Chris Williamson: If You Don't Fix This Now, 2026 Is Already Over!

"Stop taking life so seriously. No one is getting out of this game alive, and in three generations, no one will even remember your name. And if that doesn't give you liberation, to just drop your f***ing problems for a moment and find some joy, I don't know what will. Because there'll never be a time when there's no problems in life, and that's why this time in between Christmas and New York is a really wonderful time to plan big dreams and goals for the year." "So let's talk about that." Chris Williamson is one of the world's leading podcast hosts and thinkers, and now he's back. "Educating us on how to build discipline, turning goals into results, what's stopping us finding love, and what makes a good man in today's society." The single best question to work out what you should be doing next year. What would have to happen by the end of 2026? For me to look back and consider it a success, and it usually comes down to only a few things. The first one is in order to pick something up, you have to put something down. So setting the bar unrealistically high does not increase your performance. Like you could probably lose 20 pounds and get a boyfriend. You can't do that and move cities and starting your business, so make the assumption I can do no more than I'm doing now. Second thing, the life was a movie, and the audience were watching what would they be screaming at the screen, telling you to do with your life. It is obvious. Leave the relationship. The job is not working for you. The kill is hiding in the cupboard, because if you're not careful with how you design, what it is that you chase after, you can spend your entire life realizing that you climbed a huge f***ing ladder that was leaning against the wrong wall. And is there anything else? So there is a wonderful upside in trying to conquer and trying to achieve mastery, trying to really drive yourself to go and do stuff, but I'm not like f***ing your feelings just hustle and grind until your eyes bleed either. Because one of the biggest lessons I've taken away from this year is suppression isn't the same thing as strength, and it's a good thing the guys who feel their emotions to show that they feel their emotions, right? Like I've been at some of my lowest points over the last 12 months. It felt like my better self was slipping through my fingers. I realized my emotions are legitimate, and denying myself that is not helping anything at all. What happened? Just give me 30 seconds of your time. Two things I wanted to say. The first thing is a huge thank you for listening and tuning into the show. Week after week means the world to all of us, and this really is a dream that we absolutely never had and couldn't have imagined getting to this place, but secondly, it's a dream where we feel like we're only just getting started. And if you enjoy what we do here, please join the 24% of people that listen to this podcast regularly and follow us on this app. Here's a promise I'm going to make to you. I'm going to do everything in my power to make this show as good as I can now and into the future. We're going to deliver the guests that you want me to speak to, and we're going to continue to keep doing all of the things you love about this show. Thank you Chris. My audience care a lot about changing their life for the better. And I think at this time of year, change is front of mind for everybody. Everybody's thinking about New Year's resolutions, who I want to become in 2026. But when you look at the stats, 23% of people quit by the end of the first week of January. Their New Year's resolution, the thing they aimed at, roughly half of people will quit their New Year's resolution, the change they sought by the end of January. And only about 9% of people will keep their New Year's resolution for the full year. So I guess my opening question to you is does this time of year matter at all? Is it a useful productive time to be thinking about change in your point of view? I think the world is split into two camps. One camp says there is no difference between January 1st and December 31st. Why wait? Just December 10th, just do it now. And the other camp likes the idea of there being a culturally appropriate moment to stop doing something and start doing something else. Most people need to realize that they're already spending tons of time worrying about the future in the past. They're going back to this thing that they regret. I wish I'd done this differently. Oh, I have rumination about something that occurred. I have a sense of a wistfulness for something that I've maybe missed. I'm grief for something that I've lost. And then they're concerned about the future. They think I'm uncertain about this thing that's going to happen. I could plan. I could try and come up with a solution for this. So you're already worrying about the past. You're already doing reflection and planning just in a very unstructured way where you don't get to choose when it hits you in the face. This is a culturally appropriate moment, like a scheduling appropriate moment. If you just step in and think, okay, in between Christmas and New Year, people that work in retail, God bless you, people that go back to work and do that thing, but usually there's a bit of downtime. It's a little bit slower. Boxing day, chilling out in the couch. I mean, you're kind of thinking, wow, I was here again at Mum and Dad's house or with the in-laws or whatever. What was it doing last year? What was it like last year? You're already in a little bit of a reflective mode. There is no special magic super secret squirrel source in January 1st, but it is a good moment to check in because life tends to slow down a little bit. Work time is a little bit more slow, and you're already doing this. You're already thinking about the past and the future, and this is just a good structured opportunity to check in and do it. I guess the question that everybody should be asking themselves is, what should I aim at? And is there such a thing as aiming at too many things? What is a good goal for change? When you think about all the people you've interviewed and the change you've seen in your own life. What does a productive, near-resolutional, productive goal sound like? And how do I get there? Yeah, it's very overwhelming. If you realize, wow, I can do anything I want. I could look at my entire life. Let's terrifying. That's absolutely terrifying. One thing I would say, this is your opportunity to change anything. Behaviorally, you can change anything you want. Not everything you want, right? That's the problem. You can become anything you want, behaviorally, but you can't be everything you want. So you need to pick a small number. The single best question to work out what you should be doing next year. For me to look back on 2026 and consider it a success. I think that really helps to just give you a bit more perspective. And it usually comes down to only a few things. You don't usually have so much in your mind when you do that. Setting the bar unrealistically high does not increase your performance. Imagine this. Imagine that you went into a buffet and you made your plate as big as possible. You said, I want all of these things. I'm going to put all of this stuff on my plate. And my stomach is going to expand to be able to fit it. That's not the way that our stomachs work. And that is not the way that our workloads work. So first rule, in order to pick something up, you have to put something down. Don't assume that just because you've loaded more onto your workload plate, your work capacity will expand to be able to fit it into your stomach. That's not the way that it works. Assume, make the assumption, I can do no more than I'm doing now. I can switch stuff, but I can't add more in. Maybe you can. Maybe you're going to be able to squeeze your phone time. Maybe you're going to be able to come more efficient, more productive, whatever. But it's safer to just assume this is the pie that I'm playing with. And in order to pick something up, I have to put something down. That's a really important thing. Because at the moment, it's December 29th, I'm full of gusto and motivation and I can't wait. I'm going to crush it. And yeah, for the first week, maybe you've got that. But if you're using motivation and enthusiasm to work yourself through your goals, your goals are predicated largely on a fuel source that you don't have control over. Don't have a massive amount of control over your motivation over a long amount of time. Like it comes and then it goes. You want something that's a little bit more rigid. So in order to pick something up, you have to put something down. I think that's a really important point. Because when we think about the goals, we'll start setting it this time of the year. All of them are asking for more time or more energy. Like pretty much all of them are asking, I want to start running. I want to start going to the gym. Whereas, as you say, that means I'm going to have to take something off the plate. We don't think about subtraction at this time of the year typically. We don't think I'm going to spend less time with my friends. I'm going to cut out Netflix. We think of addition. But logically, there's still just the 24 hours in a day and the finite amount of any body budget that we have in terms of energy. So are you saying that I have to create both an addition and subtraction list and make sure that they equal out, they net out to zero? That would be optimal. I think one question that you really should be asking yourself, let's go through a bunch of uncomfortable questions, people can ask themselves, that could be cool. How would I spend my day if I wanted to make 85 year old me as miserable as possible? What is it that I did over the last year that made me right now feel there's constriction? I don't like my relationship with my phone. I spend a lot of the time on my phone. I don't like how my mornings aren't very productive. I've noticed that when I'm with my friends, I'm not very present. I've noticed that I spend a lot of time on my own. I tend to isolate when things get difficult. I've noticed that I've got into the habit of not telling the truth when people ask me a question. I've noticed that I've got into the habit of advocating for my needs when I should do. I don't hold my boundaries sufficiently well. This is why the reflection parts are really important. What would I do to make 85 year old me as miserable as possible? How would I spend my day and in what ways am I already doing that? Well, a lot of those are going to cross over. That Venn diagram is not going to be as far apart as you might think it is. I've heard you ask the question before about if someone was watching this in it was a movie. This question is so fantastic. If your life was a movie and the audience were watching up to this point, what would they be screaming at the screen telling you to do with your life? It is obvious. The kill is hiding in the cupboard. What would the audience be screaming at the screen telling you to do with your life? You've asked three questions. I'm going to ask you those three questions. The first question you asked was about what would have to happen at the end of next year to look back and consider this year's success? For you personally, I want to spend more time thinking about ideas and less time caught up doing admin. Admin is a drain on me. I don't enjoy emails. I don't enjoy the operations of that sort of stuff. Spent time making? I want to be in maker mode, not manager mode, would be a way to put it. I want to spend more time with my friends. I've been solo, praner, grind set, pick it up and lift it type thing a lot for the last forever. More time with my friends. More time connecting with people. That's two things. If I can do that, spend more time with my friends and the less time doing admin. One of the problems that you have is I want to lose 20 pounds. I want to get my bench press up to 200 kilos and I want to do this. It's like, do you really, really, really want that? Because when I think about it, I have much more gentle goals. I have much broader goals. That's the stuff that I think is important to me. If we think about your subscription framework, what are you going to have to subtract? What's interesting about those is that those aren't necessarily additions. The friend's thing is an addition, but the executive functioning thing, the admin burden, is not. That's nice because I want to do less of that thing, which should hopefully open up a little bit of time. What I don't need to get rid of. I'd realistically need to get rid of some time sat in front of my computer, doing boring admin stuff. I'd probably need to spend less time scrolling on my phone, less time on social media. I would maybe need to make some sacrifices in training as well. If I'm going to go out with my friends a little bit more in an evening, I'm going to have to get up a bit later. So there's some of the trades that we're going to have to make. The other question was around if this was a movie and the audience was screaming at you. What would they be screaming? You're already doing enough. Stop whipping yourself into submission, thinking that your happiness sits on the other side of the next set of goals that you're going to achieve. You've already achieved goals that you said would make you happy. So if you haven't made it now, if this isn't when life is going to begin, then when when when are you going to start? There's this wonderful idea of the deferred life hypothesis. The deferred life hypothesis is basically the sort of common belief that our life hasn't yet begun. That what's happening now is it's sort of prelude. It's an intro to our life truly beginning. And upon reflection, what a lot of people realize is that this prelude that they run through was a mirage that sort of faded as they approached and they were actually just running toward the end of their life. Like they're permanently putting things off. I get it. People have got realistic structural monetary requirements. They've got to get up. They've got to go to work. They've got to change their nappy. They've got to walk the dog. They've got things that they need to do that's not when talking about. My point is everybody thinks a lot of people think in one form or another that my life will begin when they're holding their happiness hostage. They're in a holding pattern like a plane that can't land for some reason. It's like what if that what if that never changes? What if your problems in life are never ever going to go away? What if problems are always going to be that? What then? Oh wow. Well, I'm never going to arrive. That means I need to start living now. And I think for me there's definitely a lot of I will get there when once the tasks of today are completed once the problems are gotten through. There'll never be a time when there's no problems in life. Problems are a feature, not a bug. I sometimes wonder if this is a trait of just human evolution. Like it makes a survival sense for it to be hardwired into my genetic code to strive to basically continue to strive, like to continue to conquer, to continue to build. And in fact, maybe if my ancestors didn't have that, we wouldn't be sat in a room now with all these lights and fancy cameras and such because this is the consequence of a species that strive. And so I wonder if this is like the curse of being human, which is we just endlessly strive, and then we die. And because we did our offspring have a higher rate of survival. And like when I speak to people from, you know, like East Asian traditions and stuff, they talk about being at peace and being one and being satisfied and all these things, but it seems so alien to me to be satisfied. I think I live in a dichotomy where I'm like well aware nothing will change my happiness. And then at the same time, I'm completely striving as if it would. Well, of course, that's the human condition. We habituate in both directions. So if your ancestors had been satisfied when they got to a cave, when their family grew and they needed a bigger cave, when what, you don't just go and find one bush, you find a ton of bushes and then you expand and that gives you additional security. But unfortunately in the modern world, that causes us with an infinite amount of things that we can do and can chase after. We sacrifice the important for the urgent. The urgent's always in front of us, the email, the next meeting. Yeah. And this is again, why should anybody care about doing an annual review? I should anybody care about the new year? Well, you're busy living your life for almost the entirety of the year. And this is one moment where the urgent can just take a tiny bit of a backseat and the important can come through. Who have I been over the last year? What do I want from next year? Every single year is a chapter of your life. The next year, it's chapter 38 for me. What do I want that chapter to be about? Do you think there's a single change you could make to your life that would yield the greatest return on happiness? Like if you could go into your own hardware and rewrite the code a little bit? I think less striving would actually make me happier. I think that a lot of striving and a desire for success comes from a sense of insufficiency. Like if only the world recognized my brilliance then I will be validated. And it takes a long time to realize that you don't fix internal void to external accolades. And the problem with that is it's an unteachable lesson. You try and tell people that money won't fix your happiness problem or fame won't fix yourself worth problem. I should see a parents more. Time in a hammock is never wasted. You don't love that pretty girl. She's just hot and difficult to get. Like all of these things are only lessons that you can learn once you've got there. And people who haven't yet gotten there think well that's easy for you to say. And then when they arrive for some reason they seem to evangelize the same insights. Like somebody that's just gone through religious revelations. So either one of two things is true. People who achieve a thing are lying about the fact that that thing didn't fix their problems, their internal void with external accolades. Because they're part of some cartel that's trying to pull the ladder up after they've just gotten in. Or it's the truth. But it's an unteachable lesson. You will not understand that that thing outside