Chandler Hallow on Rock Bottom, Fatherhood, and God (EP 218)

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anxious i don't want to be depressed i prayed for two weeks straight the lord didn't say anything to me he didn't help me he didn't save me first night nothing second night you know week nothing hey before we get into today's episode i want to share two quick things with you first if these videos have meant anything to you if they've encouraged your faith or helped you see the gospel a little bit more clearly i just want to ask you to subscribe a lot of people tune in every single week and haven't hit the button yet it only takes two seconds and it helps us keep putting these conversations together and i'll see you in the next one bye in front of people who need them and the second thing this one i've honestly been really excited to say i'm officially announcing our ministry's biggest live event to date open heaven live podcast tour it's happening november 8th this year at the pavilion at toyota music factory in irving texas this is going to be a night centered around worship faith 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that if we go six months without speaking to each other it's not weird yeah you know like sometimes there's this like a burden on friendships where you like if you if you don't like someone's posts on instagram then it's like oh you're not my friend like why do you hate me yeah and then it's like oh well actually yeah i do love you you know kind of thing yeah i feel like the the closer you are to someone the closer you are to someone the like the less you have to like prove like that you are close yeah yeah yeah so it's been two years since you last been on let's just call it two years what's changed since the last time you came yeah i think i got a little taller i think so too yeah no i'm just kidding i agree yeah i mean i'm i've been married four years now let's go my anniversary was like two days ago oh awesome yeah so and i'm a father now yes yeah how's that it's been good yeah i remember asking god i was like lord i want to know like how to love like you and like how you love us like i want to know that more i feel like through having a kid god showed me that like the love of the father yeah he's been teaching me that so it's been really good yeah so can you kind of like so you grew up in greenville yeah and you're still there i know we're going to talk about that earlier but i just feel like you kind of need to move out here where the sun's a little brighter in la man i don't know man it's just so far away well i told you you can move in with me so that's okay yeah if you want to move in with me you know my whole family too yeah i mean they're more than welcome to be here as well okay all right i'll think about it yeah please do yeah so so i kind of want to know something i'm so encouraged by you or encouraged about you from did i phrase that right encouraged i'm encouraged by you there we go i'm so encouraged by uh dude your faithfulness and and how steady your relationship with the lord is i think something that can be a little difficult that maybe i sense right now is you know christianity has been on the rise in the last i would say a year and a half it's become popular impacting a lot of people and stuff like that and now i feel like the last few months there's been this interesting tension it's not on a decline i don't think it's necessarily on the decline it's not on the decline it's not on the decline it's like skyrocket like off the chart rise but i feel like a lot of people are in this mundane area where now they're like i don't even know what to do you know what i mean like what does it look like to have faith going forward and stuff like that like what do you think yeah for me like i know like i'm i think about like in the bible it talks about you know the woman um or jesus talks to i think it's the tax collector and then the woman yeah in the house where he eats dinner with the tax collector and he's like tells him like you know i've if i forgive this person of i know you probably know it better than me i'm trying to remember it but um if i forgive a person that owes me 50 000 this is not the right numbers but or i forgive the person that owes me five bucks which one is gonna like be more thankful or love more you know yeah and i just think about like how much the lord has forgiven me and that makes me love him so much more and want to pursue him so much more and you know the bible says blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness you know for they shall be satisfied and i i ask for that you know i pray for that to be hungry and thirsty for him always because i don't want to ever not be and he always shows up he always satisfies me whenever i truly like seek him you know so i think that's been a big like part of me not being like stagnant or what do i do now you know like so i don't know if that answers your question yeah no like i feel i think one of the hardest things and well i became a christian at 17 and 22 now wait how old are you i'm 27 dang really dang well but okay but the thing about you being 27 is you don't look older because of your like facial hair like you look young you're just you know what i mean i'm yeah your height makes you feel 32 you know i know man i feel like people think i'm like 35 hey at least i said 32 yeah i was i don't know my brother he's 6 8 what yeah people think he's the younger brother i think my job has aged me i've been doing this since i was 18 like youtube and stuff so well 27 that's not bad yeah you're coming up you're coming up on your uh coming up on 30 yeah it's it's sneaking up on you it's like you're like you're like you're like you're like on you it is yeah quickly i'm just