124: Addressing The Heated Rivalry Concerns

Direct from the Broski Nation headquarters in Los Angeles, California. This is the Broski Report with your host, Brittany Broski. I think I'm going to die in this hell, bro. Guys, welcome back. Welcome back. For the first, maybe half, maybe second episode of the Broski Report in 2026, and the year of our Lord, 2026, Red Bull flavor of the day, tropical. Now what is in this yellow? What makes up a tropical drink? Yellow, green, orange, mango. Now none of this is of the earth, none of this is of God, none of this is honoring the body, the body is the temple. My temple has been ransacked and destroyed. Every Red Bull I drink, I literally think of it like a cigarette, like how the ash comes off the end of a cigarette, and it's like, you just blow it in the wind, okay? Every Red Bull I drink a little piece of my heart breaks off, and it's just ash through the chunnel of my body. Chunnel. Now that's actually going to be channel and tunnel, channel. Welcome back to the Broski Report. Today, I have news. I'm not sure what the news is because my manager just called me and left me a very cryptic message that said you're going to, and I'm kind of freaking out, and I'm trying to hide it in. Well, that was just my door-dash driver talking to me right now, it's okay. I got a call from my manager and she said, you're going to get a call in the next like hour and a half, two hours, and I can't tell you who it is, but just like be ready and be excited. Now I was like, that could mean anything, like the range and scope of what that could entail is like, who knows? Like is Oscar Isaac going to give me a call on my cell phone? Like, that could literally mean anything, I don't know. Who's the flavor of the week? Guys, can I just address something off the bat? Okay, well, first of all, that's it. So if I get a call and there's like a weird jump cut, that's why. Second of all, I have heard you, please, please, I've heard the Heated Rival Request noted, K received, thank you, message received. Working on it, all I can say, working on it, stay tuned, okay? And let me tell you something, he is charming. He is charming the pants off of Hollywood, let me tell you something right now. That is a man, that's a charmer, okay? Let the boy work, he's working in a room. Yeah, heard, okay, you don't need to keep commenting on every single thing that I post, every single thing, every single thing, who does that sound like Tigger, Tigger from Winnie the Pooh? Our Tigger is a dirty, what's the special thing to do? Guys, what the fuck energy is in the air today? Hey, hey, also sorry for the late upload yesterday, I filmed an episode, filmed a whole episode, like what have I been up to, like the last month, wow, the new year, like Manifesto, the drive's busted, yeah, the drives are gone, so this is 2.0, and I'm zipping with him for you on the corner of your street, then I'm not moving, I'm not moving, yeah. Bring back train, where is train, are they problematic? Are train Republicans? Are train Republicans right now? Are they doing right wing Republican right now? Can someone let me know? Thank you, get back to me on that. Guys, raise your hand, everyone take a moment, pause, broskination pause, lock in with me right now, raise your hand if you've had diarrhea in the past week. Okay, now in my mind's eye, I'm imagining the majority of you just raised your hand. 2026, I'm prescribing you guys something, okay, I'm a doctor, I'm an MD, I'm a DMS, DMS. Is that what I think it is? Doctor medical, doctor of medical service, what's DMT, D, when you're in dentist, what is that? DDS, DDS, DDS meaning, doctor of dental surgery, yeah, okay, I'm that too. DMT, now that's a drug, I'm pretty sure, and why can I say something when I was younger, I thought TNT was going to be a much bigger problem than it actually ended up being. I thought there was going to be TNT everywhere, like do not fuck with the TNT, if you're smoking a cigarette, do not do it around the TNT, everyone knows this. If you're in quicksand, don't try to get out, it's fat, it'll eat you alive faster, okay, now the Bermuda triangle, again, that's another one, a big issue for us as kids, haven't really heard much about it, okay? Outside of the average conspiracy theory, TNT, never seen it in person, don't even know if it's like an old miner, like a coal miner and an old abandoned coal miner, like with TNT, I thought that would be a fixture in my life more than it is, anyone else relate to that? Okay, guys, your gut health, we need to talk about it, stop, you met me at a very diarrhea centric time in my life, you met me at a very liquid shit time in my life, and I'm over that, and I'm not who I was when I was having diarrhea, and I'm sorry for who I presented as, you know, who fronted, and we're going to get some probiotics going for you guys, me with my doctor of dental surgery. What I can prescribe to you right now is probiotics, that's really actually helped me having diarrhea, because you know I don't have a gallbladder, we know, we know I don't have a gallbladder, I can't shut up about it, I'm missing an organ, hi, hi, I'm Brittany, I'm missing an organ, guys, probiotics, it's the future, it's the truth, it's the light, it's really helped me, I can't, again, I am a doctor of dental surgery, I'm not a doctor of gut health, DGH, I'm not a DGH, and I'm not a DDLG, dumb, dumb dentist little gut, dumb dentist little gut health intestine, small intestine, okay, I'm going to finish this yellow red bull, and then we're going to get into business, how long have I been talking for six minutes about what? Okay, I'm, thank you guys for paying attention, and I'm going to get into it right here. Holy shit, happy new year, and with that also comes the B side of that, which is fuck ice, fuck ice, and fuck Donald Trump, and all of the above, it's so sickening, to like log onto the internet every day and see some new atrocity and see how our government is literally crumbling, a fascist regime has completely taken over, no regard above international law, I guess, is infuriating. So that's just kind of like off the bat, fuck ice, and like, it's harrowing to think that this is like really the reality we live in. But on the flip side, I always want to lead with the message of hope that it can be changed and that there are things to be done. As always, I have, I know it seems cliche, but I have links in my description for organizations that I believe in, and organizations that I think Duke would work. So check those out if you feel so inclined. Now moving on to the third thing that I want to talk about. I have been traveling for like the last month straight, and I did a lot, and I feel like we need to dissect a lot. I went to Dublin, no, sorry, I went to London, and we filmed a Royal Court