won't fix your internal void until you get that. And I actually think it's an evolved quote. It's far easier to achieve a material desires than to renounce them. Like if you want a Ferrari, it's much easier to actually work real hard and try and like, oh, get some nice car, whatever it is. So that you learn that the car isn't the thing that you want. Then it is to rid yourself of the desire for the car overall. And that's not to say that getting a Ferrari is easy. It's to say that getting rid of the desire is essentially impossible. I think me and you are probably two guys that at some deep level had some kind of internal void. Is that accurate statement? Of course. Are you speaking in the past tense? You've now accomplished so much. You're one of the biggest podcasts on planet earth. You're famous, people know you're biggest in the world talking to second biggest world. Congratulations. But people know who you are. You've got money. You've got freedom now. You can go wherever you want, do whatever you want. People know who you are. You get restaurant table reservation tables. You did it. Is it what you expected? And has it actually changed that internal void? The interesting thing is I never actually thought I was going to amount to much. I was just really interested in what was doing what I was doing, what was in front of me. I didn't think this is going to lead to me being some achieving something or living in America or whatever. Each different step got me there. But no, of course not. Of course. The unteachable lesson has smashed me in the face, which is, they won't fix yourself worth. Money won't make you happy. You should see your parents more. You can take a day off. All of these lessons, you have to live them to learn them, unfortunately. Am I last question on this? When I asked about the change to your code that you'd make, you talked about fixing the striving. What's been the downside of this striving? There's a common sense of not enoughness. I will be enough when. You can either run away from something you want or run towards something. Run away from something you fear or run towards something you want. What's the consequence of that? Not enoughness. It's a sense of lack. It's also a provisional life. It's putting life off. I will be happy, satisfied, peaceful when. And is that a thought you have? It's more like an embodied sense. You get to feel it. I very much feel it. It's this striving. It's this pull. This sort of magnetism moving forward. But yeah, dude, if your life was a movie and the audience were watching up to this point, what would they be screaming at the screen telling you to do? It's usually a very reliable indicator of where you should be putting your attention. So as we think about next year, the things one should aim at. I've heard you, I think you said on the high performance podcast, you said you're really obsessed with understanding what success actually is. So I also, just before we go into the more practical things, if someone's sad at home and I know people come up to you on your tours and ask you questions like this a lot, they're sad at home trying to figure out what success actually is for them. Is there a framework or a principle or a method to figure out what it might mean for them? I've heard you talk about two ideas which I love, which is the region beta paradox, but also the power of the Mexican fishermen, which I think both stayed with me in a profound way. Yeah, so three things, success, region beta, Mexican fishermen. What success looks like for any individual person who's going to be different, for you knowing that you really want a family. There's people out there that are like, I'm not that fast. I don't think that that's on the cards for me and that's fine. Other people might really, really want to put the workload down and step off and go and do the dad or the mum thing. Unfortunately, you can't take somebody else's purpose or success. You can't wear it as a suit to bad idea because it's going to not fit. Wonderful line. Let go or be dragged. If something doesn't fit, eventually it's going to hurt wearing it. That means if you're not careful with how you design what it is that you chase after, you can spend your entire life realizing that you climbed a huge fucking ladder, a very, very long ladder that was leaning against the wrong wall. You need to ensure that you don't do that. This is why we need to just sit with ourselves, sit with a little bit of reflection. That's why this time between Christmas and the year I think is a really wonderful time to do this. How do you work out what it is that you want to do? The big picture goals are going to be hard for you to get to. But if you just think one year ahead, what do I want over the next 12 months? I think that usually helps you. Maybe you want to be in a relationship. I want to be in a committed relationship with someone who really loves me. Okay? Now we can start to talk about plan to do that. But you need to have a little bit of silence. It's like a problem with permanently being busy stops you from being able to listen to fleeting thoughts that are in the back of your mind. And that quiet voice is usually the really powerful one. But there's a wonderful line. The answers you seek are in the silence you're avoiding. The answers that you seek are in the silence you're avoiding. Do you meditate? Of course. Do you do? Yes. Do you? No. Do you wish you did? I think the definition of meditation is quite blurry because for me, when I, I will have a shower for like 30 minutes. And all I'm doing in there is thinking, I'm not cleaning. I'm clean after five. I was going to say it suggests that you come out of the shower and not clean but with great ideas. Exactly. No, but I mean, you get cleaning like five minutes. But then I spend the other 25 minutes because there's something about the water falling and the alone time that drops me into a spiral of thinking, which I think is my version of meditation. Then treadmills and the stapper at the gym. Treadmills are great. Yeah. My version of meditation. Shower thoughts are overrated. Toilet thoughts are underrated. The other thing that I love that you talk about is when we talk about metrics of success, you talk about observable metrics and hidden metrics of success. Yeah. So a lot of the time will trade a hidden metric for an observable metric. Something that's observable would be your job title, but your salary is per year. How many people know you, your bank balance, the size of your house, the car that you drive. Things people can see. Yeah, of course. Okay. The only way that your success can be judged is outwardly. So naturally, we trade something which people can't see for something that they can see. For instance, lots of people would trade a longer commute for a higher salary or a better job title. One of the problems that you encounter with that is that the length of your commute is one of the most correlated stats with your happiness. Longer commutes reliably make people more miserable. And what's the hidden metric that you've lost by doing that? Well, that's less time with your family, with maybe your kids that are growing up, with your wife to connect. That's less time to pursue your own passions, even if your job is your passion. So what about a more stressful career? Going to move into a different industry that's way more stressful, but it pays more observable metric. What's the hidden metric? What about the piece of mind that you have as you go to sleep at night? What about what that does to your health and the quality of your relationships and your ability to be present on a weekend? It's you're not able to turn your phone off because your last job was nine to five, but this one is 24/7. Well, it's difficult to say because you're like, people want and need real resources. I want to improve the quality of my family. That's a noble thing to do. But after a while, you have to admit if you already live a comfortable quality of life and you trade it, you trade your happiness or your peace in order to get more, you're making a bad choice because you're going to sacrifice something that you want, which is happiness, peace, connection, for something that's supposed to get the thing that you want, which is money, job title, that you can't. Which I think links to this story of the Mexican Fisher. Yeah, the power of the Mexican fisherman. An American businessman was away on a holiday in Mexico and he got taken out by a fisherman and he asked the fisherman, "So what do you do each day?" The fisherman said, "I spend each morning out on the water, I fish a little, I catch some food, I take it home and I sit in my house with my wife and my family and we eat what I've called for the day." The American says, "That's stupid. This is a stupid idea. What you should do is you should get a bigger boat and then you could catch more fish and then you could go sell it at the market." The fisherman said, "Why would I do that?" So well, once you've sold it at the market, you could buy some more boats and you could get your friends to come and work for you and then they could catch more fish and you could start to sell it wholesale. The fisherman said, "Why would I do that?" So well, then you could create a canning factory and you could export it back to the UK and you could have a huge business. The fisherman said, "Why would I do that?" So well, then you would be able to retire and fish a little on a morning, catch some fish and then spend the afternoon with your family. And it's the same lesson as Paulo Quayla's "The Alchemist", which is this young boy goes on a huge big journey and he finds out the thing that he was looking for was in the back garden all along. But that's an unteachable lesson and the big lesson behind the alchemist is going on a massive journey to end up back where you started is not the same as having never left. And this is what an unteachable lesson is. You have to go to the top of the mountain to get up there and go, "Oh, damn it. Damn it. Like, I thought that was going to be the answer. But now that it's not, I can rid myself of that. I've crossed it off." And it's so unpopular. It's so unpopular to talk about this online because everybody that doesn't have a thing assumes that the thing will fix their problems and that the people who have got there achieved it and say that it didn't are ungrateful. Like, "Oh, my God. The thing that I want and they're just casting it away." Like, "How day? How day you say that the thing that I know I want isn't the answer to my problems." And yet reliably, everybody that gets there says, "It's not the answer." It's very true. I was thinking back to all the goals that I wrote in my diary 18 years old and then it's no surprise that I have none of those things now. They're all like material things and outcomes I was looking for. But let me give you another one. A great question to reflect on. Knowing what I know now, what advice would I give myself 12 months ago? Do you know what mind would be? Mind would be around, it would be about, around prioritization. It would really be around saying no. Like, we don't really teach, it goes back to what you're saying about adding and subtracting, but my life would be much better if I was even 10% better at saying no to things. It would be so much better. The upside isn't like 10% upside, it's like 50 or 100% upside because the compounding force of focus. Okay, so that's what advice you would have given yourself 12 months ago knowing what you know now. Yeah, guess what? Well, it's almost certainly what you need to hear right now. The big problems are the big problems. In the same way that you've got the feet that you had a decade ago, the big drivers psychologically for you tend to be the same throughout your life. I put other people's happiness ahead of mine. Maybe that showed up when I was a child and I didn't speak up to mum when I felt upset because I was worried that it would upset her. Maybe that happened when I got into my first job and I didn't advocate for myself when my boss was treating me poorly. Maybe that happens when I get into a relationship and I'm scared of making my needs known to my partner because I'm worried that they're going to reject me or think lesser of me. When it comes to my child, I'm terrified to discipline them because I need their love and I don't want them to make them upset. This is a single trend that's occurring throughout your life and all of the time. One of the most common questions that people ask is, what would you tell yourself 10 years ago? Great question to ask. Not because it's trite, but because it is almost always the very same thing that you need to hear right now. What would you have said 12 months ago? Stop working so hard. Take your day off. Take your day off. Take your day off per week. Put your phone down. Put your phone down. Go outside. Touch some grass. It's the same thing now. It's the exact same thing now. Do you think you're going to accomplish it? I don't know. I don't know. I'm trying. I'm trying, but behavioral design, I've got better. The one thing that I can say and the beautiful thing about the end of your review, there are some resolutions which I decided on a decade ago that I still do now. And I think that's really cool. So when I'm faced with the opportunity to plan, because I gave myself a little bit of space, and it never happened very few of the habits that randomly appeared in the middle of July, are ones that I've stuck with and I really care about, bad ones maybe, maybe accumulated bad habits in the middle of July. But most of the ones that I really love, they're very conscious that are aligned with where I want to go, they're ones that I consciously designed, they're ones that were done purposefully, and that's always been around a review period. So yeah, end of the year is not special, but when else you're going to do it? When else are you going to do it? But yeah, 12 months ago and 10 years ago, I was doing the same thing, different industry, running nightclubs. Chill out, take your day off. So what is this annual review template that I haven't printed me? At the end of each year, you need to have some sort of a format. If anyone wants to go and download it, they can go to chriswillx.com/review. It's totally free, they can just copy and paste it into their notes app of choice and then fill it in. I realized that this big question of it's the end of the year and I need to look back on it. I want to reflect on what went well and badly and I want to plan my goals. Without a structure, you're just like cast out a drift, free wheeling everywhere and you have no idea what to do. So there's a bunch of questions, stuff like how has this year gone? What went well? What went badly? And why? What lessons did I learn? What habit or system accounted for most of my success? What are the most valuable ways that I spend my time? How can I find more time for this? There's a section for memories. What was the best surprise, best meal, coolest new experience? My favorite new city, my favorite new friend. What was my favorite day on my most intense day? It was the best sex I had. It was my favorite quote and song and artist. And then there's a plan. What would I do this year if I wanted to make 85 world me miserable? What are the things I do to make my day go great? What do I think is productive that isn't? What is productive that I don't realize? Those are two big ones. And then there's some final thoughts. What would have happened by the end of next year to look back and consider it a success? Who do I need to become the next chapter of my life to go the way that I want? So for the people that are frantically taking notes, they can just go to ChriswellX.com/review and this is available for free. You mentioned there that goals you set 10 years ago are still some of your most important today. What are those goals that you cherish the most? Habits. Habits goals that you cherish the most that you set out to. So I reflected last year on the highest ROI resolutions that I've ever done. And what I think would be cool would be if people put the single best return on investment resolution that they've ever done in the comments. Because that will create maybe the biggest repository of the highest value New Year's resolutions that anybody's ever had. And the best ones will get uploaded and the bad ones will be heavily criticized in the replies. So that can be kind of cool. Okay, so that was an instruction, which means if you're listening right now, leave a comment below with the resolution you set yourself at any point in the past that returned the most for you in any area of your life. You love it the most. And if you agree with someone's, please hit the like button on their comment too. And this should create, as Chris says, a repository of the most impactful, highest ROI resolution. I think that's cool. I want to do it. I want to know what everyone else's big resolutions are. So I'll give you mine. Okay. No phone in the bedroom at night. Charge it outside. Interesting. It's an instant 15% quality of life increase. Why? Because when you start your day, if you use your phone as your alarm, you roll over, you turn the alarm off and immediately you're looking at your phone. You haven't got up. You haven't got moving. You're not hydrated. You're not seeing sunlight in your eyes. You are hit in the face by the world telling you what's happening as opposed to you having a tiny little microcosm of peace. This little oasis for you. Now get it. People that have got young kids are hit in the face by the children, not by the phone. But even if you do adding the phone and the scroll and everything else on top, that means you're not present with the kids. So even if the kids are a problem, you don't need to have the phone in that. You wake up. It means that you're always on the other side. The world is happening to you. You're not happening to the world when you go to bed on a nighttime. You're going to be using your phone before you go to sleep, which means that you're going to cut into your sleep time. You're going to be in an environment digitally that's going to make yourself feel horrendous. It's not good. It's not good for sleep. Whether it's the blue light, there's a little bit of research that seems to say that it's not the blue light so much as it is the scroll sort of dopamine, trigger, adrenal, intermittent schedule reward thing, that that's the main issue of what's going on. But it also means if you