kidding no i've been uh i've been a christian for five years and i always heard older leaders like talk about you know friends or pastors and stuff like falling away yeah and uh but i've seen so many people leave the faith within five years and i've seen like common themes of people either not being planted in a local church or people riding an emotional high or something like that and so when i'm looking at how like for me right now i still think christianity is still like something people are like excited about but it's definitely not at the at like the you know the peak trend that it was a while ago yeah and so i i'm just like right now i have this weight on my chest like a holy fear of god where i'm just like man i want to see people last a lifetime you know be more on fire for jesus when they're 60 years old than they were when they were 20 yeah or when they were 13 or when they were 50 or whatever it may be wherever they land on the spectrum of age and you know growing up and um yeah i don't know that's just something i've been thinking about a lot i just feel like right now people are in this like weird tension area where it's not a decline it's not an incline but people are in the mundane you know you're not at a peak of life you're not at a low of life but it's just kind of like an average tuesday going through the routine yeah and it can feel like god's not there what would you say to the person that doesn't feel god and so there may be questioning if god loves them god's worthy of our of our time and praise and worship even if we don't feel him you know that's just a fact so i mean i don't feel god all the time but i know he's there because he says he is it's like do you believe what god says that's one thing like if he says he's there then you should believe that even if you don't feel him yeah and if he says he loves you then you should believe that even if you aren't feeling the emotion that is associated with love you know um but i also think you have to want it you have to want to have like you have to want the lord's presence which in his presence you get those things you know yeah get the love then the feeling that you want and he wants to give it to us so i think yeah for people that don't feel it they're in the mundane like you have to want to take that next step to go deeper into the water of jesus and just like being with the lord and i i mean i pray for it like especially early on like i would have to pray to like want to read my bible like lord i want to read my bible will just um not because it's the right thing to do but i want to want to read it you know like i pray for these things because i know i was like i was just being super honest with myself and with god and i would pray for the things that i wanted and he was faithful you know well yeah what has god been teaching you specifically lately god has been teaching me to trust him uh to rely on him like daily and to seek him just like for my life like what to do with my life and even in the daily things like so i would say just trust trusting him relying on him um giving more of myself to him like the lord's just asking for more of my time like over the you know last few years for sure like i was telling isaac this earlier um i used to play video games like six to eight hours a day because i just love video games yeah and then when i was reading my bible like but i would always read my bible first for what 30 minutes and then i'd go play video games for eight hours yeah and then the lord was just kept like convicting me asking me like hey can i have more of your time like and so eventually now i don't even play video games like that often wow so the lord has been asking for more of me he's not like you know we feel like we have to give up everything but the lord like knows us yeah and he knows like if he was like hey give up your eight hours of video game time right now and like we would be like no like i don't want to do that so he asked me for just a little by little you know and then now my love for the lord and spending time with him is greater my love for video games you know so it's not a hard decision yeah yeah dang that's so interesting i think well i want to go back on the trust thing too because i think that's very important that you brought that up but yeah i i can't remember if we were talking about it at brunch today but like i no i don't think i told you this something i got convicted of which you know this will be uh like i don't know when this is coming out so it might be a while from when this happened but a couple you know about five minutes ago i was like i don't know when this is coming out five days ago from today uh i was talking to my friend because i found myself scrolling a bunch on social media yeah and like in in random times mindlessly like it was a subconscious behavior i was doing like i wasn't even thinking about it was just a habit and uh i didn't like it even even if it wasn't anything bad you know even i was picking up and scrolling just randomly for a why did i just do that like why can't i be still yeah right now why can't i sit in silence and talk to god why am i having you know more why is it easier for for me to pick my phone back up than it is for me to get quiet with god and that was like that battle i was having and finally i got to a point where i just realized that there was a part of me that was i wasn't dependent on social media but it was thought i thought that things were dependent on me whether it was social media or other things and i realized then that that root then means that oh god can't do something without me and when i realized that going like getting you know talking to jesus and go man i'm so sorry like i repent for not even realizing that i thought i couldn't that