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Turkey. I'm tired of G. Wait, is this today? Turkey and the U.S. All of those happened today? Yeah. Hey, guys. We're looking at the World Cup schedule. Like, whatever. All of those happen, all six of those games? Yeah. Yeah. At the same, at different times? Yeah. Like, there's one happening right now? There's one at 1 p.m., 4 p.m., 7 p.m., and then there's a, yeah. So, two games. Those are both at the same time. Yeah. Right. Come on, Japan. And Sweden. And Sweden, yes. And Paraguay. I know something about Sweden. And Australia. Australia, man. And Paraguay. How's everyone doing? Like, what's the tea? I have not. USA is advancing. Is Brazil advancing? I know they won. Okay, cool. Brazil's going to advance. I would assume so. I'm not sure what's going to happen, but they're. It's because they unbaptized that plane. Mm-hmm. Hopefully, Japan advances. They baptize a plane? They baptize their plane, yes. Oh, wow. With a bunch of fire hoses. Oh, wow. Or, I don't know if they're fire hoses, but they're big hoses. But, you know, shout out Brazil. Shout out Japan. And shout out everybody else. You know what I'm saying? True. And the one with the guy that stands still. Shout out that one, too. And shout out the one that they were doing. No, no, no. There's a guy. What country is that? Evan, do you know what country I'm talking about? And they have the guy that stands still, and he's not imitating, but he's doing the pose of a statue from the country that's very popular. But I forget what country it is. Yeah, look up statue guy. Yes, Congo. There we go. Oh, wait, love. Yes, yes. He, like, stands still the entire game. Oh, my God. It's really sickening, yeah. It's very, like, performance art. Like, we don't have that anymore. It's really upsetting. Well, we do. His pose is, like, cry. Yeah, and it's a pose that is, like. Look at the bitch pose. Nasty. Well, yes. It's this guy. Aw. Yeah. King Leopold. Wasn't he, like, the prime minister? I don't know. Okay, let me stop butchering the story, but I know that it was a very. Oh, okay, perfect. The first prime minister of Congo following its independence from Belgium. Exactly. And he does that pose. He hit that pose, so. He hit that pose nasty. Wow, that's really sickening with the red. It's crazy. Gorgeous. 90 minutes of standing. I know something about that. Well, no, I don't, but. Guys, I'm really tired today. Like, I don't know what to say about it, y'all. I don't know what to say. It's okay. I understand. Perfect. No, I literally. I haven't been really drinking a Lonnie News, and today. I was like, I fucking need one. But I didn't drink one. Nice. I'm happy for you. Yes. Also, do you guys listen to Audrey Hobert? No, but I saw that everybody went. Well, not everybody. Shout out Cindy. Yeah, she played at the Wiltern. And all the girls had little tiaras on. I drove by when I was going to your place. Yeah, I saw. And I just was watching my stories last night. Every single person was at her concert. Really? And I watched a little interview with her, and she's a key. Wait, Gorge. It's Audrey. I'm like, the girls live. I need to tap into her music. I love when there's an artist, and there's an obvious motif happening. Like, when you see them lined outside of the concert venue, and you can tell that everyone's locked in or something. The girls are clocked in. Oh, Gorge. In a serious way. Love that. Love. Wait, them? No, like, I love what she's doing. Love what she's done with the plays. Need to tap in with that. Me trying to impress Troy Bolton trade is the caption. Or no, just kidding. That's a comment. Sorry. Girl. Girl. Girl, I'm tired. Wait, Diddy. I saw a comment from the TikTok you sent me about Anaya and Carl. Which one? Oh, at the wedding? Anaya sent me this TikTok about Anaya and Carl's wedding, which is just, like, enough. But someone in the comments said they're going to, like, make Sean. I did see that. And it had me feeling weak as fuck. I did see that. Yeah. Like, love Island tonight, so that's really cool. I know. Excited about that. I literally haven't. I, like, started watching Handmaid's Tale again. Right. Because I feel like Love Island has been all-consuming teased. We don't have to pull it up. It's actually fine. It's, like, it's okay, guys. Don't worry. Yeah. Because I had to send that one in gentle message. Like, I was like, well. Because not everyone can laugh at that, unfortunately. Well, they're in Tablasia. Well, it is Tablasia, see. Tablasia, we go. That's why I can only send to a certain amount of people. TikTok's just funny. Like, it's just, like, what? Or, like, all the Bryce and Trinity edits. I'll be weak as shit. Because the comments will be, like, we be so damn dramatic. Like, it's literally, like, them edited to, like. It'll be, like, I don't even know a comparison. Like, fucking Princess Bride. And everyone's like, guys, we so fucking dramatic. Like, enough. No, that one in the corner, second row to the right. Yes, that's one. Right. No, literally. The vampire edit was, like. Like, it'd just be. It'd just be so dramatic. Like, I love. No, literally. Like, this vampire edit they got. And everyone was like, okay, it makes sense now. Guys. We already knew that. These are literally, like, political cartoons at this point. No, that's why I'm, like, TikTok does be mad funny. Like that. Because we take, like, a shrivel of something. And we're like, oh, my God, it's literally, like, Hamilton. It's like, no, it's not. Like, you know, it's just, like, we need to stop with that bullshit, bro. But it's entertaining. No, but that. No, like that. BTS Collins. They would be BTS Collins. He kind of serves a little bit. But of some Colin. Giving Colin's tease. His redemption arc for me is, like, absolutely, like, insane. Well, yes. Because I paid him all the dust in the world. So. Yeah. Yeah. So congrats, love. No, like, congrats. And, like, really excited for the reuniting. You reuniting. The reuniting of everyone. Yeah. Okay. And guess what's coming back this fall? What? Love is blind. Oh, my God. I actually don't know. Yeah, they never even said. They probably didn't even know, huh? I wonder where it is. Oh, my God. Love is blind, brother. I'm so excited. Lord, help us. They say where. Oh, wow. Oh, it doesn't say. Boston. Get the tea on the next pod party, y'all. They go to, like, actually anywhere, but, like. Wait, Boston? Boston will be fun, though. Boston will be fun. An East Coast moment? That'll be sickening. Yeah. Have they ever been to the East Coast is the question, because I feel like a lot of them are. Oh, yeah. But. Yes. D.C. is on the East Coast. D.C. just gives me, like, but I don't even want to say too much because we were only there for a day, but, like, D.C. gives me, like, it's still the same energy of their other places of, like, it's kind of buttoned to the top by. Well, and also with D.C., a lot of people commute into D.C. Like, it's very rare for people to live, like, in D.C., like, for real. I got some bad bitties in D.C. Shout out. Shout out, Dahlia. But, yeah, you know. Like, I feel like a lot. It gives me calm teas. Like, Boston kind of gives me, like, maybe they have a little, like, it's Boston. There's going to be a lot of, I feel like, smart people. Yeah. Because, like, you know, the medical schools. Big Boston. The Ivy Leagues. Where do you see? Harvard, MIT. I saw somewhere that, like, a Love Island producer or something was saying, like, their dream is to have, like, they've been trying to look for, like, a Boston contestant. Oh, really? I saw. I don't remember where I saw that. But, yeah, it was something to do with, like, the accents of it all or something like that. Like, they're, like, we're always looking for, like, a gem, like, a Boston, like, contestant or something. Like, Southie. Like, Boston Rob. Boston Rob. On Love Island. Fine-a. The Southie accent. Like, you know. No, shout out everybody with, like, that sickening-ass Boston accent. It's really sickening. Yes, shout out. But, anyway, so, yeah. But, anyways, I really want it to come back. That would be everything. Well, it's on the way. It's on the way. I know. I miss her. Yeah, Love is Blind is, like, the, that's, like, the biblically accurate one for me. And the UK season, too. Oh, Love Island. I mean, Love is Blind UK. Yeah. Type shit. Because the UK people, for whatever reason, like, are actually, like, normal. Yeah, UK has, like, a different. i guess sorry normal in the sense that like just even the way they dress is like up to date like i feel like when i see for i mean ohio no shade to ohio because it's just like it's a real place with real people it's a city that is literally like you know so it's like i'm not putting like disrespect on ohio i know they got like some shooters out there but it is in fact like every time i watched love is blind though i'm like was this film 10 years ago yeah i mean everything intentional you know of course because i'm like y'all wouldn't dare come over here because the girl's about to be wearing addicted on love is blind but the tea is when they went to when they did uk like all of them dress of the times like i'm like okay you guys film this now maybe they're just like sickening yeah or maybe it's because we're also so spread apart or maybe it's just like the fashion it really takes a second to like get over there to the uk oh no sorry no to like them yeah sorry to like ohio and stuff yeah that's what i mean like maybe we're just like so spread out that it's like they like like nobody's worn like a polka dot over there yet but like here it's literally like bitches polka dot everything and the sheriff live next door so like ig reels it's ig reels yeah it is like ig well if you're from ohio shout out below like are the trends behind or like because we also live in like the capital of trends in the sense that they like print the trend out and like hand them to us in a piece of like you know our our thing is a little yeah specific i mean i'll speak for arizona like i definitely feel like arizona is like that like everyone dead ass like dress the same i guess unless you were like kind of keeping a pulse on like what's happening in la because it is so close but like literally growing up i'm like okay and even still like i feel like people the way people dress in arizona like i don't know like in just like the like gilbert like right not phoenix because i feel like there's like some cool people in phoenix for sure and tempe and and stuff but like i don't know i used to walk around and be like oh what the fuck is that right honestly kind of obsessed with that though yeah it's like having a uniform in school it's kind of freeing i would suppose yeah it is very like in that sense oh i would have loved a uniform situation i would have loved it yeah yeah i