#8: Be you

My name is Sam Russell, one of Jayme Wright and this is "Create Your Story". Just a quick disclaimer before we start, Jayme and I are not professionally trained counsellors or psychologists or health trained. This podcast is based off the opinions and lived experiences from ourselves. Do you are struggling, reach out to Lifeline on 1-3-1-1-4 or book an appointment with your GP and talk about a mental health care plan today? Run it! Run it! My back! If it doesn't work, it's cool that it didn't check the sound. Yeah, so we wanted to be speaking here for nothing but we're on our way back. New studio. No, I've been for a move around in the studio but it's actually. Yeah, it's a bit of a fault actually. We've had the people on this come and move thinking, "Nah, yeah. Personal assistance coming in done. Don't be the work in the background." Right, like these lollies can go. I was just saying it's worth. I'll pound a ball. That's what 641 I am on a Monday morning and I'm staring at these lollies like on what I've won. Like I was about to grab one just before. I had to stop myself. You know what, fucking if you want a lollie at 640 I haven't grabbed one. Yeah. Grab a pack of the red frogs or something on the way to work. What's up? You've been awaying that. Tell us. You were a bit of a bit of a barley. What a bit here there, no? Who there are? Went to barley what was like a week and a half ago now, flew out sort of just a bit of a mid-year sort of reset, a couple of boys and Ali was over there as well. But for the first three days we sort of ripped the skin off a bit of it. I haven't seen a few of the boys. We haven't been together as a three for ages but it's been like five or six years now. I can let us three were together and we sort of grew up together. And Joey moved to Perth so he's been living over there and then Nick's one of our good mates from around here so I was mad to just catch up with him, Brian. Sort of just be around each other and just spin y'alls and that's doing some hate fun stuff as well. I think it was the first night because I don't know by young being the barley, but Eric and you'd love a lot. The culture over there and just the people over there is always so happy. And we'll come and home from the club or whatever and it would have been like 11, 13 or 12 and we're on the back of the scooters and we stopped at the survey to get some waters. And there was a couple of barley's fellows just out at the front playing guitar singing and like Nick and Joey like they love, they love, they love, they froth guitar like they're so good at it. And we're like, when they were like younger sort of boys, what are you doing? And they're like, no, no, no, come back to it. A villa and we'll play guitar and stuff like that. It's like, yeah, so they got them there and we had like six from back there just playing guitar. So it was just, it's just so sick, Brian. That's the way that they really have nothing and they're just so grateful and happy, but like I don't think you made a bad sort of angry one. So I did that, Brian then sort of the boys left and I spent probably three days with Ali which was really good just to sort of reset and went out for Maddena's and went to the beach and went for love, Domnea, what? What the hell? You ever got a, you ever got a real mass, like a relaxing massage? I haven't. Brow. True. And it was the last, it was meant to be the last day, but okay, I've got canceled, but we'll just, like, it was so good and then just so relaxing, but it was the best way to finish it and it was something that I needed. I think I needed to let some steam off, but then let just relax and get back there. And I don't know, it's something about that place. It's we like culturally, it's, I don't know, it's, you look into the culture and you talk to the Balinese people and it's about, they talk a lot about new beginnings and stuff like that and they have traditions where they, every morning they put sort of giveings out on the pavement and there's like different like flea hours and like incense and stuff. You going to take them all away? No, and yeah, no, but like, I guess we, but for the last three times that I've been there, every time I've been there, something, something from either business or like personally has happened, right? And I was there, I got the ABC come back and then I'm selected in that. And then a few other things like this time, a few other things happened with grants and stuff like that as well. So it's weird how it all works out and I know if it's just me being freaky, but now it was mad about like, I really, I reckon you'd really love it, like the people over there about so sick and the weather was beautiful. Like it was probably the first time I've been there. Usually I'm like, well, I can't wait to get home and just get back in my bed, but I was up there. Yeah, true. Maybe I had a bike. Yeah, so yeah, I'm taking the putty over to Bali. Yeah. The next podcast will be of Chenggu B. Oh, Lee. Chenggu B. No, it was good. And then sort of, we went to fly out on Wednesday and we got to the airport and then as we got out of the car because we were a bit early, I told the driver I'm like, because I'm knowing him, because he always picks us up. I'm about as