you could do things without me you know yeah and ever since like kind of deleting the social off my phone and just getting that time back getting those you know spending more time with relationships spending more time in conversation fellowship with people and jesus and my wife and actually enjoying the world that god created it's definitely number one taking a weight off my shoulders but also i've experienced this new profound level of knowing jesus yeah and it all stemmed back from three months ago i felt like god was telling me to delete social media off my phone yeah and i convinced myself that it wasn't him telling me to do that and it's slowly like blinded me yeah so why he was telling me to get off and i didn't realize how it was affecting me and affecting my heart and affecting uh our our relationship and my relationship with people and friends and things and now i'm so glad that you know god god was able to work that on my heart but i think that's yeah i think that's so good and for other people it may not be social media or video games you know it may be sports maybe girlfriend or boyfriend it may be something else but i think it is interesting so so what what made you recognize that was that just conviction or did a friend say something or was it in your bible time like what was what was like the revelation for you man it was like definitely conviction like the holy spirit just convicted me i would like hey quick pause if someone's ever hit you with a hard question about your faith and you froze up this 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bundle at logos.com slash bryce that's logos.com slash bryce links in the description all right back to the episode in my mind i made this like thing like okay i'm not allowed to play video games until i read my bible like this is my reward for reading my bible yeah and then i would get up there and be like man i'm i can play for six hours in a row like it's nothing yeah and i can't read my bible for more than 30 minutes wow you know or you know and that was over the course of like you know a few months like just dealing with that and then slowly like the lord growing me like you know changing my heart to want to read more and also like i remember one night i was like i just finished reading my bible and i was gonna get on and then i played one like game it was like 10 minutes i was like i gotta get off yeah and i just went back to read my bible like and i feel like that was a big shift and wow me you know prioritizing the lord over you know what i wanted to do and you know play video games well it's crazy how quick it creeps in yeah or you don't even realize it whatever that you know wedge may be of yeah whatever whatever's blinding you or blocking you or hindering your relationship with god and but for me like the conviction came after the clear that i was gonna have clarity of like why i kept you know subconsciously going you know and then i realized oh wait i think that god can't do things without me so that's why i keep inserting myself with busyness yeah whereas like i was blind to it and then my my conviction point before getting the clarity was why do i feel clouded in my brain like why can't i hear clearly and why are my desires like why is my desire shifted yeah and and i was like why is my desire shifted yeah and and and i was like why is my desire shifted yeah and and i was like why is my desire shifted and things like that and then i was like wow this is but and then fresh revelation is so cool once you get fresh revelation after a while or whatever it may be um have you ever heard that quote i've been talking about this a lot but it just makes me laugh and i can't stop thinking of it people say uh the teacher stays silent during the test yeah dude i hate that quote yeah i hate that quote yeah i think it's so dumb well because like people like use that i think as a as a crutch to go oh this is why i can't feel god's love god because god's testing me right now and i'm like okay is that why you can't feel god or is you're just bible shut yeah you know what i mean i'm like that god doesn't stay silent during the test he's he's in the test with you he's in you at every low yeah and i think people expect revelation every time from god and and i've fallen victim of that too or yeah no i expect god to shine a ray beam down on oh you're supposed to make this decision but actually god might just be trying to teach me how to be a better friend yeah and and this and that's how i hear god um but like that quote makes me just like freak out a little bit because i'm like man that like that is i don't want to use that as a crutch you know what i mean and i i've used that in the past as a crutch and i know so many people do and that might even blind people like to a mistake like i'm talking about and you're talking about where it's like no that was a self-inflicted mistake like we were choosing something over god in that moment you know yeah yeah i mean that was a habit i just had before i was even walking with the lord so like yeah i mean i had to make a shift you know once i decided to fully just give my life to jesus like you know that was something the lord was just teaching me anyway but i mean it was hard you know yeah i definitely chose video games over time with the lord many times until like you know the lord was asking little by little until my love grew yeah surpassing for for the other things you know is there like a hot hobby or a personality trait that it's like that's something you carried over from before you were walking with the lord and then god has told you to surrender it Is there like a hobby or a personality trait that God has used that you were once using for yourself for him? Does that kind of make sense? Yeah. I'm