episode that is very exciting, we're doing this like Royal Court abroad thing now, which is like we have a system now. So when we are called over there or when an opportunity presents itself, we're prepared and we go and I have a whole London-based crew, and we fly out there with all the props and all the capes, and we do it. And that's what we did for the Paul Muscle episode, and we just did it for this one we filmed, and it was, I think you guys are going to love it. It is about a lead of a show that I hyperfixated on about a year ago, and I'm sure you can guess. Like everyone's kind of anticipating this new season of this show, this very famous show. And we interviewed the lead, I'm so excited. They were a joy and it was a privilege to do it. So me looking out for that in February, and what else do we do? In London, I flew to New York after that, and I saw, I did recess therapy with Julian, which should be out today, I believe, Wednesday. I love that man. I love that man, and he has such a way with like commanding a room and taming these feral children, don't know how he does it, also wow, to be in the mind of a child, I just like, these kids today man, where's the whimsy? I came in there and they're like, what's your topic you want to talk about? And I was like, oh, obviously, magic and fairies. And I like how they're real, duh, because we're kids, and also they are real. And we sit there and we're talking to the kids, we're like, I obviously don't believe in fairies because they're not real. Unicorns are not real, and I was like, you're six, hey, you're six. Maybe you should believe in fairies for like, try it out, like try it on for size, and then become a cynic. Who are these kids are like reading Camo? These kids are reading Kafka, I'm not getting it. Like why are you familiar with love, crafty, and horror? You should be believing in fairies. Anyway. That was fun, sitting next to these kids being like, that's obviously not real. - And I'm like, how do you know? (laughing) Okay, how do you know? Who told you that? Anyway, recess therapy was fun. I also did a little offshoot of hot ones called heat eaters. I would like to say something into the mic publicly. They're not acting on hot ones. I believe that Sean Evans is a genetic anomaly. He should not exist in this timeline specifically. Something is, I won't say wrong with Sean Evans, but he might be the most advanced of us. You know, like, yes, there's the Olympians and there's like the long distance runners and there's people who are agile of body and mind. We've got some of the greatest thinkers and philosophers and scientists working today. Yeah, sure, don't care. Sean Evans, the way that man can put back spicy chicken, he is an angel among us. - Among us potion, the three AM, among us potion. - Sean Evans needs to be studied. I did heat eaters. And that shit, like, you know, they're using pepper eggs and cayenne pepper this and ghost pepper that. Okay, like those are the hottest peppers in the world, but it's used in an artful way where I'm like, okay, I guess it enhances the flavor to a certain extent, but it gets to a point. It gets to a point where it is full on masochism. You bitches are masochistic. Why am I doing BDSM with this spicy gumbo? Like, I feel like I'm in bondage and I've got one of those like leather chips of the chokers around my neck, like a dom leather daddy, like a bear and like leather bondage. I had a gay club, like, what the fuck? That's how I felt eating this spicy gumbo that she had made for me. I was like, what the fuck kind of freak shit is this? This is, I'm doing puppy play of the mouth. I felt so like, oh my god, this is not for me. And it was so, you know what sucks? Is it so delicious? It's very delicious. 'Cause they do it based on your life. Like, the show is actually so amazing. Esther, the host is so good. The questions, the bits, all of it was good. The food was great. It's just like, why is it that spicy? Why is it that spicy? It got to a point we wrapped, okay? And they're, oh yeah, you did so well, yeah. And I'm like, oh, it's that like ringing. I have like tinnitus in my ears. And my eyes won't stop blanking. And like, everything's a bit damp. I'm like vaguely wet everywhere, 'cause I'm sweating. And it's like a cold chill. And everyone's like, pretty, pretty over here. We're gonna do a thumbnail. We're gonna do a TikTok, we're gonna do a break. And I'm like, like, I can't take a full breath. 'Cause it's supposed, and I literally go, I need a second. And my publicist comes over and she's like, are you good? I was like, I'm just kidding, I'm just kidding. I went to the bathroom and I was like, leaning on the door like this, taking deep breaths. And I literally turned on the cold water and I was just running my hands under cold water to distract me. Bitch, it was that serious. And also was that the only thing I had to eat all day? Yeah. And also after that, did I go to the Marty Supreme Premier? Yeah. I did. And did I have liquid diarrhea at the Marty Supreme Premier? Maybe. That's actually not to be disclosed at this time. Okay. A24, if I did, no I did not. Okay, so I wouldn't actually never do that. That was, it was a very, you met me at a very pepper X time in my life. Like truly, but I don't think my system took a screenshot. It was a lot. But that was fun. The whole experience I guess was fun, but at the end, I was like, oh my God, it felt like a war documentary. Okay, then after that I did Caleb's podcast. Now of course, Caleb is an angel walking on this earth. Angel that also terrorizes me. I feel very terrorized by Caleb Aaron. You know, we have a very tumultuous, very sexual relationship as you guys know. And it's always, it's like seeing an old fling. You know, I was like, get over here. What are we doing? We can't do this. Very mean Caleb. After we filmed his podcast, the 100th episode, by the way, if you guys didn't know, 100 episodes of So True, starring Caleb Aaron, he's an incredible host. He's an incredible talent. I'm so lucky to know him. I'm better for having known him. He challenges me as a friend should in all the best ways. And so after, you know, like to celebrate, we were like, let's go get dinner. Okay, naturally we go back to his apartment. Some edibles were ingested. We go out to eat this beautiful time meal. And we invite the twins, my writers for Royal Court, Annabelle and Sabina. Well, Annabelle comes. And we're sitting there and we're all kind of like violent, violently high is what I would describe it as. And we're sitting at this restaurant. And Annabelle says something to me. And I cannot remember for the life of me what it was. But I like, in that moment, like a that's so raven moment, I shrunk up in my body and I was like a baby. Like laughing and like slapping my applesauce on the table, like