pick us up at eight o'clock. He's like, no, seven in case traffic, I'm like, bro, just pick us up at eight. We don't have to be, we don't fly until 12. Yeah. We picked us up at seven and we got there and as soon as we got there, they said the flight was delayed now. I was with Jolak off. It is what it is. Like, they'll be good in there and no one really knew what was going on. They're like, we've got to go on this line. And then I checked. I was just sus of the whole thing because there was no one was moving and we're in the checking line. So I went on the jet start app and it come up your flight like a canteen. And I looked at Ali and I'm like, like, like, sure, I start spreading the rumor. Yeah, yeah, yeah. I was like, I'll be behind me. Like, wait, they reckon these flights can't look, what now I'm going to get the fuck up? Yeah, I was just, but yeah, turns out the flight was canceled. We just cruise back, stayed another night. But yeah, and I was really good, but I was needed and so I went straight into that, into work up in Ballona. We've never, which was mad, but I was mad to work with him. And it was just mad. Probably can't really go into much detail about work itself, but probably the outcomes that we got there. Yeah. It was pretty good as well with a pretty complex young fella, but it was mad, but we went out to a waterfall and Ballona's going to be a big ball. Ballona's, yeah. I went up to Liz Moore for work last year and you can't actually stay in Liz Moore because of the flooding and everyone lives in hotel. So I had the same ballon. And I was mad. Yeah, we were in front there. I was telling them never actually because when I used to work for Ungar, me and dad had to lock the mentor and batting you program. So we had from Newy, pretty much the Tweet heads. Yeah. And we used to go to Ballona a bit, but I was telling Nev, there was one time all there and we'll get in a bit more in Liz Moore, we'll stay in Liz Moore and we'll get in a bit of rain. And next to the river in Liz Moore, there's a massive post and it has the metres and the different floods. I mean, the album was standing there and I was like, 'Imagine the water coming through at that height, right?' And it was flogging down for like two days and I said, 'Dale, we'll let's get out of it. Like we've got to probably go. Like there was no risk, but ended up being. But then we'll come under, you come under the bridge to turn off into the highway at Liz Moore and the water was up to like our tyres and it pissed down by the whole way and it ended up flooding. I think that was the 2022 floods it would have been and it ended up higher than that. Yeah, it was metres, bro. And it was just so crazy to just look around. It would have been higher than the traffic lights. Yeah. Like that much water, bro, it was just wild to do. Yeah, that's when we had the big floods out of Dungog there. Um, Naye, I think it was 2015. They um, the water was rushing through the oval there and the water was higher than the crossbar on the goalpost. That's wild. Right. It's wild just to think and look, that much body water. Because it's open space, so it's got to go out, build up and then. Yeah, we did some plum and work at Dungog for the floods and I think it was those units where a couple of people passed away. Yeah, Alison Court. Yeah. And we like had to go in there and like this kind of little plum and you could do walked in there, bro, and you could see the water line on, I was like that far from the ceiling. Yeah. It was wild. Yeah, I remember we mean like I feel my friends are just walking around and helping people doing different things here and there. Um, I mean walking past the units there when they'll put one of the people out and that's wild. The cops come over and they spoke about all that shit. Yeah. And it's crazy to just stand there and think like, yeah, how small you like in a personal ask, like somebody or water just rushing through and how quick it could happen. Because I feel like, um, if you haven't been in a flood or you haven't seen it, um, I feel like things like, like if it was fire, it's scary. It's like, oh, like hot, like it's going to burn you. But water just doesn't scare people. But water scares me. I do. Do you know like more people like so many more people die of like the most common way to die in a flood is in your car and it's because they try to drive through the water. Yeah, drive through. Like you wouldn't try to drive through a fire bar. No, I true. So like my favorites are going to go harbier right. Like I mean, these big lean crews are ungood. Like it doesn't take much to actually just, but also you don't know what's underneath the water. That's right. You don't realize how to rip the road up and it's not the road that you think it is. You don't even know what that deep it is. Yeah. So I feel if you're out there. You get it. No. This is supposed to be the news that was government. No, but it was good. What are you doing up there? I mean, I mean, it's, it's been good. I'm not saying that. We have always going to, I was going to say with the water stuff too. Um, where you float each. This has been out. So I remember when I was in, I was in like you two. So it would have been or eight or so. And um, we, we're living