would have too i wouldn't have to buy clothes with my parents money mind you so it's like i don't know uh you know what i was talking well because now are all forever 21s closed i think well i mean at least here they're done yeah but they're addicted now yeah that's what i was saying that is so sick yes that's really so sad you know what's so crazy it's like damn like bankruptcy y'all oh but then i'm like wait do you want 15 off though of nothing oh maybe like their physical locations yeah maybe they have that can we see if they have the shop still open like the e-shop yeah it it is wait let me see what they sling in right now like bitch what's new okay because here's the tea about forever 21 okay you back in the dizzy like if you it's a friday night and you're feeling all right and you needed to get like a brand new fit something like this something like that to go to like your high school like prom i don't know you could literally get an outfit with accessories and socks top bottom accessory socks twenty dollars yeah well that's also like the inflation of it all as well we lived in a good time you see like my parents used to give me twenty dollars in cash and i'd literally come back with like five wutzels pretzels and like a t-shirt it's just like crazy but nowadays it's like listen no they be selling you them shirts twenty six doll hairs in my hand went right through it it's like it's like it's like it's really crazy yeah i did step into addicted though and it's kind of like funny in a way to not be like that age demographic anymore because it's just like it's just like polly pocket in there yeah you know it's very cute and trendy and like the girlies and like you know yeah it's like not like those girls are like a key yeah well they're like the forever 20 they're like taking over the forever 21 market which is like when you're a tween but then you're like thinking you're like 13 going on 21 like you're actually just but i do feel like it's well actually let me not speak on it addicted's name because i just i will say i feel like la and i do forget this has so many more like stores than like elsewhere you know what i mean like even like when i go to arizona and like i'll go to the scottsdale mall and stuff like there's no addicted there right there's no like princess paul well she's also a brand new miss addicted because she came out a year ago because i remember the day they opened the addicting store at the grove because i was when it was when i was working and all of a sudden there were like every single person had a pink had that bright pink bag they're like big online retailer interesting because i remember that's the only reason i fucking i even knew what addicted was because i was like oh every single girl is carrying this like pink bag yeah because they're like big on on on tail guys help me they get online yeah they're well you know what's so funny is shout out gabby she got a pair of their shorts from tiktok shop and i was like oh my god those are so cute and she's like addicted that's the only reason why i knew their tea but yeah they're very much so like princess paulie it's very much so like a sign of the times like yeah it's like princess paulie but um it's for the girls for the girls or the girls these days i don't know it kind of feels that like in between of like yeah 16 17 18 damn isn't it crazy though like when you're like this to me for some reason this is giving me like 16 vibes like 15 16 like you think you like sickening or something honestly what it's giving is college going out teas like a lot of going out tops a lot of like you know like sorority wear and stuff because i do for you know the sorority girls be out here like doing tings yeah it just makes me think like who's for the kids then well this is for the kids too but like there's no like what's the there's no kids market exactly like there's no like kids brandy yeah honestly i feel like it's like brandy yeah that's like grandmama but addicted is kind of like yeah the kids be wearing like drunk elephants so they don't know it's like y'all are already putting collagen on your face yeah yeah and it's crazy there's no kids no mo there aren't unfortunately shout out if you're a kid shout out the kids wishing you guys had kenny ortega like seriously uh yeah yeah fortunate i don't even know what they watch anymore or anything i fear they might watch like what we watch you know what they do watch i i think they are youtube babies yeah for real for real for real for real for real because also i'll never forget this this was like 2016 throwback um throwback tbt um literally tbt but dead ass this girl that i was there was like this nanny service that i used to work for and but it was kind of like uber but for nannies we're like i don't know we were all there were like a ton of us and like there was an app and a family could like request that they need a nanny shopping or like go to dinner and then we would like accept the job and then like go like brand new family brand new kids whatever and it was usually like a couple hours or whatever and so i did it for this like one girl and her mom was out mind you her dad was home so i'm like okay l right there and the mom was like i just like need to make some i was like girl you could literally go to the bahamas for all i care like get like the fact that your husband's home and hired me is just like absolutely like fucking redonkulous but nevertheless she persisted but like the husband was like in their like room door locked like couldn't even get in 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So anyways, I was just like keying with the little girl and stuff and her mom was like, she can literally like watch YouTube, like whatever, like she watched like kids YouTube or like play with her. But like if she's watching YouTube, like that's fine. Don't worry about it. And she was like, just like make sure she's okay. And if she gets hungry, like here are the snacks. And she was like, boom, out the door. You know what I mean? So I was like, okay, like period. And so she was like, okay, let's watch my show. The show in question, I shit you not, was like YouTube kids. And it was like girls like, okay, you know how we used to play with dolls? Yeah, it was that was the show was a little girl playing with like Elsa and Anna and being like, okay, Elsa, pretend that like, I have a million dollars. And I was like, Anna, you're gonna follow me around all day. I shit you not. That's what she was watching. And I was like, wait, people are like, and millions of views. Oh, yeah. And I was like, wait, why don't I like dead the fuck ass do this? Well, yeah, because I'll be like, Anna, you ain't shit. No. I'm like, I'd be like, Anna, you're rude. And then like, walk away. And then be like, just kidding on a right. That was like dead ass to show and she watched like every single one. That's like, and that's what I knew we were fucked, bro. Because I'm like, wait, we used to just like do that. Yeah, no film, no camera. But it's like, where's the like, give her the dolls then though. She has the dolls. Honestly, I can't blame her though. That's just some like real shit that like she shouldn't even be doing that young. You feel me like it's like, get the iPad out of here. Toy Story five. I actually don't know what happens in Toy Story five yet. But I can only imagine they blow the fucking iPads. Oh, what? Well, that was scary. I was trying to say head back and then I started anyway. Um, like girl, whatever. And yeah, but that's like very much that that's the parallel play fantasy. That's the parallel play fan, which is like me watching pin trading. I literally was having like, I watch pin trading every day. Shout out WDW Kevin, like, F like genuinely every day he's doing some variant of the same shit. And I'm like, honestly, guys, turn this shit up. Yeah. And I'm gonna act like I ain't never seen it before. Okay. It's very that vibe. There's like a comfort, a numbing there. Yeah. Yeah. A comfort there. Yes. There's a comfort. But like for her, I was just like, well, wait, like we have the dual. Like I was like, girl, let me set up my iPhone. Like I'm gonna literally make you an empire right the fuck now. Because I'm gonna be like, on it, on it. Shut up, girl. Girl, shut up. Girl and death to kid you. I mean, what? I was gonna say death to kid YouTube channels, though. Unfortunately, like any parent like, according to their kid, I'm like, enough. Like, it's so crazy. It's just like crazy. I mean, I think those things go hand in hand, honestly, like putting kids into entertainment so young and just because even just like the concept of like 14, 15, like, even outside of them, you know, like child stars and stuff. It's crazy because it's like, yes, you can have interests, obviously, as a kid, but like, ultimately, you are so reliant upon the adult in your life to be just like, offering you the insight or taking care of your decisions and things like that. Because you just, you know, you're just like, you're just like, you're just can't even perceive what you're possibly doing, especially like the girls to get. I mean, like with social media, it's different, because obviously, like, we all fuck around. And it is crazy to think that, like, you'll be a kid and do something and blow up. And then now, as you grow and like, get your adult brain and have a better understanding of the world, you almost have to like, work backwards. Yeah, you know, you put yourself in a position that you just like, didn't even know, like the possibilities, for example, like all the divas from TikTok, who literally like blew up when TikTok was like starting. And it's crazy to think that, like, you come to consciousness at like, 24. And you're like, I don't know, like, oh, like, this whole life has been set up kind of accidentally by like a younger version of myself. Yeah, but especially like, you know, kids who do rely upon your parents for like insights and just an understanding of the world. It's like, the parents that push for that, who really push for that kind of like entertainment industry, like famous, like, let's like make money and like all this shit. It's like, personally, I mean, I don't have a kid. So I don't know. But personally, I do feel like with that requires some feeling of entitlement of your child of like, just don't know how you could like push them into an industry that they just like, don't even have the brain to understand like the future, like the possible repercussions or like, what the visibility means, which is why I'm like, all them, all them, all them kid accounts ran by them damn parents on YouTube. And the in the one in the two in the I'm just like, y'all pack it up. No, the Coogan account, pack it up. Literally the Coogan account, like, genuinely, because like, yeah, I like randomly