I had a bib on and I peed. I peed at my time per. I like full on peed. So obviously the night was ruined. Obviously we had a hundred different plans. We were gonna do that night. Go back to Annabelle's house. Go back to Sabina's house, do whatever. Uh-uh. I said, you guys actually have to pay for this meal because I have to get in a car right now and go change my diaper. Like I have to go hose off like a fucking zoo animal. Because I peed on myself from laughing. What am I post-partum? What the fuck is happening? Why do I not have control over my bowels? Is this like a normal thing? You turned 28 and it just happens? Dude, it was a lot for me. It was a lot for me in that moment where I was like, oh my God, I just peed enough in my pants to like, oh, I have to go. Now that's the risk. They don't tell you about having funny friends or about being funny yourself. Is like, sometimes you get locked. You get locked into a flow state with your funny friends and it gets to a point like on a baseball bat. When you do that shit on a baseball bat, like on the handle and then someone has to put their hand on top. When that moment happens, comedically, I pee. Okay, it's just I just pee. And I don't know. I don't know. And like, it's humbling to say the least. So you're gonna have diarrhea at the Marty Spring premiere and pee yourself at a tie restaurant. Like, do you need a diaper? You probably should get a diaper. Fucking idiot. All right, after New York, oh my God, also in New York. I saw the goddamn nutcracker. I saw them nuts being crept on stage and many a bulge was seen, many a bulge. Okay, God bless the New York City Ballet. Many a bulge to be seen and heralded. Now, the nutcracker that I saw is George Balanchine's nutcracker. Okay, now this is kind of specific and any ballerinas, any ballet enthusiasts in the comments or viewers otherwise. Correct me if I'm wrong. But Balanchine's version of the nutcracker is a bit different. It focuses half the cast as kids. It focuses on Clara and the prince or the nutcracker, both as children. And the first act is, I guess, you know, the classic nutcracker story of it's Christmas Eve and there's a big party at the house and all the kids, whatever. And then drosselmyer, drossel, yeah, drosselmyer, comes and brings all the kids toys and gives Clara the nutcracker and then her bitch ass stupid asshole brother breaks the arm and whatever and then she goes to sleep on the couch. And then in her dream, everything comes to life, right? So in her dream state, she gets shrunken down to the size of a mouse of the nutcracker. But it's actually so cool how they do it. The tree grows on stage to this massive size. And it makes you, I mean, like kept going. It was so magical and whips go so good. The tree kept growing and then all the little mice and whatever come out so it feels like you're that tiny. And then, you know, act one is done. There's an intermission and then they go into act two where they're in the sugar plum fairy dream land and it's freaking awesome. That was really neat. And I feel like in the other version of the nutcracker that I've seen, which I was like probably middle school when I saw it, I really don't remember it. And I didn't have an appreciation for it. It's different. And in the whole second act of Balanchine's nutcracker, it's just Clara and the prince are up on this little like dice and everyone comes and just dances for them. Yeah, would you imagine the second act of ballet everyone's just kind of dancing? But it was like all the different cultures and then they do like the Marzipan girl and then the sugar plum fairy comes out. But she's not as big of a fixture in Balanchines as I guess other versions, like the original Russian nutcracker. So that was interesting. And then at the very end of act two, the kids just like getting this chariot and fly away. And then that's the end of the nutcracker. And I was like, oh, because she and the Barbie and the nutcracker are actually doing it because they have to defeat the rock king. And also there's a curse on the land and the nutcracker sexing and then they, you know, kind of bounces the nutcracker and then whatever. And then he turns back into a prince and he's ugly. And is he sexier as the nutcracker? Yes, he is. What are you not understanding? He's sexier as the nutcracker. So yeah, it was a bit different. And then I kind of like went on this rabbit hole of who Balanchine was. And he was very centric to the New York City ballet. I think he co-founded it. And so his style is very unique. And it's a way dance ballet that's very different from other styles. So that was cool. I really, really enjoyed it. And now my goodness, the costumes were so pretty. And everything was very vaguely Victorian, which of course I love. All the costumes were very old-timey. It didn't feel modern, or they didn't try to do some weird 1930s, something, or whatever. It was very, very good. But I do want to say the other version of the Nutcracker. Probably next year, I'll go when it's Nutcracker season later this year. And I'll compare notes, because I feel like I've seen the the iconic one. Now I want to see other iterations. And I would like to see it. My dream is to see a ballet in Paris. I really want to go to the Paris, the opera, and like see because I love Arla DuPont, and I love all these like really famous French ballerinas. It's funny, really, but also the royal ballet in opera in London is world famous. And then of course, eventually I'll make the pilgrimage to like Moscow and St. Petersburg and like see real Russia ballet. That shit doesn't fuck around. They don't fuck around about ballet in Russia. So, okay, so that was really, really fun. Then I flew to Houston for like 48 hours, saw my family, flew to Florida, for a week, played laser tag. Let me tell you something about bonding with your family. If you have a tough dynamic, okay, maybe you and your siblings don't get along. Maybe you got to big fight with your mom. Go hash it out and laser tag, right? Go to your local laser tag. And there's probably not that many left. You need to find a laser tag setting. You need to all get on, because guess what, there's different games. Sometimes it's girls versus boys. Sometimes it's tag, like it really is tag. There's like a red team and a blue team. And you start out and you try, whoever, I guess recruits the most team members wins. So, if you're blue and you get shot by red, now you're red, okay? That's fun, because then you get to team up. Sometimes it was like groups of three and you got oh my six, oh my six. Okay, I was, and of course I had a strategy. Because if you're gonna go in and do laser tag, guess what? My dad was in the military. My brother loves that shit. My mom's just there for the vibes and my sister's like that tribute in hunger