can't sleep, you know, you can just roll over and pick your phone up and now you're two hours into a YouTube scroll hole. That's who you truly are, by the way. People think that who you are is, you know, your journal entries, your diary entries. No, no. Who you truly are are the videos that you watch on YouTube between 10pm and 12pm at night when you can't sleep. That's who you really are. So getting your phone and putting it outside of the bedroom is no cost. There's no reason to not do it. The only reason to not do it is somebody needs to ring you or something like that. I get it. Maybe you've got kids that are out late and you need to make sure that they're okay in case some sort of catastrophe occurs. But really, there are very few excuses to not have it outside. Radio alarm clocks have existed forever. Buy a radio alarm clock. Take your phone cable now and put it in the kitchen or put it in the living room or something. I'll put it on the other side of the room, right? Because you don't wake up in a charge on your phone. It's the single biggest improves quality of sleep. It means that your mornings are better. It means that your nights are better. It means you're less distracted. It means you spend the last time on your phone. You're forced to do something even room. It's tiny bit more productive like watching Netflix or read a book or talk to your partner. It's interesting because I was thinking about this through a four quadrant graph. You've drawn a diagram. I'll throw it up on the screen. Please make it look better at editing team because nobody's going to be up. This is not coherent. On one axis, you've got things that are low effort, and on the other axis, you've got things that are high return. This is right up on the top right, which is a very low effort, high return, cost-free habit, which is probably where one should aim most, but I imagine a lot of us are aiming at high effort low return. Morning walk every day. Okay. Morning. It's like your high effort. The research around this is fantastic. Humans obviously push this a lot. Morning sunlight in your eyes. Even if you don't have the sun, even if you're somewhere dark and cold and wet. It doesn't matter. Getting up and doing ambulation, so walking through an environment while your eyes scan left and right seems to tune down your fear response. It makes your amygdala just a little bit more calm. Regardless of whether it's sunlight, fantastic. That'll be even better. Five minutes, ten minutes. I know people have got structural limitations. This is me assuming that you've got like 20 minutes on a morning that you could slot this into. If you're not waking up with your phone in your hand, that probably is the 20 minutes. Little walk. A bit of fresh air. Just get up, put your shoes on, get going. Just get moving. You don't need to think. You don't need to do anything at all. Don't need to brush your teeth, get up and go. Probably need to get the bathroom actually. Get up and go. No caffeine within 90 minutes of waking. Just push your caffeine a little bit later. It seems like the adenosine system isn't dominant during the first 90 minutes of the day. Your adrenal system is. So adenosine is the receptors that deal with caffeine and tiredness. And tiredness. Exactly. And caffeine binds to it and it stops you from feeling tired. Salt actually on your adrenal system. So if you use some sort of electrolyte drink, first thing in the morning, that will help to get that moving. But the main reason for this, regardless of the research, most people have a 1pm slump. I feel a little bit tired. And I think if you just push that caffeine a little bit later, just see if you can hold on. When you wake up, you should be okay-ish. Just the natural cortisol. You've gone for your little walk. You know, here we are. The days begun. You really need a coffee within 20 minutes of waking. That's what most people's first thing is. Just see what happens. Test it. See what happens if you push it back by 90 minutes and see how you feel. At least for me, I know that that works well. No alcohol for six months. This is a big one. This is much more high effort for a lot of people. Even people that don't drink that much. Because a lot of the parties and things that you attend are not superbly fun. And some people use alcohol in order to make their family or the wedding or the birthday a little bit more comfortable. Social lubricant. Correct. Yeah, of course. But if you take alcohol out for about six months, what it forces you to do is think, I really want to go to that party. I'm actually having to anesthetize myself of people that I'm around. Like if you can only bear to be around your friends when you're drinking, that's probably not a good indication. And if your friends only want you to be around them when you're drinking, they're not friends. They're drinking partners. So I think alcohol is a big. I just like it. It just makes me have more fun. Hey, I get it. I think if people look at it closely, they realize that they're using alcohol. There's a bit of a crutch. They're using it to bolster themselves in a way. What's interesting is, it's one of those areas where you don't understand the hidden cost until you really give it up for a while. And I think about my own relationship with drinking. And I stopped drinking at 30 years old. I'm now 33. And I had just drank because I just drank. I'd never ran the experiment. I've just given it up for a while. And then it like, I don't know, maybe I was at 31. I thought, do you not have a drink again? Because now I could really ab test it. I had a year of not drinking, decided to have a drink again. It ruined three days of my life. I had a couple of glasses of wine, didn't get drunk. It ruined three days of my life because of the domino effect it caused. So it meant that I got worse sleep that night. And then because I got worse sleep that night, I ate more poorly the next day because my dopamine system or whatever, the cortisol system was all messed up. And then I podcasted worse. I didn't go to the gym the day after. That day, all the day after because of that because I felt really bad. I then slept worse. And I could track all of this on my week. Hashtag ad, hashtag sponsor, hashtag investor, whatever. Yeah. And I was like, oh my god, those three glasses of wine had this hidden domino effect that I must have been living with for my whole life. So many people want to build habits. They want to build meditation routine. They want to go to the gym more consistently. They want to improve their eating habits. They don't realize that the thing that's stopping them from doing that is sat at the bottom of the glass of wine that they have for nights a week. It's tough. Some people are able to do it and they don't mind the cost benefit ratio for some people is great. I'm just saying try. Just try, try six months. The reason you need to put an end date on it is that you have, it's like running a race where you know that there's a finish line. There's no finish line. It's really hard to run the race. How are you motivating yourself to get there? I think that 90 days would be the absolute minimum, 30 days isn't long enough. You need longer, right? And especially given that the hardest bit is the start, which means that you've paid all of the pain at the very beginning to not actually get any of the benefits of this being my new habit. Do it with an accountability buddy. Do it with your partner. Say, hey, I listened to those two British idiots talk about how not drinking might be a good idea. Why don't we do that? Why don't we try going sober until July? You haven't missed the summer. The summer's just about to kick in. So if you think, oh, I can't wait to get back to drinking, you can have a beer and a beer garden. A huge proportion of people will not want to go back to drinking. They'll do it. Take time off. Get into it and realize I actually don't like this. I love the fact I got more reward from building good habits, from now having a meditation practice, from now getting up on time, from being able to go to the gym more. I've become more dependent on that than I ever was on the alcohol. This is an idea. When we talk about habits and when we read these habit books, we're often aiming at the ninth domino in a set of dominoes. I was just thinking then, the conversation probably needs to start with what are the foundational things? What is the first domino? Because we know from science that what I choose to eat is heavily impacted by my hormone balance today. And my hormone balance is impacted by my sleep, my emotional regulation will be things. A lot of people play domino number nine. I think I will change that one. Having no idea that actually this is downstream from a set of other foundational decisions. Even if someone that sits here with scientists and experts all the time, if my core state isn't good, the chance that I'm going to pick the right thing or go to the gym is extremely low. Being smart is basically pointless unless you're at peace. Any amount of intelligence can be overridden by ego, or insecurity, or immorality, or bad incentives, or impatience, or poor sleep. Sleep as far as I can see. It's the pebble at the top of the avalanche. It's the gateway drug to everything else being horrendous. Your caffeine use is impacting your sleep. Your phone use is impacting your sleep. Your alcohol and an evening time is impacting your sleep. If you think that you drink in order to go to sleep, you're not sleeping. You're sedating yourself. If we can sort the sleep out, how many other things open up? But you don't sort the sleep out. You sort the caffeine intake out, and you sort the night time phone use out, and you sort the drinking out. Then I've got all of this extra willpower. The thing that I thought was the issue, which was I kind of always feel a bit tired and sluggish on the morning. I always want to eat salty foods around midday or I always think too straight for the first couple of hours. The problem might be hiding at the bottom of the glass. We think the cause is actually a symptom. I just noticed this because when I changed a couple of core foundational things like exercise and sleep, everything became, everything was lubricated. What's your highest ROI New Year's resolutions? My highest ROI New Year's resolution was actually a change in a previous resolution. So my previous resolution in 2017 was I'm going to go to the gym every day. It ended up being a terrible resolution. So her end is resolution. Yeah. So 2017, it was go to the gym every day. And I've got about four, five months in. I missed a day. The resolution's done because it was a it was a completeable resolution in an area of my life where I didn't I need an incompatible resolution. So 2018, my resolution became consistency in the gym. And this is when everything changed. Because consistency is a goal. I get a shot at every day irrespective of what happened yesterday. And I've got the rule. Let me give you the rule. Okay, this is from all of the habit stuff. James Clears being on my show. I think he's been on your show too. Yep. Yep. Yeah. Best habit book of all time, Tommy Cavitz, of all of the things. There's only two that have really, really, really stuck. This is the best rule when it comes to habits. Never miss two days in a row. You are not going to be able to go to the gym every day. There will be one day when an absolute catastrophe occurs. You ate some dodgy sushi last night. You can't go. But what you have is one misday is an error. Two misdays is the start of a new habit. And it alleviates this all or nothing mentality that we all have. If you put a packet of biscuits in front of me and you, we say you can have none of them or you can have all of them. Easy. Tell me to have two of them. Fuck you, dude. No one has two biscuits, right? You have all of the biscuits or you have none of the biscuits. And that's kind of humans are absolutist creatures, like thinking extremes. Yeah. Going to be super, super dialed in on my diet. And it's going to be great. And I'm going to get up and do my meditation and do the rest. Or I'm going to go full degen mode. And I'm partying in it to be thorough and so on and so forth. Like there is no middle ground really with this. And that means that small errors can snowball into complete demolitions of the habit. But if you just think, okay, at some point this year, I'm going to miss it. And the rule is, if I missed it yesterday, I have to do it today. And that alleviates your issue, which was, I cranked it for the first couple of months and then one day came in and I thought, oh, and then the second day and then I thought, well, this is just me now. The other trap that I've noticed in that is one of my friends had great success with the new habit with going to the gym for like three, four months. He messages us in the group chat. He says, I finally cracked it. I finally figured out how to do this. And I said to him at the time, I said, this is mate. Like the best, the best thought I've ever had that's made my habits be consistent is the realization that you never crack it. And actually thinking about the day when I fall off the horse and what my strategy is for getting back on the horse, like being really, really cognizant of the fact that at some point, I'm going to eat the sushi and it's going to fuck up my belly. Or I'm going to be on a flight from Australia and I'm going to land and it's going to be midnight. And like having a strategy to get back on the horse and this just deep belief that you never crack any habit has been the single most important thing for me being consistent. Because when it happens and I feel unmotivated and that guilt can creep in and say, you fucked it, I have a, I was expecting this. Yes, of course. It's not a bug. It's a feature. Yeah. This was the price of entry. It's the cost of doing business of trying to do behavior change that it's not always going to work. Another one, another great resolution. 10 minute walk after every meal. Interesting. Huge, huge ROI. Dude, crazy. So it's called a post-prandial walk. And what it does is it helps to regulate glucose. It gets your blood sugar moving. Your stomach, because of the contralateral movement of how your arms and your legs work. The muscles actually cross across your stomach, which helps you to digest food. You know, you have a huge big meal, you have a great conversation. And you sit there, you're like, I mean, this conversation's so great, but I feel awful. This sucks. You just, after you go out for dinner, if you've got lunch break from work, eat your food 10 minute little walk. Again, I challenge people to do it and not say that it makes them feel really good. You go for dinner, you're with a friend, you're out with a partner, you're meeting somebody for the first time. Hey, do you want to, why do we have a little stroll? Sometimes going to be freezing outside, whatever. Do what you can. Let's go for a little stroll. It makes a huge difference. Huge difference. What about matters of productivity? Do you think much about this? Because again, this time of year people are thinking about procrastination, productivity. They're trying to get more done. They're trying not to doom scroll so much, beyond Netflix, waste time. And I think a lot of the guilt does come from feeling like we're unproductive. Absolutely. There's a wonderful idea called productivity dysmorphia, so it's the inability to see your own success, to acknowledge the volume of your own output. So it sits at the intersection of burnout, imposter syndrome and anxiety. You think of it like ambitions alter ego, basically. The pursuit of productivity spurs us to do more while robbing us of the ability to savor any of the successes that we achieve along the way. So first off, people are not particularly good judges of how productive they are. I think so many people are whipping themselves into submission, saying you're not doing enough because in the past, that motivated them to do more. And after a while, you have to accept, I'm doing quite a lot. And if you were an athlete on a sports team and your coach only ever pointed at you when you made a bad play, you wouldn't feel particularly motivated by that. But a lot of people have this sense of productivity debt. They wake up every day feeling as if they're already behind. And only if they dominate their entire day perfectly, can they drag themselves back up to some minimum level of acceptable output. And only then can they go to sleep that night without feeling like a loser. This means that your set point is lost. And the best thing that you can do if you crush the day is get to a draw. You never win. And then there's this sort of weird drill sergeant in the back of your mind that's saying, all right, you can have a little bit of a break now. But just so you know, soon as you wake up in the morning, it's all going to happen again. And you know, I'm speaking to a very particular type of mindset here that there is a huge cohort of people on the internet who do need David Goggin screaming in their face, telling them to go harder and sort their life out. The sort of people that listen to your show and listen to modern wisdom are probably not in that camp. Do you know what's surprising? I am in that camp. I'm in the camp of productivity dysmorphia. Of course you are. Why is that surprising? Look at what you've built. How could you not do that with if you were seeing how much you did? I can't really think of many days. And just for context, when I wake up in the morning until, you know, two, two am at night, I'm working, but I can't think of many days or really none come to mind. Well, I've gotten bed and thought you were productive today. I crushed it. You met the standard productivity debt. Yeah. You woke up feeling like you're already behind 100% because of the yesterday and the week before and the month before and the to do this. You see your own shortfalls from a front row seat. Right. And this is one of the curses of people who have big dreams, goals for themselves. The size of their goals is always greater than their ability to deliver them. And we assume that by having very, very, very high standards for ourselves, what is it? Shoot for the stars and even if you don't get it, you'll end up on the moon, something like that. For clouds. Yeah, whatever. That's great for a while. And it's very good at the beginning of your journey. But after a while, I think you just need to give yourself a fucking break. People