Speaker 1hello everyone welcome to the podcast my guest today is adam and he is convinced that he needs to get together and build himself out of a more robust financial future and at the same time he is unmotivated describes himself as stubborn and lazy directionless and oh what a dilemma what a dilemma you know without further ado does this look like you and if it doesn't is there someone experiencing going through a rough time like this so welcome to time with adam let's do the work adam what's going on
Speaker 2what's going on adam hello byron hi hi adam what's going on beloved um just trying to um um make it um emotionally really hard yep honey yep
Speaker 1yep you're up against you're you're up against something really powerful but it's not the power the power beyond those emotional hardships have you filled in a judge your neighbor worksheet yes okay so we're we're gonna look at the cause of your suffering you've identified it what did you write for number one i am
Speaker 2frustrated and beside myself uh with myself because not enough is happening financially and i don't seem to have any purpose um or direction in life
Speaker 1so you don't have any purpose is it true and and recalling all of you out there this is inquiry it's not discussion the answer is either yes or no so it's something to ponder you know we're the last place we look and we may not like or understand the answer but we're just looking for what's authentically shows up and maybe it's not the answer we believed it to be for years but you know this is a meditative process and it's not about guessing you don't have a purpose is it true yes and notice in those situations like give me give me a situation where you are depressed you're believing you don't have a purpose you're in that emotional state you describe
Speaker 2yeah i just um i i wake up late i am in bed and there's just nothing um there's nothing pulling me out of bed to go after yeah and i don't have that much money um and i want to keep my house but i don't have anything going so oh yeah so i don't know when that's going to happen or if that's going to happen okay so that's a good question i don't know if that's going to happen or if that's going to happen okay so that's a good question i don't know when that's going to happen or if that's going to happen okay so that's a good question i don't know when that's going to happen or if that's going to happen okay so that's a good question i don't know when that's going to happen okay so that's a good question i don't know when that's going to happen okay so that's a good question i don't know when that's going to happen okay so that's a good question i don't know when that's going to happen okay so that's a good question i don't know when that's going to happen okay so that's a good question i don't know when that's going to happen
Speaker 1okay so that's a good question i don't know when that's going to happen okay so that's the situation okay so that's a good question i don't know when that's going to happen okay so that's a good question i don't know when that's going to happen you're in bed and all that's don't know when that's going to happen you're in bed and all that's don't know when that's going to happen you're in bed and all that's going on you're in bed and all that's going on you're in bed and all that's going on and going on and going on and i experienced terror i experienced terror i experienced terror just just just in that position in that situation to in that position in that situation to
Speaker 2where I need to be because nothing seems to happen.
Speaker 1So you don't have a purpose. Is it true? And the answer is yes or no, Adam. Be in bed, be in that situation, be there now. You don't have a purpose. Is it true? This, you know, this takes meditation to a whole other level. It takes integrity to a whole other level. And I don't expect any of us to understand what that means. Okay, I'll ask it again. And let's just hear that answer. You don't have a purpose as you lay in bed. You don't have a purpose in that situation. Is it true? Is it true? I hear no.
Speaker 3No.
Speaker 1When I just ask it, did you see anything to change your mind? If you didn't, the answer is still no for you.
Speaker 2I mean, originally I thought that for sure it's a yes, but I just feel like purpose is such a broad idea. Maybe my purpose is to be where I am in that state, even though I don't want to be.
Speaker 1Yeah. Very insightful. So you have just responded to the next question. How do you react? What happens when you think the thought in that situation, you're believing the thought, I don't have a purpose. How do you react? What happens? What happens emotionally? What happens? What ego process? What play happens of past, future in your mind's eye? What movie does it promote when you're thinking the thought? I don't have a purpose.
Speaker 2I just feel desperate. I just, I feel so powerless. I feel, I just feel like life's impossible.
Speaker 4Yeah.
Speaker 1Yeah. So just, just continue to be there now. Just as you were. Only notice who are you without the thought. I don't have a purpose. Who would you be in that situation? Be there now in that situation without the thought. I don't have a purpose. I don't have a purpose.
Speaker 2I don't have a purpose. I would just be lying in bed. But there would be a whole torrent of thoughts ready to come right behind that. That just know that there's problems coming because I.
Speaker 1But it can't come behind it without the thought. I don't have a purpose. The ego is I don't have a purpose. And then everything you just described is there to back it up.
Speaker 2There's a lot of evidence. Yeah.
Speaker 1A lot of evidence to back up. I don't have a purpose without, without the thought, no evidence, no need. And with the evidence, it's.
Speaker 2Yeah. And I just feel so irresponsible when I do these worksheets because I. It's not necessarily. It's not necessarily. It's not necessarily getting me to where I need to go to take care of myself.