trying to think though because I don't like talking to people like a lot. I'm not a big like talk. I don't like talking to random people. You're not a big talker. No. Okay. I was just curious. Oh, you did? Yeah. I guess you knew that, huh? But yeah, I just like I'm fine with staying in the house and never seeing a person. You know, like, but, and that's like my personality. Yeah. The Lord's like calling me out of that to talk to people because, you know, I do, the Lord has blessed me with influence and he's using that, you know, to reach other people, you know? Yeah. So that's something that I've been growing in and learning like, okay, like I just need to be uncomfortable and just talk to people, you know, and genuinely like listen to them and, you know. You know, because I need to have like that heart for people that, you know, the heart that the Lord had for me, like I need to have that for other people, you know, even, even if it's not my natural tendency. Yeah. I love that you earlier too brought up trusting God because when I'm thinking back on when people ask me what I'm learning, I always find myself saying I'm always learning to trust God or when I talk to older people, every time I see Cliff, I go, what's God teaching you? And he goes, oh, I'm learning to trust God. I'm thinking, dude, you're like 70 something years old, bro. Like you would have thought you had a grip on trusting God right now. And he's like, he, one time he told me, he was like, yeah, like you, you never stop learning to trust God. Yeah. And I just thought that was so profound. So when you bring that up, I'm like, you know what? I'm in that season. Even, even if I'm on like the peak, oh, I feel his presence. This is amazing. And I'm on this cause you know, people have those moments. Yeah. It's like, I'm still learning to trust you because even though I can't see you and I know you're there, the, I got laid off my job the next week or I got the cancer diagnosis or I got, you know, I, I, I fell back into sin or whatever that, you know, it may be insert for each person. Um, it's like, man, trusting God is this, this continual place of God, I need you to trust him. I need to trust him. I need to trust him. I need to trust him. I need to trust him. I need to trust him. Yeah. I need to trust him. I need to trust him. I need to trust him. Yeah. I need to trust him. I need to trust him. I need to trust him. I need to trust him. I need to trust him. Yeah. It's like, okay Lord, I'm trusting in you for this. Oh, now I've actually put my trust in you for this, and now it's something new. Yeah. It's like he upgrades you to the next thing in your life that he wants you to rely on him for and trust in him for. Wow. So, when you say, "Cliff 70," he's like, "I'm trusting. I'm learning. I'm trusting God." I feel like God just gives you something after you've gotten the last one. Now, let's move to the next one. Yeah. And the next one. Wow. So, I feel like the Lord shared that with me about trusting. So, it's just like, I'll ask myself, like, okay, now Lord, what do you want me to do? What do you want me to trust in you for? Yeah. Yeah. That's awesome. So, you're a dad now? Yeah. Do you like being a dad? I love it. Yeah. How's that been? It's been good. It's definitely grown me in, like, patience. Yeah. Yeah. You know, babies, you take care of them, so. It actually, like, once you have a kid, it's like, you don't worry about your own life anymore, like, as you used to. It's like, you don't worry about your own life anymore, like, as you used to. Yeah. Yeah. It's like, your life is second now. Like, you care about your child's life more than your own. Like, it's a crazy switch in your mind, like, and that was something new, like, which I, I didn't really notice at first until I'm like, I'm, I'd rather take care of my child first than my own well-being, you know, and I'm like, I'm not gonna be a dad. I'm not gonna be a mom. I'm not gonna be a dad. like just be in like the the crowd or whatever and it was so cool like the what they did they did worship and they did like a teaching on healing with a testimony attached to it same thing for deliverance and prophecy and then they were just like yeah if you want to get healing come over here we're gonna pray for you you deal with depression anxiety loneliness whatever it is like come over here and we'll pray for you to be delivered and if you just want to hear God and you don't know if he's real whatever it is you would want to hear the voice of God or hear God speak to you come in this line and we're going to pray for that and that inspired me so much like and the Lord really put it on my heart to do that on different campuses and just try to recreate that so that people can see the power of God and you know when I when I have like an encounter with the Lord it's undeniable like he's real you know yeah at least in my mind like so I want other people to have that because I had an encounter with the Lord and that's how I just really just was all in for Jesus so I want people to experience the power of God like I did and and just be all in for Jesus yeah yeah hey quick break let me tell you about today's sponsor Liberty University and I want to be completely upfront about something this is not just a sponsorship for me I actually just graduated from Liberty University and I'm here's what I want to say to anyone who's on the fence about going back to school or starting for the first time there was a season where I genuinely did not think I could make it work I literally dropped out of college without my parents knowing because I thought going to college was going to be this crazy thing between running a podcast creating content and everything else that comes with building something for Jesus school felt