tapped in with honey boo boo via tick tock, right? With like, what Miss Alana, Miss Alana Dupree. She's going to hell. Or is that her mom? Her mom? Is that her mom? Alana's actually a nurse now. Yeah, her. Oh, her sister's Alana. Mama June. Mama June. And then Alana's honey boo boo. Oh, Alana. Yes. Sorry. I don't know their government names. I'm sorry. You're going to heaven. And I actually she's a nurse now. And I'm so proud of her. I'm so proud of her. But sorry, honey. What boo boo is her mom? Her mom's name is Mama June. Mama June. Yes, Miss Mama. Mama June is going to hell because not to be mistaken for Alana gorgeous, mistaken for Alana Dupree, who's like a whole ass nurse. Like I'm so proud of the girl for like, really making it out the mud because your mom is like going to hell. No worries. The way I watched their like new reality TV show where she like confronts her mom about the fact that she literally stole all her fucking money. And all she wanted to do mind you grind set fucking mindset like go go juice bitch like literally since six years old. All she wanted to do was go to college with that money. And her mom literally sat there and was like, Well, it was for vacations and like this house, the house her mom was sitting in. Holy shit, bro. It's really crazy. It's like, holy shit. Anyways, now, honey boo boo. She's a nurse. She's killing it. She's like, absolutely educated. And like God and the universe is on her side that like, and look absolutely beautiful to mind you. That is just so insane. Like I really can't. I can't understand the feeling of like, going to college, for example, and being like 2122. And like, already having an entire kind of like narrative for your life that pre exists to you, you know, because it's like, childhood is like, yeah, it's a Kiki and shit. But like you, it's kind of like a dream in a weird way where it's like, you grow up like when you get when you gain consciousness, you're looking like, okay, T like, that was weird. I don't know. That was cool. Whatever. Yeah. But like the idea that in that time, like you would grow up and be like, Oh, I'm like famous and like rich. You're literally gaining consciousness. Like, oh shit, like this is a thing that this is like the life that I live right now. It's like, wow, like shout out to the girls. Yeah. I even think of, um, who's that blonde? They were like, all blonde. I know. And the dad, like the dad's blonde. The mom's blonde. And she has a daughter who's like her mini me from, from, and they're like low key Christian girl, autumn now as fuck from where like they're like, Oh gee, kinda the brand, the LeBrand family. Oh yeah. Yes. I mean, I'm just like, they're all blonde and like have blue eyes. Yes. But okay. I Loki was like kind of Christian girl, autumn. Aren't they the ones that literally made pro live video are Christian girl. Yeah. They're literally, Oh wow. Count them five. Yes. So the T is with their daughter who's older. Yeah. It's yeah. It's her daughter from like a prior relationship. Yes. Yes. Okay. Mama. And, um, that daughter, so she like, I guess she like is in like dance and like does a bunch of stuff, like whatever, but they have like other kids. So they like homeschool her so she can like be home with the kids and like help the parentifying mama. And literally the craziest thing about that, when they like, disclose that they're okay. No, I was going to say they are, they're Christian girls, spring, summer, autumn, and winter, like baby, like Jesus is alive. Okay. I don't know their tea. Cause you know, like that's like, I only remember the pro-life video specifically. They dropped this pro-life video a long time ago and it was just giving like, okay. Okay. They're just like, I don't want to like genuinely it's like, shut up. It's just crazy to see like kids in that position. Cause then it's like, damn, eventually you're going to grow up and like, have an understanding of the world. That's going to either be like, or completely a C y'all play. Okay. So y'all be playing so bad, bro. So with their daughter, her though, she's like, can dance her off. So she's like, I guess she goes to like some special, she's like a part of some special dance crew situation. Okay. Um, and so. Essentially she was at dance so much and her schedule was so busy that she was barely seeing her siblings. So her parents and between school and dance, she was barely seeing her siblings. anymore yes um i'm like she's in every piece of content so she still has time for her job um like dance school and job so they literally um had her daughter now she stays at home so she could be with the kids and like whatever three guys i can't watch stuff i i i'm sorry i'm sorry like peace be with you seriously peace but i'm just like enough man i just be feeling bad for the kids in those like kind of more extremist situations where it's just like family yeah or just like i mean obviously good to have beliefs or whatever i don't know i'm not a parent so like i don't know i get that there's like that stability you want but it is just crazy to see something like that and it's like damn like what if you grow up and like you look atheist like you better be like wait well i was just like loke what if you grow up and you're fucking tired bro because like that's i don't know that's like what i'm thinking about because i'm like okay genuinely this is like again this is very low lift like you know i as someone who's literally worked at a gas station i've worked retail i've like had so many different kinds of jobs that like i've evolved a million times over in this life and like and i'm still young as shit and like this job specifically working in like any type of like entertainment industry like podcasts or social media whatever social media alone genuinely because it's like i understand that it's like the editing and like you know it's a it's a pretty quick turnaround but i'm like the mental burnout that happens from that and mind you i don't even be posting content like that anymore but i'm like they post a video every damn day plus they have a youtube channel plus they have like so many different things and her daughter is like in this like dance academy and she's still in school and she's like not even in college yet i'm like bitch i would literally turn 18 and be like actually i need to sleep the fuck in yeah you know what i mean no totally i mean that's that's yeah no totally and that's what i mean by like this extremist vibe of like this lifestyle seeming so like rigid in that sense where it's like we're working this is what we do we're making a bunch of content this is our beliefs this is what we stand for and like you're kind of just a kid like yeah just found out what bluey is and like you just holding up a sign that you don't know what it says yet and then it's like you turn probably like 19 20 and you like watch a youtube video that cracks your head open you're like oh my family's like content farming and like also like they got me like pro-life well and also exactly and you're like not even a being yet yeah because it's just like also too you know and that's what i say about people who grow up and like this kind of like lifestyle and like this you know in this sense of like if all you've ever seen in your whole life is like this is right going to church is right telling you that like being abortions wrong and like all this shit and like you genuinely just from like day one have been indoctrinated by your parents to be like this is the truth and like everything else is a lie it's like it takes so long and it takes so much to break out of that like my parents weren't even like that and i mean i wasn't pro life and shit like that but like even still when i was like christian and like indoctrinated into believing like for me personally i was like i'm not having sex before marriage like i just don't think i should have sex before marriage and like i think that like marriage is when you have sex type shit for example and like i really believe that to be the truth of the matter and like it wasn't until i was like 22 and kind of like slowly started to do this like unraveling where i was like actually wait a damn minute more importantly it was it wasn't until i actually had sex for the week as shit bro i was weak as shit because yeah literally the first time i had sex mind you was like not significant at all like random ass guy that i like went on a couple dates with and it's just like you know when you're just like hanging out and all of a sudden your clothes are off like but i mean yeah yeah it's just like that's like i know about that yeah so and at that point i had never had sex and i was just like oh yeah let's like run that like you know what i mean totally and then when it happened i like took it took everything in me to not bust out the truth about fucking laughing no shade to him because it's just like no it's not even shade it's not even shade but i was weak as a motherfucker because i was like this because mind you if you didn't like grow up christian or like grow up in the church they make having sex such a big motherfucking deal which it is because it is in the sense that like it can be it can be sorry that's that's more correct wording it can be but like sex is what you make it if you're not having sex you're you apply meaning to it then there's meaning behind it if you apply no meaning to it there's literally no meaning behind it and in that moment that was just very insignificant it was very like what what like i remember the biggest thing people would preach about was like soul ties we want to take a break to thank a sponsor of today's episode cash app cash app has always been so great to have downloaded on my phone especially when i'm shopping at the flea or farmers markets and i'm paying small independent business owners but beyond sending and receiving payments cash app can do way more than you think to make your money work for you if you direct deposit at least three hundred dollars in paychecks each month and use cash app card for purchases you can earn interest on your savings no hidden fees no minimum balance requirements also you can hit your savings goals even faster by turning on roundups on your cash app card with roundups every purchase you make using the card is rounded up 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including als lugarix disease myasthenia gravis or lambert eaton syndrome and medications including botulinum toxins as these may increase the risk of serious side effects why wait ask your doctor visit botox chronic migraine.com or call 1-800-44-BOTOX to learn more i'm so fucking weak but there is like this concept called soul ties where like if you slept with someone your soul would be tied to them and like because no literally and i was like i'm gonna let y'all know right