Speaker 1Well, this work is not going to give you that. Because you think you know where you want to go. And that's not right or wrong. You think you don't have a purpose. You're believing it. I don't have a purpose. I don't have a purpose. Who would you be without the thought? I don't have a purpose. Just be there now. Relax into the given. You know, you can suffer, suffer, suffer, suffer later. But just for a moment, who are you without the thought? I don't have a purpose.
Speaker 2For the moment, it's not a big deal.
Speaker 1Okay. So just give it the moment. Just give it the moment. People as depressed as I imagine you to be could use a little break. Even if it's a nanosecond, it's more than some of us feel like we've had in a long, long time.
Speaker 2Yeah. And sometimes it really works. And sometimes that turns into.
Speaker 1It's not. It's not. This is not. This is not like that. This is. This is not like that. This is not. This is not like that. I don't have a purpose. Turn it around. What is the. opposite of i don't have a purpose i do have a purpose okay so be there now in that situation i do have a purpose okay just describe what is your body doing
Speaker 2when i meditate into that moment yeah i do have a purpose my body's just lying there
Speaker 1resting yeah okay so that's your purpose and there are two ways to do that one is to know your purpose to recognize it how could you recognize it anywhere else if you can't recognize it from where you are with purpose you don't have to like it it's just reality
Speaker 4yeah
Speaker 1i don't have a purpose now what did you do drop your story what are you doing as you lay there i have a purpose what was the next move
Speaker 2just like kind of being lost in thought
Speaker 1that's not body that's mind witness what did the body do the body just relax it's just you relax and then it got up and then it got up eventually yes and then it went up and dropped the eventual it it was at rest who would you be without the thought i don't have a purpose and then turned it around i do have a purpose and that is to lie there yeah and notice are you okay without that ego from hell running your mind yes i'm fine and you're getting up other than what you're thinking and believing were you okay totally fine did you brush your teeth yeah okay there are two ways to do those things one is hell and the other isn't
Speaker 2yeah i just don't know how i can let go of the story because
Speaker 1i'm not asking you to i'm just i'm just saying without what you're thinking and believing i don't have a purpose you're getting you're getting in touch with your purpose it is to lie there in peace it is to get up in peace it is to brush your teeth go to the bathroom brush your teeth get dressed you think that's not a big deal you think that's not a big deal in my world that's a big freaking deal
Speaker 2to be able to do that to just to be able to in peace oh yeah
Speaker 1either way you're taking the trip no gratitude just from bed to the toothbrush in hell yeah i mean isn't it isn't it suppression to keep
Speaker 2putting it off like because i could i could go and eat breakfast and and then the thought without the thought and i can i can continue through my day but i you there's no room for
Speaker 1creativity within a mind like yours it it can't even love what it's got it's gone breakfast no i think ego just overrides that what about the next breakfast and the next breakfast and the next break and it's not responsible not to worry
Speaker 2yeah i'd have to let go of all the whole the whole paradigm of planning for
Speaker 1only if you want peace yeah if you want peace you know what you want all that other stuff so then you'll have peace oh you're going to take you're going to take with you what you got now a state of mind it's never enough you can't just have a bed you can't just relax in it
Speaker 2then you really have to live on the edge of like maybe i'm going to lose everything all the time yeah
Speaker 1yeah well you're gonna yeah you're gonna take it with you no matter how far you go you take what you you take what you got from here there it's a sleepness it just grabs all the creativity in you that's for sure ego will own it all i don't have a purpose i do have a purpose okay you just did this wake up that's your purpose you just did that with your tongue wake up that's your purpose you just smile watch out you're that you got to be careful with those smiles it overrides ego
Speaker 3i don't understand what to do with this
Speaker 1you're doing it you just held your hand on your face and then you shook your head and then you saw terror and it brought you to tears i don't i you know this could sound crazy to you and a lot of people out there but when i opened my eyes this morning i dared to be present
Speaker 3yeah it takes a lot of guts
Speaker 1oh yeah until you get the hang of it
Speaker 2it feels like really irresponsible like i'm not
Speaker 1well how dare you lay in bed get up walk to the bathroom and brush your teeth we really think that you know that terror is the driver it blocks out creativity and when you do something creative comes to you it just like a tidal wave the ego will just wipe it out with fear okay honey i just really really really have a lot of experience here and i hope it helps us to continue let's look at number two okay so did you write on number two what do you want this morning as you lay in bed
Speaker 2i want adam to come into more motivation and make things happen um in a career
Speaker 1so i want me adam i want me to come into more motivation and make things happen in a career so you want to be more motivated is it true yes be there now in bed if you move from there you're not doing this work you have to anchor in one situation be there now you want you to be more motivated is it true
Speaker 3yes
Speaker 1now notice how you react what happens when you think the thought i want to be more motivated
Speaker 3it's it's self-loving
Speaker 1yeah now that can only happen precious that can only happen when you when the ego is doing its past play it shows you the past and it doesn't show you the past and it shows you the past and it doesn't show it doesn't show you the good things in your past it doesn't show you your accomplishments it shows you your failures yeah that's how you know you're attached to the ego and what is the result as you watch it it is depression i want to be more motivated yeah now look at the future that was going on in your head as you saw that past those failures
Speaker 2yeah it's just a really gloomy future and it's it's just it's a future of nothing and it's a future it's like a dystopian um outlook on my life basically okay so adam look what's going on past failure future failure terror
Speaker 1because the future takes you there goes your house yeah there go the people that respect you they don't even want to know you right i mean that's that's that's what the ego is
