30 Years of Marriage: 3 Things About Relationships I Wish Someone Told Me Sooner

Hey, it's your friend Mel, and welcome to the Mel Robbins Podcast. I am so excited to talk to you today because today we're doing something super cool. My husband, Christopher Robbins, is here. Hi, Chris. In the house. In the house. And we are reflecting on 30 years of marriage. I can't believe we've been together for over 30 years. And it feels like this giant whoosh of growing up, getting jobs, getting fired from jobs, raising kids, paying bills, getting into debt, getting out of debt, moving, fighting, struggling, making up, fighting with each other, growing apart, finding our way back to each other, trying to figure out how to love ourselves. Well, we're going to unpack this because through all the resentment, the struggles, the ups, the downs, you and I, over the course of 30 years, oh, here we go, we're already crying. That's a first, that you're crying before me. We've always found our way back to each other. And so today, oh God, he's crying too. Okay, I guess we're going to have to go to commercials quickly. Today, you and I are going to talk about the three lessons that we've learned the hard way. Lessons we wish somebody would have taught us decades ago. That truly make your relationship meaningful and lasting. And so since I'm starting to cry, I think we better take a beat and then we'll start the episode. How do you feel? Feeling great. Thanks for having me on. Oh, I can't imagine who else I'd do my 30th wedding anniversary episode with. I guess our couples therapist. Thank God for him. Hey, it's your friend Mel and my husband, Christopher Robbins. Welcome to the Mel Robbins podcast. I am absolutely thrilled that you're here for a once in a lifetime conversation, because today my husband and I are talking and reflecting on our 30th wedding anniversary. And this is only going to happen once, not because we're breaking up, but because, like you only have your 30th wedding anniversary once. And it's such an honor to be together with you to spend this time with you. If you're new here, or if maybe somebody you're in a relationship with sent you this episode, or they've trapped you in a car with them right now, and you're listening, and this is their form of therapy or a date. Welcome. I've done that to my husband too. Welcome to the Mel Robbins podcast family. You are going to love this conversation because today, my husband, Chris, and I are celebrating our 30th. wedding anniversary with you. And we're going to share three lessons that we have learned over the last three decades. These are lessons that I wish somebody had just, boom, summed up for us when we got married 30 years ago. We learned this stuff the hard way. It explains so much about the years of our life, Chris, where we were really struggling. It also explains the roadmap for how you find your way back to the person that you fell in love with. And so, I'm super excited about this. Welcome to the podcast, Chris. Thanks. Thanks for having me. I'm happy to be here. And I'm looking forward to these little lessons because they do help crystallize all that we did go through. Yeah. Yeah. Boy, we went through a lot. Yes, we have. It's impossible to be in a long-term relationship and not experience so many ups and downs. And what does 30 years feel like for you? Like, when you really think about 30 years going by, and if you're brand new to the show, you know, I should just say that we also have three kids. They're 27, 26, and 21 years old. And we have been through so many ups and downs and been in and out of financial crisis. And we've both been fired from jobs and struggled and had moments where we feel lost. We've had kids that have struggled. We've navigated your father, dying. Like, just 30 years of your life, you navigate a lot. When you think about the fact that we've been married for 30 years, what comes to mind for you, Chris? Honestly, the visual of like a flip book where you flip it through and it's like, and all of those scenes that in the moment feel so acute, so profound, either whether you're elated or we're. Feeling on top or feeling at the bottom, they all are meaningful. And the speed at which they have passed is quite remarkable, honestly. To think that it's been 30 years is a bit jaw-dropping. You know, when you first fall in love, you have this assumption because of all the fabulous love chemicals, that's a technical term I just made up, that are flooding through your body and the attraction that you kind of gaslight yourself into thinking, oh, it's always going to be like this. And if there's one thing that we've learned the hard way and everybody learns in life is that things are always changing and that the true test of your relationship is not how you are together when things are good. I mean, you could be with a not great person in a not great relationship, but if things are going really well, you don't really have to lean on the relationship. The true test is what happens when things fall apart. When you lose the job, when a parent dies, when a child is sick, when the pressure hits, when the bank account is bouncing, when life makes you hard. And life does that. I'm already crying, I don't know, because I'm just thinking about how many freaking hard periods of our life we've had. And one of the things that I really struggled with in our relationship is how life hardened me. I brought that edge into our relationship. And if you're going to go the distance with somebody, it's really because you have picked somebody that you can do the difficult things with, that you can struggle with, that you can lean on. And when I look back, one of the biggest lessons that I've learned, and I'm going to explain it first in my words, and then I'm going to explain it in my words, and then I'm going to explain it in my words, is that when life got hard, I became very hard on you. When life really started to beat me up, I started to take it out on you. And I think that's an extremely common mistake that people make. And if you stop and reflect and think about your own relationship, how often you've blamed stress of the day. In fact, I just did this last night. On how emotional or how volatile or how just mean you might be to the person that you love. And the first lesson that I really learned that is both the reason why relationships end, and it's also the simple lesson that brings you back to the person you fell in love with. You're my favorite person. That is the best relationship advice I have ever heard. Four words. And so the first takeaway for me is, if you're in a relationship, can you