like the thing that would have to wait Liberty actually changed that for me the flexibility of their life changed that for me the flexibility 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the all the amazing college campus ministries that are just crushing and reaching it and I just want to say thank you so much for being here and I just think it's so cool I think it's so cool that students people go to college for four years and what career path they choose the people they surround themselves with whether they're in a fraternity in a sorority what they do on Friday and Saturday night what they do during the week shapes them for the next 60 and 70 80 years of their life yeah 50 whatever it may be and God trusts certain people or places it on people's hearts to try and be a disruptor and what people think is right for them to kind of shift them to go another direction you know like like I think sometimes people view um like no one preached the gospel to me and even looking back like growing up I I don't remember someone preaching the gospel to me because I grew up in a private Christian school and I grew up in church so it was almost like oh well you know it because you grew up yeah but then I'm like always wonder and obviously hypothetical as well we'll never know like what would happen if someone actually preached the gospel to me or challenged the way I view life or yeah like challenge my morality like what would happen so it's kind of cool that you want to be that disruptor especially like with something like healing and and prophecy and stuff like that it can kind of soften people's heart to the reality that God is real yeah when God supernaturally intervenes in people's lives I think it's super cool the perfect lunch combo that first bite of your favorite sub followed by ice-cold pepsi add a couple of friends and now that's next level suddenly the laughs get louder the stories keep flowing and the food tastes better because pepsi brings out more flavor more fun and more of the moment food deserves pepsi grab a pepsi zero sugar today you want to impress them on a first date but also play it cool so what do you do I'm roofie thorpe and I wrote and read a real love story about a hinge couple that navigated into my life and I feel like the people that want it are going to come up you know get their prayer get prayed for for their whatever they want to receive and then the people that are staying back are going to see it and then like it'll soften their heart and then they'll come up you know so I feel like it's going to be like a a trickle effect to soften other people's heart or maybe that the next time they go to some sort of like church event or something like that then they'll jump in or you know it's going to be like a trickle effect to soften other people's heart it'll just have like this effect when they see other people receive from God and see the power of God so I think even if people aren't ready in that time like seeing other people be ready it'll just like help them you know take that next step for sure yeah I'm just super excited about it do you know what colleges you're going to yeah I mean the first one I'm just going to do at ECU in my hometown so the pirates yeah let's go yeah we'll do it at ECU and uh we'll figure it out like really get it efficient and flushed out you know there's going to be some mistakes on the first one for sure and and then hopefully we'll just get it down to like really flushed out and we'll just pick it up and place it on different campuses you know yeah across the country if that's what God wants to do with it yeah which I believe he wants to so it's amazing what do you think college kids are searching for right now I think a lot of people even well college kids are searching for hope yeah and purpose and satisfaction and all those are like hand in hand I feel like but everyone especially in the work that I'm in like YouTube the DMs that I get are like people are searching for hope like they need they need something to give them hope like if I have this if you can give me this I'll be okay like I'm hoping that you can give me a million dollars like people ask me so much for money and it's like I don't have money to give you so but they're what they're really searching for is hope you know yeah like they're hopeful like if if they reach out to me for money that that's gonna save their life that's gonna set them up for life or you know satisfy whatever they're searching for yeah so I think in general just the campuses the students are searching for hope satisfaction because they I mean you see it in the fraternities like they find their satisfaction in their like brotherhood and like yeah they have each other's backs but then when you go out of there like what what now yeah you know but Jesus gives you that everlasting hope you know yeah in in any circumstance like like we were saying earlier um we have it all with Jesus and I say this like I've said this to the Lord like many times like I'd rather be home alone than to be home alone than to be home alone listen and know you then have everything in this world and not know you yeah you know rather be under a bridge with my family living on the street but know Jesus then have everything in this world and not know you yeah so I that's how much hope like we have in Christ yeah I want people to have that so where are you at with God right now compared to a year ago man well number one you had hair yeah okay yeah when I had a kid I shaved my head because it was so much stress like just taking care of my hair yeah I had long hair and I'm like I used to part it to the side put a little gel in it yeah and I was like I can't do this bro but you have great you have a great head shape for shaved head oh thank you