in Patterson for like one like we lived in Patterson there and Dad was working in at Grinnell's and we let the heaps around. So you know, coming home to school clothes and everything because in those places when the water starts coming up, the school clothes because it's been. people that live out of town. I think it was the pressure bulk of storm. - That was mad. - And we lived in a two story house and the downstairs was just like concrete, barbecue, dart board, like no rooms or anything downstairs and you go upstairs and there's basically the house upstairs and like the ward is coming up and where is Wiggin' out? And was your dad home yet? - Yeah, he was home and he's like, "Oh, we'll just watch it overnight in that." So we're watching it and then like, I think it was that afternoon at like five, the SES would all knock sound like he's gonna cruise soon and we're like, "Like dad's all good." So then the news rocked up and these chicks like, I'm from the Sydney Morning Herald, like we wanna take some clips and stuff of the flood in. Like we'll give you whatever they offered him. Directing you to him out to like the septic pump and like maybe just think like pretend you don't want to. - Really? - Yeah. - That's fucked up. - Yeah, it's like, we'll give you one. - Yeah. (laughing) - Yeah, so he's on the front page there. Seeing one arrow bra. And then from Paterson, - It's like a pump. - In Fubwater. - Yeah, it's like two, three A. I think it was like, it was just nearly, yeah, like four A.M. and I remember that nomin' a waking us up, saying like we're not leaving. And it was like, lapping the top door. - Where? - Like where it would recede a bit splash and as it splashed, it would splash in. So we had towers and stuff down. And it's kinda like, "Well, like, we're looking at it like, turn on the outside light." And it's like, if we're leaving, you're gonna have to swim to the road like. So we could just not like chill to him, just, that's real smart with that stuff, but like in terms of just understanding the water and like, in the house, my parents leaving now. And we leave there since like, I don't know, 2018 or whatever. But it's like the river runs behind us. So then when the, like down the bottom of Dungog floods, it joins forces and it always comes up and down that guard. And I think in that 2015 flood, we weren't living there, but the water did come through the floorboards in that house. So we're always like, every time it could, we stay up. And the last couple of floods brought when I was living at home. I just stayed up all night with Dad 'cause I wanted to learn like, what are you looking for in that? - Yeah. - And we would always like, every two, three hours, we'd go for a drive to the main river and just see what's down there. - Sure. - And trying to see if it's like receded down there, or if it's like broken the banks and stuff, because if it's, whatever's down there, is what's coming to us in like next year or two. So, and that's the thing with those kind of places in flooding, is it's not usually the rain for, like we'll get heavy rain for a week. The sun will be out on the next Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, but we'll be in flood because it's gotta go somewhere. - Right. - Hmm. - How much trust you put into your rent, say, back in the day, like five get close. - Yeah, I'm staying. - Not my whole way, but I'm sketchy on him. - Yeah, well, I just think like, they know. - Oh, I don't know. - I don't know. - Yeah, I mean, they just compliment us. - I would probably just do that. I just like compliment. - Yeah. - I worry about that all the time. Like, as a kid, like, you think your parents are like, they're him, bro. Like, they know what they're doing. Like, but they're not. I'm getting that age now where I'm like, like, we'll be at home, bro, you want me to go out and check. - Please say no. Like, bro, I'm gonna make all of those decisions like, you know what I mean? - Get up, I'll buy a baseball bat, your shoe. - I'm just gonna, - Imagine where I am. - Imagine being that, being in that kind of circumstance and like, you've got to make a decision for like, your whole kids. - Yeah, bro. - It's just like, comes naturally, I guess. - Hmm. - But yeah, now you sort of just think that your parents just know everything and, but you think. - Yeah, I remember that. - That's the first time as well here. That's all. - I'll actually, I'll tell you this year and after the party. Anyways. - Yeah. - Or you're the one who made it. - You're the one who made it. Now, what are you being doing about? I feel like we haven't even really spoken for a while. - Oh, but last week, I haven't really done that much to be honest, I've just been pretty chill. We had a big, like, reporting week at work last week. So I'm gonna have to get out monthly and I six monthly is done. And then obviously on the, right on the weekend, Ed said, like, I was a bit crook last week. - Yeah, right. - A little bit yesterday, but that's about it. So we had, I went to Fudis Haddie, over the terrace. - Oh yeah. - Beat the Hawks. - That's that one, Zoe. - Hey Zoe, you think you can, oh listen to that podcast, so you can come and eat a run you may have. You're gonna get this job. Sorry, see, I've got a