say that about the person that you're with? Because if you fundamentally have never felt like this is your favorite person, then you're in the wrong relationship. And if you're going through a very rough time, what I love about these four words, you're my favorite person, is this is the lifeline. It's like a tow rope that you can grab onto to pull you back to what is still true. Because even when life is hard, that person that you fell in love with is still in there. And I also love this question because you not only ask yourself, you're my favorite person. Is Chris my favorite person? Of course. I just hate my life right now. But he's still my favorite person. And then you ask yourself the second layer, which is, am I treating him like my favorite person? No. That's kind of where the rubber meets the road, I think, for me. Because when I think about when we first met, absolutely, you were my favorite. All the way up until, in fact, after we got married, which was a couple years later. But in that time frame, you were my favorite every moment of every day because, and to say the least, because you were my favorite. And to say the least, because you were my favorite. We really hadn't hit anything hard. We had no concept of how we might harden or how we might behave in those tough times, which I think is what makes relationships challenging. Because in the early days, it is a honeymoon period, as they call it. And everybody's everybody's favorite until it hits the fan. I know the moment that the you-know-what-hitted fan. And you started going from my favorite person to you know not my favorite person, to somebody that I was mad at. And it was when we were in our 20s and we had met in New York City and we were early in our careers and you decided to make a career change. And then you didn't like that. And then you decided to launch a business and it didn't do well. And then you decided to scramble and get a job. And there was a point where we were so struggling with paying our bills. I was a public defender working for legal aid. You had not had a job for a while. Do you remember this? We were talking about moving in with your parents as a new married couple. And we were going to have to move into like the basement walkout part of their like retirement house. I don't actually remember that. But it's funny that you bring this up because when you asked me to think about a moment in time, I was like, I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't that's about the same time frame that i thought about myself both in the context of me also beginning to hate on myself but also recognizing that that's when i stopped listening to you because because no no no it had nothing to do with you i was so focused on me and what i thought i should be achieving or producing that you barely even existed and so i really wasn't listening to you or your needs or your interests and so anyway when i was thinking about that incident that was really where things started to unwind a little bit when i said hey you know what i want to go get my mba and i want to do it in boston and i want to move out of new york city and you said are you kidding me like i love my job this is great why are we leaving and you were miserable when we moved up there and honestly in the moment i was so blind to what i thought i should have been doing for you that i was oblivious to the fact that you were even unhappy with the idea wow you've never even brought this up in therapy before no but you prompted me to think about this and you know what's crazy about this chris is that i always called you stoic i called you a thinker i called you uh a slow processor when i was really annoyed with you i just sort of put your sequestering into a box that was about you and i had no idea that you tuned me out and what happens when that starts to happen is for somebody like me i just get louder because then i feel alone and unsafe and for somebody like you you just sequester more into your head like i think that there was like what a full decade where we were like this yeah anyway it was longer no that sounds about right anyway 10 years but that's enough to cause enough damage i mean and it did and you know the thing that's important about this is this is i think a period of our marriage that you would describe as we were just roommates we would say that we do logistics really well so we can get the kids where they need to go we can get the dogs fed we can get the groceries on the table we can get we can show up at the holiday celebration we can check the boxes we don't think the roommate phase set in that early because we were beginning to have kids and so we were learning a new challenge of being parents to newborns and so the roommate thing didn't quite settle in until i think once all three or at least two had arrived and then it was and then the sequestering began for sure well i think we're i i'm kind of using a word maybe that doesn't resonate it felt like logistics and life took over and our connection this these four words you're my favorite person stopped being the central organizing principle of our marriage and i truly believe that these four words as a lesson and a philosophy that you can anchor yourself to immediately reveals whether or not the connection is frayed because if you don't feel that way about your partner and you once did that's a sign that life has hardened you and you're in this phase where you've pulled apart and being able to then go how do i start treating this person like my favorite person again even if things have gone down even if there are still a lot of struggles even if we are fighting about money which we did for decades absolute decades but i want to play this moment from the mel robbins podcast when a world-renowned divorce attorney james sexton said those four words on the show like at its core marriage should boil down to four words that i think i think are potentially the most beautiful words you could say to someone and mean or have someone say to you and know they're true and that is you're my favorite person like what could be more beautiful than being told and knowing like that when this person says it they mean it you're my favorite person and to say to someone back yeah you're my favorite person like what would be better in the world than having that you know and and so i like to think about kind of the end of things and then reverse engineer and to me like at the end of your life if you could look at another person and say you helped me become the most authentic version of myself and you're still my favorite person that's the greatest wedding toast you