are destroying themselves in this perpetual sense of not enoughness. They're always chasing the next thing. So that's all of that is for me to say that people want productivity, desire productivity. I'm just trying to say you're probably working real hard as it is. That being said, how much do I think about productivity and how can we like twist the knife a little bit more to give people some tools? Best question to ask yourself. If I could only achieve one thing today, start of every day. If I could only achieve one thing today, what would that be? You're only allowed to do one thing. And it's the big thing. It's usually the scary thing. It's usually the thing that you probably don't want to do. How many times does someone go and clean the cupboard in the kitchen that hasn't been touched for six months? I'll rearrange all of the plates because they don't want to have that conversation with their boss. Because they don't want to face that particular piece of work, which is big and scary. And I don't really know how to tackle it, how to begin. You will do everything that doesn't need to be done in order to avoid the one thing that does. It's because it's a big scary task that people will endure months, years, decades of misery to avoid a couple of days of pain. And that makes sense. It's a good trade in some ways. But over time, you're going to accumulate north a lot of discomfort. Reminds me of what Neil Iell said when I interviewed him about procrastination is the avoidance of discomfort. And he really said that most of human motivation is just the avoidance of discomfort. Because I tried to test his idea. I was like, what about having sex? That's surely the pursuit of pleasure. He was like, no, you get horny, which is a form of discomfort. And in order to alleviate it, you go and have sex where you pursue, he said all of our behaviors driven by discomfort. So in your example, I've got a big, I've got to stop the manuscript from my new book by the end of cleaning the house. It's because that's like a personal example. No, but it is. It's like, you know, I remember how long I procrastinated on starting my new book because it's like being stood at the foot of Mount Everest, starting a book too. When you think about procrastination, which is part of becoming more productive, what in your mind are the causes of me avoiding the thing that I should be doing? As far as I can see, there's two main reasons for procrastination. The first one is you don't know what to do. So you have this big book in front of you, but nobody's ever written a book. They've written a sentence and then that sentence has accumulated over time into pages and paragraphs and then a book appears or you've reviewed a book. You've looked at the edit. You've made a decision about the color for the front cover, but you do what's called a next action from getting things done. David Allen's productivity strategy. People want a really, really great productivity strategy. Getting things done by David Allen is about as good as you can get. You do a next action. So I'm procrastinating over a task. What is the next physical action that I can do that pushes me toward that goal? I need to write an email. Well, you better go and open your email client. If you don't have your email client open, it is impossible for you to send the email. Well, actually before that, I need to sit down at my desk, but actually before that, I might need to put my pants on. Okay, pants are on. Hooray, I'm moving. I'm down at the desk. All right, there we go. I opened Instagram. Okay, close Instagram, email client. That's the next action. So any bit, what is it, completely marathon is just a ton of steps one in front of the other. It's just one fight in front of the other. Do this really, really big thing by breaking it down at small chunks. That's the first reason, in my opinion, for procrastination. Before we move on to the second thing, it reminds me of something Jordan Peterson said to me about why people don't change their life. He said, people don't change their life because the first steps doing so are so about so small that it's embarrassing, correct. And he told me the story of a guy who he was trying to get to change his life, this person wouldn't leave that bedroom, plates stacked to the ceiling, messy bedroom. And on day one, he walks in, they put vacuum cleaner in there, they do nothing else. Day two, they come back, they plug it in, nothing else. Day three, they come back, they turn it on, nothing else. And by the end of the 30 days, this guy is out of his bedroom. His room is clean and he's out and out in the world, which he was scared of. And it always made me think like the, the first step to real change isn't some great leap, which is going to cause huge cognitive dissonance and discomfort. It is often so embarrassingly small that we don't think it's consequential. And I think about that with my life all the time, I'm like, actually, maybe the first step here is just like buying, buying a notepad, you know, to start writing my book. There is definitely a sense that focusing our attention on a small step kind of reveals the smallness of our lives that like, oh my god, I said that I sat down at my desk like, how pitiful is this really how small I've become. I should have this big cathedral of achievements and monumental stuff. He got, well, yeah, but how do you get there? I'm going to go to lay the first break. So humility, being humble and compassionate to yourself. Okay, I did a thing today. I went for a walk, felt like crap. I ate this bad sushi last night. And I, you know, I did one thing, did one thing, one small thing that moved me toward my god. Anyway, maybe that's because we never get to see that first small step. We get to see the outcome. So if I'm thinking about becoming a podcaster and following in your footsteps, I see you've got this fucking digital screen where you've got Matthew McConaughey sat in the set of, I do his movie and I'm thinking, oh god, that's a long way to go. Well, the beautiful thing about a lot of stuff on the internet is that it is archived for the rest of time. So you can go back and watch my first ever episode, which is me in my old office for the nightclub stuff that I did. And my business partner yelled at me afterwards because I kicked everybody out so that I could record and he's like, you can't keep doing this. It's not your studio. It's our office. And it's a single iPhone and a blue Yeti USB mic that looks like a big white dildo. And it's up and over the top of the desk. And it's me and a friend from the gym talking about how he might row the Atlantic one day. Embarrassing to start there for someone that's watching you do Matthew McConaughey in a digital screen. It's embarrassing. But also not because that was the first step. But that wasn't the first step. The first step was deciding what name it was going to be. And then driving to Gateshead to buy the Yeti second hand from some dude on eBay. And that Yeti went on to do 500 episodes of my podcast. And then we changed to nice microphones or something. So everybody's journey begins embarrassingly small. And I think just having a little bit of compassion for yourself, having the humility to go the first step that I do is going to be so small that it almost wouldn't register on the ledger of accomplishments. It would be minute going, okay, that's still a win. First thing, you don't know what to do. Second thing, you know what to do, but you don't know how to do it. So you can sit down in front of the spreadsheet. And you know that you've got to do a V-lookup on this spreadsheet. We have no idea how to do a V-lookup. What's that V-lookup? It's something like some Excel thing that Excel nerds will know. Chatchy PT, Google, ring a boss, ring a friend that is an expert in Excel. So for me, when I look at my procrastination, it occurs to you to usually one of two things, poorly defined next physical action. I don't know exactly what the next smaller step is that moves me toward my goal. I do know that and I sit down. I don't know how to do it. Like how do I, like if you don't know how to open a file, you don't know how to unzip a file. It doesn't matter how many files you've got in front of you. You can't unzip them. You can't see them. It's okay. I need to learn, hey dude, I got this zip file. Where do I go to get it? Oh, okay. Thank you. And then we've got moving. So it's either an action issue or a skill issue. And both of those are usually pretty simply fixed. I was reading your news last year. You talk about how some people procrastinate because they're scared of what they'll find out about themselves if they try the thing. And I thought that's so true. I mean, if you, the upside of never trying is never having to feel the pain of failure. Right. If you never face that discomfort, like if I tell myself that all women are terrible, then I'm excused of ever having to talk to a woman and as a result, I never have to feel the pain rejection. If I tell myself that everything is shit or that things will never get better, I'm excused of ever having to try anything. It's more comfortable to get fatalistic and call it pragmatism. Like the cope is framing hope as pathetic and embarrassing and optimism as delusion. This is cynicism, right? cynicism. And the opposite of that is enthusiasm. Since moving to America, I've been surrounded by very enthusiastic people. Americans kind of have permanent first line cocaine energy. And I like enthusiasm. I wish I could export some of it back to the UK. You know what I was really disappointed by? I mean, you featured in an article recently in a very well-known British paper. Maybe this came across your desk and maybe not. No idea. Okay. So it was it was the same week that the Spotify wrapped came out. Yeah. And in the top 10 in the world, there's me, you and Jay Shetty. There's three berets. I think we're punching above our weight. Yeah, absolutely. With regards to this. Lady who wrote this article basically said it was a rejection of our patriotic inheritance that we were trying to do self-improvement at scale, like whatever happened to the British stiff upper lippness where we sort of feel stoically satisfied in our own loneliness and misery. That's like an almost an exact quote. Really? Yeah. It was really it really made me sad and it made me sad for a few reasons. First off, the UK is not exactly showering itself in glory at the moment. There is an entire content bucket of American streamers reacting to news from the UK and going, oh, the downfall of the UK with the whatever. Whether that's true or not, the optics aren't great coming out of the UK at the moment. And you've got three people who have done it. I don't know whether Jay is from working class, but I'm from as working class as working class can be. I know that you're like even lower than me somehow. Congratulations. And wherever Jay's from. And you've actually got these three guys who are genuinely trying to make the world a better place. Really working hard at it. And your main takeaway was not during a time where the UK is kind of eating shit on the global stage. Congratulations to three people who can show young entrepreneurs, people that want to do personal development, improve their own lives, that maybe you can do it too. And maybe we all got lucky. I don't know. But it made me real sad to read that. And this isn't just that I was like, I would have been nice if the UK like UK press back to us and said, good on you guys. But on top of that, it just reminded me of a mindset in the UK that kind of has like Stockholm syndrome for their own sad moments for their own like zero some like toll poppy thing. And I really don't like the toll poppy syndrome in the UK. And it made me sad to read that. I had one wish for people in the UK. And if you're listening now, there's a high possibility you're in the UK is lift people up and be positive like clap for strangers. If someone does something, if someone falls flat on their face in the pursuit of a big goal, clap for them. So that was amazing. At least you tried because their success paves the way for us all to fail and fall flat on our face. But right now there's a bit of an inversion of that. I was in San Francisco last week. And I swear to you, one woman came up to me. She told me three times she had failed at her startup. She's now back living with her mom. And she wore it like a credential in a badge of honor because in that room it is. But back home, that's a hit piece. Look at this stupid delusional woman who tried to do this thing. It's evidently not going to work. How embarrassing. Oh, yeah, she's her employees have been let go. She owes this much. All these things would be framed as a negative. And actually, when I read the thing that Spotify top 10 thing, yes, we're all doing self-improvement stuff. But for me, that's kind of beside the point. We thought media businesses. And there's not a lot of in terms of competing with America and competing with the rest of the world. It's crazy that three British entrepreneurs managed to contend with the United States, the home of media, more capital, more brand partners, more access to talent. Everything is here. It seems. And for for three Brits to do that, I was so proud. I don't know. I actually don't need anyone to tell me like to be like I was so proud of you. I was so proud of Jay because that is it's a real underdog thing. And many of us started a lot later than the people. You know, the Indiana Jones movie where he's like running and the big doors coming down, the big stone door is coming down real slow and he's running, running, running, running. He slides underneath and he grabs his hat as he comes in. I kind of feel like that was us in the podcasting world. We just look at him before this sort of explosion. And we wrote the increase in platform size. But yeah, look dude, having people around you that genuinely are prepared to watch you take big swings is something I wish I could gift to the UK. But the way that I would put it is Americans want you to succeed in case you take them with you on the journey. And the worst parts of British culture don't want you to succeed in case you leave them behind. And I know that there are so many people that this is just a mimetic issue that if you had one key mover within a group that that would start to spread and spread. But so the people in the UK that are doers and are builders and are actually making stuff happen, like you have one of the hardest jobs in the world because not only if you got to get over the lonely chapter, the challenge, the difficulty, the procrastination, the getting up early, I've got to stop drinking caffeine 90 minutes after waking. Holy fuck, that's so much on my plate. You have this additional gravity of a culture that doesn't tend to celebrate success and risk taking in quite the same way. So if that's you, I think like, power to you, I really do. And there is a community of people out there, even if it feels lonely now. What do you think of the UK versus US conversations generally? Do you think it's really as bad as you hear on X or on social media? Do you think the UK is really as doomed? I don't know, man. I mean, I hesitate. I don't like to throw a ton of shade at the country that I left three, four years ago now because it does feel a bit like pulling the ladder up after I got the last lifeboat off the Titanic and me going like, sorry, I had my problems while I was there. I had my criticisms of the UK while I was still in the UK. I wish that people were more positive. I wish that there was less told poppy syndrome. I wish that risk was more celebrated. You know, we have the same number of universities in the top 10 in the world as America, but we produce 80% fewer entrepreneurs. And what is entrepreneurialism? It's like vision, risk taking, it's being prepared to do something that hasn't been done before. And maybe there's something else I'm not seeing that's part of the, maybe it's the weather, you know, maybe it's the fact that we're a waterlocked island or that the population density is 10 times that of the US. But there's something I feel like bottom up that's putting a bit of a restriction on people and and yeah, it was a shame, it was a shame to see that the UK press was just living out the exact cultural script that I assumed that they would. Shem, shem. Do you know something I've noticed? Most commercial teams aren't tested by their targets. They're tested by the weight of the admin that comes with every client. All the follow-ups, all the meetings, all the notes, the timelines that never ever stop. These were a constant source of friction in my commercial team until I introduced our sponsor, pipe drive. If you're not familiar, pipe drive is a simple but powerful sales CRM that gives you visibility on any deals through a sales pipeline. It also automates a lot of the tedious repetitive and time consuming tasks that come with the sales process. 