few, I wrote down a few pointers and stuff just to, what you're gonna work on as well as in the day, but. - So I went over there and then, Brad Deadset come back Saturday. Did nothing, I just kicked back. And then even Sunday, he just got out, made breakey, kicked back, like, I was feeling pretty crap, but then just like, that was it, I already, yesterday just, sort of chilled, had to go to training at 3.30, for, I'm just not going outside with coaching, so. - Yep. - Did that, that was pretty good, but it was actually relaxing. I think it's what I needed to, to sort of do, so. - Yeah, it's been, it's been hectic. And I think that's, that's a good message, 'cause I'm always one that's like, nah, I've got two days off and I need to go out and do everything and anything to try and feel it up, but sometimes just good to see it at home and kick back. Also, I've got to say, happy to fucking night, I'll go week. Happy night at week, to all my brothers and sisters and everyone out there. It's like, by Christmas, I reckon. - 50 years, deadly. - 50 years, deadly. So that and, that knock out. Christmas and Easter, I reckon. - Yeah. - But no, it's mad, I am. Sort of, was it, I want to be out there, five out of five out of five, six out of five home, yeah, same sort of thinking about a few things. And, I wanted to do a post, but I didn't like doing it, but just about people, maybe not identified people that want to get out to their night, I don't know, events might feel a bit, I don't know. Not welcoming. - Yeah, no, we had probably not welcomed just to get out there and reach out to someone that you know, and I was going to say, reach out to me, I'd be happy to take along anyone for anyone to come out with us, but I think night, I don't, night, I don't events are just so, what, well, they feel, they feel more cup up, like, you just see so many, like, powerful black people. - There's people that, I only see once a year, and it's that night, I'll come to that. - Pretty much, yeah. - Yeah, no, yeah, it's like that, yeah, but I know, getting around to all the stalls and stuff like that. - Getting freebies or what? - I'm bad for a day. - I'm bad for a drink, middle bar. - Yeah, one of those stress balls. - Yeah, stress out too. - Free feed. - Free feed. - Shut up, rotary. - So yeah, I'm going to try, I'll probably get to see. - I wonder, you got Newcastle today. - Yep. - I attended two. Marook as well today. - Marooks on as well today. - I attended two. - Yep. - Tomorrow is Minda Existence, Walk on March. - Yep. - That I think it's 9.30 minute, the Kodas and-- - 10 o'clock star. - Yeah, walk down to the Art Gallery. - Yep. - Wednesdays, Singleton. - Yep. - Good day out there. - Good day. - Out, Singon, Nadok. Family, Fun Day. Thursday, there'd be something on Thursday. - Yeah, Thursday, I think. - Friday's Minda Family Fun Day. - Yeah. - And Harrel Greggson. - Harrel Greggson Park. So there's a few things out there, and usually they have stores down there. - We've got a store at Singon and Minda. - Yeah. - Yeah, I'm going to cruise down on the New Year one. - Yeah, I might go for a look. - Yeah. - Laptown there. I'm taking a young fella down there and then I'll definitely go to the march tomorrow. And then, probably cruise at the Singon Wednesday, I reckon. - Yeah. - But yeah, now I'm looking forward to it. Like you said, it's good to catch up with everyone. She had the good work that everyone's doing and just get around and y'all, and really. - And then this Saturday we got our indigenous rounded pickers. - True. Where's that at? - Sports game. - Right. Who does yours? - Boys, I-- - Borks. - Now, we play, girls play, Wes and the boys play, like. - True. - They got jerseys and shit made up. - Yeah. - Yeah, I'd know, I meant to be, my birthday's on Sunday. - Is it? - Yeah. - I already hear it. - 33. - No! - 33. - 28. - 28. - 28. - 28 boy. - True, right? - But I might have to go to Balanoff for work. But, sort of wouldn't mind just a weekend, just spend with family to be honest. - Yeah. - And probably get around it, indigenous round over in mainland. I'd probably go to that to be pop, to be honest. - Yeah. - Me and the old boy might go over there. That might be a good sort of way to spend some time with dad, to be honest. But, yeah, there's a fair few things happening. But, yeah, like I said, make sure you get out. If you have the opportunity, get out and connect in to your local native event. It's plenty of it. - Go on Saturday out. - Saturday out. - I'm interested in home and write all these comments and say, "Hey, we get everything in fucking free hours "as an idiot." - But, that's the other thing as well. Like, if you are one of them people, go on Saturday out and see how hard some of our mobile working in community, their stores and let the people they work for and how passionate they are about making that change and stuff. - That's right. - Yeah, it's mad. Don't judge. - So, we got rid of the quotes. I didn't really give an explanation last week, but I guess it's just kind of like a bit of a change up. We just, we'll try and do things different each time. I feel like, if you ask for quotes every week, there's only so long. you can do that for before people are like, we've already sent money and I don't