could ever have like that's the greatest blessing you could have in your life and i think it'd be the greatest asset you could have in your life do you want to react to that i think he just said that's the greatest wedding toast you could have and that's my point is that when i boil down what has you be my favorite person it was and it does make me cry because i can say that in those first few days when we met you brought out the authenticity in me i felt almost like somebody had unlocked the real me and that like the fake me was had gone away and that freedom i felt was definitely one of those things that made me feel like you were my favorite what's interesting about that though is your point about hardening and then you get into let's now call it 30 years where we're going through the ups and the downs and the twists and the turns and that's where the hard work is i think is being able to wake up and say i'm not saying this is originally why this person was my favorite and trying to presence that in the face of the tough stuff that's going on well i think that's why the tough periods are so painful because when you fall in love and you fall in love with somebody who is truly your favorite person they are your favorite person because of how being with them makes you feel about you and that's why it's so painful when your favorite person turns on you and you start to feel as if either they are no longer your favorite person because of things they've done or because the world is just pressure testing you and you're now bringing it to the relationship and taking it out on them or something has happened with you and you're no longer treating this person that you once treated as your favorite person you don't treat them that way anymore and one of the reasons why i was so struck by this advice that james sexton shared on the mel robbins podcast because it kind of strikes you as odd why on earth would you get relationship advice from a world-renowned divorce attorney and he basically said because who do you take a car to to fix it a mechanic because a mechanic has seen everything break in a car so a mechanic can spot the signs that things are headed towards a serious thing they can head this can be fixed this can't be fixed this is a total wreckage and one of the things that james also shared that i would love to share with you is the surest indicator of a divorce because it does tie to this first lesson you're my favorite person so let's hear james sexton reflecting on that like i often tell people to me the surest indicator of a divorce is not anything any says it's a sound and it's this sound it's just that like like when the other person's talking and there's just this like like what yeah what yeah okay like why are you bothering me with what you're saying or that like kind of eye rolling like it's just those subtle discourtesies and disrespects it's the tone it's the body language like that's a huge piece is so i would when you're looking at signs look at how you physically relate to each other i mean you've seen couples i'm sure oh where it's like why are they even when they touch each other it's like you know when you're first together like you touch your skin and it's like an electric bolt through you of like oh my god this person touched me it's like oh my god our legs touched like it's just that i mean and thank god that passes or we just never get over it get anything done you know but it's supposed to sort of pass and become like still something comfortable and connected because all that person maybe you don't like holding hands that's okay but maybe they're trying to connect with you yeah so do you want to connect with them like and if it's that i don't like sweaty hands okay so put your arm around me like you know lean in and do something like like meet each other halfway there's a lot of these little tiny physical and verbal disconnections i can immediately think of something like i don't know what to do i don't know what to do i think of like five couples right now can't you chris like the eye roll the you're bothering me and i was that way with you for probably a decade not all the time but i threw that at you that discourtesy that kind of i'm sorry thanks for saying that i felt it oh i mean i think i could say the same that i had those things certainly on you as well but i think the difference between us is that i internalize things way more than you ever did like you would lash out you your your reaction to these things would be external whereas my reaction would be quite internal that's not to say that i wasn't or you know or whatever those noises are but i think the difference between us is that i internalize things way more than you ever did those noises were that were going on under my breath but half the time they were aimed at myself more than they were at you which i think is the thing that compounded your either anger distrust or whatever it was towards me yeah because when you went silent and i'm lashing out because i'm like sad or upset or scared or whatever and anger is the fastest like valve and then you go quiet i feel even more disconnected correct really what you needed was a hug and i'm running in the opposite direction which i don't blame you for yeah but still you know when you talk about meeting people where they are that wasn't always going down i want to give you as you're listening or watching a very real application of how you start to apply this first lesson you're my favorite person this is both a test of are you with the right person because if you've never felt that way about the person you're not with the right person it's also a way for you to just take the temperature of your relationship what it was what's carry on i'm just oh i thought you're about to cry i was about to but that's because i'm thinking about all the moments in our life they're they're racing by in my head right now there were a lot of them and there were so many like even during the crappy decade like there were a lot of them and there were a lot of them and there were a lot of them so many incredible joyful like it's like violent ups and downs that we experienced and the thing that that you can do to start to apply this and we are going to get into the deeper issues what if the person has done something and you're you resent them for it what if somebody really hurt you and you can't let go of the grudge we're going to talk about that in a minute but i want to give you something that chris does that i want you to steal it is free and i will tell you right now that you can use a post-it note to make your relationship better starting