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I think a lot of people assume that self-belief is kind of the answer to what it is that they're looking to do. You can just do things. You can just do it anyway. You can do it tired. You can do it with no self-belief. You can do it when you don't want to. You can do it when you think it's not going to work. And I've learned that you can have no self-esteem and show up anyway. You can have no self-belief and things still go well. Ryan Holiday says self-belief is overrated, generate evidence. Fuck yeah, I want evidence. I want an undeniable stack of proof that I am who I say I am. And I'm the poster boy for imposter syndrome dude. Like I never assumed that I would amount to really anything. But I'm pretty stubborn. And being stubborn has meant that I've just kept showing up. And the stubbornness feels even more in reach than consistency. Consistency is pretty in reach. Don't miss two days in a row. All right. Well, I can write 500 words a week. Start a sub-stack and write 500 words a week. You can probably do that. You can probably find 500 words a week. It'll take you half an hour. 500 words a week. After a year, you're a writer. Congratulations. You're a writer. You have the license to be able to call yourself a writer. How fantastic. And then who knows? In four years time, you've got penguin came knocking. Maybe there's a book deal for you. How fantastic. I've published author with penguin. How fantastic is that? But it starts by just going, I'm going to see what happens if I do this little thing. So interesting is you said that I thought you know what? When I started, I had no evidence. Definitely didn't have belief that I could do what I've done over the last sort of 10, 15 years of my life. But I also had no choice because of that internal void. I had no evidence, but no choice. Well, that's the region beta thing that you mentioned earlier on. So the region beta paradox, imagine that if you were going to travel less than a mile, you'd walk it. If you're going to travel a mile or more, you would drive it. Paradoxically, you would travel two miles quicker than you would travel one mile. So you jump in the car. And what this suggests is that if we only act when things cross a certain threshold of badness, worse things can be better than better things. So for instance, the person who lives in an apartment and it's in a kind of a sketchy area of town and there's a little bit of mold on the ceiling and the house. It's kind of a bit weird, but it's really cheap. And they quite like the bed and it's not too far from their work. Someone's in a relationship and their partner's not abusive or mean to them, but not really that fired up and don't really see that much of a future with them. Or the person who's got a job and their boss is a bit of a dick and it doesn't pay that well, but it's really cushy and they don't actually have to work that hard. All of these people would be better off if their situations were worse, because it would galvanize them to go and do something. And this zone of comfortable complacency that people get into is where they can sit for a very long time. And this is a really dangerous one. Things aren't bad enough to be bad, but they know where near good enough to be good. And this sort of gray zone, this liminal space, this sort of like productivity purgatory that you sit in just sort of allows you to keep moving forward. You're not moving toward what you want, but there's not enough discomfort to get you to do it. One of the most spicy questions that's been asked at one of my life talks about this was, should I purposefully make my life worse so that it kicks me out the bottom of region beta? I'm like, it's a high-risk strategy. I wouldn't recommend it. But it is a difficulty. Is your saying that? I was thinking about how our relationship with that uncertainty is going to define our lives and that a lot of people are choosing certain misery over the uncertainty that you'll encounter as you go in search for more. And I always almost imagine it as being stood on the edge of a cliff. And the part of the cliff I'm on is illuminated. I know it. It's not great, but I know it. And then I look off into the abyss and I've got to jump into this uncertainty. I don't know if there's land there. I don't know what's in there. And I think people's relationship with uncertainty defines their entire life. Like, can you quit when it's met? And I look back on my life and go, if there is one defining skill, maybe because of this sort of internal void, it's been not overstaying my welcome by many days. In a situation that pushes back against your I say yes too much. It seems like you do have the capacity to be able to quit when. Oh yeah, but it's, I mean, so these are like big life decisions. And what I'm talking about when I say I don't say no enough is like gradual clutter. Gradual clutter being. You start starting a newsletter when I have no time to write. Whereas when I'm thinking about this uncertainty, it's like went to university, lasted a day, never went back. Walked in, thought this is like school went where I failed, never went back. Built a company, was going well, raising investment, very successful, quit out of the blue. The other company called Social Chain did that up until the age of 27. 10 days before we're about to go on this IPO roadshow for the company topless to a new stock market, reached this point where I'm like, even though my entire identity is this social chain guy, and even though we're about to raise this money and the company would eventually rally up to what being worth four, five hundred million on the Frankfurt Stock Exchange, I'm going to jump off into nothingness. I'm going to leave it all with no plan B. And that's when I reflect on my life and go, "Oh, like in the big moments I've not required, I've not needed certainty." What I've needed is that realization that this certain misery is not what I want. That's brave. Do you know what I'm saying? I look at people's decisioning and their life story through this lens, which is like how much conviction do you need that you're in the wrong place? Obama said on stage when I spoke at this event that he spoke at many years ago that on his big decisions in life he gets to 51% certainty and then makes the decision with the peace of mind that he made the decision with the best available evidence. He talked about getting a summer bin Laden in that compound in Pakistan. He'd never seen that he was there, but he risked to her patchy helicopters of lives. And like, what percentage of certainty do you need to make a big decision? I think it's a determinant for the long term success you'll have in your life. Some people need to get to like 95% and you never get there on most things. Yeah, it's the difference in behavioral economics between maximizing and satisfying. It's like the two the two terms, like basically what's your threshold for conviction. Yeah, you know, the paradox of choice by Barry Schwartz. Do you know this? Okay, so Barry Schwartz uses this wonderful example of people buying jeans 50 years ago, going into the jeans store. You go in and there is one type of jeans, maybe different sizes, maybe. And you go in, you buy the pair of jeans, you leave. Maybe they're not the perfect jeans that you wanted, but you had no other choice, right? So you got them. So you're okay with your decision. Would have been happier if there was others, but there wasn't. So your decision regret is basically zero. Roll the clock forward. It's 2025. You go into the jeans store. Do you want skinny or stretched? Do you want boot cut? Do you want ripped? Do you want bleach? Do you want gray, blue, black? If you walk out of the jeans store with a suboptimal pair of jeans, this is no longer because of restriction from the environment. This is because of your inability to make the right choice. And this causes people to fear making choices. They project the potential regret they're fearful of in the future down into the present. And it causes decision paralysis. So they don't do anything. I think there's so many different options here. And this is one of the paradoxes where you think, well, lots of choice allows you to maximize what you want. You get the perfect pair of jeans. So why is it that firstly, people tend to be less satisfied with their decisions when they're given more options. And secondly, why so many people struggle to make decisions in the first place? Well, because they're paralyzed by the overanalysis they have of all of the different optionality that's in front of them. Overanalysis paralysis. Jeff Bezos is Amazon thing about type one type two doors is really useful here. Because when kids come up to me at the tours and stuff that I've done, most of the time, the question they're asking me can be answered with a rebuttal, which is if you're wrong, could you go back? Like, if you're wrong about quitting a job at city bank, would city bank have you back? I'm done there. But you've been there for three or four years. You're like a high performer. You're killing it. You could do it with your eyes closed. Of course, they're going to have you back. In fact, you probably get pay rise if you go to their competitor. So in such a scenario, go be the violinist in Peru and do the cupcake thing. Like start the cupcake store. Because if you're wrong, you can always go back. And that honestly, when I say that to kids, it's almost like the most common rebuttal I give them, which is like, if you're wrong about this dream you have, would you be welcome back to your current life? Well, think about this. If you're succeeding at a job that you hate, imagine how great you'd be at one that you loved. If you're not fired up about the thing that you're doing today and you're still winning, what could happen if you actually enjoyed your fight up when you woke up on a morning? Imagine that. Some people have never experienced scenario that it's possible. It's tough, man. And lots of people have got real world restrictions, which fucking blows. But there's always something that you can do that's little. Another question people can ask themselves and reflecting on last year, what are some of the thoughts that you repeated too many times this year? What are the things that came up over and over that little voice in the back of your head, that conversation that you need to have? What are the thoughts you repeated too many times this year to the point that it caused harm? Or distraction? It plagued you. There's this thing that's there. Fuck, like that thing that my partner said to me 18 months ago over dinner is still in the back of my mind and I'm ashamed of bringing it up to them. I'm even more ashamed to bring it up to them now because they're probably not even going to remember, but they said, they said this thing or they looked at the way to that way. Or my boss mentioned something in an email that made me feel like they really don't value me, I really need to just over and over. Or I need to sort my diet out. I need to sort my diet out. I should sort my diet. I can't sort my diet out. I'm going to sort my diet out. I should sort my diet out. I can't over and over and over again. What are the thoughts that plagued you this year? What are the ones that kept on happening over and over and over and over again? And typically from that, there is a conversation that you need to have. Or there is an emotion that you're unprepared to feel. So another great question. What are the emotions that you're unprepared to feel? If fear comes up, do you run away from it? You distract yourself away from it? You drink yourself away from it? You lift yourself away from it? What are the emotions you're unprepared to feel? I'm just safe to feel these emotions. You can just sit there. It's interesting because as you said that, I thought about how the framing of an 85-year-old me was actually such a wonderful way to understand this because I know the question we asked earlier was, what would 85-year-old you really be annoyed that you did today? But the inverse of that is like, 85-year-old Stephen is just going to wish I took care of my body more. It's not going to care about the money. It's going to go, you can't walk up a fucking hill, my guy. Your glutes have blown out and you don't have flexibly and you're hunched over and you lose respiratory, you can't walk upstairs without being out of breath. And it's so interesting that if 85-year-old me is going to be so pissed off that I didn't take care of my body more. It's even as someone that seems to take care of their body quite a bit. But then still. Yeah, you're making trades. What would I do to make 85-year-old me miserable and what would 85-year-old me want me to do more of? Great, great frames. Let me give you a couple on problems and stress. So one of the issues that people come up against is you've got the start of the wide-eyed blue sky vision for what's going to happen. And even though you know that stuff's going to come and sort of get in the way, it always feels unfair when it does. It shouldn't be this way, you sort of rail against the road bumps that we have along the way. So six lessons about problems and stress. And one, problems are a feature of life, not a bug. And there will never come a time when you have no problems. What did you think you were going to wake up one day? And there be no more problems, like completing a video game level and going to a map where there's nothing there. Things are always going to incur problems. Your problems will change, but having problems is going nowhere. Number two, whatever negativity is consuming your thoughts probably won't matter in three months time. Like in three months you won't remember the corrosive texture of your own mind, or the boring repetitive things that you thought, or maybe even what you worried about. I think what were you worrying about three months ago right now? Probably can't remember. But all of the time that you spent worrying will have passed. So you're sacrificing your joy and your presence in the moment for a problem that you won't even be able to recall in the future. So immortality would kind of be the only life where so much flippancy with the time that we have would be acceptable. Learning comes from the edges. Number three, change is uncomfortable. And it rarely occurs without a lot of stress. From the edges. Yeah, proximate zone of development. What does that mean? You pushing yourself just beyond what you're comfortable with, and sometimes this can be emotional pain too. Leaving the job happens when you get pushed out of region beta on the bottom end, or growth happens when you overextend yourself the right amount, not so much that you get injured, but so much that you're challenged that this is a new zone for you to get into and clawing up. Wow, and it expands your potential, your idea of what you're able to do. And it's like it pushes you so that your system becomes more resilient on the other side. Many of the periods of radical, important change that you have had in your life have only occurred because of severe challenges you faced. Look back, almost all of the big periods of growth in your life have germinated from your lowest points. In retrospect, would you have avoided them if you could? Probably not. So yeah, this challenge is a gift. You can lean into discomfort as if you invited it through the door. It's like, oh, there we are. Hello. It's good to see. What thoughts did you repeat too many times this year? You're working too much. Okay, so this is a recurring theme here. Of course. Yeah. Yeah. Again, the big questions, the big problems, the big problems. And you want to orientate your life towards just having bigger gaps of emptiness? But probably filling it with this stuff. Family, same as you. I can't wait to be a dad. I should have a dog. I should have a dog. How many times have I thought the thought I should have a dog? Get a golden retriever. I saw a tweet which has kind of haunted me for 12 months. The tweet said, why do all the big male podcasters not have kids? All the big male podcasters, not have kids. They all talk about the population crisis and this and that and the other. And then it was like Chris Williams in Huberman Lex Steven. J got kids. J Shetty. Yeah. No, okay. Yeah, but then also Tucker Carlson's breeding a lot. He was number 10. Rogan's got like three daughters, I think, three or four daughters. Rogan's the only one that think about it as well. There's a generational difference here. Like Tucker and Rogan are of the same generation and this younger generation of like very flattering for Andrew Huberman in his 50s. Oh, yeah. Yeah. But why is that? Why don't we have kids? I mean, it's a great question. For me, I spent a lot of time in my 20s really trying to work out who I was. I had my head up my own ass. I'm happy to say that I had a slow development psychologically in terms of becoming the person that I wanted to in terms of realizing how important different things were to me. Like how long have you known felt it? I should have kids. I've always wanted kids, but I've not put steps in place to make that happen up until the last two years. And you know what's crazy? I'm completely unprepared. My life as it is now is not ready for kids. I fly too much. I'm too busy. I have so many priorities. I ordered to pick something up. Yeah, but I have this sort of meta view, which is the big step up in meeting in my life will probably come from that. So even though there's no emotion in my body that's telling me that this is a good idea close my eyes and do it. And I will adjust. I will adjust to the responsibility as I always have. There was no room in my life for a podcast when I started this podcast. But I adjusted. And so it goes against every inclination that I have to have children right now as a man that has freedom, who is 33 years old, who can go every once when every once and doesn't really have to answer to any major responsibilities outside of places. Do you like that? Do you like the fact that you don't have dependence in that way? If you ask this brain, yes, I like freedom. I like the fact that I, after this conversation, I can welcome my business, go to the gym, go wherever I want, fly somewhere, go to Hawaii. I like the freedom. However, there's this like meta brain. That is my regret brain. And it lives 50 years from now. And it's been inspired by all the conversations I've had on the podcast. And it says to me that actually the most meaningful thing you can do is increase the amount of dependence and responsibility that you have. This is an unteachable lesson, dude, that you should probably have kids now, right? That could be a lesson perhaps that you will never feel ready that could be an unteachable lesson. We have this population decline situation going on. And is it not a function of a consequence of the fact that we have more freedom, more control, we're more nihilistic? It's more like me, me, me, me. Now, there's like a subtle narcissism, which is bread and society. I'm like, I ain't got kids, but just so you know, lads without watching, I'm doing everything in my power, some things that I can't actually tell you about, but I'm doing everything in my power to have kids as soon as possible. Okay, so I imagine that I'll be a fine. That just sounds like shagging all the time. Well, yeah. Okay. But I think I'll be a dad within the next 12 months. Amazing. And I have to say this again because it's so important, there's no part of me in this moment of time that's like, oh, I really, really want to be a dad. I can see the cost, but the benefit is unknown. I have to take other people's words for it. Crazy, dude. It's a painful realization. And I've had some of the best demographers in the world on, limestone from the Institute for Family Studies, Stephen J. Shaw, who did the birth gap documentary, these people know what's going on. And it's a function of a lot of things. It's a function of people having other stuff to do. There are so many other things