Speaker 2offering up i'm not guessing here yeah and family members like how judgmental they would be if I if I just didn't get it together now you know what you know that kind of fear now you know
Speaker 1why people lie cheat steal to avoid that stuff that kind of terror yeah so later on I want you to sit in this and watch so you can watch your identities when you believe that's you that ego play of the past the ego play of the future when you see that as anything more than imagination as you lay in bed that's what you lay in bed with false false false false meaning the not now the not now okay so without that not now not now yeah who are you as you lay in bed without the thought I want me to be more motivated
Speaker 2yeah who are you as you lay in bed without the thought I want me to be more motivated and make things happen in existence it's really simple it's you just hear I would hear the room like I'd hear the silence of the room be probably very graceful and and relaxed without the chatter there's just moment to moment yeah the chatter in the movie probably a lot of silence
Speaker 1without the chatter there's just moment to moment yeah the chatter in the movie probably a lot of silence
Speaker 2without the chatter there's just moment to moment yeah the chatter in the movie probably a lot of silence without the chatter there's just moment to moment yeah the chatter in the movie probably a lot of silence without the chatter there's just moment to moment yeah the chatter in the movie probably a lot of silence without the chatter there's just moment to moment yeah the chatter in the movie probably a lot of silence
Speaker 1without the chatter there's just moment to moment yeah the chatter in the movie probably a lot of silence without the chatter there's just moment to moment yeah the chatter in the movie probably a lot of silence so be there and test it just relax into what you couldn't relax just relax into what you couldn't relax just relax into what you couldn't relax into them now notice it gets up it walks to the now notice it gets up it walks to the now notice it gets up it walks to the bathroom is it okay bathroom is it okay
Speaker 4bathroom is it okay totally totally
Speaker 1totally brushes its teeth brushes its teeth
Speaker 2brushes its teeth then it goes and has breakfast
Speaker 1then it goes and has breakfast then it goes and has breakfast yeah yeah yeah and i'll tell you what you may not and i'll tell you what you may not and i'll tell you what you may not understand but understand but you can relate to this Adam in that peace in that clarity in that at-homeness is where creativity is born and where it makes sense and it's not this wild thing it's just brush your teeth make the call and through the email it's or not just enjoy breakfast
Speaker 2is there a planning for the future inspiration
Speaker 1and inspiration for me is just it's ignition it's wisdom that can finally get through the world and it's just it's a way to get through the world and it's just it's a way to get through the world and it's just it's a way to get through the world and it's just it's a way to get through the world and it's just it's a way to get through the world and it's just it's a way to get through the world and it's just it's a way to get through the world and it's just it's a way to get through the world and it's just it's a way to get through the world and it's just it's a way to get through the world and it's just it's a way to get through the world and it's just it's a way to get through the world and it's just it's a way to get through
Speaker 2the world and it's just it's a way to get through the world and it's just it's a way to get through the world and it's just it's a way to get through
Speaker 1the world and it's just it's a way to get through the world and it's just it's a way to get through
Speaker 2the world and it's just it's a way to get through
Speaker 1the world and it's just it's a way to get through the world and it's just it's a way to get through the world and it's just it's a way to get through
Speaker 2the world and it's just it's a way to get through yeah who says I'm even good at yeah who says I'm even good at yeah who says I'm even good at predicting the future who says that I predicting the future who says that I predicting the future who says that I have such a robust formula for predicting have such a robust formula for predicting have such a robust formula for predicting so then it's just it's just totally made so then it's just it's just totally made
Speaker 1so then it's just it's just totally made up BS a trance in the moment now notice up BS a trance in the moment now notice up BS a trance in the moment now notice the energy it takes to believe the the energy it takes to believe the the energy it takes to believe the thought I want me to believe the thought I want me to believe the thought I want me to believe the thought I want me to believe the thought I want me to believe the thought I want me to believe the thought I need to be more vote thought I need to be more vote thought I need to be more vote motivated and make things happen in a motivated and make things happen in a motivated and make things happen in a career notice the energy it takes as you career notice the energy it takes as you career notice the energy it takes as you lay in bed yes it kills me yeah it kills
Speaker 3lay in bed yes it kills me yeah it kills
Speaker 1lay in bed yes it kills me yeah it kills everything yep and that's when people everything yep and that's when people everything yep and that's when people start looking for stimulants start looking for stimulants start looking for stimulants diversions it's terrifying to live as a diversions it's terrifying to live as a diversions it's terrifying to live as a dentified falsely identified human being dentified falsely identified human being dentified falsely identified human being to be asleep in the dream as you lay in to be asleep in the dream as you lay in to be asleep in the dream as you lay in bed I want me to be more motivated and bed I want me to be more motivated and bed I want me to be more motivated and make things happen in a career okay make things happen in a career okay make things happen in a career okay here's where I go with it I listen here's where I go with it I listen here's where I go with it I listen closely my career is to know the closely my career is to know the closely my career is to know the difference between imagination and difference between imagination and difference between imagination and reality my career is reality my career is reality my career is if I can't just lay there in peace if I can't just lay there in peace if I can't just lay there in peace how can I take any more than that on how can I take any more than that on how can I take any more than that on my career is to get up walk to the bathroom, pee and brush my teeth.