today because writing notes and hiding notes to the person you're in a relationship with is the single coolest and fastest way to start to recreate a connection and chris i swear to god it is free and i will tell you right now that you can use a post-it note to make your relationship better starting today because writing notes in my wallet look at how old this one is it says me again just thinking about how much i love you look how old this thing is and he doesn't tell me he just pops it in something you have hidden this one he hid this post-it note mel i love you thank you for loving me he hid that post-it note in my freaking pill case i was on a trip and i opened this sucker that all the experts tell us we need to take in order to live to be 100 and like be energized and healthy and all that stuff and there it is and when you see a note like that oh my gosh here's another one did i mention how much i love you look at how old these things are here's another one hi there look it's my bursting heart oh my god you're kind of or here's another one like they're literally all over the place he's been doing this for years i'll pop open my heart and i'll be like oh my god i love you i love you i love you i love you did you know how much i love you when i get one of these notes i feel like your favorite person and you immediately become mine and it reminds me of our connection does it solve the massive problems that we may be facing no does it remove the financial debt that is crushing us no does it erase the issues that we may be facing no does it erase the issues that we may be facing no does it erase the issues that our kids may be struggling with that are causing us to argue over what to do about no but in that moment that singular note is your way to use you're my favorite person in a busy life and it's free you could leave it like i leave it on your desk when you go and lead your soul degree retreats like that's how you have infiltrated and created a connection with me that no matter where i am when i find one of these things i'm like oh my god he's he thought about me he loves me he stuck that in there knowing i would find oh my god he's my favorite person i didn't realize that the notes you sometimes leave on my own desk were inspired by my notes that's cool of course those feel so good when i come back you just tucked one in to the credit card thing that i don't think i've ever found holy cow i wonder how long this has been in here this is from an omni hotel and resort somewhere that you were i guess i don't know i love you that was right in the little credit card slot i've never even seen that one that's an old one i can't remember the last time we were at an omni so yeah it is an old one wow you do that with flowers what do you mean for me do you even like flowers well i do explain what i do so i know i do like flowers but i mostly love them because i get to live vicariously through the love you have for flowers and it's a little so explain what i do so that everybody can steal this well you just have such a love of flowers and you come into my office when i'm not there and you put one little flower whichever your favorite of the day is and slide it into a tiny little vase or however you like to present it and you leave it right on my desk and then i come back and there's you it's not even the flower i just see you and it's funny because that's another thing that makes you my favorite person not just the flower but when we first met also makes me cry first date walking down the sidewalk new york city we're in mid-conversation after dinner can't remember what we were talking about and you took off running and i thought what the hell is this woman doing when i caught up to you you've got a leaf in the palm of your hand shaped like a heart it was a yucca tree i think ginkgo tree oh ginkgo tree see i don't even know what's happening and you were jumping for joy as if the good humor truck just showed up like you were so excited about this heart-shaped leaf and this tree and how was your favorite i mean talk about authenticity and sort of that joie de vivre that i felt from you so when you put a little tiny flower on my desk that brings me right back to your own love affair with flowers but makes me feel like i'm your favorite amazing aren't we supposed to take a break or something uh actually yes i was just so kind of in the moment with you that i forgot about that part thank you all right don't go anywhere When we come back, we're going to share more of these lessons from 30 years of marriage. You're not going to want to miss the next one. And I'm sure there's somebody that you're thinking about. This conversation is an extraordinary gift that I hope you will share with the people in your life that you love. And don't go anywhere because you're going to love what we will be digging into next. Stay with us. Welcome back. It's your friend, Mel. And Chris. Chris. I'm so thrilled you said yes. We are unpacking three lessons from our 30-year marriage. We're celebrating 30 years this year. And these are three lessons we wish somebody would have shared with us when we first met. Would have made a difference. Well, let's just jump right back in. So that's the first lesson. And those are two simple ways. That you can start to apply it. And that brings me to the second lesson. And the second lesson is really relevant because a lot of what we've learned over the years, or I should just say I've learned over the years, is how important softening is. So you hear the relationship experts that are world-renowned talk about kindness and curiosity and having an open heart. And oftentimes when you're in the thick of life, it's like, well, how the hell do you do that when this person's freaking pissing? And for me, one of the reasons why I think our marriage is stronger than ever, I love you more deeply than ever, is that I have learned the importance of softening and remembering the person I married. And this comes to the second lesson. If you want your relationship to go the distance and be meaningful and deeply connected, always remember you did not marry the adult who is standing in front of you. You married the eight-year-old version of that person. And there are pieces of you as a little kid that never got the real, I don't even know what the technical term is, that there are parts of you, like the reason you run into the corner is because that's what you did as a kid. The reason why you go into your head is because that's what you did as a kid. The reason why you don't ask for what you need, Chris, is because you don't know what you need. You grew up, like