you know what I'm saying like if I if I shaved my head like I would look like an egg dude actually if I went bald bro I would look like an egg bro I have like this dip like it's like a in my in the middle of my head bro yeah bro all I'm telling the video games I got the headphone dent well my next question was gonna be like are you would you ever consider going like uh like a skin fade like bald only Mr. Clean no bro my head is like I got corners corners I got sharp I got a sharp head it's the hair that's covering it it makes it look round well bro it looks perfectly round but I really want to see this headphone dent that you claim to have and bro just come touch it I can do your do your head start back here and then just run your fingers through the middle hey whoa bro you did have a dent I'm not gonna lie he has a dent he has a dent uh yeah I'll never be bald you're it's always gonna be something you weren't lying or I'll wear a hat dude oh snap yeah I I mean like I don't have a dent in my head but I don't have a dent in my head but like my head would look long yeah like uh it would like have you ever it would be like long like this like uh indiana jones not like the kingdom of the crystal skull you've seen that movie it's got like the big whoa yeah no i my head would be like uh who's that you ever seen that like a monster i think it's from the goonies yeah it's like a really tall head but mine would be like backwards yeah you know which is unfortunate you'd be like one of those like speed walkers you know the helmets um oh yeah oh i need one of those yeah the speed walker that curves all the way down yeah i think i think like i i i'm like i wish i had a head that i could shave my head like i don't have a bad hairline i don't feel like like i feel like my hairline's not bad right yeah i think it's normal why are you laughing chris can i what do you think is so funny about my hairline i i took i took my hat off because i and i feel like you're not a good guy you're not a good guy you're not a good guy someone's gonna photoshop that make me look like i have like a nine head so other than god taking away your hair yeah what else that was really my decision but now the love has been growing me in so many ways man it's like learning how to listen that's one thing the lord's growing me in for sure like i i did this thing where i was like lord i'm just gonna listen to you for 40 days straight like i do these things these challenges for myself like that i don't tell anybody about you know it's just between me and the lord but i did this thing where i was like 40 days in a row i'm gonna sit with you and not do anything and just listen for as long as it takes until i hear you dude i just think it's so funny because you're like doing your own mr beast challenge but like but the reward is not financial it's just like you're the reward jesus but like i'll do a 40 day i'll listen to you yeah dude yeah that's funny it's ingrained in me it's really funny yeah that's funny that's awesome about that yeah i i like that i think so like for me i'm really curious to know this because now you've got like a family and you have a child like for me my routine right now like i have like a routine that's like if i can do this thing and get this stuff done to start my day i will be the best version of myself for jesus for my wife for you know my friends and things like that and now like obviously that's maybe your routine looks different what does your faith look like day to day with having a family yeah i mean with or without a family i need jesus every day like with a family it's like the timing of when i spend my time with jesus like you know just me and him like you know in my room or whatever it's it can vary so like if i'm waking up super early because my child's up then i'll spend time with jesus when my kid goes down for a nap that's like my time that i have so it just depends like sometimes you gotta switch it up but i like to do it during my kid's nap time yeah like it's when i spend time with the lord but i i won't do anything else like outside of taking care of my family um i need to spend time with jesus or i'm not gonna like yeah it's a non-negotiable like thing for me or i'm more impatient if i when i don't i'm less compassionate same i don't care about people yeah you know it's like i have less like a heart for people like yeah i'm not looking at them how the lord wants me to look at them like all all the things yeah you know it's just like i need to be filled with the love of jesus every single day so i can be a you know to to whoever i run into and and a good father you know and it's yeah it's just a non-negotiable like i have to pray and i have to read you know yeah i put god first in that like for sure yeah absolutely yeah i mean you can obviously just being around you it's always a encouragement just being around you and the joy that you carry and things like that i mean it's jesus you love him and you know it overflows in the way you interact with people you know i really appreciate that about you thank you yeah yeah absolutely i think yeah i think that's so cool because a lot of times on i remember we did a thing at auburn university earlier this year and someone asked me like how do you fit god in your in a busy schedule like as a college student yeah and uh i was in a like a lot of times we like ask how to like we wonder how to fit god in a busy schedule but then we'll spend like five hours a day with our boyfriend or girlfriend yeah it's kind it's exactly what you were saying earlier it's like well you make time for the things you care about yeah you know not even just like oh this time is me and you jesus but on my drive to school maybe i listen to worship music or i listen to the podcast or the