games. Fox, the Fox one. What would she, Fox face? What have they called her? Yeah, she's like that. She'll come and she'll wait till the the carnage is over. There she'll come and she'll pick all the shit and she'll go. She's very sneaky like that. So, you're always been sneaky as fuck like that. Okay, so you gotta be careful, you gotta know the personalities when you're doing laser tag. And me, look, I'm an all-American soldier. Me? I'm in there. Okay, I'm SEAL team six in there. And so we're in laser tag. And we're kind of, you know, I've scoped the scene. I found a fox hole. This is when my World War One and, you know, like band-of-brother shit comes in. Because I know all this. Okay, so I found a fox hole. You get low. And I found, because it's separated by these like tarps, you know, like moving tarps or painting tarps. It's all that. So I got low. And I position myself in the back corner. I found a little hole and I stuck my laser gun through that. And then I, you know, and you don't even know that you've gotten got. Because I am a strategist. You're not going to get me. Did I have the lowest score out of anyone yet? Yeah, I lost. By all technical standards, I lost. But it doesn't matter because strategy. Okay, one moment we were, it was like, and you know, you get a little bit excited. And you start running. And it's like the pool. You shouldn't run. Don't run in laser tag. And well, no one told me that. At one point I got so excited. And my dad was kind of chasing me. And he makes these scary noises. And I was like, oh my god. And I was running. Me and my brother collided. I mean, full on like college football. The back of my head hit the top of my back. The back of my head fully like hit the top of my back. Okay, I, and then I fell to the ground. A lot Peter Griffin, like at the bottom of the stairs, like, and then he was like, don't tell mom, don't tell mom, don't tell mom. You're okay. You're okay. Like, but is that? And I was thinking, oh my god, we've go to the hospital. And then I got up. And I was like, now see, I'm the ideal laser tag player. Because no damage sustained. Plus boom, you're dead. Plus, oh, you feel so bad for me because you got me. Boom. Now I tagged you. And then I run away. Man, we full on like full body collided. And my brother's like six, but four. And I'm five eight. And I call full on my back like a snow angel. Like, oh my god. Yeah, I thought I had died. But I didn't. I still here to tell the tale. Get into laser tag. I really, I'm a fan of laser tag. You guys are missing out on some group bonding opportunities. Okay. Now after that, I went to, you guessed it, Dublin Ireland. Okay. Guys, there's not. Okay. If you get it, you get it. And do I feel like a middle-aged, chubby white guy with a neck beard and a fedora who loves Japan? Yeah, that's how I feel about Ireland. Yeah, I really am that. But it comes to the, I have such a deep appreciation for the culture, for the language, for the people, for the community. I think the way that Southern Americans talk to each other in terms of like you could talk to anyone about anything. They're just kind. They want to talk waiting in line at the grocery store, whatever. I think that that's a missing piece of, um, Gen Z. And I think that that the art of small talk is really lost on people under the age of 40. For whatever reason, you know, COVID, blame it on whatever, blame it on the rise of like Snapchat instead of texting, all that. I mean, I just, when you hide behind a screen for every social interaction, you miss out on those opportunities to hone the skill of small talk. Irish people do it so well. And it's, it's really like lovely. So I was there. And I was there with the girls. And then I like invited Drew and Caleb thinking they're not going to book a ticket. But how far would it be if they came? Bitch, it came. Oh, all my favorite people in one place in my favorite city. Sure. Sure, fuck it. Everyone came. Drew, days, Caleb. We found this like weird ass event to go to for New Year's Eve. They ended up being like, a swingers party. Hey, what the fuck? And it was in this castle, middle of nowhere. I was in county Carlo. It was just like, what are we doing? The vibe was so wretched. It was so incredibly negative that we all kind of agreed as a group. Should we leave and go to just a local pub? Yeah, we should. And so we're all dressed in our nice dresses and boots, me and Drew, because that's my twin and my sister wore the same boots unknowingly. And so we all, like go to this pub nearby. Oh my god, it was so magical. We walk in, because it was cold outside. We walk in. It was all warm. It was not really that busy. There was this special little nook, this table. We all sat at it, fit all of us perfectly. We got Guinnesses, this, whatever. They had snacks, Tato, whatever. And then we all do the turn. No, no, do the countdown. And how do your fireworks go off? Oh my god, it was magical. It was magical. God, there is a whimsy in that fucking land. I'm telling y'all. I'm telling you. And I want to go to dingle and I want to go to cork and I want to go to doki and I want to go to done leery. And I've been to go away and I've done the cliffs of more mohair, moor, moor, moor, the cliffs of moor. It's just magical. And then with my girls, like also, it was just insane. So yeah, it was magic. And it was a magical opportunity to make memories with my friends. We played jackbox, quip lash, and trivia murder party, and this place that drew rent it. It was just truly magical. I won't remember it forever. And I hope to have many more moments and trips like that in the next few years. And y'all, can I just level with you? Broskination, we're really doing it. Like, what? Hey, when did this become not a joke? When did the bit become my job? I feel like that all the time. Like royal court is it is taken off in a way that I could have only dreamed of. And we're getting incoming requests from people that I'm like, are you out of your mind? Are you out of your mind? We just found one today that was, it was a dream. Like, it was such a dream. And I think it's going to come out in February. It's he's one of my favorite musicians, like ever. And we got to talk books and philosophy and artistic references. And I'm just, I'm addicted. And I can't tell you who it is because I think I have a curse when I say, oh, this person's going on royal court, something happens with the episode. And we like don't end up putting it out. So I'm not going to say who it is. But I feel like y'all will know because I've talked about this band very recently. So I'm so excited. I love him to death. And I had him sign my copy of East of Eden. So okay, here's some things. Let's get into that. That's my updates. Let's get into the section of the shit that I'm on. The shit I'm on for real