was time to come
back to this physical form, the awareness of it in the mind because I didn't leave the physical
form, I simply left the mind and the awareness shifted into that of the perspective of the soul
and so that we are clear the soul holds awareness of all that is, like a light in the center of
a universe reflecting out in every direction to infinity beyond that universe. When I left that
awareness and returned to my mind, I had been placed in a bed with a tarp and was having ice
thrown all over me and waking up by ice and water and water and ice and I come back into my physical
form and I'm like what's going on you know this but I said it probably very angrily
because I didn't know I remember putting my hand up and there was this big Kahuna guy,
this big nurse that I guess I'd probably carried me over into this bed where the water
was being put and they asked me to calm down and things like that and I did and in that moment
it was if I was still that that thread was still intact, the thread of awareness was still intact
and for myself it is still till today because as I was being told to remember how it felt
every time that I paint something I returned to that feeling of that awareness and in that moment
I looked around at the people in the room the nurses and doctors and whoever was there
and it was as if I could see that form that I spoke about as if I could see the vibrational aspect
of them and I could feel that every one of them didn't want me to transition
what most people would use the word they didn't want me to die and I could feel that their intentions
were good in my life due to my own beliefs I had attracted many people in my life that their
intentions from me weren't good and for the first time there again I felt this relief and this
release of old things I was kept in the hospital then for what I have to imagine was another few weeks
and I was told that there was a social worker that was looking through my history, my own life
and things and that I would have to be leaving the hospital and I'm like okay I didn't understand
totally what that meant well a few days later the social worker came back and said we have
contacted your biological mother and in the moment I felt that fear again that I felt all through
my life but then there was that voice that said remember how these felt what I just experienced
and said I said okay and she said well we're going to prepare you to leave the hospital and you're
going to go and stay with her and at that point I realized that I don't know if they they felt
I would make it I didn't know if I would survive so they had to find what they call the next
of kin I guess and they contacted her and I immediately said I don't know her I've never lived with
her I have met her as a young adult and spent different days and times with her she came to the
house where I lived as a child around Christmas time the first time and just bits little things
here and there but I'd never lived with her and never experienced anything of her life and I
didn't even know where she lived and so it came time for me to leave the hospital and I stayed a few
days at this social worker's home and then they put me on a plane to South Florida and I remember
feeling kind of happy about that it's like well I'm leaving Hawaii where I love this tropical
environment at least I'm going to another one of those little did I know I would be going to my
biological mother's home revisit nine months of gestation in this rebirth and I got to experience
the same biological mother that I experienced as an infant nothing had changed she had not evolved
she had not changed her point of view towards my my person myself and I laid sick in a bed for the
next five months fending for myself just like I had done when I was an infant but I saw the whole
experience of different eyes I saw the experience through the eyes of my soul and then realized
we were never meant to come here and experience the events of our lives as trauma or grief or anger
or shame or guilt or resentment or any of the things that the mind would have us believe
we were chosen to come here we chose along with source itself to come here experience the events
of our lives and see the wisdom in it and today I hold an awareness for my biological mother
just as I as a soul that chose to come in and experience different things that we made
an agreement for her to be that mother for me to be that child that son and experience exactly
what I experienced so that I could see the wisdom in it so today I know that she walked away
from me at six months old so that I could remember who I was as a soul so that I could be here
today and tell the story that I tell here in this video, and in the work that I do with folks
allowing them to let go of all of the beliefs of the mind that imprison them and come into a
place of harmony and peace and freedom and elation with the reality of who they are. Let go of that
weight, free themselves of ailments because ailments come due to through the mind, due to the
beliefs that we hold. My belief as a child was, oh my gosh, I'm so ashamed. I shame and guilt
of who I must be, what must I be that a mother would walk away and just leave me there. What must
I have done and all just on and on these things and I realized today it's like hold on, I was six
months old. There was nothing for me to do. Even the mind realizing that and then the soul stepping
in and saying yes, you chose to experience that and the many other events of your young life
so that you could come through have this experience of transition out of the mind into the awareness
of the soul while the soul is still giving life to this body and then return to the awareness
of the mind in the physical world and experience the events holding the wisdom that you know.