a lot of people did, in a family as the youngest with a lot going on, where it didn't matter what your needs were because people didn't care. Or they cared, but they didn't listen. And so you just stopped talking. And it's easy for me to get mad at you when I look at the 57-year-old version of you and be like, the man's a grown-ass adult. Why is he acting like this? Why doesn't he just tell me what he needs? Why is he. And not stop and go, okay, hold on. This is my favorite person. And I'm not dealing with a 57. I'm dealing with the part of him that's eight. Just like you're dealing with the part of me that is a little girl. And this is really important because one of the things that I've learned from the experts and what I've learned from our own therapy, you and I have been working with a therapist for five years, that what's very important about this is it softens you. Because I think it's easy to be like, that person is awful. And you start to get super judgy. And because the world can make you hard, you don't want the way the world hardens you to be the part of you that you bring into the relationships. And I find that the moment that I think about the fact that I know who you are at your core. If you've been with somebody for a year, you knew who they are at their core. And when you can remember that most people aren't intentionally trying to hurt you or intentionally, trying to make you resent them or intentionally trying to piss you off, they're just doing the best that they can in a very difficult world that we live in. And I've really been able to soften by thinking about the fact that there are times that you get scared. There are times that you're overwhelmed. There are times that you don't know what to ask for. And it's helped me really stop being so freaking judgmental and so judgy and angry and resentful when you're not doing exactly what I want you to do or behaving how I want you to behave and just slow the roll a little bit. Because you and I have struggled with something that the world-renowned couples therapist Terry Real talks about. He came on the Mel Robbins podcast. I know you know Terry very well. And he talked about something that was like, whoa. He has this term. Let's see. Let's see if this rings a bell, Chris. Normal marital hatred. Let's hear Terry Real on the Mel Robbins podcast talking about normal marital hatred. Fight. God. I got to tell you, I've been around the world talking about normal marital hatred for 40, not once has anyone come backstage and said, what do you mean by that? I'd like to say we all marry our unfinished business. Whoa, hold on. We all marry our unfinished business? You got it. You know what? Young Mel could have had a guy that would have done everything she wanted him to do. I guarantee you there are guys you dated who you would not have gone through this crisis with. They did not blip on your screen. I call this the mysticism of marriage. The mysticism of marriage? Yes. We have the opportunity to heal our deepest wounds. Not falling in love means, oh yeah, this person's going to give it to me. I'm going to be healed. They're going to give me everything I didn't get. Good luck. A real relationship. A real relationship comes, I like to say, when you realize your partner is, here's my quote, exquisitely designed to stick the burning spear right into your eyeball. That's the crisis. That's not a bad relationship. That's a real relationship. The question is, now what? Are you just going to repeat the same old, same old? That's hell. Or are you going to wake up and do something different? The crisis can wake you up. If you allow it. But you have to do it. And so, there's a lot that goes into why we don't wake up, how to wake up. And if we do stay awake, what the hell do we do then? What does unfinished business mean? Because it's true. The person that you're in a relationship with has an uncanny way to get under your skin, piss you off, frustrate the hell out of you. You love them, but you want to kill them at times, right? Yeah. Definitely want to change them. Yeah. But what does unfinished business mean exactly for us? It means that you are now exactly in the childhood wound that that son of a gun that you picked was supposed to never put you in. You have been fundamentally betrayed. You are back. You're four. You're with your crazy family. And your partner is just as chaotic, it turns out, as your dad was. Your partner is just as betraying as your mom was. Whatever the wound is, all of a sudden, it's in your face. And that's not what you signed up for. And you hate that son of a gun. When you hear normal marital hatred, what comes to mind, Chris? Driving down the road with you in the passenger seat, head down, doing whatever you're doing, silent, feeling like, or I should say, I'm feeling like you are a million miles away, even though you're two feet from me. And that's so on point, what Terry is saying, because I think they say, you either marry your mother or your father or something to that effect. And a lot of my struggle was the physical and emotional absence of my dad, that really, I think, was at the crux of our hardest times, because we were both running scared, trying to do what we were doing. A million dollars in debt. Like roommates, financial pain, all of these things that had us be in our separate corners, which only exacerbated what I experienced, which was a lot of physical and emotional absence from you. So, yeah, that's the sharp poker in the eye or what have you. That's how it felt. I want to just really unpack this because I think it's a very common thing that people feel. When things get hard, you turn on the person that was your favorite person and you immediately feel that shift in a relationship and you start to feel the distance. And then you both go into your corners and what ends up happening, at least for me, when you stop talking and you're silent and withdrawn, I feel alone. And it really makes me feel unsafe. And then I get mad that you're not just fixing everything. And that's where it goes way deep. And it never occurred to me until you and I started working with a therapist and Terry put those words, normal marital hatred, out there. I'd never heard that before. That I really understood what he was talking about. And I started to realize, wait a minute, when I get scared, it's typically because you're also scared. And my little eight-year-old version gets anxious and angry and feels alone. And yours probably feels the same way. But I start going a million miles an hour and you just get quiet. And that's when you can't. Identify it, not as something somebody's