have any more or like come style a little bit. We don't want that. So we want to engage. We did ask for something you'd tell your younger self. Yeah. What do you got? You got me all you got me all you got me and I'm going to tell my younger self I reckon I was thinking about this on the drive-home. But it's probably not the feeding not the feeding to what people think. I spent all my like I used to hang around like I had older brother like an older brother and I used to spend all my time trying to show off and trying to be this person. You know, I mean just to feed you. But it's but I guess it'd be like, be yourself because once you start being yourself and you come to one that the right people will come around you. You'll start surrounding yourself with the right people. So that would be mine. It's just honestly, but just be yourself and do what you're passionate about. Don't try and do this and do that. The feeding don't be this person. Just be you. That's it. Be you and the right people come around. Play that track. Be you because I like that. There's mine similar. Mine's pretty much the same is just do your own thing. Look, there's so many times where I was picking the same subject as friends or not doing that because of them or not doing that because of them. Just go and do whatever you want to do for you. That's pretty much it really. So we've got a couple, a couple similar ones that are a bit like that. Just I guess a similar kind of theme. We'll read a couple out. So Papa Thomas shout out to Papa. There's a mad yarn actually that. So I got this, I don't know I should tell this on the party, but he is going. Papa's going to get the out of the issue. I got this weed kind of Instagram message request on Instagram obviously, but I didn't know. I thought it was just a scam at the start because the name was a bit weird. Then I went back and checked it. Checked the name and checked the message. It was like a teacher from Beads and was basically saying like, hey, one of the students who used to coach at Fuddy, which is Papa, was basically just like, she says you're doing haired good stuff, like podcast and mental health and like Aboriginal culture and stuff. I'd like to have a yarn. She didn't have any contact details for you. This is it. So I'm just messaging here. That was a mad. It was good. I love that. Shout out to Papa for gassing my boy up. She's putting one hand said, don't listen to those girls, just be you. That's hectic. Yeah. So. That's mad. I love that. That's good chat that. Be you, I think, is the theme really? It is, but I'm not because I've got a couple, but I just want to touch on that as well. It's just like, you know, like as a young fill, you'd be passionate about so many different things, but you'd always get to see it away from because other people might like it or you might get a bit ashamed about it, but just be yourself. Like, and I think as you get older, you start to realise that you know, no one actually really cares about you. Like none of them people would care about you now, you know, people that you're trying to impress at school and stuff like that. You probably don't even mate with. Yeah. So be yourself, boy. Mad. And just cruise along. You want, you got another? You want to read one? I've got one more. Yeah. This is from Jake. How of? You won't find the love you're looking for in this shit street. I didn't really get an explanation from him, but I sort of, I've known Jake for a while. He's had a bit of a hard trot and sort of hanging around the wrong crowd. So I think that's good too is like just because, and I'm just trying to break this down, but just because you're there or hanging around with certain people doesn't mean you can go off and do something else. You don't have to be constricted to those people, but you can go and do your own thing. Yeah, man. And if you're searching for something that's not there, search somewhere else. That's good. There's a few more. I wasn't actually originally going to read this one out, but I thought that there might be some people out there that would get some benefit from it. And it's a bit of a long one, but it's actually from my sister who replied back and she's kind of struggling a little bit, which is with relationship stuff at the moment, but she said, relationships come and go, don't spend so much time dwelling on what could have been, keep moving both your body and your mind. The pain you're feeling around now won't last forever, even if it feels impossible to believe in the moment. I tell myself everything has a way of working itself out. And one day you look back and realise you're made it on the other side. You'll move on, you'll heal and you'll become stronger, most importantly, stranger self with people who lift you up. Support you and remind you of your worth. The right people will bring peace, not an anxious feeling. That's mad. Yeah, that's mad. I didn't hit that button to me. I wasn't like, I wasn't going to read it out just because obviously, you know, it's personal, but I thought there'd be some young girls out there that are probably struggling with the similar sort of stuff. And I think when you're in that kind of cycle, you just feel like, that person that is giving you a little bit and