Those are my transitional experiences. What I am aware of now is so much greater even than
those moments. I do work with folks both in group and one-on-one releasing guiding people to
finding the beauty, the brilliance and the magnificence that resides in them so that they through
free will can choose to release what no longer serves them because just as you cannot find a healing
for breast cancer by having breast cancer months and talking about breast cancer you cannot heal
and release and remove yourself from trauma, grief, guilt, shame by focusing on the illusion that
they are and working there. We can as a person who I was working with once said my gosh this feels
like a fast track you're facing the feeling that you're feeling then choosing to turn the coin
to the other side and see the reality of it not see the mind-based perspective of what took place
but seeing the reality that I came here to experience that because and that because for me started
at six months old by realizing that my biological mother must be an incredible soul to agree to come
in and put a child in this world and walk away from it. Those of you who are watching this who
are mothers can you imagine yourself doing that. So today I hold an honor for her. I hold a
compassion for her because she has not awakened to that aspect of things. She still dwells
in the same psychological state that she dwells in them but in myself I hold the healing energy
of love for her. Though we do not communicate we do not participate in each other's lives
in any way. I hold that awareness of the beauty of everything that she did so that I
could be the person that I am today. Right now in this world where there is so much chaos
and so much illusion, so much distraction from the reality of who we are and I can tell the stories
and share the awareness of who we are. My name is James Newman and I am a soul of pure light
here as an artist and script and image and in speech.
as my soul expresses itself it's like the river and it is in a language it is beyond the limits
of words and definitions and sentence structures because like the river is transformative
the river continues to receive water from the rain the flow of springs and tributaries
and other things just as the soul continues to receive wisdom from both the collective
and the individual experiences of our journeys. I will say this again we were never meant to come
here and experience the illusions that keep us in prison and keep the weight on us. The intention
for us was to come here and gather wisdom, each in our own way, each in our own experiences,
each in our own dynamics, family, place of birth, if there is religion or other things,
all of those things meant to come here and experience them to find the wisdom,
to receive the wisdom instilled in every event of our lives and that means even
some of the violence that we see going on today. Every soul agreed to come in and play a role
so that we could ascend and return to the synthesis that is of all things because everything
in this world, the forest, the trees, the land itself, the water, the mountains, the air,
it all exists in a synthesis and that's why we know this by when we go out into nature
where humans have it been or have at least have it altered it very much that there is a harmony there
and a peace there. I don't know any one that can't go out and take a hike out into a forest
and not feel a greater levity that is due to that synthesis, none of this, but all of this,
due to that awareness of itself every element on this earth other than those who deem themselves human,
everything exists in this synthesis, in this unification of elements to form a whole and all of
its magnificence and all of its beauty. So I want to share really quickly the work that I do
aside from the artwork and the script and the script comes in pages like in this book that I know as
the book of wisdom. This page came through as a blueprint for a city of light and water.
I also receive letters from home. This is a letter, a message from my soul to myself
and in the work that I do one of the modalities is a person can contact me and say I would like a
letter from home, I would like to hold a greater awareness of who I am and in that I can receive
a letter because I remember how it feels to be in that state of the soul and in this day of the soul
all things are interconnected. They're sewn with a thread of gold in light, a direct line if you will
to one another. So it's very easy for someone to contact me and just like I mentioned as it
was in the hospital, I could see the physical form but I could also see that artwork outline
vibrationally and I have always remembered how it felt to be in that state. So I can speak with
someone and let them talk about whatever it is that they wish to express to me and it literally
is if their soul will come and pull up a chair beside me and begin to tell me a story.
And that story can be told in a letter from home, in a soul painting, this size but a unique
image that tells the story to enlighten and broaden that aperture of awareness to that person
of who they really are. And the other service that I offer is something called a synthesis
guidance system reading and the synthesis guidance system was shared with me by star beings.
I know many people talk about oh the archangel came and this came and that came and those are all
magnificent presences but myself I seem to be more connected with the star beings.