doing intentionally, not as something that somebody's out to get you. This is the compounding effect of all of these smaller moments that creates this massive distance and disconnection. That's where you can go to work. And what's really helped me is basically going, I married the younger version of you. You have unfinished business with yourself. I have unfinished business with myself. And we have an opportunity when we come at it that way to work together to help each other finish that business and be more supportive of one another. What do you want to say? Just feeling a whole lot of gratitude that we've had 30 years together to move through it versus throwing the towel. Chris, this feels like a good place to take a break, not only so that we can give our sponsors a chance to share some words, but I need to go to the bathroom. So, I have so much more I want to talk to you about, and I need to have a bathroom break. And you also need to listen to our amazing sponsors. Do you need a bathroom break? Always. We've got a lot more to share with you. Don't go anywhere. We'll be right back. Hey, welcome back to the Mel Robbins podcast. That's Chris Robbins, my husband. We are celebrating 30 years of marriage, and we have three things that we're sharing with you that we wish we would have known when we met each other. Let's just jump right back into it. Let's do it. If the person listening, let's start with the person listening who is in a relationship with somebody who shuts down like you do. What would your advice be to that person about what you want them to know when a partner is shutting down? Shutting down and not communicating. Because I'm the opposite. I get angry and vent and get flooded, and then I'm a jerk, and then I apologize, and then I get in that cycle, and I then feel more and more alone. And I know that it just shuts you down more. Do you even take a moment to notice how you're feeling? No. No. Well, I didn't back then. If I did, if I had simply, for many years, paused in the driveway and taken a deep breath, and said, okay, remember, Mel, Chris is your favorite person. Life is hard right now, but you two are going to get through this together. And supporting each other right now, and trying to be kind to each other, and caring and considerate and curious of one another is going to make it way more likely that you two can get through this together. Do not let the world and the stress and the overwhelm that is very real overwhelm your marriage and your relationship. And the power of the two of you standing together. So he's your favorite person. Chris is your favorite person. And he's probably just as scared as you are. He's probably just as stressed as you are. Take a deep breath and walk in that door, and you can be tired and still be kind. I mean, that's beautiful and beautifully said and easier said than done for most of us. I said I wish I did it. I didn't say I did it. So I don't really have a succinct answer to it. Well, what do you want somebody to know? Let's say somebody's listening right now, and they've always thought, wow, I'm just married to somebody who doesn't talk. I'm just married to a thinker. I'm just married to somebody who doesn't really talk about how they feel. What I think is very important about what you're talking about is that somebody who's quiet on the surface is still feeling deep, deep, deep emotion. And how do you help your partner? Because I used to say to you, what are you thinking? What's going on up there? What are you thinking about? What's on your mind, Chris? And you would still deflect. Probably because you didn't want me to yell at you if you were about to open up about something. Yeah, but I mean, maybe there was a period there where I didn't want to say anything. But I think it gets back to, yes, there was deep thought in there. And this is not a great answer because it's not easy to do in the moment. But understanding why it is that, let's say, in the instance where I'm being quiet, what is that? What's the origin of that for me? And that's where I think there was a lot of work that I did to recognize what I was missing or what I wanted. And a lot of the time, I think one of my light bulbs was in those years where it was tough running around like chickens. It was rare that we would come together and actually have a powwow. In fact, the only time we did it was when we needed to go over our calendars, which I used to kind of scoff at because I remember watching my parents do that when I was a kid and thinking, that is so stupid. And then here we were on Sunday night trying to do that for ourselves. And as much as I didn't like it, I didn't like it. I didn't like it. I didn't like that that's what was pulling us together. That was a great moment for me because there was an attempt to be close, to be aligned, to be in communication. And I use that as an example because it's one of those things that was like, oh, this is what's missing for me is that connection and not just communication, but even just touch. Like, I didn't grow up with a lot of touch. And so it took me whatever, 30, 40 years to realize just like you reaching out and holding my hand or putting your hand on my shoulder or that that simple act of intimacy was like the greatest thing in the world for me. And it takes a little bit, at least it did for me, to recognize that this is what I need. This is what I want. And some of that may have come in the form of the struggles and the breakdowns and even the breakthroughs and some of the work that we've done together. But again, the reason why it doesn't sound like a great answer is because some of it is time and recognition of being able to stop and slow down a little bit to even recognize the emotion or the feeling, which is why I asked you, do you think that? Because you are a very ready, fire, aim kind of person. And I am definitely more like ready, aim, okay, aim again, then fire. Yes. I think there's a lot that I want to really dig into there because it kind of brings us to the third lesson. You use the word simple intimacy. And one of the things that we have learned the hard way is that when we are in a relationship and we feel supportive of each other and life feels manageable and I feel like you are my favorite person and I'm also treating you that way, there's something that is very obvious and present. And it is simple points of connection throughout a week. And you mentioned the calendar because this is something I never expect you to cry over, but I understand why you did. Because this is something I never expect you to cry over, but I understand why you did. And so I