now that like this fool from silver lake with like a mullet i my soul this soul and connected to that okay i'm letting or let me better yet let me get my scissors and cut that shit real quick like there's no tie and i was like weak as fuck because genuinely i remember like going to bible studies and stuff and like girls being like can you pray for like god to break off this soul tie that i have with someone like and essentially it was the realness of that but i was just like it's like man-made you know what i mean it is because i'm like okay you know what i mean because i'm like okay you know what i mean because i'm like okay i think having sex with someone that like you have feelings for and like it's very meaningful and like you also were in a relationship and all these things whatever and like maybe that was your first time that was not my first time experience so like for me i feel like it's at this president of like that don't mean shit unless it means shit like period um and i was just like this girl feels like all this guilt and shame and like weirdness and like she really doesn't need to because it's like that shit's not real dead ass or we'd hella be walking through people's ties like i literally have like well let me not i'm not going dogs but like there would be time i'd be walking through silver lake like highland park like let me go like let me fucking go let me go like bitch i ain't trying like let me go let me go no like let me go let me go no and you know what i fear i embrace you know and someday i'm gonna have like a religion reveal and it's gonna be like they can't go and be whatever color buddhism is because i'm sorry the girls have really speaking to me lately with buddhism yeah because i'm just like listen like you know i think into that to that sentiment of like bitch let me go it's just like listen the science will tell us that you tell yourself something a million times it becomes the truth you know what i mean and it's like religion can be very fierce in that way when it's like you have this thought everyone around you has this thought everyone around you has this thought everyone around you has this thought it's being enforced you constantly of course you're gonna be a bible study like release me from the soul tie that y'all told me out because obviously i had it because it's true you know and that going like both ways where it's like you know if we want to kind of like any thought any like belief you know just like every belief not even just christianity but like any belief kind of being rooted in this like we tell ourselves this thing a million times of course you you can feel the real babe because it's real you know what i mean like oh yeah and i i think too they do this really awesome thing when it comes to guilt and shame they honestly that's their pocket right there maybe because you can't argue with guilt and shame like it's quiet on set it's absolutely quiet on set and it takes arguably so much more to work through guilt and shame yeah well and here's the t well and here's the t2 why like honestly like christianity has me weak as fuck because you know what's so funny is like the and if you're a christian period stand down 10 toes down in your shit like you are so allowed to be christian you are so allowed to be whatever the fuck you want to be like genuinely and i mean that shit i'm not saying that in like an asshole way i'm saying that as like you are so allowed to have a belief system and like spirituality because i get it we need something and like you know what i mean and i'm like i'm somewhere but it's just not there and that's okay and we're all somewhere and we're all yeah yeah but i'm like i would never like talk down on someone because like you're christian unless you're doing some harmful shit or believe some harmful shit that like low-key is like and that just make you harmful that just makes you harmful type shit because you're being harmful yeah because it's like your beliefs are harmful as fuck because there's a pocket there with christianity where i'm like y'all chill like i'm gonna let y'all that's nice that's nice shit um but i think you know where they really eat with the guilt and shame is like you can you're almost like void of accountability mm-hmm i at least i really felt you're void of accountability when it comes to christianity because it's like for example paul in the bible who fucking prosecuted a million christians and was like literally having people like doing the most like low-key giving like damn near serial killer type shit like really was prosecuting the fuck out of christians and then one day like had a coming to jesus moment and after that he was like i'm set straight yeah like i'm like i'm not right yeah like i'm all about god and i feel like people resonate with the fact that like if you've done like a million trillion horrible things and you feel like all this guilt and shame and you're like you know just doing all these things like whether it's like doing some shit that like low-key for example this is a big one because like this church that i went to you know out at one point they were at one oak you know what i mean so it's like their their demographic was very much so giving the people who were like at delilah you know at one point they were at one oak you know what i mean so it's like their demographic was very much so giving the people who were like at delilah popping it in a handstand and then on monday we're working their corporate job with the handstand girls i just popped into the handstand at delilah like fuck and so it's like i think there's you know i think i experienced this is what i experienced in high school where like in high school you're depressed as fuck you're a fucking teenager your hormones there's nothing there's nothing holding you together your emotional your emotions everything if nothing is holding it together you are just oozing all fucking over the place and then on top of that for me it's like you're drinking you're smoking weed you're with friends who treat you bad like i had i had so like a whole friend group who treated me so fucking badly and then it's like with all of that and plus i'm like the like one of the few only black people in arizona so it's like bitch i was cooked from jump so it's like how could i not be depressed down on my luck like literally hate my life and low-key just feel empty like period empty and i feel like christianity was like still empty and i was like how'd you know that yeah totally mind you like every fucking teenager in the world feels fucking empty at one point like that's just like low-key what happens and they were like and you're probably like drinking a lot and i was like oh wait yeah and they were like and you probably you know took a hit right before this girl i was like okay and they were like and you feel like no one sees you and understands you yeah dead ass like i was like dead ass well there's a god that does oh we're cooked bro we're cooked because then it's just like you know you you like they'd be telling you the tea they'd be like jesus was alone jesus friends didn't fuck with him jesus jesus low-key everyone paid jesus dust but you know what three days later he rose he rose yeah what's tea and like you know all that bad shit you did too when you were trying to figure yourself out jesus came on the cross and died for that shit low key so you're all good babe like don't even worry and now you know what your job is to save everyone from hell and eternal damnation because it's like low-key you're saved and like you coup but like yo mama yo daddy yo sister yo cousin she left like yeah you're cooked you're cooked so then you literally be sitting there i was like sitting there dead ass like 15 years old like oh okay like i'm cool now but like it's just like my mommy like however i know totally like my sister i love her like you know what i mean of course it's so crazy and i mean like it it goes it goes and goes and goes and goes and goes and it's like such a crazy ass thing and it's just like listen girl i appreciate the message of hope and if anything i appreciate that hope core shit because it's like we need that you know of course but it's just like the way y'all do it really it's like y'all breath smells so fucking bad bitch like y'all really got a stank in your breath for real yeah i mean i think that there's i think like really y'all shit like you don't smell that shit on your breath i mean i think that you know there is like there is a neutralizing aspect to the idea that certain religions fill certain pockets which is like if you feel like you don't have a lot of control over your life you feel super kind of just like ebb and flow i don't know what i'm doing of course a religion with very strict boundaries these are the rules this is what you need to do to get here like solid game plan she's gonna sweep and this is what you need to do to get here like solid game plan she's gonna sweep and the same way that's like for the girls that are and me literally sitting here like for some reason buddhism talking to me brain strict as hell brain so strict literally be wringing myself through the mud for no reason and buddhism be like you ain't gotta do that i'll be like what'd you say i gotta what all of it making sense within the context of like you know the just the ways in which they they i'm like i don't know who i'm talking about but like the ways in which like different religions and different things can offer you perspectives that work with your life you know what i mean and things that work with your life and things that work with your life and things that like lean back on because i think the illest part and this is i guess another buddhist ideology so i don't know if that makes it neutral but i think that they tend to have a anyway whatever i think the illest part though the trillest part is it's like that like self and this is what they're saying i'm working on it too but like this radical self-acceptance this radical self-understanding and ability to be like hey for a lot of people that example of like hey i feel a lot of shame and guilt and some things i want to be released like i think the illest part is it is fully already available to you yes but who for lack of a better way of saying it because i don't mean a negative connotation but it's like who can give it to you yeah who can who can offer it to you who can like give it to you in a way that makes sense with your life and i think that's what's really interesting and again just like i am very like deep in you know me and booed we talking right now me and big booed so it's like i'm definitely projecting that i might have to tap in and i got some things for you but i think sometimes it's like interesting because like those kind of like philosophical ideas that are much more