right now. What I've been loving, what I've been eating up over the last month. I finished four books. Everyone clap. Guys, stop, stop. I read four books. I kind of want to start there. And then at the end, I'll talk about some channels that I'm loving on YouTube. Book Club, let's start now. By the way, I know I keep teasing this, but I'm just getting a temperature check. If we do, let's say, I don't know. I'm hurt strong. That is book centric. That is maybe a bit gothic and maybe Victorian and like dark academia. Would you guys be rocking with that? Let me know. Berscanation, you guys let me know. And can I just also, before I get into the book club, thanks for watching. You guys could watch anything. You guys, your attention is something that I do not take for granted. Like whatever you get out of this podcast, whatever you see in me, whatever this parasocial link is between us, it is tangible and it is not taken for granted. And I just want you guys to know that. But like I don't, this doesn't exist without you and you tuning in and you like engaging and creating the community. And I just want to do the best I can by you guys. So not to be earnest, but let me be earnest. Uh oh, the earnest bug just bit me. Uh oh, the earnest bug is under my skin and I'm aching and I'm fucking, I'm fucking. So let's do book club. I finished first, Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. Duh, I've been talking about this book forever. It was a very short read. It was so good. Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde, you've heard about it. I'm sure plenty. I think that it gets this incorrect connotation or I guess summary of schizophrenia, which is a very serious diagnosis and this book is not about schizophrenia. It's about good versus evil. And I think I went into it with this understanding of like, oh, it's going to be like the movie split or whatever. No, no, no, no. And it was such an interesting angle on the concept of human nature. And are we inclined towards evil? Or are we altruistically inclined? And the answer is radically both. We are evil creatures with a tendency to do good or we are good creatures with a very strong pull to do evil things. And wow, the way that this book dissects that, the way this book explores it in this almost science fiction way, really, really good. A very short read, it tugs along, you know, the narrator is good and there's a letter at the end that is very, you know, almost like a how he done it kind of thing. Oh my God, really enjoyed that. I think I gave it four stars. Next I read Carmilla. Carmilla, I've been talking about for a long time as well. Carmilla actually predates Bram Stoker's Dracula by about 25 years, give or take. And it is a sapphic vampire novel, meaning gay, meaning lesbian. It was amazing. I really enjoyed it. And I think also for a, Carmilla didn't kickstart the genre, but it definitely inspired Dracula. And I mean, Bram Stoker said that. Like it heavily inspired. In fact, you can even take parallels from how the women are written to how the story goes, you know, chokes along. I'm very glad I read it because I have this understanding now of the history of the, I guess, vampire novel, the vampire story. And the first ever like popularized vampire book is actually called The Vampire, spelled with a Y. I can't remember who it's by, but that was like 1816. And then Carmilla is like 1870s and then Bram Stoker's Dracula is about 1890s. So, I mean, just a great history there and to see how it's evolved. And then even like coming into twilight, you know, into the modern age and the Nosferatu and like all these interpretations. I love also we're in the era of the monster. I talked about this probably a few months ago of how much I loved Frankenstein. How much I loved, Nosferatu really kicked off the gothic shit for me, 'cause it's always been there, maybe simmering under the surface. I've always been drawn to old, tiny things and the embellishments and attention to detail and the beauty of Victorian things, even though the Victorians were fucking rotted, the care that went into making the things we look at every day beautiful. I just watched this whole documentary on like, lampposts, just about lampposts actually. And how everything in the modern, like I don't know if it was millennials that kind of kicked off this gray minimalism. But oh my God, I think in this era of overexposure and AI and just people are sick of it. We are going back to analog. We're going back to beauty for beauty's sake. There's a return to design and making things unique and extraordinary because that's what humans do. You know, we make beautiful things and we appreciate beautiful things. So that was interesting and it's, I guess, related to Carmilla because it's super Gothic and the way that everything's just, you know, the concept of a haunted castle and whatever. So I read Carmilla. I actually gave Carmilla about three and a half stars just because it's very simple. I didn't really appreciate at the end. It was also this kind of like, and here's how I did it, whatever. I mean, it was written in the 1870s. I guess that was like gag back then. But I did give it three and a half instead of four for that. So I was like, I wish there was more mystery surrounding it. But the end really picks up, three and a half. Then I read, what did I read? The yellow wallpaper, another short story. This is by Charlotte Perkins Gilman. Remember how I said I've been addicted to the theme of female madness and how dismissed women are? Throughout history, even in the modern era, when you talk about hysteria, a hysterical woman, a manic woman, a woman who suffers from melancholy, all of these old timey terms for a woman who is depressed, anxious, ignored, dismissed, told she's crazy. Oh my god, this idea of like, she's crazy. My ex is crazy, the crazy bitch. Like I could write an essay on how that is almost this umbrella term for women have such complexities within them that men are too simple of creatures to understand. They're too simple. Everything is very black and white. And I feel like with women, there's just a whole universe in all of us that is so specific. And it's so misunderstood. And that, how it links to female madness, is kind of touched on in the yellow wallpaper. The yellow wallpaper is an interesting story because it's about a woman who is a mother, who's married to a physician. And the physician, which is also an interesting dynamic, right? If you have a wife coming to her husband, being like, I feel sick, not of body, but of spirit and mind. And the physician only being educated and instructed and how to cure ailments of the body, that's not his milieu. That's not his expertise, but because he's a man and because he's a husband, he's going to exert his will and his quote unquote expertise on his