think it's important to think about why you fall in love with somebody. It's because not only does this person make you feel safe and make you feel like the version of you that you can be yourself. You don't have to compromise your values or who you are. They bring out the best in you. But there's also this incredible thing that in the beginning, you have all these shared goals and dreams. You have a vision. You have a way you think your life is going to turn out. And there's a lot of time spent about what are we going to do? And what are we doing this week? And what are we going to do this weekend? And you see your friends and there's this scaffolding and these points of connection every week in the beginning of a relationship that remind you of why this relationship matters and why two can feel like one when you have these points of connection. And the thing about a calendar, whether you're young parents or you've just moved in together, is that life does trample you with logistics. And it's way worse today with texting, and social, and Slack, and Monday, and work, and email, and cell phones, and all that stuff. The volume of input that can act like a tidal wave to wash you away from your partner is endless. And so a calendar meeting on a Sunday night, not the sexiest thing in the world, brings you together and gets you aligned against a shared vision. That's why that matters. And there are a couple things that are always present, Chris, I notice in the periods of our life where things are really good. And this is not complicated stuff. Number one, we do the calendar meeting because one of my resentful accommodations is feeling like, you know, it's all up to me or, you know, I didn't ask for help or whatever. And that's a moment where you can start to ask, is there something that you need for support? Is there something you need this week? You know, you had a huge week last week, and I remember saying, let me take all the dinners. Let me support you that way. Now, you would never have come up to me and said, hey, I have a big week. Could you do dinners? But that calendar meeting allowed us to remind ourselves we're in this together. And what help do you need? And you always ask me, what can I do to help you this week? What do you need? The second thing that I notice is present is we take a walk a couple mornings, not seven days a week, but we might walk up the back loop up the mountain we live on. We might go walk down the driveway with the dogs, but we actually, two or three times a week, we just get a short walk in. Another thing that I notice is we have a couple meals together. And if we're lucky, we cook together. And we have this ritual where we ask the high, the low of the day. Lots of people have a version of this, whether it's rose, thorn, bud, or whatever. It just kind of prompts you to share more about what you're looking forward to. And then the final thing, I think this is really important because we neglected this for a while. And I think this is really important because we neglected this for a while. And if you isolate your relationship from the structures that reinforce the power of being in a committed and loving and supportive relationship, that isolation starts to tear away at your connection because you start to feel like it's me against you. It's us against the world. All I do is work and then come home. And that's my existence. And I think that's a really important thing. And one thing we have done that I noticed at remarkable distances for our 30th wedding anniversary, instead of having a party, we said, you know what we're going to do? We're going to prioritize seeing friends. And we're going to prioritize seeing people that, God, were in our wedding 30 years ago. We're going to prioritize seeing other couples or other families or other friends that have been there. Because making time, whether it's with family or or old friends, or new friends, making time for that reinforces the memories. It reinforces the network that you've created together. Fun and connection is such a huge part of it. And when I look back at the times when we were really at each other's throats, we were not doing that. We were isolated. We were barricaded with our problems. We were at each other. We were locked away in your head, my anger. And there's something about getting out of your rhythm and into an intentional cycle of having plans to look ahead to. And it could just be making dinner with friends this weekend. It might be going to a live concert like we did with one of our friends that we hadn't seen these friends for two years. We're like, why don't we go for a concert with them? That's part of it. And it's like, why don't we go for a concert with them? It's part of our 30th wedding anniversary. And to me, it's made a huge difference. And it does something that really, again, takes me back to the beginning of when we met. And when the whole future was just wide open. And you feel when you're with your person, like we have a shared vision, and we're going to do this together. And you can find your way back to it with these three things we're talking about. That four words, you're my favorite person. This lesson around softening and remembering you are in a relationship with your partner's unfinished business. Just think about them as little eight-year-old and you probably won't scream at them. And there's an opportunity to grow together instead of to hold grudges and to lean into each other. That's the opportunity. And then the final thing is just like really thinking about the fact that your relationship is a third person in the relationship. Like it's you and you're responsible for certain things for yourself and me. And I'm responsible for certain things for myself. And you're responsible for supporting me. And I'm responsible for supporting you in ways. But there is this relationship that needs our attention. Otherwise, it's going to die. And so those things that reinforce alignment, things to look forward to, planning the calendar every week, checking in, how can I help you this week? What do you need? Prioritizing seeing friends and family that reinforce the good years and the memories and what you've all been through. Because there's so much value in being reminded that, yeah, you've been through things and you can come out the other side. Yeah. The only thing I would add to that is just the constant recognition of the changes that are occurring because in the honeymoon phase, you don't want anything to change and you don't imagine anything changing. And the reality is that change will occur. And coincidentally, many of us are seeking