treating your life shit and giving you a little bit is like, you're one of the person that you want, but I think at the end of the day, if you commit to that no contact and you focus on yourself and you get where you need to get, there'll be a day where you look back and you'll be like, I can't believe I was so wrapped up on that. I know what I mean. A time heal is everything, right? At the time you probably think that's everything, right there. Which is so normal to feel like that. 100%, but like you sister said, but I'll surround yourself with other people that uplift you, keep moving your mind and body and try to process. That's my motto. That was one thing. Another one they got sent in. On the create one, it was from M. I don't know who that is, but thanks for sending that in. It was your kindness, it was your superpower, but don't let it mean people treat you like shit. Yeah, that's cool. I like that. I like that as well. And that goes with any of your superpowers, whatever it is, but I feel like I resonate with that a bit because I have a big heart and I've been burnt so many times because I'm like, no, they won't do that to me. Yeah, I'm being. Yeah, one's the same as I was like given too much A. I'm expecting that people probably do the same back, but they don't. Yeah, which is fun. I got one more and I'm going to read this out for a laugh, but I'm not a lawyer. This is from Grayskill, but she had that to Gray, so Coach Dahl for a couple years. Braille has been out. So I'm actually going to tell Yann about Gray. Hopefully she doesn't mind. We coached four years at Morpeth. So like it all started because we were outworked. I mean, getting us to work and we were like, it was like March or something, and then we were like, oh, yeah, do you want to like, we should coach footy. And it was like just after I'd done like me bad knee injury, I was like, yeah, I'd be keen to get back into it, like into, like, you know, juniors. So we rang around a few clubs and all the first club we went to with Morpeth because he used to play there and they were just down the road. So we rang them, they'll, I've seen if there was any spots open for coaching like maybe 14s and above. We didn't really want to do that. We're young. And they got back to us and was like, oh, there's one team without a coach. And it's 15s girls. And we're kind of like, we'll think about it. So we're kind of on an arm for a little bit. And like, I think after like a week, they rang back on the sort of like, they just still don't have a coach. We're like, oh, let's just give it a clap. We'll do it. And then we both made a pact that we'd do four years because we were thinking like, because it's every two years, so we're like, we'll do 15s, 15s again, 17s, 17s again. And then we're done. And basically just to give them four years of like, this is the plan. And we like, we used to like, we had a big team meeting with like our families and everything before season started. I was like, this is the plan. We all need a boy. And it's going to be harder to start. First year, bro, we didn't grace plate in the first year and we didn't win a game. We lost everything we gave him the first year. And then we just kept going to work, but and you know what? Like, it was still one of the best years. Like, the kids had so much fun and stuff. I called them kids, but the girls had so much fun. And then we were like, yeah, we'll just stay around again. Like, we'll commit to it. And then grace aged out. So she couldn't play 15s again because she was too old. She had to go and play 17s. So she had to go to West Madeland. And then like, just, yeah, really struggled there. I think didn't really get along with the girls at West Madeland, but I didn't really talk to her that much either. And then we did 15s again, went through the whole season undefeated from start to finish. One of the grand final, like it was so mad. And then we moved up to 17s. And then she could come back then in 17s. And then she comes back and she goes, I think we're in preseason or something. And she's like, oh, all these girls are pumped. You just want to calm. But I was like, yeah, like, we knew I knew you're right. And she's like, do you know that I've played three? I've played two straight years now and not won a game. Really? I was like, no, three, I think. Yeah, I was like, really? And she's like, yeah, because like that year at Morpeth, you think a year before that in Leagtaug. And then this and then when you get to the we get to the grand final that year. And there's like five minutes left in the game or ten minutes left. The game's kind of wrapped up at this point. And I think Grace was like, she was struggling with like a bit of a syndesmosis kind of injury all year. Like we were managing it all year. And like it would just grab and I'll get to a point where she could barely walk and like, would nearly be in tears because of the pain. I think there's five minutes left to move up again, I'll bring it out like you're right, so I can need to come off of that my legs, I can't walk. I was like, look, I would normally say yes, but in this one moment, I'm gonna force you to stay on the field because one thing you'll never, ever get to live again or experience in the moment is what it