to do than have kids, reliable contraception, that means that you can choose to put it off and continue to push it off for as long as you want, specifically women's socioeconomic emancipation into the workforce and in higher education. It means that at 18, the first thing you do is and get married, oh, I'm going to go to university. I've just put three or four years into university. I'm going to now go and get a job and now commit it to the job. I'm going to maybe climb the corporate ladder. And that's pushed the vitality curve back. It's made it later, rather than being earlier. And another problem is because there is such a multiplicity of different life directions that people can go down, the likelihood of you being ready at 22 and you meeting someone else who's also ready at 22, it's actually quite low. So if you think that you can have a graph like this, vitality curve, it's called by Stephen Shaw. And previously it would have been very short and sharp and spiky. And that would be like, when people want to have kids, it's like, you know, from 18 to 24, let's say, if you meet anybody within that age range, it's likely that they're at the same life situation as you. As you flatten that curve, make it longer, and you also push it a little bit later, you're now 35. I mean, to meet somebody that's also 35 and ready to have kids, you meet some, not because there's too much area under the curve that's flat, as opposed to everybody kind of dancing to the same tune or dancing to different tunes. So that contributes to it. I certainly think that there is a anti-family message that comes about that there's a girl with the list on TikTok, which I think is this girl who wrote 350 reasons to not have kids. It's like eight pages, nine pages long and it went super viral. And it's everything from literally a parasite growing inside of your body to can't work heels with the girls. We'll have to miss brunch. All of the different issues that can occur during childbirth. And then I think there was a list of things for kids. And it was like maybe a page, a half a page long that she'd written. And she is open to seeing the world as she wishes. I think by the sounds of things, it is a really good idea that she's not a mother. And I'm glad that she's choosing to not have kids. But that tone, that sentiment is like prevalent because people see this is what I have to sacrifice. Now, pain, discomfort, lack of freedom. For something that I have no idea about whether or not it's going to make me satisfied in future. And yeah, maybe people say it's the most important thing or whatever, but it's easy to excuse away when there are so many other things I can do with my life. I can travel around Bali and I can watch Netflix and I can build a business and I can start a sub-stack or I can build a YouTube channel and do a podcast. All of these things that you could do, pushing off, pushing off, pushing up, it's no surprise. And the final point is, I think having kids is mimetic. So what does that mean? You model the behavior of the people that are around you and the people that you see. So good example of this. South Korea, it's got one of the worst birth rates in the world. For every hundred South Koreans, there will be four great grandchildren. 96% reduction over the next century. It's insane. There are entire classrooms, whole schools in South Korea that are unoccupied. Now, and there are many, many reasons. The four B's movement, the increasing of women's acceptance into education. And then when they got into the workforce, they were still being prejudiced against, which meant that they swore off a lot of the things that they were promised. Like, lots and lots of different reasons. But one of the big ones, culturally, which is really fascinating, is K-pop. K-pop was this export. The Korea was going to put to the world. We have this ability to construct like the perfect boy band or girl band. We're going to export it to the world and this is going to be a representation for us. One of the things that K-pop stars have to say is that they will be celibate rather than the band. So not only does this mean that they can't be in a relationship. So the most popular cultural influences in South Korea aren't showing a pro-relationship narrative. They also obviously can't be mothers or fathers, because they can't be in a relationship. The converse of this, cultural intervention in the country of Georgia. Very religious. And there's this superstar-pasta guy, very religious country, this passer that's kind of like a really rock star sort of dude. He said, "I will personally baptize the third child of any family in the country." So now these parents are speedrunning having kids so that their child can be baptized by the equivalent, like, you know, the goat. He's like the, like, fucking, a vitchie of pastors. K-pop did the exact opposite. They had a cultural intervention which showed a non pro-family influence, whereas Georgia had this one that was a pro-family influence. So a cultural intervention that South Korea could easily implement would be to say the only way that you can become a K-pop star is to already have had a kid. Like we're only going to create boy bands and girl bands out of people who have already had families. This kind of brings the conversation to me and you, because there's a lot of men that listen to your show. There's a lot of men that listen to my show. And I do think in many respects we're modeling to some respects, to some people, what it is to be a good man. By what we choose to do, you know, you have a lot of influence. I've watched the videos of people coming to you after your tours and they say to you that you're their friend. They're like, they thank you for the fact that you have been their, their big brother or their friend to look up to. And so I actually think about this a lot, which is like, what am I modeling? As a, as a podcast that we're both in the top 10 list of the global podcasts, calling to Spotify. So do you think about what you, you model? And do you think about what a good man is? Do you think about what you want your audience to think of a man's responsibility is? Yeah, very much so. That being said, I've never claimed to be some shiny example of what people should do. I certainly know that I try my best to be the sort of guy that I would want to be friends with. I quite like me. I quite like me. And I've worked really hard. I didn't like me. And I've worked really, really hard to form myself into a shape, a construction. I feel big emotions, for instance. And for a long time, I was really ashamed of them. And I wouldn't get below the neck and I would use intellect to like protect myself from feeling my feelings. And on stage, anybody that's come to see my live show, I get teary every night. I get teary telling the same story. Okay. Well, I think that's like a good thing. I think it's a good thing for guys who feel their emotions to show that they feel their emotions, right? Suppression isn't the same thing as strength. And I've stopped suppressing. Wonderful. I think that there is a wonderful upside in trying to conquer and trying to achieve mastery, trying to really drive yourself to go and do stuff. But I'm not like fuck your feelings just hustle and grind until your eyes bleed either. So I'm trying to show balance. I think mindfulness is really important. I think that physical practice is really important. Now, all of this stuff kind of appears in the exterior. Remember what I said before? What's the conversation room prepared to have? What's the one thing that you should be doing? It's usually the big thing. The big thing is probably going to be something to do with. Have a fucking family dude. Like, it's time for you to have a family. But it's a, is that scary for you? Be honest. To have a family? No. But the sacrifice and commitment. It used to be. It used to be. It used to be. Yeah, of course. Two years ago. Really? Two or three years ago. Yeah, yeah. And again, we are products of our environment. Like all of the corner copier of different things that we can do. Look at this panoply of options that I could spend my life doing. You sort of get shiny objects syndrome and you chase after things and isn't it going to be exciting? And then you get to where you thought you wanted to be and you go, that might not be the answer. And that's why having a bit of time to reflect, having a little bit of time for quiet, fleeting thoughts to come up. Like a busy calendar is a hedge against existential loneliness. And if you are always needed by somebody, you don't have to sit with your quiet thoughts. You don't have to think, oh, fuck, that deep question that's been in the back of my mind. It's easy to push off if people want me or I move from caffeine-fueled meeting to evening dinner. I actually have to listen to that. But if you sit with your thoughts for a little bit, and this is why a lot of people don't like sitting with their thoughts, this stuff comes up. And that's why the question, what emotions you weren't prepared to feel is so good. What changed two years ago that made you change your perspective? I don't know. I grew up. I guess that's what growing up is called. It wasn't some moment where the sky's opened and things changed. I noticed, I used to think, I used to think that kids were super annoying. My business partner had his first son when he was 25, so I would have been 25-2, 25-26 maybe. And I remember thinking, fuck, you just can't come out with me anymore. He's busy, he's got all this stuff to do. And then each kid that was about two years apart, each one, I noticed my relationship to the child was different. I was like, okay, well, they're kind of cute or whatever. And then another one came along. I'm like, okay, so I saw this sedimentary rock, this archaeological dig of myself change. And now I'm Godfather to my best friend's daughter, beautiful daughter, who's like four months old, five months old. And I love going around and seeing her. And yeah, I don't know, it's just growing up, dude, growing up's weird because something changes and you kind of didn't choose it. Do you know what I mean? Like, did you choose? No, fuck me. No, it's weird, man. It's weird. This belief climbs inside of you and sort of wears you a little bit. And a lot of the time we're scared of that and I understand why. But like resisting the fact that that's there, I don't know, it's kind of a denial of this beautiful thing that's just been given to you. There you go. There's like something new and exciting that you can move into. And I think a lot of friction is in the resistance, right? Suffering is in the resistance of the thing. I've just finished writing my third book. 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You can go out with your friends that want to go to the pub on an evening time, but you feel a little bit ostracized. They're having digs at you and jibes at you. Oh, come on, mate. Only one beer. Who do you think you are? So your change is creating some friction between you and them. Your friends like to play Xbox on an evening time. That's how they hang out, but you want to start going to the gym. But your friends don't go to the gym. Then when you do hang out with them, you're talking about the gym because that's your new thing. They're still talking about Xbox. There is a friction that happens as you try to grow. If your friends don't grow at the same pace as you, you don't speak the same language. A friend referred to it as changing a dialect so much so that over time you and your friends don't even speak the same language anymore. It's very uncomfortable because it's tempting to go back to the old life that you're used to. The old patterns, the old routines, the old friend groups, the old everything. You have to stop doing the things that you know bring you validation in the moment to start doing things that you have no idea about whether it'll actually work. You're going to tell me that I'm not going to go out with my friends this weekend because I'm going to keep my meditation street going. Who even knows if meditation works, right? It's so much easier to just stay in the routine that you were previously doing the same sort of things. For you to pull away from that, you're going to have to do stuff usually that makes you more different, more easy to be mocked and more alone. The initial sad reality is that on your journey of personal growth, at some point, you may need to leave a group of friends behind who aren't growing at the same pace as you. The really sad reality is that if you do it a lot, you may have to do this multiple times through your life. It's not a value judgment about who's better or who's worse. It's just a stark reality of what happens when you start to make changes in your life. For instance, I met a million people on the front door of nightclubs. Million people in person had a handful of friends. I worked with half of them. Million people, handful of friends in internet marketing speak. My friendship conversion funnel ratio was not very good. Million people, handful of friends. The only way that I could work out who I was was to kind of follow my own instincts and do some of the personal development stuff, like a thousand days sober, 500 days without caffeine, just fucking miserable. Nine gratitude, meditation journals with no idea if any of it was going to work. This is the really important thing, and it's a bit that all origin stories miss. I wish that they paid more attention to it. It seems to me that on every hero's journey, as soon as they make the commitment to go from where they are to where they want to be, their self-belief never waivers. I'm not sure. There's ups and downs in the journey and the progress, but their conviction doesn't slip. It's like at that moment, the clouds parted and I was sure I was going to become a UFC fighter. I was going to become a businessman. I was going to get off drugs, change my mindset, whatever. In my experience, that's not the way it is at all. Your entire journey of personal growth is just steeped in doubt and self-pity and uncertainty, and it tarnishes the whole experience. It's not sexy. It's not cool. You're like, this is supposed to be my rocky cutscene. It's three and a half minutes in the movies, but it's been four years for me. What's going on? There's not even the promise that there's any glory on the other side of it. This is exactly why it's so much easier to just go back to your old patterns, why it's easier to just go back to doing the old things that you used to do. People make small changes. They do little things. Those five pounds or they change companies. How many people do you know that have really changed their mindset? I lost 50 or 100 pounds or change careers or moved from the city that they grew up in. It's rarer. The reason that I love this Lonely Chapter idea is that it names something that a lot of people feel is a bug, not a feature of personal growth, which is this discordance with their old patterns and their old friend groups and the fact that they don't know whether the uncomfortability is supposed to be there. Is this discomfort right? Is myself doubt? Surely I should just believe and see it believe it achieve it. Am I not supposed to just be single mindedly going toward my goal? This doubt is supposed to be that I can promise you that every single person who has gone from a place where they didn't want to be to one way they did has had to go through this Lonely Chapter and deal with all of this. I think it resonates with people because there's sort of people who listen to modern wisdom and your show, the sort of people that this is about. It's the kind of people who live in the UK and want to do something themselves who want to build a business, do something that there isn't a particularly good role model for. That's presumably because they want to do something. They want to become better. They feel like they're built for more. And this is what I meant when I said before, you can just do things. Just do it anyway. Do it tired. Do it sad. Do it lonely. Do it without a role model. Because if you're waiting for somebody to come along and give you that helping hands, sometimes you're going to be waiting too long. It reminds me so much of Jeff Bezos' "Sharehold the Letter" where he talks about resisting the equilibrium. In his final 2020 "Sharehold the Letter" said differentiation is survival and the universe wants you to be typical. And the way that this stuff tells into what you've said is your environment is very, very much holding you in place. And actually, in every facet of life, every organism is currently expending a huge amount of energy just to resist the pull to be typical. Regression to the mean. Exactly. So if you were to leave your friendship group now, the amount of energy it's going to take to stay untypical is tremendous. And he says, "This is my last annual "Sharehold the Letter" as the CEO of Amazon. And I have one last thing of utmost importance. I feel compelled to teach. I hope all Amazonians take it to heart. Here is a passage from Richard Dawkins' book The Blind Watchmaker. It's about a basic fact of biology. Staving off death is a thing that you have to work at. Left to itself, and that is what it is when it dies, the body tends to revert to a state of equilibrium with its environment. If you measure some quantity such as the temperature, the acidity, the water content, or the electrical potential of a living body, you will typically find that it is markedly different from the corresponding measure in its surroundings. Our bodies, for instance, are usually hotter than our surroundings. And in cold climates, they have to work hard to maintain that differential. When we die, the work stops. The temperature differential starts to disappear, and we end up the same temperature as our surroundings. Not all animals have to work so hard to avoid coming into equilibrium with their surrounding temperature, but all animals do some comparable work. For instance, in a dry country, animals and plants work to maintain the fluid content in their cells. They work against a natural tendency for water to flow from them into the dry outside world. If they fail, they die. More generally, if living things didn't work actively to prevent it, they would eventually merge into their surroundings and cease to exist as autonomous beings. This is what happens when they die. And what he's talking about here is that to be different in any context or environment, work is