Speaker 3That's doable.
Speaker 1I couldn't, I couldn't, I wouldn't be here talking to you if it weren't doable.
Speaker 2You wouldn't be here if you were doing more than that?
Speaker 1I wouldn't be able to. I'd be like you. As terrified as I lay in bed and in my mind, my house is gone, even though there I am. All the horror of the past, the terror of the future, the failure of the past. Oh, honey, honey, honey, honey.
Speaker 2I like that, that I can make that my career. Definitely would simplify things and it would probably.
Speaker 1Well, I can tell you I don't have any more than that. It's a big deal. It's a really big deal.
Speaker 2It's a complete. It's a complete shift. I mean, it's.
Speaker 1And when you can handle more, it's given.
Speaker 2I mean, you really have to let go of the fear of the future.
Speaker 1You don't have to. You just see that it's, it's, it's, it's imagination. The term ego, it's just, you're in its grasp.
Speaker 2Just see that it's imagination.
Speaker 1Yeah, well, it is whether you see it or not.
Speaker 2Yeah. And then just continue. Continue going through the day.
Speaker 1Yeah.
Speaker 2That's my career.
Speaker 1Yeah.
Speaker 2Just noticing. I make it the number one thing I could probably. I could probably do it.
Speaker 1Certainly works for me.
Speaker 2If you make it the number one thing and nothing else is number one, then.
Speaker 1Works for me. And then I want me to be more motivated and make things happen in a career. Okay. Okay. So someone says, help me. That's my career. Someone says, will you, whatever it is. And my answer is yes or no has nothing to do with them. It has everything to do with me. My, my response to the yes or no. And not in a selfish way.
Speaker 2And if there's nothing happening, you just sit there.
Speaker 1Unless it comes to me to do the dishes. And then I moved to that. It's a big deal. Then the phone rings. It's a big deal. Email comes through. It's a big deal.
Speaker 2Even though that's, isn't that imagination.
Speaker 1It doesn't matter. It's no different than. Then you did this morning. You got up. You walked to the bathroom. You had breakfast.
Speaker 2When the mind is the stimulator and it says, go do this. Go do the dishes. Isn't that illusion?
Speaker 1It doesn't say go do the dishes. I see it in my mind's eye. Just like you saw past future in bed. I see the dishes in my mind's eye. I'm not even necessarily in the room. And I just go to that. That's my career. I can handle it.
Speaker 2Even though it comes from that same place of imagination.
Speaker 1There's no harm there. There's only good. No one has to. Benefit. I benefit. You know, I have posted a thing recently. It was make friends with mediocrity. And that's my favorite. Not higher, not lower. Just doing the dishes.
Speaker 2Yeah. That's I can see how that's a definitely a piece of this.
Speaker 1And the energy to just get up. It's a big deal. Look at the energy it takes. How you use it up when you're believing these thoughts. It's a career change for sure.
Speaker 3Definitely a career change.
Speaker 1And the freer you get, the more you can handle. In other words, your career shifts. It's like I didn't. I didn't choose my career. It chose me. I'm just living as a yes. But I never move from. Can I just can I just from your position my own. Can I just wake up? Unburdened wake up without burden. And why am I happy? That's like a whole other ingredient that happens. Why am I happy? Because I'm not crazy anymore. I know how to be in peace. As I have. I lay here. And I'm not at war when it's time to get up. In other words, when the body gets up anyway. I'm not at war with.
Speaker 2Sounds like you're not perceiving threats and responding to them.
Speaker 1What threats?
Speaker 2Definitely nothing in the form. Definitely nothing there.