like girl just let go like they'd be in the chat like why are you worried like you decided to be worried i'd be like why the fuck would you know like i'd be like are you fucking serious like yeah you fucking know everything since you got your fucking degree like it's almost harder work really it's almost harder work it really is and you know it has me weak as fuck and i mean like there's a truth to this to an extent kind of but like it's i'm like weak as fuck because like when they would talk about like satanism you know and i shit to talk on satan which is like girl actually i'm not even gonna go there today i'm actually keep it right here close to the chest yeah totally i'm not even gonna dig up those bag of bones but they'd be like you know what satan wants you to do he wants you to rely on yourself and satan wants you to listen to yourself that's like their big teaching is satan's all about i like he wants you to be alone he wants you to like look to yourself for the answers look that's that's gaggy oh mama that's all oh i'll tell you one motherfucking better this whole idea of like if you're going through it right like we be looking to the stars like dead ass mercury retrograde like like motherfucking clockwork bitch no shade like i don't even be in astrology's ass like that but like light clockwork mercury retrograde happens and i'm like all of a sudden shit a little natalie none to the left you know like it's only pattern recognition at this point like they would be like they'd low-key call that spiritual warfare and be like oh like your shit the devil's testing you like the devil's trying to like get you down right now you're just under spiritual warfare like you need to pray you need to fast you need to do all this shit and i'm just like i like think about that and honestly when i think about shit that would like perpetuate the fuck out of my ocd low-key of course are you kidding me are you kidding me holy shit i was literally like just talking about this in therapy but like literally one thing that i would do with my life is like i don't even know what to do with my life and i'm like i don't even know what to do with my life i don't even know what to do with my life i don't even know what to do with my life i don't even know what to do with my life i don't even know what to do with my life i don't even know if you know about it but it's just like we can't we can't talk here but like there's an email in my bio like that shit's so crazy and like it really is just so insane like dead the fuck ass like the indoctrination and the craziest part is of being indoctrinated at one point in your life is i just remember telling people like saying like literally watching videos on youtube like videos of people being like why i left christianity and why i left like this and that and really being like damn that's so sad like they just like don't understand and i'd never leave like i'd oh my god wow okay wow it's real as fuck it's really it's trill as fuck it's very trill it's it's yeah like really it's so funny that religion is such a big the biggest arguably the biggest when i think about just like we don't want to talk about the socioeconomical state of the world it's like it plays such a large part in you know our society also the society at large the globe where are you from the world yet we never have i mean to its point like i think that kind of upholds its strength in some ways but like we never have just like we don't have much conversation about it or we don't have much like just like dialogue about those things which obviously i mean yeah i mean i only had a real quick brush with the law type shit like i did have a very quick and i did go to like i guess that thought of like don't rely on self gags me because the only time that i'd really been to church they'd been kind of these like growing up i would like go with my grandma and stuff but they would always be those kind of like you know them non-denominational like they kind of just be like keep your chin up all right like you know look to them if you need some but like you know it's like it was never really that like damnation tease um i only got that like for a quick lick arguably and the part of my life that was the most impressionable which is when i was like 14 15 16 like i did that like the fine shit went to youth camp and shit so like we were like i don't know just trying to like it was stupid no pr wasn't crazy oh pure sickening because all like the popular kids from like other schools went to the shit and i'd be like all right like let me go see something and then i would like witness people like crying barefoot like singing up the prayers and like that's when they introduced me to the idea of like oh do you want to like bring your parents here next week because if not like have you heard of hell i was like what like i literally was like i heard some but i didn't know like i didn't know i thought i don't know i don't know um but even that i think like got to that point of like we also don't want to talk about i think everything it's like what came first the chicken or the egg in terms of like religion and also just like society at large which is like very influenced by religion but sometimes there go that thought bitch like there go that one intrusive thought that's like like i'll literally be like making eggs and i'm like if y'all write about this one oh if y'all right it's about to get awkward but then ultimately too i'm just like guys to the christian shout out if you believe in damnation like period i guess like i don't know but i'm just kind of like that was about to sound hella what's the word when you're like disrespectful to like blasphemous i was about to say something so blasphemous loki think of another way to say it didn't you make all this grandma meme didn't you make all this like i'm kind of just like that was always my thought when i was young as i was like i thought y'all said god was in me though like i'm sitting here like didn't you like i don't know i don't know we're all part of the collective and i just feel like we don't talk about that enough and like it's just like everything is just like perfect and in your perfect timing so i don't know but that's that's to say i was just a little gagged like the first time that i heard like there's somebody out there tempting you i was like who and what do you look like you know what i mean like i was like wait like i thought we all have like the divine light in us yeah and like i thought we were all part of like a collective like god like everywhere in the wall so i was just kind of like oh i didn't know there was like another guy i mean like no the real gags the ones i feel like low key because there would be like people who like had seen shit for real totally and the shit that would like scare the fuck out of me was like when people would be possessed and shit did you see okay well low key oh man man man the possession the possession as fuck bro i never got the like okay this holy ghost did you have have you seen someone possessed before sal no not like with my own too did you see the holy ghost vibe no you know when the girls get like taken over by the ghost never was and you know what's crazy is again though girl not to be like whatever but when i think about like christianity as a philosophy and as a thing that we make real by conjuring it in the sense that if everybody's like feel the spirit feel the spirit you got like music going you got everybody is very hyped up i totally understand from like an art perspective like why i would be like baby the goat like the holy you know what i mean like i totally understand how we know the point to where it's like yeah olivia's olivia rodriguez new album but put a pin in that honestly play that maximum volume and like a bitch who can really sang for real yeah low key i'm gonna conjure some shit up too like well yeah that's the thing like that's what gags me is it's like there is in kind of like the rubble of like how we've gotten to this place of like homophobia and like misogyny whatever in the rubble but that's what i mean there's something kind of gorge here no here's the tea okay here's the motherfucking tea right now if you were like to read the new testament you know what i mean which is like when jesus comes on the scene it's the forgiveness era like it's like the forgiveness tour it's like the sweetness like you know like jesus is like loving and forgiving like that's honestly where they ate the fuck down teas like low key with the new testament and like that's the tea but like whatever we don't have to unpack all this but it's just like with the new testament they ate so nasty and like the teachings in there are really so beautiful and like low key like like a lot of the scripture there is like girl y'all were eating the fuck down like you know what i mean like there's really some bars up in that bitch yeah here's the problem though like here's the problem though because even like when you look to like the leader like the spiritual leaders of the time like in the bible and shit it's like they were low-key like going through the mud like they weren't like all that and a bag of chips at the motherfuck all and i think that's where shit got like mad fucking twisted because like low key there's like no more humility anymore when it comes to like i'm not i don't know i'm not talking about like your mom and pop church like i'm sure there's a lot of humility there and like honestly for me that was my experience like my church in arizona was like way chill mad fucking chill mad fucking like stay easy bro like pastors mad fucking nice like whatever and like low-key anyone who was on their greed shit it's like it's literally it's that greed shit for real and like honestly i feel like that's what has the church so cooked especially now because it's like not even just christianity anymore i feel like in 2020 and honestly once trump became president it was that fix into like now it's like a nationalism thing yeah and that's honestly why we're so fucked because it's like i don't know the church has always been problematic all the churches in all its forms like whatever but it's like i really was like damn like a trump supporter christian is like absolutely gaggy because it's like how can you like support all this hate and trump and then literally be like talking about like the fruitfulness of his love right because it's like y'all really like some evil like cognitive dissonance shit where it's like you could literally be like that's evil and it's like no why not like it's just well because i fear and again i'll send you the link to this video literally was watching it this morning but like on a smaller scale turning into a bigger scale the first thing that comes to my mind is like i think listen i know that sometimes