feels like when that full time and so on goes and you're on the field and you can celebrate with the team and it was mad, yeah. So she rode in and said, - She rode a grace. - Yeah, she rode in and said, something she'd tell herself younger, when she, if she was, her younger self is, seeing Russell is gonna give you some advice in some hard times of your life. - Oh, I appreciate that, but yeah, that's a good little yarn for your Monday. - No, it's effective. - I guess it just goes to show that, you know, the stuff that you put in, like, it's important that if you identify, if you can identify within yourself that, you do have some good qualities and some good traits. So go on volunteer your time somewhere with some young people and try and bear on well for them. I think that's important. - That's right. - But that's on the other end of that as well as if you can see yourself as a role model or someone like that in community then you've got to act like that as well. Because these young people are watching everything, every single thing you're doing, they take everything on board, you might think they remember the conversational they're listening in, but they always are. So if you are one of them people and you're out there, hold yourself to what you say you are. - That's him. - That's him. What else we got? - What else we got? - What about fucking, I don't know about, I sort of lost track of Tom, but I didn't realize it's Wednesday state of origin. - Yeah. - Well, look at that side and I'm not confident that the slightest bit. - No. - But we'll get pumped directly. - Up there. - Yeah, I'm not even. - Let's go through the little thing, you know how? - I just don't understand. - Do you know how I've seen people do this before this? - And also, actually, can I just touch on something before we do that? - Yeah. - I got, I got to see your podcast, but you touched on whatever you want. - This is my story and I'm just creating it. - I don't know. - No. - It's about people and planes. And I know it might be just me, but, but it was nine o'clock in the morning we left Newcastle Airport, but before we even left by this people asleep and they sleep the whole time and they wake up. - Yeah. - Right, then we go on the overnight flight and I can't sleep at all. - Yeah. - So if you're one of those people that is sleeping on the plane and you can be able to, I don't know what you're taking. - Yeah. - Like, seriously, but I'm off here completely. I just wanted to touch on that because, I can't sleep to save my life, even if it's night time flight. Like, I left at 12 a.m., and I'm probably gonna now sleep. - Hoxy. - I'll be sleeping now. - Yeah, I can sleep right now. I need a coffee personally. - Yeah, I don't know. I just think, like, there's some interesting choices there. Boss talk. - Yeah, but like, oh, bra. - Old Uncle Cody Walker, he made Moses look silly. - Yeah. - He made him look silly in that rabbit's, he was game. - Yeah. - Anyways, we'll see how they go, but I'm not expecting anything. - But I don't know. I just don't mean, never talking about it a lot, it's like, New South Wales is always just knee-jerk reactions. It's like, oh, that's not working, Ben, we'll take that out. - They're always just like, they're like, the classy up, like, I'm gonna pick all these and then Queensland are just like. - Well, they pick on form. You said, I was pick on form, but they don't pick on connection. When's that pick on connection? Like, you've got Tadesco, Cleary, Moses, they're all big name pies, but it's also how the fans have faith in the coach. Like, bro, Laurie makes a decision and everyone happens to him. Whether it's right or wrong. He's Billy, picked Boss talk and his team, everyone would be like, yeah, yeah. I think I can kind of see that. But, like, do you reckon this day and age, the game has changed so much. So the cut, some of the coaches bought on up to three. - And that's the problem. - Like, you've got Billy Slater. You've got Fos, that's just coming for me. And they go well. - Yeah. - Benji, like, obviously the twogs were going good at the start, but you know what I mean? It's that different style of footy that Laurie daily, that goes completely different back then. - Way different. And way different to any coach last as well. - Yeah, that's right. - Yeah, so. - And he doesn't bring Blake Braley on when Ray Schrobson's out there and see on this guitar. - Since we're talking about coaches, and interesting decisions. I want to talk about Australia, versus Egypt. - And the world got-- - Did you see that? - I didn't watch it, but-- - 'Cause. - I watched the game for-- - Penalty shootout. We get to all penalty shootout. And so, like, there's five penalties each before it, but comes up in death, right? - Yeah. - You know how that works? - Yeah. - Yeah. - We only had four people that took shot shots because two of them missed. - Yeah. - Out of those four people, we chose two defenders. So you're telling me out of 11 people in the team. - In a stream, we'll come up. - 11 people that are on the field, you think out of your top four shooters, you chose two defenders. Like, and they both missed. And it was just wild. So bro-- - We only needed one more, right? - Like, our very first person who shot in