Speaker 1Let's look at three.
Speaker 2I shouldn't be so unmotivated, ambivalent, unfocused when it comes to producing.
Speaker 1Is that true that you shouldn't be so unmotivated when you consider what's going on in your head, you shouldn't be so unmotivated is it true look what's going on in your head as you lay there in that situation.
Speaker 2No, I'm living in dystopia, so why would I want to live in dystopia? Why would I want to get out of bed and engage with dystopia? I don't, I don't like the parameters of, of life, because it's just chaos. It's just, it's just catching up to, it's just catching up to something that's not good enough.
Speaker 1And all you've done is open your eyes in bed.
Speaker 2Yeah.
Speaker 1And there it is, and you haven't moved. Hill is a state. It's a state of mind.
Speaker 2This thought keeps coming up, like I could lose my house, I could lose my house, but I guess it's just another.
Speaker 1You've already lost your house. In your mind, your house is gone. It's just a matter of time. In your mind's eye as you lay in bed.
Speaker 2Yeah, it's true.
Speaker 1I mean, you're not even living in your house, you're in the future. Who needs a house for that? You shouldn't be so unmotivated as you lay there. Is it true?
Speaker 3I shouldn't be so unmotivated.
Speaker 2I should be, it makes sense. So it's, it's not true. No.
Speaker 1Yeah. You're under the spell of the ego past the failure, future, the failure and worse. Who would you be without this thought? Now, all of you out there, this is not about getting rid of the thought. It's about you just noticing the cause of your suffering, the difference between reality and ego. Who would you be without the thought? I shouldn't be so unmotivated.
Speaker 2Again, I'd just be a body lying on a bed in a room.
Speaker 1Okay. So, so, so, so be there now. Look up at the ceiling, look to the left, look to the right. Are you in any danger whatsoever?
Speaker 4Definitely not. No.
Speaker 1And look at the support in the room, the mattress, the sheets, the pillow, the walls, the ceiling, the pictures on the wall, the, the skin, the skin on your, your body, the blood running so fast. Perfectly through it. Look, just be there now without your story. Get in touch.
Speaker 3Yeah.
Speaker 1See, that's the world I live in. There's no danger. Basically, it's heaven.
Speaker 2You just really have to let go of like your plans. I mean, you're saying you don't have to, you just have to know the difference between imagination and reality.
Speaker 1Well, I can tell you it was, um, I saw that so clearly, undeniably, and it never shifted to anything less. And I did these worksheets. I invented them. I did them every morning. Mind on paper.
Speaker 4Yeah.
Speaker 1No one showed me how. I had to take. Hell from my head, put it on paper and face it had to know what was true and what was false. Considering what, what you're thinking and believing I should be, I should be unmotivated. Absolutely. Look what was going on your head. You should be continue.
Speaker 2I should be unmotivated, ambivalent, unfocused. when it comes to protecting
Speaker 1an income yeah considering what's going on in my head yeah look at yeah look at the company
Speaker 2you're keeping yeah that seems like a very plausible cause and effect it's only
Speaker 1it's just waking up to reality no more than that it's just no more no less than that
Speaker 2did you have a tremendous fear like something could happen at any moment
Speaker 1oh that belongs on paper sweetheart yeah i see that and i was i was not guessing and i was willing to die it couldn't be worse than laying in bed with a mind like the one you're describing
Speaker 2that's hell i do i i know that you had to be in bed for 10 years so well off and on so well off and on you had to be in bed for 10 years so well off and on
Speaker 1so well off and on for 10 years just terrified of of it was not fun
Speaker 2so is that is that par for the course like i'm not at that point i mean i guess i am
Speaker 1that's that's um that's um is that the ocean that everyone has to cross i don't honey i don't know i mean no i relate to to um to yours i would hope that anyone sitting in this with us never has to go as deeply into it as as i have or i imagine that you have it's terrifying to be in that place you're describing
Speaker 2it's hard to do it like to my wife like
Speaker 1yeah notice how you treat her when you believe the thought yeah notice how you treat her when you believe the thought not enough it's happening financially not enough it's happening financially
Speaker 4not enough it's happening financially yeah yeah
Speaker 1yeah and notice how you react if she approaches and notice how you react if she approaches and notice how you react if she approaches you with it you with it you with it so sweetheart um let's turn number three so sweetheart um let's turn number three so sweetheart um let's turn number three completely around in that situation completely around in that situation completely around in that situation when i look at what i was thinking and when i look at what i was thinking and when i look at what i was thinking and believing believing believing i should be in that situation when i
Speaker 2i should be in that situation when i i should be in that situation when i consider what i'm consider what i'm consider what i'm thinking and believing i should be so thinking and believing i should be so thinking and believing i should be so unmotivated ambivalent unfocused unmotivated ambivalent unfocused unmotivated ambivalent unfocused when it comes to producing an income when it comes to producing an income when it comes to producing an income considering what i was what i'm thinking considering what i was what i'm thinking considering what i was what i'm thinking and believing and believing