i can be like a little too optimistic like i know like i'm not the friend to come key to like if you just try to be like that bitch like she's dank like that's just like not really my judge but like specifically because i strongly believe that when you cast judgment on others you do not want to talk about how even just like scientifically in the brain what you're telling your subconscious is i'm better than like it's giving me like when you just start like oh yeah i don't like i saw i don't even want to get into it but i was watching for some reason i was watching dean withers and it's just like that rage bait shit shout out dean like literally i don't even know how you like live to like i just like don't even know whatever but i was watching it on facebook that girl where she was talking about the maga divas where he baited the maga divas i'm not even it was just the whole thing but i was just i was watching all of these women be like yeah i would rather this than like a gay man it's like do you guys not understand that the judgment that you cast upon others and this like weird twisted backwards way it's like yeah that totally makes sense to me because that also waters the fruit of like this nobility shit like oh you guys are all like judgment like you deserve this judgment you deserve this judgment you deserve this judgment and it simply doesn't reflect on me because like i'm just like like this girl my sister did you see the one where she literally had the maga hat and the cross and she was like she was talking about how jet or not gender she was talking about how sexuality is a choice of course classic and she was like yeah like you choose your attraction and like da da da da da and he was like okay well then be attracted to women then and she in a little a little glitch like there go the glitch well when i was younger you can be hi this weekend this weekend hit it hit it hit it we can't talk here send us an email take the hat off take the shit off come to la there's some nasty ass bitches who go literally have you worked out we can talk about something but then again it's like this idea that all these things are so cyclical like this judgment that you cast upon others that you're like putting yourself in this like ironclad like i'm like but i'm not but like i'm not it's like girl loving smoke here's this here literally here's the tea it's just smoke it's literally smoke for no goddamn reason because here's the shit that gags the fuck out of me at the church that i went to like if you were actively in sin is what they would say so like if you were like drink literally anything you could not be on platform mind you the idea of a platform shut the literal fuck up but okay there we go there we go the hiring and the lowering right because how could you cast judgment from the same plane as me you see yes right so here's the tea mind you here's the tea let me air out some shirt real fucking quick that honestly it's just like if you want to talk about like why christians have me weak as fuck and honestly if you want to wake up anything dead the fuck up ass wake up the handmaid's tale for motherfucking real because all those girls who want to talk all that shit like on their serena joy shit literally talking about literally erica kirk shit like genuinely serena joy is fucking erica kirk as fuck except like serena joy i don't know i'm gonna see what her like i don't know who that is but i don't want to know loki here's her tea oh yes her tea is the fact that like the handmaid's tale yes before they like switch to becoming handmaid's tale this is not spoiler at all it's i'm not gonna that shit like almost took my soul out okay loki here's the tea so she was like on her erica kirk shit with her husband fred right and they were like literally dead ass doing what like charlie and erica would do which is like go to school campuses and literally be like this is why we aren't having babies anymore this is why our world's so polluted it's because of this it's because we need to turn back to god all this stuff it works and like she radicalizes enough people of course for them to literally handmaid's tale the tea is her tea and the show is like they can't read they can't write they can't do anything she's smart as fuck she went to school she's educated she has multiple books she written and shit and like the one time she tries to like you know all of a sudden she got all this privilege her husband got it but she's loki like can do so much more and like she has all these ideas and whatever and then she realizes the fate of these handmaids and everyone the marthas and like all the people who like get treated like shit she has the same fate as them because y'all dead ass let men run the world dead the fuck ass and you know the men they don't give a fuck period end of story i don't know y'all watch it for yourselves because there's like mad it's so fucking good it's so good like the tea there is like insane but it's like when it comes to those people and like when i think of like for example that idea of like casting judgment and stuff literally i'm gonna air y'all out i don't give a fuck like genuinely send me an email for real i don't give a fuck this is the truth i have the receipts like literally i'm like hella charlie i have the receipts weak as fuck you can't be on the stage talking on platform whatever the fuck that means at this church but you know the pastor doing what i want by natalie nutt but here's the tea so like for example in college like there was like someone who was like had a girlfriend and they were actively you know like doing the do he got to be on platform there was like a couple that lived together who were they were on platform for a little bit but if you were gay you couldn't be on platform right but like if you were like having sex you would they would be like okay you guys can't do that anymore allegedly did they stop we don't fucking know how would we know how would we know the couple that lived together they weren't allowed to be on platform they weren't allowed to be on platform anymore allegedly but like he was still like hella close to the pastor because he made like mad bread so whatever um natalie none to the left uh but like best friends with like the kardashians and stuff like very okay i'm not even gonna go there where i am gonna go is like we weren't allowed to drink we weren't allowed to we were like not allowed to do fucking anything obviously because we're in christian fucking college but tell me why with the church's funds they would have these parties for people who were like either the best servers like would serve their hearts out and were like in charge of teams right and or donated the most money they would have these like family literally called family dinners and at the family dinners us college students would be the fucking caterers like we would literally have to go get the food cater the shit like do all this fucking shit and then we'd get bottles of wine so there's drinking so they'd be drinking people would get fucking drunk at these parties and i'm literally 21 like serving these fucking parties mind you could have actually been doing anything else but that's not that's besides the point everything the party keeps going they literally when this happened when i on the church's fucking dime mind you you're my money my my from my 700 check the 10 i gave off the top the collective church money mind you is what they use for this use that money to dead ass then go and i had with another girl buy a bottle of casamigos for this party and then i got in trouble because i left the bottle out yeah oh yeah because i was so mad mind you treated us like dog shit bro literally because like okay we went got the bottle came back and they were giving this whole speech about like thank you guys whatever we're not gonna do anything we're sitting in the car and our lights are like flashing in because it's like all glass so like when we're in the driveway we're like flashing in so like i don't know our lights are like low-key blinding people the pastor's wife turns around gives me the dirtiest fucking look like you're a dumb dirty bitch and so we turn the lights off sit in the car sitting with a bottle of casamigos like literally treated like casamigos like strapped in the back literally treated like fucking slaves genuinely actually no cap bro go inside and i mad as fuck literally here put the left the bottle right there what what's there to hide y'all use the church's money why are y'all trying to hide the bottle we should be blessing we should be blessing the bottle throw that on brazil's plane holy water the holy water one then one of the pastors at the church was like what is this doing here you're lying why why is this out what we we need to put this away what is this you're lying and put it away in a cabinet throw it out throw it out then you won't you won't gag it you won't bitch you won't and that's and oh i mean like literally you know that preachers and sneakers shit i was thinking about this the other day i was actually thinking about this the pastor would be on that fucking web like that instagram page features and sneakers in the yeah because he literally had bitch the saint laurent boots the off-white the ysl baby girl okay mind you no one's getting paid period i'm literally like oh my dad said if your account goes negative one more time and i have to put more money in you're about to get handled yeah like you're done babe and so i'm like barely making it out here but like no i was like you know what y'all like he's an author he writes books like rely upon they reply upon people with good faith yeah so i was like no surely like there's a reason now thinking about like how all this shit's happened mind you also built a brand new house like literally brand new house just okay of the lord of the lord okay taxes up oh that's sickening oh if i was taxing that's if i was taxing oh i'd be on literally pieces of sneakers like this like i'd literally be in beverly hills right now like okay whatever so so on this website literally getting lit the fuck up i'm weak as shit like whatever but i'm not weak as shit i was actually mad i was like that's so fucked up like that's so wrong like like he doesn't use the church's money like it's his money that's the church's money whatever i was dumb i was a bird back then whatever well no and that's no what but i was indoctrinated i was indoctrinated the indoctrination yeah like what else are you supposed to think yeah of course you'd be like obviously there's no way you're using the money from the church find a reason that makes sense to you because like how else could it be true yes of course so it's like they do this big church conference and like all these pastors come and this is when like nike blazers like off-white they