change over time, but we certainly can't anticipate all of the ambiguities that are going to pop up when these changes are occurring, whether we are forcing the change or they are being forced upon us. And so I think it's important to think about that. And I think it's important to think about that. And I think stopping and acknowledging those along the way as being sources sometimes of things like grudges and what have you can be helpful. You know, I'm thinking about the fact that our daughters will often say to me, I really like, really want to find someone like dad. I really hope I have a marriage that's like your guys. Oh my gosh. And you know what I say to them? I say, first of all, the man you see at 57 is not, the man I met at 26. So there've been a lot of skill building. There's been a lot of water under the bridge. There's been a lot of growth. Our marriage when we started did not look like it looks today. And so if you're in that spot where you're like, is this my person? Is it not my person? Will I ever have them? Do you think that you could spend 30 years with the person that you're in a relationship with? And over the course of 30 years, is this person the kind of person that's willing to lean in and work on it? I think it's important to think about that. That was clear from day one was our mutual interest in growth and learning and understanding first and foremost of ourselves, about ourselves. But the fact that we wanted to jump into that pool together was very, very attractive. I think that's how you know you're with the right person. You feel like yourself. You see a shared vision of growing old together. You share values and have some overlapping goals and dreams about the way you think about your life and the things you want out of your life. And you're both willing to lean in and grow together. You have that. You have one of the single greatest gifts that you will ever experience in life. Chris, is there anything else you wanted to say? No. I mean, it sounds trite, but I just love the fact that we've had 30 years, even though lots of them were tough. I love that we're still in it together. I love that we took the time to learn some of these things, to give each other the space to learn these things, which I know at times didn't come easy, but I am feeling lots of gratitude for our 30 years. Well, we definitely grew together. Majorly. And I do remember times where I'm like, this is just a moment. This is not the whole marriage. This is just a moment. We will get through this. Things will be better again. And I really do wish, though, that the three things that we shared today, you and I had had going into this marriage. And I'm grateful that we have these tools as we continue forward in it, because I know we're celebrating 30 years, but I was thinking about it today. I can't do math very well. I'm trying to think of the math here, guys. If I live to be 100 years, what would 75 be? So 75 would be 45 more years. Oh, God, that's 102? No, it'd be another 20. What? No, we've been married 30. Oh, in our marriage. Yeah. Wouldn't it be cool to celebrate our 75th wedding anniversary? Is it even possible to live that long? How old is that? I'm 57. We'd need another 45 years. Wow. 45 years I could spend with you? As long as I'm not married. As long as I'm not drooling on myself. Yeah, that'd be awesome. You'd still be my favorite person. I wonder about that. Oh, God. I would love to reach our 75th wedding anniversary. That would put us at 102. Do you think we can make it? I think we're doing all the right things to try to get there, for sure. All right. Well, let's put it in the calendar. Well, I just want to remind you that on our second date, when we declared we were going to marry each other, I hesitated to say that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you. I really thought about it in the moment. Like, should I tell her that? Because I'm feeling that. And the reason why I did feel that and I said something on our second date was because in that moment, I had a visual of you and I, very old, in two rocking chairs on the front porch of an old house. And that vision popped up in my head and I thought, I really want to marry you. I really do want to be in those rocking chairs together. And that's what compelled me to even say, I want that. So, yeah. Amen to 102. Hope we're there. Let's create it, Chris Robbins. Let's create it. I am so happy that you were here with me and Chris. Thank you for taking the time to listen to this. Thank you for watching it. Like, you cannot listen to or watch this. You cannot listen to this conversation with the person you're in a relationship with and not feel compelled to have a deeper conversation. There's just no way. Based on what Chris shared, based on what I shared, based on these lessons, based on the topics that we covered, that I'm sure I could almost feel you nodding along like, that's me, that's my partner. And if there's one thing that we kept coming back to over and over, that we've come back to, is that you can't solve problems you're not willing to talk about. And you'll never process feelings that you keep burying. And hardening isn't going to improve your relationship. So if you really do want to go the distance with one another, and of course you do, that's why you're listening, why not soften? Why not find your way back to this person that you fell in love with? And we are here to tell you, because we've been through hell and back, it is absolutely possible. And these simple lessons that we shared and some of the simple tools that we've used have helped us do that. And in case no one else tells you, I wanted to be sure to tell you as your friend that I love you and I'm sure Chris loves you too. And we believe in your ability to create a better life. And part of what makes for a much better life is more fulfilling relationships. And I know that what we shared with you, will give you the tools to create them. All right, I'll see you in the very next episode. I'm going to welcome you in the moment you hit play. Well, the one thing that I will share with you is this moment is possibly. What you've been waiting for all your life. Well, once again, nobody did my hair and makeup, so. I did my own. I'm. I could do yours. I could give you some power. I could give you some powder. Normally, I'm the one that's impatient. I'm ready, man. I have been prepped. Put your mic up to your mouth. All right, let's go back to the thing. That can be a blooper. Oh, and one more thing. And no, this is not a blooper. This is the legal language. 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