Speaker 1and believing it's like the ego offers it up and you it's like the ego offers it up and you it's like the ego offers it up and you believe it believe it believe it as opposed to the ego offers it up and as opposed to the ego offers it up and as opposed to the ego offers it up and you're awake to the dream you're awake to the dream
Speaker 2you're awake to the dream yeah it's like either you live in hell yeah it's like either you live in hell yeah it's like either you live in hell or you live in heaven it seems like or you live in heaven it seems like or you live in heaven it seems like there's no in between there's no in between
Speaker 1there's no in between you know the in between would be you know the in between would be you know the in between would be in earth school in earth school in earth school something coming at you to test you something coming at you to test you something coming at you to test you like like like some some idea the ego offers up to some some idea the ego offers up to some some idea the ego offers up to test you test you test you this is earth school and it's not done this is earth school and it's not done this is earth school and it's not done until it's done until it's done until it's done and i would never say that i am done and i would never say that i am done and i would never say that i am done how could i i don't live in the future how could i i don't live in the future how could i i don't live in the future i don't know but what i can tell you is i don't know but what i can tell you is i don't know but what i can tell you is i'm open i'm fearlessly open i'm fearlessly open i'm fearlessly open as far as i know i'm fearlessly open as far as i know i'm fearlessly open as far as i know i'm fearlessly open but i'm in earth school but i'm in earth school
Speaker 2but i'm in earth school yes you have no idea yes you have no idea but i don't either so all i know is if
Speaker 1but i don't either so all i know is if but i don't either so all i know is if it's it's um if if it's not kind it's um if if it's not kind it's um if if it's not kind it's up for inquiry if it's not good if it's up for inquiry if it's not good if it's up for inquiry if it's not good if it's not kind if it's not benign if it's not kind if it's not benign if it's not kind if it's not benign if it's if it's anything less than that it's if it's anything less than that it's if it's anything less than that then then then it's got to be imagination the eagles it's got to be imagination the eagles it's got to be imagination the eagles play play play and imagination is everything you know i and imagination is everything you know i and imagination is everything you know i i can i can i can oh oh oh it's like i can imagine it's like i can imagine it's like i can imagine the world but that doesn't make it so the world but that doesn't make it so the world but that doesn't make it so imagine the world of past future like imagine the world of past future like imagine the world of past future like you you you as you lay in bed this morning yeah as you lay in bed this morning yeah as you lay in bed this morning yeah let's look at four let's look at four
Speaker 2let's look at four i need me to get it together and build i need me to get it together and build i need me to get it together and build out a more robust financial future out a more robust financial future
Speaker 1out a more robust financial future okay as you lay in bed anchor there okay as you lay in bed anchor there okay as you lay in bed anchor there is it true is it true is it true that for you to be happy that for you to be happy that for you to be happy you need to get it together and build you need to get it together and build you need to get it together and build out a more robust financial future can out a more robust financial future can out a more robust financial future can you really know that that's true you really know that that's true you really know that that's true can i really know that it's true as you can i really know that it's true as you can i really know that it's true as you lay in bed notice how you react the lay in bed notice how you react the lay in bed notice how you react the ego's play of past future ego's play of past future ego's play of past future can you really know that any of that's can you really know that any of that's can you really know that any of that's true true true look how convincing it is see you in look how convincing it is see you in look how convincing it is see you in the past the past the past failing failing failing is that you or imagination know the is that you or imagination know the is that you or imagination know the difference difference difference is that you or imagination as you lay in is that you or imagination as you lay in is that you or imagination as you lay in bed bed
Speaker 2bed it's not me laying in bed so it's not me laying in bed so it's it's definitely an image it's images it's it's definitely an image it's images it's it's definitely an image it's images in my mind in my mind in my mind yeah and then this future this idea of yeah and then this future this idea of yeah and then this future this idea of the future the future the future is is images that are stitched is is images that are stitched is is images that are stitched together together together about how i might feel better so can i about how i might feel better so can i about how i might feel better so can i really know it's really know it's really know it's true that that i have to do this true that that i have to do this true that that i have to do this in order to be happy i don't know that that will have that
Speaker 3i don't know that that will have that i don't know that that will have that that will make me happy so no that that will make me happy so no
Speaker 1that that will make me happy so no so who would you be without the thought i so who would you be without the thought i so who would you be without the thought i need me to get it together and build need me to get it together and build need me to get it together and build out a more robust financial future out a more robust financial future out a more robust financial future imagine your life without it yeah just