wife. She doesn't really have a choice because this was the early 1900s, late 1890s. So it's just power dynamics versus gender dynamics, versus gender roles, versus mental health, versus lack of communication and belief and understanding between a man and a woman. All of this is explored in the yellow wallpaper. It's a very easy read, like you should read it. And the setting is very, it's described very well. It's about a woman who moves into this old, old, old, old house. And they move into the top floor. And it's clear that this room used to be like a children's room. It's very wide, and there's windows everywhere, and there's this yellow wallpaper on the walls. It's been torn off in places, all around the bed frame. It's been scratched off. And it's kind of just like, oh, this house is dilapidated. Is that the word I'm thinking of? Dilapidated in a state of disrepair or ruin as a result of age or neglect, amazing. It's all dilapidated, and it's very basic furniture in the room, just the bed, maybe some chairs. While she's sick, she's maybe a bit drowsy and weak, and she's exhausted, like fatigue of the mind. And I think it probably, like reading this, it's so interesting, because I'm not a psychologist, but I'm sitting here reading it like, oh, she probably has postpartum depression. She just had a kid, but she's kind of unable to give the child her full attention because she's suffering, like something emotionally and hormonally is wrong. And her husband doesn't give a fuck. Her husband's like, ah, sleep it off. I don't know, go sit in the sunlight. I gotta work, bye. Leaves her, which also doesn't help isolation, right? So she's in this room, she's laying in bed, hours, days on end, day after day after day, no stimulation, she can't even read, she's so tired, but she's staring at this wallpaper. And the pattern starts to piss her off. She starts to get so mad. Because it's like, why would they fucking pick this published? It was dumbass color. And the pattern is shit. And it's also like not the way that they pasted it on the walls. It doesn't match up and whatever. She starts to see a figure in the wallpaper. And she's like, oh, it's a cage. It's a cage. And this figure, like, I'm looking at her as the sun light, as the sun beams hit the wallpaper and move across the, she sees a little figure escaping the wallpaper. She sees it outside. She sees it in the trees. And then, you know, in the morning, it's back in the wall. And it becomes obsessed with this wallpaper. And this figure that she's like, I have to capture it. I have to, and then I'll show my husband, of course. And then he'll understand that this picture, we, you know, we have to change the wallpaper because she's in there. She's in there. And then her husband, I mean, her condition, she deteriorates rather quickly. And the husband's like, oh, you're fine. See, you're getting better already. And she's like, yes, yes. Towards the end, it's, she spirals out of control. And I love how it ends. I love how it ends. And I'm not going to ruin it, so you can read it. Um, in this, I read a collection of short stories by Charlotte Perkins-Gillman. And she was just like a feminist, you know, your average, like, feminist that was ignored and not listened to. But her stories were very diverse. And her stories tackled a lot of things. She has this story called, I wish I could remember, maybe like mother or my son or something like that. And it was the last story in this book. And it's about a woman who does her best. She's a single mom and she raises a son that ends up becoming like a terror, like a womanizer, an abuser. And the guilt and shame that the mother carries for the son's actions isn't that poetic. The son gets a woman pregnant, really young, and then runs off, takes no responsibility for it. Move cities doesn't give a forwarding address. It's just like, it's not my problem. How is that my problem? Well, the mother feels so responsible. She can't reach her son, so she dedicates her entire rest of her life to helping those young women who are vulnerable, who are exposed, who have no place to turn, and who have been violated. Their innocence has been stolen from them. And now they have to carry this child to term. And the husband is not even a husband. The man is gone. And so she dedicates her life to this, and then there's a crazy twist at the end, where she ends up running into her son again. And she's really, she has like a police badge. She's fucking cool. And she has dedicated her life to taking down men like her son. And it's a crazy twist at the end. So I really enjoyed those short stories. And then the last one I read was, oh my god, I read the silent patient. Okay, so there was this period of time. I guess, wait, it's still happening. There was a period of time where when you would go into a bookstore, it literally would be murder, that book, murder, James, demon copper felt, demon copperhead. What is it, David Copperfield, the magician? Demon Copperhead, the housemaid, and the silent patient. These books were everywhere, everywhere. And I'm sure there are fantastic books, and that one by the creator of Normal People, Sally Rooney, Intermezzo, Intermezzo, that book was everywhere. Like these are all the kind of like, oh, I guess I'll, you know, if you're not looking for something specific at a bookstore, that's what they put out in front because they're best sellers. Well, I kept seeing the silent patient, and on good reads, I kept seeing people like raving about it. And I was like, I don't really read thrillers like that, but let me lock in because the hook of this book, if you've read it, please tell me what you thought in the comments, the hook of this book. A woman kills her husband, does not say a word, not through the police questioning, through the trial, through the sentencing, through being sentenced to an insane asylum. And this all happens in England somewhere in the modern day. She doesn't say a word. And that's interesting, right? Because it's kind of got this silence in the lambs thing here of like, who's the psychologist? Who is the psychotherapist that can help this woman? Or at least get the story? You know, and there's a selfish thing there of like, well, I just want to know why she did it. And so it takes you on this journey of the psychotherapist that gets a job purposefully at the asylum, the, I guess, institution that she's in for the sole purpose of talking to Alicia. That's the name of the patient. And through all this, he crosses so many, you know, patient provider boundaries and like legal guidelines, I guess, to get to the bottom of it. She's calling family members. She's doing deep dives on her record notes that other therapists have taken on her. She's going into, she's talking to friends of friends and ants. And I mean, it just