being done, like to stay atypical. And I think about this as we come into the new year, which is if you're planning to be different, quit the job, go and be the violinist in Peru, start the cupcake business, it's going to cost you so much energy to resist the equilibrium that you better go back to what you said about subtracting things. You better save energy somewhere else, because I had a neuroscientist on the podcast that was the neuroscientist that discovered we have a biological budget of energy, literally like a bank account. And what tends to happen, I think, in why the new year stats are so horrific in terms of the amount of people that stick to their goals is we go in search of a new state, a new life that's going to cost us even more energy to resist the current environment without budgeting for it by saving elsewhere. And I think about this through the lens as a business owner, because as a company, the driver of a CEO will become, like the mean, the minute we stop the fight, the minute we stop experimenting, the minute we stop pushing the boundaries, the minute you stop doing the big digital screens, the minute you give up the fight, you will become every other show. That's what I meant when I said problems are a feature of life, not a bug. Like, there will be no day when you don't have any problems and railing against it. Why is the flight delayed because flight to get delayed? Because flight to get delayed, that's why. And did you think that there's going to be a day when no flights were delayed? That you're going to reach some escape velocity, whether this was no longer an issue. I love this analogy using escape velocity. Imagine that we've got a rocket ship here. So, when this is taking off, on the launch pad is when it needs the most energy. The inertia is the highest, the resistance is the most. So that's when you need to use whatever fuel you've got. Use the chip on your shoulder from the kids that bullied you in school. Use your desperate desire to be seen by that girl out there. Use your need for validation from your parents, whatever it is. And then what happens is the old school star rocket is another new Falcon 9 ones. What happens when this takes off? This fuel source switches off and then the booster rockets come on. That's as you get to a different level of altitude. And now you're using a different sort of fuel source. And then this falls away, the bottom falls off and it keeps on going. And then it gets into escape velocity. Use what you have at the start. And at the start, most people have way more discontent than they do love. There's, I mean, even this ties right back to New Year's resolutions because if I am going to make a change and reach escape velocity, then I'm going to need to focus all my energy. And therefore, save leakage, like save wasted energy in this moment of time. And I've heard you talk about this when you do and you review that. Again, it goes back to what it's saying. Like, you do need to cut some shit. And you can't have it all at the same time. If you are going to change your life, this is one of the problems of overcooking your goals for the next 12 months. I think you can probably do two big things in 2026, two big things. You can probably lose 20 pounds and get a boyfriend that you really, really love. You can't do that and move cities and start a new business and learn to play the piano. No. And that, again, is why don't go into a buffet and assume that however much food you put on the plate, your stomach will just expand to fit it in. Because what you're going to guarantee is that you fail. Make sure you can almost guarantee that you fail at doing this thing. Is it great to set your sights high? Yeah, that's real cool. And maybe you've got lots of things that you want to do. But just what would happen by the end of next year if you'd to look back on it and consider it a success? And what if you created a rank-ordered list? I'm like, okay, I need to kill one of these. And you left yourself with one or two. What's left? You don't need to do one thing next year. Cross that off. Cross that off. Cross that. What am I left with? Really want to lose the weight. There we go. Now we can break that down into individual steps. I need to get a gym membership. I need to get some cool gym. Why that makes me feel good as I go to the gym. I've heard you talk, you mentioned that getting a boyfriend next year. One of the resolutions a lot of people will have, even if it's not directly, is to find a partner. And I heard you referencing psychological stability. That's the thing we should be looking for in a partner. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. What do you mean by psychological stability? After some sort of emotional perturbment, after something happens, how long does it take for them to get back to baseline? Oh, okay. So I'm looking for someone who is just what, emotionally stable, or they returned to their emotional equilibrium, right? So let's say that we're going on holiday. And the flight is cancelled. And it's a big deal because their family is going out there. Is that the sort of thing that happens? And then there is a reversion to baseline within a few hours. Or is that the sort of thing that blows up the entire trip of the holiday with their family? Something occurs that causes emotions to be impacted. How long does it take to get back to baseline? That's emotional stability. And it's very predictive of relationship outcomes. Some other stuff, conscientiousness. Persons thoughtful. They think a lot about you specifically. And they care. Agribleness. And someone who's moderately agreeable. You want somebody who, when you propose plans, is a yes and person. And finally, you want someone who's moderately open in openness, personality trait. There's three. Conscientiousness. Agribleness. Openness to experience. Want someone who's moderately open so they're prepared to go and do new things. As soon as you get into high openness, that's when wandering eyes come in. This isn't to say that personality traits are destiny. But based on Tai Toshiro's work, this is pretty reliable. I also like the psychological stability thing. I think that's really, really lovely. You want somebody who feels like home. You want a relationship that feels like a safe harbor that you can wall yourself off against all of the ills of the world. Your business can fall apart. Your health can decay. Your friends can abandon you. But you know that at home, there's someone who loves you for who you are not for what you do. And they've always got your back. And I think aiming for a relationship that feels like a safe harbor is a really good idea. It's rough at the moment, isn't it? I'm so glad that I'm not single. Because when I look out at the dating landscape of like dating apps and all this stuff, I'm so glad that I'm not out there in that war zone. And when you, you know, there's a lot of single people that follow you, men and women, when you think about, if you were 30-year-old Chris and you're a single guy, you're not doing the podcast, people don't know who you are, if you were trying to solve the love problem in your life, where would you aim at first? Like the love problem, that's cool. The first thing you need to do is say, am I the sort of person who, the sort of person I want to date wants to date? If not, it's obvious where you need to work, where can yourself? That's such an important question that requires such honesty. And this again is why some time away from the urgent and the importance, some time to reflect, some time to listen to your fleeting thoughts. You know, you know that your wardrobe sucks. You know that your wardrobe sucks. And you hate fashion. And you've excused it. It's like, I don't need to do that. I'm not interested or whatever. Hey, dude, I'm sorry. Chicks care about how you look. Shock horror. They care about what you wear. Probably need to go and update the wardrobe. You've got a female friend. You watch a few YouTube videos online. Maybe that's where you need to start. I'm a bit overweight. I'm a bit skinny fat. Jim is one of the most reliable ways to increase your attractiveness. One of the most reliable ways is a man to increase your attractiveness. You need to be a real superchad to not need to have any physical practice at all and still be able to get the sort of woman that you want. So, okay, maybe you're going to start to go to the gym. But let's assume that you have reached the level that you need to be at in order to be attractive to the sort of person that you are. That's the first one. Because if you're not, you're permanently condemning yourself to always pine after partners that aren't going to want you back. Next step. Where do partners like the sort of person that you want to date hang out? Where do they go? Like, if you love dance music, it's probably a bad idea to go to a breathwork class. Like, why don't you just go to parties that I've got dance DJs on? Or if you're really into lectures and philosophy, go to an Alex O'Connor live event or something and hang around outside or talk to the girl that's next to you. If you really love sport, like, obviously go to the gym, pick up pickleball, like start doing that. Where are the sorts of places inhabited by the sort of person that you want to be like? There's bonus points. If you can go and do a thing that you have a little bit of a competitive advantage, especially as a guy. If you used to play tennis in high school, and you've got a bit of hand out coordination, it can probably be one of the best pickleball players at recreational court pretty quickly. And you're going to be that new guy who's like, like, you've seen, like, I want to play with him, like, he always wins or whatever it might be. Like, not being manipulative. You're just playing to your strengths. What decision did you make in your life that made you more attractive than any other decision? Go to the gym. Go to the gym. I started training when I was 18. The Center for Sporting Excellence at Newcastle University. I had no idea what it was doing, and was taking blueberry extract and unflavored, hydrolyzed way in a desperate attempt to see if I could gain some size. I just didn't stop. And I like it. It makes me healthier. It makes me feel powerful. It added to my frame. I had real hard gain. It took fucking ages to put weight on. I remember when I was 20, and I broke 70 kilos for the first time, and I was like, I'm fucking huge. And I just didn't stop. And I think not only is it something that's great for me, it's something that really very reliably makes you more attractive to women. What about for women? What do you think in your peer, they would make? Look, I would be tempted to go for the gym thing too. And the reason that I like it is that it is, you benefit on multiple levels. Like, even what you don't want to do is do something that makes your life feel like a performance for your future partner. You want something that even if that doesn't come along, you're still glad you did it. And how many people say, I went to the gym in an attempt to get better legs because the guy that I want to attract is kind of like intergirls that have got good legs. And I want to wear like nice dresses and look cute in them and all the rest of it. I really hated the way that my boyfriend didn't come along and what I was, I broke myself trying to do. I lost myself trying to do that. No, you made yourself. You won independently of whether or not that person came along. And how wonderful is that for you? So, I mean, this is just me shamelessly shilling for everybody to go to the gym and get jagged. But I think that would be good. One other thing I think that is maybe a slightly unusual strategy that women can cultivate is receptiveness. So I think, especially in a post-MeToo world, a lot of guys are very scared of approaching. Guys have always been scared of approaching women. But in a post-MeToo world, they've been taught that anything short of a hell yeah is a no getaway from me, so that you don't make the go-feel uncomfortable. Guys already were quite nervous going up and talking to you. So you have to treat a man and his interest kind of like slightly inexperienced golden retriever. It needs to be very loud, very obvious signals of interest from you. So in the middle ages or aristocratic middle ages, ladies would drop a handkerchief in front of a gentleman. Oh, mom, mom, oh. In 2025 in New York, there are women stealing finance bros salads, finding their names from the salad on Instagram and the messaging them and saying, sorry, I accidentally took your salad. Like that's the 2025 equivalent of dropping the handkerchief. But receptiveness, I think, is important. Like, hey, ladies, if you like that guy and he's not approaching you, maybe assume that he doesn't know that you like him and apply a little bit more receptiveness. And another, the other side of this is, if a guy does come up to you and you're not into him, don't mock him or make it uncomfortable to his face because you are ruining the next girl's chances who really does want him by making him feel not enough for doing it. It's taken a superhuman amount of strength to come up and say, hello, I just wanted to say, I thought you looked really lovely today. What's your name? That was the most terrifying thing that that guy has done that day. And if you don't, if you're not receptive, even if you don't want it, it kind of creates this culture of men feeling broken and like they shouldn't do that more. So yeah, there's some. What is the most important things we haven't talked about that we should have talked about, Chris, as it relates to this time of year, the strivers who want to make change become someone else. Stop taking life so seriously. Like no one is getting out of this game alive, literally. In three generations, no one will even remember your name. And if that doesn't give you liberation to just drop your fucking problems for a moment and find some joy, I don't know what will. Life is inherently ridiculous and guaranteed to end sooner or later. So you might as well enjoy the ride. Do you know your great granddad's name? No, no. People don't like that idea and I get it, maybe you will be remembered for generations to come, but just assume that you don't. This is this deferred happiness syndrome thing, dude. Like don't wait. Life really is happening right now. There is this belief that once life's duties are out of the way, then you can finally start doing the thing you want to and fully living your life. It's called the provisional life is sort of strange feeling that you're not yet in your real life. For now, you're doing this thing or that, but there's always the fantasy that at some point in future, the real thing will come about. There is a kind of urgency that I think we could all do with and that's not to put pressure on people so that they feel like a failure if they fall short. It's not to deny the fact that people have got real legitimate resource and time constraints that mean that they can't do a thing. But don't wait. Whose life really is happening right now? I can't think of many times when you're going to regret trying to make something happen now. I guess one other thing, the sort of people that have made it this deep into the episode are the ones that this is about. I think type A people have a type B problem, so insecure overachievers. Is that type A? Yep. Need to learn how to chill out and relax and lazy people need to learn how to be motivated and work harder. But given that someone is two hours into a podcast between me and you, I'm going to guess that they're probably type A, some version of a walking anxiety disorder harnessed for productivity as Andrew Wilkinson says. And here's the thing that you may have already realized, which is type A people with type B problems often get very little sympathy. Because a miserable but outwardly successful person always appears to be in a much more preferential position than a content being lazy but on the verge of bankruptcy one. One feels like a limitation and the other feels like a choice. One is a systemic imposition and the other is like a bourgeois luxury, right? I need someone to teach me how to work harder and be disciplined feels upward aiming, noble, charitable. I need someone to teach me how to switch off and relax, feels dopamine ergic, transactional, like opulent. Every underdog movie ever has a scene of some person down on their luck learning how to work harder and pull themselves up by their bootstraps. None include a scene of a guy learning how to log out of Slack at 6 p.m. I'll finally enjoy a beach holiday. And like I said before, maybe more people do need David Goggin screaming in their face to go harder than need Eckhart tolle whispering in their ear that they're enough already. But for a perhaps minority of people, they actually need to hear the opposite message. We need a parasympathetic Goggins who's going to carry the TV remote and the Cheetos hashtag rest harder than me. We need to teach people to give themselves a fucking break. And this is an odd thing to hold in both our hands at the same time. You do not want to have a victim mindset, you want to have agency on the world, you want to enact stuff that's going on, you want to make it and you're going to have to try really hard. And also, you need to give yourself a break. You have to know that if you nail your day, you don't just make it back to zero, you got to plus 10. There's no arbitrary minimum level of productivity you have to achieve every day in order to be worthwhile. Are you religious? And I asked this because you talked about the idea of death and pursuit and you don't know how long you've got left. And I think it probably has to be framed in the context of what you think happens thereafter. No, I wouldn't call myself religious. Are you? The way that I look at it is, if you look at our evolutionary history, we're meant to be part of something. But if you look at the narrative of the last 20 years, that's given rise because of social media, it's all about beer and boss remote work. I mean, we talked about the whole kids, then people having less kids. So we're actually swinging away from dependency to independence and freedom. And it appears to me that freedom and total independence will make you sick. So naturally, I'm as low as you need to going, this doesn't feel right. I need to, I need some, I need to belong somewhere. Think about this. Mazda's hierarchy of needs. An existential