Speaker 2imagine your life without it yeah just imagine your life without it yeah just be it would just be back to that be it would just be back to that be it would just be back to that mediocre silence in the room it'd be mediocre silence in the room it'd be mediocre silence in the room it'd be very very very bland i don't know i'm imagining but bland i don't know i'm imagining but bland i don't know i'm imagining but um without that um without that um without that again i'd just be laying there again i'd just be laying there again i'd just be laying there i wouldn't know what's going to happen i wouldn't know what's going to happen i wouldn't know what's going to happen i would just be there experiencing i would just be there experiencing i would just be there experiencing the room and i'd probably event i'd the room and i'd probably event i'd the room and i'd probably event i'd probably get up and go to the bathroom probably get up and go to the bathroom
Speaker 1probably get up and go to the bathroom yeah but if you lay there don't miss it yeah but if you lay there don't miss it yeah but if you lay there don't miss it it's a state of grace it's a state of grace it's a state of grace oh my god your skin i mean oh my god your skin i mean oh my god your skin i mean this is life is a miracle this is life is a miracle
Speaker 2this is life is a miracle if you're not obsessed with the future if you're not obsessed with the future if you're not obsessed with the future only only
Speaker 1only the present there's nothing more the present there's nothing more the present there's nothing more exciting when i say i love life that's exciting when i say i love life that's exciting when i say i love life that's what i'm talking about what i'm talking about
Speaker 2what i'm talking about the mediocrity thing is for sure
Speaker 1the mediocrity thing is for sure the mediocrity thing is for sure something something something bit me bit me bit me three or four days ago on my on my arm here fascinated me and the whole thing just it started like the red like some kind of infection going on and fascinated me was amazing you know you want all those things and all that security so you don't have to worry but you can have that now and it's practice for those of you that um want more yeah i think i'm
Speaker 2crying because i'm just so shocked at how wrong i am that's pretty major when i from where i come
Speaker 1from and i'm like oh my god this is the worst thing that's ever happened to me
Speaker 2my life did this it flipped flipped i can tell that that's what it takes is like a completely
Speaker 1completely different way of looking at everything it's a practice it's a practice in stillness identify the cause of our suffering you've done that it's on this through six that we're questioning and then to meditate in it so for me to be happy turn it
Speaker 2around i don't need me i don't need me to get it together and build out a more robust financial
Speaker 1future so so what what does that mean to you when you um when you contemplate that turnaround
Speaker 2it means a lot of uncertainty it means like i i just a picture of this kind of black experience where i don't know what's going to happen i don't need me to get it together and build a more robust financial future so i have no idea what's going to happen well welcome to the rest
Speaker 1of the world no one does yeah so that's uh that's pretty wise to understand that to really get it rather than let the ego convince you that if you don't do what you can't do you're
Speaker 2going to be a failure and yeah it's just so crazy to assume that i that if i hold on to this belief then i do know what's going to happen in the future or or i am confident about the future like lenza's false sense of confidence i don't need me to get it together and build out a more robust financial future yeah i mean there i can see the worksheets that come up like about being responsible isn't that
Speaker 1irresponsible and i'll have to question that yes honey boy i think i think you've got this thing - It's nothing more than that. I have nothing more than that.
Speaker 2- You're traveling light.
Speaker 1- I'm traveling really light.
Speaker 2- You're traveling really light. - Yeah. - Really light. Yeah.
Speaker 1- You know the expression, who do I think I am? I don't bother. I just leave that to other people to determine. I would bother if I needed to. So far, so good.
Speaker 3- You don't know who you are.
Speaker 1- For me to be happy, I don't need me to get it together.
Speaker 3- I don't need me to.
Speaker 1- And I don't need me to build out a more robust financial future. I need to lay here in peace this morning and get it together. Know the difference between what is real and what is not.
Speaker 2- Yeah, I need me to lay in bed, get it together by just laying there and not being totally consumed by my imagination.
Speaker 1- Not be totally consumed by the ego.
Speaker 2- And that's accomplished through questioning.
Speaker 1- The imagination, it is, when you're just at peace, in bed like that, a kind of creativity has room to just penetrate and just, that's, there's no doubt about it. There's nothing to stop you. And anything that would stop you would enhance the process, not take away from it. Let's look at five.
Speaker 2- I am unmotivated, stubborn, lazy, sedentary, direct. Directionless, and a loser.
Speaker 1- So you're unmotivated.
Speaker 4- Yeah.
Speaker 1- Without your story, without the thought, I'm going to get up, didn't you just get up? All this stuff, I need to produce income, I need to go, didn't you just get up?
Speaker 2- Yeah, yeah, that doesn't, that doesn't make the cut of what the ego is. What the ego is wanting. That's not, that goes back to the mediocrity thing though. 'Cause like, how do you define unmotivated? You're saying you got up, so you're motivated.