gets to a point where it's like, dude, dude, is this really to help her? Or is this just because you're a nosy fuck? And it just gets it spirals out of control. Well, it gets to a point where she starts talking. Of course she starts talking. And the twist at the end, it was, I will say I predicted it. Okay, I had an inkling, but for people who don't, if you're looking for a simple thrilling read, sure, I gave it three and a half stars just because at the end, I was like, and I also, I can't, I'm going to be honest. This author, the way he wrote about, you know, people with mental, like it felt very insensitive and it also felt very like he just read a psychology book. Like bro took psychology 101 and was like, I should write a book about this. Which is fine. You can get inspiration from anywhere. But every single character, I'm not joking. Every single character, the narrator would be like, and I can tell he's like that because of his childhood trauma. Every character. And look, say what you will. Childhood trauma doesn't have, like it's not always relevant. Some people are just like that. You know what I mean? Like you can have the best upbringing. You can be whatever. And something can still go wrong. So yes, I understand, but every single character that was introduced, it was like, and he acts this way. And I can tell that he's like that because his, he was probably abused. And it's like, okay. I think that that's simplifying how complex trauma can be on the human mind, which I almost wish that he had gone more into depth in that. That's more interesting than just like you act this way because of your childhood. Okay. Yes, generally, what else do you have? It just felt very simplistic. So for that reason, and there's a cheesy cliche twist at the end where the narrator kind of like looks at the window and smiles. And I was like, bro, we're being the office. Are you Jim from the office? I'm pissed off. So three and a half. I will say I finished it like two days because I was what the fuck? The chapters were really short, which I like. And yeah, it kept it moving. And it kept introducing characters in a way that kept the story, you know, it propelled it. So those were the four books I read. Probably the standout was Jekyll and Hyde. I've been wanting to read that for a long time. I finally got to it. I have a whole list of books that I'm going to get to. I'm going to do Metamorphosis by Kafka next just to say that I've read a Kafka. And it's also been on my TBR for forever. Then I'm going to read finally. I'm going to start East of Eden. Then I'm going to read The Great Gatsby. We had to read The Great Gatsby in high school. I'm sure I'll head to as well. And I remember like, basing my understanding of it off of the movie with Leonardo DiCaprio. I want to go back to basics. I want to read the text. And I want to picture it outside of the like, I guess, visual world of Bazelerman because I love Bazelerman. But like that is so it's such a specific sensationalized telling of it. And I also think that the copy I have has discussion questions at the end. I'm trying to do those. I'm trying to find texts or versions of the text. I want to read that have discussion questions at the end that I can journal. That keeps my mind engaged. It keeps me sharp. It keeps me thinking critically because, oh my god, I go through these periods of where I'm like, I'm actually doing good. I've not been on my phone that much. And then other times, I'm in a slump right now. We're every single night. I'm on TikTok for three hours. Three hours. Just horizontal. I haven't moved my body in three hours. And I'm just, you have to get up. And in that vein, here's some channels. I've been watching recently that are really good. They're really good. Okay. So sometimes I'm like, sometimes I'm like, the phone is too much. Let me switch to the big screen. I watch YouTube on my TV. Sure. I love Gazoo Studio. Guys, if you are looking for something that is, I guess visually stimulating doesn't require any brain power and is like a relaxing, nice thing to do. Go check out Gazoo Studio on YouTube. She does air dry clay. She does polymer clay. She does shrinky dinks. She does illustration. She does a whole bunch of stuff. She makes these beautiful and so cute trinket boxes, fridge magnets, whatever. And it's, it's a skill level that in my head I'm like, I could do that if I tried hard enough. But then the other side of me is like she isn't she's a master. She has completely mastered the art of air dry clay Like I don't it's like watching boat of jelly. I am in complete awe So I love her go check out this studio another channel that I love I think I've shouted her out before Madeline Wu She's my favorite ballerina on YouTube. Oh, they're the Luna Montana. I do love her Madeline move. Madeline's like She has her own she's got cool tattoos, which I know it's kind of taboo to have tattoos as a ballerina She also has her own line of lead hearts and like active wear or like whatever. It's like dance dance wear She's cool. I really like her. She used to dance for the Swedish ballet the royal Swedish ballet I believe and now she's in San Francisco. I don't know. She's so cool. I also have been loving I'm back on my national geographic shit lots of stuff about like as techs my ends The the my end astrological charts. Let me Google this My in astrology is fucking tea. It is tea. I looked up my reading and I was like Like it's scary good really scary good. Oh my god. I'm also into tarot. You know, I've been scared of tarot Okay, I got my dragon or cards. I pulled that shit. I was having a really tough night the other night to like level with you guys I was really feeling heavy and it was the first time I had been truly alone in a long time because I had been traveling for a month straight like I wasn't home for a month and I was visiting all these people You know, like I'm young. I'm I'm able I'm I will go to the people I love I'm not gonna make them come to me California is really far From basically everything and so I was I was traveling a lot and I was finally home and I've been working all week. We've been doing royal court all week and that it takes a lot of mental energy to lock in to You know, you're researching this person's whole life and you want to do good by the guest and you want to make them feel seen and heard and valued and listen to well at the same time as a host and I think Conan does it best of like and Amy Polar Where you have to also be willing to catch them, you know, like you're steering the conversation You're steering the ship. It's your show, but ultimately I'm highlighting this person So that balance it just takes a lot of focus and at the end of filming. I'm like I'm tired. So I finally came home. I was alone and I just like started to cry like I felt