crisis. You asking yourself the question of anybody that goes through this review process, chriswellx.com/review. Anyone that goes through that and thinks, I don't know what to do with my life. Think about how few people throughout human history have ever had to ask themselves that question. Day to day, desperately just trying to cling on to existence, unsure whether or not the cold snap tomorrow is going to come into the cave and kill them all. An existential crisis is a luxurious position to be in and it feels horrendous. How do you hold those two things in your mind at one time? Like, you're telling me I'm blessed because I'm asking myself questions that make me doubt the meaning of my life. Yeah. And maybe that's where religion is stepping in now to try and give people some guidance on that sort of stuff. I saw a tweet that said, my parents had the problem of survival and I have the problem of self-actualization. And I think sometimes, sometimes, I've got to be careful what I say here, but I'm saying, you know, they both come with their own challenges. I should say. Absolutely. I mean, and there's this idea I had the other day of the shame of small fears, which is what this is about. So imagine explaining small fears to a caveman, say, "Grook, I worry about sending this message." Grook would respond, "Will the enemy try and see the message?" No. "Will the saber-toothed tiger smell the message?" No. "Will it be etched on the wall for the rest of time?" No, it's a little small rectangle. Why are you worried? In case somebody doesn't like me, or like what I say, or I heard their feelings, he just laughs in your face. And we have to accept the fact that the sort of fears we have in the modern world are both smaller and more complex at the same time. Yes, they're not about life and death, but our nervous system has been repurposed from bears to boundaries. And it does not know the difference. It feels like you saying your truth, saying, "I don't think that this job's working for me," or you said something that doesn't land with me, and you crossed a line, that feels like you're about to be rejected from the tribe, even if the tribe is now just a WhatsApp chat. And this repurposing of our nervous system gives us the additional complexity of the shame, because now we feel shame. Who am I to have this problem? Do I not know that across the grand expanse of history, this is nothing? My ancestors would have dreamed to have had the opportunity to have dealt with this problem instead of the one that they do. And yet you can't deny the way that you feel. It's like one of the biggest lessons I've taken away from this year is my emotions are legitimate. The way that I feel is the way that I feel. And denying myself that is not helping anything at all. It's like, you feel scared before you go out on stage to go and give this talk in front of a few thousand people. You shouldn't be scared. No one's going to come and kill you and you start shaming yourself for your fear and then you become anxious about your shame about your fear and then bitter about your anxiousness about your shame about your fear. You've got this infinite regress of mean emotions. The first one wasn't me. The first one was the situation. The second one was me. The third one and the fourth one. And now I'm complicit in my own suffering. I've made myself, I've made myself suffer unnecessarily. And this is why the spit and sawdust and caffeine and big dreams, really, really important. But it has to be married with some self-love. And maybe not in the beginning. Maybe if you're trying to get the rocket ship off the launch pad, use what you have, including your self-hatred and your need for validation from people and that chip on your shoulder from the kids in school. But after a while, you need to accept that that is a toxic fuel if you use it for too long. But when inertia is at its greatest, I think you have to use what you have. I'm going to ask you a question and this is I just want to try and experiment here. Can you think out loud when you hear this question? Okay. So I'm going to ask it immediately think out loud. Okay. Are you happy? It's a complex question. I have to work hard to be in a good mood sometimes. And I don't like the fact that I have to work hard to be in a good mood. It feels to me like I need to stack the deck in my favor in order to be able to do that. And I wish that I didn't. And yet, I'm really proud of all of the things that I've done in order to be able to make my happiness increase. I have a set point. I had depression in my 20s. I've had a lot of anxiety as well. And I'm really proud of what I've done to overcome that. You have to work hard to be in a good mood. Yes. Can you talk me through that? I've never heard this before. From you. Okay. Well, this year has been a particularly difficult one for me because I got kicked in the nuts by health. America's a wonderful country. But everything's trying to kill you. The food system, the municipal water, the building materials, the air quality. And I lived in a house that had toxic molds. I got mold poisoning, which a lot of people in America have. And it's so brutal. And it turned about the stuff. And I spent a long time best part of two years with two jobs. One was the show. And the other was trying to fix my health. So after all of this, all this big modern wisdom review thing, all I did, my only two goals for this year at the start of this year were don't let the show drop and fix my health. That was it. It was all I wanted. Nothing else. Don't let the show drop and fix my health. So I really was humbled that kicked in the nuts so many times that they were too dimensional. They disappeared if you looked at them from the side. It felt like a cosmic joke. It felt so unfair, like working so hard to just operate. Going to bed at seven o'clock at night for six months, unable to sleep because I was wide, but tired because my cord is always inverted, cord is always higher at night than it was in the morning. So no matter how long I slapped, I was never able to feel rested in the morning. And then dealing with it alone, dealing with it on my own and trying to go through complex environmental illness, doctors and treatments and all of this stuff, that really made me face a lot of the fears of insufficiency that I've had. I think every man knows reflection when he's at his lowest. And I've been at some of my lowest points over the last 12 months. So for me, the happiness thing has been like, I just need to get through today. I just want to perform while on the show. I can't really think about the mood that I'm in when I do it because the mood that I'm in is just swimming in Maloncoly. I don't feel very good. It felt like it felt like my bed herself was slipping through my fingers. I think it was being ripped away from me due to something that I hadn't done. It felt so unfair, so comically unfair. I got literally like a personal curse that had been hit at me. And it was specifically on the thing that I care about the most. So mold does typically, lots of things, but three things, energy, mood and cognition. So it makes you tied all the time. It makes you low mood and it makes you forgetful. So there was a day when I looked down and I forgot how to tie my shoes. I couldn't remember how to put my shoelaces together in order to tie my shoes. I was forgetting words. I was forgetting the names of people that I'd known. I was forgetting the names of friends, dogs and stuff that I'd spent time with. And yeah, this year has not been a year where I've been trying to maximize my happiness. It's one where I've been trying to survive. And I did it pretty much silently. I did a video about it in maybe October time, something like that. But again, I want to keep my private life private thing was important to me because I didn't want to have other people being ill. Anybody that is dealing with an illness will know this. Talking about your illness is kind of like having a birthday that what you get is inundated with lots of messages from people who are all really well-wishing. But what it results in is just a ton of admin and a load of guilt if you don't reply. So I didn't, I knew that if I started talking about all of the stuff that I was going through, it would be great because it would make other people that would deal with it feel less alone, but it would also be an additional burden on me while I'm trying to fix myself. I'm trying to sift through all of my friend knows how to do a parasite cleanse using goat milk and you can, you know, pray to the full moon. I really appreciate you caring about me so much that you've tried to link me in with this person. And sure enough, this documentary that I put on the channel that people can go and watch came out. And that happened, mercifully, I was a little bit further through the journey. But yeah, man, like how do I optimize my happiness? Is a luxury that a lot of people aren't in a position to do and that that was me this year. I didn't have the spare capacity to optimize my happiness. And you still try hard to be, you still have to put significant effort into be content happy. Yeah, at the moment, yeah, I've been working hard on it, you know, happiness really only exists when uncertainty isn't there. Very difficult to be uncertain and happy at the same time. You'd even make the argument that humans never chase happiness directly. They always chase certainty first. Because if you don't know how the future is going to pan out, how are you able to be, especially if it's like chronic uncertainty, like, you know, severe uncertainty, not just I don't know who's going to win the sports game tomorrow. And for me, I didn't know if I was going to get escape velocity to get out of this health stuff. And if that's the case, where am I driving my happiness from? All I see is this endless stretch of work and discomfort and fatigue and tiredness and solitude. And I feel bad for the guy that had to go through that this year. Like I feel for him because it wasn't it wasn't easy and it was lonely and I'm really proud. I'm really, really proud that I kept showing up. I didn't give up on myself. I had dead ends with regards to treatment with regards to testing. It was like months where I was going to bed at 7 p.m. waking up at 8 a.m. Still tired, sleeping straight through. There's something interesting here because the three areas that you said mold impacts are also the three areas that everybody kind of knows you for. And that's kind of why I said personal curse. It felt like it felt like somebody had designed a pathology just for me and it would hit it all of the places that I took my self-worth from. Does it leave a question then which is if you take everything I value now that gives me self-worth, what remains? Well, that was a question I had to ask myself this year. And what did remain? Somebody who's kind, somebody who's genuinely kind and sensitive and I always thought that sensitivity was weakness but it's not, at least not for me, somebody who is resilient in a very normal way. So boring victories. It's something that I've had to learn to take pleasure from this year. You know, is today the grandest accomplishment of your entire life? No. But you went for a walk or you were kind to that person at the supermarket or you were gentle with yourself when you became frustrated and I had to get over the shame of small pleasures that somehow me feeling proud about the way that I showed up in a tiny minute way that nobody else saw was sort of a comment of the smallness of my life. Oh, you must not have a lot going on like how feeble, how weak, how minuscule must your life be. That seeing that golden retrieval was the best part of your morning. And yet I realized that that was worth being happy about and that denying myself the opportunity to be happy about something small is basically holding my happiness hostage. Until the bank deposit is sufficiently large, the ledger doesn't kick in. I can't pick up pennies, I can only pick up $100 bills. And it really fucking humbled me, dude, especially if you're flying high, two years ago, the show is just vertical. And numerically, it still is now. But it really, really felt like something had just come in to bring my feet back down to earth. And I feel different to the person I was last year. But I'm much more connected, I think, to a sort of truth. A landed bottom says the best manner those who have been broken and this year has definitely broken me. Are you doing better now? I am. If I was at three, 12 months ago, I'm probably at seven, two and eight now. So don't let the show drop and fix my health. I got close to doing both of those. We've got a wrap up now, but I wanted to give you the chance to end this with any closing thoughts that you might have for the listener that's gotten this far in this conversation. And who is really the foothills of potentially a new version of themselves. And is there anything else that you wanted to say? First off, congratulations for making it through all of this. There's a lot of uncomfortable things to face with conversations like this. It really forces you to reckon with parts of your direction. Like, fuck, I really don't want to have to have that conversation. I really don't want to face that thing. There's a great quote from John Paul Sartre, he said, "I've led a toothless life. I have never bitten into anything. I was waiting. I was reserving myself for later on, and I've just noticed that my teeth have gone." This idea of being shunted to the side of your own life, of being a an NPC, a non-playable character when you should have been the main character. You can be in service of other people, but you can still have some sort of action that you take into the world. This deferred life thing waiting for life to begin. It's a great time of year to question that assumption. What would have to happen by the end of next year if you to look back on it and consider it a success? What would I do to make 85-year-old me miserable? What would 85-year-old me wish that I did more of? What are the emotions I'm unprepared to feel? What are the thoughts that I thought too many times last year? If this was a movie and the audience was watching, what would they be screaming at the screen telling me to do with my life? They're cool questions, and they certainly help me. They help me find directions, so I hope they've helped everyone else as well. We have a closing tradition where the last guest leaves a question for the next, not knowing who they're leaving it for, and the question left for you is quite relevant. What is the most important component of human joy and endeavour that you believe must be preserved in priority? Oh, wonderful. I think agency, I think the belief that you have the ability to impact your surroundings, because the opposite of agency is you basically holding your hands up and saying I'm at the mercy of the world. You happen to life. Life doesn't happen to you. Chris, thank you. You are going on tour, and you're going on tour next year in March, I believe, and you're going on tour in an area where I know we have lots of listeners. Australia, New Zealand, Bali, so I'm going to link below a link 21 that wants to come see you on tour, but also highly recommend people go download the modern wisdom annual review template, so I'm going to link that below as well. Look in the description, it's all there. Is there anything else that if people, you know, your channel, people should go subscribe to your channel if they've liked what they've heard today? Is there anything else? I had a conversation with Naval Ravacant. Oh my god, I loved that. People always ask what's the best conversation you've ever heard, and they say it's like trying to choose between a thousand children. That was really special, and for people who know him, you should watch it again. For people who don't know him, you should go and check it out, so we can link that below. I highly recommend that. Yeah, honestly, the modern wisdom annual review template, free copy it, use it, and that'll put you on my mailing list for a once a week newsletter, which is a lot of the thoughts, a lot of the ideas that we've gone through today. I wanted to say something to you before we finished up as well. No, it's a thank you, so I think people often wonder about what's going on behind the scenes, or what's somebody's like behind the scenes, and I needed some advice from you, so I messaged you on Saturday afternoon on WhatsApp, and within 30 seconds you rang me, and then put me in a group with the guy that was able to help with this thing, and then basically carried us through this process for the next couple of weeks, and kept checking in with me. That was very, very meaningful, and you didn't need to do it, and I very much appreciate having you. I mean, you in my phone book is like a fucking hidden weapon. You're kind of like the jocker willing to be able to get stuff sorted, but I just wanted to say thank you for that, because it was really, really kind, and it's awesome to feel like people have got your back, and that made me feel like that. I appreciate that. You've earned that because you've done so much for so many other people, and you've been so selfless. In a way that I aspire to be, like I'm not very good at like staying in touch and connecting and replying and stuff like that, but in those particular moments, you know, I think we are a team. So I appreciate that. Thank you so much. Thank you, mate. This is something that I've made for you. I've realised that the driver's here audience are strivers, whether it's in business or health. We all have big goals that we want to accomplish, and one of the things I've learnt is that when you aim at the big, big, big goal, it can feel incredibly psychologically uncomfortable, because it's kind of like being stood at the foot of Mount Everest and looking upwards. The way to accomplish your goals is by breaking them down into tiny small steps, and we call this an R team the 1%, and actually this philosophy is highly responsible for much of our success here. So what we've done so that you at home can accomplish any big goal that you have is we've made these 1% diaries, and we've released these last year, and they all sold out. So I asked my team over and over again to bring the diaries back, but also to introduce some new colours and to make some minor tweaks to the diaries. So now we have a better range for you. 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