sermon and you know in between classes or or you know i pray and yeah things like that or or if someone texts me and asks me to pray for them instead of saying yeah i'll pray for you you send them a voice memo of you praying right then because you're just trying to walk that faith out you know and like take the step forward and things like that and i always think i i just think like when we ask questions and think like even as i'm like talking to you is we're putting this like mental gymnastics on god like god's trying to go like we have to go through all these hula hoops to get to god and god's like no like just talk to me yeah invite me into it like i asked you what you what what you should wear today maybe i'll use that to start a conversation with that person about jesus or yeah ask me where to go for breakfast because there's someone at chick-fil-a that needs hope instead of mcdonald's you know like that kind of thing which is uh yeah i don't know i just think that's really cool yeah you don't yeah it's people make it too mystical like jesus isn't everything you do when you're living for christ you know yeah and like you were saying the schedule like how do you fit god into your busy schedule it's the opposite like how do i fit my schedule around my time with god you know i i craft my schedule based on when i can spend my time with god like you know yeah like he's the first thing that goes on the schedule all right all right i block this time off now i can start putting my other things in my day around that yeah you know that way it's like it's not like okay i have my schedule where can i fit god in no i have my time with god blocked off now let's fit my schedule in yeah that's good so where do you see your like life heading or going like what do you think is next for you you know hopefully it's still doing youtube you know i love doing it i get to do things i never would have been able to do you know get to reach people see people meet people that i would have never met but also doing like ministry like the outreach is like i see myself going to college campuses across the country and doing these events and hopefully you know outside of the country you know and i think that's like the path that god has me on you know hopefully doing both youtube and that you know i think that'll be cool for me to be still doing youtube and just having that like presence on the one of the biggest biggest channel in the world while also just doing outreach is like in in time that i have you know our schedule during that you know yeah so i think doing that you know that's my future for what the lord's put on my heart recently and i'm excited about it like i really believe that god's gonna move just in the coming like in the next five years really like there's gonna be like like this big like it's almost like a rocket ship taking off like i guess rockets take off kind of slow don't they well they start slow maybe they're starting slow right now like maybe that's the tension right now there's a build-up and then yeah it's just gonna take off like yeah there's gonna be like impact but obviously like everything that happens behind the scenes it's it's a long time and then people think it just happens like overnight that's what overnight success yeah they were doing stuff for 10 years before that happened you know yeah dude i heard an analogy the other day where someone was uh actually told it uh to chris was about how builder on a house you know they build the foundation and they start building the walls and stuff like that and you see like outward change yeah you know a lot's going on you're like oh yeah like they're they're doing momentum they're doing momentum and then when they get to the electrical nothing changes on the outside yeah but stuff is changing on the inside yeah and i feel like that's what's maybe happening right now so oh wait we don't see christianity on this crazy skyrocket incline so what's going on but maybe god's really working behind the scenes on something crazy like he always is i mean that's literally habakkuk like habakkuk is complaining to god in chapter one and then the first thing god says he sees like if you knew what i was up to right now you wouldn't be saying that yeah and like it's probably true what about like 10 years from now where would you like your life to be 10 years from now you know a big family what's a big family uh like an octomom big family okay can't do that many when i think of when i talk to mom how many kids do you want to have do i want to have yeah i don't necessarily have a number so like every now and then i'm like i want to build a dynasty like i'm saying not just like 19 like i'm talking a dynasty you know what i'm saying i want to have an army behind me yeah real champion bloodline people ready to go to war you know but then also at the same time i'm like i don't know if i could really handle all that you know so like i probably should should uh yeah i don't really have an exact number you know yeah i mean i probably want to have like max four okay i think i can handle four maximum that's great i think four is a solid number three would be ideal okay yeah yeah i think that's great yeah i don't know i like the perfect lunch combo that first bite of your favorite sub followed by ice cold pepsi add a couple of friends and now that's next level suddenly the laughs get louder you the stories keep flowing and the food tastes better because pepsi brings out more flavor more fun and more of the moment food deserves pepsi grab a pepsi zero sugar today i don't think i can be your friend isabella said rebecca's stomach flipped this is the love story of real hinge couple isabella and rebecca written and read by me temi dentonhurst listen to the free audiobook now what for