came out with the nike blazers love like or relaunch them i know nike blazers have literally been around forever but like off-white like repopulize them so he was like i want a pair of nike blazers to preach in at this conference and so his assistant texted me it was like hey dom can you go to undefeated and get him a pair of shoes and i was like oh my god of course like i was like so happy and honored right i go to undefeated use my own money because they were like we'll reimburse you i use my own money to buy the shoes it literally came out to 174 i'll never forget i bought two pairs of shoes i was like 174 like i'm gonna need that back like literally venmo instant yeah like instantly back in my account so i buy the shoes drop them off not even a thank you cool go about the conference where i literally get run ragged okay yes like weeks pass for whatever reason i'm on like a net 30 i don't know why not actually but like no but like for real they were giving me net 30 and i was like no and i was pressing them low keys i was like hey guys so like i actually am like broke as shit and like yeah that's like my like money that i used to like you know go to trader joe's and stuff so like yeah yeah are you kidding me so they they pay me back finally the church like paid me out and in my mind i was like oh well i'm sure like it's because you know like he and whatever but like on the church it was like on the check it was the church's name on it and that's when i was like i i mean still i was like you know like i was like oh no no i'm i'm sure like they just paid me out but then he's gonna take money out of his account and then like replace it no bitch he they just straight up like back to og you me back in 2019 no bitch he sure as fuck used the church's money to buy shoes from undefeated and they got stolen out the shower we didn't even wear the shoes loki forgot about them me i'm sitting hurting for like 174 dollars and like of course my money low key because it's like all the 10 i take off the motherfucking top y'all are putting like towards me for like you know what i mean so it's like i'm low-key i just used like i just recycled my own shit yeah and i'm sitting here like you know because it's a tax write-off when you donate your 10 and all this shit and yada yada yada wada wada wada and i'm just sitting here like and you taxes them too why why why in the off-whites why like in the off-whites why why is your ministry where you speak at different churches and the church one financial conglomeration yeah so like you're all like you're like you're like you're like you're like you're like you're like you're like you're like you're like you're like if i was tax-exempt sure as fuck i'm buying a house sure as fuck i'm like girl literally buying celebrities cartier this and that but we don't want to talk about bruno we don't want to talk about bruno and it's just really like even hearing stuff like that it is so insane to me you know obviously not being in that mindset because i'm like you guys built the prison yourself you can have cost amigos i can only imagine that like literally like the divine being done formulated the cost amigos from the ground found the people to figure like figure out the formula like make the cost me though so it's like you put yourself in a prison and then you hold yourself to this standard oh mind you wife mad as shit she a pastor's wife and not a kardashian oh we don't want to go there though we don't want to go there it's just like literally mean as fuck wife mean as fuck literally rude as fuck mad as fuck every damn day that she's sitting there at that church instead of literally being a kardashian baby girl you know what actually if they see this for whatever reason here's what i gotta say to y'all they won't see this but if they do here here let's have a key because i like don't give a fuck about y'all tbh y'all like low-key like ghetto um miss mama be an influencer just fucking be an influencer same to this guy too be a fucking influencer too kid i'm gonna say king i'm not gonna call you king because you there's nothing kingly about you but um that's actually the problem so i'm gonna call you kid like good sir go be a motherfucking influencer go be christian influencer right okay so something did fall and it's just like let me lower my let me let me change my toes just like oh sorry guys okay oh hold on hold on maybe you got on okay there was a divine intervention there you maybe got okay um let me fix my let me fix my time let me fix my time no they said the lawsuit incoming let's go ahead and change that vernacular here's what i have to say to you y'all do the most i'm sorry can you see i'm sorry i'm sorry um y'all do the most to do the least and instead y'all should literally just be fucking influencers like there's some passers like genuinely right now i know one actually two that i'm like y'all three y'all are doing some shit that i'm like it's pure of heart like genuinely you would do this for free you would do this if you had one dollar in your account whatever you know what i mean like you do it genuinely for the love of the game but there's like hella passers out there that don't do it for the love of the game and actually realize how much money is in the game and now it's like shit's fucked up and it's like bro all i can say at the end of the day is that i'm not a fan of the game i'm not a fan of the is like just please be fucking influencers and like leave because it's like how are you going to preach about like god got you but like some people genuinely going to church for like hope because they can't pay rent like it's just like you can't be like preaching this message and like doing people dirty as fuck and like treating people bad as fuck and like low-key on some like abusive shit and like no one's getting paid no nothing it's like for the love of the game but then you get a like ball out till you fall out yeah i don't think so i don't think so yeah yeah totally i think they're definitely you know to that point like there are there is power and like light and understanding and connection that is possible yeah however the girls do get in there like why exactly are we doing this like it's my ego boots like it's just like like boots it's my ego boots it's my ego boots and it's like yeah i think that's because then you over here treating people not well and doing all this stuff politicians too because it's like it's the same shit low-key because it's like if politicians if there was no money in politics like there used to be back in the disney when it was like john adams and shit like it was like some ball and they were like writing it on a piece of parchment yeah like it was like some volunteer shit where it's like okay who from your community you're sending out to like voice your opinions and then y'all tell it to us and we'll just like fix some shit if genuinely for and they would never do this in a million fucking years obviously but if we wanted to be a proper country um which were that's not happening so if more of us wanted to be like if more of us wanted to be proper like on some like mom donnie but whatever i'm donnie it's just like if we really had people out here like for the love of the game like there was no money in it for the love of thy neighbor you could say oh but they don't even do that they don't want to talk about that so unfortunately so it's just like and all we can do is do our part and like have upstairs yeah literally i guess you know yeah everything in divine timing and for some reason so so it's just like this is i guess my church technically yeah except not at all guys do whatever like i just i i get so confused at how much like splendor and like love and connection there is in the world and then like for some reason this human thing of like restricting ourselves and casting judgment on people it's like we're all kind of just like the same we're all just like vibing and we're all living life for the first time so like personally i'm kind of like i don't understand like how i could possibly preach to y'all that some of y'all doing it wrong and some of y'all doing it right i also am just like i don't give a fuck yeah that's the real tea at the end of the day is like y'all are yeah like the prisons y'all put yourselves in it's just like dude like literally don't give a shit if you wear a breastplate cool if you literally you know like i like beaches on in weho girl thank god no and i'm like actually enjoy the world like can we enjoy the splendors of the world like i'm literally like please please and also if you want to literally you know spend your sundays at church praising the lord like thank you then praise be to the most high like i ain't going like you know like yuck you're yum totally because like you know there's this tea but i can only just like yuck like when people start saying yuck i'm like guys why are we yucking i'm only yeah i'm only yucking people who genuinely need to shut the fuck up like genuinely if all of a sudden you want to be in control you want to be head honcho you want to be like the person who telling everyone what the fuck to do it's just like i am gonna have to tell you to shut your fucking trap hole i am i am because it's like shut your bitch ass up yeah for real shut your bitch ass up let the girls be and let them figure out their lives and just say we all got something in us you know what i mean yeah that's why we're here that's why we feel things so it's no tea it's no tea at all and genuinely it's like so man-made like you know like it really is that man-made shit so it's like go like do you type for real and it's just like if you want cost amigos like bitch i ain't going girl have you a cost amigos because i'm like does anybody want to talk about how we got the cost amigos but it's just like the magic of the cost amigos like the fact you can have cost amigos well they can't have cost amigos either which is why would you fucking bring that in here literally but i'm like nobody wants to talk about i don't know what tequila is made of but like again not to be like gods in a strawberry but i'm like y'all want to talk about god let's break down let's see the whole process of the cost amigos how many hands it took how many people it took who came up with the idea where did that come from there you go god right there there you go now when i'm literally throwing up like what i just ate because i done did too much that's on me it's man that's on me y'all let's that's on me let's separate the two right right and even then maybe i'm not mad at cost amigos hold on and this is what i mean we just need to learn something from this learn something from this the the the void of accountability because it's just like i hold myself accountable every time i do some shit where i'm like girl you did too much