The peoples of this universe
that are from beyond this planet and that come and visit.
And so I was shared with a painting that when I finished it,
I thought, well, that looks like a game board.
And because I had other work to do, I just went on
and didn't give myself a lot of time to focus,
but everything in its divine timing later,
a situation came and I was shown exactly what it was.
It was a guidance system that is utilized by star beings
because star beings don't have an egoic mind,
just like the archangels and other beings,
interdimensional beings don't have an egoic mind.
So they're not limited to the belief of linear time
or any of these things.
And so they use a guidance system that wherever you focus,
there you are, we've done that as children.
I myself, I remember myself in third and fourth grade,
listening to the teacher talk,
but then suddenly looking out the window,
daydreaming as they would call it,
then suddenly being somewhere else.
That is how what the star beings relate to me
is what it's just called vibrational transference.
You know, we can, I work today with folks like those
who are nonverbal and that have either autism
or down syndrome or other things like this.
I work with them on a vibrational communication level.
What many would call telepathy,
but telepathy by definition is an exchange of thoughts
in the mind and that's not what occurs.
It is this place beyond the mind,
this vibrational exchange, just like if you were to smell
honeysuckle during the summer rain.
You don't have to see it.
Just by the smell, you have that feeling of,
oh, it's warm, it's summertime,
that beautiful smell of honeysuckle, it's like that.
Just like the sound of the flowing river
and even a fast moving river that's running over rocks.
Just that sound due to its vibrational frequency
for many can put us to sleep.
For me, I'm from rural Kentucky
and the sound of a soft rain on a tin roof at night.
Just, it's literally like a lullaby.
So the vibrational communication that we hold
in the same way the star beings do something known
as vibrational transference.
And there is a transference capacitor
and that transference capacitor is many spherical layers.
But what humans can possibly see of that
is this thin layer that you might know
as the flying saucer or the ship or things like that.
There are many, many layers outside of that
that the physical eyes are not capable of seeing
because the mind itself is not capable of conceiving
what is present there vibrationally.
So when we come into this awareness, I utilize the guidance
system to take people back to the moments
that an event occurred where the event was seen
because that's the awareness that was held at that moment
that it was seen as traumatic or it was seen as,
however, it was seen by the mind.
But we then flip the coin during that session
and allow them to see their soul comes to me
and guides me questions to ask aspects of the event
that I know nothing about in my mind or my awareness.
They haven't told me, but aspects who was there,
how old were you, what was occurring,
what were the elements present in that situation?
And in that we together find the real purpose
of the event and find the wisdom in it and the beauty in it.
And when that happens, just like happened for me
with the birth through the mother whale,
all of the beliefs, all of the things all the way.
That's the fast-tracking aspect to it.
It's not an avoidance because we go there,
but the important thing is is I ask them,
let that, for example, three-year-old, seven-year-old,
11-year-old, nine-year-old, whatever point in the journey
it was, let the nine-year-old tell that story.
And then they'll go with the mind,
"Oh, my adult person is big words, like no, no.
Let's try and let go of that."
Because that child in you saw it more
through the eyes of the soul than what the adult does.
Let the nine-year-old tell the story.
And in that is revealed reality.
That was there to be received.
The reality of the wisdom held in the moment.
And in that, all things are realigned.
And in that realignment with the soul,
none of what is an inalignment with the soul can stay.
It will leave from a grief anger, resentment, shame, guilt,
and fall away because they are not vibrationally aligned
with the soul.
So, I thank you for giving me this opportunity.
If anyone would like to contact me,
they can do so through my email address,
which is
[email protected].
And by the time this is posted,
my website will be up,
displaying not only the images of the artwork
that I receive as messages to humanity,
but also all of the other services and things.
And that will be at www.synthesis111.com.
So, contact me.
I would love to connect with you.
I would love to hear your story of your journey
and remember the soul sees it all happening now.
There is no past or future.
Those are just concepts of the mind.
The soul sees it happening now,
and therefore it can be healed now.
And we can choose to free will to let go.
Thank you.
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