the penalty shootout, and I love him, Harry Sierra, Defender, steps up, and just squires it over the bar. Like-- - Yeah, I don't know what goes to your side. - I'm like, and they took off the goalie that has made so many saves all World Cup and has been dominating. - Well, they just put another goalie. - And they put another goalie. - That's right, or-- - Right, imagine. - Imagine-- - That'd be heartbreaking. - So they took off Pat Beach for Matt Ryan. - Yeah. - Right? - Matt Ryan, just sit on the sideline, and then literally a minute to go, you come on so that you can do the penalty shootout. - Hasn't played a minute. - No. - Not warmed up. - Or World Cup. Hasn't played a minute. - But it gets better. It gets better, right? - It gets better. - So Matt Ryan-- - It's an invest. - It's a bit older, right? So Matt Ryan was the bloke that they put in, as it'd say, like, you're gonna be this penalty shootout, king. So you think it, he must be real deadly at penalties, his bloke, if they're gonna bring him on. 2022, when we were qualifying against Peru, we went into a penalty shootout. Different coach, but still, we took Matt Ryan off, and to put someone else in just for penalties, and that someone else was that wiggle guy that did like the weird thing before it, and got us to qualify. - Yeah, right. - So if we don't think he's the man for the job in 2022, why do we all of a sudden want to put him on, but when we literally could've used that last sub to take it off and put a striker on, that can actually keep penalties. - I just think it's a massive good, for someone to be sitting on the sideline, like imagine that, and then you just chucked in a penalty, like that is wild. - Right, it was embarrassing. - I don't care who you are. - You could be bloody. - We, so, you know who most salaries? - Yeah. - Yeah, so he's walking up to take his penalty, and Matt Ryan meets him at the penalty spot, and he's just talking smack-to-ing, bro. - Yeah. - It's like, just getting in his head, which I'd probably do the same thing when I was a keeper. - You definitely pushed. - How is the ball that's on most salar to stand there, go to take his penalty, Matt Ryan's on his goal line, and do you know what a Panic are is? - No. - So, basically you run up, and you pretend you're gonna kick it, and then you just chip it straight, and you go straight down the middle, but it's a little chip. He does that to him. - I thought he just gave him a beautiful, - Yeah, that's it. - That's it, but he just, put him on the beat. It was so funny. I'll find it for you too. - That's boss. - Yeah, heart breaking for the Yolzies are I can, I thought it was gonna be like, "We have an underdog story, I didn't actually wonder." - He's playing it. - See, Katnie? How far are they out? - 15? - No. - Some of these ships greatest of the players. - Yes, yes, yes. - Moose to get them. - Moose to get them. - Go hold on this one. - Mike, you look silly, I. - Yeah. - It's embarrassing, Matt Ron, if you're at the list. - Nah, but honestly, there's some tactics that are just, and then the other guy that missed bra, like 18-year-old defender, like why would you even do that, Katnie? - I'm saying that, yeah. - So, you just wouldn't even do that. - Yeah, I thought it was gonna be a bit of an underdog story for the Yolzies, but. - 11 metres. - 11. - Yeah, I thought it was further back. - I would be able to smoke them in there. - Yeah, we should go down the park. - No, I can't get so good both of them. - I don't want them. - But what else is, what's your, obviously, that night? - Yeah, that's pretty much it, bro. Just, night up, pretty much. - I'm gonna watch Jackass tonight. - Oh yeah. - Yeah. - We're at, white to green hills, taking in there. - Is that a new one out? - Yeah, there's like a last Jackass. - Do you be watching Toy Story? - I would, I wanna, right, that's memories there. - We've got only one other day, and she's like, "Oh yeah, I bought you something tonight, "shopping." I was like, "Mad." - Yeah, I'm really excited. It's like, "What is it?" And she's like, "Well, I notice how you don't wear pajamas, "like I don't wear pajamas." - She bought you matching pajamas, Toy Story once, and Pizzaxe in her. - I got Buzz Lighty, she got Jesse. I was like, "Brah, I'm not wearing them. "I'm gonna add them a weekend." - Yeah, I'm gonna say, you've got photos in them, she's probably still really on the weekend, eh? Nah, they hate comfy butt, fuck, I've never really had a matching. - I've never really, I've never had pajamas, bro. - Either, I just wear like, one of me I'll touch singlets and, - Yeah. - Like some 40 shorts or something. - But I swear to me, I'm DJ, I'll just pump random, I'll just take them off, even if we know. - Yeah, say it, man. - Nah, we'll never had. - Nothing better than that and a blinking on the lens. - Hey, get me on the lens, yeah, I could actually go on it. - But, that's baby busy, but you know what, we don't stop. We don't stop, you just keep moving on. forward. Yeah. Um, you can get anything out of this podcast. It is be yourself. That's him. We might finish on that. Everyone have a good day. Have a good week. Like we said, if you're out there, get around your nail knock events, show some love each other and rip in the label.