Speaker 1- I can't even say I was motivated. I can say I got up. - I got up. - But I understand what that I is. It's not personal. - I don't know what that means yet. - Yeah. - Or do I have to take credit for everything? So just be there now. Did you have the thought, I think I'll get up? Or did you just get up?
Speaker 2- Well, sometimes I have the thought, like, all right, I've got to get up. Let's get up. And then my body gets up.
Speaker 1- Okay, so drop the story.
Speaker 2- Yeah, without those thoughts.
Speaker 1- Did you tell each footstep what to do?
Speaker 2- No.
Speaker 1- So in that situation, I am unmotivated?
Speaker 2- Stubborn, lazy, sedentary, directionless, a loser.
Speaker 1- So let's see what is as true or truer in that situation. My thoughts, my thinking is?
Speaker 2- My thinking is unmotivated, stubborn, lazy, sedentary, directionless, a loser. - Your thinking is?
Speaker 1- Yeah.
Speaker 2- The images, the being consumed with the future, that paradigm is unmotivated, stubborn, lazy, sedentary, directionless, a loser, losing.
Speaker 1- Yeah, and all the images that go with it. Like the images are nothing without the thoughts you put onto the images. - Yeah. - The images that happen in your head. And the thoughts are nothing without the images that those two give it apparent life, but it's not life, it's imagination, it's the ego's play.
Speaker 3- It's a system. - Yeah, yeah. - It's a system.
Speaker 1- And its job is to put you to sleep. That's its job. That's why I say this work is, it's a daily practice.
Speaker 2Until you, it seems like there's maybe like a breakthrough point or something, or is there just, or you just don't even know that.
Speaker 1- I just, breakthrough for me is what we're looking at it. You know, to me, like you're breaking through, you're seeing things that you haven't, you're noticing things that you haven't noticed before. Like the difference between, you and imagination, you and the imagined you. I've never seen me. Like I, I've never seen me.
Speaker 3- You don't know who you are.
Speaker 1- Well, it's, it's, it's, it's, I am a fiction. I'll just say it like I'm a fiction of my own imagination. So when the mind matches the nature of what's beautiful, the physical body is not it. Well, it is and it isn't. In earth school, it is. It's to be at peace with. So turned around, I am unmotivated. I am motivated.
Speaker 3- I am motivated, open-minded. I am active. I have a direction, a new career, a winner. If I.
Speaker 1- Just notice the difference between what's real and what's not.
Speaker 3- Yeah.
Speaker 1- As you lay in bed and, and all of you, you know, and, and for example, tomorrow morning in time, when you wake up, notice, did you wake you up? And notice when you wake up, are you thinking you? Or are you being thought? And then notice, try to try, for example, to lay in bed and notice something moves you. Something, something moves you. And then your ego will take credit for it. So who would you be without your story? There is a miracle happening here. And I'm, my words, I wish I could do better, but this is what's needed. It's the best I can do. This, this earth school is, it's wonderful once you get the hang of it. Let's look at sex.
Speaker 2- I don't ever want to be flattered. I'm floundering ambivalently again.
Speaker 1- I'm willing to.
Speaker 2- I'm willing to be floundering. I'm willing to flounder ambivalently again.
Speaker 1- And I look forward to.
Speaker 2- I look forward to floundering ambivalently again.
Speaker 1- Yeah. So that you can identify what you're thinking and believing. Fill in, you know, answer those six questions on the worksheet and, um, sit in the practice of what only you can give you and you can set you free of the very thing the ego offers up in earth school for you to wake up to. You know, this is a, this is a crazy thing. Like when I say, have you ever seen a horse? You saw an image of a horse, but for all you know, there are no horses in the world. Only the world of your own imagination.
Speaker 3- Yeah.
Speaker 1- And no one put a horse in your head. It was a happening. You didn't, you didn't think, I think I'll think of a horse now. You didn't do it. It's the ego's attempted identification. I, I know what a horse looks like.
Speaker 4- Yeah.
Speaker 1- There are horses in the world. No proof other than the imagination. And then when you see what you think is a real horse, you wouldn't know what it was if you weren't seeing it through the eyes of a past. Thank you, Adam.
Speaker 3- Thank you.
Speaker 1- Thank you very much. - It's a practice again. I sat in it every morning, sometimes more. Identity is worth questioning. Identity, meaning I, I think, I believe. You know, what am I thinking and believing? Well, thank you for being our teacher. It's been quite a process. I throw a lot in, and it's nothing you couldn't find on your own without me. If you sit in the practice, I'm only pointing to what's there and what isn't as we sit in this together. Thank you for listening. Thank you for taking it in. Thank you for a kinder world. I love that you joined me live. Every Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday from 9 to 10 a.m. Pacific time at HomeWithBK.com. Join me there live. Let's do the work.
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