really heavy and I was like what? In this also in the vein of like female madness. It's like I can't explain why I'm feeling like this but the feeling is real and it's tangible and it's it is a weight on my body and I was like what can I do and I didn't want to call anyone because it wasn't that kind of like I need to talk this out It was just like I had a feeling So I got my tarot cards because I got them from Etsy for Christmas and I did a reading and I did my little book and I did I flipped through, you know, because there's so many different readings you can do and I did mind body spirit tea by the way and I just said what do I need to hear like for my mind for my body and for my spirit and the reading I got it How can you say this shit isn't real? And I just cut the deck and I just you know I did the thing where I like warmed up my hands and then I whatever tingled over the card and then I I pulled it It was crazy. All of them were reversed which is scary and then The reading was just exactly what I needed to hear and it helped me make a decision about something that's been heavy on my heart and Yeah, it's gonna be kind of incorporated into My business, you know, and like my my approach to how I do this, you know and and it's it was just great And I feel lighter and it's amazing tarot really is like If you treat it with the respect that it deserves it can really be a functional tool in your life And then after that I made some decisions. I sent some emails. I would ever and I was like okay new era and then I pulled an Oracle card and the Oracle card basically said you're on the right path like trust yourself to Even if it's hard like do it and I was like damn Like it like why is it hard to do the right thing? You know more often than not it's it's hard to do the right thing It's easy to be like I'm lazy. I'm gonna avoid this. This is complicated You know, I just don't want to conflict. I don't really do well with confrontation That's easy to shy away from it. What's hard is to tackle something and be like I know this is the right thing to do and I owe it to myself right now and my future self to set this right so it was amazing and I'm literally just like alone and in that mindset It's amazing what if you open yourself up to the universe the universe will send you a message. So 2026 guys be open to when the universe speaks to you. I would say 2026 Less screen time. That's a big one for me I'm back on my bar method shit. I love bar method It's the only workout anything that's ever made me feel like okay I can do this it makes me feel good and it incorporates ballet, which I like I'm back on that I want to feel strong for 2026 in my body. I have never felt strong and That is so much farther than the physicality of it You know, I've felt strong in terms of like I'm stubborn or you know, I'm a tariff like I'm bullheaded sometimes but physically and When you're in this mindset of you know, Decentering men and I don't need a man and I've never needed a man Like I don't know why I bought into that propaganda so bad like we all do I don't need a man I am strong and I can do everything that a man can do and I'll actually probably do it better because there's more attention to detail and I care and I'm meticulous so That is kind of where I'm at right now Thank you guys for listening. Okay. This was kind of a reset I will have more kind of like topical things to talk to you about next week This was just kind of my hey, I'm back and I'm alive and I hope you guys are doing well and are taking care of yourselves and remember to keep your chin Up it always gets better things can feel very heavy but It will always it will get better and you have to believe that because it's true And things will always work out. So with that being said, I would like to plug a few things if you don't mind Royal court is actually we upload about once a week and I'm taking requests for your favorite celebrities because at this point the show is getting bigger and bigger Nothing is an impossibility like I truly mean that nothing is impossible with this show. I have such Plans and dreams for what the show is and what it's going to become. So go check it out if you haven't seen it If you enjoy the brosky report, but you hate the ads. I get it. We have a patreon. We have a patreon that's ad free And about once a month I will post on there almost like a little substack of some things I'm thinking of or whatever and That's that's it. I don't I want to manage expectations. There's no bonus episodes There's no anything. It is literally just ad free and then like an essay from me And this is the first month. We're kind of doing the like just a touch base with me So that's that's exclusive and the future. I really want to utilize it more of what are some topics that Or on y'all's minds or things that you know, you think I would enjoy whatever. I want the patreon community To be built up a bit more So just whatever you know join if you want if you don't know skin off my back. I love you guys the same Well, I love about YouTube and about any of this is that it's not behind a paywall, you know like you can everything I upload I always want it to be accessible This is the only thing I've ever put behind a paywall and it was because it was requested so Anyway, if you want merch go to brosky.shop. We've got moomoo's we've got classic brosky merch and also You know the book club says just kind of you don't give me a second give me second. Okay, I'm working on I'm gonna perfect it So just give me a second I want to plug the playlist. We have an official brosky nation playlist and then an unofficial one that a loyal brosky nation brosky nation soldier uploads every song that I mentioned To that playlist Also in that vein here are my songs of the week rubber band man by Mumford and sons plus hosier I'm back on my samfendership TV dinner by samfender and then I've been loving Olivia Dean I listen to Olivia Dean every fucking day like literally every day. She's just my King. I'm gonna try to wait for It's so crazy. Hey, I love her Who else have I been really bumping? You know, I love k1. I love that lesbian. I do. I love k1 I love her a lot. Those are kind of my songs of the week. I Want to officially announce. Okay guys get excited. I'm back on YouTube We're uploading YouTube on the main channel the main Britney brosky channel We are back to filming videos that will be coming out very very soon in a few days So keep your eyes peeled for that and what a video it is. Okay We're gonna be uploading probably once a month maybe twice a month And the videos are fun. We filmed a couple and they're fun. I'm so fucking back So with that being said, I love y'all two goddamn death I will see you next week. Be nice to each other. Be good and be be safe. And I'll talk to you soon. OK, bye.