well and that's like genuinely that's where the alchemy lies and also i fear where they did eat where religion does eat is like again the guilt and shame of it all and this idea that like we must rely upon this external source to be the judge of our character and like the good or bad when it's like baby god in you that's that shit that when i throw up and i wake up the morning the next morning and i feel like and i'm like i'm doing that again there you go right there boom there she go there they go boom there it is right there and that's all i need right there i'm like listen hey thank you because that's real like literally me sweating in bed like nine in the morning i'm like thank you for saying that that's really true like next no like literally runny waterproof eyeliner that won't come off like no and thank you okay and i'm like and heard next time like one less tequila soda yeah one less just one less and like the makeup from last night on it's just like oh wow no it's just like okay got it all good got it all good love thank you and if that's your show just run it back ain't no tea you know what i mean let's run it back but also be be safe out there drink responsibly and all that but you know as hell um but yeah so it's just like i don't know well that was everything that was awkward like every time we come we're like i don't know what we're gonna talk about and it's literally that's like and then if you look in the trees like you can see like it's like okay stars in the moon the stars in the moon um because who put the stars in the moon there see y'all and that's what i'm saying y'all play and look at the moon last night you know she was a key let's talk about the splendors of the world new moon and gemini as well oh wow so boom beep beep beep beep no and mine my shit's beeping like um and we don't want to yeah right i uh million grains of sand on the beach um okay so yeah well watch yes i have one happy and ready to go guys olivia rodrigo first off let me talk to my filipinos do y'all know about olivia rodrigo have y'all heard of her um i mean she okay so obviously driver's license had us in 2020 like freaking the was that 2020 yeah freaking the fuck out like she's you know and high school musical the musical the series like she's an absolute star obviously you know disney know how to find a star well and disney gonna make it like you know they gonna make it happen um she's absolutely every 2021 your birthday oh really isn't it crazy that like i swear olivia and i like there's just like something girl there's just like i don't know it's like we're both filipino or like right but it's just like there's something about olivia and like born on the same day and like yeah wait really no oh i was like is she a capricorn that makes sense might be let's see when her birthday is okay she's a querious pisces oh pisces because she's not a gymna well you know what in her new song she has a lyric where it's like pisces and a gemini okay that would be us here's the tea i need to talk to you olive um can i call you um send us an email no listen you i mean incredible work by the way i'm sure no one's told you yet but there is something there you have something there that is just you should try to like you should or something you should take this somewhere stick with it you should take this because this new album mama let me tell you girl yeah girl it is so it's all i'm listening to right now it's gonna be my most listened to album this is the only album of hers that i've listened to for a long time front to back back to front like baby girl trust if i have anything to do with it you will get to a million streams yes mine she has like a billion like yes um we will handle you right we will handle you and like the philippines got you don't you even worry um but in englewood i want to go to her music festival that she has oh she has an all-women's music festival wait and it's like rock baby like quiet light so everything kill like it's going to be insane oh wow that's everything um so i'm just gonna have to like figure out a way to like still get in there like resell about to be crazy as shit um but like it's in irvine too oh wow yeah and it's her first time doing it it's gonna be so the lineup like absolutely oh she is so everything right she is so everything i you know when it comes to like the big like fucking artists like this like the billy eyelash the like all the girls who like really you know yeah do it she made ski that's what i mean quiet like santa claus the breeders baby oh wow radio like she has the she knows ball yeah she knows ball cat's eye like fuck it cv nick sure like it's sure it's just like baby yes all this yeah no it's just like stevie looking around like my pussy bill no my pussy bill all this like yeah but like no cap like genuinely she is just really taking it right now yeah and she's been taking it for years and i'm like new to this the club but it's just like baby girl miss olivia rodrigo i feel like when it comes to like the really big artists like this what i was gonna say is like i've never you know i had my brush with phoebe bridgers and like not you know i didn't know that she was all that now like you know not she's been all that and she's been that girl like whatever i've got to say but like i went to warfare and it's been a long time since i've gone to war for a ticket right and it's like miss olivia i fear i might have to be in the pit i've never wanted to be in the pit for an artist before i've been very unk with it i've been very like i need to know how to exit and how to get in how to get out like but for the first time in my life i might have to get with the what are they the the rodrigo's what did she call the olives i don't think so what did she call her fan base um livies yeah i clocked it we're we're just so connected or rodrigo's rodrigo's and here's the thing or olives the olives oh i knew it allegedly from reddit okay i just like know a lot and like it's just like girl i know don't worry love what you're doing keep it up right and like you have a bright future in music i would agree with that yeah so i don't know why it feels like that but yeah yeah um you should do like anr or something with like artists because you have like an eye for them yeah you haven't picked them out really early like before they like i was literally thinking that honestly you should send her a dm yeah you should see if she has like management yeah okay yeah she probably doesn't yet but i'm gonna make sure i get in there yeah um and if anyone's selling their daisy chain fields um ticket i'm ready i'm ready to buy send it i'm ready to buy and i would like to do the um pit viewing ticket yes i was ready for it are they still for sale are they still for sale well you can request them i guess oh yeah i won't put me in how many you want to request we wait wait wait wait wait wait wait okay we can talk about this off camera that is insane but that one's for like the the essentially an artist pass okay the other one's like work mama the other ones are mad chill okay tight how long is the festival just a day i think i would spend that much i would spend that much to see her live right now that's how much her music is speaking to me yes and then like literally like the fifty thousand dollar wedding so it's just like i don't know um 20 20 25 20 no 20 is good you locked in on 20 honestly first youtube video my twenty twenty twenty thousand dollar wedding 20 20 literally yes well that'd be a good video a twenty thousand dollar wedding we could plan it we'll talk um cool cool oh yeah sorry my neighborhood watch is yeah glow by glorilla i fear that like i fear she also did one of those like affirmation ass songs and it's really been speaking to me lately it's like the same vibe is like doing what i want i mean obviously older song like everybody knows it but just it came out like it's like i'm like i'm like i'm like i'm like came back on my rotation and i'm like she's also doing affirmations it's such a high vibrational song like get him glow these bitches fraudulent and you know you're the truth like yeah glow um i'll dm glow and see if she has management as well no yeah yeah and just see what's happening she might honestly sav do you want to tell us your neighborhood watch in the context of you're watching marvel and which one's your favorite so far sure yes i am um working my way through all the marvel films chronologically like in chronological order and i thought i had seen more of them than i actually have because i'm like seeing people on screen for the first time and being like you're in this movie or you're this character oh because it all that's the old testament yeah you want to talk about the new testament that's like the old testament and one of the only like movie franchises i've actually worked my way through a couple times right for some reason right so trying to finish that before the new spider-man comes out right but um like i know i know what's happening but i just never watched them in full right currently on thor um love and it's it's been it's been good to be like yeah i like thor thor's cute it's cute it's cute i feel like yeah my i like iron the iron man's oh the iron man's those are the ones i have seen that's amongst a few others but then have you gotten to age of ultron yet no holler at me when you get to age yeah it had me like captain america captain marvel right captain marvel after captain america yeah chronologically you're going chronologically in terms of the story yeah not chronologically but if you would advise a different order i'm open to it yeah i'm open to it yeah i'm open to it yeah i'm open to it still rocket brother hell yeah captain marvel though i have beef with her we all know this i bringing it up like probably twice a year genuinely wrote my thesis on that fucking propagandist bullshit so but period that so but yeah captain marvel yeah having a good time and um yeah we'll let you know as i find things out for the first time let me know about agent voltron okay when you do oh wow yeah because that's absolutely excellent work they did um well yeah well we love you guys and love yourselves more important yes love yourselves like you have all the acceptance and forgiveness in there sometimes you just gotta dig deep brother i know something about that you know what i mean and like shout out everybody shout out the christians and like shout out the catholics shout out the buddhists shout out my muslim divas like shout out everybody in this literally shout out anyone and everyone like shout out everybody um okay love y'all boom peace on any journey using uber it helps to know you're getting into the right car pin verification adds an extra step to make sure your ride is your ride before the trip 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