well hey if maddie's willing to have multiple you know because she's the one carrying her child for nine months yeah ish but yeah i don't know every now and then i'm like do i want to build a dynasty and take over the world do you know yeah i mean that's your whole life though if you have that many kids yeah because then at one point like one of your kids is going to be helping you raise the other kid like they could literally you know like you're building a dynasty like that yeah yeah i think that's interesting but you have my family when i have a big family how many siblings do you have i have three older brothers okay an older sister and a younger sister there's six of us yeah bro that's getting that's getting up there to like i i think a dynasty starts at like eight yeah like if you had eight kids like you're really building a family lineage like the chances of one of them one of those kids being a pro athlete or one of those being a um a president or one of those being like uh dude i don't know imagine just having that and imagine the family portrait oh yeah it's a lot that would be great but i'm not talking like a picture on a beach like where everyone's in on land and i'm talking like a painting like someone paints you you know where like you have like the the husband and wife like in a chair and then there's like uh the kids are all and then and like looking directly out and then you have like the children like one of them's like posed with his like hand on his chin like this and the other one's like got his hand on the shorter kid that's standing in front of him you know what i mean it's like you're looking at 23 and me dna tests like on a picture yeah you know what i'm saying like i think that'd be awesome i'll come back in three years when you have seven kids yeah bro i don't know if that's like i don't know if that's even like oh it's possible octomon yeah but like in three years is that like so if you have triplets if you have triplets and two sets of twins you can make it happen okay whenever i come back i'll be here a third time yep and we'll have all all your kids yes and and then you'll have a bald head yeah and we'll be able to check out your headphone dent my my every every kid i have i'm just gonna get lower i like that buzz it even lower well you don't have you don't have like uh i will say i think you should try it out because my wife would not like it would grow back so fast like i know i know your hair grows fast because you had thick hair before my hair does grow super fast yeah so it would like it wouldn't be anything crazy especially having a having a buzz cut you know what i mean like how long is it gonna take to grow that out you know what i mean scared bro what if my wife's like i'm leaving but what bro but what if you shaved it bald then you realize your hair is never gonna grow back uh hats you know just hat man i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't that's me rest of my life i'd glue a hat in my head i'd sleep in it that's great okay i'm never taking it off i don't want to be bald guys well the viewers out there i don't ever want to be bald wait wait let's do this right now i'm scared no what are the odds one out of a thousand one out of a thousand and if we get the same you gotta shave your head bald wait wait wait hold on let me think wait uh let's do it for both of us wait what if we say the same number then we both have to do it we don't have enough time on the podcast to find out if it'll happen to me but we have enough time to talk about you because you're the guest visiting so if we can do one out of a thousand if we guess the same number we gotta shave your head bald skin fade i'm actually so scared right now i've changed the number in my head four times i've already thought about eight different numbers on this are you ready i'm ready one two three thirteen twenty two okay okay thank you yeah all right well that's okay i don't know i felt like you were gonna go low but you did kind of go low you went 200 what was the first number you thought like 900 something okay then 600 then 400 yeah you shouldn't have been sweating now my friends the other night did a one out of 100 and they both said the same number that's pretty crazy would you pray for everyone watching and listening right now yeah yeah lord i just thank you for this time that we got to spend together but i thank you for the viewers watching this lord god i pray that the people that are in the situation that i once was lord that you would holy spirit just prompt them to to want to seek you and to know you you're not some far off god that's just in the sky lord you are nearer than a brother closer than a brother lord and god i just pray that they would seek you and find you lord i'm gonna pray that they would seek you and find you lord i know you'll show up god lord i pray that they would be humble enough to just put themselves before you and understand that they need you god like i needed you that day lord i pray that they would realize they need you before they hit that rock bottom in their life before i like i did you know i i was at such a low point lord and that i was forced to cry out to you god i pray that people would see me and realize hey it's i don't want to get where chandler was i can do it now you know before it gets like that so lord i just pray that you would just lead them to that god what i see would just show up mightily for those people that want you and fill them with your love and your presence lord yeah i just have to bless him thank you god in jesus name amen i want to date with rules carty says rules rocker ass this is the love story of real hinge couple carty and rocker written and read by me nicola dinan 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